This is very hard for me to admit...

This is very hard for me to admit...

I knew I was in a bad place, but I didn't want to admit how lost I actually am these days. I know so many of you understand this feeling. I finally sought some help professionally...and now I need you guys to help keep me accountable.

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1. BrigetteLWMyJourney Called Life: JoshuaDTV I am 32 year's old and I have been watching you for years my daughter got me into watching you and I mourning the loss of My Marriage as well so I know EXACTLY what you are going through and I follow you on Twitter too My Twitter is bspittler94 and I will always ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS be routing for you JoshuaDTV xoxox ❤️💕💗
2. 000000000000: who is this???
3. Christina Long: Theres nothing wrong with you. Theres nothing wrong with getting help. Theres nothing wrong with being sad. Its okay to not be okay. Its good to feel your feelings. I so wish I could help you feel better. Breaks my heart to see you hurting so bad❤❤love you so much Josh.
4. Kaylan Martin: Becki Green that could also be the case we'll never really know I guess
5. Mikaela: We are here for you Josh! I am going through the same thing, we love you forever and always!
6. Kelly Santana: I think it's silly for anyone to think something's wrong with you for feeling what you feel. What I actually find strange is the other side of the "coin" & am always curiously confused about that. My reason for choosing to stick with you & continuing to follow you & your channel is because not only are you so fun to watch, but you're open and honest with your followers. You don't try to hide what you feel - and you shouldn't have to! And at times I believe that can be hard to find. I thank you for being so real and not trying to be someone/something you're not. I for one, appreciate that. And sometimes going through some tough, life-altering times, seeking/finding peace, and going through changes will be for the better. Here's to the growing and ever changing you, Josh! Hopeful for you 🙂
7. Sophia Mez: The amount of love I can give to this guy is unreal , I love him so much , he is such a beautiful soul 💗
8. Sophie Lister: Josh it's completely understandable that you feel that way, so happy that your getting help tho, don't worry it won't be like this forever, keep you chin up ❤️
9. Esmeralda Cano: Josh you are inspiring, so strong for not giving up on your happiness. I love you and you will get everything you deserve. Believe that it will be worth all the time and pain.
10. Marisa Sousa: this isnt easy what you're going thru.... and your not alone...please do what's best for you... we all want whats best for you... you will find peace... eventually.... therapy is great and you have taken the first step.... don't hate on yourself... your human!! and remember...ur amazing never forget why you started this.... thank you for always bein real and honest.... and YOU!!!
11. Mini Moose: You're amazing don't worry u are so wonderful 😓
12. Nsimba: I thought this was gonna be a coming out
13. Shelby Lynn: we are here 4 you
14. Lauren Meagher: Love you so much Josh. I am also going through a rough patch and seeing you talk about this is amazing that you are so open to sharing this so thank you so much. You are loved by so many. Doing this shows you have so much strength
15. Priscilla Proud: I have depression n it's been really hard for me for a while now. I know it's hard...I agree with a lot in ur video! Hang in there prayers!
16. ɮօʊռċɛ օʄʄ: First world country white privileged idiot who claims he's depressed while 3rd world country people get killed for being who they are, everyone
17. yumboom: gay?
18. Amber Rodriguez: she obviously did something... you're the only heartbroken one.. she's totally fine but you're the one actually affected... sad to see that she might've hurt such a good man like yourself.. karma will bite her in the ass just keep your head high and your heart tough again... out with the fakes and in with the real man
19. Melissa Sue: #truthbombs loved it
20. Hannah: You are such an awesome role model for people going through tough times and mental illness. I really admire your real, raw and authentic self you put out there in this video. I admire you for all that you are doing to take care of yourself, keep being you!
21. Adriana Ferrell: You have no idea how much I needed to see this! Thank you for posting your truth. Nothing is wrong with you. You are human and you are in pain. I wish you well on your journey and thank you for helping me on mine. 💓
22. beliverofmiracles: "I've lost a connection to everything in my world" a truer sentence has never been said about depression! That resonates with me on such an honest level. After years of IVF and pregnancy loss I started to disconnect from everything in my world. It took a lot to admit to myself that I needed help, I started therapy and medication and I'm able to tackle life again. The first and biggest step is getting help, once you've done that you've created a path towards change and positivity. Life SUCKS at time, but thankfully we live in a world that wants to help, and help is available. Josh you will be ok, YOU WILL BE!!
23. rmcbeigh: Its tough man... you feel like why was I not good enough... did I not do enough... there must be something wrong with me. And It is just not the case. Your a good guy Josh, we see how much thought you put into things, the message you share is a positive one. Life just sometimes gets us down. And I am the same way when I am sad I feel guilty for feeling sad. I feel like my sadness could not possibly matter to anyone. You do have people in your life that are there for you, And its difficult to reach out but it is worth doing. It was not until I realized that hey I did everything I could to make someone happy and it wasn't enough, and that is not MY loss, somewhere out there in this world is someone who will be happy with you just the way you are, that I was able to pull my self up dust my self off and move forward. And it is hard but you got this!!! hang in there.
24. scandalousjen: <3 <3 <3
25. Chelsea Murphy: Right.. I went to bed arguing over text with my boyfriend last night. I woke up to continue txting the argument.. im not bothered to use proper grammar, or punctuation. im well able. this is nowhere near what youre going through.. ik that. We finished txting with a break up. i was with him 2 mnths and 9 days.. my first bf. my first kiss. my first ... my first relationship.. and here i am. ice cream before noon. no proper grammar. crying. im not depressed.. far from it.. . ill get over it.. my comment compares in no way to what youre going thru.. to most; my comment is probs teenage nonsence.. not to me. your words are very kind and i seriously hope you feel better josh, no matter how long it takes, your supporters are here.. not just in the form of numbers.. but in prayers and thoughts❤❤❤
26. Skyler: I stumbled across your video... I have depression too. It's one of the hardest things, but knowing that the pain is temporary & that things will get better has always helped me. <3
27. caroline spencer: Josh there is nothing at all wrong with you. this is very normal after what you have gone through. I'd like to just say the other side is hurting just as much as you are but they are pushing it away and in the long run it is going to be way worse for them. you are being proactive in going to therapy and seeing you need help getting through this. I'm proud of you and I know you will eventually come through the other side. I've been where you are and I promise the sun is shinning to bright when you get back to you. keep your head up xoxo sending love
28. Gareth Jones: Josh nothing wrong with u, ur just been human, we all go thou stuff hang on in there mr. X
29. Katarina DomBek: I feel like I've lost the connection I used to have to myself, my happiness, and the things that bring me joy. It's been about a year since my last therapy session and I can't handle it alone anymore. Your video inspired me to go back to therapy. Thank you so much.
30. TAMMY R: Yes,,,a big hug😊and to all those people who do suffer depression and feel EMPTYNESS and alone,,,I pray for you all...I've been on celexa about yr now. It seems to be helping little...
31. Samantha Barbre: You've never been in love before
32. Jennifer Browning: Love you, Josh! I'm so sorry that you've had such a rough time and please don't apologize to anyone for feeling depressed or sad or angry. I had to learn that, too, and I was in that place for a very long time. You actually helped me come out of mine, and for you I am grateful. Life is too short to not take care of yourself, and I'm SO glad you are getting the help you deserve to improve your life! I wish I would have known to do the same. You are a good human being, Joshua! Keep making videos and we'll keep watching them! xo
33. Rosie: I just got out of the hospital because of depression. I've never bounced very high either.. but this time I'm determined to. We can all do this together Josh. I support you❤ also- it's okay to cry. It's healthy :) the most natural stress reliever
34. Julia Johnson: I comment this on every video. But I love you Josh, I really do.
35. Periwinkle Dee: Nothing is wrong with you, Josh. You've been through a huge, sad life change and that knocks us off kilter if we are honest with ourselves. Good for you for seeking help. That is a terrific proactive thing to do for yourself. Also, good for you feeling your feels. Please don't think you have to apologize for having negative feelings at times. This kind of stuff brings pain and anger and frustration. Burying those feelings so that you don't 'burden' family and friends and your fans will only allow them to fester. There's a difference between allowing yourself to feel them and getting bogged down in them. I wish you the very best going forward. You're a terrific, talented, kind young man and there will be brighter days ahead for you. The bummer part is you can't go over or around life's difficult parts...ya gotta go through it. I BELIEVE IN YOU. <3
36. sarutucigash: Mark Ross what do you mean Classic? I don't think that all Saturn returns are like that or should be like that. I agree that you feel some heaviness or you don't understand some things, but I don't want to believe it has to be that bad (going to have my Saturn return in half a year)
37. DeAnna Hohn: Mental health is such a journey, take your time and do what you need to do! We love you and are here for you through whatever!
38. Jennifer Ross: be real! real people like to see other real people. just because we are watching, doest mean we dont support you.
39. Jody and Matt: Whoever wins Josh's heart is going to be loved so hard.
40. AllysonsWonderland: I don't know if you'll see this but one thing I started to do was instead of saying "sorry" I started saying "thank you" Not "Sorry for being late" but "Thank you for your patience" Not "Sorry for ranting" but "Thanks for hearing me out" I don't know, I feel like it helps somehow.
41. Lindsey Audino: I feel bad. And I'm sorry that you felt bad even before it happened, I knew it was coming and I'm sorry for that. She's "happy" from what we see and very successful. I'm glad you're on your way to that place.
42. Emily Ragona: anyone notice when the dog pooped near the beginning
43. tlxna: *sees title "Oh! Finally. Josh's gonna come out of the closet! Yay!"
44. Stephanie Ramirez: Josh I wanna be honest , after everything that happened, I made a mistake of "picking a side" , but now that I watched this video, I find myself in a similar situation, going through a rough time , and seeing you tear up made me tear up because I feel your pain.. I'm sorry for your pain and we will learn and grow together bud ! ♥️
45. Frankey Unfiltered: Love the honesty. The best thing you can do is work on what you can control. Therapy is awesome. I was in an awful job where I was essentially emotionally abused for six months and fell into a pretty awful depression. I have gained about 20 pounds in those six months too. It's a vicious cycle. But I applied and applied and worked on what I could change:my job. I started a new job two months ago and I am so much happier. I still have things to work on to get out of my depression but I'm on the road to becoming myself again. Lots of love coming your way.
46. sleepy: Ashley Hiemstra If you are depressed, you can't take true happiness from a belief system. It is not healthy to depend so heavily on something like this. It's better to help people find happiness internally.
47. Serena D: Love all the way from Dubai!!!
48. Megan Miller: Remember, it's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain. :)
49. TheSUPERHAPPY1: Olga Pea I'd say both are a great idea :)
50. Matthew Liotine: <3
51. Mansi Bhatia: Okay I wish I could give Josh the warmest hug right now. I feel so bad because he's always made me feel good but I can't do anything. Just take the time you need ❤️
52. Elizabeth M: F your exwife just F her!!! You do you the best you can and stop feeling bad!!!!
53. beautybb3: i completely understand where you're coming from josh. i'm exactly like you and have the same feelings and thoughts about the exact same situation. i was with my boyfriend for 4 years and now we're not together anymore because it just got too bumpy and we couldn't find ways to compromise anymore and we couldn't make each other happy anymore but unfortunately we're one of those couples that didn't get to end on good terms which i wanted to happen and tried to get to happen but he didn't let it by him and his friend and new girlfriend all bullying me and harassing me online and in person. it's been extremely difficult for me but it's nice to see you're like me and knowing we're both getting through things together and you just have to stay true to yourself which is one thing i've learned. i love you no matter what your content is like because it's yours and you need to do what's best for you and what makes you happy. stay strong Josh, we can do this❤️❤️❤️💜💜💜
54. Samantha Joy: God, I wish I could hop down to LA just to have a sit-down conversation with you, man. Depression is hell, but you're nowhere near alone. Depression sponsors should be a thing, like in A.A.. Therapy is a great start! I've got Major Depressive Disorder, so psych drugs are mandatory for me, but they're definitely not for everyone. Don't be afraid to give 'em a shot, just for now. You probably won't need them forever, situational depression is very different than a baseline chemical misfiring, but you're no less depressed than I am. <3 <3 <3
55. Maleah Donaldson: OH SHIT, when he sat on that bench I knew it was about to get serious
56. BeautifulHealthyMom: Josh, therapy, Accupuncture, diet, exercise and reiki! Body mind and soul will make you feel complete! Hang in there, we all need to go through pain sometimes excruciating, in order to get to a better place and become our best selves ❤️
57. Janessa S: Love you Josh, you're such an awesome person and you will find your happiness soon 💜💜💜
58. Nathalie123: It you again!!!! YOU ARE BACK!! so crazy how obviouse it is when someone isn´t beeing true to himself, in this Video you are really YOU , it´s all in your eyes and you can even tell how this takes a weight off your shoulders! SO HAPPY FOR YOU to have started the first step of your own new life and finding a way to your happiness! You will get there, don´t you worrie :) Lots and lots of Support and happiness! AND even if your showing "downer" Videos, they are happier ..u know what i mean? because everyone is happy to see you beeing strong and honest!
59. Ella 123: kate giorgio me too
60. Maccy Jay: we love you. we're here for you. keep smiling dude. ❤
61. Bella Woodrow: you're so strong to do this!! i'm glad you're getting help and I really hope you get pulled out. everyone goes through dark times and we're all here for you❤️stay strong josh!!
62. jestem.mrówka. bigbitówka: Josh, you have right to feel sad and depressed. u went through a terrible breakup; divorce is a heartbreaking thing. I hope you will be able to find happines at the end. wish you all the best :)
63. JustDoWhitt: I've been watching you for years and years and this is the first time I've ever commented on a video. But I just want you to know that, from human to human, I know you'll be okay one day, and I'm excited for you. And if that's not soon, that's okay. And if the vlogs aren't happy, that's okay. You are being honest and real.. that's what I come here to watch. I don't watch videos of those that seem to skate over the real parts of their lives. I want to see this side. I'm so excited for you to turn things around and figure out how to move forward from here. It'll happen and I hope you never forget that while you're feeling this way. We're here for you in the meantime and I can't wait to watch your journey. Thank you, thank you, thank you for being real.
64. Laura Stark: Im praying for you❤ prayers and Happiness! from me to you🙏🏻❤
65. Ash: You're so strong, and this video will help so many people. You're not alone, Josh. We're here for you, and you don't need to pretend for us. We just want to support you xoxo
66. filipinobean: Nothing is wrong with you, everyone copes with life's obstacles differently than others. It gets really difficult before it gets better. I wish you the best of luck on your journey. One day you will wake up, and everything will feel bright again, and it is going to be at that time that you'll know that it is your new start on life. When that time comes, leave it all behind, move forward with your head and hope held high. You got this, you always have.
67. Graham Moore: Stay strong dude. One day at a time. Much love
68. clmcal 44: Seeing a psychologist is one of the best decisions I've made in my life and for myself. I hope you all the best Josh 💜 Lots of love from Ireland 🇮🇪
69. Crazy_ Person: Sharon Voden Maybe leave the diagnosis to his therapist and/or doctor. We have no idea what's going on behind the camera. No hate xx just be careful diagnosing people on the Internet
70. Denisse Mesones: You're probably not gonna see this but I mean this, if you need anything, feel free to message me. I know you don't know me but I'd love help you!! Xoxo
71. livingabovethe12th: stop comparing yourself "to the other side"....its ZERO reflection on you. you are the one making it a reflection on you. that show you started where you and your friends were just on it talking was cool....the one Steve Greene was on a few times and your sis....that show dev had potential and I also think it helped you...you "came alive" during some of those discussions.
72. Katherine Karen: This too shall pass. I am currently experiencing the same thing, hang in there Josh!
73. Macy R: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
74. ryleigh: Thank you for letting us in, Josh. We love you and will always be here to lift you 20 feet off the ground. Always.
75. Michelle Doyle: i dont. know why i came across your channel but please seek the Lord buddy true i am hurting als o ..but i pray & look to Jesus Lord of Lords
76. kinskins100: NOTHING is wrong with you. She refuses to admit something is wrong and it legit pisses me off. You're so strong. Never forget that.
77. Bilbobagins K: This is something No one is ever meant to deal with alone.
78. Brittany Quintana: 😘
79. Megan Moore: It's okay not to be okay. You deserve nothing but happiness in your life Josh. It will take time to heal and to find your true self again. Just know you have the best support system surrounding you and waiting for when you need them.
80. Helaanxo: I am in a similar situation with you and I can totally relate. It's heart breaking, but healing will take time and won't be easy. You seem like an amazing person and I'm sure you will find happiness very soon!😊
81. Cassy DeBacco: PREACH TO THE HEAVENS MY FRIEND !!!!!!!!!!! WE LOVE YOU AND ARE PULLING FOR YOU TO GET THROUGH THIS!!!!!!!
82. The Life Of Nikki Marie: I have been exactly where you are. You are NOT alone Josh. You have all of us to lean on. You can't go through it alone. You need a great support system! Be surrounded by positive, upbeat, happy, encouraging people who love you and are there for you. This is one of the biggest battles you will ever overcome. I know you don't know me from Adam but I am a great listener and always have a shoulder if you need to cry on. Please just take it day by day and don't rush yourself or hide these feelings because they will just come back up later on in life. We all love you Josh and remember, YOUR NOT ALONE! I will be praying for you sweetie and I know you will find your happily ever after ❤
83. shari diah: We all have struggles, you'll get through this, sending you hugs from Indonesia.
84. Marcus Ruckus: you've got a friend in me. u are so strong💪❤
85. Samantha Stewart: I've really really missed you Josh.. I know you've been going through so so much and I couldn't imagine.. but a couple years ago I was going through depression and I found you on YouTube. Your videos they made me laugh, smile. I remember so much about my life and how you made me smile. Let us do that for you. We all here for you! Forever. We love you to the moon and back and we're never going anywhere. You can count on us and I promise you that no matter what you're going through you will always have your diggle berry family. WE LOVE YOU JOSH!
86. lonelyjokers 4: There's nothing wrong with you. When you're while world comes crashing down on top of you and the people or person you love is able to put on a facade that everything is ok and seemingly walk away from you it's hard to get back up, it's hard to be ok, it's hard to smile especially when you're a very emotional and invest everything you have. Learn to love yourself don't be afraid to let others help you let them love you
87. Rinilin Jones: See you tomorrow!
88. Letierisch: i just want to give him a huge hug❤
89. katrina maniscalco: Best idea ever! We want to see your human, like us. We love you for being real Josh.
90. Sarah Wildy: Depression is really difficult to deal with, and it's not something that there is a quick fix for. You will have good days where you'll feel almost like yourself and then days that it's difficult to get out of bed. I can only imagine being in the public eye would make it more difficult. Josh, don't feel like you have to do anything. If making a daily video helps, then do that, but if you can't or have a day when you don't feel up to it don't feel guilty about it. I'm really glad that you have sought outside help.
91. Yooh2005: why do americans often go to therapists?
92. Lau Gabriel: Josh , pls remember is okey to feel npt okey. i have depresson for long time. pls remember u just need focus on your own self, dont care what happen to other side. Feel ur pain, wamna give u a big hug.
93. _ Soraya _: 2:40-2:46 Look at Shadow in the background! 😂😂😂 He's on the left Just wanted to add that I know this isn't really about the video
94. Maria Gutierrez: love you Josh! we all support you! never give up! I know this pain ur going through is just for right now later you will feel better! ur an amazing human being! its okay you feel like this, stay strong!❤
95. Tina NYC/NJ: Nobodies perfect. Remember that nobody everybody goes through something in life. It's how we handle it. You better not give on yourself 🌺 It's a bump in the road -Tina
96. Madilyn Bailey: I'm really proud of you josh!!
97. Cheyenne Evans: were here for you Josh I and so many others have been here from the beginning and will be here until the day you decide to stop youtube. i love you so much ❤❤ prayers going out for you everyday! you can do this nothing is wrong with you
98. A Shady Cat: This was a "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all" moment. People can't help how they feel, and telling them to just accept the situation doesn't do a damn thing. Don't you think he would move on with it if he could? Everyone processes things in different ways at different speeds. Why don't you work on yourself a little more before passing judgement onto others.
99. Meggy G808: yay jason and gabs! glad theyre finally tying the knot :)
100. Meggy G808: i think its ok to show when youre down... youre being authentic and real with us.
101. Brandi Spry: May God be with you during this difficult time. Lean on Him and He will help you. 🙏🏻
102. Calista Cartwright: We love you josh 💜💜
103. Amanda Wakuluk: I just want to hug you josh 😞
104. Jennifer Spilman: I've been in treatment for an eating disorder for 7 weeks. Today was my first day that I broke down and felt that I couldn't do this. Seeing this made me feel less alone. Less ashamed for needing help. So, thank you.
105. claudiothedrummer: Hey Joshua i actually just found out this video, and I'm experiencing the same thing.. My gf just broke up with me after so many time and stories we developed together, and your video made me feel as I'm not the only one going through something like this. Also stopped my life because of this feeling and I'm starting to feel is now time to move on and embrace the changes. Thank you for this
106. Kate Marie: Sending love ❤️❤️❤️
107. Kathy White: just hang in there baby steps is key
108. ConverseMommy: Poppy O 💝this fed my soul, bless u
109. Claudia Viana: Josh... It's awesome that your taking the next step to heeling yourself. Don't ever feel bad about how your feeling or how long it takes to heel. You lost something very important to you ( almost like a death) . You lost your marriage and possibly your best friend. You have every right to hurt, you also have every right to be happy. I hope that you wake one day and feel excited to ne alive, blessed that you have a loving family, and proud of the mountain that you have climbed. You deserve that 🙏🏻
110. Elle Eff: <3 <3 <3 Take care of yourself joshua!
111. Andrea Orozco: Keep your head up. You are worth it. You can make it through💓 we all love you
112. Missy Moo Moo: We are here for you Joshua. Always xx
113. Sarah Emilia: Joshua, the thing that I have missed most is seeing you..the authentic you. So if you get up everyday and pick up the camera and be you..that is more than enough. People want to connect to you and who you are and you are whatever that is ♥
114. mrivera902: you know man, my psychiatrist says it's okay to rant, to vent, to be sad, to cry, to fall, and get up, much love to you Josh
115. Gia Russo: I don't know what's pulling me out either.
116. Tiger9302: :((( joshhh
117. Sheryl Dallesandro: your very brave - good luck and keep your chin up. You will find your happiness again. Everyone will journey thru this growth with you, happy and calmness will find its way back into your heart and you will be a stronger person.
118. JJ: Time heals everything!take it easy!
119. Allie Faith: I hope u r ok☺ u have your fans to help😊
120. Jasmine Andrews: It is hard but you can get through this
121. Emily Alexandra: Good luck Josh, things will get better!
122. Douglas McCoy: I'm a psychiatrist. Been doing this a long time. Let me know if I can help. What you are feeling is not strange. You are human .
123. MsFancyLiving: I so badly want to give him a hug..
124. led 522: Don't apologize for being real. You owe us nothing. You have asked for help, so you're on the right track. This shows you are already a step ahead. That alone shows strength and courage. Good for you man! For what it's worth, I'm proud of you.
125. Ali Furnari: we are so much a like it's mind blowing
126. Josie Harris: I feel for you, I go through similar things. I would get home from school and just go sleep to get away from it and now that it is summer I have to force myself to get out of bed. I don't want to get out of bed and it's pretty rough. I want you to know you are not alone
127. Lauren: A fresh start does wonders. Get a break and relax, come back when you are feeling better and start over.
128. Monica J. Cheney: its alright Josh, you don't need to be happy all the time, you don't need to be perfect all the time. Don't feel guilty about being in pain, you are allowed to. I will always be here to support you and I love you for the strength it took to be this honest and candid. You're awesome ✌
129. Ellie Cantrix: Hey Josh. I'm really sorry for what you are going through. But I want to thank you for making this video. Mental health is something nobody wants to talk about, and yet it is so important. Nobody feels great all the time. In fact, most people go through at least one minor depression throughout their lifetime. And it's important to know during hard times like these that none of it is your fault. You are doing whatever you can. I know it's hard to admit that you need help. But it's not a sign of weakness. It's a sign of how long you have held on. It's bravery. It will get better. It's goint to be a difficult journey, but it will get better. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart.
130. La Dolce Spina: Josh. I love you. We love you. We are here for you. I suffer from severe depression, anxiety/panic disorder, and chronic pain. It is so SO hard for me to function every day, but I find a way to push through somehow. You will come out on top and so much stronger from all of this I PROMISE you.
131. hot tamale: just take one step at a time, get the support you need, there's no need to rush, you'll get out of it eventually just be honest to people about you feelings
132. Teresa Brito: follow your own words Josh...you only live once...i know what you are going through and it's normal to feel the way you have and for that my heart breaks for you but you have to dig deep and pick yourself up. Baby steps and one day you will be ok...you won't ever forget and there will always be a piece that's missing but trust me when I say it will get better. You deserve to be happy Josh...your a good man, you have a loving family, friends, and people out there that support your channel...you deserve to be happy Josh. You are moving in the right direction with therapy...keep at it Josh. we all wish you the best in this life. it's going to be ok, it's going to get better you have to trust it. I sincerely wish you the best in your journey. 💙
133. Caitlyn M: You need Jesus. God is the answer.
134. Lubna Hilal: i just wanna give him a big hug
135. Kj Tv: Amen that is so right 👍🏾👍🏾👍🏾👍🏾👍🏾 I'm sorry but I just have to agree on this one
136. Artist Formerly Known as Happy Pretzel: You are going through one of the worst things you could go through... especially when you can see the other side doesn't seem as changed by the horrible experience. You being sad is reasonable. It's the death of more than just your relationship but losing one of your best friends and someone you honestly wanted to spend your life with. I'm sure it isn't easy for the other side, they have bad days too, they choose not to show those and/or put on a face for the camera, in true actor style. You may be more of a heart on your sleeve type of person and that's nothing to be ashamed about. You had a beautiful season together and it ended colder than you would have ever believed, that's tragic. It's okay to not "be over it," means it was real. Take YOUR time and don't compare your sadness or happiness to others, you will only heal when you focus on yourself and stop focusing on how others are acting/reacting or what they think about you. You and julien are my favorite youtubers because your so incredibly real and raw, that's beautiful. Much love Josh.
137. LollyKatsss: ^agreed :)
138. Lily McDaniel: I'm crying
139. MichelleMarisol: AW MY BABY! being depressed is so hard. i have been through it and even if it's small, it changed everything. a lot of us understand. it's so hard to know what to do during these times. it's always good to find one or two people to be able to be with, and find someone to talk to. i'm so happy you found someone. we love you, thanks for sharing ❤️
140. Maya Horner: This is really brave of you josh ❤️❤️
141. Manon Farsy: We can all help each other in a way or another but sometimes we need to take some help for people who doesn't know who we are. Not being okay is a feeling that we all almost feel in our life.
142. Gina C.: Josh your the ONLY ONE in this situation reacting normally. We want you to be happy because you deserve it! Put yourself first.
143. MacieJae XoXo: He doesn't need a therapist he needs JOJO
144. Natanael O: I just remembered why I used to like you so much, you're so down to earth and sensitive, you desert a world of good things Josh!
145. Nicole D: keep your head up josh, talking about it helps. we love u 💙💙💙
146. Olga Pea: The help you need is from JESUS!! He loves you so much and life is 16382929473X better with Him! :) You won't need a therapist.
147. Jazz Mullz: it’s all gonna be okay. even though u feel terrible, it’s eventually going to get better! my mimi passed away when i was 5 and i went to church the sunday after her passing and my pastor told me to push-pray until something happens. i truly worked! just have faith in the Lord and everything will get better! I promise! Bless your heart ur in my prayers!
148. Landon R.: 🎈 Love you Josh. You have been a beacon of hope in my life for a while and I know that life seems hard right now. We are all hear for you and it's ok to open up and show how your feeling. We all want to help you rise with all the happiness that you have given us we hope to give it back to you.
149. _bleeding_rainbows_88: I'm suicidal right now, don't wanna go to a hospital, I'm in therapy but they don't care, searching for something to make me happy... going thru a divorce from my abusive wife (lesbian) and my heart hurts so much I don't wanna go on
150. Kanishka K.: Josh, you'll be alright. we love you so much and we're all here for you.
151. Albimarie: So proud of you Josh! You shouldn't live with all that bad things inside of you, without sharing it, with the ones who love you. Great start looking for a therapist, solution isn't always in our hands. You should look for Jesus(God) too, he will guide your life and get you out of that bad place. Is not easy but is possible.
152. Alexis Messina: Praying for you. ❤️
153. Kristina Casazza: This is inspiring!! New subscriber :)
154. nobody neow: I have depression
155. Mireya Munoz: Sending you positive vibes Joshua, take care.
156. obtainthisgrain :/: I just want to give you a happy comment that a little random: I just noticed how jealous I am of your eyes?... I know I'm weird... 😆 But I want you to know that everything will be ok, and us fans, your friends, and your family all support you.
157. M3RRY: 💗❤️you are loved, and it will pass. Feels like forever but it will pass. Today will soon be yesterday, tomorrow.
158. connie baldwin: Medication might be something to consider if you have not. I am not even saying that it is the answer to everything, it is not, but the way you described it, this has been a recurring theme, even in your marriage. It could help lift a cloud that is over you to allow you to begin to feel better and along with therapy, could be beneficial. Years and years ago I went through the same thing. I was separated from the man I married when I was 16, had 2 young children and found myself alone with just me and my kids. It was like a black cloud was over me from the time I opened my eyes, until the time I closed them again at night. I sought help and took medication, only for a short time. I, along with everyone below pray that you can find the peace and happiness that you deserve.
159. Faith DelliGatti: Sarah Jones yes, wonderful suggestion!
160. Damari Torres: You're human. We all struggle some more than others. You being open is incredibly brave and will hopefully show others it's okay to feel this way. Not everyday is perfect and life can be dark but sometimes we have to endure the worse to enjoy the times that are best. Looking forward to seeing you get to where you wanna be Josh. We got your back.
161. Ambie R: Josh just remember that people are meant to cross our path for a reason. There is something and someone better for u that will be a perfect fit for u. It might seem like there's no light at the end of the tunnel right now but I assure u that if u really want to get out of the funk u are in, u have to make a tremendous effort and not alienate people that love u from ur life. Stay positive and things will get better. Best wishes! ❤
162. Megan Collier: I greatly admire your honesty and willingness to seek help. That is the first step in healing. It will get better. You are worthy and deserve happiness and joy. Sending positive thoughts and vibes your way. 😊
163. Britney Schroader: It's ok to be sad and grieve, but remember all the people that are there that support you, your friends, family, and fans. Nothing lasts forever this too shall pass 🙂
164. JEM: it ok
165. Brit29 B: For the record i am so in love with you and all of your sincerity. Thank you for making videos like this to help so many people that feel so alone not feel as alone. I love you please never change who you are because who you are makes others get through the unbearable that you are trying to get through right now. Just thank you Josh really...
166. Ange Adkins: Thank you for being honest. I respect you for sharing. You are working through this in a healthy way and we are with you. You seem like such a kind and good person and you deserve to be happy.
167. Alejandra Miguel: You are human....I felt your pain it not easy nor will it be but just take things day by day your mind and heart needs to heal there is nothing wrong with that. Things will feel, like and seem worse before it will get better. Your happiness will cone back just give it time... hang in there...Much love
168. Amy Allred: I get it...I really do! I appreciate your realness and wish only good things for you :)
169. Madison b: he as been through so much and i honestly feel so bad. stay happy.
170. paige aument: Its ok to cry. Love you
171. Kara B: I'm sorry about the fact you are going through depression. I deal with anxiety. There is nothing wrong with feeling that way. I noticed you are subtly taking shots at your ex. Doing something like that isn't healthy. I know when I focused on people and started blaming, it made me feel worse. Also, don't make people take sides, that's just juvenile! You can get through this, just find something healthy to do that can help you. I started going on walks and that has helped me tremendously. You might need to reevaluate yourself to move forward. Trust me, taking shots at people because of your situation can make it seem worse, it's happened with me.
172. Alli Duntley: It genuinely breaks my heart seeing him like this he was just so freaking happy and this makes me so sad josh hang in there we all love you so much you have no idea how much your fans support you
173. Lee Jane 💜: Chloe k 😂Draw strength from YOU. No one else can fix it, let alone the Flying Spaghetti Monster 😂 faith is one thing, getting it fucking done is another. Don't use the crutch of religion, use mental health therapists and anything else useful for continual mental health.
174. Courtney's Cockpit: JOSHUA. sometimes people are sent to us for a reason or to teach us a lesson. Ask yourself what the reason was and know that no one is at fault, from what you've shown us anyway, and that there is a reason for everything. you have so much love and support. dont be afraid to reach out. Don't worry about us or anyone else. sorry about yourself. do all that makes you happy. exercise, eat good, go on adventures, create music, find a way to let those baby blues shine again!!!
175. Brooke Guven: 💜💜💜💜
176. ErBear Barkwell: Why are you hurting so much, but it seems like the other person isn't hurting at all? It sucks so hard!! I've been there. I'm going on 3 years separated and it still hurts to this day. Be a friggen downer! BE YOU! Don't feel bad about expressing yourself to your friends. They are there for you and love you. I'M SO EXCITED YOU ARE MAKING A VIDEO EVERYDAY! Miss you so much 💗 Twitter: @ErBear_me4u
177. Samantha Friend: i am looking forward to going through this road to happiness with joshua and to see him figure out whe he us again. I've been waiting for this to happen and I'm genuinly so hopeful for joshua. all healing takes time and i know I'll look back on these videos in however long it takes and be so happy for josh in the most understanding way. ive missed him and his videos and i know the people in his life are missing him too. heres to the start of this journey ♡
178. Frances Kelly: I'm dealing with a lot of mental illness and one of them is depression and self harm. Just wanna say you can get back to being you again just take it one day at a time. Depression is a horrible thing to deal with when you have a life to live and it's holding you back from everything you want to do. Do the opposite it wants you to do and fight against it c:
179. lovelife02: After my divorce I fell into a depression year after year I would bounce back just a little like you said, after about 7 years of this tug of war I went to medical marijuana and it was my quick fix, it was like it rewired my brain, I will be making a video soon about it too, because I think it could help someone else.
180. Kailey Smith: Love you Josh ❤️ hang in there....dogs are great therapists btw 🐶 they are always in your corner and we are too
181. bestgirlgab: Jacob Sed same
182. officialwillowtree81: "See you tomorrow" made my heart skip a beat. You're so loved, always remember that xxx
183. Madison Melancon: Love you Josh!
184. grace louise: i love you, with all of my heart. I will always support you. i hope you find true happiness soon. ❤️
185. Michelle Abreu: Brianna Daniels she moved to Canada because she had to write, produce and shoot Haters Back Off season 2
186. Tef: yup, you're depressed my friend, I've been depressed for a while now and I finally made the decision to look for a therapist a few months ago, best decision ever
187. Mark Said: It makes me happy even by just seeing you, Josh, on whatever kind of video you post. It doesn't matter to me whether it being a specific themed or a random one. Huge Hug! Thanks for the video, mate.
188. Savannah: Did anyone cry really bad when his voice broke😭😭😭😭 ilhsm💙 I just am excited for him to be happy again💝💙💝💙💝💙💝💙💝
189. Justine Hudson: 😘😘
190. Brittany Del: I really hope you meet someone amazing
191. Rosanne Rowse: @LandInBetween Thank you. & & yes, because (The Lord Is My Shepherd I Shall Not Want. He Maketh Me Lie down in green pastures) (God Will Never Leave You Nor Forsake You) (John 3:16 For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son, that who so ever believeth in him shall not parish but have *Ever lasting/ eternal* life) when my mother adopted me and my sister in 1999 (A year after her husband, our adopted dad died) Jim Rowse would have been my father, but a cattle shift on the soft shoulder that he parked at help an elementary school bus with a flat. His cattle in the truck decide to shift to one side truck rolled killed him. My brother Clark and I (he was 2 when dad was killed) but we both despise fathers day...... Since our Earthly father is gone. BUT once I started getting to know Jesus when I was older (as of getting to know my heavenly father 5 years ago) I've been very very close to God and he's saved me 4 times from (when I was a teen almost driven to a Juvinile Detentioin Center & he's saved me 3 times from going to Jail)
192. Hanna R: Dramatic
193. Sarah Olson: Sending a giant hug your way!
194. Bill O'Neil: You need Jesus bro
195. LL Love Pop: Currently navigating a dark spot in life. Just when I think I'm okay, I'm back to being not-okay. I can't handle one day at time and sometimes not even one step. One frikkin breath at a time. Just one breath. I care about you, Josh. "You're in my thoughts and prayers" sounds so trite and Christianese but when I say it, I mean it. Do what you gotta do, okay?
196. Andrew Silvas: what happened
197. Rosemary: Thank you, Josh, for this heart to heart video. Mental health is an important topic, and with your platform you can help so so many. Love xx
198. Rebecca Joshi: You seem like a strong person..hope everything goes all right...
199. peppermintjamie: I'm glad that you are seeking help. I'm happy that you aren't trying to handle this burden all on your own. Your first priority should be YOU. As they say, you can't pour from an empty vessel. And if people are complaining about you being different,....Well, they should be ashamed. Obviously, the kind of upheaval you are experiencing is,....so many words come to mind, but I'll simplify, HARD. This is not the type of thing someone gets over in a month. FOR PETE'S SAKE!!! Let the man be different! I love your videos. Please don't ever feel like you need to cater to us. Do what makes YOU happy. Do whatever speaks to your soul. If that's making collaboration videos with your friends, do it. Music videos? Vlogs? Make 'em. We are the lucky ones who get to experience what your talent and creativity have produced. And not one single fan has any right to make you feel poorly. Your health, physical or mental is FAR more important than our entertainment. I wish you the very best in all you do.
200. K Earl: Depression is a physiological disease just like diabetes. It is caused by a lack of serotonin in the brain. Some suffer from low levels of serotonin. It is NOT your fault. You are NOT crazy. You have a disease and the good news is, there is an easy treatment! I have suffered from depression and when I am on anti-depressants, especially Serotonin Uptake Inhibitor. It takes a few weeks to work, but if you are truly physiologically depressed. There is a true answer. I hope your therapist is a psychiatrist so she/he can prescribe meds and not a psychologist. Not that I have anything against psychologists, but sometimes you need a two pronged approach. Worry not my friend. I feel your pain. I am you. There is an answer. Believe it. You are loved by so many. You need to look after yourself. You are in my prayers.
201. Amethyst Amanda: There's nothing wrong with you, I've been on both sides of that coin. I've been completely devastated and unable to move on, and I've also gotten out of an unhappy relationship and was excited to move forward with my life. There is no right or wrong way to heal, just time and finding things to be grateful for.
202. Tori Bell: Remember sometimes you gotta go through the worst days, to have the best days of your life!
203. Anna Shegol: Its okay to be down and cry and be sad ❤ Dont cry please I'm crying too 😢😢
204. Grace Elainee: Stay Strong! I promise it will get better. you deserve happiness and it may take time but it will happen! people deal with things differently and what you see from the other side may look happy but that doesn't mean that there isn't struggle there. please look after yourself and stay strong! It gets better!
205. Roeh Aquatics: can we have a meet and greet where we all just collectively hug Josh ? :'(
206. Nicole: I am so srry u r going through this. I will send u good vibes and keep u in my prayers. U r a strong person and u can get thought this. Love ya Josh. 🙏🙏❤️❤️.
207. Sara Murtas: Yes!! Therapy will help you so much!! I am so happy for you. Everything happens for a reason and what happened in your life is not for you to forget and go back to who you were before, but for you to discover more of what you have always had within you, and the pain is for you to heal and grow. All that happened has always been within you and now thanks to the circumstances and pain caused by them you can actually see it and overcome it. I am so proud of you Josh!! Excited to see your journey :)
208. WhateverIsTrueASMR: La belle Et la bete That's awesome to hear! Keep up that faith gal ❤️ ❤️
209. Julie Jarrett: Jesus is your answer Josh! Please that's what's going to change your hold life!
210. Justine Taylor: living the life no, i meant she wasnt there for him because she put work first .-.
211. Brit Brats Corner: one thing you need to remember is its okay to not be okay sometimes. We all love you!
212. Ced B: Hey Josh. I haven't ever really watched your videos but I saw this in my sub box and thought I'd check it out. You are strong for making this video and I very much appreciate it being someone who has struggled with mental health issues & the stigma that surrounds it. Thank you for sharing
213. justjennabyrd: tip: watch a ton of thatcherjoe videos. i guarantee they will make you feel better☺️. there's nothing wrong with you. you're an awesome, kindhearted, sweet guy who is going through a lot and your fans are all here for you and going to be there for you through thick and thin. like i said, stay strong my dude🙌🏻✨💘
214. korbin wolfe: Its going to be ok I promise
215. Andrea: Relatable. One year out and still cry myself to sleep some nights seeing how happy my ex is without me. He was my whole life. I don't know who I am without him. It's like I'm living my life on pause... stay strong brother it will get better for all of us broken hearts. ❤️
216. Abby Serviss: Josh, you are such an amazing person! Everyone here loves you and wishes for the best for you! I believe one hundred percent that one day you will find someone, ether best friend or not, I know someone out there will come and take care of you, love you, and hug you when you're alone! You are very loved by everyone here on your channel!! There is nothing wrong with you, I can't get over how amazing you are and how many people you have helped over the years. I really hope that this state of depression disappears someday... please stay happy. We all love you! ❤️
217. Josie Sloth: I'm really sorry u feel this way but I'm sure she is struggling a lot too x
218. Victoria Panossian: Stay strong, Josh👍 I hope things get better for you
219. Sam Drinkel: Still needs money so he’ll make a video
220. Blah Blue: You sound like me.....Same issues, same manner of dealing with it....Same thing. :/ Subscribed.
221. janablang: Keziah Vanderpuye Looks like you were wrong. He’s happy now.
222. Erin Nunez: Keep it up Josh! It's hard to get through these hard times, but you can do it. I'm proud of you for trying!!
223. Zendeus: I feel bad for you because you can't let go but she let go so easily
224. Fin Bartram: pls stay strong Josh we love u pls for us dingleberries ure the best
225. Aayeeeatpork: Unfortunately, social media is laced w/ ppl's posed & happy photos. It's a blessing & a curse when going thru difficult times. Don't know what else to say. I struggle w/ it daily. I called FB, Fakebook at times.
226. Bekuh Garcia: Stay strong Josh, it does get better! You make so many people happy and you deserve to be happy. ❤
227. Jill: Is he gay I knew it I always knew it
228. Sarah van Os: I'm praying for you! God bless and comfort you xx
229. allisonmacd: I'm sorry you're hurting, and you've been hurting for such a long time. Thoughts. 1. Glad that you're doing therapy. It's one of the hardest things to start and the most difficult but amazing things once you're in it. It's okay not to be okay and it's so helpful to have an impartial 3rd party to help you work through the dark things. 2. It's pretty evident that the "other side of the coin" isn't nearly as shiny and happy as it appears. From what many people see from the outside, the fallout has seemed dysfunctional, repressed, disingenuous and desperate need of the kind of help you're seeking. Asking "why me?" ...I'm sure it's not actually just you. As per your nature, you seem to feel things really deeply, but allowing yourself to feel it is healthier in the grand scheme of things, I think. 3. Thank goodness for Shadow. There's nothing like a dog to give you unconditional love and force you to think of and care for someone other than yourself.
230. inlovewithJLT: Seeking help is so brave. Sharing it publicly is even more brave. You are an awe-inspiring person and what you're doing is important.
231. jenna miller: I can't imagine how you're feeling. I know we shouldn't pick sides, but I feel like I want too. I prefer you. It bugs me too how she seems to just act like nothing ever happened. It makes me think that maybe she wasn't who she had appeared to be. You deserve better. You deserve happiness. You're an AMAZING person, and whoever manages to capture your heart next will be a very lucky person. I wish you health, happiness, and love. Love yourself first. Good for you for seeking help, I have been there. I know it's hard to admit that you need help. So good for you! I will still be your fan, my husband and I enjoy your videos and think you are very talented.
232. LeahLuvv Anderson: Ryan Ripley It's not insensitive. We all have problems within us and we all at one point feel utterly hopeless. The One who brings hope is Jesus. He heals our hearts. He completely changes our lives. He is a good God. Very good.
233. omar rais: Josh, watch videos made by Noah Elkrief. it may help
234. Jeff Mullins: Most everyone who use facebook or youtube show only what they want people to see. We hide behind masks. Done that all my life until recently. That's part of the reason I despise "social media", it's not real (generally). Try to remember that the masks are a way to hide. Don't give the mask wearers too much power. In this video, you took off your mask. It's very very hard to do that. Thank you for taking the mask off today. Huggles
235. Melanie Herrera: LDShadowLady Fan 〈3 you are not helping.
236. Mal B500m: God loves you. Call out to him and find hope in his plan for you.
237. TIFFANY'S IslandMountainView: I glad He made this vid . Why ...He was so distant I thowt he moved on or tryed to But It was clear he dident.🏵Thank you for shearing Bless you 🏵
238. Jess Roman: Josh there is nothing wrong with feeling down even after a while. You had a vision of being with someone for the rest of your life. It's not easy to overcome that. I went through something like that, it's been almost a year and I still hurt and honestly think I will always hurt a little. Hope you find peace and comfort with the help of therapy.
239. Nikki D: This is how you make #BellLetsTalk day everyday
240. ZMakeUpLover: I've been here. I never saw a therapist, but I'm on medication and it's helped.
241. shan lowrey: Love you, Josh ❤️
242. TheRodrigo1555: Keep seeing a therapist Josh. The one-on-one is really valuable. Before I started therapy, I was way skeptical about it. But when I started, it was like bang! like a light bulb over my head. That insight is so valuable.
243. gilaaax3: You're an amazing human being and so real. Stay strong. You're so brave. This video touched me and I'm glad you are talking to someone. Love you dude!
244. Bethany Moore: sending so much love and prayer to you Josh ❤
245. O K: Please no josh!! BE HAPPY WE LOVE YOU 😱😯♥️♥️♥️♥️💖💖🤗🤗🤗
246. shooketh: he is the one who loved more. she is heartless.
247. Brittany Hempe: ❤️
248. Sara's Salon: I hope this gets better for you
249. Andrew A: No matter what happens, know you're a good person. It's easy to tear yourself down, but it's hard to build yourself up. You'll be ok. You're going to make it, excel and move up from here. Believe in you and you can do what others make you feel you can't. You're worth it. I know this may never reach you but I hope you scroll through your comments and see it. I know it feels like understanding you might be hard for people, but you're not alone. Again, you're 100% worth it.
250. Glutamate Sulphate: Lance The Pants when then he say this?
251. Claire Felipe: proud of you :))❤️
252. Brittany Paris: In MY OPINION I think it's very rude of him to say that everything is "perfect" on " the other side of the coin". We only see a few minutes of Colleen's life, so you can't say she's fine...
253. Gracie Catanese: what happened to him?
254. Harry Krinkle: +Or Moshe You keep spinning your wheels, and your arguments are no more convincing now than they were the first time. I'd just quit while I was ahead, I were you.
255. AiLess: You an I think a lot alike. Not in a good way either but I fought depression for 10 years: I was just in a bad place until I took myself out of that place. No one can help you but yourself. I had to admit to myself( like as you said having depression is nothing to be ashamed of) that nothing was wrong with me, this is who I am and I'm choosing to be happy. I had to go to therapy to learn to let go because I held on so hard for things. If I can get through 10 years of constant pain and sadness anyone and you can do it. I don't know you but I believe you can get out of any situation and I hope you do because it's awful and you shouldn't have to deal with it. I hope you get good inside and out soon❤️
256. Aplbaby: Thank you for making this. Depression has such a stigma so I really appreciate and admire you taking the time to talk about it. So much of social media is hiding what's really going on because "no one wants to see it" but I feel like that's what we need to see sometimes. For me it makes me feel like I'm less of an outcast. I love these one takes you do and I hope you do more of them. Thank you for being authentic and genuine!
257. La belle Et la bete: WhateverIsTrueASMR don't know either but still thank God
258. Millieee Dukee: I think you should get a job that makes you happy and find new friends that you'll see everyday at work ( just a suggestion) 🥇😍💛💛💛💚💚💚❤️❤️
259. Victoria Brown: ❤
260. Ashley _patd: I understand what your going through. Dont feel like your a problem. your really gonna have to take time for yourself. you are one of the most authentic youtuber ever. you're so inspirational. its gonna be tough, just keep fighting it, like I'm trying. thanks so much for what you do. ❤
261. Ruffdogg21: go back to the pharmacy and renew your prescription;)
262. Family Of Hope Vlogs: Josh. we lost our son to stage 4 cancer. We portray all emotions on our vlogs. We provide a realm of happiness and joy in spite of our depressions through our daily vlogs. Daily vlogging will help you so much. It's an outlet for me. and I find strength with our youtube family. Lean on the good comments. they will help you out. Hope to see you everyday! DEPRESSION IS REAL
263. Danish Lucid: You are strong Josh..
264. Sarah Laskowsky: instead of saying sorry, say thank you. "Thank you for listening." It transforms a negative into a positive. You've got this!
265. Kirsten CA: You'll get there ♥️
266. W Min: Josh i know it sounds stupid to hear that it will get better BUT it really does! I went throw a really really really bad time two years ago and it took me forever to find real happiness again but it came! So will it work out with u for sure! Love from the Netherlands
267. Psalm Peck: You're an amazing guy Josh, and I sincerely hope you find true happiness ❤
268. Lena R: Don't hesitate to show us when your not ok. Share your feelings, it helps some of us that are experienceing same stuff. Your videos don't have to be happy all the time. Your fans want to see you. We love you!
269. Becca Adams: Love you Josh!!!! ❤️❤️❤️
270. Jilly kline: i love you and God loves you. God heals hearts and He''s the only one who will ALWAYS be there!!
271. Phoebe !!!!!: I know you're hurting so so bad but don't give up because that's what people like you do you don't give up
272. Kaia Natelise: i love you so much joshua ❤️❤️❤️❤️
273. Ashley Akers: Sad to see you in this state!!! Depression is awful and in worse cases can take your life!! You have to fight this and be brave!! Don't ever stay indoors all day and have people around with you as often as possible!!! One day you will wake up and it won't hurt anymore!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
274. Mariana Barboza: wait the dog pooping @2:41 lol
275. britt amber: you're a very strong person josh and i know you can push through this. therapy helped me with my issues a lot and im so glad you took the step to get better. taking initiative is the hardest part. hang in there dude, you have a lot to smile about. you're talented, funny, nice, kind, and generous. if anybody can pull through a dark time, its you.
276. Taylor McClure: I know how scary it is to feel like the only option you have left is death. But please try to find things that make you remember that there is so much in this ridiculous world that is worth while! I know it's easier said than done, but once you find that thing, man does it feel incredible. One of the best things ever said to me by my therapist was that rock bottom is a solid foundation. And he was so right, cause there is only up from there. It doesn't feel like it, I totally know, but I'm 3 years past my attempt, and it really does get better.
277. Kimberly Norman: It's hard to find yourself again when put so much of yourself into another person, I can attest to that. I'm not trying to "take sides" or point a finger, only you two know exactly everything that went on in that time of each other's lives'. The only advice I can give you is to just give it all to God and let him take away your pain. It's the only way I could heal and find myself again. Don't expect overnight healing either. You invested a lot of time and of course it's going to take a lot of time to heal. One day at a time. I live by that motto. We all love you and we all support you. You're in my prayers Josh! ❤
278. pacrii: +1 for transparency. It's hard to watch videos with an elephant in the room. Good job man.
279. TAMMY R: That was so well said,,😊such beautiful words of wisdom.
280. Biksola: Josh I totally get wt u feel, Sometimes it is hard to fake happiness than to show sadness around the people you love, No body is gonna take care of you except yourself, I am proud of you bcoz u trying so hard to do well, Stop watching her vids, Cut any connection to the other side, Go to the gym or play any rough sport to get it out, You are going to be okay it is just need a little more time, You will find someone new who will take care of you this time.
281. Josh K: Sees the views Bet everyone thought this was a coming out video. 😅
282. Danyella Kaplan: i love you, you are strong and wonderful ❤️
283. Mersadies: Being in a position like this I can tell you things on the other side aren't as perfect as they seem and there is absolutely nothing wrong with having feelings you're a human being just like everybody else sometimes we break but you have so many people that will help put you together again never give up you're doing great❤️
284. AnEveningWithE: This is good, Josh. So good. Going to counseling, seeing someone who's entire purpose is to give you a safe space of support and healing, is so, so good. I am glad you are doing this. I imagine it must be such a difficult balance, especially in times like this, to have so much of your private life public, and to have so many people commenting on what they think you should or shouldn't do, et cetera, and to know that this is your job--but you also have to take care of yourself. It is not a small thing to admit that you are struggling, especially to an audience of a million people. Take pride in that, that you are here, you are present, and you recognize that you need and want help. You are capable. You will soar again. <3 Love from Atlanta.
285. Makenzie Inniss: Thank you so much Josh for sharing with us and it really does help. I am praying for you.
286. T Blair: Stay strong Josh. It will be okay. Don't worry be happy :) <3
287. jons43: What's making you hurt?
288. Laura G: It's perfectly ok to not be ok. I was married at 20 and then divorced around 25. I'm 39 now and I still grieve that loss sometimes. Find someone unbiased and outside the relationship to talk to, whether it's a therapist or you need psychiatric treatment. The kind of grief where you lose a spouse (regardless how they were lost) leaves you feeling like you have phantom limb syndrome. It's a physical feeling of loss. It takes a lot of work and time and the will to get up every day and keep moving forward to get past it. You can do this- you have a strong, beautiful spirit.
289. Charisse King: Lilly Grace That is exactly what I was going to put in the comment section.
290. Isela McIntosh: I love u Josh
291. Danielle Sciortino: You're an amazing human Josh. You'll get through this. Love you💛
292. Melissa Seng: Rena Ash yes!! Yes. Yes. Yes. I'm 42 and life happens to all of us. I'm working on myself at present, too. It's not anything to be ashamed of. You're helping YOU. We all got this!!
293. Emily Bergman: Poor guy :(
294. Julia Clough: I know this is a serious video but did anyone else see shadow shitting in the back at 2:42😂
295. Nallely Montoya: This hurts my heart . sending positive vibes Joshua . We love and support you 💕
296. K Rued: Please remember, "It gets better." I never thought I'd hear myself saying this, but it's true. Regardless of what ANY of you are struggling with, talk about it. Don't close yourself off! ❤️
297. Nogirl .whatsoever: you worry too much about how you present yourself to the public and that in itself could be a reason for depression. you dont have to be perfect. you dont have to be a role model because everyone takes what they recognize thenselves in others. you dont have to worry about being sad because sad is an equal part of you - the same as happy is. unfortunately, in todays society its bad to be sad because that obviously means somehigs wrong, but not being able to be sad is devastating. maybe thats the reason for depression. i struggle with it too because whenever i start crying i immediately stop but aftet some while i will get nightmares of that sad self reaching out to me in despair and even a while ago i started crying in my dream. but crying doesnt feel bad in itself the guilt feels bad. and its not good to feel guilty about your feelings whatever they are, because the soul feels what it feels. its not a question about it being acceptable or not. i have been through this healing process for years, maybe my whole life even. with a help from online healing site I started reflecting on my past and everything that made me uncomfortable - i wrote it down as a diary (in my phone) where no one could see it. it made me more free to express even the seemingly stupidest thoughts. but they are important, all of them. its very important to conversate with yourself. a friend is helpful too but not necessary. and it helps to have a place where no one is around and you can cry all you want. i dont have that; im still figuring out how to do it. anyway, wish you all the best josh. you dont have to be happy all the time and if you choose to share depressing stuff online, theres a public for that too. but i believe its better if you share them to yourselv in private so that you can be 100% honest and not worry about what others say. and there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. 🍀
298. Sammy Harris: There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. There is nothing wrong with being human. and nothing wrong with showing your true feelings and that your not okay right now. Im countinuing to pray for you that you get through this season of life
299. TBRTea Time: hey Josh, I just wanted to let you know that if you ever need to talk to anyone outside of your circle, you can DM me at TBRTeaTime on twitter. I'm not club Cally depressed either but I do go through bouts of depression and know what its like. I know you have no idea who I am, but I've been told I'm a good listener and give good advice, and I never blab personal information or secrets of those who come to me needing to let it all out. you are loved by many, and I'm sure that can be both humbling and intimidating. always keep fighting. your journey isn't over yet.
300. Fatima03: I totally understand josh I always say that I should take my own advice but I think wat is the most helpful thing to do surround yourself with friends and family who don't pity you but positive vibes all around
301. S0dap0pb0ttle: I'm so happy that you're seeking help. I had different mental health issues, and I started seeing my college therapist. I still feel like there is something wrong with me, but I fight every day to heal. I hope others see you as an example. Always keep fighting.
302. Alison Nikua: Some people can't even put that into words that they need help and don't feel ok. I completely understand and hope you feel better really soon xx
303. Jayne Karinova: You may never see this comment but thank you so much for being real, showing that it's okay to display vulnerability. As someone who is also going through a lot of issues and a relatively deep depression, it's so refreshing to hear other people being honest about their own issues... even though I don't wish said issues on anyone, it helps to not feel like the only one in the world going through it. The truth is that healing from anything isn't linear. There are usually relapses along with the progress. I, too, desperately want to finally get past that "progress plateau" and finally feel good again.
304. Ryann Schulz: I'm going through the same thing josh and I want to thank you for making this video to tell me that I'm not alone. WE LOVE YOU!!!!!! 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
305. Lauren Stackhouse: I 100% feel you when I am depressed I don't want to talk to anyone or be around anyone I just want to hide in my room & sleep. You will get through this though, I've been there ❤️
306. Cathy Williams: Josh we love you! ❤️ therapy is a good thing praying for you sweetie
307. Phenthip Manajitt: (*-* )a
308. Petra Gan: One day it will all be ok, I promise ❤️
309. Nathan Harper: Thanks for relating how it feels. It sucks! Some days I feel my head is above the water and sometimes it feels like I'm drowning. Talk to God. Invite Him into the pain to sit with you in those moments. Love Ya Dude and I am hoping you come out stronger than ever.
310. morgan valente: 💗💗
311. mackenzie: i am so sorry Josh its ok to be hurt sometimes we all go through it and i am so glad you found some help to help you get through this you are an awesome guy and you deserve to be happy again and get back up again. Gosh we hate seeing you hurt, ilysm good luck. <3
312. Mack Webster: I hope you get better and be more happy. Also, pets are such a great thing because they make everyone so happy and I can tell you love your dog so much! I think spending time with him will definitely bring your mood up! I speak from experience... The saying animals are mans best friend is true! :)
313. checkersssss9: I love this and can relate to this SO SO much. Thank you for being so open and honest. Therapy is often times looked at as "weak" but in all honesty it's such a strong and humbling thing to do! It really is amazing. ❤
314. Mira Janani Venkatesh: Aw Josh! we are with you always.. you got this... we love you...💓💓 you will find happiness again...
315. Patricia Parrish: You know my dr. once said divorce is like death. You feel like a piece of you has died. I respect your bravery in admitting you are still mourning that loss. There are those of us whom hide away and pretend its ok until it is. Truthfully, thats not healthy.
316. Tameca Hamilton: Please remember that we as your subs are your family and friends even though we haven't met. We DO care and we want to see the vulnerability in you that makes you normal and also we want what's best for you! Don't ever feel that you have to always be happy and in a good mood just for us! You being healthy mentally and spiritually and emotionally is best! Your channel won't suffer and shows your human and life happens. I'm so sorry for what your going through. I'm hoping someday I can meet you when I go to California and just give you a hug! We want to just see you as YOU! No edits and just your real authentic self! If people don't want to see your life they can move on. You need to do what's best for you. Thanks for letting us know what's going on. We appreciate that! Therapy was always good for me and don't ever feel guilty for that! I wish you the best! God bless and praying for you! 🙏💕
317. Mary Ramon: Josh! I know exactly how you feel! I felt hopeless. I felt alone. I told myself I was gonna get out of it and not be a downer. And it sucks. Because you almost feel like your putting on a fake smile. It's hard. And all i found out I needed was just a break. A break from the internet and just spend time with true friends and let them make you smile. It's okay if they see that you're down. That's why they are there. We are all here for you Josh! We love you so much!!❤❤
318. Tina NYC/NJ: NYC Josh let me take you out on the town -Tina
319. Yasmin Rios: hey Josh don't worry I feel like at the moment you are going through alot and I love you and I'm sure the dingle berries love you to and we all support you just hang in there -Yasmin
320. Shenae Jauregui: I know this is a serious video and all but please turn your hat to either normal or backwards, it was annoying me the whole time😂 sorry💕
321. Lucy Servo: ❤❤❤ be kind to yourself. I obviously don't know very much about either of you, but from what I've seen of the "other side of the coin", she is not as happy as you think she is. I really hope you both find happiness
322. jill p: continuous positive thoughts towards you
323. Lexy Garcia: Josh, it's okay to be depressed. It's okay to close yourself off. Seeing you talk about your feelings and wanting us to know what you're going through, what your thought process makes me feel over the moon. It's incredible to see you pushing yourself to be the best you you can be. You are so incredible. You'll get through this and you won't be alone through it all. Just breathe. This darkness will pass. Love you, Josh. Keep your head up. ❤️😘
324. Nathan Walker: Not trying to be crude, but one thing I do know. The best way to get over somebody is to get under somebody.
325. Daniella Arroyo: And don't be sorry you didn't do anything wrong!! there's nothing wrong with being upset
326. DgsTube46: THAT PUSSY MUST HAVE BEEN GOOD IS ALL I CAN SAY
327. Carolyn Adams: We all support you and care about you. Do what you gotta do to get better! We are here for you ♥️😋🐠🍄🎸🎼🎤🌠❤️
328. Kat: shadow pooping in the background
329. Ellie Grossman: best video ive ever seen you make. i feel all of this. be yourself.
330. Maggie Berry: What happened miscarriage divorce
331. Maddie Romanoff: On the other hand: Joshua, I had borderline personality disorder. I don't write my whole story in the comments but I know the dark corners too its ok. I've been hospitalized so many times and ik therapy sucks but you got this
332. Savannah Raisor: Definitely thought this was gonna be a coming out video, therapy is good for depression that's caused by a traumatic/hard time in life. Medication is good for depression like I have (no cause, simply fucked up brain chemicals)
333. Shrug: Next video on Colleen's channel: I'm not ok
334. Christina Arreola: Silent viewer here. Josh, keep trying. A therapist is such a huge step in the right direction. I'm dealing with a similar mental state. I left college with a semester left because my depression was affecting my work and school and my desire to even exist. There were so many things that happened/didn't happen from 2012-2016, that my depression worsened with every year. I decided to come back home and move in with my mother to try and re-stabilize my life and living in a place where I have no friends and nothing that fulfills me has not really helped my mentality. On the other side, I have my college friends who graduated and are working their dream jobs and being...happy. And it makes me happy for them but it makes me feel like a failure for not being on the same path as them. I have close friends that I try and talk to but i feel like a burden (even though they are constantly telling me that I'm not). I had such a good therapist in college. I wish I could have packed her up with me. I have yet to find a therapist here that works. Sometimes its just good to talk it out and rant (hence this long message and I'm assuming your video). Basically...you're not alone. It feels like it, more often than not. But this video is another reminder to me that I'm not alone as I hope this message means to you. <3
335. Marce Lata: You will be OK... it's GREAT that you seeked for help!😃... It will be OK
336. Sarah M: Josh, you know you have so many people who support you. Also, nothing is always as it looks on the outside. Honestly i'd rather you being totally you weather your high😏 or low,sad,happy,confused,ecstatic,crazy etc. as opposed to fake positivity and other bullshit... Hang in there buddy. I have no doubt you'll make it through stronger and happier than you've ever been! and love won't be long to follow... 💜
337. Glenys Houghton Douglas: I think you have beautiful teeth through it all. Hope you get what you need. Be gentle on yourself.
338. MsRobinJack: I've had my own dark times, too! My faith, family and friends have helped me through painful hurts and losses. There is no shame in recognizing and dealing with depression. Those who who love and dream passionately risk great hurt, it takes time to heal. Give yourself that time.
339. stinky butt: you need to swallow your pride and confess that she beat you. who cares man, I get beat all the time 😙😭👸
340. Caitlynn Knolmayer: We love you Josh! Stay strong! It always gets better, you just have to fight for happiness! Find joy in the little things, it really helps! We all support you know matter what!😘❤️
341. Goon Cookie: I know everyone will hate on me for this but I knew when I watched you film yourself walk down the aisle on your wedding day that you guys were doomed. Get off the Internet. Make some real connections. Stop living the life you think YouTube wants to see. I feel so sorry for you that you can't live a genuine life because everything gets filtered through the Internet. Go volunteer and help children or the elderly or the sick....do something with substance that gives you purpose. Stop documenting. That's what's disconnecting you from your own existence.
342. Lindsey Conley: it sucks. when someone goes astray and breaks a relationship, then doesn't skip a beat in their life. it sucks. it doesn't seem fair. they caused the problem and then you are left with the hurt. you aren't like her. you are different. you will be okay. you are talented and worth every good thing in this world. keep being nice and you will be good. you have great things in store for you.
343. amyisyams: Much love from Alabama! Stay strong!
344. Emily Sullivan: Joshua you were with a women for like 8 years? You guys ended your marriage and relationship less than a year ago. Nothing is wrong with you. Please don't think that something is wrong with you. Break ups are the worst and to have it online and be able to see the other person online all of the time does not make it easier. It will take time. Don't be so hard on yourself. Everyone heals differently and of course you will still be hurting. Thankfully you have a great support group. Stay strong. You will get through this.
345. Nicolemcaaa 29: praying for you josh, you deserve happiness, you can get through this man ❤
346. Miriam Lopez: Hey Josh, i remember the first day i started watching you, the first video i ever saw of you was when your grandpa passed away, i saw the vulnerability in yourself and just immediately kept watching you and ever since then i wait for your videos. I feel like i can see through you, you seem so real and honest and that means and matters the most from everything else. Thank you for opening up like that. Keep going Josh, we believe in you. You got this!
347. CARLEE'S GROW: Therapy was the best thing I ever did... like others have said it won't 100% make you forget but you 'll move in the next direction in your life ... and for every peak there is valley.... I have I had the same issue with family and friends... I'm bi polar so wouldn't return calls. But if they care they let you go through whatever the day is throwing at you without wanting to fix it with a party or day out .. the meds will help too.. you'll never be the same but a better you.. love you.
348. Colleen McArdle: I feel for you Josh plus Philly is where I live so thats cool
349. Melissa Kelly: I know this will probably fade back into the other hundreds of comments on here.. But if Josh was ever to read this, I'd want you to know that you inspire so many people by using your voice to be real and transparent. You have shown true strength and growth by making this video. I keep videos in my phone when I feel the need to vent and feel alone. I don't like to burden anyone with my issues, and I don't want to bottle up anymore, so I make a video and get it out. You went through a life altering experience, it is more than okay to be sad and bitter and lost.. don't ever apologize for being human. Also, don't ever feel like you can't talk to those that love you, that's been my greatest mistake with trying to control my situation alone. Same as you, my self isolation has ruined a lot of things in my life. As someone who struggles with depression and negative issues, I can say you're encouraging others to speak up and get help for what's going on inside. You should be proud of that. I'm dealing with my situation daily and slowly getting back on my feet to my old self and finding my happiness. I hope that you find your true happiness, and even more than you had before everything happened. If I ever got to meet you one day, I would just want to hug you and say thank you for doing what you do. Keep your head up.
350. Brianna Keene: First
351. Joey Jones: Funny how I was thinking about posting a video about depression. I wish I lived my life not thinking about the next day and Hoping I dont get depressed. Its really hard. It affects a lot of things.
352. Sarah howell: I want to say that I understand where you come from with the struggle with depression. it has been three years, and i still have a hard time getting out and doing things. im here with you to stop making excuses. I will look forward to the daily videos and the journey to a happier life.
353. ᏒᎥᏒᎥ ಠ_ಠ: I think I distance myself too much from people but every time I plan to be more interactive but it just doesn't feel right to talk to people.
354. Greta Merth: You have more then 1 million people who love you so much it just wasn't ment to be I get that but josh you are a wonderful guy that has helped over 1 million people in what it fells like a million years YOU are one in a million!!!!!😝😀😄😀😃
355. Demi White: be nice to people and Orville
356. MissRemedy082012: he reminds me of the husband from eat pray love when Julia Roberts told him she didn't want to be married anymore. so sad. empathy towards him.
357. Hayley Lievers: Hang in there Josh ❤
358. Fran Daniels: Someone please tell me what happened to Colleen's house and where is he
359. Grace P.: Josh you are amazing stay strong ❤️
360. 2115virgo13: Divorce is hard for everyone! It takes time , family, friends and sometimes therapy! It helped me ! Having someone who not personally involved to talk to helps!
361. Alexandra Ratty: I happened to pass by your channel and wanted to just say that SO many people can relate to how you are feeling and it is inspiring that you have opened up and given so many others the opportunity to do the same by just being open and honest. I hope you get the peace that you so deserve.
362. Chasen Brown: Hang in there Josh you will find that peace and happiness at the end of this journey
363. Amy Wilson: I just want to reach through the screen and give him a hug
364. Dad StopLikingMyComments: Life is a roller coaster. It goes up and down and you can get stuck in a loop. Roller coasters are scary but they are also fun and makes you feel alive just be brave because you will get out of the loop and go up again
365. Simone's School Of Dance: Josh you're an amazing person, and the happiness you bring me is honestly so pure. I've had my battles with anxiety and you honestly make me forget it, even for ten minutes. We will do the best we can to help you through this. ♥️
366. The Glamour Index: I never comment on my videos, but my heart breaks for you. And I'm sorry you're going through all of this. You WILL get through this hard time. There's light at the end of the tunnel. Also, there is no need to apologize for being sad and acting "different"! No one's life is perfect all the time.We all have ups and downs. Thanks for putting your life out there and being real, despite how hard it is. You're inspiring people. Praying for you, bud. Keep striving to get better!
367. hrose doze: You will look back on this place and see this video, and everything will be okay. It will be better. Just keep working towards that day... You'll make it, Joshua.
368. Cat23: gemini just someone who knows what it feels like. Oh, is that a maltese in your pic?😍
369. Ruchika: It's so wonderful of him to think of us even when he's in such a messed up place. ♡
370. Grace Davies: I love you stay strong <<<<<3333333
371. Michaela Munn: Josh, you are amazing and you deserve the best in life. Please don't get depressed. We love you. We are here for you! It is hard letting go of the past especially what happened to you, I can't believe that happened. You deserve better. Anyway, we love you! Thanks for sharing with us!
372. Kristen Wagner: with my depression and bipolar, I genuinely think of when people say "oh there are people who have it so much worse and you should be fine." no I'm sorry but my depression and the mental health Care is not taken for all seriousnsss and that's why we have each other. remember that you are not alone even though you may feel like you are. I am so glad to know you Joshua. I've gone to your videos sincs day 1 and l will be here for eternity and for you as long as you need. be nice to yourself like another viewer had said. thank you for providing these videos for us and I can't thank you enough for being such an amazing soul that i will one day meet. remember just;breathe love always, Kristen wsgnsr
373. bethany yes that bethany: LOVE YOU JOSH
374. lilysgirl16: I want to hug him..
375. fah: I honestly feel for him,
376. Vicky S: It's ok to not be ok, just remember that eventually you WILL be ok. Sometimes you fall before you fly.
377. Taylor Paris: Did anyone else cry with him? You know, the internet is such a strange thing because there will be people who are like "you act like you know that person just because you watch their videos!" and it's true--we don't know all of them, but what they let us see becomes a family in a way, however cheesy that may sound. Josh, thank you for being open and vulnerable. It's okay not to be okay. Rooting for you. ❤️
378. 534590820: JUST COME OUT
379. VickyV: i never really watched him before but since everything happened i started bc it seemed to me that he was the one who ended up fucked over and he is such a sweet genuinely nice guy that its really hard to find nowadays.. it pains me to see him like this i really hope this will help him to feel better bc he does deserve all the happiness , hold on josh youre not alone! ♥
380. Tenaya D: It's great to see him owning his feelings and trying to improve himself. Seeking help and being depressed is nothing to be ashamed of. Thanks for being so open Josh! I hope your journey is uphill from now on
381. Guster hero: I don't know why but I thought that he was going to either come out as gay or a drug addict
382. Yenny Castillo: you don't need a therapist, when you say u r alone you need someone who understands you. go to church man is will save you and Im positive that u r going to find happiness.
383. Raquel Spitler: Better days will come Josh. I was depressed for quite some time during and after my divorce. Things are a lot better now. I still have my moments, but nothing like that dark period in my life.
384. I have no life: I might not KNOW your pain, but I've seen what divorce looks like. I've watched my world fall apart when I found out my dad cheated on my mom. She was so broken, and it honestly hurt. I isolated myself from the rest of the world, and she did too. I gained weight like crazy, and I didn't used to be the tanned little girl, I was pale af and super chunky. I really can't explain the way I felt at that time, but family really helped me, and same with my mom, because a few months after, my grandma had gotten a divorce too with my grandpa who went off and cheated on her too. So us 3 girls stuck together and toughed it through. Even my little brother had a hard time, always acted out because it was hard on him. Even my Tia, who was very sick at that time, she died after she found out her own nephew cheated. And I found myself being even more lost because was super close to my Tia, and it hurt even more. SO, sorry for writing this much, but I know what pain you're going through. I've witnessed and felt it, because when my mom is hurt, I am too. So just know Josh that you aren't alone, okay? We all want you to get better, physically, mentally and emotionally. And it's great to be strong, but the strongest people rely on others as well.❤️
385. Amanda Millevoi: Josh don't be sad... ur truly loved by so many people and ur family and ur amazing and ur gonna get better Ik it
386. Naomi Lowery: the more vulnerable people make themselves - the stronger & the more resilient they become.
387. Hannah Peterson: Josh, please look up ray comfort and watch some of his videos....... i wish i could say it like he does, but you cant find true inner peace without what you will hear about in his videos. I feel for you so much :-( i am broken hearted for you
388. Nikki Tellz: Josh.... Um.... I feel like you'vee lost the way u were. The Joshua i remember is the goofy vloggy josh... I cant wait to have him back and im sure he will eventually. I love you❤️
389. Julian Baron: its ok just keep doing things that make you happy like play games do challenges from us we love you so much josh its ok to be unhappy we still will love you always
390. MaceysTheStore: Thank you for this, it's great to know I'm not alone
391. adam mac: Like you said, Josh.. 1 day at a time.. and if that doesn't work, 1 hour or even minute at a time. Don't ever think expressing your feelings on video is something to apologize for. It takes real maturity to recognize needing help and to acknowledge things need to change. There's a saying, "Nothing changes if nothing changes." Just remember, we're here for you.. some of us are even certifiable nut jobs too! JK.. kinda! 😉 Consider us one, big therapy session. 😁 Cheer up, Charlie!😎
392. Maria Turinetti: I'm so proud of you, Josh. You are so loved by so many people, including myself. Take this day by day. This is just the first day of the rest of your life. It will get better. I've had people very close to me struggle with depression it's not easy, but they work through it and I always encourage them to look for that light at the end of the tunnel towards better "sunny" days. You are a light to so many people and I'm happy you're trying to find that light within yourself again. Sending you lots of love XOXO❤️😘
393. Strells: I just stepped out of depression 2 weeks ago. Somehow I was able to pull through by talking to someone. It's always best to take care of yourself if you need it. In our society we think others should always come first & that's not the case. Josh take care of yourself, therapy is a good thing don't feel embarrassed you're human 💕 sending you the best
394. Dani Attias: RM Aquatics she's not a bitch she just knows how to distract herself for the down times. she also probably doesn't record whenever she's feeling down she just stays alone or goes to her family and friends that make her happy. he just seems to want to share the down moments of his life more
395. Evan Green: I don't think there's anything wrong with you. You committed. You attached your soul to something and it's not there for you. Your other leg. So you hobble. I wish someone I was with was as attached as you. That is how I think it should be. But now that you're no longer part of a unit, you have to stand on your own and seek out a partner who will attach back.
396. Jessica Jones: Love you so much and your realness! You do what you've got to do to start feeling better and happy.
397. Blondie B: I went through a divorce in 2008 after being with him for 13 years. It brings you to some very dark places. You can get past this time. You can see the positive again. You can be happy again. You will find parts of yourself that haven't been at the surface for a while. I completely understand, this experience does make you different, it made me different. I went to therapy also and there is no shame in that. Like you said, we only get one life and we have to live it. Please do not feel like you have to apologize for yourself, you don't. I apologized to friends and family too because I seemed like I was always such a downer and I hated to be that way. It takes time. Please give yourself the time to heal and that time needed to heal is different for everyone. I am a stranger here on the internet but I am thinking of you and wishing you joy and happiness in the future. We have so many things to be thankful and grateful for and to live for. You are an awesome guy, I hope you see that.
398. Kayla Gretchen: I deal with depression. Therapy definitely helps. So does my dog. The anti depressants made me feel even lower with more thoughts of self harm. I admire you for being so transparent with people all around the world. I'm very happy that you are reaching out for help. You may not be okay today or tomorrow but this journey you are on isn't over, it takes time to heal and to adapt to a new chapter when you were so used to another.
399. Nyashia Carter: I honestly just want to give him the biggest hug. I always knew he was never truly ok and just seeing him so vulnerable and hurt kills me.Sending so much love, light, and healing your way Josh❤️ Can't wait to see that smile again🙏🏾 Take all the time you need to get to that better place. Back to being happy. It'll be a long journey, but your dingleberries will be with you every step of the way!🤙🏾
400. FionnRex: this is terrible advice. 'god' is letting him suffer right now. ever think about thatt?
401. Jenna Amore: I'm so glad you reached out for help. I did recently and it helped more than I thought it would. I was super nervous during my first session but it's helped me release my emotions and helped me understand that I'm not crazy for being anxious and depressed all the time. You're absolutely right. Don't hold it all in. Don't let it consume you. Letting it out to a therapist (someone who's not directly connected to your life and someone who won't judge you) is very very healthy and helpful. I love you and I hope this helps you ❤️❤️❤️
402. rainicornsRlove: I'm so happy that you're getting therapy. It's okay to feel these feelings and experience grief. After a huge loss, everything you're going through is normal. Don't hide the feelings - process them with your therapist, your family, and your friends. Self-care every day. And thank you for being real with us.
403. Bruriah Raymond: bouncing up one or two inches is improvement! you dont get better over night. you went through hell and back, im so proud that you are where you are! make yourself happy before you try to make us happy! your well being is more important than you being depressed! please help ypurself before helping us! we love you and we will support you no matter what!! keep up the good work!!
404. Tisha McDonald: One day at a time..
405. Stacey Howells: ❤️💜❤️💜
406. Tara S.: Josh you'll be ok
407. riya khold: Everyone is a little depressed inside at some time in their lives , its just life and it goes by, it's the side nobody shows online . You're a great person josh and remember happiness is a choice not a privilege you just have to try ❤️❤️we love you ❤️
408. Merola 101 Team: Josh I'm sorry that you're sad about this thing l hope you be OK I think you're having a hard time but as your fan I think you're going to get through it because you're a strong man
409. Az4angela: Raw is beautiful and that's what you are Josh ❤️🕯
410. Nat Veca: I also am dealing with loss and depression right now, and I get you, God helps me everyday to get better, hol on to Him and you will do better ❤️
411. Dani Andi: Much love to you. You are strong to admit, not only to all of us, but to yourself that you're hurting. "You gotta keep your head up. So you can let your hair down." Be kind to yourself. You're going through a lot. It's amazing that you're talking with someone, so you can give yourself the capability to grieve and get through a really tough year. Sending hugs to you. Don't ever feel like you owe anyone an apology because you're going through a hard time. ❤️❤️
412. Christifer Duxbury: I actually unsubscribed a while ago because I felt like you weren't being you, and I was looking for genuine content. Knowing that you're trying to find yourself again is what I was hoping to hear. I'm back on the team. Thank you for opening up, and good luck on your journey. It's nice to see you ready to work through it. I'm definitely subscribing again
413. Lydia M: What a brave video, I hope therapy is helpful to you josh xx
414. Psimple Gamer: I think you are being too hard on yourself. Considering the year you've had it's amazing how you've kept up with putting out so many great videos. Take care.
415. Kayla Beharee: Josh I love u a lot but u gotta be more positive towards life , like if u search up JoshuaDTV there's like only depression videos
416. Shane Hodson: Hey man trust it's 1 day at a time take time to figure out what you love and who you want to be and work towards that 1 day at a time
417. Marin McCabe: Josh, we love you, we're here for you, and we will walk with you through this tough time. You're so strong. Stay beautiful❤️
418. Latisha Farrar: I love you Josh many prayers heading your way my friend I hope you get the comfort you been needing I really do I just wanted you to know that I will always be a fan and friend I'm there for you for sure I love your videos and will always be watching them hope your days get better love ❤️ and prayers my friend 😊🤗❤️😀
419. iamsheilasmith: Thanks for sharing josh. I found you a week ago on here as I created an inspirational video that I hope would help others push through and you popped up. Going through the same and I'm a mother as well. God is taking us to places we need to be and it doesn't feel good but there's a reason. <3 blessings. You've encouraged me to seek out therapy again. Everything is easier said than done and you will heal at your own time and pace. That just shows you're a real human being, because you gave your all to something that didn't turn out the way you had hoped.
420. Mildred Noska: Josh, I have been watching your videos for a long time. You are an amazing person. Just continue being yourself. I think it's really noble of you to be sincere on the internet about your life and how it has affected you. I will pray for you Josh that God has his hand on you and that he bless you with that special person to come into your life and make you feel loved. Take care and we all love you here in Texas!! God bless you Josh and I ask God to be present in everything and everywhere you go.
421. Marin: it's okay to not be okay. no need to feel shame for any of it. we all go through some shit. it's okay to cry. keep fighting keep going. mental health comes first. I support you fully, because I know how hopeless it can feel. no need to feel guilty. we are here for you ❤
422. Stephanie Little: Praying for you Josh!
423. La belle Et la bete: WhateverIsTrueASMR I'm telling you I've being there before and it's not easy it takes a lot to get out of there and now Jesus have me and I try to change everyday it's getting harder and harder but I know no matter what Jesus will always there for me and always help me get trough my problems don't give up it won't last forever trust me
424. Olivia White: Hi Josh, I haven't commented on your videos before, however I do watch your videos. I went through a similar process to you, not to your extent but I can promise you it will get better... It just takes time. It does get better, I promise, remember things happen for a reason and sometimes you need to go through the tough times to come out better on the other side. It will gradually get better, I promise.
425. Hannah Campbell: Josh I know the feeling. It'll pass..I know it hurts and it seems like it won't but it will pass!!!!! You're an amazing person okay!! sending you good thoughts :)
426. Hailey Miskar: 😭😭😭poor josh just stay strong and you'll get through it
427. Fabiha Azim: I just can't help but wonder what happened between them...
428. Mamma Tubbs: We love you and support you Josh!! We are here for you !! Do what you need to do for you because you are WORTH IT 💕
429. Kirsty Petrusic: sending love
430. Stephanie Day: Love you Josh! Stay positive, stay strong. You are an amazing person, life is really hard sometimes but never give up hope.
431. georgia thompson: You are being so strong maybe you should take some more time off to make sure that YOU are ok
432. Hannah007: You are an amazing human being. Getting help from the professional world is a very good step you took. We will be here, on the bad days, on the good days, on the inbetween days. Please remember to never feel like it is an obligation to upload. Ofcourse, we want to know how you are doing, because we root for you, but if you don't feel comfortable, don't feel obligated. Take the time to feel better. We will be with you!
433. Madalina MADALINA: you neeeeed Jesus Christ! love
434. Katie Phelps: Indigo Detry he was just hurting. hurt is a powerful thing and he was just being honest on how he felt. i personally can relate to how he felt because my breakup with my ex effected me greatly and now i hate the guy. things change and peoples opinions of people change
435. bunnerz79: Depression is hard without therapy. I have seen a therapist and I have bounced out of it but it took a while. Things will get better but it takes time for you to heal. You have to be strong even when you're at your low. But hang in there and you will pull through. Nothing to be embarrassed about.
436. Cristal C: i feel your pain.. been going through a Tough..break up myself honestly.. this comming 18th was saposed to be my 9 yr anniversary and it all ended a week ago. Sucks i dont really know much people to talk to and i try and cope with it everyday till im over it wich i dont know when thats going to be Honestly. But i'm tryin to Stay strong.
437. Melissa Heim: I love you and this video thanks for being honest! I feel more connected to you through this video than the others!!! Ily
438. Tenely Helmuth: Lo
439. Annalie Malone: i think that's incredible that you've realized that you can't do it alone josh !! i would encourage you to look at the people in your life who are GENUINELY joyful during all times of different emotions. if you notice, those are the people who are secure in their Christian faith. maybe you should look into that? i just want you to be okay :) like another comment said, Jesus is the only one who can give you true joy
440. Taylor Liz: This is not supposed to sound mean but honest. You need to forget her, sure you might still be in contact but this is about you now. She's gone and now you need to do what makes you happy. And Ik right now may be hard but sooner or later you're going to need to move on, so why not start now! I love watching you josh and it's hard to watch you when you're not motivated to make your videos. I don't think anyone likes seeing you sad so hopefully this advise helps. Do what you want and don't let anyone or anything stop you.
441. Cassie Walker: Don't apologize for feel ashamed to feel the way you do. We are all humans and you've been going through some stuff. You're an amazing person...I wish I could hug you. I understand you're feelings. I deal with anxiety and depression on the regular. I'm here for you Joshua! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
442. Michael Pham: omg D: i live in philly and i hope i can see you >.>
443. kmy1869: I wish I could give you a hug 😓
444. Jessi Campbell: Of course, you're going through a lot. I don't think anyone blames you. We are here to help keep you going. Do what you need to do. Life isn't always happy, lollipops, and rainbows... there are storms we need to weather. Good luck, Josh. Wish you nothing but the best. Take care of you <3
445. catiebug1011: If there is ever anything we fans can do, please don't hesitate to ask :) Much love to you, Josh!!
446. Iris Ortez: Stop 😩😩💔💔 this made me tear up because u seem like such a happy beautiful person! Your not a downer at all!!! Your human!!! Its normal not to be OKAY all the time. Its okay!! You'll be okay and do whatever you have to do to get back to yourself! ❤️ Love you and i mean it.❤️
447. Paige Couick: It's really hard not to blame her 😔 hope you get to feeling better and start feeling happy again Josh 😔
448. Shannon Shaw: If you feel like something's missing you should try going to church, you'd be surprised at how much of a difference it can make in your life. Stay strong!❤️
449. Billy Johnson: He needs jesus
450. chicken1.0: 😞
451. Kara1202: Take what your going through internally and kick life in the face with it. Use it to empower you and it will make you stronger before you even know it. We all support your journey and you will be successful ❤️😘❤️😘
452. Skyla Fabbricante: you can do it. we all believe in you.
453. Laura De Leon: It will be an uphill battle Joshua but you have a lot of people here that support you and are right here to listen to you. Do not ever apologize for being raw and real with your emotions. You have to allow yourself to feel and you can not suppress your emotions because it is not healthy. I am here for you. We are here for you Joshua. #talktous #wearehere
454. Sarah Reeser: love you ❤
455. weird person: look man, I know that things get hard from time to time but you gotta get out of that slump u you're in because no matter how sad r or depressing life as you know it can be, you still have people you can depend on for things that you can't do on your own any more and that's ok so cheer up and hope for a brighter day cause I'm telling another YouTuber to do something special just for you Kay? feel better 😊
456. Erica Taylor: It genuinely pains me to see him in so much pain from all of this. He's so honest and I think that's a step towards happiness for him, telling us how he feels. You'll be okay❤️ take your time❤️
457. Intimate Flow: Those of us that have been with you since forever know who you are because you are family to us and family always stick together. We will be with you forever whenever you need us <3 <3 <3
458. Melissa Buday: We can do this together. Depression will not defeat us. Sometimes before it gets better the darkness gets bigger 💜
459. Helena Paice: You're such a beautiful person! Please don't ever forget that. You will find yourself again xx
460. Bina Bianca: Everything on the internet seems "so perfect", but we all know that the majority of this bullshit is just soulless workaholics, sedating themselves with fake happy "everything is sooooo amazing and wonderful and perfect" postings ... you're real. You still care, you're still a human being. PLEASE don't put so much pressure on yourself. Only YOU matter in this world of yours. You're the only person who's with you 24/7. Try to make THAT person proud and don't try to make everyone else think: "He's so strong, he pulls his shit together so well! Such happy, much wow!" ... no one of us "normal" people really does that...we all struggle with so much shit...let's sail this ship full of bullshit together, okay? Sending lots of love from Germany <3
461. William Ortiz: So proud of you for making this video. Not an easy topic to talk about! You are awesome!
462. Gerbil Lover: Stay strong xxx I totally understand how you are feeling and all we have to is try hard to live life to the best we can❤️
463. Volcfom: HMU, Josh. I live in the Philly burbs, and have a mule with your name on it! Seriously though, everyone needs time to heal from trauma. You should not feel guilty for grieving for a few months and needing time to find your own identity again. Fortunately, your 30s are a great time for that process. I have no doubt you'll come through the other side as a stronger and happier person.
464. StripesofShay: therapy is a really good step josh. sending lots of love <3
465. Natasha Mcintee: you are loved and you are NOT alone. I am so glad that you are seeking the help you need to heal,and release.
466. Crystal Star: Hey Josh! You are going through a loss that is similiar to a death. Going to therapy, and sharing, especially as a man, as most bottle it all up, means you are incredibly courageous, and taking steps in the right direction towards a path of healing. There will be pain, tears, anger, guilt, confusion, and many unpleasant emotions, like a raging storm that you will have to go through. It will be one of the biggest battles of your life. But you are a warrior, and are equipped to fight. Know there will also be relief, peace, hope, and joy, both in moments during, and more and more as you break through. God is also always with you every single step of the way. These genuine videos may not only be a good outlet and support from some for you (ignore the negativity, focus on the support), but may also help some one else going through tirals to relate & also seek help. You are not being a burden to your loved ones. Let them, and others help you. You would do the same for them right? This is a very hard time, understandably for you. Praying for you brother! Hang in there. It is going to get better. Promise. God bless!
467. Adriana Gonzalez: Komatöse Neutralisation This comment means so much
468. LaLeasha Frank: Something that I think people dont realize is that we all heal differently, we all go through things at a different rate and its ok to do whatever it is that you need to do to help yourself. Take some time off. Go through therapy. Find yourself again and relearn to be happy on your own terms. The people qho really love you will support you and be understanding. You dont need to be embarasses or feel like a burden. You cant love peoplerly if you cant love yourself. <3
469. Eabha Ryan: Joshua, I really see what your going threw, I love your account, you do what you want to do, it's okay not to be okay, it's your choice in life💕
470. Serg119: no, she is obviously not fine @Cameron Stahlbrand
471. Jillian Pennington: I be praying 🙏🏻❤️💛💚💙💜
472. Diana Albano: I love you josh! It's okay to not be okay. Remember you have so many people who love you unconditionally. I LOVE YOU. You are amazing! I wish you could see how we all see you. Strong and so brave. So loving and pure. ❤️ I hope we can all help you by just showing you the love and support that you deserve.
473. CrazyChick: You are the one who is making yourself sad or upset. Get Jesus in your life and you won't be depressed. You have a empty void in your life and your trying to fill it with unnecessary things. GET JESUS. HE WILL TAKE YOUR WORRIES AWAY!!
474. Sharron S: Admitting it is the first step. You're grieving. It's totally normal. Like you end your videos, be kind to people....even if that people is you.
475. Maritinananana S: Dont worry about us, just keep going, do what you love, never give up, and stay happy! We love you! Its ok to be upset, your're human, it doesn't matter what has happened, what matters is moving forward. Keep pushing through this, I believe in you!
476. Jennie Nelson: Joshua I do the same corner thing I hate being annoying
477. theekruts: I love you Josh, we love you, and also if you didn't know, Jesus loves you. He cares for you and he will give you the happiness you're looking for. You can try and get happiness from other things or yourself, but that will never fully satisfy. Only Jesus can. He wants the best for you, and if you turn to Him he will never turn it back on you.You don't have to take this advice, I'm only suggesting this. But best of luck to you to find peace/happiness, whether or not you get it from Jesus. :) <3
478. MolliBee: It's okay not to be okay. Your feelings are there for a reason. The Lord is a loving God, so find solace in Him and figure out what makes you happy. Follow your heart to the places that will raise you up to the happiest and best you can be! I went though a difficult depression point when I realized my career wasn't the right one. It took 7 months, but I found my calling, my place, and my happiness. You will too! Just wait it out. Remember that when it feels dark and hopeless, it only means it can go up!! I'll be praying for you, Josh! God bless.
479. Rania Abdelnaby: Nothing is wrong with you josh! The "other side" is just filling their emptiness with work and only posting things to portray that their happy. What you're doing is better. You're actually allowing yourself to feel the way you truly feel AND THATS OKAY! I hope you can overcome this and I know there are better things ahead for you!!
480. ruby gill: we love you josh
481. nicole stewart: I randomly came across this video. I just subbed for the simple fact that what your going through I also go through. Hope the therapist gives you mess that help like they did for me. I wish I could give u a hug. 🤗 have not seen your other videos but I'm sure you are just an amazing person like I saw in this vid. Keep it moving and find things to laugh about even if you have to fake it to make it. I hope u get that. You are special and worthy and loved. Just be u
482. Jdawg: Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. I know you don't agree with everything the Bible says, but regardless, God has so much love to give to you, and He wants nothing more than to wrap you in His arms and help you get through this. Praying for you, Josh!
483. Angela Phillips: Belleamaro
484. Kirsty Anderson: I'm SO glad to hear that you sought help. Well done!! I wish you the very best x
485. itsbrittx: Joshua, you are so loved. You're loved by your friends, your family, and us. We are here for you. Please don't forget that.
486. Steph Fauteux: Honestly, the best thing you can do is be yourself, not sure why people are giving you a hard time about being you. Things happened...divorce changes people, and I understand that not every video is going to be all happy. Love you Josh <3
487. shauna mantra: You have a heart!!! You're stronger than you think . Someone who can express themselves is stronger than someone who doesn't!!!
488. Anne Joseph: It's never too late to live your life. I know you'll rise above this cuz ur strong enough to share it. Thank you so much for that. For your honesty. Live life. Be happy again! Just don't do drugs, don't get pregnant, and do not get arrested. 😂 I love u man!!
489. wph1138: you are so fkn fine! you seem like an amazing person you jest need to reboot and refocus. you need to love yourself like everyone else does.
490. mia hensley: so proud of you for opening up and being real. i kind of feel honored that you would choose to share more snippets of your life with us, so we can help keep you accountable😂😬 anyways, i'm glad you are getting help bc i think you deserve a great love and happiness. keeping you in my prayers💙
491. Jess 1: We love you so much Josh! You can't keep things all bottled up inside, it will just make it worse. Let it out Josh, it's okay. Love you💜
492. Capri Xo: What are thoosssseeeee
493. Sonia Hernandez: Josh, you don't know how much we all care for you and WANT to help you & I wish I had all the right things to say because I know you're not the only one going through this. So I respect your decision and I'm rooting for you, we love you josh!
494. Bella Etheridge: Josh, I've been watching your videos for almost three years now and you really have gotten me out of tough situations. It breaks my heart knowing you are going through this and I hope you know that we are all here for you.❤️ Love you!!
495. Gayle Awai: I wish I could give you a big long hug!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
496. brianna Mendoza: Leah Moran because the world is afraid of the truth back then they actually did but since we are only getting closer and closer to the end before we know it God is going to come back and he will bring his judgment on the earth And he did create the earth read from the beginning of Genesis
497. steph32588: I have been in the same situation and it took me like 2 years to get over this person. The only thing that helps is meeting someone new and better. I thought there was no one new or better but there was. There is someone for you too. I know it's a hard time trust me it feels awful and this is the time for that because something better is out there for you and it may take time. If I were you I'd go on a dating website and start dating a lot. I know you'll meet some crazy girl or girls that make you more sad bc you'll miss your ex wife but all of these things will help and give you more confidence and more experience. You will eventually find that right girl for you.
498. Poppy O: Katie Marie In 30 years (or even 5) you'll be surprised how much you've grown as a man. You'll look back at this painful time and in a weird way, be grateful. You will have made it through the pain a wiser and better man. You'll have a family and children that you can't imagine living without. It really really sucks right now. But there is an amazing life out there for you. You just have to do the hardest part first. Be Kind to Yourself!
499. nevaeh lyon: thank you for this. you put my feelings into words. 💜
500. heyoshenanigans: I'm always here for you, friend. Personally, I have to be medicated, and I can't imagine life without it.
501. Briana Thompson: Sending you positive energy Josh. Someday you'll look back and be thankful you pushed yourself through this tough time so you could come out the other side. ❤️
502. Bianca Bright: Proud of you! Love you!!
503. Katlyn: I feel the same way.. Life is rough right now
504. Joy Loewen: Simona El Haddad yep! hope to see you there❤️❤️
505. Stephaniecl19: I relate to you. it's okay to find help and its okay to not be okay or perfect. everyday is a battle but everyday is a new day. we care about you. Thank you for sharing.
506. Tausala Leiataua: ily Josh. you've voiced even my inner fight with myself. Thank you for taking this step forward, I will take a step forward with you ♡
507. OhhItsMoriah Papiya: 💖
508. Jill H: I think that's what most of your viewers want Josh...REAL!! We don't want "everything is sunshine and roses" on camera. Be you. The good, the bad and the ugly. Your Dingleberries will be here to help you along the way ❤️
509. Heather O'Day: p.s. I'll never stop trying to make #dinkleberries a thing
510. Jmamawow H: Don't watch her videos. So fake!!
511. firefighterwife77: Therapy is good. Prescription drugs can be useful in helping you see straight again. Divorce is a death. Treat it as such. Mourn. Don't assume the other person is okay. Thank you for your honesty.
512. Loudlyn Philippe: You will find happiness. Keep your head up and continue to be you
513. Chenise R: josh. please i know I'm just a stranger. but i really want to be here for you. please contact me. which ever way is convent for you.... 💝
514. Life With Jennifer: Josh I am so glad you opened up to us & got a therapist. You are a beautiful person inside and out; don't be hard on yourself. It's normal to hurt and be emotional after all you've been through. You need to mourn the loss of your marriage & loosing your BFF. Be real & translucent to us. Stay strong sweetie! 💜
515. Saara Maria: hi, I know people don't always agree when there's someone who says that they understand, but, we're all in this world together, you're not alone, no one is alone, I look up to you for being strong, depression is a life conquering thing, it's fine sometimes...but it's not...really, and...most people ask what's wrong with them, I ask that about myself, it's just something that comes over people, everyone is dealing with something that is depressing and, hard, but don't be sorry, we all say what's wrong with us? why am I like this?I need to change myself, I don't like myself, I don't know anymore, I can't handle it, help is not something to seek when I'm so far away from it, nothing can cure, things can help, but it's always here, the depression, the thoughts, everything, there's never a moment of peace, I thought I was alone, until I talked to my friend, who was also depressed, though not for the same reasons, it helped, but it won't cure, depression, is something, that you have to be strong or there's no way to be better, you'll never be fine, but you can be better, we're all here together, and, people are embarrassed to talk about these types of things, but really, we all go through this, well for our whole life, but you're not alone, those words may seem fake, but, they're true, it's ok were all strong. depression has brought down almost everyone, I keep noticing it more and more, I guess because I feel the same, but I have friends or family, or people who I know but more as aqquatances, they were fighting through it, but it brought them down, one of my aqquatances that my friends know or their siblings know, was brought down, but he didn't go all the way down, he found a way to fight, he found a power, he found a light, he kept going, and, I guess, that this is what we realize, there's a light in each moment, it just, takes a lot out of you, and a while, to find it. but at the end you have found the light, and everything's ok you've fought, your whole life, but then, the light, that you found, tells you, it's ok, you are here now, you have the light, you have conquered life's biggest task, life, you've found a way, a light, to keep going, at the end, in a long time, the light doesn't burn out, it just, let's your fears, tasks, things to conquer, off your shoulders, I guess what I'm trying to say that it's ok ,and, we're in this together, all of us, we're all going through this challenge, challenge, of life, but, somehow, we've found a way to get through the challenge each day, we are all strong, we will all keep going, we will each find the light that will get us through each day of this challenge, everything gets better, you are strong, you are not alone, we are all in this together. and yes I'm talking to everyone, not a certain person, but everyone, you will get through this, I promise.
516. Anne Meyer: Give yourself time. Healing is different for everyone. I'm glad you are going to someone to get help - more people should! I do!
517. leah: Thank you for sharing this with us. Cannot even imagine how hard it must have been, but thank you. It means so much. We're gonna be here for you, Josh. Always. Please don't forget that <3
518. Molly Doherty: It takes a lot to admit to needing help after a major life change. I'm going through something similar right now so I can empathize with you. Keep your head up & those beautiful blue eyes looking forward!
519. Sandy Reischer: My heart breaks for you. I know exactly how you feel... I went through the exact same situation a few years ago. I haven't been able to get over it, but every day gets easier. You are an amazing person and I PROMISE everything is going to work out for you! You are going to find happiness because you're awesome. Seriously. Awesome. xoxo
520. dee lewis: Do what is right for you and no one else. It is ok to feel depressed as long as it does not consume you , and you get the help you need. You went through a life changing thing with the loss of your marriage. You had hopes and dreams that didn't turn out the way you planned.  It's ok to grieve that loss and heal . Good luck to you.
521. elise3000: If you're not doing it everyday it's also fine. Keep busy doing things you love to do, but do as you feel not because you have to. Just so you know. Take your time but dont waste your time. Take care.
522. Koley411: Your fans, we love and care about you no matter what and want to see you happy. You will get through this!! And remember there's no shame in getting help, you can't always do things by yourself. I also would encourage you to turn your burdens over to the Lord! God doesn't want your perfect, He does't care if you always agree with Him, God wants YOU to lean on Him and to have happiness and fulfillment; that's the truth! Love and prayers from Ohio!<3
523. Danciulescu Cristina: I m really happy that you are going to make daily content
524. kristi wilmoth: I'm here I'll listen
525. Megan Swagerty: Don't apologize for feeling depressed or sad. This is the stigma around mental illness that needs to stop. Share your story. Share your struggles. Nobody successful has had an easy story. There are ups and downs. Life's a rollercoaster. One day Josh you're gonna be in a place that you can't even imagine you'd ever be. You'll be able to look back and think wow I made it. I know you don't want to put certain things on friends and family but if you don't have them to lean on who do you have? They are there for things like this and if they were going through what you are right now you'd want them to come to you. It's okay to get help it's okay to let your feelings show. Do what you have to do for yourself. Make yourself the priority. You have so many people behind you. I know it's so easy to look at the other side and think it's perfect we all think that. Social media is the worst for that bc it depicts happiness all the time. That's not life. That's not realistic. God has a purpose for this storm your in. He does. You are not alone ever.
526. Sydnee Tucker: I understand you josh and don't be sorry because you know this wasn't really your fault! you know all you can do is pray and go to God! and also I hope this therapist helps you and we will be here to support you and cheer you on in life! don't be sorry about being gone you've been through a rough time and I feel so awful for you and you know who knew this would happen? no one but God! this situation will make you stronger as a person, brother, son, and as a Christian overall! but all you can do is pray and get out and meet new people! love you Josh!!!!❤❤
527. Lise G: Josh, meditation has helped me a ton in between therapy sessions. I highly recommend the app "Headspace" (I don't work for them...I just love them haha). They're extremely practical and easy to follow. Honestly though, if you're looking for a healthy habit, this one is so powerful. ❤️
528. Teresa K: Not to be nosy but I wish I knew why they got a divorce, I feel like it would all make more sense to us even though they don't owe us an explanation
529. Jessica Davis: Just keep fighting Josh, especially when you feel like you can't anymore. Always move forward, whether you're running or barely crawling never stop moving forward. You're stronger than you think and we all love and support you. 💗
530. Cookie gaming101: We will all get through this together I love you josh lots of love
531. Jessica Lawrence: Yay therapy! I have been in a bad place for a while due to a traumatic experience that I was trying to deal with alone. Once I found those who knew how to help and different ways to hold myself accountable and healthy I have begun to see a light at the end of the tunnel. It'll get better and you are taking the right steps to find your own inner happiness, which is the STRONGEST kind of happiness. There is nothing wrong with you, I felt the same exact way. This video helped me realize I'm not crazy or alone for feeling all of the things I have felt. Find your people, find your outlet for excess emotions, and remember you are not alone. <3
532. Evelyn Bower: Nothing is wrong with you. You lost something so important in your life and it is ok to grieve and ask for help. Praying for you. Seek the One, Jesus, who gives you peace and hope. <3
533. QuestionEverything: Wanting is the cause of all suffering. If you learn this and truly apply it in your life you will be able to find happiness exactly where you are, right now. The principles in Buddhism are life changing, especially for those of us with depression. I highly recommend reading up on it. Change the way you think, the way you frame your thoughts. Humans are amazingly capable of finding happiness in the most desperate of situations (think holocaust, extreme poverty, forgiveness of a monster who murdered a family member etc). Learn from them and you will find it too:)
534. Christopher Carr: we understand bro its gonna be alright josh ima like the video to show that you're gonna make it out of this dark tunnel
535. Rachel Gouvin: So proud of you, Josh! I completely understand exactly what you're saying and getting help is so important. Just don't pressure yourself to do anything overwhelming if it's not helping you heal. We love you, Josh.
536. chocolate ADAM546463GF4D3HDS43H: And be not like those who forgot Allah , so He made them forget themselves. Those are the defiantly disobedient. In conclusion, you need faith in your life brother.
537. Jess: I'm proud of you, Joshua. Any type of mental illness, including depression, is NOTHING to be ashamed of. I struggle with PTSD and I was ashamed to admit it and to let anyone see me as anything but strong for so long...and hey, some days I still feel that way. I have bad days, but we all do. I wish you nothing but the best. Sending love from NC. XOXO
538. Ruby Leslie: No shame in seeking help! I think it's good to share since it helps others who are struggling !
539. Anh Lê: I cried watching your video 😭 it touches my heart. I feel you Joshua. Like people say, it's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it will feel like it hurts too much and you keep questioning yourself. You keep asking "why does it hurt this badly" "what is wrong with me". I feel you. I feel you Josh. But you are inspirational to countless people out there and you won't stop being inspirational to us. You're a genuinely nice person and everything will work out just fine for you. We promise. Dingleberries give you hugs!
540. Double Me 3: Am I the only one who cried when he was trying not to???
541. Kathy V M: Please don't put to much pressure on yourself. If you can and want to make a video everyday go for it. But don't pressure yourself in such a fragile and hard time. You also need time to breathe! I want to hug you so badly 💏 take care Joshua. I hope you find full happines Again!
542. gucci seavey: Josh I'm here for you all the time
543. Niklas Jaeggi: bobby hilljr5 omg I'm shook by your statement
544. Amanda Banana: Shame on the 67 people who disliked this video!
545. Marie Evans: Kristen Reyes Im sure this will get alot of hate, but it really is the truth.
546. Saffythecob: Oh Josh! :( It's so hard! I'm so sorry for what you're going through! I really wish that you find peace somewhere at some point. We all really care about you. Please just do whatever makes you happy. Your music videos are truly amazing, you should stick to those, we can see every emotion and that's a hard thing to convey. There's nothing wrong with you! I love you!
547. Veronika Hanvey: Every thing is going to be ok we will help you out.
548. Sophie Pearl: Josh, thanks for making this video 💜
549. Sara Love: Pretty sure my whole point is to be nice to everyone because you never know whos hurting and whos not. i smile alot but doesnt mean my heart isnt breaking
550. Jess Wright: We are here for you. Take one day at the time. Don't be a shame, I see someone to talk to, it will be hard to open up but slow open up.
551. Hope Anderson: Pray for you all the time josh, you are awesome! Draw near to God! He's going to bring you crazy joy and comfort. No guarantee of a perfect non sad life, but I believe gods going to show up in your life in a mighty way
552. Damaris: You are such a strong person and after all this is done you'll be even stronger! I went through a similar situation and it took me nearly 2 years to finally be myself again. What helped A LOT and I see others mention is to not check up on them. It's so hard to do but I know you can do it :) Chin up because everything will work out!
553. Drumming is Life: you got this Josh! I go through that too! ... I'm 12, like if u understand and if u support josh!
554. Chien Hong: stay positive and be happy all the time Josh, let the past be he past❤❤❤❤
555. jacqui jones: oh no no no. my mans not ok, you may not think you do, but I think you need Jesus, He will take you out of this, trust me. He helped me.
556. Richard Bulmerrr: hun we do not get 1 life we do have passit lifes yet every thing u did in your past life or owned u will do and buy in this life.......past lifes are no fun. u are juicy cute
557. cathy g: I think that the fact you will post every day a video will propably help because you will have a goal every day, and it will help you not to think about the bad things in your life. Time heals, I swear to you. It's like wounds. Just wait. Put some "medicine" on you and wait. It's okay not to be okay. Nobody is happy all the time and we all go through bad times in our lives. Just keep having a goal in your life. Try new things, travel, spend time with people you love, meet new people, help other people, focus on something. It's not gonna be easy, but when you'll feel better, you'll see everything clearer again. If you want to cry, just cry, don't keep it all to yourself. You'll see the light at the end of the tunnel. We'll always be here for you :)
558. Aliyah Haun: I can't say anything but we love you Josh and we love you with all our hearts.
559. SPARTACUS: Tattoos helped me get through shit. Try it out man.
560. Lana Levitt: what happened?
561. K C: Just pray harder.....
562. OtakuChronicle: oh Josh I wish I could hug you right now
563. Unicornlover45: you are the best!!!!!
564. dmascorro76: josh you are still heart broken. stop looking and competing with the other side. move forward, you got it in you! I believe in you!
565. Lyndsey Stang: Josh, sometimes you have to start new. By that I mean, taking a break. Travel with friends and be alive with them. Stare into the sunset and notice smaller things. Take a break from the camera and if you're not willing to do that, film only your funny times. Take advantage of those small happy times. You're not alone and though you may feel that way, we are all connected by heartbreak. Stop and pause and breathe. You're numb but time heals. Stick to friends and they'll listen to you when you need it. Let them make you smile. Numbness and pain are normal and I know you want it gone. It will be gone. It's tough. No denying that. Nothing is wrong with you. It's pain and sometimes we have to look at it as an enemy that tries to take you down. Don't let it push you down. Fight back. Fight it.
566. Audrey Monaco: We all love you no matter what bby. Be strong and be nice to people. 😘❤️
567. Jilli Lily: GO ON BACHELORETTE
568. Nicole Lynch: Sounds like you're taking some steps in the right direction. You've been through a life changing experience and you can't expect to just get up and get on with it as though nothing has happened. Like they say, things take time. You'll get there. :)
569. Holly Silva: Hey Josh. I lovingly wanted to tell you that your worth is not dependent on what someone thinks of you, or what we think. You aren't defined by your past. It's so easy to get caught up in what ifs. And I know how it feels to be completely consumed by sadness and bitterness. I was there last year. I feel like I can relate to you in such a way that we both feel things very deeply. That's something I can just see from your videos. You are very compassionate and put your all into everything. I can see why you would be heartbroken over their family acting as if nothing has changed. But also know that you are doing the right and healthy thing by talking about it, working through it, and so on. I went to therapy as well and that helped immensely. But truly God was the thing that got me through my heartache and made me see that I am new in his eyes. I don't know you at all Josh. But something I have seen from you on YouTube is that you want to make everyone happy. You are a people pleaser. And you seem like someone who, because of this, can compromise a lot of themselves for others. You are giving and that isn't a bad thing. But it can become a bad thing when we allow these people or situations in our lives to overtake us and our lives and let it become bigger than us. It becomes a bad thing when we just find ourselves giving more than we have in us. I hope this is making sense. Something I have learned is that in our pain we search for fulfillment. I searched for fulfillment in what others thought of me and it let me down every time. Everything around us fades away. Our jobs, relationships, friendships. They all are temporary joys. But the one thing that is infinite is the Lord and that is why we must find our worth in Him. Because his love never fails and never changes. Even if you don't have a strong relationship with God or you do... I hope you consider these words 🤗The future will be such a journey for you, but this trial is going to only make you a better person than you are... and you are pretty great! God has a plan for you. I can see it. Maybe it isn't what you think it is. Maybe it is doing this. Maybe it is just being an example to others. (1 Tim 4:12 don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, conduct, love, faith, and purity.) God puts us through things and takes away the things that distract us from him. He especially does this to people he truly needs to use. And someone like you... God is going to use. You are meant for more. You are worth more than you know and your past will always be there, but it's up to you if you are gonna let it take hold of the rest of your life. And I think you and I both know that you will make it through this. And you will end up happy again and looking back on the lessons you have learned the wisdom you have gained! You are in my prayers, truly. 💕💕
570. Micaela Horton: thanks for talking .. this was my first video ive seen you do and I will be looking forward to more ..
571. Nikita Wilde: Things will get better Josh. I wish you the best. ❤️
572. Char: I still cant get over this whole thing. its been almost a year and she hasn't said a word about it since the day they both announced it. and then she has just put it aside while josh is still hurting. its not fair to him
573. Feemailgamer: So excited to see your face everyday 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 I've been screwed up too. Let's get threw it together we'll. I'll get through it while watching you get though it 💜💙❤️
574. HannahNoelle2158: Going through the same thing. Thank you...despite my broken heart.
575. NI Peters: We love you Josh!!! Divorce sucks, I know first hand, 8 years for me now. Therapy is nothing to be ashamed of! **HUGS**
576. Queen of Hearts: Wild & Free Or maybe they dislike the fact that he's depressed?
577. Mireya Munoz: Very well said.
578. Smith Family Seven: When you are in NYC, go see The Play That Goes Wrong. It's at the Lyceum Theater and it is hilarious.
579. Hannah Fine: its refreshing and comforting to see someone be truly honest and open. thank you
580. Reigna Ropero: I only know of One Thing that I guarantee will make you happy. Wouldnt be a overnight thing but you will be at peace with yourself
581. Caffeinated Curls: I know I'm late but wanted to send some words of encouragement your way! My first husband left me for someone else after a year and half of marriage. I didn't see it coming and it almost destroyed me. I lost too much weight, hair, never slept, had to keep going in to see my dr....and didn't know if I was going to make it through this and thought I was going to die of a broken heart. I clung to faith and God like my life depended on it....because honestly it did. I verbally said (everyday) forgiveness for what they both did to me, and I slowly began to feel peace again. I believed that The Lord would bless me, and decided to choose to let go and trust Him ( even on the days I wanted to scream at Him for letting this happen to me). After some healing and time, the most amazing man came into my life and changed everything. Just when I thought that I would never love again, that no one else would get me or love me like my ex husband once did, The Lord decided to prove me wrong and showed me a life that I never thought possible. I am now married to that amazing man, and we have a beautiful little boy. My life is so rich in love and I have more joy then most people experience in a lifetime. It's ok to be sad, it's ok to have bad days... but don't ever loose faith. I know it's hard to see right now, but there are SO MANY great things ahead for you. The healing period takes time, and yeah there are days when it sucks, but trust me when I say that theres far greater things ahead then the what you left behind, even if that wasn't your choice or what you wanted. So don't look back...keep going, keep trusting, and right now focus on God, focus on who you are and who you want to be <3
582. Rosemary Alberto: I love you so much /:
583. Michele Pasquarello: YES, Josh, YES! Way to be courageous. I'm way older than your demographic, and I watch you YouTube really because you remind me of my kids. I've been worried about you, but didn't comment because I'm not actually your Mom, lol. This will get harder before it gets easier, but hang in there you can do it. LOVE YOU, HONEY. -your imaginary Mom.
584. Alison Self: Depression is so hard! A lot of people don't understand, so you using your platform can help a lot of people. I finally got on a low dose of an anti-depressant and started therapy and I feel so much better! It gets better! Hang in there!
585. Kayla Meeks: I love you Josh!
586. Lacie Rice: all of us dinggleberrys will be here to support u josh we will all help u through this
587. Jo O'Brien: Jesenia Ran I would advise both of you to speak to a trusted teacher. Teachers may seem to just do a job but I promise you they are trained to help you with your problems or to signpost you to someone who can help. Don't feel like you are less for asking for help, it shows true strength to admit you are hurting and look for help. I wish you both the best in the future, you both show a lot of maturity for your age. Just keep swimming my dears, everything is temporary. x
588. Kayla D: Everything said in this video is exactly how I am feeling. I recently have admitted how I have been feeling for months now. No one knew how I truly felt until the other day. I need help. I know I need help and I do not want to feel like this anymore. I am glad this video showed up.Thank you Josh.
589. Lorie Lee: Also, I have to say that I am praying that a beautiful, Southern girl falls deeply in love with you...and this pain will be a distant memory ...
590. Tana D'Amico: Don’t let what happened to you define your LIFE. S--T happens. Don’t beat yourself up...it takes TWO. You just were not right for EACH OTHER. But, you will be right for the RIGHT person WHEN it happens. Life is SHORT. Go LIVE it. Not to diminish your sitch...but there are WAY worse things that happen everyday to people. Go visit a children’s hospital, or a cancer ward. Trust me, you’ll come out and start living your life, real quick. Rooting for you!
591. Cas: The other side isn't perfect. She is distracting herself by working non-stop. She gets temporary happiness from things like work and friends but isn't truly happy. She has also had a hard time but everyone deals with situations differently.
592. Gauri Saki: I LOVE U
593. Kat Pom: Massive step towards a healthy future, great decision to see a therapist. There's nothing wrong with you but you've gone through some tough shit over the last few months and you're having to deal with a highly edited, falsely positive view from the other side when most of us could have some space and hide while we heal. Keep the good people close and ignore the cockwombles who don't get it. Looking forward to seeing you more often (happy or not) xx
594. Donna Cox: This was so raw...open and honest. It breaks my heart to see you hurting so much. 😪
595. aimeelucig: Hey, it's alright xx You and the internet as a whole was what I turned to over a year ago when I was really struggling with depression and other mental health issues and sexuality confusion and a whole bunch of friends stuff. And I distanced myself from everyone I knew, I put on a facade of happiness every single day. But one day quite recently I began to accept my sadness and accept that I can't deal with things on my own all the time. And I never thought I'd say this but I'm starting to pull through the other end with the help of my internet family. And I'm beginning to rebuild the family relationships I let go of. And the whole point of me sharing my story is to say that the first step to getting better is knowing that you can't do it alone. You've been there to help us so many times and it makes me happy that you trust us enough to be open and get real and raw, because now we will try and return the favour and help you xxx
596. ZMakeUpLover: This brought me to tears, my heart aches for you and I hope you can find peace in your mind and your heart. One day at a time for sure, you'll be in my prayers.
597. Genesis Melendez: I love this post ♥️ I really hope his broken heart is mended. ☹️
598. austininfinityy: <3 <3 <3
599. Hunter Kalashnikov: I promise you will feel better.. you will feel like yourself again. I am so sorry you are hurting.
600. Todd Lucas: Hey Joshua, I have been through what you are enduring. I am a lot older now so I want to make a couple of predictions concerning you near future. First though, you have to decide what you must let go and what you may strive for. You will soon meet a good person that will fill your heart with a love you can even imagine right now. I say this because of the person you are and also from you openness of your thoughts and feelings you share with us out here in Josh fanland. You will soon enough tell us all that you have found a new life with love that would never be possible. You are a strong young man and you will beat all this hard and bad sad things. I bet you get a thousand prayers from us here every day, so go shake the world.
601. Deining Menon: Julien!!!!
602. Wendy DeLaney: So I unsubscribed from you a few weeks ago, your random videos pissed me off and were so different from what you used to be that I just didn't want to see them in my feed. My 17 year old son was killed a month ago and I'm working through shit there and I understand sadness, but I'll re-sub because pain is still you trying to be you. I hope to see more vlogs, even if they aren't happy it's you trying to work through your shit. I personally am gonna go clean the hell out of my house for the rest of the weekend because since my sons death I haven't wanted to cook or clean, so I'm gaining junk food weight and everything is getting dusty. I don't need any more excuses for not eating properly. I need to work through it, not ignore it. (But yes, I know I'm depressed and grieving, so are you and that's ok, I'm glad you're forming a plan.)
603. Katerina Joan: Joshua. *hug*. I know it's hard seeing the other side look so happy. But I can honestly say, every time I see the other side, I'm sad and am wondering "what's going on inside there?" And with you, at least you're being real and grieving. Not saying that isn't happening on the other side, it just manifests in different ways. You're not the only one who still feels this, the affects of it....it lingers like an after explosion that hangs in the clouds and comes down in the rain. Praying for you. And the other side. You are exactly where you should be, right now, you are bearing the true weight of it all while the other side can run. Everyone deals with things differently....💔. And thank you for being real with US about this, too. We feel it, too. She's in a place where her life is taking off in such an exciting way, she has something to lean on that helps her through this. But you may feel as though you have lost everything, not only another person but also yourself through this. It's a tragedy. I'm so sorry. <3.
604. Eliza Ramirez: You need to date little by little bit start dating stop looking at "the other side" there are great lovely women who can give you happiness. Believe me if it didn't work out one time you'll find a greater love soon start dating women who are authentic. I hope you're better.
605. Emily C: My mom and dad got divorced about a year and a half ago and they both still hurt, they moved on with the help of others tho.... we all love and believe in you and know shit sucks.
606. Savanah Miller: I know it's hard Josh but it's okay you have to let your self heal and it might take a long time but we will always be here for you and I really hope it gets better and I love you so much❤❤
607. Prisci Bega: I couldn't help tear up, cause I know this is difficult to admit and talk about. All I can say is that many of your viewers are going through the same thing, including myself, and I know that this will help a lot of us. Hopefully everything will get better soon ❤️ for you and all of us 🎈
608. Channing Wedgeworth: i'm proud of you for trying fr. josh what happened to you was shitty and awful and you don't deserve that. i've been there dude. you can do it i promise ya. let it come to you. i'm here with ya dude i just subbed and i'm excited to watch you get back on your feet
609. Shawna Kay: I'm two years into my breakup, year two was way easier but ugh it still sucks. It took me a year to start therapy and that's helped a lot but it's still a journey and makes you realize that the breakup isn't even the real shit lol, at least for me. I love YouTube because I think it's the first place we get to see this side of people, and as a person struggling with depression it really helps knowing I'm not alone. So thank you! I wish you weren't sad, I wish I didn't have both a genetic and environmental form of MDD, but it's life! So shoutout to you and me and all the people being real.
610. Brittney Lanpher: I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I can feel it just watching you talk to us. Time is the only remedy for this pain. I hope things start getting better for you, honestly.
611. Shannon Enos: Ily josh
612. Lauren 06: Everybody goes through tough times
613. Graziela Gallina: You are right when you say you are not sorry. Never punish yourself for what you need! Congratulations for your courage. All the best!
614. Noelle Silvia: I hope you can find some peace of mind soon Josh! There's nothing wrong with you. You're human. You're a man who has so much love to give, who has given so much love and you need to find a way to focus your energy and love some different way. Go through your deepest and darkest times, instead of trying to go around it. Still, we will be there whenever you need us! ❤️
615. Empowered April: We are here for you! Sending you so much love. Thanks for shedding light to mental health issues. It will take time. So thankful for my dog in my life too. He helps me a lot. Again, sending lots of love. We support you 100%! You rock Josh.
616. TheRusticBelle: As I was watching, I was thinking this same thing. We have people come in our lives for different seasons, and it sucks when those seasons are over. We feel pain and it's very real and honest feeling that we must get through. The best thing we can do is take care of ourselves, both physically and mentally and let ourselves go through the process. I think you grieving in a way, and there is a process to that. I just talked about that in my real talk and coffee podcast/video on my page. We all want nothing but the best for you both. So take your time, be honest with yourself, and trust the process. You are doing the best that you can do.
617. Elizabeth Amesbury: praying for you Josh :) life can be hard but Jesus loves you more than you know! and he wants to have a relationship with you <3 he can turn sadness into joy and he is my therapist :)
618. Hay Simp: there is a woman on here fucking fighting cancer, her body is breaking down and you are over here bitching about a divorce. Get fucking over yourself.
619. Christina Celona: I'm glad you are getting back into a routine with uploading because it makes you happy... consistency as well as therapy will help you more than you can imagine... I can't wait to "see you tomorrow" and watch you get stronger each day
620. L2N5: Lmao every other YouTuber is depressed
621. anis cr: Everyone on here love you Josh. :)
622. Brittany Wood: ❤️
623. Mandie Mia: I'm in awe of you. And I'm so glad for you.
624. The Random: wow. josh i didnt realize you felt so much like me, it's so nice to see that someone has feelings that i do (even if they aren't good feelings)
625. Lexis Beauty And More: You can’t make people believe what they don’t don’t believe in so shut up 🤐 stupid
626. Macie Taylor: Stay Strong Josh!!! All of us dingleberries love and support you!!!
627. Kathleen Bornin: This is so sad:( but it's so hard for me at least to try to understand because what happened and why like I know its totally not my business and I don't deserve any explanation at all but I'm just still so confused :(
628. Jennie Jex: OMG god bless u stay strong well try to its hard but u want get thought this u have so many loving fans love u
629. Christine Delgado: Thanks, girl. 😊 Appreciate the encouragement. And even though I'm a stranger, feel proud of you... you're doing it!!
630. Camila Notholt: STAY STRONG JOSH WE LOVE YOU!!
631. Geez Louise: hey blue eyes I can read you and you deal with the moon and what this means is that your moods shift time to time and it is o k to be you and to be alone because you need it stop being a people pleaser find who you are
632. Lauren: Relate so much to that bounce back comment. Swear I'm gonna make it, but it's never dramatic...wanna be alone.
633. Mitali Sarna: We are always by your side❤
634. The Lauren: I'm so glad that you are seeing a therapist. You deserve to be happy. Some people can just move on so easily and that does hurt so bad. I've gone through that in my divorce. Getting help from someone completely separate from the situation is the key to help you move forward too. There's nothing wrong with you for struggling to move on. There's something missing in people who don't have that struggle. From one real person to another, I wish you the very best.
635. Emalyne Grace: At the end of last summer my mom got diagnosed with breast cancer. There are five of us kids ranged from 7-19 and since I'm the oldest girl I have taken on all of her responsibilities as she is going through treatments. It's hard to not know how much time your mom has left and it's hard to raise your siblings when they don't want to listen to and it's hard to keep a house clean with a family of 7 living in it. And during the time that she got diagnosed a relationship I was in ended all of a sudden with no explanation and it was hard... it still is and it's been like 9 months. So I know it's not easy to go through hardships but I want you to know that we are all here to support you and encourage you through your journey. Love you Josh! Heres to being happy ❤️
636. Ruth Law: We are here for you Josh! We love you! Nothing is wrong with you and you just went through a terrible time. I feel like you need a break from YouTube and media in general. just spend time with friends and family!!
637. Lunnie: Of course it's okay to want to be loved. I'm saying, why not love yourself first and then share that love with another, for no other reason but to share? Why seek another person to completely depend on for love, validation and security because you feel empty or unlovable otherwise? It's not that that's wrong, it's just unhealthy for certain people like myself. You love someone because you want them, not because you need them or you'll be broken without them. I'm not a cynic or a idealist per se; I'm just speaking based off of my own experiences, and I understand that my perspective doesn't work for or apply to everyone. There's comfort for me in knowing that, no matter what, true love and security is in *here*, it's in me, and that I don't have to seek it from anyone else to feel it or experience it, but that doesn't mean I don't want to share it with anyone. Just my opinion though. Thanks for the discussion. Either way, Josh seems like a nice, smart guy. Even though I don't keep up with him much, I can tell, and I think he will be absolutely fine in the end.
638. Renée: Thank you Josh! Thank you for your vulnerability. It means a lot. Take care of yourself!
639. Sailor Serenity Moon: Some songs I listen to when I'm depressed. I'm suffering from bad depression so I know how it feels to be in a dark place. Jacquie Lee Broken Ones, Machineheart - Shelter, Colbie Caillat - When The Darkness Comes, Julia Brennan - Inner Demons.
640. bonbonzz: awww Shadow is trying his best to cheer you up, dogs are the most wonderful animals :)
641. Jenny Deschane: Josh, I was diagnosed with clinical major depressive disorder and severe anxiety earlier this year. Thankfully I sought help through a psychiatrist and a therapist. I have amazingly supportive friends and family and I know you do too! Good for you for getting help, DO NOT be ashamed! You're not alone and you will come out of this! Lots of love! Hug your pup, it really helps! My cat is the best thing for my mental health. ❤
642. Tara Croy: I have depression bipolar disorder and it's hard! I take anti depressants every day and have be in go see my dr every 6 months. I have had to go to the hospital once. It's. not something I'm proud of but I share my story with people in hope I can help someone. Don't be sorry. It's ok to be sad, it's ok to just live moment to moment. You will get through this! You will feel better!
643. Sandra Mar: Love you Josh! Please stay strong!
644. Brittany Logan: Josh, depression and being depressed isn't something to be ashamed of. It's a chemical imbalance in your brain. It's not easy to handle, but accepting it and realizing that you need help to be in a stable place is a huge step. Therapy is amazing, so are friends you can turn to. And the power of medication isn't something to be overlooked either. Telling someone who is depressed to reach out isn't all that straight forward, but allow your friends to be there for you when they sense that you are low. It's not easy to allow others to love you when you don't love you, but it's so powerful and so hopeful. I wish you all the best from someone else who suffers from the same thing. You know we'll all be here through all of this and on the other side.
645. Celine: Tu mérites le bonheur... j'espère que tu iras mieux rapidement. Très bonne décision la thérapie. Kiss. Be strong! 💋❤️
646. Jacqueline Pal: love u soo much 😊
647. Nothing 05: I feel so bad for you, you guys deserve to be with each other i dont know why this is happening.
648. BeekoKat [Marcia]: Baby steps!!!
649. Alfrancis Nuñez: I think time can definitely heal. You surely don't deserve this or her but that's life.
650. Ashleigh Meyers: josh I know sort of wjat you're going through. I have been up literally all night. It seems like sadness is consuming me. I ask whats wrong with me. Watching this video has made me realize I need more help. I am just so sad and so consumed. I wish I knew you in real life as a friend because life is so lonely because I feel like no one understands the pain and loneliness.
651. Analytical Alien: You need the love, peace, strength and life-transforming power of the Holy Spirit - but the only way to get it is to seek God w/ all your heart and separate yourself from the things of this world. You have been more focused on the things of the world than the things of Jesus; that's why you keep running into a brick wall and going in circles.
652. Katie Zee: Its ok to not be ok, someone is always here for you!!!
653. Lisa Wise: You're taking a good step to hopefully heal. I don't think the "other side" is doing fine just too busy to focus. You are amazing and I have always loved your vlogs. You will be okay just focus on you.
654. Kiralee Turpin: So much love and respect for you. I'm so so proud of how open and honest you're willing to be. It's really inspiring to watch you at your rawest and purest form. We love you endlessly, keep holding on ♥️
655. Maria Grazia D'Auria: Nothing is wrong with you and I'm sure nothing is "perfect" on the other side. You are hurting because you are human and as hard as it is, pain - even the most difficult kind of pain - shows its beauty at some point. You have to trust the process, trust your ability to see the beauty even in pain. It is all unbelievably worth it in the end.
656. Trent Brown: You are longing for a real relationship with Christ. Everything else will always be felting...I life you in pray the Christ fully save, heal, and embrace you in this hour, Amen!
657. Reanna Rebecca: Your still a good person your emotions don't change that. Think happy thoughts nothing can change you your a good youtuber your a good singer nothing can change you
658. julswed: Everyone reacts differently to pain and heartbreak, and it takes different amounts of time for everyone to get over it. Some talk about it publicly and some in private. Just because someone seems happy on the outside doesn't mean that they aren't hurting too. You need to work through stuff in your own pace, and not compare yourself to others. You are not weird or pathetic for being in the place of sadness that you are, and she's not a bad person for dealing with it in another way. Just important to remember for everyone that you need to put your focus on yourself and your journey, and not the other part and how they deal with things.
659. Jennifer Taylor: I went to Divorce Care after my divorce. It is a divorce program that offers lots of support and help movign on after divorce. They told me to expect at least a month of recovery for every year you were in the relationship. I watched people move on, get divorced after me and marry again and just move on. But, it was hard for me. REALLY hard. I couldnt rush it. It was 8 yrs of therapy, support groups, crying, anger, etc to get to a good point. One exercise that helped me was to write down all I could have done and taking it to a remote place and letting it go. Not to dismiss anothers responsibility but, to take control of my life. Do not be ashamed of your pain. Others need to know that they are not alone. YOU are not alone. Lots of love, hugs and comfort to you.
660. janie belle white: M SO PROUD OF YOU JOSHUA
661. camille: can u unblock me on twitter thx
662. Candace Abernathy: Not even with her anymore and still leaching off of her name. Nice bro.
663. Galina Is welcoming: Hay Josh, I am proud of u to showing the felling ur not happy and perfect. And what my mom's says "the world is unfolding as it should"
664. S Deutsch: The good side of the internet. This was powerful 😢
665. Charlotte Seavey: you probably won't see this but if you do, i, along with every single one of your fans, love you so very much and are here to support you through this. I've gone through a whole lot of mental stuff (brother having cancer, an eating disorder, and horrible self image issues). I used to be ashamed by those things, but they're a part of me and that doesn't make me a horrible person. we love you so so so much josh. sending so much love and support your way.
666. Danielle Martheze: Joshua I am so sorry that you are struggling and I just want to say that even when times are hard God is still there and even If you aren't a Christian know that everything works together for the good and God has a plan for your life and it may seem like he is far away but know that you can rely on him 💜 I am praying for you and I hope that the lord will supply you with some peace and I hope that you will find the happiness that you need 🤗
667. Sydney Doherty: I am in the exact same place as you, but I know things will get better for us. We deserve them to
668. Brenna Allen: It's okay not to be okay, and we are here for you. We all love you so much, it breaks my heart to see you like this but I am going to stay positive for you. I promise this isn't forever and it will end. Just know that just because you are seeing happiness on the other side it doesn't mean that everything is perfect. They are showing what they want to show. I love you and it will be okay I promise.
669. Lisa Haughn: Josh there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you! I feel the same way about your situation too, how you seem to have cared so much more than the other side did! Like as a person from the outside looking in your feelings are completely right!! You are a strong person and you will get through this it just takes time!! Keep making your beautiful music videos and laughing and doing silly things with your sister and friends! You deserve all the happiness in the world! Your friends , family and fans love you so much!! ❤️😎💩
670. Kelly Lynn: There is NOTHING wrong with you for having feelings and processing everything. It's healthy to have emotions. I hope you gain what you need from therapy and I wish the best to you.
671. LivinLikeLiv7: We love you Josh! I'm happy you really care about this situation and are doing stuff. I don't think it's fair for anyone to hate on josh or pick sides. We are always here for you!! Love you
672. Leah Harvey: dont let anyone look down on you because you are young. you are so incredible josh. its so upsetting to see you like this but its understandable. your so amazing so never forget that. praying for you mate 🙏🙏🙏
673. Ain Lerato Michele: 💔☹ I am so sorry. Please keep on getting help.
674. sydnie Roberts: Josh I'm so happy you're speaking out about this. I'm going to become a health care professional and its so sad the stigma that still surrounds mental health. Your health is important and you should put it first, we all need help sometimes, and I'm so proud you are reaching out for some. Thank you for letting us know how you are because you're important to us. Take care of yourself and BE NICE TO YOU :)
675. LezetteChristineMua: You are so strong and brave and admitting this is huge!! I suffer from severe depression I have a rare incurable blood disease and it's really hard some days. You're so strong and you'll get through it, we both will. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger and you will come out the other end. It's not easy, we weren't promised a perfect life, but we were promised it will be worth it. Josh your heart truly inspires me and you aren't damaged, your just hurting and you letting us see you makes us see that nothing is perfect. Thank you for sharing a lot of men won't admit it, you're doing the best thing for yourself by being true. I hope along the way you'll find yourself and happiness. Don't apologize for being who you are, you're awesome!!! It's great to be able to admit you're going through therapy, I am too and just take one day at a time ;)
676. Jenny Bronson: Just an observation from someone from the outside looking in. Watching your past vlogs from that time in your life, it seemed that your life was solely around her and her family. Your life (of what you shared) seemed to be 98% her and 2% you. Now you have to learn how to be 100% you. That is not an easy task and of course is up and down. I am happy for you that you are seeing a therapist. Try not to be so hard on yourself for being human, for being real, for being honest.
677. Rosanne Rowse: (@ Ferris) I've had depression, anxiety, & anger issues for OVER 20 years. yet I'm smart ENOUGH to know that the LORD, MY GOD, doesn't expect me to just sit down on my LAZY BUTT waiting for him to fix my problems. You KNOW what haunts me??? Has ever since I was a little kid, NOT KNOWING (with my first pet) that animals had feelings BECAUSE I was only 4. From the ages of 4-6 I killed off about close to 20 generations of KITTENS because I "thought it was fun" (AGAIN SMALL CHILD, I was adopted, I'd NEVER had my own pets before. Then from the POWER of God, he made my brother's Black Quarter Horse Ebony BITE ME right down close to my eye. 9-10 years old... I COULD HAVE EASILY BEEN BLINDED BY THAT HORSE. But God said "HOLD IT BLAZE!! just give her a warning bite" & she did.
678. Megan Dutton: I love you Josh! it will get better!
679. ItsLukeJackson: Joshua please don't cry, you are unique, you should remember that. I'm always by your side <3 love u
680. Savannah Tinlin: stay strong joshua! you have a strong support system with you; your dingleberries! we love you so much, and I hope therapy goes well for you :) ♡
681. Ibiralian: Hello Nick Jonas! So you are telling me narcissist can't raise money? wrong. A narcissist wishes to be admired. That can lead to a lot of good. Many people have narcissistic traits and that doesn't make them bad. Also, there are many, many ways to use people. You can use them to give you love, which is not good, as love is a donation first.
682. jbson33: Thank you for sharing that with us it was very brave of you to let your guard down to share what you told us today.you take as much time that u need to find your way back God bless
683. !!!!!????: did u get a tan?
684. Elijah Malik H.: WE'RE HERE FOR YOU JOSH!!!
685. Hayli: Praying for you. You're one of the good ones.
686. priscilla solares: Ew
687. Amberlee Woodhouse: depression is no one's fault. Keep going and working with your therapist. It gets better.
688. Sarah W.: How could someone let go of someone as real, understanding, kind, and loving as Josh? Don't worry, you will get through this. Depression and sadness is like a roller coaster. Their are twists and turns, ups and downs. Just know that every single one of us is here for you. If you ever feel alone, please don't hesitate to talk to us. Encouraging thoughts really help with sadness. We love you Josh.
689. Claudette Malespina: Love to you Josh!😇🐶🌱🌲🌹🌞
690. Christopher Brown: Rosanne Rowse 1) I can't understand a word you're saying even in words 2) just stop talking you're not helping anyone, if anything it's just annoying to see that you're continuing a discussion from a while ago 😐
691. Elizabeth De La Cruz: Things are not always as they seem, don't forget it! I know you will find your happiness again! It will be ok and don't apologize for your feelings!
692. Julia Patterson: Everyone appreciates your honesty. We support you in every way! Stay strong dude!
693. Ana Loncar: Stay good man !!!
694. YoSr: We love you Josh :) ... its okay to seek help, get well soon... I've been there..........
695. TrianaVapes💖: I feel ur pain. I fight with depression anxiety everyday. And I have since I was very little. Its not easy and it hurts. But u gotta fight through it. Keep talking about it. Dont let the haters get to u. And yes its easy said then done. I know. Bit you'll pull through. Itll be on in the end. Im praying for you. This will make u stronger in the end too.
696. landry trammell: I wanna reach through the screen and give you a hug!! stay in there Josh!!
697. Jennifer Hutton: I love your honesty. Thanks for this. What you're going through is so tough. But you can heal. Proud of you for going to therapy and for sharing that with us.
698. Jenna Someone: I'm sorry Josh.
699. Sheri Dobson: Be strong, nothing is wrong with you. It's normal to have a hard time letting go of an ex-spouse. Try not to focus on how you think your ex-spouse is doing at the moment because her life can change. Everything takes time and you will find happiness again. Try not to beat yourself up with how you're feeling. Be nice to yourself! Sending hugs from Dallas!!
700. Piri Gonzalez: I write Emails everyday. I send the same one to all of my friends. I send them when I feel sad and when I feel good. I write about absolutely everything. It makes me feel better. I do take medication but that is not enough. i hate through go through changes. I like it everything straightforward. A lot of people will say nice things but they don't really mean it. Enjoy your life. Stay away from those who make you feel bad. Be truthful to yourself and you will feel a whole lot better. Stay away from negative people. I really wish you luck. Again write Emails and feel a whole lot better. Take care of you.
701. Flawless2471 224: Wish they got back together 😭😭
702. CDodders9: Some people's lives may seem perfect and happy after a big change, but a lot of the time, they're putting up a front because they don't want to show the real world who they really are. Thank you for being open and honest with the world. I prefer real people like you over those who give up on others and put on the happy-go-lucky BS. To be frank, I think everyone who knows your story sees through her fake facade.
703. Lacy Daugherty: The only way your gonna get back the happiness you need and feel the void inside is Jesus ! God will help you josh and we really care about you !
704. Adela The werido: Amber Rodriguez that’s an offensive word towards people who actually are like that you thot ass hoe stop no wonder u support him
705. Victoria Dimmitt: You are one of the few YouTubers I watch that admits when they're not okay. One of the reasons why I love watching your channel. Happy thoughts from Indiana. 😘
706. kylee ann: One day at a time is right! I wish you the best of luck Josh!
707. Melissa Seng: Not only are you helping yourself, you just made seeking out therapy an ok thing to do for some of your viewers. Hour by hour, my friend. 👍🏼
708. Karlie Knight: I feel like I'm going through the exact same thing and you've explained it beautifully. I start therapy next week.
709. YumYumOrYuck: Josh, I don't know if you will ever see this... but as a complete stranger on the internet I feel compelled to write to you after watching you video. First I want to say that there is NOTHING wrong with you. Maybe even the opposite - maybe your expectations are too high - or at the very least unrealistic. If I was in your position there is no way I would be making videos or doing much of anything public. I would be so sad - and understandably so. Everyone does stuff in their own way. So I see you plan on making more videos. Have you considered making no videos for a while? Just completely turn off social media? I know that it is your job - but you and your well being are what is most important. Maybe do something completely not internet related for a while? And who knows - maybe a break will inspire you - give you a new idea for your channel? And please don't compare yourself to others. You know very well that what gets put out on the internet is not true to real life. Also - what you're seeing on "the other side" might look like it is ideal - and might make you wonder what is wrong with you, etc. - but have you considered that what is on "the other side" might actually be terribly unhealthy and way worse of a situation than you're in? Example: When I was in college a very tragic thing happened that absolutely shocked and devastated me. I was surrounded by people who appeared to be totally unfazed - they even kept asking me what was wrong with ME! Why would I be so upset? In the end I found out that I was the one having the healthy reaction to what was going on - and everyone else was just compromising themselves and going along some really bad stuff that shouldn't have been happening... Finally, I want to recommend that you try out a therapist who has some experience working with clients who have had their personal stuff out in the public eye - I can't imagine how bizarre and terrible this whole thing has been for you - especially with it being so public. And I am sure that you will find your joy again. Just give yourself some time.
710. Angela Jackson: JOSH ! Use YOURSELF FIRST to be held accountable. You are special! I have only watched you once before this. I just feel led to tell you it will come! JOY Peace and a sound mind. So, be o.k. Because that's what you are intended to be. Much love ❤️ coming your way! Be real and move on !
711. Jonathon Woodgate: It's ok to feel you need to seek help... talk to your doctor.. go see your GP, they can refer you to the right kind of help, whether it's clinical or otherwise.
712. Nora Marshall: I wish people wouldn't hate on the "other side" in the comments. Calling the family fake or other names. Everyone deals with big life changing and hard times differently. It's not fair to say it's disgusting for one to not share the hard times on their channel and to focus on happiness. I respect Josh for keeping everything out there for his subscribers but others don't want to do that. It's too personal for them to share with millions of people. Everyone is different and it's not disgusting at all. Stay strong Josh. It doesn't mean anything that you are sad. I beat myself up all the time for not feeling the same as others going through the same hard times but I don't go through it the same or handle it the same but I have to remember that everyone is different. I know that the light is there for you and you will get there.
713. Marilyn L: I've had the same type of year buddy, and congratulations on taking the initiative to go back to therapy. That's what has kept me going: an idea/goal, plans how to make it happen and the initiative to carry out those plans. The hardest part is getting to that idea but once you have, you are halfway there. The depression will slow you down, but you are the only thing that can actually stop you. Much love. 💙
714. Jenna L: You're beautiful. I wish you peace and happiness.
715. Jennifer Talley: I suffer from depression and other things , I understand how hard it is to admit hurt and defeat . I commend you for taking the steps to move forward
716. Lindsay Nordenhold: Hey Josh, I'm a normally silent viewer but I thought I'd take a moment and say you are strong. Being able to share your thoughts with everyone, even when it's during a bad time takes courage. I hope you find the thing to bring you back to 100%...but know that you have support and you are awesome! :)
717. Cauti0n: love you Josh hang in there bud!
718. Brynn Griffin: Can I give you a hug?😕😢🤗
719. Lililuff: Oh Josh, you're such a sweet person, don't worry because you can't always do "happy videos", do whatever you can do, i know that when you have depression even the smallest things are REALLY hard to accomplish, so seriously, don't worry, this things take time, and me and a lot of people here will wait till you feel better. We love you Josh!
720. Amy Clifton: Who cares if your videos are of you being "down"? At least your being real, instead of being an always positive, fake person.
721. sorapokeball: Mental health needs doctors too. Seeking help for your mental health is nothing to be ashamed of
722. David Olien: You are a wonderful special person. Depression does not fix itself so you have made a fine decision to see a therapist. Please do not blame yourself. Please treat yourself well. You may need a medication for a while to recover. Do not be embarrassed about your experience. Millions have recovered and you will too. There is nothing wrong with you! This is not your fault. The sun will come out for you again. I have been where you are so trust me you can get back to where you want and deserve to be. Peace David
723. Ella King: Love you josh devorse is the worst thing my parents just got a devorse and it really hurts , I'm still not ok but watching you makes me smilr
724. Erika V: Love and admire you Joshua. You'll be back on your feet soon we all believe in you😊
725. jessica jackson: I don't think she's not dealing, she has spoken openly about being in therapy. I think it's great that Josh is taking this step for himself now.
726. Jessica C: I never comment, but you should know better than anyone that people's internet personas aren't a reflection of their real life. I'm sure the other side feels just as badly as you. being publicly vulnerable about feelings is not easy and you just seem to be more comfortable expressing your feelings than she is. and both is okay, everyone deals with grief differently. it's hard now, but you'll look back at this time in your life as a learning experience one day. just focus on each day as it comes, it's okay to feel like shit.
727. Mandy Drost: You made me feel so sad by asking "what is wrong with me".. But remember, Josh, you have to face dark to realise there is light.. I believe in you, you will recover and you will be happier than ever!! Love from the Netherlands 💗
728. Brit Otterson: I'm so sorry ❤️
729. Debra Simpson: Love you, Josh x I truly understand how you feel. It can be better xxx it will be!
730. Dana Dawood: I love youu💜❤️😭
731. CALife: Why is everyone depressed, has anxiety, gay, bipolar, anorexic or suffers from panic attacks on youtube?
732. Francesca D'Ambrosio: Ei. i'm not a subscriber, i'm just a random girl from Italy. I discovered you when all this shit happened in your life and in her's. I just want to say I feel you so much beacause I've been feeling this way for more than a year now (or maeby two, I still don't know) for different reasons but I know how it hurts. Do what you feel is the best for youself and listen to your therapist, they know what they're doing (majority of the time). It's a long journey but you can succeed! Lots of love and a huge hug.
733. LacieKate143: Elvis Jansons you definitely wouldn't understand...
734. Chey Rose: I hope you get better Josh.💙 Thinking of you always. It's okay to be sad, thank you for opening up to us.
735. CarolsVideos: Hi Josh, First of all, good for you for calling a doctor. We are all proud of you for doing so. Being depressed IS something we all need to talk about more. I feel like the word "depression" is thrown around so often nowadays where people don't realize how serious it can be. I'm not in the same situation, but I have post partum depression ever since I had my daughter. It's horrible and I feel like no one understands it. It's also difficult to talk about, especially being a mom. People think there is something wrong with me or that I'm a horrible person for having PPD. I think you did a great job explaining the feeling of depression here. You are a great and nice guy and we know you will pull through. Good luck to you.
736. Real Family Journey: You are so brave for making this video. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I hope you find some peace and happiness soon.
737. Gabriel George: u are huge! .. such a big heart!
738. Kate Johannsen: We love you Josh❤️❤️
739. Aymane Shl: I can't express how much I love you ❤️ Stay strong buddy!
740. Lyn Kim Aberin: Why are y'all hating on the other side? How can y'all judge others happiness as "false"? What do you know so well? I understand Josh is hurting right now. It must be really hard. But that doesn't mean that the other family is toxic. They try to be happy and there's nothing wrong with that. Yall don't know what's going on with their lives, just what they show on the Internet. How can you tell they're not hurting offline? She works a lot and inspires a lot of her viewers because that's what makes her happy. She chose to be open to it. Some of you have no problem with her before right? But some of you choose to side to Josh, and that's okay. But that doesn't mean she is a terrible person. They cope differently, because they're 2 different people now. Maybe Josh doesn't want what she was asking. And maybe she was the one who let go. What makes you think it was easy for her? She probably had a reason right? Josh, my heart breaks that you're hurting. You created "Be nice to people" and many of your audience are doing so. They are changing the world because you took initiative. Look at that, and that's what will keep you fueled. You'll be okay soon enough. Give it some time. All the love, Josh ❤
741. Known_Terrestrial: IT WILL GET BETTER.
742. Shelly M: You got this Josh! 💕 *big hug*
743. Hannah Nicole: PROUD OF YOU! <3 WE LOVE THIS SIDE
744. Rojan Naimi: i hope she sees this. i dont want to say her name but you probably know who im talking about. we are here for you josh and take all the time you need to heal.
745. Crypt Keeper: you just need to feel the saddness or youll never get through it.
746. culti79: Thanks for your honesty and your a real stud btw!!
747. Madison Melia: She didn't do anything to him. Things don't work out for people. Marriages fail. Life goes on.
748. Sophie Kaira: I was hoping for the 'I'm gay' and I was like FUCk. But I hope he gets better❤️
749. Mahle: Emo music helped me through dark times. Twenty One Pilots in particular
750. Jessicaa: Love you Josh ❤️
751. gilma logo: I love you ❤
752. Iris Nijholt: stay strong. you are so, so loved. <3
753. Kitty Cat Koala Gamer: 995th comment ❤️
754. Amy Kelly: 💕💕💕💕
755. Jazmin Martinez: I rarely ever comment on videos but I just wanna say that it's not that you're a downer or that your videos are depressing... it's simply life and you're just being real. And I want to say I appreciate that. Something that has helped me a lot is reminding myself "my current situation is not my final situation". Praying for you during this time in in your life!
756. Katie B: Hi past josh, Hang in there. You'll be happier soon. You're amazing. Heartbreak is a bitch but the comeback is right around the corner. You're so loved!!! Be gentle with yourself. You're almost there. :-) 💙
757. Hailey Swift: i hope you become fine
758. Stephanie TM: Lmao, alright if he meant to make a light hearted joke, point of mine being was if it was meant to belittle someone's problems -- not to make someone feel as less than they had been in a video. Lol, respecting nonetheless.
759. Nicole Rossi: it's very hard to see someone i have been looking up to for YEARS be in this situation. it's hard because josh is a great guy and i'm sure anyone would be lucky to have him and it's a shame that things had to happen the way they did. he doesn't deserve this. he is truely a guy who cares about making people happy. and it actually kind of bothers me knowing that the "other side" as he refers to it isn't showing any emotion about it. because in all honesty, if you truely loved someone and you got a divorce, you wouldn't be okay. she shows no signs of hurt or pain that to me that's not right. she's portraying an image of something that isn't true. she's portraying that with a divorce comes all these great things in life and that it's not gonna bother you at all. that's not gonna help anyone. she's lying to herself and therefore lying to us about how she's feeling. and if she is okay, then it seems a bit messed up if you ask me. i still watch her videos but i give josh a lot of credit for being honest about his feelings and showing us what it is truely like after something like this happens. because quite frankly this is probably what most casss are like. and it's not okay to tell us that everything is going to be perfectly okay after something like this happens. Josh, if by chance you are reading this, you have been a huge role model to me for many years. I am probably one of your older fans but i'm okay with that. You get me through a lot. And i just want you to know that it's okay to show pain. It's okay to show that your hurting. We are all there for you, and i wish you well in the future.
760. TheCrazyMango82: AmbientSpaceNoise it's not clickbait tho, speaking out about his depression is hard for him, hard for many people to talk about And he's being honest and telling us, even tho it's "hard for him to admitL
761. Amanda Perez: I've been watching your journey for years now and I don't comment very often, but I'd just like to say hi I'm here I support you! Any time you want to talk to an internet stranger/friend about life, hit me up! Your feelings are valid, your pain is real, and it's okay to not be okay. As cliche as it is and as unhelpful as it sounds, time heals all wounds. Keep moving forward, keep being genuine, and if you don't feel like putting out a video, don't. Your subscribers as an audience are supportive and understanding and your mental health comes first. Don't apologize for taking care of yourself instead of entertaining and distracting strangers on the internet. You do you boo ❤️
762. Trinity Lee: I was in a very dark place and I know I'm young but I get bullied and people say I'm a horrible person and I suffered depression at moments still I don't feel right and other days I'm happy but like I have moments were it's so hard to smile but I'm getting better I realized god put me in a hard position for a reason and God only gave us rough times bc he knew we are strong I know you will get better💗xoxo -Trinity
763. liz v: it's heartbreaking seeing you this way Joshua 💔 I hope you keep striving for the best and keep going to therapy
764. Jaclyn Radcliff: DO YOU JOSH!!!! NO SHAME!!!! PROUD OF YOU!!!!
765. ktlynmariesmith: Love you Josh. Don't feel like you owe anything to us. It's hard to believe that the other side is doing okay. It seems happy but I'm sure that she is hurting just as much as you are. We want you to be happy. You deserve all of the happiness in the world.
766. Ibiralian: Thanks for the respectful reply. Just to clarify something: we all have our demons on different levels. Speaking of a character trait shouldn't be taboo. We are all narcissist in this era of social media and is something we have to work on if we don't want the future generations to be: "me first, me second, me third!". Wish them both the best, and hope they both work on themselves.
767. First name CoffeeLover: Don't lose hope one day you'll be happy again . Take the time you need to heal and there is nothing wrong with you
768. Nikhil Nandagopal: Josh, please keep expressing your feelings and being who you are. It's *SO* inspiring to see a (straight) guy do this - SO fearlessly - and I wish you all the very best: you truly deserve it. 💖
769. DandelionDanica: Please try church, it's the only thing that stopped that flux, and lifted me out of that hole. Give it a go, there's nothing to lose
770. TheSeriesJunkie: I hate to see so much sadness in your eyes, because you deserve all the happiness in the world. Take your time to heal and don't feel bad for being sad!! I'm sending a big hug and a lot of strength your way!
771. Peyton Dingman: THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! You're perfect just the way you are. Your ture fans will stay with you till the end.
772. L&A Sings: We all love you and this channel hold on Josh
773. Audi Lynn: i just started seeking help after I've been feeling down,sad and those negative thoughts and not my self.. after a traumatic life changing event happened in our life and just going thru the changes.my anxiety/panic disorder kicked up again and That's not me I'm not a depressed person. so I'm making the 1st step and getting help.. I have two handsome boys that I have to take care of . They need their mommy more than ever. love ya Josh your the best, chin up we got this!! 😊
774. Kellie Jones: there is absolutely nothing wrong with you, your heart is broken and that just proves that you do have an amazing heart!! she is the one that has the problem, she acts like nothing happened well that's just not the case we all know. Don't be afraid to seek help that you need to be happy! you will find your happiness again I know this!! 💖💖
775. Cooper Pooper3: You should go to disney!!!!!
776. Amanda Spinelli: Nothing is wrong with you, you wear your heart on your sleeve and you love so deep that when you hurt it hurts deep and crushes you, but you are strong and you can come out of this and you will.
777. Caitlin Chiesa: Praying for you josh
778. Naima Thompson: He said he's not gay multiple times. My god you people are so annoying.
779. CityLove83: It's ok to feel this way Josh, I appreciate your openness and positive attitude! I broke up with my ex about two and half years ago, and I still have moments and I think about him often. I'm pretty sure he moved on pretty quickly after we broke up, and I don't get why I haven't been able to myself after all this time. I wish you the best of luck!
780. Simona El Haddad: Matthew 11:28 28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Josh, i just want you to know that Jesus loves more than you can ever imagine and he's there taking care of all what you have to do is to choose to feel his presence and support read in the bible pray and i promise that you will find peace and true happiness. ❤❤❤
781. Annie Bettag: Love you Josh! You and your videos have made me so happy these past couple years and I will always support you! I hope you can have all the happiness you have given so many people! You are amazing, stay strong
782. Lj: B- Great and you are just proving mine. nowhere have I said that religion is wrong, I said that it doesn't always solve things. stop trying to put words into my mouth. I said please don't, as in don't push your beliefs. its not a nice thing, its like when you don't like when non believers say things about your god and get words twisted..all I'm saying is no one should be pushing other beliefs onto anyone. that's desrespectful no matter what. and like I said, religion creates wars and just like how we are having a disagreement regarding it.
783. Joe S: I am so glad you made this video. Depression is not something to be ashamed of. You are experiencing a lot of grief and that's ok. That's human. There are so many great comments to this video. You are not alone.
784. Lia Margolis: I'm not going to go into specifics...but I feel you. I really do. It will get better- just continue seeking help. We all love you. Sending you showers of love and warmth. Also...let's speak up about mental stuff! That's the only way it can get better...stop the stigma! Everyone has something
785. Ibiralian: The other side of the coin is a narcissist - they only care about people as long as they can use them. There's no point in wondering... Just focus on yourself :) You'll get through it eventually. You dodged a major bullet... You'll see it in time.
786. Aislyn Howard: I hope you start to feel fully happy soon.. but real fans want you to show us the real you because we are there and I wonder why "the other side of the coin" never shows that she is sad about it I get she doesn't want her videos to be sad but it seems that she forgot about it so quickly .... so I feel it is normal that you are still feeling things , but glad your seeing a therapist hope it helps 💕
787. Sdfp: I think this is the most courageous thing I ever seen someone do on YouTube. Congratulations for recognizing that it takes strength to ask for help. This is the first step in becoming the you, you are meant to be. God has a plan for everyone. And removing toxicity from your life will allow you to see His plan clearly. Rely on help and rely on Him. I'm your newest subscriber. I'm looking forward to see how His plan will unfold for you. God bless.
788. Ashley Harkins: ..for what it was. I'm sorry I didn't mean to press send on my first comment but josh idk if you will ever see this but you're an extremely handsome sweet funny guy and you're going to find the right person but you are crazy if you think it's going to happen this soon. Please take my advice and do some soul searching.
789. abner: just saying for some comments ive read on here just because she is not vocal about it doenst mean shes “moved on” she said what she had to say. this is personal shit not to be talking about in every single video (not saying Josh is, or throwing any shade at him) everyone has different processes so let them be and handle things their way and stop jumping to assumptions without knowing nothing about the situation.
790. Tia Webber: Praying for you this took a lot of courage. Don't stop reaching out
791. Dararith Tim: Wow people that dislike...just wow😬
792. Jen Drives A Jeep: H.O.P.E. - Hold on, pain ends. Just don't lose your hope, Josh. Take each day as 24 hours. xo
793. MsPunkRockk: Hey i'm glad ur talking about it and that u have decided to see a therapist. I've delt with depression for most of my life and see a therapist--it totally helps. And right now my fiancé of 8.5 yrs and i r seprating so i feel similar... i feel like a burden to my friends and family for being sad all the time.
794. AA- Gamer: viacommustdie4 I've stated that many times. Never said she isn't suffering in some way, we just don't see it, but we see josh.
795. Ruffdogg21: Fuck Depression;) I've had real problems and real struggles but this rich muhfucca isn't happy with his big house and nice car. Fuck him and fuck his fake ass depression. The reason why weak ass muhfuccas like this have depression is because their parents kept them in bubbles as children and didn't expose them to real problems. Fuck him;) Join the real world Bitch;)
796. Jennifer Walker: sending prayers ur way very good u are going to therapy.. luv yah
797. Cat Lover: Hang in there, buddy. We are all with you ❤❤
798. Ruby Atarah: my fat beagle rocky and i are sending you hugs from alaska💗💗💗💗 it'll get better!
799. Ashley K: Psalm 34:18 praying for you. and nothing is wrong with you. you just lost a huge part of your life & it's okay to mourn. focus on your blessings & know that you will be able to love again and with that will bring new joy, friends, & family
800. HeyKayElle: I can completely understand where you are coming from. Even when you are happy--it's only temporary or there is a looming cloud lingering nearby. I'm proud that you got therapy. I went through the same heartbreak a few years back and the hardest part is to have it public and have a constant reminder of what was. The thing is, you went through a loss and with divorce, you have to go through the same stages of grief as if there was a death. Except in this case, the ghost is still around--living life, maybe living happier and it sucks as a public figure because you see it so much more so than anyone who isn't on YT. I get it, it's not that you'd wish I'll on anyone but you need closure and you need to go through those stages of grief. I found myself trying so hard to make YT videos, to put up a blog , to Instagram and come off "normal" when I was broken inside. As much as I thought that I had to be a certain way to fulfill my viewers wishes---at the end of the day, you can't do that if you don't feel whole. You can only pretend for so long before you hit a wall, try to break through it and hit another wall. It's a ongoing cycle of healing and hurting. Seeking help and having and outsiders non bias perspective can really help. Even seeking a divorce group and seeing how others are dealing with their pain on a weekly basis can be a good way to see how you can apply their experiences towards your own healing. It's a journey and it's quite a bit of work. The more you ignore it the more broken you will be and it will start changing you and affecting relationships with others who do love you and care for you. Vulnerability makes you human, and that's okay. Noticing it, admitting it and trying to find resolutions for it is what makes you heroic ☺️. I support this new journey of yours and continue to keep making videos!!
801. Ana P.: It's okay to be or feel sad. It's okay to cry. Lift yourself up step-by-step, day-by-day.
802. Addison G: Project Unicorn no he misses his ex wife or still feels hurt
803. Georgia Evola: We never wanted you to face this alone. It's hard. We all know it's hard to find happiness when the dark parts of your life seem much larger. You are going through such a difficult time and we just wish all the best for you and want to remind you that there is so much to be thankful for and even if those things are harder to find, just embrace them. Live in the present and remember that so many people love you. Like you said, you get one life. Be thankful for every little happy thing bc to a lot of us, you are one of ours❤️
804. Jasmine Qin: love you, josh.
805. Latia Corbin: Madison Vasquez please hold on, you deserve a future and you have so much to live for. It may not feel like it now but things really DO get better! Sending love, hugs and best wishes xoxo
806. Megan Lyon: Stay strong Joshua 😞🙏❤️
807. Huh-wha-huh?: these real life videos are my favorite! I'm sorry you are going through hard times. I've been there and still have my days glad I'm not alone.
808. Erica Cook: I just miss ur vloging. everyday I loved seeing you and shadow
809. Jessica Forest: Well done for opening up. I've felt rubbish due to a break up for a year tomorrow whilst he moved in within a week which made me feel like our relationship meant nothing. We can get through this together xx 😘
810. Music Chick: there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. God is ALWAYS with you. Turn to Him. Everyone handles things differently. everyone reacts differently emotionally. you WILL be happy again. I know it might seem so far away right now but you WILL get there. It's a process, it takes time. Don't rush yourself.
811. R James: I have never been able to watch any of Colleen's videos since the divorce, how quickly she was able to be happy it was like she knew it would never work but made you believe it would the whole time it just seemed fucked up and she seemed so fake to me afterwards.
812. katie gurba: J K yes I do
813. Loopylu005: Seen a glimpse of what your going through, and its tough, please keep going, one day I hope this will just be a memory. I hate how sad you see, so sad. Nothing wrong with you other than your a man with a heart. Please see a doctor, and talk through your feelings. Big hug xx
814. Jonathan and Lexi: excited to see your journey! this is step one to better!
815. xFOBEVERx: depression's tough man. i've been dealing with depression for 11yrs and it sucks. long story short, i tried meds and everyone kept suggesting thearpy but i'm an awkard mess around people. my adivce to you, try to find that one thing that makes you the happiest and roll with it! love you and shadow :]
816. Jessica B: Ive been losing connection with people, and been in a chronic depressed state off and on for 6 years and its been so tough. I am trying to get seen by a therapist, in my small town you are on a waiting list for months before you can get on with a therapist. I appreciate this honest video, I feel for you. And that comment about bouncing back but only bouncing an inch or two off of the ground. I know how you feel.
817. Jami Joy: Even though I don't know you personally Josh and I don't tend to say this but I love you. I think you need to hear that from time to time. I love you we all love you. Even though you don't really know any of us or what we have gone through or personally gone through even though us saying that we love you doesn't immediately make you feel better just know we are here listening and are going to continue to be here as you get past this. I feel like I have depressive symptoms but because I am the way that I am I can never gain the courage to tell anyone what I think or what I am feeling due to past experiences. Hopefully through watching your videos I can finally muster up the courage. But always remember that we love you and we are here.
818. Priscilla Hefner: no matter what I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU! You helped me with so much with all of my bullying that I went through I love seeing ur videos no matter what it is THANK YOU SO MUCH I SUPPORT YOU
819. Y: Happiness is created not given .. stop watching "the other side" 's videos if it makes you sad .. because i believe that her moving on is the normal think to do and that holding something already done is bad for you no matter how long, also traveling to a new destination for a while will help you rethink all the stuff in a good environment. time heal everything so i wish you happiness josh.
820. One Heart One Paw: Josh, There is nothing wrong with you. I have been where you are. It takes time.. <3 Steph
821. twelge15: And if the therapist said; 'Do a daily vlog and use it to heal' use that to your advantage. One takes are fine! Nobody does them anymore because their into all this high end post production.
822. Emily hancock: That's really great that you've sought outside help - therapy genuinely saved my life and I really hope your experience is positive and it helps you out of this dark place
823. Meghan Xo: Keep your head up Josh! You will get through this dark time. We ❤️ you!
824. Sara Adams: omg he sounds so broken💔😭 all things happen for a reason, it will get better❤❤❤
825. guesswhat74: One Day Amen! We need to trust in Him! Pray about everything and worry about nothing.
826. LilTobyStaR408: They both so strategically make sure to never mention the others name. As if they never existed. As if they were never once such a huge part of each other's life. I just find that strange.
827. meeshell: There is nothing wrong with you. I have dealt with depression since I was 12. Some days are better than others. I can only imagine what you're going through. It's something we never think would happen to us. I have faith things will get better. You're still so young. Keep your head up....you still have so much life left to live.
828. Amanda Shippe: I don't know how I found your channel, but I'm beyond grateful I did especially at this exact time in my life. Thank you!
829. Kelly M: We love you, Josh ❤️
830. Maria R: I really understand how you feeling Joshua, is very hard to feel better after all those hard moments. I feel the same way keep it up Josh . Love ya !
831. Jeremy Robbins: you're my friend
832. loriru: It takes a very wise person to admit they need help; i also believe all of us do at certain points of our lives. Welcome to the beginning of getting a ton of support. The only sure thing about life is that it will constantly change. It will get better. Every single person who has reached a certain age has felt the way you do if they've been living life. Wish you the very best.
833. Edan96: Sending positive vibes your way Josh. I sincerely wish you the best on your journey of healing. Take care.
834. julio: RynnMar absolutely! God bless you!!
835. Polar Reagan: 💔💔💔PRAYERS💔💔💔
836. Florence Price: That is probably the worst thing to tell someone going through depression or anxiety. Your ignorance is a valid example of why many people turn to harming themselves. Telling someone to stop feeling the way they do doesn't mean they can. I sure hope you don't go through anything like that. But maybe then you'll know you can't control it no matter how hard you try.
837. WDZNI: would you like to do some volunteer work?
838. Elizabeth Shedd: seeking help is awesome! I've been "clinically depression" (and I use quotations because I hate saying that) since I was 9 years old. I'm now 23 and I'm still struggling to find peace. it's an everyday battle. once I had my daughter I forced myself to get better for her. once I started going to therapy and asking God to help me I realized that I wasn't just doing this for my daughter but myself! you're going to have good and bad days! just pray and you'll find happiness! I'm going to pray for you that you feel better! everyone who loves you will always support you, even through the ups and downs! I'm a silent follower but I wanted to share 1/4 of my story and maybe it'll help you!
839. Emma Rose Williamson: i'm incredibly sorry you're going through this. Jesus is the One True happiness, and if you put your rest in him, you will get through this. I promise its worth it. I will continually be praying for you Joshua.
840. Destiny Yglesia: When I'm sad or down I think about all the good things that happened to me in life. It might not work but always believe theirs a bright side in life because there is one you just got to keep looking
841. Vampiress Ashley: Don't feel guilty about your emotions. We all have them bro!!! Let it out ❤️
842. Lynette Demar: Rena Ash Absolutely the best comment! Well said!
843. Mia Catherine: Hey josh, you can get through this and I love you so much! Stay strong I believe in you! Also I understand what you're feeling and I'm here for you ❤
844. Chloe Garrett: Praying for you!
845. Daisy Groenen: Big hug to you Josh, you will get through this <3
846. sima95: I think your channel is perfect the way it is right know, I know want your videos to be happy and entertaining but let me just say you we all understand and we all need videos like this too. People should open up more. I am glad that you did this step. Thank you for everything.Stay Strong.
847. Kylee Rene: Look up bipolar disorder symptoms. I'm serious
848. Ioanna G: I have never been able to relate to another YouTuber as much as I've connected to you! There are brighter days ahead Josh, just keep holding on xoxo
849. Merrific: I just wanna hug you! And I have to say, I love those real you type of videos so much. I enjoy listening (and ofcourse watching) you and I really do hope you find happiness again! I know you will! And I will be here, every day, watching and supporting and rooting for you. Sending you good vibes all the way from Estonia (bet u have no idea where it is;))! 💕
850. Nicole Licanqueo: I've been feeling the same lately and it makes me happy you are doing something to help yourself. Therapists never worked for me so I try doing different things (like going to concerts and stuff, so I can release some bad vibes and turn them into something nice <3). To admit how you feel it's the best you can do, sometimes it's gonna be bad and it's gonna be hard, but it doesn't have to stay like so all the time. Hope you find peace in your soul <3
851. Shan Haywood: disregarding her, her career, her family, etc..anything about her (no hate, i still luh her videos sometimes)... it's not easy to lose someone whom you loved with everything you've got.. like that feeling of rejection and sudden loneliness is not something anyone really can be prepared for.. so Josh, work on finding yourself again! everyone goes through these "phases"/changes in life and it's always hard, never easy! but what you are able to get throughout this experience is everything you can hope for! Life keeps going and going and going... that's the beauty of it, you can keep trying and trying! ..I'm starting to feel like im gonna babble, but I just felt the need to let you know..if you read this, that we're here for you! we're your listeners and you're doing great and you're on a great and essential path!!!
852. Stephanie: Even though you feel bad josh, I like this side of you when you are just yourself... I know how you feel right now and I know it's hard and I'm trying to get through it too and I do the same cycles. I know eventually everything will be better and happy again though and that's what I'm trying the look forwards to and I hope we can get through this together and stay true to ourselves in the end. I believe in you josh❤️
853. Ocean and Misty :D: Aw, I'm so sorry josh , you make everything thing look ok but I understand ❤️ I hope u feel better because I know how hard divorce can be, just keep pushing and I'm glad u put this out there so we can share encouraging things with you.
854. Amanda Elliott: I can't even explain how this resonated w/ me. I feel like we are kindred spirits right now. My exact truth atm. Praying for you.
855. toxigenic: It's situational depression, you've been through some traumatic life changing events. Hang in there! Exercise helps so much! Get some sunlight every day. Medication can help and you don't have to be on it forever. I wish I could give you a big hug. You are loved!
856. K FayFay: Sent you a DM. Adult dingleberry to the dingle king. Stay strong my friend, love ya!
857. jade lima: Josh, I just wanna remind you that God loves you, no matter what. Believe in that. Rely on that. He looks up to you.
858. Piopio: Joshua corazonnn... we are here to support you and to encourage you to find serenity.. this is your channel and we follow you wherever you need to take you.. we all want you to be happy no matter what. Remenber, you are perfectly unique okkkk.. kisses from Australia 😘
859. LYNDSEY VIRGA: I just love you so much!!
860. Holly Stephens: Josh, you are so loved and supported. Every person on this planet would benefit from some sort of therapy-EVERYONE. It is nothing to be ashamed of! You are working to rebuild yourself and your life. Like you said, we only have one life, so live it! You rock and you have always inspired me from way back before YouTube knew your name at LBC :) You got this bud! 🤗
861. Gloria Lynn: Oh, and it's OK not to be OK.
862. Tee Lee: Believe me Josh, I've been through a lot in my life, and I can tell you from what I've seen, things aren't bright and rosy on "the other side". I guarantee you there's some delusion going on. But you have to find yourself again and do you. You got so used to having a focus that isn't there anymore. You do have to find another focus in your life, and that's YOU. You are okay. I know it isn't easy and you don't feel good, but you have to reach a place where you are comfortable with yourself. I hope and pray that things change for you - but it has to be in how YOU see yourself and your life. Forgetting isn't easy, but you have to look forward. Backward can only drag you down. Big hugs buddy! You'll get there, I promise!
863. Bancywanjugu Njamiu: ❤
864. R. Benedict Vergara: Okay, who are you again?
865. Julie P: We love you so much Joshua. Genuinely, truly, we love you so much. You have no idea how you've helped us, and we'll stick with you through everything you go through. I feel so bad that this is happening to you, because I agree, it looks like the other side of this is so happy, they're living their lives. And you've been grieving so badly, we see it josh. We know. We just want the best for you. You're absolutely right, this is necessary, take care of yourself please, for us. I'm so sorry that you feel like you can't bounce back, but we are here for you. It's okay not to be okay, it's okay to still be depressed about it months later, openly depressed at that. This video might've helped a lot of people, and for that I thank you. You'll find someone one day who is so deserving of you that you'll begin to feel so overwhelmed, I can't wait for that day to come for you.❤️❤️❤️
866. Red Lincoln: Josh it's not you it's them okay don't beat your self up
867. justice .khor: Hey Josh, check out Option B by Sheryl Sandberg. It helped me a lot... you can do it.
868. ABBIGAIL VANMETER: I love you josh❤️ things will get better❤️ you have been such an inspiration to me. The way you just keep pushing yourself to the brighter side, amazes me. I don't want you to stop pushing yourself to the brighter side. Things will get better! I promise you. And it's okay to get emotional about something you once loved. I know how it feels. Josh, don't work yourself to hard. And if you ever need a break, josh you take a break. And I'm pretty sure the "other side" is hurting to. Maybe the other side doesn't just show it on camera. And yes, you are more open to it, the other side is not. I love you and your vlogs. And I want you to know, from me and all the fans out there, we love you and support you, and want you to feel better❤️❤️ keep up the good work❤️
869. Anna Durance: I vote you change au revoir to à demain (it means see you tomorrow) we love you and I am so grateful for the honour to see you in this vulnerable place to see you come out of it. Thank you 😊
870. Roeh Aquatics: we love you Josh <3 stay strong. you will get through this..this is nothing to be embarrassed about. you are amazing and we all support you
871. Michael JS: It's okay not to be okay
872. jongatmusic: I love you, I needed to see this video
873. fpinto2: Hi Josh. Thanks so much for your honesty. I'm glad you are getting help. You say you want to post every day to reconnect with fans, which sounds great, but remember to focus on yourself, too. Take your time and don't put unneeded pressure on yourself to post videos, heal or find someone. You've taken the first step toward working through your feelings. All good things will flow from that organically.
874. Cookie gaming101: Everyone goes through sad times we are all here for you and I wish I was there for you to give you a hug but we all love you and we totally understand
875. Victoria Rayia: Who else saw the little dog pooping at the background 😂😂
876. Shiyndeay: I know its terrible I am the worst YouTuber
877. Vanessa Mamo: You'll get through this, you'll come out stronger and happier than ever. I'm glad you're getting help x
878. S a: the true therapist is Jesus, May God bless you💜
879. safari busnelli: it's alright joshua! don't feel bad letting youtube know how you feel. it's a good way to let things out. we love you! ❤
880. Angie spirit: Wait I'm sorry, Joshua or anyone can you tell me why he is sad sorry I just didn't understand thxs! ❤️
881. Samantha Pearson: Josh freezing love you so freeking much and you've brought me hope and happiness when I had none. Josh, please keep doing what you do because you're always so happy and positive and I love your videos soo much. Thank you for everything
882. Samantha Beetz: Joshua David Evans you are an amazing person! If you only bounce an inch or 2 off the ground that is amazing I went through similar things and I started 1/2 an inch but everyday you make so many people smile you just need to find your sunshine and if that's in a dark corner for awhile or on the internet keep going! I just wanted you to know you make me be nice to people:)
883. Jess Sharp: Josh I love u soooo much xx
884. robynn hall: Your friends and family love you and would love to help you just talk it out it will get better just takes time
885. stinky butt: you wanna be really honest, tell us the fucking reason you got divorced already. you said you wanna be accountable to the internet but you don't trust us enough to be your therapist. What's up dude? come clean already
886. Holly Minter: Stay strong Josh.. we love you no matter what. It all just takes time to heal and I know that myself as well as every other fan understands you and will stick by you forever and always. Thank you for opening up to us josh and I know it's not easy but we love you no matter what you inspire me so much and never underestimate yourself because YOU ARE EVERYTHING 😊😚 it's okay to cry just know that we will be by your side every step of the way ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
887. Jessie pope: Praying for you Josh! ❤️
888. Annabelle Slater: stay strong Josh ❤ we love u and u will get through it ily
889. chelsea magill: I love and enjoy your videos and everything you do and this video has showed me how great and wonderful person you are and seeing you take the first step to feel like you again is great. You are amazing. Different is ok because you are human and we change through the paths you yet. Keep it up.
890. Rachel Phillips: I'm so proud of you! And we all love and support you! ❤️❤️❤️
891. PiinkIcing: Josh, in your documenting or as something to add to it, you should focus on one good thing every day regardless of how small it is. Make sure you take a moment and write it down, or do something that makes you stop and pay attention to that good thing, whatever it may be. Your world will change through the tiniest of steps. Things will get better!
892. Flutterby 84: Jennifer Micek what a beautiful sentiment. Thank you for sharing ❤️
893. Devin Fitzpatrick: This resonates with me ♡ I am a week into a break up and am recognizing how much I isolate myself during hard times. I know this is going to be one of the hardest things I will ever go through but I know I can be strong and get through. You can too, Josh. I'm so happy you're exploring therapy ☺ please know you're not alone and that the people you care about want only the best for you too. Don't beat yourself up if it takes a long time to feel okay. Our emotions are not black and white. It's not as easy for some people to "choose happiness". You need to heal ☺ I know I'm just a fan but I imagine you and I would be great friends if our paths crossed for real. I hope this inspired you a little ☺ you inspire me!
894. H. DeBeau: Sometimes we don't see the blessing until years later...and that you will have a *much* better marriage someday
895. Elana: you are amazing. keep going u can. seek out other ppl going thru similar time. might help
896. melina r: First
897. Joey Floey: there is nothing wrong with you. everyone goes through hard trial and that reason is because you are strong and amazing and nice and i am so excited for these new "old school" vlogs. i love watching your channel because it truly is amazing. you are great. never stop trying. we are here for you. ❤️
898. Aquiel Womble: I started crying listening to you...I relate so much to what you're going through...
899. Rebekah Lauren: Absolutely !! <3
900. Deems Beauté: Josh, you will get through this. I believe in you.
901. EEdit MMaster: His eyes are everything lol
902. Brileigh Kocanjer: I love you Josh! everything will be great! you are doing stuff to fix this and that is great! YOU WILL GET BETTER! I love you!
903. Last First: You will find the right doctor - gets meds - may be temporary, could really help. Do whatever makes you happy to pull yourself out. That advice helped me. To do whatever makes you happy - t.v., family, friends, travel. Sports. There is nothing "wrong with you." You are hurting. Meds will help. Listen to good up music, watch funny videos, shows, go to movies - once a week? We will remember you always. Stop beating yourself up my dear. I have been there.
904. Sally Omega: I think it's time for you to discover yourself. For a long time, your ego & identity has been vested into being this certain person. Your ego is hurting cause the role you've been playing has ended. Now is the time for true growth. A lot of times, with YouTube people I feel like they feel pressured to portray certain personas and produce entertaining videos. But at the end of the day, the most important person living your life is you. So make yourself happy, put yourself 1st & fuck the results. Being real can be scary, but it will free you. I don't know if you drink or not, but quitting alcohol and starting martial arts/exercising will help you balance your mind and body.
905. Melinda Beato: feel better josh❤❤❤
906. Kristen Reyes: ZoopRanger when you see someone hurting wouldn't you try to help? We're allowed to comment what we want. He's allowed to take the advice or not. From some peoples person life Jesus is who helps them so why not offer that help to someone who is obviously hurting.
907. alyssa: You need Jesus more than anything
908. Beccagui: i still love you joshua :( i know everyone has their hard times cause i have, and you helped me a lot through that last year. whenever i got tickets to your show last year i was thinking "i'm gonna make it" and i've gotten so much better. do what you have to do. just remember practice what you preach. ❤️
909. Krissy: Aww. Josh, you are so strong. I know this video will be inspiring to people going through something tough too. I love how real you are. Keep these up, I think it'll help you heal as well as help others :) it's not embarrassing at all. This is real life.
910. Mari Mayn: I'm dealing with soo much right now. I'm 32, unemployed on temporary disability but looking for work. Feel like stress from all sides, especially family....I go to church as believe in God and who he is, but I'm contemplating on looking for a therapist...Josh, I wish you all the strength and comfort as you go through each day! The same for us all!
911. Reese Celis: Since The break up things got really bad but we are still here for u
912. Nella Linares: i'm dead anyone see the dog pooping in the back??
913. Jasmine Myers: Hi Joshua, My heart sincerely goes out to you. This touched me and made me feel like I'm not alone when I needed it. I have asked myself countless times "What's wrong with me?" I've been puzzled by my own pain. I can relate and you are in my prayers. This is only the beginning for you greater. Greater is on the other side of this storm. Be blessed!
914. Sarcastically_me: Therapy is gonna help you so much! I'm about to go back myself. Can't pull myself out of this depression, sometimes I can by myself, but sometimes I need help. Nothing to feel ashamed about. Sorry you're going though this. Sending my love ❤️
915. Willow Song: Josh I'm so glad you're seeking help, and I'm so glad you're addressing this in your videos! Depression happens to so many people, and is so devastating, and is not represented well in media at all. I hope this will help you. I really hope so. Also, time will help, definitely. Time will help. <3
916. Kerry Cruz: I've never once thought "What's wrong with Josh?" I, honestly, have thought "what's wrong with her?" You are a great guy. You will get through this. This is temporary. I promise. You will be stronger and better for it all. I promise.
917. Faeriedarke: You know how they say to fake it toil you make it? I think happiness can be a little like that too. And I say that as someone who battles depression daily. I try to see the beauty in little things and it really held to change those negative feelings. You will heal, it's a slow process, and you will have setbacks, but try not to look back and one day you'll realise it doesn't hurt so much. I wish you happiness and success, you've got a good heart.
918. TJ Bren: Clinical depression is a serious, MEDICAL, condition. MEDICAL. If you sprained an ankle or broke a bone, you're not going to be embarrassed so why would you be embarressed regarding THIS medical situation? It's just a chemical imbalance. Situational depression is a mental health issue - and no shame should be assigned to it either. Clinical depression is different than situational depression. Some of us, (yes, me included) have had both. You are far from alone! Some (or a lot) of the "cure" for both situational and clinical depression can be the same, but often clinical depression requires medication for a given period of time, or like myself, for many years. It's vital to find - or invent - the reasons to enjoy life. And document them for you - not us. YOU need that private list of things that make you smile. Keep it in your pocket until you have it memorized. Share some of that list if you want, but keep parts of it private just for you. We don't have to know every single detail. There are far more people dealing with various types of depression than we normally talk about. You are far from alone! I owned a suicide call center and we took SEVERAL thousands of calls every year. I'm proud of you for proving you're a strong person. ...This video is all I need to know that you are.
919. Holly G: Josh I have been following you for about 3 yrs. I never respond to your videos yet felt compelled to do so now. Today my son attempted suicide, police wrestled the gun away from him. He is a wounded veteran who cannot seem to find the help he needs. I say stay in the direction you are in keep connected to those who truly love you and make you happy. I am looking forward to watching your journey and send you positive loving thoughts always. 💕❤💕
920. MAURICESPIECES: I dont know your channel...not one video, but before i uploaded a very difficult one to share myself......and after i saw yours.....you have courage and I just wanted to say Thank you just for being real!! Its so necessary for many of us....you gave me courage more to be me and and....and I uploaded, so thank you...... I think you are stronger than you may think at the moment, All the Best ... Peace <3
921. stinky butt: you said it at 5.17 stop watching her videos man
922. MadisonLife123: I dont know what happened but I love your videos and I know that everything is going to be ok stay strong I have never been through this cuz I'm only 13 but I bet your pharispt (I dont know how to spell it) will help u ! U got this!!
923. insert namehere: Actually he don't need need to say that. I can already see the sadness in his eyes all these while beforehand. Glad he finally says this....
924. Lisanne Koek: ❤️
925. Jana Mynaříková: <3
926. Gracie Birchfield: all we can do is pray about things. we dont know whats next it could could get better in a week it may take months you might get worse before you get better. you never know. but just know everything is going to be alright when God is in control.
927. Kayla Johnson: Josh, my heart hurts so much for you. I hate seeing you struggle so much and I sincerely hope you find that light at the end of the tunnel. You are a beautiful human being and you deserve so much more. Just remember it's OKAY not to be okay. Healing is a long, painful process and I know I'm a random person on the internet but I hope you find comfort in knowing that your supporters are here for you every step of the way. ❤️
928. mallory: this is charlie------🐷 he is giving a bunch of kisses and hugs! ❤❤
929. Denise Ign: Josh we know you can conquer this ❤️
930. Kalee King: I love you Josh. Will be here for you every step of the way :)
931. Sharla Hargrave: Josh...thank you for being real. It's so important to be real first of all with yourself and then to others. Just remember you're amazing. It's ok to reach out, it's ok to want to be loved and listened to. You're amazing
932. Magic with Gi: Good for you Josh! Therapy is amazing and you will love it. It helped me come out of a bad time in my life. You deserve to be happy and try anything that will help you! 😀
933. Rachel Landry Saunier: P.S. You're probably one of the most authentic, honest, and raw youtubers out there. I hope things get better for you.
934. Kiki Johnson: Ashley Hiemstra ... I hate when people assume that everyone is religious and believes in god/jesus. People find happiness in different ways, if that helped you, that's great, I don't judge other people's religions because that's not who I am but he can choose god or not. Don't encourage people that that is the best/only way to find happiness. From watching Josh and Erin's videos I assume they do believe in god. I just wouldn't put out on the internet saying that being religious is the only way, people need to be confident and believe in themselves, and that takes time, everyone id different.
935. Exploring Anxiety: Nothing is wrong with you Josh trust me. Everyone goes through something in there lives just keep holding on. we all go through obstacles in our lives in different ways. Some day you will look back on these moment and be like WOW i can't believe i made it through that, and you will be so happy and so grateful for the moment your in. Going through things just makes us stronger as a person. Dont look at the bad as a burden or something negative, Look at it as Something that will help you get Stronger as a person. This video just made me want to hug you and make everything alright I wish I could be there for you in person your an amazing man and i hope you can see that to.
936. Jen I: Thank you for putting this video out there. I feel like male mental health is not talked about enough and it needs to be shown that men are allowed to feel too...this coming from a woman. Don't ever feel like you're not allowed to be a "downer." You take care of yourself and get the help you need. I watch your videos every now and then and it hurts my heart to see you so sad. I hope that at some point you can find peace in your heart and truly be happy again. Although this is your job, don't worry about what we all think (although I think the majority are behind you 100%). Your well being is far more important.
937. Reem Bassim: Josh I know you're hurting, and I know how you feel and I want you to know I will always be there for you, I love you so much and hope you feel better ❤️
938. Anai Stephania: Julien Solomita You guys are best friend goals❤Also, is your skin doing ok from the drag?
939. Elaina Witt: oh josh. This is so hard to watch. You don't deserve this one bit. Please smile we miss that smile. Go out with your friends. have someone hold you accountable to get you back on your feet. You can get through this and move forward. I love Joshua! Cant wait to watch these new videos.
940. Tcam Cam: Your life and many of your dreams were shattered. You cannot overcome that in so short of time. It comes and goes in waves. So many of us, me included, have been through the hardest time in our lives and have come out the other end. Don't feel guilty if you need to lean on people. The people who truly care for you will not feel burdened by that. ❤️ I know I felt comforted when I found others who felt the same as I. It's good to know you're not alone. And while you are reaching out to your subscribers for a little bit of support doing that in itself can bring comfort to so many others. Keep on pushing forward. It takes a lot of strength to do as you have. Keep your chin up. ❤️
941. Daria Morgendorffer: This breaks my heart. I relate so much and I am so glad that So many people in the comments support you and have such great advice. You will be better. Accept it and be who you are. You're a ball of love. Remember that. All the time. A strong ball of love who's loved. 💙
942. Emily Corum: I wanted to take the time to tell you that I'm so inspired by you. It broke my heart when I found out the news, only because I know that pain so well. It's so amazing that you're so real about your story. When you talk about what you're going through, I feel it in my heart. No one deserves to feel that kind of pain. Keep your head up, don't let your happiness reside in someone else. You are strong, you are in control of your own feelings. One of life's three best lessons is heart break.
943. Aliza Ahmad: Josh i personally really appreciate these videos as it gets us to know you better and honestly, you wanna make these videos everyday then go for it! you shouldn't have to feel guilty for it, and we all understand what you're going through...best of luck
944. lahdeedah358: If you need there is a crisis textline 741741
945. sonder: "the fact that our heart yearns for something earth can't supply is proof that heaven is our home, God is our father". ❤
946. annasparkles: poor josh!!! i am so sad about this! someone like josh doesn't deserve this. i am not choosing sides, because i love both people in this story. all i am doing is listening to josh right now. i am so upset about josh being sad. it is so okay for you to be a "downer" you are nothing but happiness and if you don't feel that way, it is so not your fault!!
947. PATRICK CASARES: i jus Subscribed to your you tube iam looking forward to go through your journey with you you seem like a cool dude
948. Just Sheilz: it takes time
949. It'sLit 10210: I finally got over my EXTREMELY DIFFICULT struggle with depression.(a year and a half and somehow i made it thank god) I thought the one thing that would be good for me was to pretend like I was okay. the first step to healing is to admit to YOURSELF u are not ok and go from there. Life WILL get easier Josh and judging by how difficult it was for me I will forever admire how strong u are to make this video. ILYSM and i hope knowing other people understand will make u feel better
950. Sadie Knox: I also recently started therapy for depression and anxiety and so far it has helped me. I hope you enjoy it and it helps you get through this hard time. We love you Josh, thank you for sharing your stories with us.
951. Jacqueline M.: We love u Josh ❤️
952. Jenni: Thank you very much, I know I am lucky to have found this out before the wedding and I will be better off without him. Thanks again :)
953. Rachel Arrigo: I can't believe I'm admitting this, but my depression and anxiety was so severe that I had to go to the mental hospital and now I'm getting help in an outpatient hospital and trust me it's hard. It will get better though even if it doesn't seem like it now.
954. Swan Queen: Im so sorry Josh... i hate her so much for breaking your heart. She is so ugly and selfish, you deserve better and i really hope you can heal soon. We love you! Take all the time you need to be yourself again.
955. Megan Martin: Josh thank you so much for your videos. I love you so much. Ever since I first subscribed to your channel I think about you like a brother. Your videos mean so much too me and your channel is what keeps happy and have laughter in my life. Keep it up. God is your strength and keep your heart open to whatever life comes your way.
956. Maria Morales: Thank you for being so real and its good that you are choosing to be happy nothing changes from one day to another but time will help 😊
957. Brian Miller: You got this Man! Gods bigger than this!
958. craisins 86: Rosie try deep meditation and lucid dreaming, even OBEs... sounds wacky but it worked for me xxx
959. Denise Davis: There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you. You are a man with a big heart and the bigger the heart, the bigger the heartbreak. You will get through it in your own time. Don't judge ymhow far you have come against how far anyone else has come. it is not fair to you and no two people are alike. And of course you are different! Hard life experiences change us all and that is okay. Just be who you are now and all of your supportive viewers will love you for being you rather than putting on a fake smile and pretending everything is ok. It takes too much out of you to have to pretend all the time! You are allowed to be depressed and anyone who truly cares will totally understand that. My thoughts and prayers are with you wherever your new journey may lead.
960. Eden Shevel: Josh this video made me sad 😭. I feel ya. It's been hard to watch u like this. U look sad, lonely and depressed. I'm happy your talking to a therapist because maybe that will help u come out of the shadows. I hope u feel Better. 😉👍
961. Katie Phelps: wow i know this was a year ago but this is so rude lol. find ur humanity pls
962. Jennifer Hammersmith: Thank you for sharing. You got this! We dingleberries are here for you.
963. arystocats _: Hey Josh, I went through a really rough break-up from a really intense relationship over 5 months ago. You don't have to read this if it is to long for you but I wanted to share some of my thoughts because ever since I have this feeling that I can relate to your situation fairly well. I am still hurting really badly and a lot of my personality and life has been altered because all those negative feelings seem to just suck all the life out of me. I do see some progress as I am not texting him anymore or any similar stuff, but I still think of him many times a day, I still want him to be there during the night etc.. I am terrified of him moving on because I am clearly not even barely there yet myself. I get that feeling of looking at the other side and just being frustrated and bitter because they seem to do so well without you while you're just seem to stand at one point, hurting and hurting. But trust me, if your relationship mattered, a) they are probably also still hurting and b) they will definitely not want you to know that you are. (and in your case I guess c) what you see is through a very selective filter, trying to convey only happiness remember that. just because they are not sharing the sad parts does not mean they're not there). It may be that they're better at keeping themselves distracted or at convincing themselves that they'll be fine, but that's just people being different and that's okay. You deal with your stuff and s/he does with theirs. It's not a race. It might feel like one, but it really shouldn't be. Just breathe when you're about to peak over again, collect your feelings and walk away. It's not your life anymore. It hurts but it won't stop hurting if you continue looking and comparing. And if you slip up, that's okay. Everyone has that. That's why I chose to absolutely minimize the possibility of me being able to get insight into his life. And it has been overall treating me well. I have been seeing a CBT therapist for some sessions now. He's great. He makes me feel so empowered, even if it's just for an hour or two. And I feel good about doing something and working on sorting my head out. I started to question my toxic thoughts a lot more often. Usually 'what's the point?/what would it change?' helps the most, cause it usually ends with you realizing the toxic thoughts were pointless. I wish you all the best.
964. Kinda Jess: I truly hope that these vlogs everyday will document you progressively being happier over time and being better. Keep your head up Josh 👍🏼
965. Smiley Munoz: Your amazing Josh ! What ever you do never stop smiling❤️ Be who you are and we are right behind you... supporting you🙌☺️ Sometimes life can get the best of us, but don't let it get you down. Love you ❤️ Keep smiling 😉✌️
966. Ellen Robinson: I was so happy when you decided to take back that apology for being real. Here to support. Congratulations on the therapist!
967. jreggy: Joshua, I do know what you mean. the bounce is always less than the fall and you fell like its so dark around you. There are a few secrets to getting through this. firstly go see a therapist along with your Doctor. Secondly as hard as it can be, you need to step out, bring your friends and family around. Enjoy their company, have a laugh. These people will help to carry your through, you don't need to burden them with the problems unless you want to, but just enjoy their company, however you need to be honest with them if they ask. What ever you do, DO NOT separate yourself from everybody around you. if you do things will only get darker. Oh BTW grab some vitamin B and stay away from things that contain alcohol. Alcohol drains your brain of Vitamin B. I hope this helps mate
968. Brooke Hodges: God's got you!
969. dickbender: meganjerai i didnt even say he was gay.. why do u have to associate "coming out of the closet" with being gay? bi ppl exist too hun
970. Heather O'Day: love you Josh! #dinkfam is here for you #dinkleberries FOR LIFE
971. Taylor Paige: Amanda Jeanne - I agree, but that's not the point. Her intentions were pure and her words were kind. Try to speak the same. :)
972. With Love From Hart: Try some weed
973. Top Notch Stuff: It breaks my heart because i really want to help him but theres not much i can do
974. Jacob: when your views are going down so you hang onto the sad videos with clickbaity thumbnails so people watch and feel sorry for you lol
975. Amy Hutchison: ❤❤❤
976. Nyrie Kathryn Hadnot: ❤ I know how you feel Josh. I've gone through periods like this where i just want to isolate.
977. blessedarethebroken: You are simply precious and I've been there
978. Amanda Panda: There is 101% nothing wrong with you and the sadness you are feeling. There is definitely something odd about the happiness the other side is feeling. I wouldn't expect someone who had a divorce not even a year ago to be anything less than that state you are in
979. Ashley Gehris: Josh you are so strong and are capable of more than you can imagine. I think investing your emotions in vlogging/youtube will do wonders.. I'm not saying this just as someone to watches/enjoys your videos. It is VERY important that you do not fake happiness but stay strong and things will turn around. E V E R Y T H I N G happens for a reason and it is important to remember that even though it is hard to believe. No matter what shitty situation someone is in, there is always something positive to take away from it. I know you're more than capable of using this experience to make a huge difference or even become a more genuine version of yourself than you could ever imagine. I love you and so do so many others. NO ONE expects you to know what's going on in your head.. I, including many others do not know what's doing on with myself half of the time and I struggle with that. These struggles only make everyone more well rounded and stronger. See you tomorrow!! love you
980. SHELIA_Diamondneye: You HAVE to find a therapist that you feel you can tell him/her ANYTHING. Talking to a therapist will help A LOT, if you don't feel a connection after the 3rd visit then please see a different one. Hang on and stay strong
981. Shelby Williams: I'm so proud of you Josh! It takes a strong person to do what you are doing. We support you forever and always. 💜
982. Matt JVLOGS: Stay Strong, Josh!❤️
983. Abbycat17: I love you I am here for you
984. Crystal L. Glenn: Aww poor you. I been there. I hope you get well soon. God bless you. I'm praying for you. You're going to get out of it. Eat healthy eat electric foods they will help you on your journey to recovery. It's one of the many things that helped me.
985. Rob DeHaven: Josh, when you stop comparing yourself to others and only focus on yourself, your life will get 100% better. I know it is easy to say and even harder to do, I've been there. Don't worry about the excuses, or feeling guilt over how you feel. Own it. Live it, but don't dive into the self pity. Honor your feelings because what has happened to you SUCKS! I found sharing what was going on with my situation helped me and along the way helped others in the process. I hope you can continue to work on moving forward without looking back to often. Take care of yourself Josh. Life is all about ebbs and flows.
986. Kaylan Madison: I have so much love for you Josh you have no idea..
987. Ice The Crystal Gem: FUCK YOU GO HAVE GAY SEX WITH YOUR MOM DUMBASS NIGGA FUCKIN SLUT
988. Kristi Metz: never feel like you're bothering ppl. a lot of ppl love and care about you and will always be there for you. have you thought about keeping a journal? don't cry but if you do it's ok because we know that you are human and aren't always happy. I wish I could give you a great big hug. I love you when you show us this raw side of you. shadow knows you're sad too. I'm glad he can make you smile
989. Leah Moran: brianna Mendoza whatever you want to believe
990. Renegade Music: Holy shit! Can you imagine being this far up your own ass? No one cares!
991. Nell Urso: Judging from your comment, you probably are a fan of Josh, and coming from his side and only knowing his side, sure I can see where one could come from but she didn't do anything wrong and neither did he. If you're not in a happy relationship, why would you both want to be miserable? Both of them are so amazing and she is not a bitch at all. Of course, you're going to continue to support Josh and I have nothing against it, but I don't think you have the right to call someone a bitch when you don't know the other side ....................
992. FamilyGathersHere: Going thru similar things you are I get in my own lil dark corner as well and wonder too whats wrong with me I get better then worse its like u said everything Im feeling 😘 hugs thank u 4 sharing makes me feel connected
993. Christine Alwaysbelieve70: NEVER be ashamed of being depressed. Life in general is tough and then adding everyday stresses can be hard to deal with and getting help is ok. We all need help up at times.
994. Fiona Talle: ❤️❤️
995. Nikki Boza: U ARE SO BRAVE FOR SHARING YOUR STORY! YOU ARE NOT WEAK BUT YET A SOLDIER IN A BATTLE FIELD! U ARE AMAZING YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS BC YOU ARE A FIGTHER I HAVE GONE THROUGH DEPRESSION AS WELL ITS NOT EASY EVERYONE TRYS TO TALK TO U BUT IT DOESNT MAKE U FEEL BETTER GET MORE HOBBIES MAYBE TRAVEL GO PLACES U BEEN WANTING TO GO
996. Sweef_20: hey I can tell whatever your gonna say is sad love you
997. Mrs. Kitty: Savanna Maneritch ok HE'S wrong here. Not this fake woman who made a video to the whole world to excuse her actions. She's just as bad as Kim Kardashian, marrying a man for publicity then suddenly realizing what a misstake she made. How about you stop acting like the sinless saint and fess up to part of your vanity.
998. Rylee: You should look into therapy trust me it helps
999. Alyssa Thomas: You're on the right track josh. Stay true to yourself and the things you're feeling. I've been dealing with anxiety and depression for 5 years since I lost my mom in 2012 when I was 22. It just came to a head after a breakup with a guy I was so sure was the one. I changed and after some time and my coworkers and family noticing me losing weight and just being withdrawn and different they came out and told me and asked if I was ok. I wasn't and I spilled my guts. I've recently been getting help also the last few months trying different antidepressants to help. Never thought I'd be one of those people but here I am, and it's the best decision I've ever made. Just something to keep in mind if therapy isn't enough. You are so strong and I know how hard it is to take that first step admitting you need help. I get it. But know you aren't alone at all and things will get better and you'll see things clearly again. God bless and thank you for your bravery💙
1000. Veronica Quinn: Sending you all my love and light ❤️✨
1001. ravengurl92: You did the right thing by getting help. I went through a period of depression 2 years ago when I lost my job. I had a lot of trouble finding a new job and my best friend was doing an out of state internship at the time. Not having her around to hang out with made the situation even harder to deal with. Looking back on it, I wish I had gone to a therapist for help instead of just hiding in my room all the time. I'm sure it would have really helped me. I'm glad you are getting help and not letting your depression take over your life anymore. We love you Josh!!
1002. O K: God help you Josh
1003. Keri122: It's really okay not to be okay. It's going to take a while to get back to yourself and that's okay, too!! I think if you said you were totally fine, everything is a-okay, I wouldn't believe you. The ''other side of the coin'' is just moments from a day, a week, just like anyone else's vlogs, what happens when the camera isn't on? Do not compare yourself, your feelings, your emotions, to anyone else. Be you. Be true to what you are feeling. It IS okay!! You are loved. All I can suggest is that anytime someone invites you over, to go out, to a movie, to a grocery store, GO. You won't want to, but go. Forcing yourself to be ''normal'' will open you up to being ''normal'' again. I was in a dark hole a few years ago and it was ugly, it was hard work, but Im okay now. You will be, too. xoxo
1004. Alexis Coleman: Love you josh! ❤️
1005. MISSY and GG's WORLD: FIRST!!!
1006. Taye671: I am sorry you are going through this. I am glad you are talking about it. It is better to say it out loud and share what you are feeling. We all go through pain, and suffering in life. There will always be good and bad times. Stay strong, there is nothing wrong with you. Suffering builds the person we are or will become. You are amazing, incredible and you feel deeply with your heart. Share your heart, thoughts and emotions to keep your sanity. There are people in your life and people that you've never even met that you've touched beyond your life. You are beautiful, touching, loving, and full of heart. You will get through this! Make note of three things each and everyday that you are thankful for. no matter how small. Think of these things and bring a little positivity into your life. I adore you and I implore you stay strong. You have a beautiful voice, keep sharing it with the world. I wish you the best. You've got this!
1007. Emma Lough: I wanna give you a hug so badly right now
1008. RynnMar: I feel compelled to tell you Josh, that Jesus Christ who loves you so much, is tugging at your heart. He sees you hurting and wants to fill you with His love. Don't hold your feelings back, if you want to shout - SHOUT them to the Lord! That is all I have to say. I'm praying for you!
1009. Suicidal Squid: We love you ;-;
1010. tinagirl10: Joshua I love how open and honest you are keep working on you and we will be there for you
1011. Chamara Fray: Prayer is Key ....God doesn't give you anything you can't bare! Better is coming dont give up! I understand your pain its good your learning to not hold it in.. Remember we love you . #benicetopeople #weloveyoujosh!
1012. Kara Quigg: My husband's first wife left him, and he was devastated (obviously). It's so awesome how The Lord provides. We met at church, and got married within a month. Now we've been married for 4 years and I'm pregnant with our second baby! We made a commitment in our marriage... For life. 😘 I hope this shows you that great stuff can come out of the most horrible of circumstances.
1013. Jordan Reason: Josh, this was so raw and real. it was beautiful. I relate to you almost word for word. I shrink into dark holes and seclude myself because I don't want to be a downer.. I think to myself that this could teach me how to be strong or I am obligated to learn how to be strong..but I've been learning the same lessons that you are. i encourage you to keep reaching out to those who will help you and lift you up. I encourage you to reach out to things that inspire and motivate you. I encourage you to learn how to truly love yourself...a little more each day. Nothing is wrong with you. Out paths teach us so many beautiful lessons in each chapter whether they are dark or light. I believe in you. I believe you will too...in time. God will hold you up each day. Do NOT feel guilty for needing time to heal..whether you know what you are healing from or not. That is part of learning to love yourself and grow in life. There are so many people that will support you including myself and those around you. Hang in there. It felt good to hear this video. I relate so incredibly much.
1014. kirbytron 3000: Joshua, i'm so proud of you. I can hardly talk to people about my depression and you're telling the whole world. That is seriously admirable. People need to know that it's ok to talk about mental health just like physical health. Your world will shine again ❤️
1015. Dayna Torngren: Don't be hard on yourself. Worry only about today. That's your one job. Love you 🌺
1016. Jay: yeah..I cried..I know everything will get better Josh. it takes time to get over this. you're making the right decision with therapy. you have my prayers 💕💕
1017. Chloe Brooke: You always make me happy when I watch you. It always makes me feel better when I have a bad day at school. Which is basically everyday. The people in my school are rly mean to me and I always want to cry when I'm at school. But everyday I feel better when I want you. An example is that people laugh at me and are always mean to me and don't include me and talk behind my back. There's a lot more. Like I'm never confident, I have to be aware of what I do by I might me made fun of or laughed at. I'm so sorry what you've been going through and I hope you feel better.
1018. s Jones: Josh it's ok Catyln Jenner is a hero for being true to her self! You can do it tooxxxx good luck hunny. Councillor is a good step to deal with your inner conflict.
1019. J G: Josh you probably won't see this but if you do, its okay to cry. You are so real and are human, the thing is she is in your past. Where is your ? Look behind you can you see it? Look to your left side can you see it? No Look to your right side can you see your past? Nope because it doesn't exist. We are forever evolving moving forward. I don't think any amount of counselling will help because you have truly not gotten her out of your heart. You are saying why me, and why doesn't she suffer etc.. It will take time but instead of looking for something that isn't there, look into the mirror and say I'm worth being happy. I'm worth feeling love again. I'm worth being healthy and fit. You are the only one that can make yourself truly happy. No amount of money, sex, love, spiritua, friends, family etc... Only you, and until you can accept what has happened and try and move forward you will be stuck, depressed and miserable for a long time. You are a very good looking man inside and out who deserves true love, peace and happiness. I hope you will let yourself feel that again☺
1020. Ethe Rike: Can you not with those dramatic titles? Gosh.
1021. laurajoymarie99: one day at a time. you'll get through this! :)
1022. Kay W: Thank you for making this video! I've been having the same type of feelings a lot lately. I keep thinking what's wrong with me? Why can't anything work out just once for me? Everyone else seems so happy why can't I be happy too. I TOTALLY get it. Don't ever apologize for not feeling happy all the time. We like honesty and it helps us not feel alone too. Everyone goes through horrible things and I believe everyone goes through times where they are really depressed. Life can just be really hard.
1023. Chris'Creatives: it's from Jessie J's 'Who you are' :) Look it up !
1024. Halle Sweeney: You will get through this josh. You
1025. rjjj: I've never seen your videos before but this is a really touching video. I really hope whatever you are going through gets better. I love that you can talk so candidly about it. You will get there! xxx
1026. Tony: Josh you're awesome, but guuuuurrrrrlll get over it. You have so much more to offer this world than break-up-josh!
1027. Angela: Hi Josh: I understand what you're going through and I just wanted to tell you something that always helps me through my depressive episodes. There's a beautiful song by Imagine Dragons called "It's Time" and one of the lyrics is "the path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell" and this lyric always helps me. I just wanted to share that with you :)
1028. emmaccoleman: I feel terrible for you
1029. Jennifer Bustos: Stepping into the therapy room is the first step to freedom from the prison you hold yourself in. It's tough for a lot of us to realize that needing help is nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed by. Good job in taking your first steps and I hope you find the happiness you seek.
1030. y4sm33n: Wooooooooooooo you're back!!!!!!!!!!! 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻
1031. Emily Guth: we know that you are here for us but we are definitely here for youuu! 💖💖
1032. Danni: So much emotion in your eyes it's heartbreaking just keep being you josh that's all you need to do xxxx
1033. Madison McNeil: Thank you for being you. Therapy is awesome - I've been before and it's helped me through so much. I'm glad you're going to be making vids everyday! I hope happiness is on its way soon for you and I know it is - because you deserve it! <3 Love you so much!!!
1034. Brooke Frank: Please cover the song Happier by Ed Sheehan! It fits you so perfectly and you have such a beautiful voice. You are so wonderful and strong I know you will eventually find joy again! This earth has trials on it but God gives peace beyond understanding 💕
1035. emweeriot: I suffer from depression and have done for many, many years. I first took the step to get help 7 years ago and its the hardest thing I ever had to do. Through a combination of medication and therapy I am able to get through my day to day life. Even though it is still a massive struggle for me, having public figures like you admit to having mental health problems really helps people like me to feel more normal! I love you Joshua! 💘💘
1036. Elier Rodriguez: Josh, love you and I relate to you in so many ways. You. are. enough. You are doing the best you can at the moment and that is enough. This week I painfully learned that I need to speak to myself the way I speak to those I love. To be kind , patient , and loving with myself to remind me that I am enough. You have all that you need to move forward. You're equipped and not missing anything. You are enough - with care and love, you're Fan Elier
1037. Carly but really BATMAN: Are you familiar with Kati Morton's channel? Because her channel is amazing. You guys should collab!
1038. { HMB }: All I can say is your not alone. You will get to the other side!
1039. Lexi Oliveira: We're all here for u Josh💗
1040. kei leigh: this made me tear up ohmygod 💔 i love you both so much, please stay strong and remember that everything'll be okay. you'll be okay!!!! just focus on things that makes you genuinely happy!!! ilysm!!!
1041. Sarah Lion Heart: Praying for you ❤️
1042. MrsJWife: My husband (unfortunately soon to be ex) is having a chemical imbalancement (also, has only been treated for 1 issue and not the 2nd issue/under diagnosed) he is going through a rough patch. I am disabled, living in severe chronic pain and understand illness, he doesn't understand how I have been able to forgive some of the issues that he had dealt my way (I have heard some negative comments etc., from him. Never knowing if he would be Dr. Jekyl or Mr. Hyde when he came home.) for 12 year and I have had to explain, how would it be fair for me to judge or hold him accountable for an illness. I am not saying the two of you are going through same experiences. But my prayers are with you (((🌹))). Many blessings.
1043. Nicole Kornhaus: You will get back to being happy but along the way don't make yourself feel bad for growing
1044. Laced WithLacey: God is the only one that can fill that void. Sending you prayers and love.
1045. Project Unicorn: Wait I don't get it IS HE GAY OR NOT!? NO OFFENSE
1046. Kristin Laurens: It's okay Josh! U have every right to feel sad
1047. Ali Baker: It's ok to be not ok. Being human is incredibly hard and to share what you have shared takes strength and shows strength. So please take care of you and keep on keeping on . Sending you love and light xoxoxox
1048. Talley Minich: You definitely deserve so much happiness! Thank you for being vulnerable and raw on the internet, that is is something a lot of us need to see in a world that's full of people trying to make their lives seem perfect. Keep hangin' in there, I am absolutely certain that God is bringing great things your way ❤️
1049. Natalie Taylor: we love you! proud of you for trying to stay positive even when it's difficult to even want to get out of bed. you can do this and no matter what we will always support you and be there for you! 💙
1050. Inthelifeof Marshmeadow: Subscribe and support Joshua
1051. Rhea Linan: Stay Strong josh! We're here for youuu 💪❤️
1052. Zarin Tasnim: do a meet up when you're in Philadelphia. that way you feel more connected with your audience and have a great time as well! hope it all gets better :)
1053. Prince of Clouds: Ashiikinzz bet he wont. i asked him and he didn't
1054. Kendallnicole Vlogs: Much love❤️
1055. Nicola: It's ok to not be ok Josh, particularly considering the circumstances! Talk about it, vent it out of your system. It's a far, far better thing to talk it out than to let it build up and become worse as a result
1056. The Helpful Assistant: keep going on your healing journey Josh. Thank you for being real! :)
1057. Sabrina Wang: Josh I really hope you get better. From past experiences I know being depressed isn't fun, but I know you'll get through it. Good luck😊
1058. Nicola Angela Doody: You are so sweet josh. I hope that one day you will find someone who will be Mad in love with you. You are a kind lovely handsome man and there's not many like you around these days. I've been hurt so bad and got so badly depressed and was talking to Someone about it. because I fell in love with a man that was violent and I was afraid of being alone so I stayed with him. But now after two years of heartache I've now found a man that I'm mad in love with. and still to this day I am depressed but I am getting better it does get better it takes time. But one day you will look back at this and think to your self I'm happier then I've ever been happy before I admire you josh 💕💋💕💋💕💋
1059. Marlissa Cunningham: Awe! Are you seeing Ryan and Misty? I miss them. I grew up with Misty. We danced together. They're both amazing.
1060. Fifteen hundred dollars: my gaydar is going off you have to be honest and admit your either gay or bi and find yourself a man.
1061. Brooke Loffredo: Harry Krinkle What was the announcement video? I missed it!
1062. Lillian C: Josh you're so loved honey. Nothing is wrong with you. You've been through so much. We just want you happy again. Love from Nashville.
1063. Katie Erin: Hang in there Josh. There will be great things in your future, you just can't see it right now through all of the pain. I'm glad to hear you are in therapy. I think you will really benefit from it. Please don't be so hard on yourself and think that there's something wrong with you just because you feel depressed. It just means that you have a heart and you feel things deeply. This is a good quality to have. I will be praying for you.
1064. Ally May: I'm kind of new to this channel so can somebody explain to me what happened?
1065. Maxime Moone: You can't force someone to be in a relationship/marriage they don't want to be in.
1066. Laurie Beth H: Glad you made this Josh! I've dealt with depression for about 20 years now. Getting help is the best thing you could've done because it's just not possible to fight it alone. It's a huge battle you can't understand unless you've been there.
1067. Jessie Rivers: It's ok Josh. It gets better! Wait for the storm to pass for the everlasting rainbow!❤️
1068. Christina: I think you made the right choices by finding help. Many people wait till it's to late to get help. You are fantastic, and incredible..even if you are down. You lost not just one person but a family, and if people expect you to just be up and running after that they are crazy!! Take your time and heal. I believe in you. We all believe in you!! Sendinf love and prayers your way ❤❤
1069. RyanH: I'm sure it must be hard for you. Do whatever makes you happy. It takes time, but remember we're here for you even though we're miles apart. <3
1070. TRACY BORGHESANI: Oh Josh, I am soo soo sorry. Ive been there. I know you will work through this. Please dont continue to shut out the people that CAN and WILL lift you up. Its okay to hurt and feel bad but those people who want to help should be allowed to also. Even Shadow. Dogs can be the best form of therapy. Youre right, youre roughed up, to realize it. You dont have to move forward quickly. Baby steps. Im sure the therapist will help you with that. I look forward to seeing you through this.
1071. Kaity Baker: I love you. We love you. It's okay not to be ok, and it's okay to seek out help. We'll be here for you every step of the way. xoxo
1072. Just Dani: Extremely proud of you! Much love!
1073. Kelly Lynn: oh baby boy, i feel your hurt. Don't quit. Keep going even when there is nowhere else to go!
1074. Sarah's Artistry31: I was just thinking you should go to a therapist. I am so happy you went to someone to talk. ❤❤❤ I know you are hurt, she hurt you. I'd like to think most of us here have unconditional appreciation/love for you, so we support you and understand. please be unapologetic towards your feelings. One of the things I like best about you is that you can be real with us and tell us how things really are. this time in your life right now is about healing, and in order to heal you gotta go through the sad spots and that's OK. ❤❤💪❤❤ your life took a 180° and things like that need time to heal. xoxo I hope you read this! 😊
1075. _bleeding_rainbows_88: Meg ty, I'm trying. I'm scared because I don things impulsively esp when something goes wrong, it's always an "out" for me and I'm not afraid of death, I welcome it actually
1076. 오하니: I feel the same way. I am also depressed. You have the right to feel bad and show it in your videos. I hope you feel better soon.
1077. sarahh1306: It's okay not to be okay. You will grow from this, you can do it! xxx
1078. Lilly Chambers: first comment
1079. Nece M: It's so hard to admit you need or ask for help.. I'm glad you realized that you could and found an outlet where you can just focus on you and feeling and getting better and happier. We're all rooting for you, Josh!! take care of yourself. <3
1080. Lauren P: I know I've sucked lately at keeping in touch with you but I promise I'm sticking by your side for life. Love you so much buddy and I know you're going to get through this. Praying for you. 💗
1081. Shadowthehedgehog623: I feel for you Josh. I can't begin to imagine the pain you're going through. I guess these things take time. The past needs to go further and further away from you until you see it as a distant memory. For Josh and anyone else going through pain like this... stay strong, focus on yourself and your happiness. Surround yourself with family and friends, never hold back tears and know there are always people willing to listen. And for Josh honestly I would say try not to watch Colleen's videos no matter how tempting it is. Unsubscribe to her and her family and ignore any Youtube recommendations that involve her or her family's videos. The more you see her, the more you'll be reminded. You are an amazing man, and this is not where your journey ends. Your soul mate is still out there ❤
1082. BruisedUpDollieNails: The best thing you can do is love yourself. Put yourself first. You are taking the steps to properly heal and that's amazing! You're an outstanding role model. :) I appreciate you!
1083. Alexandra Tache: Oh,man! I totally feel you!
1084. Brooke Milkis: ❤️❤️❤️❤️
1085. Nixxmom: Your one takes are my favorite. Hang in there Josh.
1086. Carol Wheeler: awwwww...speaking as someone who was hit by depression for the 1st time last year and attempted/nearly suceeded in suicide...i know that lost feeling. yr doing the right thing and seeking help as depression can be very secrative and lonesome. u have to put u 1st for once, and literally take 1 day at a time. don't think of the hurtful past and how it's cruelly flaunting happiness now. u can prob not imagine it now but yr heart will be full of the true genuine happiness that u deserve. cause yr a genuine good guy from a good family. take all the support u can get and give yrself time to heal...sending a motherly hug 😊 x
1087. Amy Stevenson: It's ok josh we are here for you and take a break if you want we all love you and are here for you x
1088. NotReallyHilaryDuff: Oh Josh :( my heart hurts for you
1089. Ashley G: I related to everything so much here and you're right, don't be sorry. There's no need! Feel everything you need to feel. Stay strong ❤️.
1090. Lena K.: ❤
1091. KeepHoldingOn98: ❤️
1092. Kawaii Squishy reviews: If your finding it to hard to make videos take a break for a bit we won't be mad
1093. Jennifer Taylor: Wish I could give you a good hug. ❤
1094. MrsJWife: Tumbled onto your channel. I think it is great that you sought out a therapist. That is a very big deal. 👏
1095. Last First: One more thing. You just had different expectations. She had many responsibilities. I know you wanted each other to be first priority. That does not make you bad or her. Listen find a 9-5 girl. You will find someone else. You will be okay. ❤️🙏🏻
1096. Elizabeth Schmid: I really hope you read this!!! I just want you to know that God has a purpose and plan for your life!!! He loves you and wants you to run to Him with your pain and suffering and lay it at his feet!! There is freedom in God's unconditional love!! God has forever changed me he pulled me out of the tough times and he filled the void in my heart!!! Please continue reading!!! There is love and peace in God. He will heal you!!! I encourage you to just cry out to God and welcome Him to help you!!! God has life and freedom for you and he is such a gentleman and won't force it upon you but He is waiting for you to reach out!! He gives it freely knowing that we aren't perfect. And it is not something we can earn but it is a free gift that he really wants for us to receive!!!
1097. livingforthelordful: so happy you sought help, keep up with treatment, it will help you lots. God Bless.
1098. Rosie: thinking of you ❤❤
1099. Madison Haley: Praying.
1100. Thatgirl99: kate giorgio i know how you feel...
1101. Tilly Wiggins: ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love you so much
1102. LuckyPineapple: Janessa Werlein that’s what she led on, yes. But you don’t just spring a divorce on someone out of the blue like that if you “didn’t want it”. This was not, by any means, an amicable mutual break up
1103. soapqueen2008: Thank you for sharing this with us . My advice stick with therapy even after you feel better . Your videos make me not feel alone . You're not alone Josh we love you . Here's the thing that I learned is it doesn't necessarily mean something is wrong with you it sometimes means you have to retrain your brain . Ask about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy .
1104. Hannah Weaver: Your openness and courage despite the brokenness you are feeling is so important and so pure. Healing is not linear, and it's not the same for anyone. How you heal is how you heal and there is no shame in that. As you always say "be kind to one another" be sure that you are being kind to yourself. One of my favorite spoken words has a line that says "self love is not selfish, it is the mantra of someone who recognizes where they have been and where they need to go." Don't lose sight of hope. Don't give up on joy. You are strong enough, and you will make it out the other side.
1105. Kiwi unicorn: Your amazing
1106. shopgirlfaith: your ok be patient, hugs been their
1107. Slightly Blue: Depression is the most frustrating thing to deal with because just when you're out of it something brings it back every time. It's really big of you to make a video every day. So many people treat depression like it's nothing at all. I'm sorry Joshua. Please stay safe and I hope you are doing okay. I proud of you for trying to bring yourself above the depression.
1108. doodleartlover: I've had a chemically imbalanced caused depression for about 20 years now and I know how hard it is to live with depression. I am glad you got a therapist. I wish you wonderful and blessed days of healing ahead. Don't give up and don't be embarrassed. ☺✌💕
1109. hayden cheryl: We love you sm Josh! 💖💖💖💖
1110. LeahLuvv Anderson: Anastasia Resto Awww how sweet of you. ❤️ I am who I am because He lives in me.
1111. Sharon Aviram: I feel so bad for him. He loved her so fucking much I don't know why did she marry him if she wasn't happy with him. He is broken. I know what if feels like to be depressed it is so hard so rise and to be happy again I am still trying for almost 5 years.
1112. Brandon Canny: THIS.
1113. Yaniz Gonzalez: I thought he was gonna say he was gay
1114. X X: Josh the reason the other side isn't sad is because the other side is a cold hearted bitch.
1115. Jill Connolly: I AM TELLING YOU.. these extremes bring you to your knees. We need them. Its an integral perfect normal way of bustin' out. Seriously bro its INTEGRAL & normal. Hurt hurts. I promise you. No one is able to fulfil awesome, beautiful memory expectations. Please (from a kookie like me j/k) tap into the basics you were taught. Then rely on the Josh meant to be. You know there is no disappoint from our Father. Worldly things pass away. Feel better brotha.
1116. ~S.: I wish you all the best! You can get through it!
1117. abner: (talking about the ppl who commented about this. NOT JOSHUA) how the fuck do u guys expect the other side to act. do u expect for ALL of them to be like somebody fucking died. Shes the one that got divorced. Not her sister, not her family. What the fuck do u expect her to be in every video crying. What the fuck do u guys care that shes decided to not talk about her shit online. SHES THE ONE THAT GOT DIVORCED NOT HER FAMILY. FUCKING RESPECT HER PROCESS AND HIS ALSO. Shes working her ass off for something she wanted for so long. stop saying shes drowning herself with work. Nobody died. The family doesnt have to grief anyone. Leave them alone.
1118. Marlyn Ruiz: A way you can can tell people your being real in videos like this is use your middle name. Example "this is David talking not Josh or Joshua the YouTuber." Take your time, take care of yourself first then everyone else. Not trying to be harsh. You can't help anyone else if you can't help yourself first.
1119. MsCloudnumber9: So I'm seeing comments about how she is constantly working. And she is, but I don't think she's working to "numb the pain". She's working because it is advancing her career. She's working because she has an entire production behind her, she's working because *it's what she loves to do*. It brings her happiness. And that may seem like she has a perfect life, but she doesn't-- no one does. She still has to face sadness. And it's not a competition about who is sadder, or who is happier. They are two different people who deal with things differently. What we should be doing is building them up, not tearing them down. Be nice to people.
1120. yeah no: I hope feel physically and mentally better😢❤️
1121. Brittany & Books: i hate that u r going through this 💔💔 stay strong hun
1122. Lexi G: Find one person in your life that you can just TALK to, even if that's your therapist. I have one friend that is my listener and it really helps. It can ba a friend, a family member, Shadow, anyone!! They don't have to respond but letting out your feeling is a good thing.This really helps me when I am feeling down.
1123. Nikita anastazija Ahnstrøm: Im so proud of you keep going.. Remember stay you! I write about my shit.. So please believe.. it's gets better.. Find your why 😘❤️🤘
1124. Allie Randle: Joshua, I hope one day I get to meet you and just give you a big hug. Over the last 2 years of being a subscriber, you have grown into someone I care about. I know we don't know each other personally, but that's just how I feel. I just wanted to say thank you for being so honest with us and staying true to you. You'll be in my prayers and I know you'll get though, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. <3 Your friend, Allie
1125. Megan Harris: I have been a lurker for a long time. But I know that you can get through this. Hurting like this is hard and being hurt is hard. I understand your feeling embarrassed but the best way to deal with this is to talk about it. It is good that you have figured that part out, the next part is to not lose faith in the process. I just thought I would share that with you. In the past 5 years, I had the bravery to leave an abusive marriage, a best friend died, and my father died both suddenly. I have been in this place and I wonder what is wrong, why I can't grow past these things. But you can do this. The best thing you can do is just keep going, don't lose patience with yourself and your healing. It is slow, the healing is slow, it is okay to be down, it is okay to break away, it is okay to talk about it. The most important thing for you is to heal.
1126. Livin Daily Life: Josh I think you need to realize there is NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. NOTHING wrong with feelings and mourning. It isn't healthy to just put on a show and pretend everything is ok. We all struggle with our own issues. We all show our pain in different ways. You are NORMAL and you get to be sad and that's ok. You have supported so many and now it's time for others to help lift you up. Take time to heal and I'm SO glad you are seeing a therapist. Remember if your therapist isn't a good fit, look around until you find the right one. Bless you.
1127. Samantha Joy: I'm lost, too. At least we can all be lost together.
1128. JFCPM: The Black Liars, Yes. The real Cancer is Religion. Fiction.
1129. Melissa Buday: We can do this together. Depression will not defeat us. Sometimes before it gets better the darkness gets bigger 💜
1130. GirlsOfAqua: You're doing the best that you can. I commend you on being vulnerable especially on social media. Very hard to do. Take it slowly and the key throughout this is to not hate yourself for feeling the way that you are. Allowing your emotions to teach you rather than to push them away is what will help you in the long run. Don't ever be sorry for feeling how you feel. Life is hard and some people can't take the truth. Goodluck on your journey and your healing process ✨
1131. MissMisseh: I went through your almost exact situation and it took me three years to find myself again. I'm 27 and watching you breaks my heart! Cause I know exactly what your feeling. You will make it through it! Always talk about it. The real loved ones in your life will listen. Thanks for being so real and honest. 👍
1132. Vysnavi Thanendran: Soooo trueeeee
1133. Mal S: proud of you. love your content and looking forward to watching your journey up
1134. MJ: Please don't shame someone for how they feel. If I were to have said this, as a former therapist, I would have been fired straight away. I also experience anxiety and depression and there were times where I began to resent those who told me to "stop worrying" or "snap out of it." I know you mean well, but please avoid being harsh because it bothers you to see them hurting. There are times when brutal honesty can be helpful, but this is not one of them. Hope you're having a great day!
1135. Kaleigh: getting help is always the first step, if you don't reach out then you spiral out of control. i bottled my depression and anxiety up and it almost cost me my life, i ended up in the hospital from heart problems. i know that getting help will allow you to get better one step at a time. you may completely get over it and be so happy really quickly or you can take your time. take all the time you need but it gets better truly one step at a time.❤️❤️❤️
1136. Stephanie Arely Morales: My ex left and replaced me out of nowhere for another girl i was depressed and wanted to die I also went to therapy and took Prozac because I was desperate to feeling happy again, I can show you my scars. my world did change as well I still cry about it to this day.. it's okay to hurt it's part of life. Btw dogs are nothing but pure happiness and it's good to be around them a lot ❤️
1137. Kayla: You may not feel like it, but you are so strong. I look up to you so much. We're in this together Josh! #Dingleberries will always be here for you, we care about you so much. I have depression as well and I'm so glad I'm getting a little better even if it's not a lot of progress but it's something. Take just one step at a time, it's not going to be a smooth process, you might stumble, but that's okay, because it's not supposed to be like your magically cured. I love you so much, I know we can do this and live out our dreams, we'll that is if you haven't reached yours yet, being a youtuber is pretty spectacular to me 😆. Love you💕💕 stay strong!
1138. Addison Stark: Love my man josh and I always will support you!!❤️
1139. KitKat 90: I agree with Jenny, maybe it's time for you to find something new and exciting that's just for you. something that fills your mind and time that brings you joy, so that for now you wont have time to dwell on the pain you're feeling. Time dulls the pain. I've had my heart broken, we were engaged and he found someone else that didn't live 2 states away. He dumped me the week before I was going to fly out to see him and didn't tell me why. it took me months to figure out that it was because he found someone else. and ALOT of my firsts were with him. It crushed me, I almost let it destroy me, I felt worthless. Time, and new friendships and new experiences helped me. I hope you find something that brings the light back into your life. it's out there I know it. I hope for happiness for you.
1140. Natalie Grace: I have so much more respect for you after this video! We love you!!!
1141. Christine R: Dude, This is exactly what I needed. My ex and I just went through a very bad breakup and I feel exactly like you do. I feel alone, sad, depressed, and just like you, all I want is to go hide and not talk to anyone. I feel like I can't be my normal self. I have my good days but that only lasts so long. I'm going on three trips trips this summer for self-growth. You should go work on a farm like I'm doing and meet new people and just make yourself busy. I will be in Santa Cruz in August, so if you would like to meet up and talk I would be more than happy to. Just two strangers talking going through the same thing. Thank you for sharing this.
1142. Anna Catriona: I feel ya. I'm currently going through anxiety and depression and I'm attending therapy which is definitely changing things for the better. I'm just so happy you're getting help because as you said, there is quite often a stigma around mental health and people let their pride get in the way or in my case, I believed because I wasn't suicidal I couldn't be depressed (lack of education on the topic I guess) and I spent the past couple years blaming myself for feeling this way until I watched a YouTube video that change my opinion on what the definition of depression really was, and suddenly it clicked and I realised I needed help. It takes a lot to accept and recognise these things in yourself, and I'm so proud of you for doing it because I know what a difference it has made in my life. Some days it almost seems easy and other days it's like pulling teeth and it seems never ending, but always remember that no matter what hiccups and issues you have along the way, you are never back to square one and they can only make you stronger. Also I agree that making daily videos could be really good for you because it helps give you structure and gives you some motivation when you feel like you don't have much left, but don't be afraid to be selfish. When you're feeling this way, daily tasks that seemed easy before can feel almost impossible sometimes, never mind how emotionally draining therapy can be, so don't beat yourself up about it if you can't do it, because some days you just can't! And that's okay. One day I was really struggling with this and my therapist sent me this quote which really helped and I hope can be beneficial to you on these days. "I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes and don't give up on yourself just yet. It'll get better. Until then, have a day." You have a whole bunch of people right here in the comments who are ready to return the favour and be there for you for a change. 🙂 An remember it's not a 10m sprint, it's a marathon. It's a slow, and extremely challenging process, but it's soooo worth it in the end! Sending all my love and good vibes ✌️❤️
1143. Savannah Yeager: I'll be here to keep you accountable. not to make videos for us, but to do something everyday that will further you in you journey to happiness. just do something every single day that makes you happy, something that is productive, and that just makes you feel good about yourself. love you always ❤
1144. Faith Lesuer: I hope things get better josh. Hang in there😀😀
1145. Vanessa Vernon: I'm praying for you. I know you're gonna get through this because even with you being broken you're fighting for yourself. Keep fighting there's gonna be joy again. Can't wait to see this new journey you're on.
1146. Vitória Santos: I'm going through a very similar situation, Josh. I saw it blew up in my face, although I kinda saw it coming, but I'm still in denial and devastated. The "other side" seems to be doing perfectly fine without me, and since we are in an environment where we have to see each other everyday, I get to see them being perfectly happy everyday. And like you said, it's not like I wish them sadness, but it just seems so unfair to be the only one who's hurting, because we experienced so much TOGETHER. Also, I feel guilty and extremely powerless, because I want to fix what went wrong so badly, but I I just can't, because the "other side" seems to have given up on me 100%. I've never been so sad and heartbroken. I went to one therapy session, but I'm thinking about going to some more. Anyways, thank you so much for sharing. I thought I was alone, and this video made me feel a little better about that. I hope we get through this, man. Stay safe.
1147. TassieDalt: We're with you for as long as it takes Josh, absolutely understandable how you're feeling. Stay as strong as you can and you'll be back feeling better when things work themselves out
1148. Taylor Jeurissen: I'm proud of you Josh. It takes a lot of strength to admit that you're weak. It takes a lot of strength to seek help. If this is what you need to be happy, go for it. Therapy helped me when I was going through the most difficult part of my life so far. There's nothing wrong with you Josh, you're human. You're allowed to be sad. I love you Josh. Thank you for always being so open with us.
1149. Lexie Knittel: Take it one day at a time. Find small victories within your day and things will start to snowball. You will not be happy every day and that's okay. Don't try too hard or force it, be present in your emotions and process them as they come. Allow yourself a few moments to be upset, if you're upset, and mourn the things you lost. But when you feel happy, soak it in all the way to the bone and relish that feeling while you have it. Time will help you through all of this, so be present, patient and proud of who you are and what you bring to the table. You got this!
1150. livibonsack: I'd tell you it will get better, but that's not what anyone that's depressed wants to hear. We're here for you, and I mean this. I hope this therapist helps you. We truly and deeply hate seeing you cry. It will take some time, but you will find inner peace.
1151. Ashleigh Beland: you say the other side is all happy. buy it's not. she posts that sometimes she's just not ok. she just doesn't put it out there as of respect she says.
1152. Holly Riddle: i understand.
1153. Mads Rey: These videos are ok to put out there too. Everybody has dark days and struggles. I know I have depression and can understand everything you're going through. These videos helped me get through the fact I have depression after I denied it for awhile. We love you Josh. We're here to help and support you.
1154. Amanda H: I know. I do know. I really do. You will get better.
1155. Courtney Ray: Kiaree Waller wasn't bashing them! I just personally see it as hiding from the problem but maybe they don't show that side of them either which is totally okay.
1156. DareDevil Z: I love you so much I wish I could give you a big hug 🤗 Hopefully you will feel better soon
1157. Katie Rozum: I was so worried about the same thing! I just recently finished my first year as well, I ended up having one of my high school friends go to the same school but she made her own friends and it was hard for me. Join a sorority if your into that sort of thing. Join clubs you find interesting and that go along with your major, do club sports, inter murals, get a job even or befriend your roommate. If you like to party, I've met some interesting and fun people at parties. I joined the rugby club on my campus and the HOSA program. My friends from school came from those clubs and it honestly changed my social life in college. I hope everything goes well for you in the future!
1158. Amirah Coleman: We are all still here for you Josh. Everyone grieves in their own way. Some choose to hide it (which is not healthy) and some wear their heart on their sleeve. Just keep us updated on how you are doing. Even though we are viewers, many of us feel we are your friends and you can reach out to us when you need us. Keep your head up and keep trying to smile. We love you <3
1159. PriestmanCub: You can do this Joshua, put everything behind you and move on.  You keep seeing the therapist they are some one you can trust, who wont judge you and who you can open up to.  I only just found your channel but from today I'll be watching your vlogs every day and that's a promise. Lots of LOVE my friend.
1160. Black and Natural in Jerusalem: Jenn Hedrick Wonderful comment. Everything you said was so right on.
1161. Jerri DolanMoses: Praying for you
1162. ariel: some people do need meds it doesn't make you weak or anything it might just be your chemistry. it isnt about making excuses or doing all the self help things. it's normal to get depressed when going through a divorce or losing a loved one but that's different from having depression and it seems like you've been feeling this way for awhile not just after the divorce.
1163. Atomic Skies: Haha, college caused my depression.
1164. Nicolette Hammell: Here's to you finding peace Josh. Stay strong :)
1165. Gauri Saki: I am so proud that we have people like you in this world. You wrote everything so beautifully! Thank you. Josh we all are with you ❣️
1166. Olivia Z: Josh I love you. ❤️
1167. Ashleybrooke328: Seriously Josh, not sure of your religious background, but please seek God during this time.. I have been at this point. But I have felt freedom since I have jumped "all in" to the Lord.. either way praying for you 😊
1168. Kim Bartek: Josh it's ok to not be ok! Nobody is 100% happy all the time! luv ya😍😘
1169. Rachel Hasson: It's ok to feel like that, and that's why we're here... we're here for you, and we love you.. and we will support you... kisses and hugs 😘😘😘😘😘 YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!
1170. rando: I'm finally getting psychological treatment. Don't be ashamed about getting help because we all need it at some point if we want to move forward. Take every day by day and just remember it doesn't happen overnight.
1171. HottestDuckie: My number one tip for you is to stop comparing yourself to other, especially to those of your past. You are you. Your life is specifically tailored to and is unique. God made you perfectly how and where you're supposed to be. Everyone's got issues and things they deal with and now a days people are very good at hiding them. You are where you need to be. Trust yourself and just do your best. You have a lot of support. Take care of you boo boo.
1172. guy2231: Keep your head up Josh we all have points that we need help to come from that dark place thats hard to get out of. You help every time you post stuff and sharing this is a big chance in showing your feelings and have people place negative stuff on your comments. But you know we will support you.
1173. Sierra Beasley: Thank you for being vulnerable with us. You got this!
1174. jburckhardt: you are such a sweet soul- keep strong- I know is not easy -much love!
1175. Jasmine Andrews: Im so proud of you for seeking help
1176. Faith Davis: 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
1177. Hailey Swift: No you're just being yourself you don't have to change yourself. I really hope you be alright
1178. Crystal Ruiz: I agree so much u couldn't have said it any better way. seek for our gracious father he loves u Josh. he loves us all
1179. Bratayley Lover: I was also going threw depression, it's very hard to go through. Just all you have to no is the internet fans, friends and family love and support you. Don't worry all of us we support and love all ur decisions! Stay strong Josh!
1180. Heather Canale: 1st step, admit you have issues. 2nd step, seek help. Good for you Cheers from Northern Michigan
1181. ColorMeWithYou: <3
1182. Tom Yafai: make sure u get well soon joshua, maybe my videos on my channel make u happy, make sure to check it out ! greetings from manchester
1183. danalinds: I've been following you without subscribing for a long time, mostly because I'm not the target demographic and feel weird about it. But I subscribed today as a vote of confidence in you and your healing. Also, because I appreciate that you've decided to share this with your fans. Mental illness is hard but it happens- no matter your gender or social status or personality. Do what makes you happy, what brings back your passion, and worry less about what your viewers want or expect from you. Best wishes and I'm glad to follow you on this journey.
1184. Alison Ren: There is nothing wrong with being real and raw on YouTube. In fact, it's beautiful. There are way too many "perfect" it "positive" people on here, which can be deceiving to younger people, making them question why their life isn't perfect. You are showing real life. Editing out the bad isn't protecting us from negativity and being a downer. It's portraying and unrealistic life. Thank you for sharing REAL life, which is the good, bad, ugly, fun, painful, and beautiful kind of life.
1185. Giorgia M: Great content tbh and it's okay, sometimes life is depressing and we want realness.. You can't be happy all the time, that's not really healthy either. Stay strong X
1186. *insert clever username here*: we all love you josh! you're so talented and funny and amazing! we all support you so much!!! you deserve the world
1187. NannyCam: All feelings are valid. I remember when I admitted that I may be depressed and reached out for help from professionals and friends. It was the first step and a lifesaver. I'm proud of you for being strong enough to seek help. It will be up and down but it will get better. 💕
1188. FleurDeSel: I relate so much. You'll be surprised about how much therapy helps
1189. Ane Nez: be confident Josh! you will get over this. don't hang on things that may have been your ideals if they don't really work in a happy way
1190. Brianna Riebsomer: josh you will get thru this i know you can, lots of love and prayers:)
1191. Internet Helper: My heart
1192. Lauren Franklin: Josh this is so awesome! I'm so sorry your hurting this much inside, I wish I could give you a big hug, but you will find happiness. God puts us through pain to build us for something bigger we can't see. And it might seem like the whole world is happy and yours is falling apart, but I promise God has you in his hand and will reward you for being so strong and fighting for YOUR worth! It's so important to acknowledge when your sad and it sucks because in this world for some reason we aren't allowed to not be ok. When truth is we all go through pain and sadness it's life! I'm so proud of you for sharing your feelings and taking that step to get help! That's a big step, and acknowledge that you are doing that! I'll be praying for you my friend!❤️🙏🏼 (I know some people might not be religious but I'm almost positive that Josh is Christian that's why I was ok talking about God because it's a huge part of my life too)
1193. Melinda Krieg: Jesus is the only one who can really help you and give you an inner happiness... ❤️
1194. lizbware: It's okay be upset Joshua. It's okay to need help. I'm proud of you for reaching out for help. She may seem happy. Her videos may seem happy, but that doesn't mean that she is. No one really knows but her and God. Sometimes people seem fine even face to face and really aren't. Just take care of yourself. Focus on yourself and try to find your happy place. I'm sure that your friends don't want you to pretend to be okay. Once you take care of yourself then everything else will fall into place (in it's own time). We love you Joshua!
1195. Denial Number 4: I can't even imagine how hard that must be... Something I always tell my self is dont cry because its over smile because it happened. It's great you have fun memories, so looking at them in a positive way will really help you.
1196. ayyi ramadhini: I thought it's hard to admit that he's gay kinda video.. lol
1197. Mary Beth Tait: Turn to The Lord!!!! He will help you. Jesus is all you need 🙏🏼🙌🏼
1198. Dante Dantec: I've been broken up 4 years ago. Didn't see it coming. I went through exactly the same you do. Felt terrible and also had the feeling that my ex was fine without me which made me feel even worse. I got over it after a year mainly through a new relationship which helped build up my confidence again. That relationship didn't last because we were too different, but it did help me a lot. Now I'm in another relationship and I am really happy :-) My relationship from four years ago seems like a long time ago and is pretty much forgotten. Don't give up hope! The human body has amazing abilities to heal :-) Greetings from Belgium
1199. Grey Schoone: There's no need to explain yourself. We understand. Vlog or no vlog. Video or no video. Music or no music. We will be here anytime you need. Any second. Any time. We will always stick by your side through thick and thin.
1200. ryanne jackson: I came to the same conclusion this week! So much love and support coming your way!
1201. jeskatanya: ❤️❤️❤️
1202. Through the Emerald Eye: ❤❤❤❤
1203. Frankie Vlogs: No one wonders what's wrong with you. I personally see the other side and can tell right away something is wrong there. It isn't genuine and seems like there is a show being put one. I appreciate you being raw and honest and I pray that one day you can develop a relationship with Jesus :) that's the only thing that will ultimately make you happy.
1204. Dana K: Love you josh!!
1205. Gabrielle Thoel: Don't post for your viewers. I know that they are important to you but don't live solely for others. Sometimes you need to be selfish. Always remember everything is temporary, including sadness. Sometimes it feels like sadness will last forever but it won't. You might have to convince yourself every day but one day you'll wake up after working so hard for so long, and you will view life with a totally different frame of mind. When that day comes, that's when you should help others. Explain to them what I'm telling you and that in itself will help you continue your process. Sometimes life shits on you, I feel like this happens to people when god or whatever higher power there is, sees something great in you. Use your sadness and make something beautiful out of it.
1206. THE LYVE FAMILY: Be strong Josh , we will always be here !
1207. April Mccammon: are you ok 😢😢😢😭😭😭😭😭
1208. 4Xissues: (((((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))
1209. Karen Abbott: Talk to God and he'll listen. Pray about it and things will get better. I know not everyone believes the same things. But God has done amazing things in my life. Healing takes time, but ask and you will receive. (No hate) ❤️❤️
1210. Jannira Velazquez: I think you feel lost because you lost a huge part of your life so suddenly and you don't know what to do with those feelings and that feeling of emptiness. I'm so glad you went to a counselor and you're talking to someone now. You are on the right track! You took the first step to finding yourself and your happiness again. I think having this channel, and we're just now discovering the downside of this, forces you to always feel like you need to be "ON". Give yourself grace, keep it real with yourself and with us. I have zero issues with that. This is your life and you're mental health you're talking about. Two very important things. Hang in there! There is a light at the end of the tunnel. :)
1211. Cerise deCardenas: Jonathan Josey this is awesome, to God be the glory!
1212. PCY BBH: oh stfu
1213. Disney_fangurl: Ive dealt with something like this last year, and it was absolutely horrible for me. And i do the same thing. I dont like to bother people about my feelings
1214. Jazz Glamorous: Your love in the relationship was different than hers. She may have made the decision to end things and to many she seems like shes not hurting but she keeps working and working and thats her distraction to keep away the emptiness and sadness shes feeling. Shes draining herself with work and i dont think thats healthy for her either.
1215. gabi: you are an amazing human being you can get through it I believe in you!
1216. Phyllis Richardson: journaling old school... with pen and paper.. always helps me. quites, song lyrics, photos, lists, letters to yourself, letters to her... include the good, bad, and the ugly. it can truly be therapeutic. dont monitor what you write... just write every thought and feeling. take a big red marker and write your angry thought. just do it. dont over think. *hugs* im sorry youre going through this. you hae the opportunity to reconnect with yourself... reinvent yourself... and close that chapter. its hard. but grief looks different for everyone. xoxo.
1217. Samantha Dodge: Joshua my heart hurts with what you are going thru. you inspire and uplift a lot of people here on the internet, if there was anyway we could help you i think you wouldn't know what to do with the amount of support, love, hugs, kind words and just smiles that we want to pass on to you as you do for us. im excited to see that you are going to be keeping your self accountable and hopefully this next chapter in your life will turn out to be a great one!!! hugz.
1218. Marisa H: <3
1219. laursouth52: I can relate so much. I haven't been the same since my break up almost a year ago...
1220. Sarah '93: 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
1221. Jessica Husson: Josh, I sent a message a few months back on Facebook about this exact subject. I would love to talk with you about this, as I am currently also going through a situation similar! Idk if you got it though. Love you Josh! You are amazing! ❤️❤️❤️
1222. SeriousYak: Nothing is wrong with you, Josh. You're hurting. You've been having a hard time dealing with matters in your life and maybe it doesn't seem so, but it's normal. It's a normal human reaction to hurt and to feel depression and sadness over things that have happened. The good thing out of this is that you're getting help and talking about it, that's a big first step. If you keep going in this direction, you will eventually find peace and happiness.
1223. Crys_Marie: I wish so badly I lived close to you cuz I would give you THE biggest hug ever, I am going through so much right now and I sure could use one to . Depression is something you don't just "get over " I am here for you, if you need to talk to someone I am here for you. We both have gone through very similar things and we could really relate . I hope you see this comment and realize that you can reach out to me !!!!
1224. TheMelanieGrace: I hope this song will help you smile, maybe even laugh. https://open.spotify.com/album/0nQyHXsjmc2pRD1rqs06SS
1225. Claire D: Oh thats awesome :)
1226. Leah Harris: Yes yes yes yes. Never be afraid to talk about mental health. You are important and your feelings are valid. Love this, Josh.
1227. James Wright: I give you a lot of credit Josh. You are taking steps and are working on getting better. I know you'll get better, it just takes time.
1228. Heather Ward: Props to you for being honest! Depression is not an easy battle, but it can be beaten. Take it one breath at a time, one step at a time, and one day at a time. That's how you get through it! Love you and wish you all the best!!!!
1229. Maegan Whipple: Figuratively I've been through hell and back with horrible depression and want to tell you there is nothing wrong with feeling down as you do. Depression is something your body has to go through and feel. With time,counseling,clinging onto friends/loved ones you can start to heal. That's what helped me. Lots of love from Utah.
1230. 7thButera: you're so nice Joshua. i'm hoping you'll feel better soon. always remember you're not alone! 💞
1231. steve Kos: there's no such thing as the "right person" anyway. if there was, this would severely limit freewill. this would mean that this "right person" could be dead even before you might meet them, or you might never meet them in this lifetime, or you might not meet them until you're at least 70 years old, which would be a horribly long time to wait for that. when it comes to relationships between guys and women, the guy is the one who has to make it happen and make it work, since afterall, the guy is the one who has to approach her to have anything between them happen in the first place.
1232. Sharmaine Alag: I really wish I could talk to you personally Josh and hug you and be able to tell you that everything is gonna be okay and it's not your fault! What you said about "the other side of the coin" is so true cause while you're hurting, their side seems perfectly fine and happy. It just isn't fair. I love you Josh. We're all here for you!
1233. Jamie 14: Ruffdogg21 I'm not on a fucking pill u mongril go back to ur fucking sex doll u sponge
1234. lemonlime Lizzy: good job josh <3 you are awesome
1235. Jess Secrest: You want people on your YouTube channel to hold you accountable for........? Please be a role model for mental health and put ur camera down and get help. Get your meds right. U are a role model to some and this isnt the message to teach people. Maybe ur problem is u need to grow up.
1236. danilynn: Normally I'm not one to comment on videos but I felt the need to comment on this one. Josh you have many many people who love and care about you. Everyone heals at their own rate, and just because "the other side" appears happy, it doesn't mean that they are. Some people are better actors and are better at hiding it than others. They choose to show only good and not the bad which is a front. You're more willing to show the rough parts, which is what I personally love about you. You show the reality of it all and don't try to hide it. You're and amazing person, take time to heal. All things get better in time.
1237. Dzinisis: she fucked up a boy real good for that carrier...
1238. Trish Kadish: I could have made almost the same exact video. Our circumstances are different, but our struggle is the same. I've struggled with PTSD, depression and OCD for 20+ years, it's never easy. You've taken the right steps to take care of yourself. I'm in a pretty rough spot right now myself, but I know I'll be okay. You are very loved, even if we don't know you, we understand you. Please do keep us posted, I'll be praying for you through this, and just keep shining. 💕
1239. Tamarama: No advice for you Josh. Just a great big cyber hug and loving understanding. <3
1240. Tess: I hope this channel is a place where you never have to say sorry. I admit I wasn't a big follower of your channel until a few months ago, but after going back to your old videos and learning more about how you got to this place, I can say I am a huge fan of your grace, kindness, and openness with your fans. There is a light at the end, don't give up on that.
1241. TAMMY R: However Therapy does help😊 and Jesus loves us all he don't judge he just watches over us😊
1242. J Wilson: We all love you so much Josh! Even though your channel is all over the place, it's still quality content! No matter what kind of videos you uploaded we will always support you! Remember that no matter how hard things are in life you gotta keep your head up. You are a wonderful man! Don't let your past bring you down, think about all of the people that you have helped making these videos! Think about all of the fun times and people that you have met throughout your YouTube career! You have changed the way the internet and your followers look at the world, you've taught people to be nice to people!! You've given us so much, let us give back to you! Let us help and support you. We are here for you anytime! Josh. So pick yourself up and be nice to people; starting with yourself. Be nice to yourself and love yourself.
1243. MiniatureCat: As in the anime, or is that an acronym?
1244. Tiffany Tracy: Josh I'm absolutely so proud of you. I love you so much! Yay for old school Vlogs!! 😊
1245. Kelly Tuohy: I am sorry Josh! Life can be extremely hard!! Well done to you for getting help!! I wish I could give you a hug because you are amazing! I wish I could help you!! Just think you are alive and healthy !! I I have learnt through life health is wealth!!
1246. emzinah: Exactly this!
1247. S a: i pray you find happiness again💜
1248. Indigo Detry: idk why, but josh seems so petty dealing with this situation. like obviously people deal with things in different ways, but it seems like hes taking little jabs at her. (im not trying to be rude or anything, but im getting that vibe from him)
1249. Michelle Richards: it's going to get better. I promise.
1250. Betty He: She is trying to live in the future by working her butt off to hide her feelings. She does love you josh
1251. shravani bheema: Josh Josh Josh! Stop thinking you make 'excuses' or that you're always saying these things in an attempt to bounce back but it never really reaches where you think it will. It's okay man, it really is. You're really hurting, please don't beat yourself up. You're seeking help and that's amazing. The happiness on the other side seems so alluring and you'll get there Josh. You may be a different person, your idea of happiness may even evolve, but you'll get there. Stay strong buddy, lots and lots and lots of love <3
1252. Ymani Russell: You're not alone. We all love and support you!! Remember you are loved, an amazing person, and you're the best! Try to keep smiling
1253. Rosanne Rowse: DID I SAY I WAS IN 2 HOZPITALS @ ONCE.. And BITCH I don't have fucking Schizophrenia because if I did I'D KNOW IT I don't have split personalities UNKIKE SOME PEOPLE (TGoodness) And ANOTHER THING...... 20 years ago DOESN'T make me 2..... I was born in 1995 IDIOT take that AWAY from 20 YEAR AGO! that ain't FUCKING "2" even I know that and math wasn't even my strong suit in high school pfffft. Now Set Yo Lame High school immature teen asses Down Before I do it for you :') ;)
1254. Elizabeth Gallagher: Joshua, I know how you feel. It's been one year and 5 months since he broke up with me. We were together for over six years, and it's true. Sometimes I feel slightly better, but it affects everything in my life. I am clinically depressed. I did take meds, but now I am better. What truly helps it's going to therapy. At least it made me gain a little bit of focus. Sorry Joshua you're going through this. You're not alone. He doesn't even remember who I am, he just left with someone else and that's the end of the story. I am the only side that's suffering what happened. It hurts. But I know we will be okay. I know.
1255. NurFatin Redzuan: eggplant iguana Thats mean. He is breaking down and u just have to be ignorant
1256. Breann Loveless: I feel for you Josh! I've been dealing with anxiety and depression for a few years and seeking help is difficult. But you will get through this. I think you are brave to be open and honest about how you're feeling. Stay strong.
1257. Marina Smith: that's a really good idea to use vlogs as a way to not stay hidden.
1258. jessah armita: Josh this is exactly me. I'm so glad you put this out there. I am progressively so proud of you for the way you open up with your viewers, that you trust us in that way. It's amazing to me. And I admire it, and I want to do what you do. Thank you so much, for always being honest!
1259. Madison //: to find inner joy and happiness forever is completely all through God. if you accept jesus into ur life you will never feel alone. even through the darkest saddest times. trying to find things through people or things or even the internet is not going to give you a long lasting joy. it'll give you a happiness for that time being. but eventually that happiness will go away. but God is forever !!!! he can help you through every thing you could ever go through. you just have to accept him and let him in. pray. he loves you sooooo much!!! things will get better. i'm so sorry for all that you have been going through. love ya
1260. s731s: Katerini INFJ amen girl, joining you in that prayer. because "where two or more are gathered there He stands" if we stand tall and strong and unite and pray for Josh together, we will see miracles 😄😊
1261. RhiaLC18: Everything you said in this video is very accurate to my life, the weight gain, being up and down, distancing yourself from people, I know exactly how you feel and knowing that someone else knows how I feel is actually really comforting...Not that I want you to feel like I do but knowing I'm not alone really helps so thank you for sharing xx (I've just signed up for therapy too and I'm actually excited to get better and work through everything 😊)
1262. monica thibodeau: I'm a silent viewer, I've followed you for a while. I'm proud of you for getting help, that to me makes you a strong man, a lot of ppl are scared to admit when things aren't ok and to ask for help. Going through a divorce isn't easy, you will get better, one day at a time buddy, it will get better. Much love Josh
1263. Ohkapi: 5 words, Access Consciousness. Search that up What else is possible?
1264. Katie Rzemien: I give you a lot of credit for realizing you are in a sad/bad place and wanting to pull yourself out of it. Don't compare yourself and your healing process to anyone else's. Everyone's experience is different and you never know what someone else is going through. Your own feelings and emotions are so valid and you are entitled to feel whatever it is that you're feeling. I wish you so much happiness <3
1265. TheOfficeFanatic word: Josh, we all go through things ,depression is real. I battle it days and here people just get over it. You don't get over it, it is time. You took a huge step of going to a therapist. That is a amazing step. we love and support you
1266. Emma And Madi: We all love you josh you will be ok, I promise I hope you feel better very soon I'm very sorry😭😭
1267. Christina Mathis: Good for you. ❤️
1268. lesley horrocks: Your are allowed to feel the way you feel josh, especially considering what you have been through and what you are still going through now. I myself was diagnosed with depression last year. It's a tough battle, one we fight each day, some days we accomplish it, others we fail unfortunately that is part and parcel of living with depression but you are doing the right thing by seeking help. I hope in time you heal from all this and can keep moving forward. Lots of love, strength and positivity being sent to you. Stay strong xxxx
1269. stephanie ross: I will say maybe meditation, start with being thankful for what you have all the little things, and your health, and who you are. I will share I got a crazy scary diagnosis of a large mass in my head. I was down, depressed, lost my very young mother, I was not old this was 4 years ago. Not Cancer. Ended up by prayers on my own being somewhere with fate and meeting holistic md's who told me go plant based what was that. june 1 2013 went raw vegan vegetables blendtec blender, some fruits, salads. no salt, no oil, no fish meat or eggs cheese or dairy. Started feeling deeply and incredible its still detoxing me as I am going further in last 2 years been fruitarian this does not work when one has a highter fat diet. you can look at detoxing with fruits a 6 minute cartoon not selling anything with mark james gordon. in doing this I found my passion, have come back to almost full and total health, have clarity, and found a passion. I have also learned to love myself deeply. I am single been dating someone long distance. But still feel very alone and crave the depth of a connection that is real with someone awakened. I became very alert and awake big time. Maybe ask the true source for some guidance. You are lovely and I wish the best for you!!!
1270. Ameli Rhythmic gymnast vlogs: I don't really understand this video I am not a hater can someone tell me why is he sad thanks
1271. Ariel Foster: What I'm trying to say is...your just the best!!! TTYL ❤️💛💚💙💜🤣😂😅☺️😁😄😃😝😛😉
1272. L. A: Everyone has a hard time in their life whether you're young or you're old but we all have someone or something to fall back on and I'm sure you do too, you just need to find it, And remember what you did was right
1273. Scuba Music: I think daily vlogging is a great idea. My only piece of advice is to be honest and don't force the videos to be fun and exciting if you don't feel that way.. If you only want to do one takes, I'm totally on board. I'd literally be down to watch you eat a sandwich in silence. do you boo
1274. Deidra Jobe: I've been watching you for years now.. And this is probably one of the most raw, real videos I've seen. It's Okay not to be "on " all the time. It's also perfectly fine to show your sadness. You've been through a lot recently. And though you did take "time away"- that doesn't mean you are done grieving and healing. I'm glad you're getting help. Life is a never ending process. Keep looking forward to 'tomorrow'. ❤️
1275. superkawaiisquishies: Hey Josh were all here for u and im sorry for everything thats happened lately like if u agree
1276. Carla Morales: I must comment that everyone goes thru sad times and they handle them differently but you are making a healthy step here by seeing a therapist. I'm glad you are able to communicate with your family and friends. Don't isolate yourself from them. I have been following you for years and I'm happy to see your videos. Keep yourself occupied, travel more or something that satisfies you or try new things. We will be in touch my friend. 💗💗💗
1277. indax87: <3<3<3<3<3<3
1278. Kelsey: Josh, you deserve every bit of happiness. But please never feel ashamed of how you feel. It's something you can't help, and feeling things, even the sad thing, is a very human thing to do. I'm very glad you took the steps forward into looking for help! That's one step further to where you wish to be, and that's great!! The hurt might be really deep right now, and that's okay. But even in the darkness the stars still shine bright. Some might fade out and go away, but there's always new ones to take it's place. Just like old memories. And just like the new ones. They don't have to just be the past. But they can shape you into who you are, and you take them and tell yourself that who you are today is because of what's happened. And that's a wonderful, kind, human being. So you take this journey into finding the happiness that you need one step at a time, no matter how long it takes. And it might take a while, but don't beat yourself up over that. There's no expiration date on it! Everybody heals differently. Some, quicker than others. But even if it takes forever, there's still time to mend. And it's totally okay to cry!! Let it all out when you need to! You ask yourself, 'what's wrong with me,' and let me tell you, absolutely nothing. There's a quote I found, that I personally always tend to think about --- "Focus on the good". I wish I'd have known that quote long ago, but now it's one when something happens that if anything negative happens, there will always be something good out there. Maybe not exactly what you wanted, but it's there. You're still growing, you're still healing, and it's a long process but you will get there when the time is right for you. And only you can make that decision! But everyone who loves you (even us Dingleberries!!!) will always be around with full support to cheer you on. So take that step, no matter how big or small, because (another quote), 'even the smallest one can be the biggest step' into the right direction for yourself. :) ♥
1279. Inga D: Josh you've been on the internet entertaining and making people happy for so long and in a weird sense it is now time for the internet to make you happy. If that's even a thing. This was a wonderful and honest vlog. My heart aches for you. Also the part where Shadow came and was squeaking his toy just looking up at you. Dogs are so empathetic. He knows you are sad and he loves you so unconditionally. He wants to make you happy and he wants you to be happy. So no matter what you have someone who loves you so unconditionally and will let you feel however you want or need to feel. (stupid side note I got a little sad watching your vlog and my dog jumped on my lap to cuddle. Dogs are the best.) I think its brave and so emotionally aware to seek help. You of all people should know that for the most part social media is fake. Hence why they say people are more depressed now bc everyone wants that instagram life. Where everything is rainbows and kittens. But as a content creator you know that generally you only show the good. That's not an excuse but I do hope you get some peace and I respect you so much for just being a real person dealing with real things on the internet. xoxo
1280. Teri Yazzie: you keep saying "it", I assume you're talking about your divorce. you're not gonna be ok until you can say "my divorce" or anything that protains to that and be ok with it. Josh, it's ok to feel this way. it's going to be ok my friend. "He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm." Psalms 40:2 I pray your life will get better. much love to you!! ❤❤❤❤
1281. It's Shawnieboyy: It's okay to feel the way you are now. Can't imagine the pain and hard ache. But just be you and continue going forward!
1282. Jan Ryan: It's about time you came out of the closet.
1283. Jessica Taff: (The best words that I got out of doing therapy) YOU are ENOUGH! What YOU do is ENOUGH! Love Ya Joshua!!
1284. Ada Hall: good for you Josh. This is so awesome to hear you being so real. You are "dealing" and some people ignore their feelings. It doesn't seem they are really happy but it just looks that way because the aren't dealing. Or of course maybe the dont "feel." You be you and we are here for you. Everyone needs to be nice to Everyone. ❤🖒✊
1285. muffinNme: Ah, Joshy, this too shall pass. Life is messy so show it if you feel it. Bomb batta bing! If you feel like crying then cut, go get a good cry, then come back feeling better to finish a vid. It's okay, nobody is strong all the time. I know of what I speak... been there, done that! And you know what...? It does get better... with time... and distance... then the good times will be remembered and not hurt anymore. Everybody's different... it takes time to heal and not everybody gets there in the same amount of time. Don't force the happy face. If it's a crap day, say it! We all have those too. Just be your dad's son and your mom's boy and your sibling's bro... just be you. After all, that's who I fell in love with on youtube. ;) But also know that we can never "go back". We have to go forward into a new and better future for ourselves. Pick one hobby aside from the video camera and focus on what you accomplish with that. Before you know it, you'll realize "Hey, I feel like my old self again because I can actually laugh freely without that burden of that dark shade in front of my eyes." You're going to be okay again. Trust me. I know. I will be watching you. Hugs, my Friend. “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27
1286. cher: Josh , we are all here for you.
1287. Tracy Schmidt: we are here for you josh. stay strong 🙂🙂
1288. Caitlin Barry: Don't ever feel bad for how you're feeling. Don't ever feel like you ever need to apologize for how you feel. My divorce was totally one sided as well. I was the one who was torn up over it and was having the hardest time while he was off getting remarried a month after we got divorced like I never even mattered to him or like I never even existed. Everything will fall in to place. I got divorced 4 years ago this august and I still have struggles and issues and hard days. He is married with baby #2 on the way. Sometimes I think what have I done so wrong that I don't get happiness now? Why does the liar and cheater get to be happily married with new baby and another one on the way? But I have to stop myself from thinking like that. I have to tell myself that my happiness is coming. It's just taking a little longer to get here. Your happiness is coming too. You are such an amazing person Josh and I just know you will find the right person for you. Don't give up. And therapy can always help.
1289. aer1386: There is nothing wrong with you. You're going through a real tough time. You seem like someone who feels things very deeply, I'm the same exact way. And it's hard, but you will get through this and come out of the other side a stronger, happier, brighter person. It might not seem like it today or tomorrow but it will happen. We're here for you and love you! 💙💙💙
1290. katherine teggatz: I hope that you get better. Please do not quit youtube, or life. you are an amazing human being. "Everything happens for a reason." remember it. It's true. You changed my life, It's time for me to change yours. I hope that you can gain the courage to get better and reach back to your normal health. Please reply. I love you. xoxo, Katherine <3
1291. Julia N: stay strong josh 💙
1292. Marquessa Pichette: Do what you got to do man! I'm praying for you 😊
1293. Maria Lo: Thanks for sharing with us. Maybe in your videos that you post every day you can talk about something good that happened that day even if it's something small.
1294. Melissa B: Sending you love and support ♥♥♥
1295. The sister vlogs! Carlie, Gracie and Abbie: I feel so bad josh has been through so much I want to give him a BIG hug. Stay strong Josh😀😀😀😢
1296. Angela Gioia: Joshua, I love you... But I just have to point out the fact that you're filming a really emotional and important video and your dog is just chilling in the back, casually taking a shit😂😂 It's around 2:40 if anyone missed it lol
1297. Michelle Beck: I really relate to you. The only way I get through depression is talking about it and knowing that God has a beautiful plan for my life.
1298. Ridhi Arora: Dont Give Up josh you got this!
1299. Jasmine Tait: I am so proud of you. It will be really hard for a long time but everyone her is here to help make you fell happy again. I really hope you know that we all love you. On the bright side, your southern accent was really prominent in this and I love it!!
1300. Annie Fleming: I'm so proud of you, Josh! You are fixing your self and that's so good. Tbh kinda missed the old josh. So I'm very excited about this. But just know that at least one person loves you
1301. Emily Diggins: There's not a damn thing wrong with you. I think the worst feeling in the world is mourning the loss of someone who's still alive. Own every feeling you have, feel it fully and use that to propel you forward. You're human and as humans were allowe to hurt. So let yourself hurt but also let yourself grow and get back to where you want to be. Everything happens for a reason and I believe there are lessons embedded in every encounter we have. Once i've been able to learn what those lessons were for myself in relationships that have ended for me, it's helped me out of the rut and I pray that you can get there soon too! You've got this and we love you!
1302. Laura Ellen Smith: Elvis Jansons you have zero empathy and that's really sad. Where is your heart? Obviously you've never had it broken before.
1303. Bruhitslillie Cory: Jonathan Josey just what I was thinking❤️
1304. Mimi Urmeneta: JOSHY :"( .... STOP BEING SAD PLEASE..... NOT FOR US, DO IT FOR YOURSELF CAUSE ITS NOT HEALTHY FOR YOU. WE KNOW YOU CAN BE BETTER AGAIN JOSH 💜💜💜💜 DONT CRY PLS
1305. Shelley-Marie Phillips: Stay strong Josh, you'll get there. We all want you to feel better and I'm so inspired by your honesty. So many people are ashamed of getting help when it's the most empowering thing you can do, by taking control of a shitty situation. I've been in a similar situation since last Autumn and had to seek help for the same reasons, and I feel so much of what you're feeling. It's a long process, but we can be stronger than the things that have happened to us. It's so hard to find yourself again after losing a huge part of you to someone else, and it gets so dark sometimes. You'll be okay, and there's a huge community here for you to lean on when you need it :) take care xo
1306. VanillaBean: Dude, just go to therapy, speak your soul there. I really dont know if uploading videos will hep with your sadness in the long run. Yes, it will aid in being a distraction from the negativity, but that is only temporary, If you have the money for it, I really suggest you see a therapist. No one deserves this sadness you certainly dont. Go get help!
1307. Rhian Elena: You're so amazing and all of your fans and friends and family are there for you ❤️ I love you
1308. mylifeasluiz: is he gay?
1309. Jus: it's okay not to be okay ❤
1310. Denver Coyle: i wish you well......one day at a time......one small step at a time. You have made the first move in realising & have sought help so good for you , you are already one step closer than you were...take care
1311. HannahNoelle2158: Thank you for posting this. 💔
1312. Sharon Voden: Just don't take psyche drugs.. They fucking DESTROY people eventually. I have seen waaaaaaay too many lives obliterated by psyche drugs. LIFE can be a bitch! Take a walk until you FEEL BETTER , change your scenery... take care of yourself, remove reminders, focus forward ONLY Josh! We all go through devastating shit... we all need to pull through! Time slowly heals. YOU ARE SO WORTH MOVING THROUGH THIS! <3 you are LOVED, needed, and you WILL pass through this and find happiness again!
1313. stinky butt: you will be healed if you analize 5.09-5.36 and be glad for her
1314. Merete Gabrielsen: Step 1 to becomming ok again is admitting youre not ok so good job Josh😉 You are amazing and i cant blame you for being hurt and bitter AT ALL!!!!! i know you will be ok at the end😍 big hug and much love from Norway😉
1315. dancergirl 14: Josh Be Strong. You Are Normal. And We All Love You!! . Praying for you!! 💜
1316. MissLilyputt: It's alright to be all over the place, to lean on the people who love you, and get help when you need it. Let people help you. It's alright and so many people want to help if you only let them/us. You're not alone and other people like me have gone through depression related to divorce. There is hope, happiness, love, and a better tomorrow for you. It's just gonna take time for you to truly believe it. Don't give up. ❤️
1317. bellajoy: What does he mean by since everything happened. I don't know what's wrong or anything.
1318. TheUnicornQueen: I'm here for you Josh. I'm glad you are sharing your journey with us even though it's been hard for you. I wish you the best of luck ❤️
1319. bendy: So proud of you Josh. I have been going through so much depression and anxiety lately and so I understand. Wishing you well ❤️
1320. Elvis Jansons: GET OVER IT ALREADY!!! OMG! So annoying!
1321. Marissa Bradley: Josh, I know how you feel. Stay strong!💟💪
1322. Hana Aarya: You will get through this <3
1323. Cassie Hampton: thank you! it's nice not to feel alone in these feelings 😢❤️❤️❤️
1324. Lee Macbeth: We all need help in our lives and we should always take this opportunity to grab those helping hands that are offered to us..
1325. Weirdo 57: I'm so sorry you're struggling right now. I've watched your videos for some time and your channel has wonderfully evolved. It takes a lot of courage to stand up and tell the world how you feel. Thank you so much for your honesty. This video means a lot.
1326. Julee Ray: Thank you for your honesty, Josh. It is so unbelievably refreshing. These are the things that people are dealing with. Depression is real and I am glad that you do not "sugar coat" anything. I will be following you along your journey good or bad. God bless you.
1327. jieul: You should've seen a therapist and got on meds long time ago. My depression is only controlled this way, its impossible to do it yourself. If your depressed only due to the divorce and you've never had it before (which seems to be the case) take solace that time heals a broken heart and its not a life long struggle as mental illness is.
1328. Lilac Socks: Believe in yourself, never give up. I know this is something easy to say and not that easy to do. Also everyone has probably said it to you, but just try to think about little things that makes you smile such as a bird singing when you wake up, the wind in your face in the morning, the fists drops that go down your head when you have a shower or the color clouds at 7 pm. Maybe at first they just seem like something normal, but when you stat looking them from a different perspective, your whole world will change, trust me.
1329. Poppy O: It's okay to be depressed. I went through a sudden and unexpected divorce. 20 years on it still hurts. But not nearly as bad. At first I couldn't get off the couch. Now I'm remarried with kids, and occasionally I feel a little twinge of icky. But not that much and I go months without even thinking of him. *Remember a couple of things* 1. Depression lies to you. It tells you things that are NOT true. 2. You don't have to be *happy*. No one can be happy all the time. That would be insanity and not real. Aim for contentment. 3. Take it one day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. 4. You're becoming a new man. You're going through growing pains. Be patient. 5. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is AMAZING 6. When needed, do NOT be ashamed to take medication. 7. Everything you're feeling is normal. NO MATTER WHAT. Depression, anger, rage, sadness, giddiness. 8. Always have something to look forward to - even just a haircut, a walk with your mom etc. Schedule things so you have things to look forward to. 8. You WILL BE OKAY. 9. As far as the 'other side', try to not watch it or interact with it. You need time to heal. You know life isn't what it seems in videos. 10 Take care of you. 11. Don't make any big decisions until you've healed more. Don't get tats, get remarried, shave your hair all off, move to Mexico etc. Most importantly: BE NICE TO *YOURSELF!*!!
1330. Ava Grace: Joshua, I love you dearly!! i want you to know we are all with you through this journey to finding yourself again. we love you! you are amazing! and yes we know you havent been ok.. but we are with you and we love you!! when all this blew up we were heartbroken.. but you said this has effected your friendships... well we have been here for you since the beginning. I love u, ~Ava <3 <3 <3
1331. Rosie 37: everyone needs help sometime Josh. get happy, get healthy and your fans will be here for you! stay strong Josh. love from Michigan. ❤😃❤
1332. Dovydas Martonis: Gosh... give this man a medal for being so brave, and telling us personal stuff...
1333. SimplyinGeorgia: hold your head up boy! you need someone to talk to we are here! love you!
1334. Niki DiCarlo: Everyone grieves differently. You may feel like you're taking this almost too hard at times, but you're feeling your feelings, which is exactly what you need to do. Depression is an expert at providing a disconnect between you and your identity. Keep feeling and rediscovering yourself. Force yourself to get up every day, take a shower, and eat breakfast. That's the first step. Some days it will feel impossible, and other days you might be able to keep the momentum going by processing your emotions through writing music or filming a creative video. Hang in there and take the time you need to heal.
1335. Gwendolyn Webb: OMG you're so sexy!!!
1336. xfollowmyleadx: Thank you for sharing this Josh! I've seen the darkest valleys of live and with help of others I came back on top. It's good you share this so that you can't hide behind it anymore. It felt the right thing for me to do as well. As soon as others are there to help you stay on top of it, it's harder to hide behind the things you don't want anyone to know. Good luck on this journey, I know you'll get through it. I've made it to. Stay strong!! 💕
1337. MrSharkey: Thanks for being honest about your depression. Love you lots mister. Keep workin' it. <3
1338. Norys Agudelo Rodriguez: Joshua, trust God with all your heart, and always pray to Him. He will always give you the answer you need with time. You're in my prayers!
1339. Jen McBreezy: Hugs, Josh. Hugs.
1340. Katja Chasty: if you ever need us josh, were here for you. we're not just your fans, we're your family
1341. Maddy J: This breaks my heart. My stepmom and dad recently separated and it's been hard on me and my brother and I never completely understood why they and they're breakup reminds me of your/ his and colleens so much like they're the same to me.
1342. Sugar Kookies: Thanks you really encouraged me to... Ya know... Talk about this kinda thing :1
1343. tiggerr071301: I can really relate. I am going through anxiety and depression. Therapy is the best! It maybe post traumatic stress. I wish u the best. Positivity!
1344. Sarah Becker: Cat23 ugh, I need people like you in my life!
1345. Iqmal Fairuz: stay strong!💪 we're here for you 😀💯❤💪
1346. Dani0Jo: <3
1347. DeeDreams: Thanks for sharing this. I relate to it so much and I go through this all the time, even when things in my life are going well. Depression is a hard thing to deal with, and it makes you feel so alone. but it's a great step you took to share it, cause you're for sure not alone <3
1348. Julia Gates: Josh my therapist helped me through the worst time in my life. I've seen her every week for three years! And I'm finally feeling genuinely happy and stronger than I ever was when I thought I was happy. let me tell you, you have to feel all of your feelings before you will be happy again. I used to try and force myself to "be over it and strong" and be happy again but healing doesn't work like that. It's like cleaning out a messy closet. If you need to cry cry! Let everything out. So proud you are getting help and sharing your story to make people feel less alone. Love you josh you will get better. <3
1349. Teunie Johanna: Thank you for being so honest with us and with yourself. I'm so sorry you're hurting so bad and I pray you'll find happiness again soon. Remember, there's nothing wrong with you, seriously, you've been through a lot and that changes you, I totally understand. And don't apologize to us, we love you no matter what and please take all the time you need and want.
1350. T Tephi: Dear Josh There is NOTHING wrong with you, you have gone through a big thing and it is okay to not be okay, in fact it is perfectly normal (yes even to feel bitter). You are a deep and sensitive soul and that is why it hurts so much. As for the other side, don't understand it at all myself. All I can say is you deserve more and in time you will come to realise that things sometimes work out for the best in the long term, even though it may hurt like hell in the short term. Love and Hugs
1351. Megan: Nothing's wrong with you, you've had your heart broken. It's perfectly normal to feel that way, we always blame our selves first but is it really anyone's fault? You have to find the reason in everything or it will drive you nuts trying to fine one. It could just be gods plan, and it just wasn't meant to work out. Marriages fail a lot more now a days don't feel like your so alone, Because your not alone. We are here
1352. s731s: I'm in actual tears. you don't deserve this. sending you a huge hug!! and praying for your life to suddenly overflow with goodness and love and peace and joy. I want all these things so badly for you, even more than i want it for my own life. you're a romantic like me. in the future we will see you in love with your special otter, having otter babies, And everything you've poured into love and life with get poured back into your double triple, a dozen times over, you won't even know what to do with all the overflow of beauty. before you know it you'll be healed. it won't happen suddenly. you won't notice it. you'll just look back and say, somehow some way, I was able to heal. time passed and I woke up fine. that's how it happens to us all. Thank you for being real. not that you'll ever read this or know who I am. but we love you. so proud of you mr internet stranger whom I've never met and never will but feel strangely connected too, even if it's a one way connection😘
1353. rachel watson: 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 Josh you deserve happiness, keep fighting for it!
1354. Lydia Polly25: What can help you feel ok is going to church, just have faith in God and go to church and everything will fall in place
1355. Claire Elizabeth Blake: Joshua, you have every right to be upset and hurting. Do not feel like you have to heal overnight. You will find the strength when you are ready. None of this is your fault. You're taking steps in the right direction towards healing. Keep moving forward, Joshua.
1356. Amy McKean: The authenticity really shines through. I have no idea who you are. This is the first video I've seen of yours, but I've been going through something similar and I understand where you are coming from. I don't know who you are from before, so I won't be judging you based on some preconceived idea. I'm proud of you for getting the help you need. So many of us think we can do it on our own, but asking for help takes strength that some of us don't have. I wish you the best and I'll be following along.
1357. baby mambaa: i feel the same way.stay strong josh everything will be okay❤❤
1358. Kenna Henbest: i frickin love you man ❤️ stay strong. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
1359. silkiegirl: It's okay Josh. You have had a major loss in your life, and you need to allow yourself to grieve. it will get better, but it will take time too. Don't worry about us and take care of yourself. I'm older than you and have been divorced twice before, and I know of which I speak. Be good to yourself and do what you need to do.
1360. Olivia Downs: I thought he was going to come out
1361. Emelya: We love you Joshua, stay strong. Even if we can't be there with you physically, we're there for you through the screen. We all have hard times, it's okay. Stay strong dingleberry💕
1362. Clifton Vincent: it will get better! take it day by day and be 100% honest with ur therapist. your not crazy, there's nothing wrong with you! ! love yourself and accept love. God bless you
1363. Crazy Cheese Girl: Christifer DS good for u
1364. Jess B.: I love you so much Josh .
1365. kinskins100: This is so strong of you. You gave so much to someone who seemingly gave nothing to you. That has to be INSANELY hard. I am so sorry you're going through this. Stay strong and work on you. We love you, Josh.
1366. black gay antifa: thought he was coming out as gay...boring
1367. Amanda Jean's Drawings: authenticity xx
1368. tod asil: You got this man. I know EXACTLY what you are going through. First step is admitting it. This is the first day of your life. 👍🏻👍🏻🙌🏻👏🏻❤️
1369. Syd Foster: Josh, I am here for you. You are such a wise and strong willed person. I believe in you. You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength. I am so proud of how far you've come. Keep your head up. You're so strong. Much love for you, Joshua.
1370. Meg: Siobhan Clark Think of those around you. Whether you see it or not, your death would greatly affect their lives.
1371. poojadas gupta: you are a genuine soul and a good heart...stay strong man.
1372. Dasia __: Josh, a while ago my girlfriend and I broke up. I was heartbroken it wasn't a mutual break up in the slightest and I was so hurt. She was going through things of her own and I understand that now, but in the moment it was the hardest thing I've had to go through. I stayed up at night wondering what I could have done differently to keep her, if I made her unhappy. I felt that if she had just let me love her through her hard times we would have been okay. I spent a year questioning myself, questioning why she seemed so happy without me, questioning why I was so broken without her. If I loved her so much and was still broken, did that mean she didn't love me even half as much as I loved her. Eventually I decided to talk to her, about everything. It turns out she wasn't nearly as happy as she seemed and It was all just for show. Josh I hope you see this because I know how you're feeling. I know the pain you're going through, most definitely not to the extent that you are but I do know how it feels to love someone with everything you're capable of only to have that ripped away from you. I know how it feels to be so broken and confused and to see them appear so happy. I truly, do not believe that "the other side" of this situation is any happier than you are. I think that this is a coping mechanism. You know "the other side" better than any of us do because of your history but you are in a bad place right now and you've probably doubted everything at some point. Please know that we love you so much and that you mean so much to so many people. Please keep in mind that you need to make yourself a priority, your mental health included. Much love❤
1373. Hannah Coffey: love you so much josh. ive been a subscriber for a long time and im always going to be. you are such an inspiration to me. i hope you feel better soon.
1374. Mariana Higa: You hope you get better, it hurts to see you like this. You 'll heal, I'm glad you reached fir help. Keep it up❤️
1375. Luke Xianwalker: Courage
1376. Lydia Wilson: Stay strong!! I love you❤️❤️❤️
1377. Issues -_-: Josh, You are one in a billion❤
1378. Amanda V: You are strong to want to pick yourself up. Thank you for being authentic. So many people feel the same about being a burden on those who surround us. I have a feeling that this is the beginning of a beautiful life you never imagined for yourself. Who knows where you're being lead. I wish you forgiveness, healing and A happiness that you've never felt before.
1379. One Day: Everything happens for a reason, and sometimes we don't understand why. However, God graces us to get through it if we allow Him. Keep going bro
1380. rosalie bertrand: I have been trough a lot the past four years and I couldn't take the pain anymore so I talked to my parents and they are going to find me a therapist. I am so happy to know that I'm not the only one you needs help so I hope that you get better.👍
1381. Karissa Teixeira: Miss you Josh! I know we haven't talked in forever but I do know you have a BIG heart and I do truly hope you of all people find HAPPINESS xoxo!
1382. HaleyB Covers: I was so nervous about this video, joshua we are all here for you, you have so many people who love and adore you and we will continue to support you no matter what, i`ve been through alot of stuff as well everyone has bad and downing moments and i actually like seeing that you have feelings and can talk to us about it you can get through it i promise and we will be there every step of the way , be strong josh !
1383. Kjmck 0304: Stay strong bud. We love you.
1384. aquenita27: I honestly applaud you for putting this video up; there are lots of folks who can relate, so please know that you are never alone. Keep your chin up and focus on yourself right now. Surround yourself with positivity and love. Breathe. I'm broken, too... let's heal together :) Chin up.
1385. Pazonackler: Josh I do want to say that I love all your videos. I am going through a bad time right now as well. I completely understand how you feel. You are a strong person! You always cheer up my days. I know I am a random person on the internet, but I just want to give you advice I got when I was hospitalized last time. "You may be the thing that's broken, and you may be the person trying to fix yourself, but you can't repair a heart with broken tools, let others help and share their tools." I know its a bad metaphor, but focus on 1 day at a time, and don't stress about changing fast, it takes no time to break at all, but it takes a long time to fix.
1386. Jennifer Em: so much love and respect for you josh! wishing you genuine happiness soon and i'm excited to see you grow with the daily videos!
1387. dawnfrenchy: 💖💖💙💚💜
1388. Jacintha Leatherby: Josh you are amazing, we love you, your channel isn't sad, you need to be yourself. Everyone goes through tough times, Everyone has bad days, one little thing can change the course of your life, I don't know if your religious or not but god has a plan for you and i will pray for you.
1389. Annabelle Bryan-Orr: We all love you, always remember that their is a solution to being sad ❤️😥🙏
1390. talkischeapXC: ❤️ Get yourself happy and healthy and the rest will fall into place. I know depression all too well and it won't go away until you get that weight off of you and keep it off. It will always be around but don't ever pick it back up and let it burden you. You are awesome I know you can get through it and I am praying for you. 🙏🏼
1391. Molly York: Really, truly, proud of you Josh. I know times are so hard for you right now, but it shows me that you're even more of a hero. I'm glad you are trying Therapy, and I'm glad you're doing a video every day. You're strong and, know that with time, things will change for the good. Praying for you, SEE YOU TOMORROW :)
1392. Becki Green: Jem Cathrine Regalado Do you really think that's how life works? Since you appear to be 9 years old, I will tell you, they are never getting back together.
1393. Vintage Mess: Hey Josh everything will be alright and dont be afraid to feel what you feel and everything will fall into place❤ Ill pray for you and God sees you he'll be right there for yoy❣ I understand what you feel I really do and everything will fall into place ❣❣
1394. cynfan5: Josh, I was clinically depressed at 16 and didn't seek therapy until I was in my mid 20's. Therapy, along with some anti depressants helped a lot. A lot of people close their minds to drugs but they don't have to be a lifetime commitment. I took them for a couple of years and then stopped. I finally came through it and learned to function on my own. If I needed it, I sought therapy. Be kind to yourself and cut yourself some slack. R revrrr (pop)
1395. Martha Green: Hey Josh! I've watched your videos for years, and I've always loved how genuine you are in every video. When I was going through my grief, I needed time to myself to recharge and grieve. It's perfectly fine to be vulnerable and go through this process however long it takes. I don't know how you or anyone believes and I would never push my beliefs on anyone, but getting involved with my church was extremely rewarding and therapeutic for me. A strong, honest, supportive community can greatly impact your life. You have a wonderful heart and you deserve to find joy even in the midst of your pain. Keep the faith, Josh! We love you, we are praying for you, and we support you! God has wonderful things in store for your life! 😊😊😊
1396. Cerise deCardenas: Your honesty is inspiring. I pray you find what brings you joy. Love from Texas❤️
1397. Anita Cudiamat: Don't give up josh! I think we're all thinking the same as you... Why does everything seem so perfect on the other side, and you are down and struggling??? It's hard. It's hard for us watching because we follow your life and feel like friends in a way and to see a friend feeling the way you do and going through what you are is hard. Personally I don't want to see perfect all the time. I want to see that you're like me and struggling and that sometimes you don't always have something positive to bring things back up, but you're trying and you have us all here cheering for you. You'll get through this, I know you will. We believe in you and anyone who has something negative to say has probably never been in your position and knows nothing about your situation. Lean on your family, lean on your friends, and keep up the daily videos with us. We got you!
1398. Ellie Guy x: It hurts more when you know how he's feeling :( so proud of you Josh, I love you xxx
1399. Kyra Marie: So many prayers for you, Josh. No words can describe how much you deserve to be happy and I mean every word when I say that. Everything happens for a reason and I know it's quite cliche to say this but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. You have to endure pain to know what true joy is and God has something amazing waiting for you, Josh. Keep pushing through. We all have so much love for you
1400. BDAVIS: I've been here. Oh, how I remember this heartache. This will not last forever. Just surround yourself with good, uplifting people - get help if you need to. Counseling really helped me...I also found a Divorce Care group. It's ok to grieve and be depressed. It lasted a good year for me - I cried so much. But soon, things won't hurt as much. Things will heal and life will feel good again. Hang in there - thanks for sharing with us.
1401. Autumn Waldo: we love you. its ok not to be ok. keep your head high ❤️❤️
1402. Jonathan Josey: s731s Amen!
1403. Kelly Mcmonagle: Yay! I live in center city Philadelphia! Hope to see ya then! 💕
1404. infinitestarlight: Awesome video Joshua <3 Sending so much love and hugs. Hope you keep bouncing higher.
1405. Jessica Carpenetti: nothing is wrong with that at all. It took me years, yeeeeears to get through depression and I still have times when it pops back even though I've moved on and am in a great place in my life. it's something I have to work at everyday now like remembering to brush your teeth. sometimes you slack off but then you get back on the wagon again. you're not alone, more people struggle with this than I think we know.
1406. Pooh & Stitch: Wonderful, touching video! Having been where you are, it was awful. I, too, was swallowed by darkness over and over again with brief moments of light and happiness...still happens sometimes. You have taken brave steps by seeking help and sharing it with everyone. While everyone's journey down this horrible road is different, please know that there are those of us out here praying for you during this difficult time. Thank you for sharing. 😘❤️
1407. ClumzyKinzy: i love you josh your amazing i hope you can climb out of your dark place and find a new light
1408. Meghan Lucas: so truly proud of you ❤️
1409. It's_Just_Me 0: i will be with you 100%.i dont expect you to upload videos with a fake smile to protect us,keep being honest with us like this,we.understand! There's NOTHING wrong with you and you WILL get better💖
1410. L: im so sorry you're going through this i hope it gets better for you you're an amazing guy stay strong
1411. Michaela Peters: Quit trying to make #dinkleberries a thing Heather O'Day, it's never going to happen. Lol jk, but I do love the hastag #dinkfam
1412. rosiexo: Thanks for being so honest josh. There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with feeling like crap. I'll be praying for you... I genuinely believe Jesus Christ is the of God and he loves you wants to have a relationship with you... he has brought me so much contentment and joy through tough times. ❤️
1413. Sarah Fa: Josh!! you deserve to feel happy, but remember happiness is a mood, not a destination. (if you get that tv reference, you are even more amazing) I truly hope that therapy helps you talk and work through the tough things. you'll get back to where you want to be and we will be waiting, as always, cheering you on! love to you. ❤
1414. Abi G.: poor guy 😔 don't look at these people who makes you sad.. look at your family & friends who makes you happy ❤
1415. jordyn rohrbaugh: Nothing is wrong with you your awesome
1416. Anthony Dillion: Naima Thompson I think people think it was a coming out video because some male YouTubers are gay or bi, there is quite a large amount of people that are in the community that are also content creators on YouTube. Plus he shows a lot of support that most "straight" guys don't always show. It might mislead people, but he is just a genuinely nice and accepting person!
1417. Naomi Watts: you need Jesus
1418. Nicole Kornhaus: This is actually one of my favorite videos because it's real
1419. Laura Soto: You know what, Josh? You're going to get better. I don't think any of us expected you to bounce back to normal after everything you've gone through. A lot of us KNOW that it's impossible to just be okay immediately after dealing with something hard. Life changes, and sometimes life changes without a warning. I can't begin to imagine how much pain you've been in recently, but I'm so proud of you for seeking help. It's going to be a journey for you, but as they always say "it's always darkest before dawn". You're on the road to getting better, and I promise you something incredible is going to come out of all this pain you're currently dealing with. So much love for you, Josh <3 I know we're going to stick with you through this journey. Everything will be okay.
1420. Tiffani Butler: You're amazing 💕 God loves you & this season is only temporary
1421. thatdudescool: You know what I want to do! I don't care if it's annoying or whatever but every day I want to DM/personal message you either on Twitter, Snapchat, wherever positive uplifting messages to you EVERY SINGLE DAY just so you know you have someone that LOVES you....NO, so you know you have _thousands_ of people that love you, (because I'm doing it for other people too!) I want to be the person that helps you know that it's okay to grieve, and it's okay to be down some days, but I want you to be happy! I love you, Joshua.
1422. Aaliyah_ Butcher14: +joushuadtv I used to be depressed and suicidal I almost killed my self and I was only 12 years old I haven't even lived my life yet and I almost ended it. But u know what pulled me out God did. Your hurting and that emptiness only god can fill that emptiness.god loves you very much and he wants to save you from sin. You may think it's stupid but and it doesn't work but it does. And it never ends it's forever happiness and peace. And the best part is all you have to do is ask god for forgiveness for your sin and mean with all your heart and you will be saved. In the Bible in john 3:16 for god so loved the world he gave his only son and who ever believes in him shall not parish but have eternal life. God sent his son to earth to die for everything we have done. Will you reject him or except him in your life? He can give you happiness Joshua he really can. You don't have to be depressed anymore or go to a therapist cuz in the end it won't work it might work for a little bit but Not forever. Just pray a prayer that god will forgive you for all of your sin and make you a new creation.pray this:god I know I am a sinner and I ask you that you would forgive me of all of my sin and make me a new creation in you amen. That's it's you need to go to therapy anymore.
1423. Dee Dee Burke: Josh, you just get the help you need so you can feel better to keep moving! I hope the therapy helps and continues to be valuable to you.
1424. Madison Aucoin: hang in there 💜💚💙
1425. Yasmina Alji: ❤️
1426. joe: we are all here for you. we all love you. we will continue to support you, because we love you. stay strong. 💓
1427. Kirsten McGarvey: If there are days where you find yourself unable to make a video, please please don't be too hard on yourself. We all love you and understand that sometimes you just can't. I also want to thank you for talking openly about getting help. there is such a stigma around mental health and so many feel afraid to get help. It's people like you that help normalize it even just a little. I wish you the best of luck on your journey.
1428. Ethel thethird: GOD IS THE ANSWER.......HE IS WAITING FOR YOU SOOOO BAD ...THAT YOU DROP IN HIS ARMS ......DO IT!! COMEBACK TO HIM
1429. Christina 299: when you said you lost your connection with the world it made me sooo sad because that's exactly how I feel as well. i didnt know this could happen to good people. it makes you question your entire world
1430. Chris Morales: Time will heal all you have so much support you are taking all the right steps to come up and out a stronger person.
1431. myname istaken1996: I really like how it's taking a turn. YouTubers and people are coming out showing their true heart, feelings, sides to themselves. It's time for a big change. No more bs. :)
1432. IloveDaniel: You have such a sweet heart! Nothing is wrong with you. The fact that you care so much and love so hard, I know you'll gain more happiness than you've ever had when the time comes. Because people realize what kind of person you are and all anyone wants is someone like you/with your qualities! <3
1433. Amanda Behrens: I am so happy to hear you are going to be back everyday! Seeing your cute face everyday will be nice! I am also glad you are talking to someone! Good for you! You got this! ✌
1434. Sweetpea Fad: Just wanted to say its ok to be sad and I am sure not all is perfect on the other side but its not good to keep to your self and bottle things up. Many times people expect a man to not show emotion but its ok to. I know its not easy to talk to friends and family because you feel like you are bringing them down too but if they are there and asking about you and how your doing you are not bringing them down but its them wanting to help you and give you an ear to talk about everything too. I have bipolar and go thru both sides of the spectrum and when I am depressed I also used to go into myself but once I learned to talk to my family and close friends it helped me a lot. From what I have seen on here of your family and friends they are all good people and I can see that they are there for you 100% so open up to them and let them help the best they can and I will garauntee you will start feeling better about life sooner than you think. Hugs to you and hope you find peace and happiness in life. Take it as a learning experience and don't let it affect what you may find in the future by keeping the door open for the future and meeting someone later that you can love and will love you just as much down the road.
1435. Trilby Shea: Christopher Brown I agree and if he needs to take a break it is ok it is ok to feel bad so take a brake but if putting his mind to something he loves it is ok♥️
1436. Kiana Daniels: Love you Josh
1437. Sameegah Allie: You are not jaded. You are human. You don't need to put a front up for anyone. Feel what your fee it's okay. Don't base your progress on "the other side of the coin" everyone deals differently. You need to find your purpise and place in life again. Re-establish what you want and what makes you happy. There will be good days and terrible days but if you keep wanting to and working towards your happiness you will wake up one day and see everything suddenly in a whole new light. Keep strong and know you are definitely not alone
1438. Arielle Rechnitzer: I just want to say that even though it's great to have goals and to hold yourself accountable, I hope you won't be too hard on yourself if there are days where you don't end up putting out a video. Every day is different! If on a given day, putting out a video will help you, do it!! If it will take too much out of you, don't! Your fans support you and just want you to feel better :)
1439. nikora nikora: I think I'm in love 😍
1440. Classy Cassie: Josh, we all love you. Please don't ever be afraid to show your true colors, because it's okay to be not okay. I'm proud of you for getting help, and I really hope that you continue to seek guidance. I also have depression, and also anxiety. It's not fun. But you have to move past it. Find those little things that make you happy. It's okay to hurt, Josh, because it means you are human. Sadness is a part of life. You've got tons of people who love you and care about you. Don't give up hope on anything. Because you, of all people, deserves to be happy. But remember it's okay to show sadness as well as happiness. We love you, Josh. Stay strong. ❤️
1441. JustJay: I definitely go through the cycle myself. I'll feel good, and I'll try to find ways to better myself. Then I fall into that hole where I don't do anything. I think it's great that you've started therapy, and I'm so happy that you are open with it. Best of luck to you and this road to recovery. Sending you all the love!!!
1442. Taylor Pompper: I believe in you, Josh. Me and so many others. You just need to believe in you too.
1443. Zivile Juk: Normal is borring and its okay to be diffrent ;)
1444. Felicia Annette: I'm not one to really comment, but I had to. There's nothing wrong with you. You're going through something difficult that is not something you just get over overnight, but you have amazing friends and family that are there to help you get through it. You don't have to do it alone. This is one season in your life that you will over come. Look to God and ask him for guidance and help to heal you. You WILL be happy again! Time heals all wounds. You're strong! God bless and never be sorry for being so real. Sending prayers your way. ❤
1445. Daniella Arroyo: Josh I'm so sorry that you feel this way!❤ there's nothing wrong with loving someone,and she's hurting to she just has a different way of showing it! I hope you find happiness!💘
1446. seraphxl18: Glad you decided to come out
1447. Cara Donahue: I love you always too, Josh. And we are hurting with you. We will all lift each other up until we are okay again. But for now, it's okay not to be okay.
1448. Madge's Life: you have all of us Josh, to talk to and vent to. it's important​to get these feelings out
1449. AnLa Trapp: Sending love from Germany ❤️❤️❤️ you're amazing and I look forward to you're videos every week !
1450. sharrlizz: Dear Josh, I understand ❤
1451. Xo Desiree: Prayers all the way from Texas ❤️ I'm suffering from anxiety & depression. It can be hard at times but your not alone !! 🙏🏻 Phil 4:13 "I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me"
1452. Audrey Elizabeth: Plus if shadow makes u happy yolo get another dog
1453. colleen JAY: Josh, seeking was the best thing you can do for yourself. I am glad you are:)
1454. ArisJanoskian: I'm not okay either, Josh. I miss happiness.
1455. Alice Jackson: There is nothing wrong with you, if anything there is something wrong with 'the other side' for breaking your heart and appearing to be happy all the time
1456. Haylee Ramsden: I pray God blesses you Josh and will calm your mind soon enough, you're such a kind soul.
1457. Keegan Elise Jones: You have to give it time you can't just bounce back. It literally just takes time. You don't have to act like you're okay!!! We love you for who you are. It's natural to feel this way
1458. Brooke Bible: We love you, Josh ❤️ I go through depression also, and I want you to know that I'm here for you! 😊
1459. Jennifer Stone: It's so comforting to know that other people experience the exact same as me right now <3 thanks for sharing this
1460. native: W33K3ND W4RR10R Last thing he or anyone else needs are more delusions. Prayers don't work, religions are a scam. Cults only degrade people's intelligence.
1461. Stella Chong: the channel is dying
1462. EmilyBJSN: Josh, I have never gone through divorce, but I have gone through breakups. Don't be in a hurry to be okay. Being okay takes time. For me, that time takes anywhere from 3 months to 3 years. We want to see the real you. If you're down, that's what we want. We don't want fake happiness. Let these vlogs be your diary and we are going to support you every step of the way!
1463. Mariana Delancey: Heartbreak sucks, seeing the other side be happy makes us feel as though we're the only ones hurting therefore they mustn't have cared as much and that just sucks even more. You did the right thing by asking for help you're putting yourself first and acknowledging you're not ok is a huge step in the right direction. Take it one day at a time, know that if you have failures along the way it doesn't mean that all your progress has gone to crap, just keep going. Btw I noticed the same thing about the other side and I didn't like it either so I unfollowed. It felt insincere and over the top and at times like putting on a show to hurt you. :) best of luck
1464. This Is Benji: Actually thought he was going to come out gay 🌈
1465. Sara Patti: I think this was brave of you to post. I sincerely hope that seeing someone and your blogs bring you back to that happy place, because you deserve that.
1466. Connor and Ciara: Sometimes you have to hurt before you can heal. We are all here for you. It sucks so bad to see you like this but I'm wishing you all the happiness in the world. Do what makes you happy and be with people who make you happy. God Bless Josh 💜
1467. whiterexy789: I feel everything you're saying on such a deep level....it's like you took the words from my mouth. I guess we really aren't alone. Thank you, Josh. <3
1468. Courtney's Grotto: SENDING HUGE HUGS YOUR WAY JOSHUA, I know you can get through this <3 youre such a ray of sunshine in this world <3
1469. Kat Tv: Josh don't let it get in the way she really wade the the one for you but it's ok I'm here to support you also a lot of your fans support just express your self its good to express your feelings! 🙏🏻
1470. lissamn81: Thank you Josh for bringing this to the surface. I applaud you so much for your honesty. Not everything is rainbows and butterflies and we know that. Stop apologizing for what you are going through or what type of content your providing. You just need to be true to you and if that means you need time away or you want to vlog every 5 minutes, than so be it. I can tell you are a very smart man and you know what's right, just move in the right direction. There are so many people who love and care for you out here. I could never imagine the pain you're going through and how hard it is to process. We all go through struggles, we all try to project perfection. We are not perfect, we are human. I have my own struggles. So again, thank you for your honestly and please just do "you". Whatever that may be so you can find inner peace, strength and happiness once again, lots of love your way!
1471. Marvelin Ras: I normally don't comment on videos but i want to show my support❤️ take it day by day and don't feel like you have no where to out your feelings. It's hard for you to be alone in this time because you feel so alone, go out enjoy life, explore, enjoy time with family... it will be ok with time. I also used to be like this, but it was so different but it broke me. But yeah i wanted to show you support, you're not alone in this, you have us too as a subscriber❤️ much love...🙂
1472. enderdragonMGL2: This is amazing. Stay strong. :)
1473. Jennifer Robinson: I am 31 and twice in my life I have had watershed moments. Events that define your life and everything becomes before and after those events. Both times I was not ok. So, I got help. Professional therapy and medications completely changed how I was able to work through and around my new reality. Getting help is smart and it is brave. Stick with it. You will be amazed the tools a professional can teach you to help you see things more clearly.
1474. Brittney Williams: It's going to get better. Just gonna take a lot a lot of time. We all love you Josh for who you are not what you are. Keep your head up buddy.
1475. Michelle Wolfer: Also just like he said he had found out more afterwards, that can only mean a few things.
1476. nevaeh peanut: Prayers do work i am a Christian and prayer does work I know so many people who could have died that I prayed for and now their so much better so it does work and it can fix earthly problems
1477. pennypink 8662: Being depressed is ok I went though divorce a few years back and can understand it's hard we are all here for you one day you will look back on this situation/ moment and be like wow that was tough but be proud you come outta the other side please just spend time with people in the real world and maybe keep a mood diary and when you look back you'll see it's not all down days
1478. Mrs. H: Anyone can be fake and pretend to be happy, it takes a strong person to be REAL and raw. To be perfectly honest before the divorce I didn't really like your videos, I thought they were a little fake, and I hate that type of thing so I rarely watched. It wasn't until after the divorce and I saw your true self did I become a regular viewer. I hate to see you so heartbroken, you are a good man and you will find yourself again, and you'll find love again too.
1479. greenleigh82: In the end you need to take care of yourself. Depression is no joke. It never goes away. It's always something you have to deal with. Just remember though that even the smallest bounce off the ground is still a bounce. Maybe this is where you should be? You are in a position to reach out and help others. There are so many dingleberries out there that are dealing with this too.. You are NOT different Josh. You're just finally being real. When in doubt, always choose to be real! Big hugs to you! Remember you are loved by so many people!
1480. Tais Lourinho da silva: Nothing is wrong with you josh, you are human. You've been hurt. But you're also strong and you will get through this x
1481. Taylor Ryan: We love you Josh.
1482. Nicole Menard: Josh, we love you and most of us who have been here understand what you are going through and feel for you. In your last couple videos with Erin you were pretty down and it was noticeable. Not in a horrible way but just in a you aren't yourself kind of way. PLEASE take care of yourself! <3 <3
1483. cowsrock1q: It hurts me to see Josh this way. His whole life has changed, even affecting his job. But she is still doing everything and seems fine. She isn't hurting like you are. I know it hurts both ways, in your own way, but being broken up with is much more on the harder side to deal with, than the one who makes the decision to end it. I know that everyone copes differently but this is so hard to see and hear from him...I hope you get better Josh, one day it will be. Can't imagine what you are going through. Being alone is hard. But this will make you stronger. Nothing is wrong with you! Find a therapist that fits you. A lot of therapists work differently. Maybe finding a new passion or traveling somewhere you've always wanted to go will help. I'm sure you are doing everything you can. Keep going, don't stop.
1484. Millie Ikel: *sits on the bench and faces the camera* What's up dingleberries... LIFE IS LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES.
1485. Felix Andreas Kühnert: I'd love to hug you
1486. Victoria Gomez: Josh, I have been watching you for years and years and I can honestly say that I am so beyond proud of you. You are human. You are a selfless person. Since you give so much of yourself to others, the reality of no return is a sad price you pay. I am exactly the same in that point. But this isn't about me nor any of your fans. You need to focus on YOU. What makes YOU happy? Act on it. Thank you for always being so honest and raw with us, it gives a sense of closeness to you that is hard to find with other channels. This is your time of growth, and through growth you will find yourself. Life is like a book and you can't publish a book on your own. It is a long process and each chapter is completely unique. Seeking help is like finding someone to polish "your book", and there is nothing wrong with it whatsoever. You are a beautiful human being and I want you to know that you are enough and you will find your self worth. You're enough.
1487. Jodie Plowright: Josh, you had your entire world taken from you without your choice, you had given up everything you wanted and you need to process that grief fully. Take your time. The internet will always be there.
1488. katharmstrong: Josh , my name is Kathy and my grandaughter is Leah, we have been watching you for a long time and we are not going anywhere ! We love you and pray that your broken heart will heal completely . Lean in to Jesus as he loves you most ! Pour your heart out . Tears are healing and everyone of your tears are precious . I lost my brother in a RT A and thought I would never stop secretly crying but as a mum of four little ones I had to keep going . My husband left me shortly after and I loved him but he went for a younger woman . Trust me the moment I broke down and handed all my pain over was my turning point . You will be a much stronger person and I know you will be happy and content again . Love you from England . Xxxx
1489. Randi: Much love josh stay strong ❤️❤️
1490. Rachel Nicole: I love you Josh ❤️❤️ Gods got u I promise
1491. Elizabeth Murphy: Mental health is incredibly hard. It's very hard to ask for help. Don't ever be ashamed of the steps you need to take to feel well again. Thank you for your openness. 😊
1492. Courtney White: With your loving There ain't nothing That I can't adore The way I'm running with you honey Means we can break every law I find it funny that you're the only One I never looked for There is something in your loving That tears down my walls I wasn't ready then I'm ready now I'm heading straight for you You will only be eternally The one that I belong to The sweetest devotion Hit me like an explosion All of my life I've been frozen The sweetest devotion I know I'll forever be whatever You want me to be I'd go under and all over For your clarity When you wonder If I'm gonna lose my way home just remember That come whatever I'll be yours all along I wasn't ready then I'm ready now I'm heading straight for you You will only be eternally The one that I belong to The sweetest devotion Hit me like an explosion All of my life I've been frozen The sweetest devotion I know I've been looking for you baby In every face that I've ever known And there is something about the way you love me That finally feels like home You're my light you're my darkness You're the right kind of madness You're my hope you're my despair You're my scope of everything everywhere The sweetest devotion Hit me like an explosion All of my life I've been frozen The sweetest devotion I know
1493. Yarlín Herrera: Every time I see a comment about people saying that Jesus is the way to go out of depression and be happy, my heart gets full of joy😍
1494. Mina Phillips time: Good job we all are proud of you and we will never give up on you
1495. Megan Johnston: God can help💜 and people should respect religion
1496. Lillian Clark: did anyone else see his dog pooping at like 2:44 min area lolololol
1497. Ozlem Peters: It isn't easy to go through what you are going through. I am glad you are being real and that you are doing this for yourself. Healing is a process, you will get there little by little. Depression is real, hurt is real. Praying for you Josh! We are here for you.
1498. Dalis Monzon: You will be okay Josh, everyone heals on their own time, it is not easy, and from the way you post this video you're progressing, you're letting yourself feel and you took the first step into helping yourself by seeking a therapist, you should give yourself some credit for being a strong person.
1499. Jackiet87: I know it may seem hard to believe. But, I'm sure she's hurting too. She just handles in my throwing herself into her work, which she seems to be doing now with the show and every thing. People just deal with things in different ways and it effects people differently. ❤️
1500. Andi Stephen: Josh, It's nice to see you being unapologetic about being you and feeling what you feel. Not only is life too short not to make the most of but it's also far too short to be unhappy. I gotta say, I have far more respect for those that admit to feeling a certain way and are not afraid to get the help they need than I do for those who hide who they truly are and how they really feel. No one said you had to be cold and robotic to be perfect. Being perfect isn't about that. Being perfect is about being the best you that you can be. The rest is just icing on an already beautiful cake. Be well and I hope you learn a lot about who you are.
1501. Film Cat: Yes, and you don't have to go to church every Sunday, you don't have to read the bible, you sometimes just need to believe, you need to know that someone is always there for you.
1502. Marcos Perez: Love you man! Keep climbing back up! The world needs good energy like yours! Please?
1503. Willow Song: Also, there's nothing wrong with you. Nothing at all. Everyone responds to hard life moments differently, and everyone needs to take their own time. Please, give yourself a break. Let yourself feel horrible, and let yourself get support to help you through everything while you're down. There's nothing wrong with that.
1504. Kaylene's Korner: I really love seeing you be so honest and genuine with your audience. You have great advice in this video and it makes me really proud to see you making an effort to come out of such a difficult time. Much love for you, Josh❤❤
1505. sonder: Paranormal Lover228 different things help different people cope. if it doesn't help u cool. but its clearly helped a lot of people in the comments, so pls respect that
1506. niyati shah: U my frnd are going to be fine! Back in the lane when u see U will be more improved and more loving and happy version of yourself. Everything gonna be awesome bro!
1507. Ελισάβετ Φωκά: Hey Josh! I went through some bad health things and some toxic friendships the last 2 year and I know how it is to struggle with yourself and the "voices" that keep telling you are no good and that everyone else is better or has it better than you. But after a year of therapy I can tell you this, it is a long prossess and there will come a moment of clarity were all the things that bring the negative thoughts won't matter! Best luck to you and I will continue watching the rest of your trip on youtube.
1508. MoreOlivia: Love you so much josh, we are all here for you 24/7 xx
1509. DreamboyNYC: It's sad when YouTubers have to resort to clickbait ass titles like this for views.
1510. elusivebutsatisfying T.: What is wrong with you? Nothing! There's nothing wrong with being broken! Why would you ever pretend to feel something you just can't at the moment? You can't change the way you feel; it's ok not to be okay!
1511. Ashlee Backus: You're a strong, smart, funny, real, caring, big hearted, kind, beautiful man who has been through alot what you are feeling is ok to feel and you are taking the right steps to make sure you are truly happy at the end of the day. Life sucks some times and you get things thrown at you that break you but you will over come all this and be a better man because of it. Its so very hard to lose a person you always pictured spending your entire life with ik from experience but I can promise you you will find that happiness again you are so eagerly wanting back in your life. Much love Josh stay strong stay positive and stay you <3
1512. Yasi Productions: NotDeadJustYet I meant they are doing the wrong things because josh is taking the sort of the blame road thinking she isn't hurting when you can tell she is....you know sometimes you just gotta feel the hurt and not blame anyone and grow from that
1513. sam miller: Most people won't seek help. I'm proud of you for getting help
1514. Sarah Showalter: I wish i could talk to you face to face and be there for you because you deserve to have someone there for you and you deserve to be HAPPY. Life can be tough, love can be tough. I wish you the best, Josh. and being not okay is okay. you just have to move past it. it takes time, you'll probably never feel the same as you did before. but you can still be happy... just in a different way. but just because you're broken, that doesn't mean you aren't still a masterpiece. love you always.
1515. Sarah rousseau: There is nothing wrong with you Josh, it's perfectly okay to not be okay. We love you Josh :)
1516. Piper Craig: You will find pride in your life don't be ashamed of being depressed my parents got divorced recently and it's ok
1517. kendrak2009: Subbing to help keep you accountable! I really hope to see you make more videos!
1518. Fat Frog Farm: Seek JESUS! HE loves you Josh more than anyone ever can! HE will bring that peace you so need!
1519. Mel Melson: Please don't feel embarrassed or like your burdening someone by sharing your feelings and thoughts. Your family and friends are there for you and can probably see that you're having a hard time and would do anything to help. Just hang in there, as lame as it sounds, your heart will heal in time and your mind will follow if you get the right kind of help for you. You're awesome and you're valued :)
1520. missymani: Therapy is awesome. If you are willing to do the job means only means that you will get better. Depression and anxiety are very common and nothing to be ashamed of.
1521. Hannah Gricks: I can relate to this so much. Thank you Josh. Hang in there
1522. sun flower: i just want to hug him and talk to him and that he'll be okay
1523. Shortess: Love You So Much Joshua Stay Strong <3
1524. Shelley Cameron: Everyone goes threw a ruff patch in life and everyone deals with things in there own ways.. but in the end things always work out for the better weather that be in 1 month time or 3 years from now there is no time on healing... good luck in your journey in finding urself again 😁
1525. dance1219: I am so glad you decided to seek counseling. Just remember to be patient, gentle, and kind with yourself. Therapy takes time and you will be a better person when this is over. There is an amazing book titled, How To Survive The Loss Of A Love, by Peter McWilliams, Melba Colgrove, and Harold H. Bloomfield, it is simple book with beautiful poetry and excellent wisdom and advice. Another great book to read is Simple Truths by Kent Nerburn. Experiencing loss is part of the human experience and we can all relate to your grief and sadness. Music has also been a great healer for me. When I was going through my break up, I decided to volunteer and the reality of preparing lunch bags for people who are literally living on the street and dealing with severe mental illness helped me to keep things in perspective. Here I was feeling sorry for myself bc my first relationship was over while these ppl don't have anything but the clothes on their backs. Helping others less fortunate than you can be very empowering. I wish you growth and for you to learn to love yourself. Best wishes. P.s. Listen to I Got Questions by Camila Cabello, I can almost guarantee that you will love it.
1526. Artartbaby: you're not a downer
1527. Fernanda Kinder: You're doing great! One step at a time!! Everyone heals differently. You're going to be okay, this won't last forever 😊
1528. Amanda Russell: You're not the only one. This is what I tell myself on a daily basis dealing with depression and anxiety. I personally believe that everyone should have a therapist no matter how they're feeling! It's so important for that release. Just know - there is nothing wrong with you. You are not the only one! 💕
1529. Hector Lalalala: so he is not gay? hell, im switching back to food recipes. Raw and Vegan lol
1530. Ziarah: 2 Corinthians 1 3-4 : Praise be to the God and father of our Lord Jesus Christ , the father of compassion and The God of all comfort, who comforts us in our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. ❤️
1531. Nell Urso: Hey ibiralian and the rest of y'all, I'd just ask you to see her latest video and then try to make an unbiased opinion about the situation; also try not to point fingers or blame anyone, make a claim about someone etc. just make sure you actually realize the whole situation. Please. Just check out her video and see her side. Not trying to make war here. Just please, like josh says, be nice to people.
1532. Cheryleen Tohtsoni: love ya! this takes so much courage to admit and share with the world. i hope you find inner peace and happiness! behind ya 100%!! See ya tomorrow! :)
1533. Laura Olivas: Hi,take it one day at a time. It will be alright. 🙄
1534. Jessica Martinez: Josh please please read the book resisting happiness!!!! It will help you a lot and try listening to podcast. It's totally okay to go through your feelings you really should, that's the process of real healing! Praying for you, allow your family, friends to help you it's okay to ask for help!
1535. Harry Krinkle: +cara walker & Katie Noel And thank you. It's a bit bittersweet to be back, but it was time.
1536. marley torre's nails: i wish i can talk to you I think my storry will help u a lot hope u see this comment
1537. SpeedyDumplingArt: hey, there's nothing wrong with you. :)
1538. Wiame: The more i watch josh's videos , the more i respect him because at least , he's honest with himself and admits than he still hasn't fully moved on . Unlike the "other side " who wants to believe that she moved on ( i'm not hating BTW i love both of them and i'm not attacking anyone) , because come on , let's be honest , no one can move on so quickly after a life changing thing like a divorce , especially that these two were madly in love with each other , so i believe that she's spending her entire time working so that she doesn't have to face her true feelings about everything going on. And i'm convinced that the first step to therapy is to admitt that you're not okay , and having the COURAGE to face your true feelings , not running away from them . At the end , i really hope that josh gets back to his fun, happy and joyfull self, because i really look up to him. Sending love to you josh ❤❤
1539. Lily Geddes: Hey Josh. I just spent a month in hospital after a breakdown. It's been such a hard time but at the same time, it was a necessary thing to happen to me because it gave me the chance to learn and to start to heal. You will be okay. Don't carry the shame and feel like a burden. It's okay to feel this way. You will be okay, I promise. Xx
1540. IDKENTERAINMENT: pussy
1541. Nataly Garcia: Just know u are worthy and u are loved. You will be ok💕
1542. Emily Kraus: Shadow takes a shit in the background @2:40 😂😂😂 maybe that'll lift your spirits, Josh
1543. Kce2018: Hey Josh, you're an inspiration to so so many people. It is 100% okay to not be okay. Life sucks and it's super hard sometimes, but just know that there is a greater plan for you. You WILL get through this because you're a strong, handsome, wonderful man who is just full of love for everyone. You got this Josh and so many people have your back through it all. I love you and so does everyone else. <3
1544. Katie Petkewich: My mom died 3 years ago from cancer, which she had for nearly two years. Along with that my two best friends started dating and I felt like such a third wheel. I turned my problems into their problems and I became severely depressed. I argued with my friends all the time and became very distant. I self harmed and had countless panic attacks. But I'm okay now. Some days are still harder than others, but I'm here, I'm alive, I just graduated from high school, and I'm moving on to better things. Remember, "this too shall pass."
1545. Erica Okta: I have the same problem as you are. My first year of college was really hard for me, it gives me anxiety and depression. I cannot get out from bed and therapist didnt help me at all, they basically just tell me to stop being depressed and move on. The one that i want to tell you is everything will work out in the end. I just finished my second year of college and im doing better! I hope you will feel better and your therapy work out for u!
1546. Heidi Baltom: There is nothing wrong with feeling the way you do. The most important thing is you have realised that you need help. Asking for help is the hardest thing to do but you have made the 1st step to getting better. Its ok to not be ok. So glad you are on the way to getting better
1547. Tehya Williams: JOSHHHHHUAAA......I love u. We all do. U need to know that💓.
1548. Sarah c: I'm sorry to hear that you are hurting, but I am so grateful when youtubers and celebrities come forward and share their experiences. It makes us see you as more of a human, more like us rather than just someone so high up we can't connect with you. Depression sucks... Its a long journey, but I have faith and I know you are a fighter. Keep hanging in there bud. You got this. I've got this. We have all got this. Thank you for being willing to share a part of your story with us.
1549. Caitlyn Crissman: As a teenager with clinical depression who's in the middle of getting through it rn, it's really nice to see somebody more in the public eye talk about it and open up about how it makes people feel. It's very helpful and encouraging.
1550. Kenzie-Anne Grant: they say divorce is like a death.. its hard, its devastating.. good on you for getting pro help, therapy has less stigma on it and its great that you are talking about it. I see a therapist for maintenance of myself and my man sees one when he has problems communicating with people. theres nothing wrong with you Josh, its a hard time but trust me, things will get better. i promise xx
1551. Alice Catry: i love you
1552. Kendall Dance: josh we are here for you and don't feel like your letting us down because you are absolutely not!! it is normal as a human to feel sad emotions and feel like this after something big has happened. we love you and don't beat yourself up about posting videos on time or anything because we will obviously understand if you can't upload because i know a lot of us know what your going through. we love you so much!!❤️❤️
1553. golden1577: The other side of the coin is not perfect or happy . i got out of a 3 year steady relationship and now i'm doing things to find momentary happiness . Going out with my friends and post online for my ex to see how " happy " or whatever i am but when i'm alone it's different and i'm not happy and always reminiscing on old times . His friends ask how can i be so generally positive without him and why am i being like this . but i guess i'm just faking it till i make it . i'm not avoiding the situation . i deal with it on my own time but i'm tired of thinking it all the time . i find short happiness through friends and family but the deeper issue still lies . one day it won't hurt anymore and it's going to be a process but just know, just because she seems happy and seems like it's a perfect world, doesn't mean it is. you're going to get through this. i promise .
1554. FarmerRange: We all really appreciate your authenticity. On YouTube, people pick and choose the parts of their lives they show to viewers, and it's nice that you show such a raw version of yourself to us. You're a real person with real emotions and a real life, you're so much more than just a face on YouTube. We're all supportive and proud of you, Josh :) Keep being authentic, keep being you, because you're 1 in a million
1555. Casey Baron: sending hugs and prayers your way! you are not alone.
1556. Ryan Stevenson: Hey Josh I want to reach out to you. Please feel free to talk to me. I will hit you up on instagram!
1557. Hazel Diamond: You should be honest with your blogs not that you aren't just you know you should show the positive and the negative and I know you want to focus more on the positive which is so great but we all know that no one not even the perfect person always is positive love you lots Josh ❤
1558. rmlupica: Depression solidarity fist bump 👊🏼
1559. Sienna Ruskin: Josh don't cry we love you so so much and we will be here until you say it's enough 💜👌🏻
1560. Bil Howle: Josh, Don't ever be ashamed to admit when you need help. Those that should be ashamed are the ones that know they need help and don't do anything about. I myself have been in therapy for the past 43 years. No, this not a typo. I have been in therapy for 43 years and I am not ashamed. Just talk and listen to your therapist and relief will come. If you ever need to chat give me a yell. Love watching you!
1561. miranybeetle: I love unedited vlogs, stay strong <3
1562. Flora: Thank you for your honesty. This is exactly why I have a problem with the be happy brigade. Constant happiness is not what life is about, and striving for it or expecting it will only leave you empty. I'm so glad you're seeing someone who can help you and I wish you all the very best in your healing and recovery 💛
1563. Cotton: Honestly we all are going through some sort of how you feel too! We get it! We're here on YouTube not so see perfection, but to see the reality and relate to people! Keep being you Josh and we will keep loving you regardless! We're here for you and if you need to talk please talk to us! ❤️😊
1564. Xavian arnold: I love you josh❤️
1565. sofia marcuzzi: You will get through it we are all here for you!!!❤
1566. Momo Something: H CRL Whaat, why would you say that?
1567. Gia Marie: Josh- you are stronger then you think and smarter then you seem!!! You are awesome. Keep going. You can do it. I have hope in you❤️❤️
1568. ArtsyAlea: josh all the hugs to you. dont listen to those who say you don't need to be down. you are only human! you have feelings and just remember EVERYONE goes through things differently and processes hardships in so many ways! I have gone through hard breakups, cheating, lying, and deaths in the family, including recently my dad, which has sparked my depression high again. it's so diffcult, but remember just like you said, you have the choice and im so glad to hear you're reaching out for professional help. it really does help to get a outside perspective. you are a wonderful human being, and i know now its so hard im sure to think what is wrong with you, but there isn't anything wrong, you are who you are, and you must move forward and choose happiness and take care of yourself. keep spending time with family and friends and keep playing with your dog and doing things you love, doing things for others really does help depression, and we are here for you! we fans love and support you through this journey, dont give up! :)
1569. Samantha Sulanowski: I'm suicidal this really helped
1570. VanityFlash: Great respect for you doing this, big hug. I recognize some things you're saying and feeling the same, I'm sorry you feel like this 'cause it's not great to have to go through these hard feelings but it helps me a lot. And I think it will help a lot of people. We have to stop feeling or saying sorry because we're going through a rough spot, when we have a broken nose we seek help...why not when we feel a little sad or even feel broken. Not seeking attention, but we can be honest when someone asks 'how are you'..'well not doing so great but I'm glad we can hang out'.
1571. Deandra S.: stay strong!
1572. Lyndsy Rozensky: Josh you will get thru this. I have been doing a lot of self reflection and trying to work on healing myself. We can get thru this together. I look forward to tomorrows vlog. LOVE YOU, MEAN IT.
1573. Fabiola Estrada: sadly I knew you were still sad BC your videos were really different then before and you don't seem yourself but I know you have it in you to do better, "every day is a new beginning" never give up! you got this, I believe in you 😘 I know you will be better, chose positivity over negativity, you get to chose how you want to feel. don't let some negativity ruin you, you have a choice so it's better that you always look at the bright side of things 💖
1574. blerdus: don't be sad Josh😝😞😮😁
1575. Rylee C: Also so much of what you said in this video is so true
1576. Kelsea Whiting: I too am a silent viewer but I will say that going to therapy was one of the best decisions i have EVER made. I am a completely a different person now than I was 2 years ago. Just having someone to talk to made all the difference in the world. I hope you too can have the same experience with therapy with I did.
1577. Ariel Foster: Was is just me..or did anyone cry. I am so happy you are comeing back. We are all here for you josh! When ever you are in pain or need some guidance to happiness or just need a smile, look to us we love you and missed your videos.
1578. Made By Elissa: I can relate so much. I struggle with depression also, even when everything in my life is "fine" or "good". I've also isolated myself from everyone and I now have not that many friends. I see a therapist also and I find it SO helpful.
1579. Amanda G: I love you bro. I'm so proud of you for getting help and your feelings are so so so valid. Always here for you ❤️
1580. Perie Briones: Josh I hope you get better soon. The rain won't last forever, you can and will do better.
1581. Rachel Hutchings: This was a cool thing to watch. It wasn't a fun thing to watch because it's hard to see you hurting, but your openness is inspiring. You being genuine is refreshing. You are not alone through this. Your family and friends are there. We are there. Most importantly God is there. I'm confident that you will come out the other side happy and ready for your next chapter. I can't wait to watch that journey unfold. ❤️
1582. Rachel D.: kate giorgio I
1583. Raych: My heart hurts. I wanna help genuinely.
1584. Laura Sass: Josh. We love you. You were handed a raw deal. A real adult woman would never treat you like that. I'm 38 years old. I can seriously tell you there is light on the other side. just keep persevering.
1585. Alanna Preylo: Photo Life Magazine I just wanna say, I commend you for being there for your wife. I feel like it takes a lot of strength to be there for someone with depression. So, well done. 😊
1586. Candice Brosko: it truly is one day at a time. 13 years since i lost the love of my life, at times it still knocks me on my ass. its ok not to be the same person your growing and healing.
1587. Kenna&Ash Vlogs: No matter what happens just remember that ur dingleberrys love you a lot and that if we truly care then we will listen to u complain and rant like I do and I'm super happy to know that u will be clogging g everyday❤️
1588. MrMentalackack: Feeling you bro.
1589. Rahul Loves'ThePayne: Josh you're so strong. We all are here for you. *Dingleberries love youu* 💜🌸
1590. Devon: I dont know what to say other then when you go to your therapist, and they give you things to do that will help you, DO IT. its not going to work unless you do what they say. Trust me
1591. Brooke's Bungalow: Me too :( I'm just stuck in this hole and there's nothing to pull me out.
1592. Belen Osorio: You're human! Divorce sucks! I've been through it and people say it's like a death in the family. Watching this broke my heart and all I want to do is give you a big hug! It will take some time but one day you will feel whole again. It's definitely a process and there will be ups and downs but you have a wonderful family and friends who love you! I will be watching and praying for you Josh. Hit me up if you want to talk to a genuine person whose been there. There will always be light at the end of ever tunnel.
1593. Cadence Farmer: Nothings wrong with you stop beating yourself up. You can overcome this
1594. ItsCourtney93: Josh, do what you need to do! That's always my thing. From my personal experience: feeling pain, getting emotional, and feeling like you're losing connection with people around you is the true point of discovering new strength and revived faith. You are a strong person going through a difficult time in your life. Telling us how you feel and getting therapy is the right route to take and we're all here to cheer you on to feel true happiness again! God bless❤️ Courtney
1595. Leah Hurt: We are here for you Josh.
1596. gemini: Cat23 you sound like a really good friend! 💖
1597. Tamia H: I've never agreed with something so much omg PREACH 🙌
1598. SaucyyNoodles: Thank you for sharing this Josh! It's not easy to talk about, but so many people experience it and don't talk about it. Sometimes it only lasts a short time and other times it seems to last forever, but know that you have so much support and I hope you start to feel like yourself again! I've been there and sometimes still go there, but just know it's only temporary and the future is bright, even if you can't see it.
1599. Megan Crofts: friendship goals
1600. Aidee ochoa: Aww it's okay your going to get trough it I promise🙂💗!!
1601. Jude Payet: poor josh
1602. Simah Rutherford: Hey Josh. Im not sure how you're feeling because I've always been a generally happy person. But I can say that once you hit rock bottom you can only go up from there. No matter HOW MANY TIMES YOU HIT ROCK BOTTOM you can only go UP from there. We're all always here for you. No matter how erratic your videos tend to be. We all love you with everything in our hearts. We all want you just to feel better. I just want you to feel better. I love you, Joshua David Evans. Stay Strong.
1603. Leanne Garner: 💗 There is nothing wrong with being truthful to yourself, it's hard to admit sure but once it's out then you can see that as a beginning to an end. With being who you are Josh and the audience you reach out to you have now enabled other people to seek the help they may need too, that's a positive start and you should give yourself some credit for it, eventually you will be able to look back and think about how you have overcome such a difficult time, like the saying goes "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". Stand tall and be proud and as a long time subscriber I wish you all the luck and happiness in the world but never forget number 1, you. 💗
1604. redsherbet: rebeccajns I completely agree... out of sight out of mind. It is very hard to do though and you will slip up and look and it will hurt... but eventually you'll make a decision to stop hurting yourself and you'll be all the better for it <3
1605. Christa K: Dear Joshua, you are so brave for making this video and I appreciate you for being so honest, there is nothing wrong with you! I was in a relationship too and when that ended it took me almost a year to get over it. What helped me a lot was finding a new hobby which was playing the guitar and just hang out with my girlfriends and family. I also went traveling (by myself). Sometimes I felt just like you, and although I was very happy for him, my ex was also moving on really fast, it's bittersweet and it is totally normal to feel sad. Just try to stay positive and look for the little things that bring you joy and happiness. Writing down your feelings in a journal might also help :D I hope this helps! Much love and support from Amsterdam Xo
1606. Nicky Innocent: I'm new and don't know who you are but I would love to make you happy! I have suffered with depression my whole life. You gotta deal with the shit and make the most of the good days. Hope you are medicated babe it does help. your eyes are special and pull you right in Nicky xxx
1607. Makena Ricki: Josh everything is going to be ok❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😘😘😘ilysm
1608. Hannah Rachel: I can't believe what she's done to you she's being happy and clappy she dose't know what she's done but you'll be ok we love you!!!!❤️
1609. Bella Rose: keep your head up! things will get better :) all your subs are here for you !!
1610. Mike Elam: Very heartfelt video. You will get through this. Sucks as YouTube videos help out people. It sucks see you and now nadeshot go through breakups. Seems like the people u care the most get hurt the hardest
1611. Shanda Wallace: Sending prayers for healing and happiness. 🙏
1612. David McClellan: joshua be happy for me because god love you this so do i too
1613. Anna mills: Jo O'Brien thank you! It means a lot!
1614. GrPr23: Its gonna be ok
1615. Maggie Mae: sebastard429 this has been really helpful. thank you SO much!!!
1616. Lucy Botero: Don't feel bad for being human, Josh. The vast majority of your viewers love you no matter what and we totally understand and support you and love you. You are incredibly loved. Thank you for being you. ❤️
1617. grace curtis: Kyra Purvis have you been through a divorce? I don't think so. Let a guy vent geez
1618. Michele: awesome that your're talking about your feelings. you should take your time. like everone sayin the other side isn't as green as it seems. everybody has bad times. and you're not alone. but most people are afraid to show their real feelings. but you don't thats very unique. keep your head up. good times are coming when you don't expect them. <3
1619. Joy Loewen: Kesha Nation also id like to ask if you actually believe in the "stop online harassment" video you liked or if you liked it just because kesha is in it. because if you do, i'm wondering if you practice what you preach.
1620. Anna L: I know how it feels when "the other side of the coin" has everything going good and you're just there like "fuck, why is this happening to me?!?!"
1621. Braeden Matthews: Josh! We love you so very much and you're breaking my heart 💔 stay strong 💪 we love you!
1622. Anna Kate: Josh, you are such a great guy. You deserve the best. We love you! You can get through this... I promise!
1623. Jamie Grimes: keep thinking positive thoughts get out converse with other people
1624. Talena zzstu Meechan: Loey Bug!!!
1625. Liz Moore: good on you. 💙💚💛💜 i know things will get brighter as you take these steps!!😘
1626. Icey Daily: Stay strong Josh. You'll get through this with the support of your family, friends and fans/subscribers❤️love you <3
1627. Ranae Lorraine: Love you and I hope you know you are loved by so many. Hugs to you. 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞 I've been in the darkness before and prayer and self love have always helped me. I hope you find everlasting joy and peace. 💙
1628. junelatore G: i love you for this!!!!!
1629. Heather Frank: I'm so happy you are getting help ❤️ we support you.
1630. grace rowan: We are here for you, we support you no matter what.😔😊😌
1631. Michael Koebel: I love you when you're 'real'. I'd rather see you working out your sadness right along with your happiness, than bottling stuff up inside. I wish I could just let you rest your head on my shoulder, let your sad words flow out and leave you forever. I would be so proud to have had you as a son.
1632. Briana Archer: Josh, don't be sorry. Your feelings matter too. You shouldn't have to hide your feelings on the internet because that's not being real, that's not being you. You would basically just be putting on an act and lying to all of your viewers. I want to see your journey and I want to see you get better. We are all here for you and love how you are so real. Just be you. 100% you.
1633. Ashley Frey: ❤
1634. Jayne Michalik: just subscribed remember so times it takes a village, lean on your village ,please keep talking even when you think nobody's listening keep talk HUGS 💖💖👍
1635. lilribbit19: You have loved with your whole heart and you have been crushed. Don't ever feel guilty about how you loved and how you are feeling after such a blow. I will never understand how people expect you not to have been changed from this. Just know good things are coming. You just keep trying to get out of your head and talk about your feelings. I can't wait for the day when we see you smiling and really happy. 💓
1636. Alice: Are you doing a NYC meet up?
1637. Faith Rodriguez: you have an amazing heart. thank you for bringing REALNESS back to YouTube. we are here for you.
1638. Brittany Berrien: Joshua, nothing is wrong with you. You are hurting, but you are loved. You WILL see the other side of this. I'm praying for you.
1639. charlotte wright: I love you
1640. mia castro: What happened
1641. Jaceruth: The Wakaran Channel i know by what I see, that is how I know. so yes I can say I know.
1642. Emily Bonner: We love you too! (I do t know if you believe but God loves you too <3)
1643. Emma Leana: Nothing is wrong with you Josh, you were in love and it ended; the aftermath is incredibly painful. Please, don't feel the need to have to hide your struggles from us. Like many before me have metioned, you were there for us when things got rough and we intend to be there for you, too.
1644. Danielle Mudd: Atomic Skies, Same. I'm currently dreading returning to school in 2 weeks.
1645. Sophie Bentley: You will feel better. Took me a whole year but the struggle is worth it. Stay Strong Josh x
1646. Heidi Heitzman: Depression (even if not clinically diagnosed) is such a tough condition because some of the symptoms of depression (those that convince you to feel ashamed of your negative thoughts and cause you to isolate yourself and convince you that you don't deserve help) are the same things that make your depression even worse. You are not alone. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You deserve to seek help, you deserve to feel happy again, and you deserve to feel built up and loved. You're so right - you can't bounce yourself all the way back up all by yourself. Sending positive thoughts to you Josh!
1647. Mark Martinez: The moment you have accepted that there is something wrong with you, you have already taken the first step. (Does this make sense?) i don't you but go easy on your self ok!
1648. Ali B.: Love you Josh! And love how real you are this made me subscribe 💛 Never be ashamed of your emotions you're only human💕 Things will get better just be patient, good things come to good people like you. Hang in there
1649. Sparkasaurus: Good on you for realizing that you may need help to get through this. I hope you find positive relief and peace/happiness as you work through your problems. Keep at it, Josh. I appreciate your honesty.
1650. Katherine Hambrock: Love you Josh ❤️
1651. Lij Gilmour: Huge respect for you speaking up about this. ♥️
1652. Johnson Family Vids & Vlogs: Praying for you bud. I take medicine for depression. it helps me thank God. Not suggesting you need any. I know there's different kinds of depression. anyway just sharing to let you know you're not alone. You can always turn to Jesus. He loves you through thick and thin.
1653. Chrystal Adams: Bless your ❤️ Joshua. You're such a great guy.
1654. Hayley Harris: I can relate to this so much. Thank you Joshua!
1655. Christine: living the life I was wondering the same thing that you asked me ,but the only way to fully understand it is by experience
1656. 9826aa: You are an amazing man Josh!
1657. chris!: Racheal Cook TRUEE
1658. Ony Cruikshanks: So when is he gonna come out of the closet....
1659. Chelsie Bain: I'm so sorry Josh, I know the pain you feel! I hope and pray for you and you will find the one that will take this pain from you one day. I promise!
1660. Aleena Elizabeth: Søphïē’s Wørłd why are you so rude and it’s his life you jerk! How dare you speak like that to someone who is really trying and who’s brave enough to speak the truth and put it out there? Josh you are so AMAZING and you do you❤️
1661. Sugeyt Carriedo: I am older than you are. And I have been clinically depressed and suffered from servere panic and anxiety disorder. It got so bad that I had a literal breakdown in 2014, had to quit my career of 10 years, and became agoraphobic in 2015. In those moments where you are low, when you think you're a burden to your friends and family, and you compare your good moment/memories in the past to the shitty ones of now I want you to know that your feelings are legitimate. Do not beat yourself up for not being the happy, goofy Josh from the past right now. He will come back. You did the first thing that will get you on that route: you reached out for professional help. Sometimes we can't do it on our own. It sucks to make that realization. But you are doing the right thing. For me, it took a death of someone I loved dearly to wake me up and realize "girl, you can't stay at home and EXIST and not LIVE". I am physically able to LIVE and that person could not. I needed help from medicine and therapy. No, I am not where I want to be or where I was 7 years ago (before anxiety, depression, panic disorder) but I am further than I was when I would sit on the couch and my schedule was all about reruns of Friends. And in those moments where I felt like giving up, like I was an adult who was a burden to my family (specifically my mother whose job was to raise me and should of been done of said job) and I just wanted the pain to stop, I would watch YT videos that I knew would make me smile or laugh. You would be one of them. I just needed a window into a world I knew was out there and just be entertained and distracted. You, Josh, did that. You have a gift. Feel what you have to feel because you are human. And asking for help is truly a meauture of a great person who realizes we can't all do this alone. And you are not. I'm old, I know what I'm talking about ❤ Keep strong, hon. And fight the good fight.
1662. samantha allen: I love these "heart to heart" videos - cause they are real. One takes are fine, do you - cause it's YOUR channel. You can do this❤️
1663. Sarah Luzzi: SO glad you made this video Josh. Such an important topic. I hope things get better for you soon❤
1664. Haley King: I love that your so open, I know you'll find happiness soon
1665. Vanessa Benlolo: It's ok to be gentle with yourself too. Practice self-compassion. Seeing that will also help others too.
1666. Zainab Adil: not helping, dude
1667. Andrea McKee: Josh, it's hard to be in the situation you're in right now. I'm a mature woman ( my daughter watches your vlogs all the time and she got me hooked) that has lived through a hard breakup. you're mourning this loss of this relationship and marriage. it's ok for you to be sad. you'll get through it with the love and support of family, friends and your therapist. good for you to realize you can't do it by yourself. we will see the new and improved Joshua after all of this.
1668. TAMMY R: +Jen Jen 😊me too...thought he was gonna say 20 pds month...lol
1669. aj2674: Nobody can deny no matter what you believe that chanting, repeating words over and over along with several other religious behaviors uplift mood and can empty the mind. This is why there are choruses in every song as well and why music makes us happy.
1670. Ꮶ Ꮛ L L Ꮂ: I can relate to this so much. I'm sorry, Josh. 💔
1671. Jessa T124: 💕
1672. Selena Lake: ❤
1673. TheFlutterbyme: it WILL get better. it WILL be better. I promise you. Take help. Ask for help. Get out of the dark corner. Do things! As someone who has lived with anxiety and depression for many years I can tell you. ...it takes work! Can I make a suggestion? Sit down. .. make a list of 10 things you've never done that you always wanted to. 5 big things and 5 little. Could be... see this movie I've never seen to something like skydive! it's a sort of bucket list. And do them! make a timeframe. like 1 year.. and do it! Do it all! I sometimes have to force myself to even shower or eat. .but when I know I have one of those things coming up I get so happy. Try it? ♡
1674. Angelina Kontitsis: hey, i go through the same things. nothing is wrong with you. dont beat yourself up. us viewers will be with you all the way through this. just be happy!
1675. Jan Javiandam: Hey Josh!! Don't get this the wrong way... but... finally something real. Yes, you changed a lot after all that you went through. But we support you. We are here for you too! Now you make me want to see more, your journey, the healing process... because we all go through so much in life that we need to look for help. Don't be ashamed about it. You are a strong man because you admit it. I'm proud of you!! And like everyone says... we love you bro!!
1676. Shahbs Mysterysecretx: All the love ❤️❤️
1677. Candra Murphy: Suffering a loss of any kind is difficult. You're grieving. You're allowed to grieve for however long it takes. Praying for you. God bless! Journal, do something *for you only*, it's not selfish. Continue therapy. God loves you. Psalms 91 helps me on dark days. You're going through something too, you're no different than any of us on the other end. It's okay to need, too. You can't be anyone's savior, that's not your job. Don't put that burden on yourself. It's okay to be in the place you're in. Seriously, I am praying for you. Bear one another's burdens applies to you too :). Also, Romans 3 & 5. 1st Corinthians 13. God loves you! Bible hub, new living translation, NLT is beautifully written, the same as KJV just updated from old English. You'll get through. Keep tabs and notes on your depression. Don't be afraid of it, it's a chemical imbalance. Sun and exercise will help boost your endorphins. You got this! I am in the same place. I lost a parent last July. Loss is loss, pain is pain. There is no comparison.
1678. Lafida LA.: I'm currently on my journey to God. bless you
1679. rbubblesz: **Like this so Josh can see. I've never said that before, but I think this time it's something he needs to hear.** Josh, this was important. I've dealt with on and of depression in my life (currently dealing with a hard time), I've been in and out of counseling. I get this. It might not seem like anyone gets it, anyone else can understand. That's an important thing to know: that you're not alone in life, but more importantly, you're not alone in the pit of sadness. I think this is vital to see for us- when others don't show their pain, it feels calloused and fake, because real people hurt, are in pain, and cry. I want to see real people on Youtube, and realness involves pain. Thank you for letting us see pain - we all face it, but only the best role models show people that they are vulnerable to it. By being vulnerable, you help others. I've shared my worst times with two important people in my life - and although I was supposed to be suffering, I was supposed to be the one that needed help - when I turned around and felt myself again (which I never thought I would), the people who I thought were helping me told me that I saved their lives because of the pain I went through and the path of strength (through a lot of weakness) that I took to get better. I never could have expected that. They were suicidal like I was, and because I felt pain I thought I couldn't escape and got through it, they got through it too. With a whole viewership at your fingertips, you can either pretend it's fine and go through the things that don't really matter in life (money, fame, popularity), or show your pain and help people even when it's not only hard to pick up a camera, but to get out of bed. Others may tell you that sadness in your channel will ruin it, but truly, if you want to change the world and change yourself, be nice to people and show your pain. It can (literally) change the world. Prayers for you my friend. Thank you for being honest. Remember: It will get better
1680. noname: OMG josh I'm heartbroken for u😭😣😣..........I love u
1681. monica thibodeau: And there is nothing wrong with you. Everyone deals with things differently xo
1682. Katie_Noelani91: You are beyond amazing. You are strong. You are worth it. You will get through this. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be sad and work through your emotions. You don't have to be embarrassed. You can find and build your own journey to happiness. You deserve to re-discover yourself. You are an inspiration. I love you. We love you. I support you. We support you. You got this babe. This video will save someone's life. of not 1 maybe even more. You making this video and admitting these things is reaching millions and making them become brave. There is nothing wrong with you or any of us. I am so happy you have always used your platform for good. You are always changing lives and that is so beautiful Josh.😘❤💚💜💙💛💞💋💕
1683. B. Beard: Hang in there, Josh. Also, don't forget to call on the Good Lord for peace. He IS the ultimate healer. :-)
1684. Krista Caraway: I love you. thank you for being honest. thank you for always doing your best. we believe in you. we always will
1685. Hana Buglisi: You look so much like my uncle!!
1686. Amira Rashad: Omg , you made me cry I can relate to every word you have said, it's hard to act like you are okay but you're not it's so hard.
1687. Inga Bel: Be strong❤️
1688. Krystal Wallace: I love you Josh your such a great person. Just try and keep your chin up. We are here for you.
1689. Sabah K.: You think she's totally okay but she's made several videos saying she's not. She's been a mess as much as anyone would be in that situation. she just chooses not to show it
1690. Danielle Champlin: I love you and I'm sorry
1691. Lia Y: Josh nothings wrong with you! I don't usually tear up during videos but yours made me tear up! Josh take all the time you need, Jesus Christ has helped me so much with my anxiety! I'll pray that your healed from sadness! Josh don't be SO HARD ON YOURSELF! Your wonderfully and perfectly made
1692. Tazzaspaz77: Josh let yourself be sad. Everything happens for a reason. I have just one through a really tough time in my life. BUT it is over now. Just give yourself time to heal. We all love you so much.
1693. Holly Hood: Nothing Is Wrong With You .. Hang In There & Goodluck 💕 I Came From Colleen's Channel , I Only Really Know Of You Thru When Y'all Split Up (If I'm Being Honest) But I Wanted To Throw That In There To Let You Know That There Are People In This World Who Are Mutual & Don't Let The YouTube World Deflect Their Reality And Support For Others ❤ We're All In This Thing Together 🌍 I'll Keep You In My Prayers ✊
1694. Christy Snell: +EnlightenedOne100 As a Christian who suffers from severe depression, I get so tired of hearing people blaming depression on not having God in your life. If God reached down and healed everyone, there would be no need for doctors, medicine, or surgery. However, that's not the case. Sometimes God just allows us to go through things and we need help from medication to do it.
1695. Christian Annette Longoria: I'm so proud of you for being honest with us, but more importantly yourself. Don't be sorry for your feelings at all! Don't apologize for being you. It sucks what you have been through and it is/has changed you, but that is good. I feel that everyone can use therapy, it is a healthy relationship for us to have. As another adult, I appreciate that you're showing the young viewers life. I am going to pray that your journey changes in a way that you want! P.S. The "other side" is not happy, they never are.
1696. Heather Rodgers: OMG IM GOING THEIR TOO
1697. Ellie Hamilton: I right now am in therapy because I wasn't happy. I was slowly slipping, and I didn't realize it. And the one thing I still have to realize is its ok to not be ok. It's ok to cry, its ok to feel not good. But where its not ok, is letting that consume you. I'm glad your getting help. You deserve happiness, and you deserve to be thriving. So go and get help, go get better, we will all be here for you every step of the way. Never forget that.
1698. levi02: ...I thought this was a coming out video
1699. Autumn Hollinger: I made excuses that I wasn't depressed and this video has shown me to stop and deal with it. Thank you
1700. Ashiikinzz: Jesus loves you! He will be your strength, fill you with Joy .. let Him heal you Josh!
1701. RichieWongTang: I don't know if I'm right or not to say this. I'm sorry if it doesn't and hurt you even more. However, I still wanna say it. I just wanna help. I, myself don't feel good either seeing the sadness out of you. I have been seeing you sad or faking smile almost everyday while you are living solo like this, I wonder if there is any possible chances that you guys can get back together? Can you try to reach out to Miley Cyrus and ask her how she dealt with her stuff? It's not hurt to ask, it might help you. Stay strong, Josh. I wish you the very best
1702. Beatrice Cheung: Josh it's great that you feel comfortable and okay enough to talk about it and post it on your channel. That's very brave, and an important step in feeling better, I feel. Don't be discouraged and try to surround yourself with the people you love, and love you! You can do this Josh! :) x
1703. Elizabeth Belle: Josh, I love you so much. You'll get through this.
1704. Amanda Bell_Skoglund: I struggled for 7 years with depression before I finally realized that I needed help I thought I could get myself out and I would for a little but I would always go back, I finally went on medication best desicion I ever made. I wish you all the best its a tough struggle and you have to fight everyday. stay strong!
1705. Nora P: Therapy is the most amazing thing in the world. It takes guts to acknowledge that you need help. I'm so proud of you, and wish you the best of luck on this journey!
1706. Emma Dorris: Josh, I know exactly how you feel when you say you feel guilty for being down all the time and feel like you don't want to depress people. When I first started struggling with anxiety and depression, my "friends" told me I was annoying for complaining all the time. Now I realize they're idiots. It's okay not to be okay and do not worry about what other people think.
1707. jaywhofan: Maybe you need to go see her again. I feel like I don't need to say who. There was one point in her video where she broke down and said "I can't make him happy". Maybe this whole time she's been mistakingly blaming herself when she didn't realise that you yourself didn't know how to be happy?
1708. Maxed CheatAR: #sadtimes hopefully happy times come to replace this phase of you're life
1709. Bentley S: Break ups happen and marriages fail, it's life and we all will go through it at some point. One day you will move on and everything will be okay.
1710. Alex: Josh- I've been watching your videos for so long...like so long. And I want you to know that your viewers love you and care for you! I know you're going through a rough time in your life, but with love, therapy, and God, you'll rise above this. Just keep pushing through and you'll see a difference. 💖
1711. Lillian Snow: It is hard, but you can push through it. It was about last year when i was diagnosed with depression, and I started to have suicidal and horrible thoughts like that. I started therapy, and after the first couple sessions, I felt better. for the first time in a long time, I felt happy. so basically what I'm saying is that you are going to work through it. there is nothing wrong with feeling sad and depressed, everyone has those days. even if you are clinicly diagnosed. and it is possible to feel better. get well soon 😃
1712. Caz Wyatt: Josh believe me when I say there is no shame in admitting that you need help with your depression, it is best you do have therapy now before it gets so bad that it completely destroys you, I know from experience how evil depression can be. It almost destroyed me but like you I went to therapy and it was the best thing I ever done and I am very sure that you will realise it will be the best thing you do too. Keep your chin up and smile and everything will work out for the best in the end. Much Love from the UK xxx <3 xxx
1713. SenorTremendo: Loved how honest you were because we all adore you and want the best for you! Sincerely thank u for ur raw honest self! You can do this journey! Hugs
1714. Camryn Sawyer: Much love
1715. Ireland mahoney: Believe it or not, you're on the right track. Bless you for your honesty. Remember the grass isn't always greener or the other side. Peace and blessings. DON'T look and wonder WHY the other isn't hurting. That's NOT you. Focus on YOU. You my WILL survive this, Joshua. You will.
1716. Rachhlaur: Sometimes God pushes the hardest things on to the strongest people. You'll get through this buddy! Don't lose that charm that makes you such an awesome person!
1717. LDShadowLady Fan 〈3: crying isn't healthy...however, it is unhealthy to bottle up your feelings so basically in that scenario it is. just wanted to reword "crying is healthy" just in case someone took it another way.
1718. tyler 09: you deserve nothing less of pure happiness. you're my inspiration.
1719. Ashley Makelky: You are so tough and the divorce has to be so much harder when you can see how she's doing. Thank you for being so real and making these wonderful true life videos. I would be sincerely disappointed if you did more taste testing videos be real people need that!
1720. Lee stevens: I really hope you don't close up on love again in the future Josh. Love is beautiful... it's also the ugliest... just don't give up on love.
1721. Joel Ochoa: He kinda looks like Will Shep without glasses
1722. Jen Jen: Lmao I thought he was gonna be like I gained 20 lbs since September but NOPE LMAO HE SAID 5 and I was like ok :)))
1723. Lisa Kins: This is hard I know. I struggle with depression but through clean eating and a class I attended things are getting better but I still have my days. KEEP FIGHTING JOSH BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT. I love you and am so proud of you for opening up and maybe even being a voice for those who suffer in silence. ♡ You Are Fabulous
1724. lorna young: Good for u! Sunshine helps u have a lot going for u u know during this ur dog took a dump! Lol things change u r beautiful not a thing is wrong w u!
1725. Jaclyn Regina: i love you.
1726. Crystal Law: cheer up love u are amazing things get better
1727. Kylie NotJenner: My name is Jeff My apologies for offending you. I guess I can't say what I believe in without someone attacking me.
1728. SubitoUmbra: Honey, it's okay. You are amazing! You are an amazing creator and you care so much. We Love you. I will always love you. but you dont have to put up your defenses. Nothing is wrong with you. Everyone is imperfect and they try to hide it. Don't hide it, sweety.
1729. JusPlainMee: I pray for your happiness & all that is good in this world Josh 💕 You will be happy & you deserve to be. Take good care of yourself bud, you've got this 💪
1730. chrissyzcreationz: I just wanna give you a HUGE totally platonic hug! Just know that this here GA Peach is still praying for you, Josh! 🍑❤🙏
1731. Abbey Niedermier: aw Josh :( you will pull through, you always do. i believe in you, love you ❤
1732. Joe Auger: Good on yer Josh. I see an art therapist and it has been helping me untie the traumas and issues of my youth that created my mess of a mind. NEVER feel ashamed to need help. Your honesty can honestly help others as you work through your pain. It's ok to feel it all. Sending healing vibes man!
1733. Belle ‘: woah that garden is a shit hole
1734. Ivy Rain: Josh, I want to watch your journey to happiness. Life has been rocky lately, I think following your journey will help me with mine. Let's do this together. <3
1735. Linds&Liv: You're completely NORMAL. Do NOT be embarrassed , josh. You are stronger than you know. There is nothing wrong with asking for help I truly hope that you get the peace and comfort that you deserve soon.Draw close to God and he will draw close to you.
1736. Basic: JoshuaDTV really?um look at yourself
1737. Sandra Torjussen Pedersen: ❤️❤️❤️
1738. Shannon Enos: Josh we will help you through this
1739. nima lhaden: Dear J, just pack your bag and go to BHUTAN! stay there for awhile, vlog if you like, clear your head, cleanse your heart and come back happier!
1740. BeckhamBelieves: Joshua, it is going to take time, therapy and time. You will be "happy and good" when you are GENUINELY happy. Not this fake plastic for the camera happy. Be you, a whole new you, real you. Nothing less. You got sucked into a plastic tv family world where everything is about making a dime off pretentiousness. You never belonged there because you are genuinely authentic and yet you tried so hard to fit their mold. I feared you were losing yourself so much. One of the reasons I like your BFF Charlie is because he is so far from fake. He is very authentic. I think the real you is drawn to that because it is who you are. You became accustomed to a world that everything revolved around her and her mania. The hardest thing for a good person to realize is that they were never more than a prop in another persons life. That accepting your love was real and hers was all for show. Josh, the other side of the coin isn't great, you know that, you lived with it. You know it hasn't changed, she is just trying harder to make it look different. She hasn't changed and never will. It will always be about her. Do your introspective work and trust me when I say you are a whole lot of something awesome that someone awesome will want. You deserve passion, real love and authenticity and now that you are out of that train wreck and healing you will get it and you will realize that side of the coin isn't worth the alloy used to make it.
1741. • Chloe •: Hey, I don't know if anyone will see this but, if there's a chance that you do I want you to do me a favour, only if you want, I want you to write one thing that you don't like about yourself, and then tell yourself, ok this may not be one of my best features but it's *my* feature and that's one of the things that make me a unique human being. Here's mine: I don't like my weight, but my weight is a unique part of me, that is changeable, but I find it hard to change. Only do this if you want don't let a random person on the internet boss you around❤️
1742. Candice: I just want to reach through the screen and give him a big hug!! We all want for you to be happy! It's ok that you feel you aren't ok! Take your time and do whatever you need to make you happy! Give Shadow lots of love... fur babies always help when we aren't feeling the best! We love you!
1743. Sophia King: Love you!!
1744. Rochelle: You'll be in my prayers for now on. God loves you and he is here when you think nobody else is❤
1745. Callmewhatuwant: So sorry josh that you're going through this. Been through something similar. We weren't married but we were together for almost 7 years. I feel for you. It gets better josh I promise
1746. Javier Estrada: you'll be okay, Josh. much love to you, kind sir ✌
1747. miranybeetle: I was depressed for a good year after my divorce, so I know how you feel.
1748. Jaz: you know we will always support you whatever makes you happy
1749. Megan Apple: Josh, I just want you to know that along with thousands and thousands of other amazing subscribers to you, I also love you and support you and understand you. You don't need to explain yourself to anyone. Anyone who loves you already knows what you are going through and are ready to help you when you would like help. Just continue to try and do what makes you happy and what you need to do to take care of yourself. It is going to be okay, I promise. Life will feel like a giant ray of warm sunshine again <3
1750. Peter Bennett: you dont know me, i never comment, on anything, I went through something similar to you. go away, go somewhere new. Its scary, but have an adventure, find yourself, do anything, you have the ability, make youself happy again. dont take anyone, find something you want to do, go see something, please be happy, youre worth it x
1751. Katie D: Hugs!! Wishing you strength Josh!
1752. Brittney Jablonski: I don't think everything is so happy on the other side I think some people are better at hiding their pain!.. but I can see how hard it would be if you are broken and the other person seems so happy and perfect!
1753. kswt84: You're going to be fine. In time you will be happier than ever before just keep working on it Josh.
1754. T Reasons: It's easy to tell people when you're happy, and so hard to deal with them when you're not because you feel like you have to explain what's wrong with you. Sometimes, admitting something is wrong is the hardest thing of all. So thank you for your honesty and your courage. And all the best with getting back to who you are, or going toward becoming who you want to be. If you need someone to believe in you, I believe you can, so please believe in yourself. Sorry if this came off as cheesy, overly "positive vibes".
1755. IvonRocks15: <3
1756. LunasDaughter: Josh, you are like the best friend I never had. When you vlog, it's like you are talking on a personal level... to over a million people. You are a rare gem. Of course you are on a roller coaster. You are going between still trying to deal with pain and let it go, while also being strong and knowing that you will eventually get better. You are normal. As for "the other side," there is nothing wrong with you. You are wondering why being apart from you hasn't impacted them the same way it has you, and you wonder whether they also feel sad that you are not around. For you, seeing that would show you they still care. And maybe they do. But your self worth is not dependent on whether they miss you, whether they are sad without you. You are the perfect Joshua Evans anyone could ever be, and you are a blessing to anyone who has ever been in your life, no matter how short or long that might be.
1757. Sophie Eichhorst: Very proud of you that you're getting help!
1758. Jaclynkay: You said it perfectly this is so true
1759. Victoria Kuntz: I miss your "old school" vlogs!
1760. Nicole Kornhaus: Don't feel bad or feel it's your responsibility to always be happy for other people. Josh we are here for you and things like this happen, of course you should keep doing videos if it makes you happy but don't feel like you always have to record something that is fake smile. We want to. Know the real you who has struggles like everyone else!
1761. Zendeus: it's ok were always be by your side
1762. urhotfriend oof: Praying for you Josh. Love you so much! Wishing you the best.
1763. Cheeze Whiz: i mean josh i imagine u and the other side dont talk anymore so all u see is vlogs and stuff online and well life online is a fake one maybe u see that side but its not what its actually happening so yeah ur not wrong for feeling like that i mean u spend years together and u didn't expect this to happen so u need to heal and its not wrong to feel like that
1764. Tess McClaine: Josh. I know you have thousands of comments & so much support. I simply had to let you know.. From someone who's been through divorce.. It sucks. It takes time. I'm 3 years out of it now & sometimes it's still difficult. Especially when you marry younger like you did as well. Take it moment by moment if you must. You WILL get through it.. Then one day you'll wake up & it will hurt a little bit less. Pain is like a broken bone. When it breaks it hurts & is fragile.. But when that bone heals it will become extraordinarily strong. Praying for you.. Blessings & Love. Xo
1765. Sam Hawk: The other side is hiding behind work while you're taking the time to process your feelings. When the other sides work is over, that's when the feelings will hit her and she will realize she's alone. And you'll be moved on. Keep talking and feeling your feelings! It's so healthy and will get you to the place you are meant to be. Love you Josh
1766. Kat Tv: I know this isn't about the video but ur dog is so cute either the emoji poop 🙂
1767. hannah: Josh, you have a right to what you're feeling & it's completely justified. I have been going threw a similar situation, & we're all here, hurting with you.
1768. Hannah A: I'm here Josh, I've met you. Your essence gave me hope. Nothing is wrong with you. I feel the same things. JoshuaDtv, you are more than a man online. You have been through so much in your life. I'm here to talk. My Insta is teddybear_hugz. I love you, your family, and your videos. Being down is apart of life, but being depressed is sometimes too much to handle. Orevwa✌
1769. Alice Hayman: stay strong josh, i understand where you are coming from, you are an amazing person and i believe you will get through this stay happy because you make me happy when i watch your videos i want to support you and make you happy because you make me happy when i feel down because of watching your videos. stay strong! x
1770. Christina 299: Josh, I just want you to know how much you've been helping me at the moment. I had the same situation happen around the same time as you and Im still struggling with the reality of it. its definatly changed my perception on life as well and caused me to become a bit bitter as well. its comforting to know Im not alone in my struggle. thank you for sharing your story and being a kind soul ❤
1771. Yowzabowzaa: I'm so proud of you Josh! I'm thankful you've found someone to talk out your thoughts and feelings with. All we can do is one day at a time. You'll get there. We all will. Much love ❤️
1772. Casey Anna: I saw this video recomended and a was like yahh i knew he as gay xD
1773. Heather Isley: Hi Josh. I'm moved by your video and your strength and courage to make it. It's very admiral and I truly believe it will help a lot of people. When people suffer from loss, whether it be by death, separation, break ups, divorce etc it affects people differently and it's hard to cope with. I too see a therapist because I've suffered a lot of loss by death of people very close to me in a very short time frame. I too have lost that internal happiness and with the help of my therapist I'm understanding better what has been happening with me. It's a condition called anhedonia. I didn't know it even had a name. For a long while now I've been feeling like someone or something blew out that little light of mine and in my case it's tragic loss. It's a struggle but the best advice I have for you is to keep seeing your therapist and do things that make you smile. Making people feel good makes me happy. Make it your thing to put yourself in a peaceful, minimal stress environment as much as possible. Find your happy place, for me it's the beach. It's calming and relaxing and very good for the soul. Stay away from the news and politics, it's depressing as hell. Do things that make you feel good and you'll get stronger and happiness will fall into place again. You're going to be okay. Thanks again for sharing your story 😊
1774. Diana Dominguez: I think you need to keep yourself occupied and you are allowed time to heal. Ask for Gods guidance. I think you will be fine. I shall subscribe and support you. 😊 most important don't be so hard on yourself.
1775. Christiana: It takes a strong person to hide away what's going on in their life to protect those around them from feeling down. But it takes an even stronger person to admit that they need help and to seek counsel. It's going to be a long journey,I know that myself, but Josh, it is worth the fight. You will win, and you will overcome the depression, keep faith and let others love you. I know it's not much, and I'm not anyone important to you, but I've been exactly where you are and I know how you are feeling and I just want you to know you are strong. I'll keep you in my prayers.
1776. Shanda Smiles: I'm so glad you're going to be back everyday! I've missed your videos. Sad or happy your subscribers are here to go through the journey with you. We face the same situations. If we didn't want to see or hear from you then we wouldn't be subscribed. Sending much love and prayers your way and see you tomorrow!😆
1777. Ana Meza: try and find some happiness within yourself and its hard considering what happen to you but the key is to realize its possible to still find hapiness
1778. Bailey A: This truly TRULY helps me in my situations right now
1779. apolmh56: I'm reading the comment section and I'm realizing there are so many young viewers. Divorce is not a pretty thing. There are two sides to every story but why does it have to be one side against the other? Why does it have to be his fault, why does it have to be her fault? Why is her career being full a negative? People grieve in a lot of different ways. It shouldn't be a him vs. her situation. Their marriage didn't "fail" per say, it simply ended. It's not all on her and it's not all on him. Seeing fans take sides is absolutely ridiculous. Root for the both of them to succeed in whatever they are passionate about. There are no winners in this situation.
1780. Sam: I don't really watch you, but I might have some advice. When I was depressed the thing that always got me out was music. In particular, the music of Ariana Grande, Mariah Carey, Tinashe, Frank Ocean. They all really helped me and I got through it. Maybe it's worth a try?
1781. Maria: I love you Josh and I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. I have been where you are twice and it's absolutely ok to not be happy all of the time. We're not going anywhere because we love you and support you in any way we can <3 xxxx
1782. kayleigh: Hersfeld Sammy I know for me I stopped going to my therapist after she wanted to put we a 48 hour suicide watch and I was really angry at her so I didn't go. I didn't go for a year until I realized that I can't keep hiding and running away from my issues. I think it's similar with him after the divorce drama. he was angry and, like he said, bitter, so he didn't go until a few days ago when he realized he needed to let things out and vent to someone in a third party.
1783. Amanda: Taylor Paige not everyone is religious
1784. Christen Hope: Josh, nothing is wrong with you. I admire how open you are! You truly are an inspiration. I love your channel so much! Just keep going, take it one day at a time. You are in my prayers. Just know that we are always here for you and you don't have to fake it. Just keep being your awesome self because that's what we love! God bless :)
1785. Alexandra Henderson: You're deserve the world, keep pushing forward! Don't worry about being down because we appreciate your honesty more than any videos that aren't truthful. We don't blame you for anything!
1786. Jules M: Joshua. You are so brave. Stay strong!
1787. Skyler Durden: well said Anna
1788. Andrea Ferreira Pacheco: Wish I had as much subscribers as him so I could post a video on my channel and actually get views ;/ I'm sorry for the state your in man stay strong❤️
1789. Jen Alexander: What if there isn't anything wrong with you? What's right with you? What's right about this 'situation'? 😊
1790. J Hay: First 2 minutes you put into words exactly how I've been feeling.
1791. Its Alms: I don't know if you'll see this. But she's hurting too. I mean she seeked for therapy too, and much earlier. Look only you two, know what really happened/is happening. So I'm not going to act like I know your lives better than you, but unless you're talking to her personally, what you see isn't always how it is with her as she has stated & I believe. I guess she's just choosing to be less transparent than you at this time on her feelings fully. I have my opinions on your matter on both sides, but my opinion is irrelevant. So I'll simply say I wish you both the best, and hope you'll be able to be truly moved on & happy sooner than later. Also, don't apologize for your feelings. 💛
1792. Mike Handschin: Thanks for your honesty Josh! Really appreciate it!
1793. Sophia Christee: Josh don't worry everything will get better. I'm 12 years old and have been struggling with depression for a while. I'm currently on medication and trust me it gets better. I won't lie it's really hard you think about killing your self, you self harm, everything seems like it won't get better but I promise you it gets better I'm so proud of you for getting a therapist just remember you have so many people there for you and we all want to help you. Josh there's nothing wrong with you, you have gone through so so much and it's ok if you feel depressed you will get through it. I started depression about 8 months ago and I used to self harm maybe 2 times a week but now I'm a couple weeks of not self harming. That's just one example of how it gets better. To get through my depression I have used coping skills , gone on medication, gone to a counselor, written in a journal. Here are a couple of coping skills that could help with your depression. Writing in a journal about how you feel Making stress balls to squeeze when upset Figure 8 breathing imagine a figure 8 in your head close your eyes and take some deep breaths this helps centering oneself in a stressful situation Blowing bubbles then you can pop your worries away ( aka bubbles ) If your having suicidal thoughts write down what you would miss in life if you went through with those thoughts Write 3 positive things you like about yourself read them in the mirror 3 times a day Hope some of those help you and remember so many people love you and are here for you it will get better I promise, it has for me ❤️
1794. alyssa barboza: you'll get through all this❤ yes it's tough now but you have your family friends and most of all your fans here supporting you!!!❤ take your time and get through this like you need to, your videos are amazing, you're amazing, we love seeing when you post videos but we can wait if you need to take the time for yourself to recover! hopefully things get better for you!!❤
1795. powerstryker: I remember when,I remember,I remember when I lost my mind and it' wasn't because I know so much I just think to much. I think you C....
1796. Scoutie Woutie: Nancy Ramirez 🙂
1797. Poleng Valenzuela: Just be yourself. Its okay. Thats life. Just keep on believing that you could do so much more. Try to do something out of your box. Go travel! Visit new places. Try to visit philiipines :) just let me know. Its okay josh!
1798. Hetta Bee: There is nothing wrong with you. I am proud of you and you are not alone.
1799. Doanne Chin: I don't care what kind of content you post. Like you can post these kinds of videos every day, I don't mind. I want to know you're well. After all we're all human and we all have emotions and I want to know what's up. I actually like these kinds of videos, because it's not fake.
1800. Zulma Martinez: josh im going through the same thing as you . i want to talk to you. on the phone or text doesnt matter i need to talk to you.
1801. NikitaUnique: It takes a lot of inner strength and wisdom to reach out for help. I'm proud of you! I've found it's very helpful to have an outside perspective, to help step outside of yourself and see situations for what they are, and not only for how they make you feel. I can't talk about my situation, but know you are not alone in how you feel. Realizing that you need help to cope is a wonderful first step. I have faith, Josh, that you will find your path and follow the light. You're in my prayers. ❤️🙏🏻
1802. Laureen Langkamp: you'll be allright.. this is one of the coolest and honest videos I have ever seen from you! Stop the show.. being authentic means getting rit of the masks which are showing what u think people want to see! .. you know maybe it would even be nice to be on an island without any media or whatever..! U dont have to do stuff if you dont feel like it! you know.. everyone has moments (maybe even weeks or months or longer) where they feel shitty.. feels like u are not getting out of it.. but in half a year.. you will not understand the feeling you were having that moment! you'll get out of it! Many times.. it are even the periods where you learn the most of yourself! And no.. that is NOT easy!  but.. needed! xx Thumbs up Joshua!
1803. Tiffany Evans: I wanna just give you a big hug!! I love you josh I can't wait to see you vlog or one take everyday❤️
1804. Joy Foster: hey man, love you and i also feel you. i've found that God has always been there for me and he can also be there for you anytime all the time if you just talk to him! i challenge you to talk to God and tell him what you're struggling with and he will make you new and take your burden off of your back if only you repent. God loves you josh
1805. Kat Kelliher: Loved your video! One thing to remember is that there is a huge difference between holding yourself accountable (in order to make personal progress) and beating yourself up for feeling a way you think you shouldn't. You deserve to honor your feelings. You don't need to apologize for having genuine emotions even if they feel uncomfortable sometimes. Your progress is at your own pace and no one else's. The biggest part of healing is being kind to yourself and recognizing that you deserve to make your self-care a priority.
1806. Katerackley14: I'm pretty sure we all are wondering why the other side is so happy. I think of the divorce all the time and I'm still sad and it's hard for even me to see that the other side isn't sad. Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
1807. Cherry Berry48: aww your pup knows you feeling down and wants you to play and feel better
1808. Anning in Love: So many hugs for you Josh!!
1809. youraveragefan45: Josh there is NOTHING wrong with you! And I promise we aren't thinking that. When you're depressed (and I speak from experience) it's easy to assume that everyone else notices like you have "I'm depressed" written across your forehead. Well you have a normal forehead just like everyone else, and we only see the parts of your life that you post here. We don't see all the struggle and hurt you're dealing with. And even if we did Josh, we LOVE you so much and support you 100%! And as far as "the other side" here, well again you only see what's posted online. It's important to remember that a person's online world is carefully constructed and does not show the entire truth. And that's ok. Everyone needs that separation between personal and internet life. I'm so proud of you for making this video and opening up more to us. This community loves you to death and we want nothing more than for you to bounce back a whole 50 feet, not just 2-3 inches off the ground :) If this channel needs to be sad and depressing for a while THAT'S OK. Get your feelings out if you're compelled to do so. Whatever you need to help heal. We're always here for virtual hugs and endless love and support <3
1810. Audrey Elizabeth: Stay strong and be happy rainbows and lollipops and unicorns!!!!!! Be happy you only have one life make it count and keep doing what u love you'll look back and this will be just a big bump in the road but u can get passed it there's absolutely nothing wrong with u it's healthy and normal to go what your going through after everything that happened be happy and smile more and I promise you'll feel better just smile it's that simple 💕💕💕😘😘
1811. cycy 93: you need a new girl kind loyal and happy to get u through this
1812. Natasha63323: wish i could give u a big hug and tell u that everything is ok but i no what u mean suffer with depresson i just sit in my room i have been for 3 months i no were ur comeing from i still love u xx
1813. Lily Riffe: It breaks my heart to see you this way. I'm praying for you and hope the best. You deserve the best. You will find that best. I promise. Keep your head up and stay positive. You will find the light. ❤️
1814. ss: Hey you, you know I've been watching you for a very very long time. Back before you even moved to California and all that. I know exactly what you're feeling. I know exactly what you're going through. And what's weird is I was just looking at the other side and seeing that and I was thinking to myself I hope Joshua doesn't go looking for that. Sometimes we don't need to see things. I hope you can exclude yourself from that world as much as you can. I know the name pops up all the time because of the Fanbase. But try to exclude it as much as you can therapy will do wonders also antidepressants have helped many many people. You know I'm fighting major depression myself so I know how hard and how bad it can be. It isn't easy it's going to be hard but you just got to keep up the fight and want to keep going. You will get through to the other side and you will find peace again. We are all praying for you and wishing you nothing but happiness because that's exactly what you deserve.
1815. LuckyPineapple: I know it doesn’t help much, but time will heal you Josh. It takes a while but you will feel better eventually. Being upset is normal and healthy and fine. You’re not a downer. You’re a real person and we understand. You don’t have to be happy all the time. We would rather see you be annoyed or upset than forced fake happiness. Try to take your time to just be you. We love you Joshy
1816. treebles: oh yeah, forgot to say... i am more subscribed (both meanings~ in agreement with + subscribed to) you now more than ever! much respect + love to you! 💙[cyber hug]
1817. Cat23: Sarah Becker this is why I love YouTube 🤗
1818. Meghan B: We all go through hard times and people deal with their situations differently. And it is certainly okay to be rough around the edges and a little bumped and bruised. Things in our life change us. Just make sure you change for the better. Make sure you stay the light in the world that you are. Look out for yourself, take care of yourself, and love yourself.
1819. Susan Winkler: This video touches my heart I just started a blog because the past year I've been going through a loss of my best friend in love like you. It took a lot of time to pick back up and not have a fake smile everyone I have to 'turn it on' for someone. It is OK to not be Ok. I will continue to watch down or not. Hang in there man, the best is yet to come!
1820. Pennywise *thedancingclown*: Rikki H I feel the same, I think the other side has been drowning herself in work and has become more fake...
1821. Moody Diruti: You're beautiful, good job taking step to getting yourself some help and support through a hard time <3 It will take time and work and you will get to a great place soon <3
1822. PrincessMarisa: don't cry Josh! you will get through this. surround yourself with positivity! love you!
1823. Roshni Kashyap: You have inspired me so much and I love it #Don'tBeLame
1824. herdgirl99: You're awesome Josh! You are human, and sometimes our frailty is hard to accept. We all need help sometimes. Thank you for seeking help. Thank you for sharing your journey with the world to break one more layer off of the stigma of mental health treatment.
1825. brandi george: YOU KNOW JOSH, I'VE BEEN WATCHING YOU FOR A LONG TIME AND I THINK YOUR A VERY AWESOME PERSON. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I THINK YOUR DOING AS GOOD AS YOU CAN AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS. THINGS TAKE TIME TO DEAL WITH AND YOU GOTTA DO IT IN YOUR OWN TIME. MEANING WE ALL NEED TO DEAL WITH THINGS IN OUR OWN WAY AND IN OUR OWN TIME. THE PERSON THAT MATTERS NOW IS YOU AND YOU GOTTA TAKE CARE OF YOU FIRST. WE ALL LOVE YOU AND KNOW THAT YOUR AN AWESOME PERSON.
1826. Nouran: Aw josh 😢😢😢 heart break sucks. So glad you went and got help
1827. Lilia White: omg Josh. just be yourself !!and if you do need anything were all here for you
1828. niggasjit: Resistance is the only thing that makes you stronger, thats how it is
1829. Shaz Brown: Therapy is the way forwards. We all need some. There's so much broken ness out there buddy. Urs is just in front of the camera. I can't imagine how hard that is? But....well done for keeping it real buddy. people need fake vlog like they need fake news. I think it's cool that ur allowing ur brokenness to speak to other people's brokenness! which will, in turn, allow ur healing, to encourage other people's healing. 👍👍👍👍
1830. Reaghan V: Whether you put out content each day, whether you put out content once a week or even less--we support you. At the end of the day, we're dingleberries & we may not have all gone through what you're going through but we understand you & what is best for you. You are in my thoughts as well as my prayers. I hope the absolute best for you, Josh -- as a viewer, as a friend. Thank you for being you because there are so many of us looking up to you, during good & during bad. I'd also like to share a verse with you Ephesians 3:16 "I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being"
1831. Amaris Dominguez: You sir are a rare gem in this life and anyone would be lucky to have such a treasure in their life. I pray you find the happiness you truly deserve and all the love you have given reciprocated to you times infinity. ♡
1832. Montana Hopkins: We're all rooting for you! We love you ❤️❤️
1833. Brittany Garza: This is such an important conversation! There is still such a stigma surrounding depression/mental illness and it makes people very wary to get help--and no one should ever be afraid to reach out. A year ago I was in a very dark place after having my 5th baby. I did not want to admit I had post partum depression but it got to a point where I just had to. I am so thankful I forced myself to get help because life is so different now. Josh, I'm thinking about you. You are so brave for sharing this with the world. Things will get better...just keep pushing.
1834. OrbitalAngel Nebula: Give yourself a break, it was not that long ago. It took me 2 years to get over and ex that unexpectedly broke up with me and moved on like nothing happened and while my world was falling apart. I felt like I was under water for those two years... the first year was, of course, the worse, 2nd year was better, but I was still bitter... We all grieve a loss in our own way and on our own timing... There is no right or wrong way to get past something...The thing that brought me out finally was doing something or finding something I was really good at and it boosted my self-esteem...
1835. Virginia Collins: Just know if you need to take time it's okay. I'm dealing with the exact same situation right now and It's the toughest thing I've ever had to deal with. All I can say is lean on your friends and in time you'll find another purpose to focus on ❤️
1836. Lobzo _me_: I thought he was gunna say he's gay
1837. On that NYIUN: i hope everything goes good sweety why dont you try traveling forsome time after u get better takeyour mind off whatever you dealing with try exploring new things. i feel your pain honey you can push through it youll see. ifyou need a new friend am hee to help.
1838. Gina Dicker: Yeah, just being in that community helps so much. You don't need to have faith.
1839. Krystal Burns: Made me cry.. I really hope you find your happiness again.
1840. brenfaith: Stay strong josh, I love you!!!! I hope things get better for you.♥️♥️♥️
1841. Emily Gallaher: I completely understand how you are feeling Josh. I've struggled with depression for years and I've done self harm because of it but I hate to see people go through things like that. I'm so sorry that things are hard for you but we all love you and we are here for you no matter what. You can get through this. Remember that it's okay to cry and it's okay to be open and honest. You can be happy but it will take time. We love you Josh. We can get through this.
1842. J H: Trust me josh. She is hurting too, her life isn't as perfect as it may seem, I love you both and I can see that you are both hurting but you are both choosing to deal with it in different ways. Things may seem very dark for you right now and there's no rush for things to get better, remember it was a huge chunk of your life that you lost, everything changed dramatically and you can't just click your fingers and get over that, you need to recognise that it's hard and you aren't happy and don't try to lie to yourself and pretend that you're ok. Get the help you need and take the steps you need to find your happiness but never ever feel ashamed about the way you feel or feel like you need to snap out of it, everyone understands and we are all here for you ❤️
1843. Jamie Curran: You don't need to worry about changing. We all change. People don't like it but that's just too bad. It's life. You have not become this horrible person, so don't feel guilty. I've been in that place, where it feels like the whole world just fell down. Sometimes I still feel it. These moments exist and it sucks. I am so sorry you are hurting, because you are a really beautiful human being. Just keep taking steps, it doesn't matter if you finish them all, just keep starting and eventually something will click. Take your time. You are loved, and you will be loved when you come out of this. This might sound corny but I wish I could give you a hug, you need a hug, go get a hug.
1844. shahana nowrung: NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOU :/ :3!!!! YOU'RE GOOD JUST THE WAY YOU ARE....EVERYTHING WILL BE OK....I KNOW ITS NOT EASY BUT .....DNT WORRY...:/..........NOTHING LASTS FOREVER,NOT EVEN PAIN...I'M WITH YOU<3 <3 <3!!!LOVE YOU
1845. Nadene Taylor-Beck: I completely understand how you feel, I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, after being diagnosed with UC, then breast cancer, and in the process of being diagnosed with Dermatomyositis, I know it is different, but it is still circumstances, which have been out of our hands, and we were fine with how it was before. Big big hugs. I wish I could help you. I know you don't know me, but if you need to talk, I am here (twitter @nadene82) xxxx
1846. Abbey Hanlon-Mahar: I really wish I could help Xx
1847. Hannah Hipolite: We love you and are always here for you!!! Stay strong!!!
1848. Lauren Grant: I'm proud of you. You've got this. We're here for you and we always will be.
1849. Partners In Crime: I completely agree. I was depressed for so long and I felt so embarressed so I built walls and by keeping all my emotions down I eventually. Blow up. Therapy really helps!!!! I think keeping yourself accountable is a great idea. Stay strong we love you! You need to be true to your emotions and do what's right for you.
1850. Pentaholic: This is an amazing video because hopefully this will help Josh and others remember that is is completely okay to be not okay and to get help from someone. Josh, you have been someone who has been there through 3 long years of my life and seeing this I am so proud of you for growing and continuing to grow, but also inspired to go get help myself. Thank you and know that I love you <3. I can't wait for what's to come!
1851. Scarlett Smith: ITS OK JOSH!!!!!!! IM HERE FOR YOU!!!! LIKE IF YOUR THERE FOR JOSH TOO! DONT BE DEPRESSED JOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE ALL LOVE YA'!!!! YOU DONT HAVE TO DO IT BY YOURSELF BECAUSE WE'RE HERE DO IT WITH YOU!!😘
1852. comefondue: Melissa Taylor He went through a divorce last year.
1853. YouTube Updates: Josh, nothing is wrong with you. It maybe hard but bad things happen for a reason. To show you life isn't perfect. After the storm there is a rainbow. And your rainbow will shine bright and it's coming, you just have to hold on
1854. Lucy.cuk: nothing is wrong with you, you are loved and we are all giving you endless support, no matter how long it takes. We are here, and the only certain thing that works for everyone in times of pain, is time, time often heals pain. Sending so much love, and that lil pupper will be the best thing ever to you, hang in there- you're a strong guy.
1855. imreva61: Josh, remember Jesus loves you and we do too.
1856. landry sprayberry: aw poor josh:(
1857. Heather Barrett: Be real, be raw that is what life is. Your going through stuff and it's hard, it's really hard but you can overcome anything the first step is asking for help. Don't be sorry
1858. angxoxo130: it's very brace of you to admit this. recognizing that you're not okay is a huge step in the healing process. and about "the other side"... it's likely that she isn't okay. she chooses what she wants to share with the internet, but also, this year i got very very good at putting on a fake smile, and then at night, completely falling apart, almost every night. hiding feelings & pushing them aside until no one knows they're there except you... i did it for a while, and it's possible that she's doing it too. (although i'm doing much better now.) either way, the main focus should be you, and you getting better, remember that it's okay not to be okay.
1859. kentky95: I think he'd be happier if he came out of the closet.
1860. Karlee Tackett: I'm praying for you to be free from depression! Surround yourself with positive people and pray for God to give you JOY!
1861. Lorena: Josh you probably won't read this. But just in case you do. We can't hold you accountable dude. Only you can do that. We can be here for you. We can support you. We can love you through this. I am so glad you have professional help! That person will give you the tools you need. You can't look at other peoples lives and wonder why they feel a certain way. One never knows how they feel. I only want the best for you bud. Hang in there! You will get better! Things will get better! My mother always used to say "it's always darkest before the dawn." I truly believe there is honesty in that statement. <3 U
1862. Madison Stephens: Turn to God ! His doors are always open and his love overflows. It isn't about having happiness because happiness is temporary and depends on your situation. It is about getting everlasting joy. You will be in my prayers ❤️
1863. Samantha Benfield: Awe Joshua. We love you. There's nothing wrong with you at all. Everyone goes through things and things will get better with healing.
1864. Kay Dion: Giving you love and support always Josh! 💛
1865. ThatAwkwardGirl: Josh, things do get better. I have clinical depression and taking care of yourself really helps. Try to do yoga, go to the gym and meditate. This will help you more than any therapy could. Hope you get better soon, Josh ♡ You're amazing. Keep your head up.
1866. Brittany Jackson: Thank you for sharing it means a lot
1867. Grace: Take care of yourself. I hope the therapy goes well. I don't want to give advice you didn't ask for, but writing down my feelings in a journal helps me soooo much. Maybe it'll help you too, maybe it's something your therapist would recommend. I don't know, you probably won't even see this! But, whatever. Just, take care of yourself. Progress isn't instantaneous. Don't beat yourself up.
1868. Tina NYC/NJ: Hey Josh head up we all go through these type of situations. This is the part of life that sucks. You will get through this guaranteed 100%'s Come on Josh you got this buddy you got a future that is going to explode for you ❤️ If you no longer socialize with other friends you socialize and make all new friends new beginnings is very good for everybody. You wear the same jacket for years after a while you need a new jacket lol Take one day at a time. Keep yourself busy -Tina
1869. Becky B: Poppy O thank you so much for writing that that helped me to read that x
1870. Anne Linde Schutte: YOU NEED GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
1871. Lindsy Ilene: Praying for you Josh! Depression is a beast, however your mind set is key in finding peace. Thank you for sharing! Looking forward to more videos!
1872. Paige M: secounds like firsts​ comment yay 😍😍😍😍😍 😍😍😍😍😍😍😎😍😍😍😍😍😍😎😅🤓😇🤓😂😍😍😂😘😇😇🤗🤗🤗🤓🤔😂😘😂😎😅😍
1873. Portia White: Hey Josh, I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling like this. I've dealt with depression since I was about 12 years old in middle school and am now in my senior year of high school still dealing with it on a daily basis. Although I can't say that I ever think I'm going to get better due to alot of other circumstances and issues in my life, I truly hope that you are able to get better, find good help from your therapist and get back to your old self again. Thank you for sharing this, it truly takes so much strength and I'm happy to know that you feel close enough to us to discuss this.
1874. Dayana Borja: Head up Josh, you're strong, you could do it! Slowly but surely everything will go back to normal, it takes time.... One day at a time. 😔💕
1875. Dario2622: I would give you a big hug!
1876. Emily Cao: Wtf are you talking about? If you don't know what happened to them then you should keep your nasty comments to yourself. They did it for their own good, and specifically said not to choose sides. Guess you aren't really Joshua's fan as you are doing exactly what he said not to do
1877. Angela Jones: trying so hard to get away from your feelings is just exhausting you even more. I know how hard it can be to just know that you're not THAT person. you're not, you're happy and positive because that's just who you are. and when you're someone like that, its so hard to be negative. or be sad. worse than feeling it, is just being it. I know. but rejecting it is fighting yourself. just don't. I'm glad you're getting help, josh. its better to realize and accept it because that's the only way to deal with something. there's nothing wrong with you. you're allowed to be human. we love you xx
1878. Yasi Productions: The other side isn't as green as some think, she struggles, she is hiding her pain with work, alll she does is work work work, and not dealing, and you are dealing and feeling and your both doing the wrong things!!! I just wish you both happiness :) josh your amazing and you'll figure it out, in time, just hang in there for now :)
1879. Emilia Ingold: I'm praying for you. I'm so happy that you are seeking help! You are not alone! xoxo
1880. Belleissoawesomelike: Joshua, I am so proud of you! being real is the only way to be! thank you for being real. ❤❤❤
1881. klwl: Glad to know that you have sought advice from a professional (and will continue doing so, I believe?). It is good to set goals and have these incorporated as part of your regime to get better. However, please do not let the making of daily videos become a chore that you dread, and a source of more stress. If you are not up for filming a video on a day or two, don't beat yourself up about it. Take a break, and then try getting back into the habit again until it is a comfortable routine for you. Take care!
1882. Zaan Parsons: Josh!!! Jesus loves you ❤️❤️
1883. Jim Murray: josuha, don't be so hard on yourself! thought your suffering and pain will come light in the end! believer it
1884. Ashley Norman: I really hope that things get better for you Josh ❤️ I hate seeing you sad...
1885. A Shady Cat: Claire D I was just talking to someone on other comment about this.. through the Bible I learned about Jesus and the things he taught. He loved everyone. Every person, no matter what. Through these teachings I found happiness and it makes me happy to be part of something good. As for saving people, the Bible teaches that through the sacrifice of his life, Jesus gave everyone a chance to live in heaven when we ask to be forgiven of our sins.
1886. Nur Firzanah: This is just my opinion josh... if you still in love with her.. just go text her and be friend with her. Don't torture yourself like this way. Fight for your love. Prove that you guys still got chance and what happened to you guys in the past is just a test for you guys to be better partner. Fight for your love. Be good... please be happy again.
1887. Marek Tóth: Josh. thank You. thank You for being. Being who You are. not faking. being authentic. and now I very much want to please, don't take that as I think this in a bad way. You know, you're saying in this video: "it's all have been on my, and all starts with me" Maybe what I'm trying to say is not working for anyone but me, but...Josh, you've just made yourself the centre. Does that make sense? I just want to say, if you can't be happy when you are the centre of your world, try to switch and make the centre something/someone else. that's what helped me. I'm not saying You're selfish or whatever, so please don't take it as that. That so human to thing about ourselves. I don't think that's the point. I may be wrong, I know and I'm aware. although this has been making me really happy. not being the centre of my world.
1888. Jamie 14: Ruffdogg21 Go back to your... oh wait you have no one
1889. Seize CD: It will get easier...I promise.
1890. lina othman: love you Joshua you are good men you deserve the best and the best is yet to come it's matter of time ,..take you'r time it's a small part of you'r life it's just a part of human growing it's fine to be real don't focus about what other think you'r feelings deserve to be focus on see you tomorrow
1891. Ana Rodriguez: Do something with Superwoman. Her channel is all about choosing to move out of derpression
1892. Shannon Davenport: Love you Josh! Hang in there! You'll come out stronger on the other side! <3
1893. Amina Hussain: Josh I love you! You're an amazing and strong guy! Ik it hasn't been easy, life's hard but we have to get through it and you're a really good example for the internet. I'm so glad you finally talked about this topic in more detail it feels good to let people know rather than keeping it all inside of you. You can do it, we all believe in you! Keep living for yourself coz no one else is gonna live it for you 💙
1894. Aubrey Madelyn: 💜💜💜
1895. Ichigo Red: Stop trying to meet the expectations of those around you. And as hard as it may be, keep those people who DEMAND MORE from you or of you at bay, even family members. If they're not happy with what you can give at any given moment then it's OK to give yourself space... Also, beware of users and abusers ie: those who would play with your emotions, put you down even after you've "met their goals" and/or verbally bash you because your life isn't going the way they've envisioned it... And it's totally OK to change career paths if that's where life leads you... They may not be happy, but you will. Take care.
1896. Estefania Martinez: Hey!Josh i hope you feel better we are here to support you and we ❤️ =love you!!!
1897. Karla Garcia: Is very hard when you are hurting so much and realize everything and everyone around you keep on going as usual and you feel so stuck. At the end of the day it's nobody's fault... that's the way it is. As you said, is not like you are wishing the other person to feel the same way as you are feeling... I guess is more like, wishing the world could stop for a minute... be strong Josh, one day at a time, you can do it.
1898. Faith Rawls: I love you Josh 💜💜
1899. Mia La Fornara: I completely know how you feel, but we're in this together, Josh. Always
1900. Lillian Robi: love you
1901. Molly Penn: It's alright Josh we will support you and help you through this the best we can. I hope you find your happy place soon! ❤
1902. Helena Segabinazzi: one word: VEGANISM. I was severely depressed for 5 years. Started to wonder if you put meat that has been through so much stress how will that affect you? I changed and have not had a "bad day" (the ones that you cannot get out of bad, can't see the light) for over 14 months.
1903. The Looker: oh my god i havent seen one of you videos in a while! i missed you!! stay stong you got this👌👌🙌🙌
1904. Abbie Joiner: @JoshuaDtown Josh, I don't even know where to begin. Watching this video made me really upset and I was just thinking how you have always been here for us and no matter what your going through you always think about posting and keeping up with us. YOU NEED TO STOP HIDING YOUR FELLINGS don't worry about what people think about you whether you cry, say the F word, make fun of you or anything.....I don't know this Josh ik the josh who was always happy loved kale lol and always made his fans happy no Matter what you used to preach to you fans be nice to people you need to put that back in your head. You have always helped us now it our turn to help you. I hope this made sense and I hope you feel better soon💓 love you ~Abbie👋
1905. Cheyanne Hadley: I've never watched your video before, but lots of people were talking about this video on colleens last vlog.... I feel this so much, I was with my boyfriend for over 5 years and we broke up in October and i am still so sad, and I feel like an idiot for still feeling that way... sadness is a shitty thing and it's hard to shake it... depression is all consuming, but it's possible to get through it. it'll be okay.
1906. Alicia Hawkins - Roberts: We all support you Josh. Keep strong your powerful you will get though this. You have all the dinkleberries to back you up!! ❤️💕❤️
1907. Julia Barbour: Nothing is wrong with you Josh. You are such a beautiful person. It is okay to be depressed. You are doing the right thing by getting help from a therapist. Thank you for being open with us. We love you. You will get through this.
1908. Jody Smith: I am here for you I get depression to I have to take some med to help me emotional
1909. AJ x: im dealing with this right now and i dont know how to get out of it, trying, but i dont think its working. ive been like this for years, hate myself for it
1910. Jamie 14: Ruffdogg21 fuck off good for nothing rip
1911. maik wonder: he is so dramatic and fake !
1912. Enchanted 01: I was suddenly and unexpectedly left after almost 17yrs of marriage, it took me 2.5 years to even feel like my head was lifted up so I could even start to see the world again. I remember clearly hearing a laugh in my house and suddenly realising it was me, a very surreal feeling. There's no quick fix and you can't just shake it off and 'get over it', I still, after 19yrs dream about him as my husband even though I finally was able to move on. You have to just try to keep putting one foot in front of the other. The self doubt is a killer, and never 'be sorry' your feelings mean something and they are relevant. I am alone and keeping it that way. I don't want to open myself up to any more pain after a second 8yr marriage failed, don't be me. I'm 52 and only realised last year that actually, I matter too. Thank you for sharing and Poppy O's advice is everything I have experienced and would have advised as well. Baby steps. xxx
1913. awebreeze1: Many people go through this and from experience, time heals. You'll go through hurt, anger and cry. It's natural. You'll be fine in time and each day and look in the mirror and tell yourself five qualities you know you have. Whether you feel it or not eventually you'll realize it's true. God bless and give yourself time to heal. Wounds do heal.
1914. Micah B: we will pray for you Joshua
1915. Jennifer Leon: love you, stay strong
1916. Sapphire Sundaes: it might not be a distraction though. Maybe she isn't draining her self with work and just really likes it. Maybe she isn't feeling emptiness or sadness anymore.
1917. Amanda Zopp: Buddyyyyyyy! I just wanna give you a big hug right now and tell you it's all gonna be ok. I know it may not feel like it now. But one day you'll look back and see how much you grew during this time. Your greatest struggle will be your greatest victory. As far as "the other side" goes - we only see people's "highlight reels" and what they want us to see. We don't know the private struggles. Glad you're seeing a therapist & that it seems to be helping you. You WILL come out on the other side with joy and self assurance. Can't wait to watch that journey. Excited for all the people you will inspire & encourage. You make a difference. Keep that head up & know you have a unique purpose and you're loved uniquely by your Creator. ❤️
1918. Diana Morel: You have so much courage and compassion in you Josh. I have and still kinda am in that depression state too...can never give up and every day is a new challenge. The slightest thing can make you sad again, upset at yourself or happy! Do what you feel brings the light out of you & this is clearly it. You're an inspiration, never feel bad for feeling bad, definitely understand you. Much love your way 💕
1919. Rachel Landry Saunier: I think it's great you're choosing to seek professional help, Josh. I think anyone who would have been in your situation would take a long time to grieve, recover, and find happiness again. I hope people watch this video and learn that there is NOTHING wrong with getting professional help if you feel like you need it. Therapy can be so helpful and truly life changing. Wishing you all the best. I hope that time, spending time with friends and family, and now some therapy will help you on this road to happiness again. Sending you love and positivity.
1920. thisismecindy: I hate when people make assumptions of people's marriages, and that's probably one of the many reasons why this is so difficult for them. "Why get married if you weren't happy??" Whoever says something like this must be a teenager or someone who's never been in love. This is how relationships in life happen, not everything has fairytale endings.
1921. Carolyn Saner: I've been going to therapy since 5th grade. I am graduating from high school in 2 days. It is a long and tough process, but without the help that I've had, I would probably be a sophomore at the most. Sometimes it's just nice to hear a stranger say "you got this". So, you got this. I got this. We all got this. We can all do this. I've been standing with you for years, and I'll stand with you for many years to come. If you haven't noticed, this is not a message just for Joshua. We got this.
1922. Katerackley14: Sara Love your literally putting down someones message so please just stop. Aka your being mean also. 😂
1923. Eva Mee: 💜
1924. Lauren Friend: Hola Josh! I watched this video and my heart feels for you because I know how depression and thinking maybe somethings wrong with me. I just wanted to suggest maybe try checking out Kyle Cease's videos. He has helped me a lot. I hope you check them out and I hope it helps.
1925. charlotte b: I'm so proud of you josh. Therapy can be so helpful and I really help that you can feel better soon & find genuine happiness again. We love you so much!! We are here for you. Thank you for sharing because I think you can help a lot of people going through the same thing.
1926. Sonia David: Here to support you no matter what, you definitely have a fan for life here. love you Josh ♥️
1927. Rylee C: All the love and support to you ❤️
1928. Dee V: At least you are honest ! And glad to see u express your self:) many people hide it in and that's not good so proud to say u are expressing yourself yes dude u will get better exactly don't feel ashamed ! Loves back
1929. Samantha Trujillo: i love you so much josh. I wish i could give you a hug right now. I will always support you.
1930. Inga Bel: Josh I know this really isn't exactly relatable but me and my mother have never ever been close even since before I was 1 me and my mom have fought and all I have asked for is a therapist and so the fact that I have been able to get help and been able to talk to someone is really 👍
1931. Elyse: I'm so proud of you for talking about things ilysfm
1932. Skyler Durden: Josh you are SO amazing just keep rockin... I love how you're always honest it's so brave of you and great!
1933. Kristy Brewer: I absolutely love this! Nobody expects you to be perfectly fine and healed overnight, what you are experiencing is horrible and you need to heal according to your own time, not ours. We love you regardless! 💜
1934. Leniah Happell: why don't you just go to the gym and work your mind off, that's why i would do to be honest
1935. Laydii Hajee: Joshua you must be going through a lot, of course a single comment won't make a difference to your life you don't even know ME XD but that missing hole in your heart... search for the truth ... the purpose of life... question it and maybe ... you'll know why you're even breathing and maybe even a source of happiness that is Taylor made just for you :") DONT TURN TO ALCOHOL AND OTHER THINGS JOSHUA you'll ruin yourself. Do your best !
1936. MyLifeAsLouis: We fans over here will always be with you :)
1937. Maggie B: Josh, you are helping with the fight against stigma re: mental health. Especially with men. Hang in there, and thank you for sharing your story. 🙌🏼❤️
1938. AlbertO: Why not spend less time online, period? If you're feeling disconnected from everything in your world, how about spending time in person with friends and family instead of sulking and watching what "the other side" is doing? Giving in to this urge to share your personal business with the public isn't helping you move forward, it keeps you focused on the past, and it's preventing you from posting the kind of content that attracted your subscribers in the first place. Restrict your posts to high-quality content that shows your talent as a performer and/or as a writer, like that gorgeous cover of "Perfect" that you posted last week. Videos like "This is very hard for me to admit" are not the way forward, unless posting one-take videos about how you're feeling depressed is part of a larger strategy to help build your brand. If I were you, I would go in a different direction, because right now, you're young, handsome, talented, and you are actively repelling real-life opportunities of all kinds. You're an actor, so why not act like someone who is happy, confident, and moving on with his life? Instead, you're showing people who might consider hiring you that you're emotionally unstable and essentially unreliable, and you're showing potential romantic partners that you're not over your ex. Why are you putting this negativity out there for everyone to see? Keep your private thoughts private, for your own sake. Later, when you're emotionally whole and healthy you can tell your story and let your public know what helped pull you out of your depression. Until then, focus on the positive in public while working with a good therapist in private. Eventually, your inside will match your outside. Good luck!
1939. CARLEE'S GROW: poppy o ... said the most truthful and really helpful things ... you should print it and place it somewhere you can reflect depending on your what feeling at that moment... poppy o has walked the life ... she has great advice
1940. kelsie ring: ❤️❤️❤️
1941. Cora Voyles: first
1942. Keva47: Wishing you the best
1943. Taylor Trevithick: Everything you just said in this video is exactly how I feel in my life right now. I never wanted to be the person who puts my feelings and problems on other people, so I have closed myself off from my friends and faked a smile. I'm glad to know that everything I am feeling is normal
1944. LovesRain: Swan182 I worked through some of the stuff with therapy too. I'm glad I could give some words of solace. Good luck!
1945. Jeanine Schembri: Nothing is wrong with you, you were just truly in love. Keep strong Josh you have so much love to give, give it to someone who will reciprocate the same feelings
1946. Anna LaNave: You can not carry everyone, even yourself. let God do it..Let the Lord do the healing as you open yourself up to wisdom and healing. you are in my prayer
1947. VLOGZ ofjojo: I know this is way besides the topic but this was posted on my birthday 🤗
1948. Molly Parker: I don't comment often, but I just wanted to tell you that I am proud of you. It is okay to admit you are sad, and no one here blames you for that sadness. We are here for you Josh and want the best for you.
1949. Terri Fenwick: I've sensed your pain through every single video since the split.  Trying to mask it and deny it, is what a lot of us do.  I think being transparent and talking about it is HUGE in recovery, and getting some professional help and advice is super healthy.  Going through a breakup or divorce is one of the most painful things in life - it's a LOSS.  And we need to, and have to, grieve.  Some get over it sooner than others.  Give yourself and break and don't beat yourself up about it.  YOU WILL GET BETTER ... trust me, I have been exactly where you are (a few times).  Pray often, hang with your family and people who know and understand, don't cut people off and out of your life, keep busy doing the things you love and make you happy, continue to be nice to people AND make videos .... THIS, TOO, SHALL PASS.  It's a season in your life and there is a reason for it.  What God brings you to, HE WILL BRING YOU THROUGH!  You will be an even better man because of this challenge.  Hugs.
1950. BibiKiwi: sending so much love your way! you will get better and will find your inner happiness again. be kind to yourself and give yourself the time and help that you need!
1951. maria noronha: very proud of u josh very very proud of you! we are there for you. you will make it. you will be happy. declare it to yourself. and you will eventually feel what you declare
1952. Rebeka Burns: So look back at around 2:35, to the left Shadow is taking a shit!!! 💩💩😂😂 I'm really sorry your going through this, your taking a step into the right direction! I hope things turn around for you!
1953. Kayla Spearman: And take this seriously, you are perfect in your own way and there is NOTHING wrong with you
1954. Hannah Rannah: Your instinct is going to be to separate and isolate yourself. I'm dealing with the same thing. I don't want to be a downer, or get embarrassed, so I often just want to disappear. But you're loved. And you're still here, and we are all really happy about that. Keep fighting against the urge to isolate yourself. To quote Amy Poeler, one day, you will feel at least 51% okay.
1955. Katarina Radisic: You are human being, it is okay to be down. Honestly, screw people who expect of you to put them up! You do you. Good luck with everything, we believe in you^^
1956. madielopez585: My thoughts and prayers are with you in this time of need! You will get through this Josh! One day at a time! Best wishes❤️ Stay strong bud
1957. weoweearth: well said!
1958. EmilyCx33: You can really tell that Josh loved her with all of his being and this is tearing me up. I hate to see you like this and I hope you can find happiness and a light at the end of the tunnel, I know you will.
1959. Nicole Bezanson: 😊❤️ Joshua hugs
1960. Courtney Mulkins: Josh I'm so proud of you! Its ok to not be ok! Getting therapy is definitely a great start to getting better!
1961. Alyssa Carpenter: You're amazing Josh! You're such a great and kindhearted person and you will get through this! Keep making everyone smile and I hope you find something to make you smile everyday! ❤️
1962. Katalina Gonzalez: Stay strong I love you, you can get through this I believe in you! 💕
1963. Flo Willliams: It breaks my heart to see you like this and you're constantly on my mind. Being 19 and having never been in a relationship I can't speak from experience but just to let you know I know how it feels to be depressed and not have anyone to talk to about it, the healing process is slow and you may feel like you'll never get better and that you're already in your 30s but trust me good things come to those who wait and honestly there's always a silver lining even if it doesn't seem like it yet xox
1964. Andreaa 123: I relate to this so much. Hope things get better <3
1965. Ashley Portillo: early squad
1966. Life with Londyn: So many people suffer from depression. It's a real world issue. If people don't want to hear it, then they probably are missing signs from those they love as well. It's amazing that you are choosing to go to therapy. So many people look at therapy as a "bad word". I hope that everything turns around for you! You're going to be ok :)
1967. Monica WRS: It's so hard to just take that first step to seek help, good on you, wish you the very best! Xoxo
1968. turtle4040: It's hard to see now, but there really is a light at the end of the tunnel. There will be another great love for you and other opportunities that can bring you joy. Stay open to the possibilities because they are out there.
1969. Jackie Reil: Everything happens to us for a reason, it's to change us and help us grow. But it's what we choose to do after that shapes us! Choose happiness, because that's what you've always given us! We're here for you!
1970. شادي رمسيس: I just started seeking therapy because of depression, i really feel you bro. We love you,stay strong🌹🌹
1971. Nikki Hamme: I'm so sorry I feel this way josh, the thing that makes me the most happy is when I'm surrounded by great people!!! When you hangout with your friends u may feel like a downer just try to be with some of your great friends and try not to think about it. It's defiantly helped me
1972. Carmen Buiter: 5:44 "What is wrong with me?" Nothing. Everyone deals with things differently. That is what makes us us. Things will get better. For some it might take a month to get over heartbreak, others take longer to heal. That's part of who we are. Everything will be fine one day.
1973. Maya Chamseddine: Theres a difference between being and feeling the sadness and hiding the fact that your sad, you were married for not even long but your relationship was so real. Its okay to hurt. Your suppose to just remember that it will get better and taking the initiative to admit it to yourself is so empowering. Keep it up and work on your own health. The other side will eventually have a huge break down ( as sad as that sounds) but she is also a human and we all have hearts.
1974. HerBeauty`sInsideOut: Josh I will pray for you!!! God loves you so much!!! He gives and takes away. But while He takes away you need to be able to say Blessed be the name of the Lord, anyway!!! His ways are higher then our ways. We may not understand it may seem so hard, We might ask WHY???!!! But He knows whats best for us!!! For example... I wanted this certain job for so long, I got the job, and He took it away from me. I was so heart broken, because I thought it was perfect, in my finite human way. But in His infinite way He had something a job planned for me that was way better, where I could be satisfied in Him where He could be Glorified in me.!!! Now I have a job I love and am ment to be at.
1975. Ashton yang: I love how shadow makes you smile when he uses his squeaky toy
1976. Nancy Ramirez: I'm so proud of you. It's nice to see a you do this because a lot of youtubers are ashamed of it and feel like they need to hide it from us and that isn't okay either. No one talks about it enough. At all. And it sucks. Because then teens watching these youtubers feel ashamed of themselves because everyone else seems happy & they aren't. And they feel different and just.. not normal
1977. Grace Sullivan: G
1978. Abi Durkin: If u ever want someone to talk to josh I'm always here xx
1979. Deanna Vasquez: Hey josh, I'm battling depression as well. It's hard for me to be someone who gives up. I'm fighting everyday to get my life where I want it. I feel like I'm making steps towards my future everyday and I also was considering documenting my journey. If I get where I want in the end and I can share that with people maybe I can help someone. So yah just thought I comment. It's funny how I've been thinking this and u come along and make this video. So Yah I feel ya. Good luck with your journey. I know it's hard but, u know, hopefully we both can get through this. ✌️❤️
1980. ap: I love you and love your videos please keep making them
1981. julie weaver: Anti depressants can work wonders. Your brain chemistry gets tweaked sometimes and Prozac or something similar might be helpful. They helped me alot.
1982. Apple Slices Unite: SGTsela You're welcome. There's no way two can CHOOSE to dedicate so much time without never loving each other. People heal in their own way.
1983. Katherine Ramirez: can i give you a hug ?!?!
1984. Grace Wright: Can we show more sensitivity here guys? There's these comments like "do yous reckon Josh...." or "how come josh is....." and it's something blatantly dumb or nasty.. can we just remember Josh reads these comments and he IS in fact a human being?
1985. Amy Stimmell: ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ We love you so much and you will get through this. Everything happens for a reason (cliche I know) but this will make you so much stronger and you will love yourself more as you go on. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
1986. gwen b: <<33 as true fans, we will always love you no matter what happens!! stay strong josh
1987. Ashleigh Ward: You'll continue to "be better" one day and then not the next. It a part of healing(trust me I'm still doing it). You're doing great! Nothing is wrong with you!! We all love you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ keep healing, we are here for you ☺️🙌🏻
1988. Michael Denny: Josh, be gentle with yourself and give yourself time apart when you need to and seek others when you get too much into a dark place.  It is so hard to learn, after years of time and emotion devoted to someone, that they are not the person you thought they were.  I did the same thing twice in my life.  What hurts so much is your loss of your innocence about the danger of falling in love with people who are so unworthy of you.  It makes it hard to trust others and these types of people who use others and see others mostly as a supporting "cast" in their own "play" don't suffer because deep down they ONLY care about their own needs and happiness.  They don't even know they are unfeeling because they have learned to practice imitating actual compassionate people.  The worst thing you can do is blame yourself or believe the things the ex may have said to criticize you and justify their horribly selfish behavior and walking out of the relationship.  It was always a fear of mine in watching your videos over the years that you were more invested into the relationship than the other party was.   One of you wanted true love and gave it and the other loved the idea of it and it's usefulness for furthering career and selfish needs.  You will get better and therapy is a very good idea.  You are one of the most beautiful, kind loving guys and a true love is in your future.  This is a hard lesson but life is all a lesson. peace!
1989. Anna Milam: Come to Tennessee and I'll hang out with you! Therapy is hard, I've been there and it was rough, I've been through so many therapists it's a struggle to find a good one, so I hope you did find one you enjoy! I have depression and anxiety which has made me lose so many friends and I've missed out on so many moments and memories. I didn't go through a divorce but because of anxiety I have hit rock bottom so so so many times. Stay strong josh! Mental sickness really is rough, and just know you aren't alone! Happiness really does come and go, so just keep waiting and you will get a happy moment again:) we love you josh!!
1990. Ashlee Nadeau: There is NOTHING to be ashamed or embarrassed about depression. What you are going through is perfectly normal. People who suffer from depression and have gone through a divorce go through every emotion known to man. What you are going through is normal. You are doing the right thing. Take it one day at a time. Don't over do it. Take some time for yourself and try not to shut down your emotions. Travelling. That helps too and that's what you're doing. Just keep being you Josh. Don't forget, there is that special someone out there for everyone. You will find love and happiness again, it just takes time. You're a very intelligent, very outgoing and you seem very fun to be around and you have a great support system, don't forget that. You only have one family and you can't replace them, make special time for the important people in your life. That helps a lot. I've been dealing with my husbands situational depression for three years now and talking and being with the ones you love helps a great deal. Don't be afraid to talk about your feelings and what you're going through. Even though the person might look annoyed or isn't in the mood to hear ya, the important thing is you talked about it and you're not letting it build inside you. Stay away from prescription medication, it doesn't work, in fact in makes it worse for your body as you can come back from this. This to me sounds like it's a situational depression. Don't forget that. It will pass and your therapist will tell you that as well. Chin up Josh! You've got this!!!
1991. kainat dilawar: if you are close to God you would never feel depressed because you will realise how much He loves us as He died for us..... He will heal you, you jus need to ask n stay close to Him .............. depression if from satan Amazing testimony of your wife <3
1992. Erin Hagel: it is not a crime to feel the way you are feeling, it is going to take loads of time for you to heal, but we are all here for you and we love you and we just want you happy, and we respect whatever you do to help you get happy
1993. Michaela: I was gonna comment something about clickbait, but then you were real and genuine and then I felt bad for wanting to make fun of you so sorry Josh XD
1994. Esmeme: Olga Pea I'm glad you've found some solace in religion but please do not discredit what therapy can do for you and also remember that sometimes it is necessary to feel better. If you had a broken leg, you'd got to the doctor. It's the same with mental health :)
1995. Maya's Dream: You may want to check your astrology chart. Are you having a Saturn Return? A Pluto Transit? <3
1996. Maria Hernandez: I love YOU
1997. Breanna Bannister: Im currently studying a bachelor of psychological science and from what i understand clinical depression is not something people can bounce back from with no help (most of the time) yes there are people who do but generally its something that is much better off if treated. there is real strength to seek help because its hard for people to do it alone. and I am super glad you sought some help because it is not talked about enough and major depressive disorder is a real problem and it is up there with other serious illnesses as the cause of disablement and death as well. So good on you josh for opening up aout it because it can make a real change bringing awareness to mental health. (i am so passionate about this and i am thankful for your video
1998. Jamie Von Essen: you have gorgeous eyes...hard to see them sad.
1999. Cambrie Ancell: basic stuff sammmmeeeeeee
2000. Stephany Dove: I know you don't or won't believe this now.... but, you are going to be so happy one day! you will fall in love again and it's going to blow your fucking mind!
2001. Becca K: clickbait at it's best mmm
2002. Mara: Watch David Dobriks vlogs, those help me.
2003. OldSoulMillennial: Therapy is the better way to go
2004. Ben Harrison: Josh, there is absolutely nothing wrong with who you are. Here's the thing - it's very obvious to me that you are an empath - a deeply empathetic person. We feel heartbreak to an intense degree and we don't bounce back at the same rate as others. We are more prone to depression and to be visibly debilitated by heartbreak and find it hard to function. We are not able to put on an act or hide things as easily. DO NOT BE ASHAMED OF THIS. The world is a better place because of empathetic people. Yes we struggle, but we have so much to offer and so much love to give. That's a gift. I promise you that in time your heart will heal. It won't be the same as it was before but it will be beautiful and strong in a new way. You will be able to love again again and the girl of your dreams, the one who will truly stand by you in good times and bad is out there. When you have healed and are able to love again she will appear in your life when you least expect it. You are going to be okay - you've got this! Love from one man to another. In the meantime, allow yourself to grieve fully and to do it at your own pace, not comparing yourself to anybody else because you are the only you. Thank you for your unflinching authenticity and showing us the unfiltered you. You may not realise how many other people you help feel less alone who are also going through this. Love to you and yours.
2005. Minnie: Human to human. I love you. You'll be just fine. This is just a patch in your life. But you are so much more resilient than you know. Congratulations on finding great help too!! I feel only positivity for you, Josh! Truly
2006. MayorMaya: I think it would help you, if you grow grass on your yard, seriously. Also, maybe it kills you to see the other side happy because you did not want it to happen but the other side did, and maybe you knew the other side wanted it but you didn't want to realize it, so thats killing you. Hope you find some peace inside.
2007. La belle Et la bete: Destyni M. Lmao
2008. disherkm: It's all brain chemistry and coping mechanisms. Brain chemistry can be changed with medications and you can learn coping mechanisms through therapy. Never be embarrassed to seek help - a lot of times it takes more than "talking it out" with friends or trying to force yourself into it alone.
2009. Assmasher69: Josh you should take a picture of 1 thing you love everyday for 365 days to see what is truely important to you. At the end of it all you can see your favorite things over the past year and who or what was there for you in your good times and bad.
2010. Grow your Wisdom Tree: There's nothing wrong with you, it's so beautiful to see you expressing your authenticity. It's absolutely ok to feel how your feeling. The moment you say its wrong to feel the way your feeling it intensifies. Well done for taking the steps you've taken. It's so self loving, it's self loving to be where you are. It just feels unpleasant and horrible. :( We are raised being told its wrong to be in our negative feelings fully but its ok. It's a big aspect of you that's down and he just wants to be seen & just wants to be able to express & not feel alone. I recommend having a look at Teal Swan and the completion process! And maybe get in touch with a practitioner! She's changed my life! Sending you Lots of love ❤
2011. Dene Horgan: Can I just say  a) This is my first comment EVER. b) Even if this video is 'depressing and sad' to you, sitting here watching this at 4am, it is so helpful to hear that someone else can feel how I'm feeling? That the isolation that I can feel is false because it's not a lone feeling, and that it's valid and real. c) I don't really know any of your background, or you, or any youtube stuff, this is the first lone video I've seen of you, and if this is the only video I see, then it was incredibly useful, and helpful, and also hopeful. I'm currently reading a book called 'Reasons to Stay Alive' by Matt Haig, if you've not read it, it was a bit of a tough read at first, but it serves the same purpose as this video. It also provides a perspective from Haig's vantage point and his main message is 'it gets better.' He does base a lot of his recovery on love, and at first I was a bitter single person, but then realised that love comes in so many forms that he was annoyingly right anyway.  Wow this is weird. Commenting is weird. I'm usually a ghost youtube watcher.  I hope that you're feeling better, and that you can use the comments in your videos as motivation, because it really looks like people have your back. I feel kind of bad I haven't watched anything else, but I just wanted to give back to you, because of what this video gave me. You also get so many comments you most likely won't read this, so it's like being an anonymous donation to something incredibly worthwhile.  How do you finish one of these? I sound like I'm 80. Keep going!!
2012. Jazmin Garces: Thank you for being so open with us Josh. There is no need to apologize for how you're feeling right now. I'm very happy you're seeing a therapist. Feels good to talk to someone and let it out. We love you so much. Xo
2013. sandy sanchez: You have a beautiful soul you deserve everything!💜
2014. amy krauss: I understand your feelings! It is okay not to be okay. It is okay to be human, to feel, to exist. I devoted my life, gave up all my own hopes and dreams to support my ex-husband - to in the end losing myself. 3 years later I am still finding the bits and pieces of myself that I lost. But for so long I thought I needed to bounce back to my "old" self. But I just feel that's not possible. That chapter of my life has ended and I move on to the next one, move on from the old one and I have learned! It's a hard, long road. Is it what we wanted? Is it what we asked for? No. But life never goes the way we plan. I am so proud of you for choosing therapy. My therapy has helped me immensely! No one's recovery is the same. But like you say, "Forever and always, be nice to people" because you never know who needs your kindness.
2015. Ray Chill: ❤You should neverrr feel that "opening up" Is A "Bad thing" , Your human.........And Sometimes I wonder To the 10 and 12 Year olds that comment some horrific comments, Like WHERES YOUR Parents?????? ....... Josh dont ever hold It in🤗 #hugshugshugs
2016. Charlie T: hang in there bro
2017. Ruffdogg21: I'm bored with you so get help;) pill addict
2018. Office Flan: Good for you Josh! I've been praying, am praying, will be praying for you.
2019. Hope Robinson: Love you Josh. You need US now. we're all here for you.
2020. lilalabasterbox87: Thank you for being real. Nothing but respect for you. Praying for your heart as its healing. My favorite verse is Psalm 34:18 "the Lord is close to the broken-hearted, He rescues those who are humble in spirit". It brought me so much peace when my heart was in a shattered state. Much love and support from Jersey!!
2021. Myna Brisson: We love you! We are here for you!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍😍🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹
2022. Wiame: Andrea Vera Exactly ! She's obviously NOT OKAY, even though she shows the opposite. I noticed that there's a major difference in her behavior before and after the divorce, it's like she's forcing happiness and joy into her life and wants to believe that everything is okay and that she fully moved on . She doesn't want to admitt that she's not okay, as a result she became a workaholic who's working 24/7 non stop . Like, we get it, she loves what she does and is dedicated to it , but that doesn't stop her from getting some rest and get her thoughts and feelings together . I was hoping that she opens up about everything that happened , but unfortunately she didn't which made me believe that she still hasn't moved on properly as she's claiming. Sincerely, i admire josh for his boldness and courage to admitt that he's not okay and he's trying to move on, i actually believe from the bottom of my heart that he's going to get through this and be the josh we all now and look up to.
2023. Abinaya Kalpathi: I'm so glad you opened up, I know how hard it must have been. I'm depressed and I related to everything you said. You really made me feel like I'm not alone, thank you so much. You're very very strong for putting this up. That makes you great, you know why? It's because you are brave enough to be vulnerable. I really really hope things work out for you. I will pray for you everyday. I love you so much. <3
2024. Gayle Hutton: Thank you for being you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ you're loved by many
2025. Lindsay Harralston: This video is everything! You are not alone! So many of us have had a hard time "bouncing back", myself being one of them. I've been going through what you're explaining for over a year now, I've never had the words to explain it, yet you've pretty much nailed the feelings. You're taking the right steps, I wish you the best of luck!! Xoxo
2026. Faith H: We love you, Josh. ❤️
2027. Danielle Laney: As someone who doesn't comment ever but loves your videos... Thank you, Josh, for doing this... I think this is a great thing for you to do, not only for yourself, but for viewers who are going through similar things. I'm excited to see your documentaries about your journey to get back to being happy as I am trying to do the same in my own life. God's blessings to you, and I hope you find happiness once again! :)
2028. Jackie Kesler: I've totally been there. Ended up divorced at 30 and never imagined I would! I promise it gets better! I went to counseling and it helped so much. Depression is real and not talked about enough. Your days will get better!!! You got this!
2029. Caitlin Garrett: My boyfriend died in January and I started therapy and it's definitely been difficult but it definitely does get easier. For a long time I thought I could do it on my own and it definitely helps when you have people on your team. I'm super glad you're finding your path and doing what's good for you, it definitely gets better! hang in there, we all love you. 💕
2030. Zohar Moore: keeping unliking it so I can like again. seen this just now but you got this bro.
2031. tjmejak3: You are not alone. I have always dealt with differing degrees of depression and anxiety my whole life when I was 24 my husband passed away and I was left with 3 small children under the age of 5. Fast forward 13 years and I was now a mother of 7 with one child with special needs. That September she passed away and since then I have been battling major depression. it can be a vicious cycle for me. I have moments where I hate myself for not being ok. Times I find joy like when my granddaughter was born etc. I too want others to be at peace and happy even though who have hurt me but at the same time wonder why I can't move past things ad they have. I want you to know you have helped me many times and not just with your happy and upbeat videos but with ones like this. It shows you to be someone I can trust That is being honest and has dark times. It shows me that I am not strange or alone. We are all human and we allhave valid feelings and life paths that we can not judge each other for. Everyone handles things differently and that is ok. We all just need to show love and patience when others need it and not be afraid to ask for it when we also need it. Sorry if I am rambling I should be sleeping but felt I wanted you to know that it's ok....this is your grief process. You are grieving something that you loss and you can do that however you need. No one has the right to judge or tell you how to do it. I also want you to know how brave you were to first week help and them to sure with us. Thank you. I know I don't know you but I am here for you....even if that just means commenting and keeping you in my thoughts. Much love and again I am here as I know many are. ❤❤❤
2032. Chloe k: draw near to God and he will draw near to you.
2033. K Osman: Joshua. Thank you so much for putting yourself out there. I resonated with so many things you said. It's so important for people to have a role model who shows that life isn't super easy. I'm so glad that you're seeing a therapist. I am too!! Keep up the good work, friend. You'll get through this. <3
2034. Hailey Weess: this video made me so emotional. I love you josh and ill always be here for you I've watched your for so long. I hope you see this it would make me so happy if you replied.❤❤❤
2035. Megan Finn: I've had issues with severe depression in the past. It's a scary place to be. I'm now a practicing social worker. You will get through this. Stay strong. Utilize your therapist!! He/she will be able to help! Make sure you have a good fit too. I believe in you Josh. You will get through this. It's a scary place to be, I know. I care about you.
2036. abstractswirls: we support you. take time to practice self care and self love. having others to help along the way is wonderful :) you are so brave and open. thank you for being so vulnerable online. It's inspiring to see you show and be true to your emotions, especially as a man. men are so shuned for showing vulnerability and crying. it's a stigma that you are breaking free from ! much love and light
2037. Nina Higgison: Thank you so much for sharing this Josh, it's such a personal thing and for you to open up about something emotional and touchy is so inspiring :))) just know you aren't alone, so many who are hearing your message feel the same and you've taken the first and most important step by talking about it. Look after yourself buddy and keep going ❤️
2038. Dariusz Wszolek: J K YES MEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :)
2039. Pusheen Cat: It's ok Josh we are all here for u and we hope u feel happy again soon! 😊
2040. MonneyXD: I've been wanting to say: I MISS the vlogs! and I am sure I am not the only one, so you couldn't have made a better decision Josh :) Personally, what I feel helps a lot is doing something that you wanted as a kid but never got to do. I recently (and randomly) bought a skateboard because I've never got to try, and when I tried it I fell and scraped up my knee. I felt like a kid again! Just the simple feeling of being free in the moment. I've been married for only a year now and can already see how easy it is to focus on everything else but YOURSELF. Your old self. But I think it is possible to be happier again all by yourself, as long as there are no rules :)
2041. Sara Love: Brunette twins im aorry if it was taken as rude, im just saying there are two sides and nobody can say how anyone really feels, i never said i knew how she felt.
2042. Mel D: It's going to get better it just takes time. Separating yourself from family and friends is the worst thing to do, surround yourself with them and keep yourself busy
2043. Sadie Robertson: Jesus can relive all of this. Just trust in Him. Pray to Him.
2044. Rachel Eh?: Life is not all about happiness. It is about growth, it is about getting stronger, learning to persevere, it is about finding your hope despite your circumstance. Learning to not define yourself by your circumstance and your trials. Learning that you are not your flaws, your illnesses, your pain or your body, you are not even your mind fully. Some people's minds are sick and that does not define them. Stay strong and keep growing in wisdom and understanding.
2045. Teresa SuperLuckyStudio: Praying for you. So glad you are getting counsel. This will pass. ❤️
2046. It’s Nick: I love you so much josh, i go through depression too, and I really really hope you get better, you don't deserve depression. ❤️
2047. carol paula: That's terrible what that bitch done on him. It's not right the way girls can treat men and just get away with it!
2048. Alona B: You are a very pure person. You have a good heart which is super rare and amazing. It will be much harder because you are more emotional but that's because you are real, which is your best quality. No one wants perfect and cheesy. We all support you through this stage. I know all your fans are in love with you but it isn't fake. They love your personality, which is real, and compassionate. You will find someone the same way. Best of luck
2049. Caitlyn Johnston: ❤️ I have been in a similar state. where you don't even feel like yourself anymore and can't figure out which way to go... but I for one know it does get better..so keep going and you will find your happiness again.
2050. holdenbeach4ever: Love you Josh! Best of luck, I know you can pull through ♡
2051. ktrsmom: Josh, my prayers are with you. I have grown children so I'm saying this from a mom's heart... your mom and dad want to help you so don't feel you are burdening them. I'm pretty sure your siblings feel the same. My heart hurts for you...
2052. Victor Cordeiro: I feel the same way, hope we overcome it :)
2053. Vina Mistry: never be afraid or ashamed to be you and express how you are feeling in the moment. and no matter what I'll be here
2054. lina svintozelskaya: You are right, you CAN'T do it by yourself. Give it to Jesus. You will never get happiness or peace from anything else.
2055. Christine Leask-Lennis: You are looking for your truth, you are so brave to go public with this journey you're on. You are not alone and therapy is a good start. Talking to someone who is not personally connected is much easier than the feeling that you are dumping your crap on family and friends. Receiving counselling is an inner journey, so if you feel you want to stop the vlogging for a while that's okay, whatever makes you feel okay on the day is okay.. Just know that love of friends and family and your Youtube friends will hold you up. l am picturing the perfect pink of unconditional love and healing that is entering into your heart chakra is spreading throughout your whole being. If you sit quietly and picture this you will start to feel the healing and the peace it brings.
2056. Apple Slices Unite: Josh, I know exactly what you are going through. You are mad, angry, confused, about why she isn't having such a hard time as u? Did she ever love me? Is the fact that she's having such an easy time means she doesn't love me or never did. Just not being able to have the answers and any kind of closure is so hard to handle. When i broke up with the love of my life, I had such a hard time not knowing. I was left thinking she's got this great life and looks so happy. I later found out it was a front. She was actually hospitalized. its not that it made me happy but some how it made me know that i can move on knowing that our relationship was real important to both of us. it just didn't workout. took me 2 years to get over it. so josh, believe me she's having just as hard a time as you Shes just good at hiding it.
2057. AIMEE STUBBS: Micah B amen sista
2058. Lucia Beernink: i love you Josh
2059. Beth Compton: Don't be so hard on yourself....youre doing the best you can. hang in there. you just do you, be your authentic self.
2060. Ruth Camps: Josh, I am hurting for you. I pray that you are able to find peace and are able to reconcile your head with your heart. Remember that after the storm the sun always comes out. Surround yourself with good inspiring friends and try to always help others, it helps you see that in spite of things you are blessed and also serving others gives you a happy feeling. Keep your head up!
2061. Sara Love: Becki Green oh, i didnt know you knew her! that must be exciting hanging out with famous people! haha seriously people need to stop being rude to the both of them, he has said many times "BE NICE TO PEOPLE" that includes those who have wronged us so if your a joshua fan then think about what you say before saying them :)
2062. ZeldaandFairies: "Never thought I'd be the guy to be jaded..." holy cow that's definitely me
2063. Ellis Cairny: I really want them to get back together 😭
2064. Gabrielle Cameron: making videos might give you short relief. an intimate relationship with God will give you true healing. bless you Josh
2065. Courtney Pickett: u r so brave josh. I love ur videos. they make me so happy when I see u have posted a video!
2066. Gold Girl Karen: What is he talking about is he taking about his divorce
2067. Karla123 maldonado: The other side is in pain as well, she's just hiding it. She just doesn't think she should show every emotion that she's feels online.
2068. Mallory APerson: Can we please all subscribe to him and watch his videos? Please? They're all so good and we can help him as much as possible
2069. Lillian Arbuckle: Josh I know you can't really see us but if you need anyone to talk to just talk to us. I've been loving you ever since like I came out of the womb. ilysm 💗
2070. WildSequence: Love you Josh!! We are all here for you. Hugs
2071. Cynthia Servin: i love you josh 💛
2072. Angela Zhu: I can't stand seeing all this hate and negativity directed at his ex-partner. She is also going through the same thing but every body has different ways of coping and healing. You do not get to judge their decisions and it is not your place to call her a bitch or spread rumors and falsely accuse her of things just because you "think" this happened. You don't have to like her but please respect her and know that she is a human being with emotions too. Have a beautiful day.
2073. Amanda Jocelyn: Josh you lost the love f your life...if you don't want to talk to us talk with a GOOD therapist. I'm constantly drowning...I get my head up a little and sink again.
2074. Dasha Durianova: Really Though I agree with the church part since most of the churches are corrupted nowadays, but you do need to read God's word otherwise you won't know what God wants from you, you won't know His great plan for us, and you will not be aware of what you're up against as well as what the future holds and how you can stand up to satan and his demons. God gave us his word as some kind of the instruction guide as well as something we can get support, comfort and a sense of security from but mostly it's a book on how to get to know your Creator and how to understand why He does what He does through certain patterns or actions which are displayed in the Bible through various sections and stories. If God didn't consider reading His word to be important as well as beneficial for us, He wouldn't insist on its preservation to this day since many people and even church itself tried to destroy it because it teaches the TRUTH. Have a nice day
2075. Eliza Thompson: I believe in you
2076. Millie H: It's ok Josh. Stay strong and we'll all love you and support you through this 💕
2077. Julia & Madi's vlogs: Hey see this please I love you!
2078. Shannon Worrell: Recently some one I care about left me and watching this video made me realize things are good and happy keep being happy Josh.
2079. Jordan Troutman: You got this! Always keep fighting for who you are and for your happiness. You deserve nothing but the absolute best. ❤️
2080. L. A: Where here for you
2081. Marissa Simoens: <3
2082. sonder: amen ❤❤
2083. ella Marie101: 28th like
2084. Chloë Johnson: Josh, I recently went through a time like that. I was depressed and confused for two years, and I was at a loss of what to do. It feels like there is no way out. It feels hard to find happiness, but I did. Surround yourself with the people who make you happy. Get some roommates and make you busy, because busy distracts you until you feel better. Focus on the positive. Write down everything you're grateful for. EVERYTHING. Change up things in your house. You'll feel better. We all love you dearly and you mean the world to us.
2085. Lalyst: Whenever I'm sad I know I can go to one of your videos and smile. I hope you can find something that does that for you, Josh!
2086. Bunny Obelenus: Healing from what's going on in your life isn't going to be an easy fix. Sometimes you need a helping hand. Let it out, get the help you need, be honest. Know that those of us who have been there in that dark place understand.
2087. Katarina S.: Take your time. Take all the time you need. It's ok. Do whatever brings you peace. You're going through something painful and difficult, don't blame yourself. Hang in there <3
2088. Siri Newton: So proud that you're taking the steps to take the pressure off yourself. You don't need to do this alone. I've loved watching your videos and I hope you will be able to learn ways to bounce back higher and improve your mental health and feel like yourself again. Much Love <3
2089. Photo Life Magazine: This made me think about my wife and her struggle with depression. She would say the same things. She could not figure out why she was down, why she felt depressed when there was no real reason for it. One day she decided to turn things around. She started praising God in the midst of her depression. In the bible, we are told that God inhabits the praises of His people. He “dwells” in the atmosphere of His praise. When we take time to praise God by being thankful, or in song for example, it becomes a vehicle which takes us into His presence and power! Also, when we go to church, we line up with Jesus’ teaching that His presence will inhabit the gathering of believers who come together. God knows the very things that work on us to bring us down, the things that make us feel burdened. Often times, we cannot identify exactly what that is. It’s a bit of a mystery but when we take the time to praise him, especially in church, His presence and His power go to work to lift every weight and to fill us with joy, peace, purpose, a sense of worth, a sense of value and more. Based on my own experience of being on prescription meds for 25 years for anxiety and my wife’s struggle with depression, we’ve come to learn that God has put this wonderful mechanism in place to deal with this stuff. We all deal with things at one time or another and I encourage you to know that what you are dealing with is not unusual. I also want you to know that God completely healed me of the need and dependency of medication. My wife was also healed and has never suffered with depression since then. I want to encourage you to sing to God. Get connected to a church that has good praise and worship times. A church that teaches the word of God and believes in the power of God to heal and lift up those who are burdened. If you’re not sure where to find a church like that, let me know and we will find one in your area. Trust me on this, we may never be able to truly identify what makes us feel the way we do at times but God will always draw alongside to lift us up. The important thing to learn is that he has mechanisms to do just that. Praise is one and being connected to a good church is another. Reading His word is another way. After all, if you never read his word you might never know that he says this about you in Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Taste and see that the LORD is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him! Psalm 34:8
2090. Effy Wolf: ❤
2091. Leonie Rogers: I had the realisation that I might be depressed last year after a particularly difficult time and this resonated with me a lot - especially what you said about getting surges of motivation, struggling to keep up and ending up back at square one. Please don't be too hard on yourself or try to rush your recovery! For me at least, even though trying to keep myself accountable seemed like a healthy thing it escalated into pressure and stress and meant I focused less on dealing with what was really going on with me. It's not that you are lazy or that you are making excuses if you just don't have the energy to put into making videos right now (depression is an illness not a personality flaw!) and I'm sure it will all come together in good time. It's so so great and strong that you are working on getting well!!!
2092. LittleMissMuffin: Thanks for your honesty :) You are a true inspiration! Keep going - you can do it!! :D
2093. Kristin Laurens: I think this video would have taken a lot of strength to make.
2094. Tya Herndon: Omg I completely understand you! Best of luck buddy
2095. bjuble: Joshua, now listen. This is totally normal. People who deal with that kind of stuff all feel this way. There is no perfect time in which you must heal from some kind of trauma. People cope different with it and of course every one is different and has different needs and that's why there is no rule in coping. It's totally normal that you feel this way because sadness can take away everything and makd you wonder what even made you happy in the first place, and because in that moment it's just sadness you can't even remember the happines and how happy the things you loved doing once made you feel. But I like to look at that time as a dark cloud. Sometimes when rain is about to fall, dark clouds can form above us and there's darkness around us. But then after a while, the sky always clears up. So does your mind and soul. When I feel that way l always like to remember that I have the power to be bigger than those feeling, bigger than the darknes. And then I take paint and paint, and the end result is far from beautiful, but the process is amazing because it cleansed my soul somehow. Or I go out for a walk in the nature. And before I go I'm like "do I even want to go?.. I'd rather stay at home and .. well do nothing". But even nothing seems too much sometimes and thats why I push myself just a little bit even when I don't feel like it, and the end result is always happy. With that kind of little things I make myself remember happiness and how the things I love make me feel, and once I was able to pull myself out of this cloud I could do it again and again because I was proud. Proud that I had the will power to choose happines and do just a little thing that made me happy even if at the beginning I just didn't feel like doing it. And soon you find new things that make you happy and pasionate and you find yourself again. Josh, I know it with all my heart that your life will be all sunshine again. This is just a bump in the road now, but you will get past it. And do whatever makes you happy, post whatever you want to post, it's your channel and we love you and want you to be happy, that's why we won't judge you for what you post. I love it that you are so real, because life is real, and you don't have to be totally on point all the time, you are only human. I wish you all the best Josh, and please, try to keep it in your mind that the sun will shine again, okay? And don't be to hard on yourself, try to love yourself even when you are dissapointed and be super proud for even the smallest things, even if that's just you getting outside ❤
2096. dead channel: : ur trying to talk : Shadow: SQUEAK SQUEAK DO U HEAR ME JOSH DO U!! Lol
2097. Jennifer Miller: its ok if you aren't ok yet. we love you just how you are and will always be here for you. really hoping that therapy can help you because we hate seeing you in pain but we love you regardless <3
2098. Adrienne Ross: The extra few pounds look good on u:) definitely more snugggaaable! Lol time is what it takes to heal, I know it sounds like bullshit Bt it's for real and everybody needs help, reaching out was the best thing u could do Joshua !
2099. Sam Franco: <3 <3 Sometime I feel the same way... I know the feeling "What's wrong with me..." Sending you strenght, good vibes and a lot of hugs!!
2100. Kalyn Strange: I have felt what you feel. Therapy is worth it! You're life will get better!
2101. Happyinhi 7: Hi Joshua: You have been through a tremendous earthquake of life changing events; you do not owe your fans any apology. You actually have been handling everything so amazingly! I'm praying for you, Josh, and please don't feel pressure to even vlog every day--just when you can. Also, when you go to New York, maybe keep an eye out for any auditions that catch your attention. You are such an amazing singer and actor--a true natural talent! The internet will always be here, but maybe a change, like a Broadway musical would lift your spirits, too! You are a very special person, and just know, your fans support you and understand you are going through a tremendous time. We understand you are on a journey, and there may be times you need space to heal--of course! Take Care!
2102. rachel: anyone know why they broke up??? they seem like they both miss each other so much...
2103. Daisy Dullinger: I am so sorry Josh...i will pray for you and wish you the best 😞😊
2104. Kate B: This is far more relatable than any fake dancing and singing. Save the music for when you feel genuine music. Every note between here and there is honest.
2105. Shelby Hessel: Joshua-you dealing with your problems and sadness now will be the be the best thing. The other "side" is eventually going to have this blow up in their face because their feelings weren't dealt with. I was clinically depressed all the way through my teen years and you know what I dealt with it and now I know I can do it! Your dealing with life changing events, it's not a walk in the park. You CAN do it, and you will do it! It takes time, it's not going to happen over night. I wish you all the happiness in the world because you deserve it. :)
2106. lilian msp *: ❤️❤️❤️❤️
2107. Leah Scott: Be sad. Be happy. Just BE. Don't feel like you have to be one or the other. I know EXACTLY how you feel. Talk to your therapist about journaling. My parents told me they were getting divorced about 3 weeks after you guys announced it. I get it. DON'T BE SORRY. Just BE.
2108. Cala Kelly: It is ok to not be ok. I am clinically depressed (so I have a psychiatrist so I can get meds) and am still in the process of being ok as well. It will take time to recover and it's a painful process but things will get better. I hope things get better for you sooner than later.
2109. Kaysha Gleghorn: What happend?
2110. Brittney Smith: i love you
2111. Susan Paulson: *Internet hug* I promise, it gets easier. ❤
2112. Jade Olivia: Also, a bit of advice? I know it's especially difficult in your situation, if not impossible, but try to limit your view of the other side as much as possible. See how many days you can go without intentionally looking. You'll feel so much better, I promise.
2113. Natalie Shade: Josh I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Know you are loved and many of us understand what you are going through. ❤ stay strong & know we love you.
2114. Jammy Santos: ur strong u know that...
2115. Dayna Musgrove: We are always here for you. ♡♡♡
2116. SniperFox 11: you were being honest and that's what matters 💛💛
2117. Rachel Bailey: I love you josh. it hurts to see you cry. stay strong
2118. roseline natasya: please be happy, please don't force anything, let the flow flows, do things that make you blur the terrible things and eventually motivate you to get better and be happier. stressful things--without them you won't appreciate the joyful days. you'll get through everything josh, you will. you know that God will not give you a problem that you can't solve. you know the rain won't last forever, you know there will be a rainbow afterwards. i love you, josh, your smile, your heart, and your everything. you will always be in my thoughts.
2119. Maria Katrina: Hey Josh! Just wanted to say that don't blame yourself for the way you're feeling. People always expect others to "get over" certain experiences in their life quickly but it doesn't happen like that. This has probably been the biggest shock to your system in your life. At the end of the day, you have to look out for number 1! You just have to. As you said, things look great on the other side. And we have to make it great for you too! You have to but we have to as well! Any help you need with anything, hit us up! There are literally thousands of us dude. Dont know how long it will take for you to get through this, but just know that you will get there! ❤️❤️
2120. Nina!!!: im soory josh i love u
2121. Niamh O Loughlin: Jus and it's perfectly ok to ask for help
2122. Sun Aries: There's nothing wrong with you, or anyone. Life is really hard at times. I think it's amazing that you are finding help, and working through this, that's all anyone can do at times, just keep moving. And one day you can look back an see that you have learned to live as a whole human again. I'm 35, and a divorce can be one of the greatest sorrows you'll ever face. It will get better, you'll get there.
2123. Ashlyn Elizabeth: I love you Josh. So so much. You have been so strong through all of this. Speak your mind, express your feelings, and admit you're not okay. Because that is healthy. You are doing this all right. It might seem like you aren't dealing with it well sometimes, but you definitely are dealing with it the best way possible. Even if you don't think it ever will, I promise you, it'll be okay. Not immediately, but it'll be okay. You just have to keep pushing, keep living, keep strong, and stay open with yourself. Even if it doesn't mean you're open with us, although I feel like this helps you a lot. Keep the things in your life that help you, that make you stronger, and that can keep you in a good head space. 💗 I'll be here for you forever, no matter what. And I know a lot of other people will be too. Continue to be you, Joshua. You are an incredible human being, you are strong, and you can do this. 🤘🏻💗
2124. Scott Bailey: I used to be in that place you're in. I didn't feel happy, and wanted to be happy so bad. I wanted to be loved so bad. I never had seemed to pick the right ones (or even) date someone that would be not only good for me, but would be the right choice in people that would put me in the right way that follows my path. Years it took me, but one thing that I could give to you is, wipe clean your pallet and start to refocus on YOU. Look in the mirror and say to yourself, "would I date you"? Long story short, I started back at the gym, changed my career twice, and change my thought process that fulfilled me. THE moment I started making the connection to a perfect world for me, everything else fell into place. I now have been with my life partner for 18 years. I don't think we've even been to a gay club in over ten. They just don't 'work' for 'us'. I find people do not respect a loving relationship in clubs, and think people in one are even more of a thrill to try to get. And that makes it not a very fun night out. I never thought life could be this good, but it really took a lot of 'rock bottoms' until I found the positive approach to life, and that is what makes me thrive and fulfilled. Good luck on your quest. It's a lot easier than you think. Just let go of the things that bring you down, as well as the types of people that bring you down. By the way, my partner was a set up blind date from my best friend. Totally was not my type, but his character intrigued me, and I told myself that I should give this a try.
2125. Ameli Rhythmic gymnast vlogs: Nathaly Babushka oh that's why he is sad I can't believe he is still so sad
2126. Ocean lights: So sad that couples quite so fast, unless someone cheated or something is just completely un-mendable, what ever happened to "til death do us part"???
2127. Megan Ashley: You are so amazing josh. Don't beat your self up. I'm proud of you through your struggles!!! You're an inspiration to me!
2128. Peyton Whitty: No no no no oh No😭😭😭 I feel so bad☹️ Don't do this to yourself. Just don't think about it. Go to jojo! I'm sure she can make you feel happy 😊😁
2129. thetruthdotcom100 !!!: I knew he was gay
2130. Aleah James: Do this! So much of this! Sit on a bench and just tell people how you're feeling Josh. Never feel bad about what you're feeling, I do it too. I say sorry when it's unnecessary and it's a horrible habit. It doesn't matter, if it's one take or not. Your videos don't have to be flashy with a bunch of crazy cuts all the time. This was real and raw. I'm so proud of you for sitting down and just talking to your viewers that took courage and strength. I'm going through a divorce right now, so if you ever want to talk know that I'm here for you. All the feelings you're feeling are valid, when you get a divorce it is like dealing with a death and you're not only loosing that person you loved but a whole family that was a massive part of your world. <3 You'll get to that happy place again, just like I will.
2131. Ashley Iuliano: Wishing you the best, Josh! I'm glad your getting the support you feel you need.  You deserve happiness!
2132. Kristen Love: Josh it couldn't have been easy to put yourself out there like that but it's okay to not be okay! It may take awhile but you'll get there and get back to you
2133. mackenzie frecloud: I promise it WILL get better! You WILL find happiness again. Ever since I began watching your YouTube channel 3 years ago, nearly every single video has inspired me to be a happier person. Stay strong, Josh! ♡ ✨
2134. penguins Rock: u have over a million people here for u, we luv u and i think u deserve to be happy 😊
2135. mackenzie elise: "If you were happy every single day of your life, you wouldn't be human, you'd be a game show host" Heathers anyone? :)❤️
2136. Stijn de Ruig: Hey Joshua, I'd send you a personal message on snapchat. I hope you'll read it and my experience and tips will help you, since I've been depressed 3 times and came out better. Bug hugs!
2137. Kat Decker: Josh, this is one of the best things I've seen you say. It's real. It's honest. And you're getting help. I am so proud of you! I went through a rough breakup a few years ago and I have so many of the same feelings you do. It seems like he's so happy and it's taken me a LOT longer to deal with it and feel better. It's so hard to feel like there is something wrong with you, but there's not. You have always been a more emotional person who feels things very deeply, more so than your ex. That doesn't mean you are wrong! It just means you have a much greater capacity for love! Sadly, that also means you have a much deeper capacity for heartache and pain. Don't be afraid to feel it. Take the time you need. Work through the steps. We all love and support you and look forward to seeing your beautiful face every day! Enjoy Philly and NYC and your friends. Have fun! Love you lots, sweetie. (Even the 40 somethings love you!)
2138. Corinna Elizabeth: Josh, just know you're my alone during this, even though it feels like you're alone. I pray that you'll see the light soon. Stay strong💜🙏🏻
2139. Aubrey Madelyn: Sending prayers and love💜
2140. sweta chhetri: sometimes you let to go something.....to see something better
2141. Becky's Balcony: WHAT are you depressed about? Your alive you have your health you have a job you have family. Josh if your feeling guilty about your divorce you should not feel guilty. You can't keep feeling guilty that may be the reason your depressed. Start dating again and admit who you really are, when you admit who you really are then you will be happy.
2142. Amelia Cottrell: You're actually perfection and deserve all the happiness in the world!!
2143. Lorilei M: Josh, it's a GOOD thing you're talking to someone. Therapy is a GOOD thing! everyone should see a therapist! I'm proud of you! Broken hearts are physically painful. It hurts on all sides. you're just willing to share and show your REAL side. we love you! (even us older viewers!)
2144. Saymour Salamia: Josh 😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️
2145. Mary Schmidt: I'm glad your getting help I hope you will feel yourself again soon.
2146. Gandalf Odinson: There's nothing wrong with you Josh, it's normal to feel this after going through a traumatic or emotional tragedy. Don't beat yourself up kid, hang in there. Love ya :)
2147. Jazmine Valencia: lysm oh gosh i love you dont be sad or your going to make me sad loveu
2148. megan kathleen: we love you joshua! turn to fitness, turn to god, turn to us for sure! we are here for you always ❤️
2149. lisalovescherries: We love you, Joshua! And it's wonderful that you are reaching out for help. You're reaching into your suppressed thoughts and acknowledging what is dragging you down. You are so brave to admit to your feelings. And there is NOTHING wrong with you! I guess these tragic moments in our lives occur to show us how strong we really are. Your situation was an opportunity for you to learn something important. You'll be happy soon. You are already healing:)
2150. em surreal: Time does wonders for a broken heart. I've been there too. Hang in there... in another 5 years you'll look back and won't even recognize yourself now. Your happy ending is right around the corner. <3
2151. Fiwi Mel: "Be nice to people!" I really like you, Josh, and your ideals. To me, it's heartbreaking seeing you like that. Please take care of you and smile always. Smile with all of your heart. I've been in a really dark place. I'm 23 and my life has been "sh*t" until now. I've been seeing a psychotherapist and she really helped me. I am actually happy right now and happy with my life. Seek help but make sure they're doing their job the right way. You're amazing! Take care. ♥
2152. Krystin S: We so appreciate the honesty and realness. I've been watching you for a very long time, and have been rooting for you since day 1. Lots of love to you ❤❤
2153. Casey Dryden: Yes! Josh, love this. Love you being real and you and that you're getting help. Can't wait to see the journey. 💜
2154. Heidy Cardenas: I love you Josh💖 stay strong you got this we believe in you💗💗
2155. Emily Thorpe: Josh you are a kind, hardworking, talented, generous, funny and handsome man who deserves nothing but happiness. Don't ever feel ashamed of how you feel or what you're going through, you were dealt an incredibly shitty hand. But remember that when it all becomes too much you have the power to change the game and make it easier for yourself. I'm proud of you for seeking help, that's a very brave thing to do. We love you and we'll be here for you.
2156. Lindsay Ingle: Josh. you are loved beyond words from family to your friends and fans. i know your hurting take one day at a time. You deserve love and to be loved unconditionally. Im always here for you
2157. Bashayr Hakrouh: there is nothing wrong with you! you were in love and I'm sure that you still are! I have been in your place and I thought that I can never recover from it because I loved him with all of me and I was in pain every seconed of the day! we are all by your side and we love u . . please be strong... & I hope that I can see you happy really really soon 💗
2158. Yvette Rubio: Who else had the "Bounce Back" song when he said bounce back??🤔
2159. Megan Arnold: Please talk to your doctor. Deal with this from a holistic approach and don't discount the miracle that medication can provide.
2160. Pantuf1: It's healthy to acknowledge where you are. The journey will lead you to happiness. No apologies, take care of yourself.
2161. Lyna Parker: amen
2162. S R: Poor guy.
2163. Naomie Borg: You can always lean on us for support we love you you are awesome be happy and have fun we are all here for you
2164. Nelly Flores: Thank you for your transparency 😊
2165. One's Just Deserts: the more you try to control your emotions the more chance they have of coming back twice as hard :( sometimes you just have to ride the depression until your brain registers that you don't need to be anymore. I know that sounds terrible but the toughest year of your life is the one that defines you the most. Keep your eye our for those glimmers of hope. Well wishes <3
2166. Carlos _: Poppy O I love this! But you got remarried? Do you regret remarrying? I hope this doesn't seem rude.
2167. Susanne Schultz: Having watched you since 200K followers, I really look forward to watching you evolve and becoming the best you want to find in you :) The rough times lead to the future great times that we cherish and are thankful for much more. Much love to you in your hard time. It's very cool you decided to open yourself up to daily uploads again! On the up or down days, I know i'm one in a million who will support you - hugs!
2168. mb99 b: There is nothing wrong with you. You are just being a human❤ we are here for you Josh😊😊
2169. raquel sarig: I totally get everything you said in this video. it WILL be okay and it WILL get better. I need to remember that too. about the whole "it seems perfect on the other side" thing, I completely know how you feel. everything always seems perfect for everyone else but for some reason it's just you (general you) who's screwed. I think In this situation, she's probably hurting just as much and cares just as much, she just dealt with her issues sooner. There's nothing wrong with thinking you can do it alone at first, but I'm so happy for you that you're getting help now! You guys are both hurting immensely, but dealing with it in different ways. Love and support you both so so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
2170. Christie Bob: I love this it's all too relatable
2171. Robin Gillespie: Josh, as someone else said you are mourning the loss of your marriage. Don't forget that you are loved, not only by people in internet land, but by your family and close friends. As someone who deals with depression the thing that I forget the easiest is that people love me. Good for you reaching out for help. Hold your head up and know you are worth it!!
2172. Kathryn Crownover: Thank you for talking about this. I'm going through the same thing.
2173. Kaylee Valle: ❤️❤️❤️
2174. Emily Brown: stay strong josh we are always here for you & if you don't feel comfortable posting or being active on the internet then we understand. its normal for these stages to happen and it's going to get better we love you soooo much more than you could imagine❤️
2175. ellemartin15: hi
2176. Sandra Schnider: This is so real, and thank you for opening up. Things will get better. You do not have to fake how you are feeling. Being real with us and yourself is what can change lives including yours ❤❤❤
2177. maarinay: i think you should start with traveling the world. there are so much to see
2178. Brittani Bee: We love you soooooo much Josh! I hardly ever comment on videos but you need love and you need to know that everything you're feeling is normal. You have such a big heart and that's why you are still hurting, you love so hard and we wouldn't ever want you to change that ❤️
2179. Kayla Marie: Josh, I dealt with severe clinical depression from the time I was 10 years old to 21. I don't know what you believe in, but Jesus is what saved me. When I found Jesus I found hope. That doesn't mean that the depression goes away, but it does mean there is joy and you are not alone. There is nothing wrong with you. You were fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of Christ. Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you, not harm you. Plans for hope and a future.'"
2180. Ola Augustyniak: It all takes time. Stay strong, we're here to support you, always. ❤️
2181. Katie: Keep yourself busy it helps a lot
2182. Beccaleck Davies: Sending virtual hugs xx
2183. Crissy Marie: it's all about the timing. maybe things were done for the wrong reason in the past. Well now it's time to do things for the right reason. look at the way you love. in everything you do. you can not find happiness in people places and things. things change and we change. but it really does depends on how we can love every situation good or bad. head up and rock this that transit.
2184. kopitikop: A lot of people doesn't know, but seeking for help is the first step. I went through it because a break up of a long relationship and still bothers my mind sometimes. It takes time to heal, take as long as you want, but start, start even if its baby steps. My best wishes.
2185. Hannah Williams: Hey Josh, keep going man. There will be brighter days ahead, when all the hurt seems to fade away. It may feel like an eternity away at times but you will reach it. Do whatever you think necessary to get through, as there is something for everyone out there that will help them to get through dark times. Whether that's therapy, medication, family, friends or even a hobbie. I know for myself that was it was my relationship and faith in Jesus, and using his word to fight back against the dark thoughts that feel like they try to destroy and eat you alive. That's what got me through. So find that thing that gets you through; proud of you; there is more life in you yet. That I know and declare to be true. The fact that you've kept going with youtube is just one of many things that prove it. :)
2186. Lauren Porter: I'll be not okay with you. it's okay to not be okay, but it's not okay not to ask for help, and that's what you're doing... kudos <3
2187. Shawna Litteral: Aw you're just such a good person. I hope you find happiness :(
2188. Anja E: Im so hay you made this and was honest this has helped a lot with what I'm going through knowing this. I love you very much and lets this together josh xoxo
2189. Random Fella: I cried ... a lot
2190. Rachel Bailey: I just went through a break up too. I know how you feel. I want to be happy again and I wonder when it will stop hurting. you're not alone
2191. Bethany Nelson: Realest video I've seen in awhile, love you josh !! stay strong !!
2192. Veronika Buckwell: I'm here what's happend!!!!
2193. tamarasagt: therapy is great. i'm so glad you took this step. it will keep blowing your mind, believe me.
2194. Tiffany Perez: You'll get through this, and even though these are hard times, these are the times when there's so much personal growth! Going through a lot of stuff myself but I swear to you, exercise has changed my outlook and attitude on a lot of things. Best wishes!
2195. I don't care what you think: Hugs to you, Josh!! You are awesome!
2196. Amandalyn Jimenez: Have faith Josh, you are going to be okay, hold tight to who you know you are. You are going to be okay. <3
2197. Alletta Porter: Just about the realest person on the internet. You got this
2198. julio: try turning to the Lord, he loves you so so much joshua, honestly i've been through a super hard time these past 2 years and i've found that just spending time alone with God, praying and studying his word, makes me so so joyful on the inside, no matter how bad of a day i've had. God bless!
2199. Kattie Anderson: (((hugs)))
2200. ClearlyImAKong: I just want to give you a hug Josh. This kills me and while I cannot entirely understand your pain, I can empathize and imagine how difficult it must be, especially with that "other side" being so in your face. I hope your therapy helps you a lot, and I wish you the best of luck in pulling through Joshua.
2201. Leanne Hayes: I hope u get better ilysm you've thought me to be a positive person and I hate to see u like this I really wish u the best and hope it all works out for u xoxo
2202. safalafagins: Josh, I totally understand what you mean about how everything seems perfect and happy on "the other side." I know you do not wish sadness upon the other side, but it does make you question and doubt your own emotions and healing process. What I will say is that the "other side" is honestly just setting a lot of people up for hurt. You, herself, AND her viewers. Showing people only 24/7 positivity is simply not realistic. When I watch her, sometimes I second-guess my own feelings because, well, "she just went through this horrible event and she seems fine, why cannot I get through this bump in my life?" I hope one day she realizes what she is doing and puts out an honest video. I really appreciate your openness and sincerity, Josh. I KNOW you will get through this. <3
2203. Michele M: Josh, stay in the present moment. Verbally countdown - 5, 4, 3, 2, 1... when you start overthinking, feel panicky or immediate sadness. Write it down. The moment you feel it, write it down. Remember: your thoughts become you. Try CBT or EMDR therapy. I too suffer with clinical depression and BPD. I understand you. And all of us are here to help.
2204. buggy627: Guys take longer to fall and take longer to get back up as well. It's normal for it to seem like the girl is fine and moved on faster. Thats usually because she has already dealt with the grieving when she broke up with the guy in her head. Then once that happens it takes the smallest thing to finally snap and leave. the guys are blindsided by it which is more hurtful too. Speaking of myself and what i did to an ex and what my current bfs ex did to him. Once a guy falls for a girl they don't get over it ever or it takes a really really long time :/
2205. Aja Pineda: josh you are amazing.think about the future not the past
2206. Grace Taylor: aww you poor thing we will always be here for you and i know what it feels like to got through dark times so just think of the people that are there for you and just continue with the internet we would be be happy to make you feel like your worth something
2207. Angel Stephens: I still love u and your videos 💋💜💗😘
2208. Gin Amber: This is exactly how I feel today and lately, I understand you. Stay strong.
2209. Hiatus Hangover: "You know what, I'm not sorry." Good, don't be sorry Josh. You owe nothing to us, only to yourself and to live your own life the way you need to, to be happy and fulfilled. The only thing you need to be, is you. I'm so glad you're getting professional help, I really hope it brings you into a better place. ❤️
2210. Courtney LaFreniere: Here God has opened the doors for you to truly heal and find yourself. I believe it will be a great testimony that will cause others to see the light in you and hunger for the same thing! This is only the beginning for you Josh!
2211. Daren Essen: What happened with him why is he depressed?
2212. Katie Marie: In 30 years, none of this will matter. You for sure will have helped a billion people in your vlogs. You will have amazing friends and family. You will get through this. It's completely normal to be upset. It's normal to be sad about this. It's going to be okay. It's ok to be sad, you are not weird or crazy. Stop beating yourself up because you are doing the best you can. If you skip a day of vlogging, it's okay. It's okay, you are normal and you aren't alone, josh. ❤️
2213. Janessa M: The internet can be such a shallow place so often. thank you for being real and honest and raw.
2214. Liz Lindain: stay strong josh!
2215. aide hernandez: Be strong josh but if u need to cry cry that will help to much and u need to talk about too it will help to😘
2216. Jasmine Middlemas: Depression isn't fun. I was diagnosed with manic depression two years ago. So I suffer from depression every day. And people kind of make it sound like you just need to get over it kind of deal. But, to hear that you went and got some help, is amazing to hear. So many people think there is always something wrong with them and not too many people want to get help because they're embarrassed. Getting help isn't a bad thing, and I am so proud of you. Keep your head up, Josh.
2217. Chelsea: I commend you. You are amazing. Don't be yourself up if you don't make a video everyday, that's a lot. We are all routing for you. We love you.
2218. Rebecca Carnahan: im SO glad to hear you are going to a therapist!!!
2219. bestgirlgab: Jacob Sed hahah lol
2220. Mama Box: Sending you love, hugs, and prayers. You don't always have to be strong, let Him be strong for you. There is nothing wrong with you, you just aren't like you used to be, or what you wanna be. Live in each moment to find yourself, find your happy. Don't look for love or happiness in other people; look within and to Him. And if all else fails you could always watch The Final Member for a good giggle. And thank you for this, it touched me and minded me I'm not "there" yet either. Keep doing you booboo
2221. •valerie•: LOEY OMG ur here ilysm❤💜😄
2222. KineticFetus: 5:35 I know exactly what you're saying, its a bitter pill to see someone write you off. With that said, and it might make me sound cold, but its time to get out there and try to get that time back. Keep your head up brother.
2223. Assmasher69: I'm rooting for you Josh!!!! We are all here for you!!!! I am hopeful and I am certain will be happy!!!
2224. Zoe: I hope you're okay. Haven't seen it all. I love you 💕
2225. YUMMY CUPCAKES: MAJOR HUGS!!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
2226. I will End You: Josh I suggest you drink me.
2227. V B: I completely understand where he's coming from but at the same time she doesn't owe anyone anything in the sense that she doesn't need to post sad videos to prove that she's sad. She seems happy b/c that's what she wants people to see even when they were together they both had said something along the lines that they would never post about their down times only their happy moments so she's obviously still doing that. He doesn't need to base his feelings or question himself of what he sees her doing that's what's going to keep him in this dark place. Easier said than done I know but you gotta move on quit focusing on her and her "happiness" and focus on yourself get yourself better. Eventually she's going to break a person can only hold in everything before they snap.
2228. Neda: ❤️💛💚💙💜
2229. Rosanne Rowse: (@ Ferris) ANOTHER THING one day I wanted to ride my mom's Morgan Horse, Dudley, I got a sturdy rope, put it around loose on his neck. Led him to the corral gate and mounted up on him. Then I wanted him to gallop, (BAD IDEA) because not 5 seconds he was in a full gallop I fell. My landing fall was on concrete & I fell FLAT ON MY BACK. (6 years old I could've been paralyzed) But God saved me. HE'S ONLY THERE FOR HIS CHILDREN when he knows were desperately in trouble. Otherwise he steps aside and LAYS OFF from us, to have US learn from our own mistakes. Everybody needs God's help everyday. But God IS NOT A SERVANT he only comes when he thinks it's appropriate. (A booboo scratch, Breaking things and getting into trouble with our parents, hitting an animal, hurting a person, Going To JAIL) These are life lessons that our Lord throws at us, in order to ENCOURAGE us to grow.
2230. Paul Small: Take care of yourself Joshua
2231. TAMMY R: +Liz Moreno I didn't see any haters. No negative comments? All very supportive.
2232. 2 Kawaii: We're here for you❤️
2233. Feemailgamer: So proud of you!You're so brave! We love you and We're here for you no matter what 😊 this video will help alot of people 💙❤️💜
2234. Hannah Meyer: The best piece of advice I got after getting out of an emotionally abusive relationship was that it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to get help. There is nothing wrong with you for feeling so down and feeling lost. You've taken the first step of admittance, and you're going to go uphill from here, Josh. It'll take time, and it'll be hard at times and sometimes you might have setbacks. But you can do it. So, at times when you start to beat yourself up or whatever, just tell yourself, "It's okay to not be okay." Thank you for being real, Josh. <3
2235. Kaya Andreas: It's okay not to be okay. It sounds lame but every rainbow needs a rainstorm y'know. People love you and even if it takes time you'll get to the state where you wake up and feel happy.
2236. Sheila Malakouti: josh.. sometimes we are more in love with people than they are with us. you have to move on from these people and things in life. distract yourself. think about YOU. when the storm passes you will see how everything fell into place the way it was supposed to and as corny as it sounds you will 100% find your rainbow in love, life, peace, and happiness. i promise you that
2237. Ella Egrin: Josh there is nothing wrong with u. U should never compare yourself to others. U are your own person and everyone heals differently. U are an amazing person and YouTuber and we are all here to support u. I've had depression for years now and I know it's hard but it does get better believe or not. U probably won't see this but if u do just know I support you and appreciate you a lot ❤️❤️❤️❤️
2238. Liz Carreira: Aww, Honey you just don't know how special you are! Obviously I don't know you, but from what I've seen you have a beautiful and kind heart. There's nothing wrong with you, we're all a little jaded. Everything will all be okay eventually. You just have to put one foot in front of the other, one day at a time. It doesn't matter how long it takes for you to get where you want to be, just that you do your best to get there. There will always be good days and bad days. Maybe the best thing for now would be to avoid and block "the other side of the coin" until you feel better. I know it's hard but I wish you the very best because that's what you deserve. Sending lots of love from Maine. <3
2239. Madison Chase: God I feel this Joshua. It'll get so much better, something will spark and it'll all be better. Everything happens for a reason❤️
2240. sommer loehr: Joshua... I am so proud of you. I have depression and anxiety and ADHD and I have gone through so much and I'm only thirteen. I am so glad that you decided to go to a therapist I did too and it was one of the best decisions I ever made. Joshua I take medication and I've never been happier. I think you should try a medication called Celexa. You are not alone. It will get better you just have to hold on. We are here for you even if she can't be.
2241. Kitty Cat: stay strong ❤️
2242. J K: Does anybody just want to reach through the camera and give him a big hug.
2243. It's Ted: i thought he was gonna say that he's gay
2244. magaliep34: screw the stigma about therapy. it really does help
2245. Kerry Rose: You are loved josh ❤️
2246. J McMillan: 💜💜💜
2247. bee: I dont watch your videos but this popped up in my recommended and i just wanna say that, you're alot stronger than you think. It might feel like you're lost but it just might be something you needed to go through to feel eternal happiness one day. You might just appreciate the struggle to eventually gain something more. I believe in you and i hope my one little comment in a sea of them sends a spark of positivity your way. You'll come out of this, and i'll be here to see that video where you reached the other side. See you then♥️
2248. steph32588: Josh... I'm telling you the ONLY way to get over this is to find a new girl. I'm sorry but that's the ONLY solution. Trust me. It will help you but it'll take a little bit to finally meet someone
2249. Tina Bahena: It's normal to want to isolate yourself. You are grieving & it's normal and human to think something is wrong with you but it's not. Please work through this fully with no short cuts or with out completely distracting yourself ,because otherwise it won't fully go away & it will come back. I'm really happy you found help & I wish the best for you. I really really appreciate this video for being real and uncut 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 love you 😘
2250. olivia: i'm so proud of you josh
2251. Sierra Wendt: "It's okay to not be okay". Sending love.
2252. Debbie Roach: Please don't keep apologizing. We are here for you!! I'm sorry you hurt so bad and pray you get better soon.
2253. Margot Lazarus: Thank you so much for your willingness to talk about something that's so hard but so relevant to so many people. You're bravery to talk about this makes me really admire you're strength
2254. Adrienne Turner: I totally understand what you're going though....my car just got broken into today and my purse stolen with all my credit cards and ID. And my family and friends are laughing and trying to make me feel better. Which I really appreciate. But with my personality I just want to lay in bed and process everything and cry and be alone.
2255. Casey Anna: Lol same
2256. Skye: I feel like the tears are always right behind the surface lately... I have so much to be thankful for. I don't understand the feeling of getting over things. It used to be easier to bounce back. Now, the way the world is, it's like the connections don't feel as real as they used to. The shame of some emotions is interesting, and the pop modern culture doesn't like to go there. Your video is really a river. I knew right now, I can't even look people I know in the eyes, I can't talk to people at the gym or anywhere. I can't connect, and yet I know I am not ready to give up. From so far away, your raw emotion feels like all the memories of best friends and loved ones, now gone or grown apart in time and space. Anyway, thank you..
2257. Courtney W.: Good luck on your journey to find happiness, Joshua. I'll be praying for ya. God bless
2258. Tiffany Martin: Basic Stuff Me too...
2259. Meeknhurz Live: This is something that people go through. like you said, this is a journey. You cant get better if you dont feel like this, this is what makes love amazing. Ive been there. It sucks becuase you can't really pull yourself away from her becuase she is everywhere now. But you will be able to move on eventually. Its not gonna be easy and its gonna hurt like hell. But you can do it Josh. We will be here waiting for you! :) That wont change.
2260. Da Moley: Babes. I have your back. Love you. Good on you for getting help. I hope you get the same from YouTube. Wish I could hug you. ❤️
2261. Louise Grew: I really want to give you a big hug! please don't feel tippy have to hide your emotions, tell us because we all want to get there for you! I'm proud of you Josh! xx
2262. Shaina Burke: You are such an inspiration.
2263. Bailey: Joshua I don't know if you will see this but your channel is you and if your depressed then you can post depressing stuff on your channel it doesn't always have to be happy if you get hate it's not your fault it's that person's fault for watching a video that they don't like and honestly you said your therapist is amazing and if someone's hating on you it's because you are like their therapist and you probably don't want to hear this but you are just like my dad because he just went through a divorce to someone he was married to for 5 years and dated for 10 and on top off that our dog just died
2264. Cierra Graper: Try Jesus 😊
2265. Kristen Jaymes: I don't know you, but i want to give you really biiiiig hug... hope you'll be happy again :-)
2266. TheSwanSite: How can somebody click the down button on this video when he's talking about his sadness and depression
2267. Liam Correia-Posteraro: I thought for sure he was gay
2268. Bex: Josh, you will get through this and sometimes heartbreak and hurt can be a blessing in disguise. I know it sounds like bullshit but its not. You are supposed to go through this and you will learn a lot from this experience and you will come out a better person. Everyone has this time during their life where they are super depressed and can't seem to shake it, whether it happens early in life or later, it will happen regardless. I'm glad you are getting help and we all want you to be genuinely happy again and you will be!!
2269. Rachel510126: Other side may appear to you as though it's all fun and good. The truth of matter is the other side is hurting as much as you are. You can't see it but it's there. Being with those you love while in the hardest time is the best way to heal, isolation or to hide emotion only hurts more. Don't be afraid to show emotion.
2270. Hailey McManus: I don't think you guys realize that the last thing that Josh wants is for you guys to bash the Ballingers. They are truly amazing people and sure, Josh has had a bumpy road with them. But, every since "The big thing" happened Josh has made it quite clear that the last thing he wants is hate toward that family. He truly loved them and I think that he truly still loves them. Spread happiness, and hopefully through that we can bring it to Joshua also.
2271. Elle's Bell's: We all here to support you in your journey. I totally get where you are coming from. Sending love and prayers from London.
2272. Amber Webster: rebeccajns man I need to hear this thank you.
2273. p m: Real is better Josh. Always. Always. xoxo Love this channel.
2274. Lindsey N.: There's nothing wrong with you or anyone else down here in the comments. I deal with anxiety and depression and one thing that helped me was realizing that it is ok to feel sad. I used to feel guilty (which made things worse) because I know that some people out there who have a lot worse that I do but I can't do that anymore. You're not defective. You're just dealing with life. That's not easy for anyone.
2275. Zoey Creppell: Hugsssss 😊
2276. Maureen Bolanos: Rebekah in the Bible had everything but one day she went to the Lord and cried out to him saying "If all is well then why do I feel like this?" Meaning if I have everything why do I feel bad. Sometimes when we have a lot of stuff out in the world we think we are okay. We forget our interior. We worry to much about the outside instead of the inside. You just need to forgive. Truly forgive the person who hurt you. And look for the love of God for He will be the only one who can give you what you truly need. I bless you brother. God bless and loves in your life.
2277. Hailey Statler: things will be ok <3
2278. Anahi Corral: Colleens a bitch
2279. Krod500: Josh only if you can speak to Shola Richards he is the most inspirational and motivating man I ever met. He has been in a dark place as you have and managed to come out of it. He is also a writer. I'm sure if you get a word with him he would change your whole like around. I hope the best for you and I will keep you in my prayers.
2280. Samara Herd: Thats so good I attend therapy and a psychiatrist. They help alot because sometimes we don't understand out depression
2281. LPS: The Wall: *LIKE THIS SO JOSH CAN SEE I NEVER SAY THAT BUT HE NEEDS TO READ THIS!* *Josh, you are the strongest man I've ever met. You've been through so much, but just know you are NOT alone. In my lifetime, I've been through 3 divorces. I hate that word just as much as you do. Just remember, things are happening for a reason. Things always happen for a reason. You will find your happy place. Just keep your head up and look for it. You might find it or it might come to you, but happiness is out there for you, I love you, we all do❤️*
2282. Erin Curnutte: You took a great first step in finding a therapist, Josh. I've been in therapy pretty much continuously over the last like 6 years. Life is so hard. And I can't imagine how you're feeling. You were with an actress. A hardcore professional actress who has an entire false entity to herself. We don't know what's going on there, you don't know. All that happiness could be fake and we'll never know. I respect you so much more for being real. For talking about your emotions and struggles. You're real and I appreciate that. I think all of us do. I can relate so much more to your real world and would rather see real life than fake emotion. I want you to be happy, of course, but I want it to be genuine. To be what you've worked towards. Not that you've faked until you made. Stay strong Josh!
2283. Mayana: Good for you for starting therapy, man! I guarantee it really does help. I love the idea of a daily video, a commitment for your channel. You're doing fine.
2284. Amy Lie: You are broken, you will be fixe. you are gonna have the best because you clearly deserve the best. Please stay strong
2285. Hannah Brownlow: So sorry to see that you're going through this Josh, I know it can't be easy. After a break up I too went into a cloud of depression and I felt so isolated from the world and alone that it felt like I'd never get out of it... But with some help from friends and family and a lot of time, the biggest healer of all, I came through the other side and am a better stronger person for it. It was a part of my journey and it's a part of yours too and I hope you continue to take it day by day and find things that make you happy again ❤️💛💚💙💜
2286. katieisboredyay: Proud of you, Josh. It takes a lot of strength for someone to admit they need help and to actively seek it out.
2287. Selene Melgar: It hurts to see you still in this place but I'm happy for you that you're seeking help, from experience I can tell it really works, try to be aware of how much you put yourself down, that's a good way to try to change it. You can do this and don't worry about the views, do whatever you need to get better. I really really hope you get to the place you want to be cause you so deserve it, your heart is so beautiful.
2288. Becki Green: Why?
2289. grace rowan: Stay with ur friends and family and stay with the internet and they will protect you. I'm so sorry that u are hurting, there is nothing wrong with you.
2290. Andee Leigh: One of the reasons you feel down is because you are a good, sensitive, selfless person that cares about others. I know that I don't know "her" "personally", but it's pretty easy to see someone for who they really are after a few videos, and she's quite obviously a selfish person. She cares only about herself and her success. I can also guarantee that she's not as happy as she pretends to be on youtube. So don't be too hard on yourself. I'm not trying to bash anyone, I'm just saying what I've observed. I hope you feel better soon Josh. I know what it's like to be depressed and I don't wish that on anyone. Vitamin D does help though, so it's good you're outside! ;)
2291. vania c: We love you josh, praying for you!!
2292. Josiah Forman: ❤️
2293. Carmen Ortega: Josh, it's a tough time. Your eyes tell me you feel alone, you want to be happy, but won't let happiness come in. One day you will open your door to another lady. I have a strong feeling she will be a healer.
2294. Drew Worthington: Josh I love you I'm going through A LOT right now too I feel you and see that the world is hard but I love you and I always love to watch your videos when I'm sad or feeling like life is over I've been in a dark place. but no matter what people love you and it's OK if you take some days off from posting we get why you might not want to post people love you and your family you try and we love your videos please try to stay happy. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💗💗💗💗💗💗😍😍😍😙😙😙😙😙😙😘😘😘😘😘
2295. Makeup Without The Money: I've fought with depression for over ten years. I can't applaud you enough for seeking help because from what I've heard it's the only thing that helps. I hope your happiness comes back, I hope you heal.
2296. Loramend: Josh you have a very large community here and a family that loves you. You should definitely rely on all the people who want you to get better and to be yourself. This is YOUR life and it doesn't matter how the other part's life looks like. This is yours!
2297. Jacob Sed: James :D I hope so! :(
2298. Kristina Lynn: I wanna see how long everyone's been here? Comment below when you started watching Josh...... Been here since 2013
2299. One Frijol: Anybody else notice shadow pooping in the background at 2:37 😂😂😂😂
2300. Amanda Millevoi: ❤️
2301. Amy Jo: I WANT to be there for you, Josh. A lot of us are seriously wanting you to know that we're going to be there or wherever you need us to be. You've got a whole army of people and a lot of us don't have that. At least I don't. You have a place in my heart that nobody else will ever replace. The good, the bad, whatever!!!! Your feelings break my heart but it's life. It happens. You can deal with it the best way you can. Trying to find a good place back into life after what you've been through is hard as fuck. Let's just be honest with that. It's hard. As fuck. Judge the words all you want LOL. If you're ever in my little town in Indiana, you're more than welcome to come visit. And I'm sure you have more fans and even friends that feel the same. Don't feel terrible for being human, okay? It eventually happens to everyone :) Love you so much Josh!!!!!!
2302. Chase Doland: Don't beat your self up Josh❤ your gonna get through this
2303. Tammy’s Florida Treasure Quest: It gets better & you'll be happier than before!
2304. b.abypug: its never okay to just be okay.
2305. Madison Meyer: Theres nothing wrong with you or any of us were all unique and one of a kid and its ok to be sad but when your sad for to long you need help so its great that you got help
2306. Lazy Yogi: at least once a year I say I'll start a daily vlog. So I'm going to join your vlog challenge! (except once a week. ) let's go!
2307. Sofia Pap: recently I learned that life is really hard and sometimes gives big slaps and after it's extremely hard to recover.. a month ago I lost my uncle. he was really important to me and I feel like I lost a part of my heart.. so my advise to u is express your feelings and do things who make u happy. life is too short. if u read this I really hope it help u!
2308. Micaela Horton: talking is the best way to exercise ur depression in a good way. . I can't afford to get help or even the meds. . so I have had to really soul search. I had a perfect life up till I was 13 and then things took an abusive turn. and then the abuser died and I was blamed by everyone in the family and I was kicked out. at 17 was homeless and going to school. I droped out a starter to work as a dish waher full time. and doing drugs. and then I got married the year later .. and all that I swept under the rug caught up. . ok know whats its like to deeply think about ur life and ur death.. you have to soul search ... I'm just now at 26 and I'm still off meds . and now I work at soup kitchens and volunteer. its doesn't pay in money but I healing in a way I never felt before. . suddenly I don't feel worthless and used up. I feel bigger in this small world
2309. Emily Jansen: Try turning to the Lord, Josh! He wants to help you through all of this and wants you to be joyful again ❤️
2310. Ann K: Hey... Don't ever feel alone. I also believe I am depressed. I'm moving 6 hours early away from the only place I'm used to. I've finally made my closest friends, and I have a boyfriend. I love him, but when I leave, I don't think we will stay together. Everyday I go into this mood, where I can't seem to be happy. My heart aches everyday, and I'm dying inside as the days come closer to summer. I've tried everything to convince my parents not to move, but it's too late. I want to die. I want to cry while writing this. We're in this together, josh ❤️💗
2311. Frankie P: god your so gay to do this for internet money. if you need help u get help you dont talk into a camera and upload it for people to see when you dont know them.
2312. Gillian Steele: Please smile Josh...life throws you a lot of sh*t and sometimes it hurts you more than you think. I have had so many bumps in my life, illness, abusive relationships, sexual assault, death, depression, anxiety you name it! I'm here if you need me...yes I'm a total stranger and you have so many views so you won't see this...but cheer up life will work itself out. I do the same thing as you I close up and don't let anyone in --- I know your story and I'm here!
2313. Anne Marie P: I totally get you Joshua
2314. Gina Pagel: mental illness is so real and I really appreciate you using your platform to share your story. documenting your journey sounds amazing but take time for yourself too to heal. healing isn't a linear process; sometimes you hit a downfall when you least expect it. it's gonna be okay, just make sure you put yourself first. seeking help was so courageous of you as well. we are here for you, take care💕
2315. ms desiree: stay strong
2316. beliebernewton: I look forward to these new videos, it's time a youtuber gets real and sits down and talks or documents their journey to a healthier mental state!! I'm already inspired to take more care of my mental health!❤️❤️
2317. kwoodmansee: Being brave enough to actually get help is so hard and I applaud you for it. Therapy is a lot of work, but you can get so much out of it if you put the work in. Good luck!
2318. Kathi Cipriano: Always....one day at a time.
2319. Emily Zehm: Good for you Josh - we are all here for you and I think sharing this experience publicly is brave.
2320. Chloe Celeste: First💞🌺
2321. Kasey Nicole: Silent subscriber usually but had to say I love you ❤️
2322. Lilleybugglane: Joshua... I am not subscribed to you... but I can give you this little tidbit of "wisdom"... just because "things" may LOOK "happy" on the otherside... doesn't mean they are.. remember... things are NOT ALWAYS what they appear to be... I wish you the best... do you.. the best way you know how...
2323. Chris'Creatives: Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.. tears don't mean you're loosing.. :)
2324. Brianna Osborn: ❤it's going to be ok❤
2325. Lucile Marlorme: stay strong buddy, I've been there and you are right, let go the guilt and the shame. Things are what they are right now, but it won't always be the case. Do what you can everyday, small or big things, embrasse them like a victory every time, and the brain energy to feel better will grow back. Seeing someone for that is also great. Carry on! We're with you, and come visit me in France one day!
2326. Courtney Bridges: My hearts with you. I know it's hard cause fans can't really know a person, but I do genuinely care. I like to check up on your vlogs and I hurt when you hurt. I have grown up wth many divorces In my life so I know how intense and painful this all is. I know when you put away the camera sometimes you just pause and have that sad feeling that's hard to get up from. But you showing your heart never makes me sad. Just being there for you in the way where I check up on you makes me happy, I know you'll overcome this. You'll find it
2327. Karisa Ann: love you Josh...."one life, better live it"
2328. Margaret Stone: since what?
2329. Lewie Bowyer: Always here for you.
2330. Inthelifeof Marshmeadow: It's okay Joshua your supporters will help you get though it won't we
2331. Shellouise: There's thousands of comments but I needed to say this. Your depression is not you, it's not your fault. It sounds cheesy but it gets better. You will feel better in time and it's okay to get worse before you get better. Keep on keeping on Josh, we're all backing you. xx
2332. akaBrit: Therapy does not equal Jesus
2333. Victoria Cruz: Super proud
2334. Alexandria Taylor: I'm in the exact same place as you. In every single way. When everything happened with you two I felt so bad. Little did I know just a few short months later I would be going through almost the same thing, only I was engaged and not yet married. But the feelings are the same and I know I'm depressed but like you, I'm to gonna sit here and say I'm clinically depressed, but its there. Thanks fro showing everyone how you're feeling, even after all these months, and showing everyone it's normal and okay.
2335. LettuceLove: nothings wrong with you!!!! it totally normal! my ex dumped me the hard way and i still hurt after many years. it damaged me very hard and this damage wont go away ever. im a mom now, with a partner and im happy, but this will alway be part of me and what i learned out of it and whats left of it biting my soul still sometimes......work on it and embrace the sorrow, hate, ....it will stay but it will get better living with it.
2336. Lazy_ Sylvia: .....josh i only a a dad my mom is.....Well she doesn't live with us now its going to be on 28 this month on my birthday
2337. Allison Frizzell: Josh , u have always pulled me out of everyday life , I watch old videos and realize how far u have gotten in life and hope someday I can too. ILYSM. Stay strong and remember we're all here for u. You can try to encourage people but if your not encouraging yourself what's the point. Encourage yourself to do things and not be sorry for the past, be excited for the future and be happy in the present.
2338. Jeff Porter: I have had depression and anxiety for over 20 years. As true depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, there is no reason to ever be ashamed or embarrassed of it because you cannot control it! In the short term I recommend reading "Notes From a Friend" by Anthony Robbins. It's an easy read and encourages you to focus on the basics of life. I occasionally have picked this book up as needed over the years. Also, what has helped me tremendously is that I have taken Wellbutrin every day for over 20 years and on the rare occasion, when needed a Xanax. People can say all day long 'drugs are not the answer', and I agree, they are not for everyone. However, regardless of everyone else I truly believe they have saved my life. Plenty of people in the past were labeled clinically insane because at that time the medications that could otherwise allow them to live a 'normal', productive life did not exist. If you can beat anxiety and/or depression without medication, that is the way to go. You must use the method(s) that provide the most relief for you. Also what helps me is my belief that nearly every single thing that is bothering me today...will be of NO concern in a month, or six months, or certainly a year from now. Continuously reminding myself of the longevity of life, helps to put any challenge I may have today into perspective.
2339. jj girl: I think you need to find new love. love heals all and you deserve so much love!!!
2340. SK Live: First time watching. Need to know you better to help. I'm depressed bc I'm living in a place where everyone is fake and money hungry. I live in Woodstock Ga. And, that's why I only have one friend, and I'm divorced. People here only want to talk to you if you have money or something they want. Raleigh NC is the only place I've been where people are actually friendly and nice. Met my first real girlfriend there. Lost my virginity there. Had about 10 friends, also. I hate Georgia. Snobville.
2341. JCR: Becki Green ok if that's what you think then fine! i respect it, but i'm just expressing my thought and i don't care what other people think or react :)
2342. kie antoine: I love you so much. You're in my prayers always, stay strong. ❤️
2343. nOrMaL pLaNt: you look like Ryan Reynolds tho
2344. Anna Swift: I love you Josh ❤️ I'm glad that you're getting the help now that you need, I hope all turns out well! Listening to how you're feeling about this whole thing... I really really felt a connection. That's almost exactly what I've been going through, all of the same emotions and pain and thinking I'm not good enough. I thought I was alone with these feelings but you showed me that I'm not alone, so thank you. And know that you're not alone either!! You have so so so many people who love you dearly ❤️💕
2345. Emily Rose: this is amazing, its not easy to speak out about mental health and its amazing to see this is very brave!
2346. Fran Billington: Seriously thought he was gonna say he was gay (no judgements) but to hear he's been 'down' it's just shit😞I hope he finds a way to find light in life again and fight this shitty time at the moment.love you man
2347. Allie Wilk: omg every comment doesnt need to be about jesus. stop talking about god and jesus. he wont fix everything. let josh help himself and stop saying god is going to fix everything. you dont need to bring religion into everything.
2348. Mallory Schroeder: Josh, some of us are better at swallowing or hiding how we really feel. That's not necessarily a healthy way to be. I'm sure the other side of the coin is pushing a lot of pain away. You go through your pain! Feel the hurt. Heal heal heal. The grass is NOT greener I promise you.
2349. Sakshi Khanolkar: I wish I could get back together to bring the cutest couple on the planet 💔💔💔💔😭😭😭
2350. winter brooks: Rizaldi Rachman me too😢
2351. Bumble Bee: Shadow can sense that you're upset...that's why he keeps trying to play with you.
2352. RosieRose: praying for you in your hard time sometimes we strugle sometimes we feel like we have failed but it's okay to talk and feel like that life has it's ups and downs but part of the healing processes is too talk we are all hear for you 🙂
2353. Rr Anonymous: I love you for this honestly
2354. Hope Anderson: You have such a huge heart❤
2355. mindyk smith: I feel like you were me making this video ❤ Stay strong (that's for me and for you).
2356. princejonas punzalan: josh go to our country hihi meet my family and you dont need to go to specialist =)
2357. Jessie Rindos: love you so much 💘
2358. WolfProductions: Joshua I don't have any words but thank you.
2359. Hannah B: How about making a video about what really happened between you two? Just an honest video.P.s. You can show what you truly feel, do not be embarrassed. There are way too many people on utube that only show the good part of things,, never the struggles
2360. Anna N: Joshua... NO ONE can take this kind of pain alone! It is devastating. There is one person though. And that is Jesus Christ. Stop trying to carry this all on your own! God it right here for you ready to take away all this sadness and pain! He loves you so much.
2361. samo530: your viewers love you, I love you and above all God loves you. You have an amazing heart and are a good person. One of the major reasons I started watching you was because you are real and you share yourself with us, good or bad. I was watching a video the other day of one of my favorite songs and the woman singing it said that her mother always told her " let people see the cracks in your armor. That's how the light gets out." Sharing your struggles and victories can heal a soul faster than any medicine sometimes. For the person listening or even the person sharing. I wish I could give you a great big hug and make everything ok for you. <3 You are an awesome person.^^
2362. Haylie 59: I hate to say this, Josh, and I mean it in the best way. She just wasn't the one for you. I know you think she was and I know it hurts, but it's not your fault. It's not her fault. It just didn't work out and that's okay. One day you'll be okay. Maybe not now, maybe not for a few years, but one day, it'll get better. I promise. And we'll all be there to support you until you're okay and even after that. We all love you❤️
2363. donteven getmestarted: I don't comment on stuff much, but I feel like you need to know that everything will be okay. I know what you're going through, I've been there, I'm still there. But don't bury your head in the sand, take time and heal yourself. Someone once told me that depression is like a broken bone you need to rest it and let it heal. Everything will be okay. Sending love 💕
2364. onholiday123456: Its so cliche, but time really does heal all wounds. It really sucks, but taking that first step to accept that you need help and going to the therapist is so great. Stick with it and you will slowly start to feel things getting better. It might not be noticeable at first, but all of a sudden you will look back and notice you're a completely different person than you were just a few months ago. Hang in there, you're heading in the right direction❤️.
2365. EL-Hassan Mohamed: I am actually muslim man when i was depressed i prayed to God on the muslim way and reading Quran and Dua do this same way but on your Religion go back to God of course He Will hlep you
2366. Melody Flores: Hi Josh , i am new to your channel and i think my son might be your age . But i did want to say that i know u are hurting and i am so sorry u are ! But as a person who has gone through depression before and i get it it i do , it is so hard and tough thing to deal with . One minute u can deal and the next u can' t and one min u are crying and next angry and hurt and sad and ok and more . PLEASE PLEASE Don't be Embarrassed , this is nothing to be embarrassed about and u can't help it and tons of ppl go through this too ! I went and found a mental health clinic and i asked for help and to see a counselor , they also had me see a dr there that can prescribe me meds that same day as it can take up to longer to see one . And was THE BEST thing i ever did . I have not dealt with it for few yrs now and i also was taught coping skills for when i have tough n stressful days . You are not alone !!!! I hope u decide to see someone cus i hate to say this it is a vicious cycle and it doesn't stop just being real with u . We all need help when we can't do it . God Bless u sweety
2367. kpopster: Lot of "first" comments here. Uhmmm. Is everything a competition?
2368. Nichole Figueroa: I can't wait for future Josh to get to look back at this time and know he made it through. Keeping moving forward Josh. There WILL come a day when you wake up and no longer have any of the crap on your mind anymore. It will happen. It does get better and you will feel thankful for this time of growth.
2369. Christy Vineis: I recently went through a period of losing a lot of people in my life. I always looked for a reason why I couldn't get over it, but it bled into all areas of my life and it kind of triggered a new chapter and a new me, and I hated it. It only made me want to find an answer to it all, and that made me feel helpless. I'm only recently realizing that for me, it was only time. Maybe therapy would've worked, but the mind is so complex I really couldn't find a way to stop thinking about it. In turn, I think really filling my time with hobbies served as a good distracter. They made me feel productive and like a new me in a GOOD way. It helped with my confidence, which had waned drastically. Obviously nothing works for everyone, but I think we're similar so who knows. Just remember the optimistic, uplifted lifestyle you had maintained for so long, and remind yourself that that is you, not this.
2370. Sarah Halasz: I'm so happy that you are getting outside help, there's nothing wrong with that! Life will get better even though it is so dark now! Your dingleberries are here for you and always will be! Hang in there! ♥️💗
2371. QURSITA: TM Well we live in a real world where there are situations when there is no fun and positivity. Josh is taking a journey to heal. Guess what, there are many people who go through divorces and he's documenting his experience to help others. I prefer a real youtuber like Josh than someone who fakes being happy with the disgusting notion that she wants to only spread happiness. She's being fake on camera and I can't tolerate that.
2372. Sara Lovegood: There's nothing wrong with you. It's going to be ok - this too, shall pass. Might be worthwhile seeing a psychiatrist to see if medical intervention is an option - don't shunt it, sometimes that shit works.
2373. littlediddles10: You can do it darling. if I can recover you can. x
2374. Last First: You are so hard on yourself but the good part of it is your ability to give it a voice. Keep talking about it! I can't give expression to my emotional pain. It is more healthy your way. You are a wonderful person, life changing moments are ahead. The right girl for you is waiting for you! Hang in there. So much is ahead! ❤️
2375. Cassi Ann: I went through a break up 2 years ago. I was with the man for 4 years and found out he had another girlfriend for a year and had gotten her pregnant. I am so sorry that you are in a position where you have to watch the other person move on. I still struggle. I hope you can heal and I can heal along with you.
2376. Rachel Remy: Sending my prayers. You'll be fine. Trust God <3
2377. SWENGALIS: I love you <3 you will be okay <3
2378. Reemahi JS: That's ok.. It takes time. Just know that you're loved and we're here for you just like u've always been there for us! I miss your vlogs with their ups and downs. This might be a turning point for u, but we're riding along on this journey with u to see u doing better ❤️. *virtual hugs coming your way 🐥🐥🐥*
2379. Victoria’s Secrets: you're not a downer, i believe in you. i love you. i agree the other side is numb and happy and i am the you in any situation. i question myself always, the same way. i've been out of a relationship for 3 years and still broken about it. i understand and i'm with you. xo
2380. Brianna Preciado: We love you..Things will get better eventually, all it takes is time
2381. PCY BBH: you should try meditating every day. 10-15 mins once a day in the AM to give you a good start to your day. with consistency you will feel so much better.
2382. eqine dreamer: I,know the feeling
2383. Sidney Huffman: I'm going through the same thing so I understand your pain. I have my ups and downs of feeling great and then I feel like I'm going to die without them in my life. But everything happens for a reason. You have to remember that. You may not see it now, but her leaving could lead you to someone who will love you so much more than you could ever imagine. You will get through this. You will find someone who won't give up on you. You probably won't even see this, but it's nice knowing I'm not the only one feeling the way that I am. And maybe now you won't feel alone either. Time heals all wounds. Just try to not blame yourself for how things happened because you were not the problem. She was. Keep yourself distracted and try to do things that make you happy. And remember that it's okay to cry and be sad, angry, however you feel. She was a huge part of your life and it's going to take time. But she doesn't deserve you and that's just facts. But you WILL find someone who does and you WILL be loved more than she ever could love you. Everything will be okay. You're not alone. Always remember that you're strong and you are loved :)
2384. Bridget Paul: You haven't had time to grieve and that might be at the bottom of your emotions right now. Much love and prayers for your happiness.
2385. Wing On Tse: I am from Hong Kong, English is my second language. I just want to say, one step as a time and a little by little. Try to do one thing that you feel happy for yourself everyday. Support you!! Wing
2386. Emma Eakins: I admire your courage, Josh. Not only to just be honest with all your fans, but also to admit that you just need help because you realize you can't do it on your own. Love you <3
2387. Melissa Swartzfager: would love to just hang out, grab a beer, sit on the beach and jam out...freestyle :) I truly think you're amazing....keep on keeping on and if you ever make your way to Destin, FL give me a ring..or message :)
2388. Ashley Laura: You did the right thing by talking with someone and talking with others. Sometimes shame is what keeps us from telling others about our feelings, for fear of what they'll think or how we'll feel afterwards based on their responses and you're right, it will consume you. We're not designed to hold things in, we're human, and we're created to help each other. The majority of people will struggle with some sort of mental health issue at some point in their life, diagnosed or undiagnosed. Something great will come out of this experience, just keep the faith! I would encourage you to use prayer (if you don't already), and just listen. The spirit of truth will speak and tell you what you need to know. Most of the time God will just say "trust me" or "be patient." Don't get lost in your thoughts, especially if you can't control the situation. I never comment on people's videos but felt the need to do this!
2389. Chloe Satasha Ranee: Joshua I know youre going through a hard time and I know it's hard I've been through similar if u need to talk to someone to talk to that's been through something similar just hit me up man I'm always here
2390. KanD Cats: there's nothing wrong with you, you are sincerely you. sometimes it hurts to find yourself & find your own identity without the other side of the coin. have faith in yourself, you're getting to know yourself so you know who you are in the rest of you journey of life, so you can be the man you deserve & the woman in your future deserves. everything will be OK one day. have patience & faith. We believe in you! xx Dutch KanD Cats! (ps we tend to cheer people up with our crazyness, if you ever feel the need, feel free) have a wonderful week & enjoy the little things in life😻💐💟
2391. Lou isa: I hope the best for you! You're such an amazing guy!
2392. Sydney Bishop: Thank you for sharing this.
2393. Sheryl: wow this was uploaded on my bday and totally been feeling the saame way tho! you're not alone :(
2394. FBSaaagfnzsdjg Bkssfvcdfgv: carol paula did not done. And she divorced him because the marriage wasn't happy. She didn't want to stay married in an unhappy relationship. Learn to grow up. She's not a bitch if anybody here is it's you.
2395. Jazlyn Pineda: You are going to make it through this!! Don't be depressed, it won't get you anywhere . You're life is worth so much more and this is Just an obstacle that God has put in front of you. You CAN overcome it you just have to not back down! Nothing in this life was made to be easy but it doesn't mean it's impossible! What you are going through it is possible to overcome! Just be strong! There's nothing wrong with you! We all understand what you are going through, we love you josh! Do at least ONE thing everyday that makes you happy, it takes a while but it gets better! I love you!!! 💕
2396. Hanane Anne: love you Joshua and you will be okey and you will find someone batter the one who you are meant to be with keep strong take care od your mantel health and your life because she chooses to be happy without you and so you have too so be around your family and friends and why not try to meat new people Im sending much love and support
2397. Antonella Merucci Walshe: Josh, I've always loved your vlogs. I'm glad you are seeing a therapist. Life is for living, live for the moment. You are great.
2398. Jennifer Lease: It's so sad to see you so upset, you will find your way back to happiness in time and believe me I know it sucks. I love the thought of you vlogging again I miss that! Keep your head up I'm praying for you ilysm😍😍
2399. Samantha Porter: You are so loved ❤️
2400. Sophia Betesh: What are you having a therapist about
2401. DevilDoll06: stay strong. take your time. stop being so hard on yourself. we love you no matter what.
2402. BevLovely: You looked forward to the marriage for a long time. But right after the honeymoon she left town for her work. She never really gave the marriage a chance. She wasn't there for you physically or emotionally. She likes her gay. If you could find a good worship group for singles, it could help you. Depression is lack of God. Do something good for yourself everyday. Center yourself. Meditate. Explore new things. Maybe travel with the you tubers who travel. The counseling will help you feel better quickly also.
2403. Kimberly Balgoa: i havent watched him for a while, i guess since his divorce but he gained some weight alright
2404. Sheri: your really cute i love your eyes and im in the same boat i wont babble on take care
2405. Katie Hambrick: I understand Colleen's reasons for hurting him, but I still don't think he deserved to be left with such a whole in his life. But I know you're strong enough to go back up, Josh. Keep going, buddy.
2406. cameothecat322: I love how you're able to be true to yourself and admit your problems. It's okay to feel depressed. Everyone gets depressed.. some more severe than others. I get really bad anxiety, especially when people are intentionally attacking me personally and making me out to be the bad person (when in fact, the person that is "bad" is the attacker). I constantly feel like a victim in life, in general, even though most of it happens at work from the same person -- someone who should know better not to treat people half their age and become absolutely in denile of their actions and words and have full belief they are the better person because they aren't the ones being victimized and crying about it. I am also really sensitive and have low self esteem. I look to care for others before myself.. which could be partially why I'm the one who always ends up getting hurt or feeling bad about myself. Whatever the reason you are depressed, it's okay. Do what you can to pull yourself out. I miss the happy-go-good videos you used to put out. It's okay to take time off from making videos, too. Do what it is that makes you feel more happy with who you are. Whatever it is that helps you feel more comfortable.
2407. Cheyann Sprenger: Showing this kind of realness is so important right now! We all love you so much and regardless of how this changes you, we will still be here.
2408. Lauren Nicole: you're so so so important and you deserve ALL of the happiness in the world. i mean it when i say that. you're such an amazing guy, the most amazing guy i have ever met in my entire life and it just kills me to see you down and upset, because you don't deserve it:( you deserve to be happy and i know you'll get there, you're a strong guy, i know you are. healing takes time but you'll get there, i promise. i won't be leaving your side ever, i love you so so so so much. please never forget that you truly are loved and admired.
2409. bison 88: i've never seen u in real life but somehow i feel for you and i wish if if i could do anything to help u feel better you are only human and what are u feeling u r intiteld completely to those feeling and take the time to heal and we here for the long run the good stuff and bad and even the normal u made us happy countless time and it's only fair that we stay around with u . you are not alone .. your mind and heart will mend just focus on you getting better for you don't worry about anything else GOD BLESS YOU
2410. Colleen Ochs: Just out of curiosity, have you tried talking to her at all since it happened? Maybe she would open up.. I think it's hard for her, but doesn't want to admit it
2411. Maggie Mae: sebastard429 hey, thanks. that's some really sound advice. I had no idea.
2412. Mayra Rios: I think therapy is a great choice. Don't ever be embarrassed by that.
2413. Annika Davidson: Josh we all love you and we will always be here for you. You will be okay. Do the little things that make you happy. Us as fans are going to be able to be there every step of the way. We love you to pieces no matter what ever happens. Josh don't be sorry please don't. Smile, Smile, smile, smile. it will help. Remember you are worth it :))
2414. Tee Kay: The fact that you can realise that you avoid and hide away when you're depressed is HUUUUGGGE!! I get the same way, but I believe that it takes recognising and understanding that you do that, to be able to change it. As Dr. Phil says: "You can't change what you don't acknowledge!" (Sorry it's lame, but so true!) I wish you nothing but love and happiness for the future. You just gained a new subscriber! Thank you for being so raw and honest about something that is very hard to talk about x💗
2415. Charlie Wright: People are so dumb. You see 5 minutes of Josh and Colleen's lives and you think you know everything about them lol its comical. The divorce happened for a good reason. Move on
2416. Chips and avacodos: it will be OK and just keep going on things will get better your therapist will help
2417. Kaley Price: Hope Anderson yes I love this!!! So true!!!❤❤❤
2418. ultrmrn: He needs to fall in love
2419. Municho: You should watch Kati Morton videos :) they are really helpful :)
2420. 2Bdiscovered: HAS SHE COME OUT OF THE CLOSET YET? OR SHE STILL POSING AS "STRAIGHT"?
2421. Luvi Rosales: I believe that whatever makes him feel better he should do it. Everyone copes in different ways!
2422. K Os: Thank you for sharing this side of you with us. I feel like this is one of the most genuine and honest videos I've seen on YT about depression in a long time. Depression shouldn't be something to be embarrassed about, yet I find myself keeping it to myself as well. My brother passed away to suicide in 2012 and it's something I think about at least once a day. I don't want to fall into that dark place either, but I'm like you and can't do it on my own. Thank you for posting this. I hope the therapy sessions continue to give you strength and hope that things will improve.
2423. Laura: Hugs, Josh. Hoping you find happiness soon! You deserve it!
2424. mrsvxn: Good on you, for putting yourself out there and being honest about your feelings. I went through a similar situation and every feeling you are expressing, the ups and downs I've experienced. Take the time you need. Each day will get better continue down your path, life has many more cool surprises in store for you 😉
2425. Killtheclown D: He is gay?
2426. Kimberly Bibeau: It takes a lot of strength to recognize when you need help. You explained the same cycle of trying to feel better that I felt when I recognized I was struggling with depression. You are NOT alone and you WILL get back to the good times. I believe that. There's NOTHING wrong with you. Hang in there, you are strong for living through this.
2427. Sarah Di Mascio: Definitely! That kind of love is out there and it's okay to want it! <3
2428. Mary Kathryn Rodgers: This video made me respect you as a human so much. It made me realize why I'm subscribed to you. Thanks for being authentic. 👍🏼
2429. Erin Elisabeth: Nothing is wrong with you. Depression is a sickness, and no one blames you for being sick. It's a process with finding out how you cope. I just worry that doing videos everyday will end up draining you so I hope you pace yourself. Just don't make depression sound like some horrible thing. A lot of your followers and myself have it, but it's nothing to be embarrass you. Things change.
2430. Cindy Cardenas: Josh, although I may not know you personally I'm very proud of you. It's super brave of you to realize that you are not okay and seek help. There are many people who need help but are in denial or ashamed of how they feel. We are human, we have emotions some show and express it more than others. But I hope to see you happy again, it will happen in due time. You are right, we all only get one shot at life, and well if you do it right, one is all you need. ❤️
2431. Poppy O: Amanda Banana I'm hoping they are just sad for him.
2432. Kaitlyn Stowe: Josh, you're one of the strongest people I know. You're getting through this a way I personally wouldn't be motivated to do. Don't hide your feelings bc you're worried about what people will think. We wanna know what you're thinking. You're an amazing strong person, keep going Josh you're doing great ❤
2433. abby marks: I'm so proud of you! I love therapy so much and I wish there wasn't such a stigma around it!
2434. Matt: whens he gonna admit hes gay lmao
2435. Kendra Smith: Keep your head up
2436. Erin Nash: stay strong Josh!
2437. carol paula: I'd love for you to start dating again cos u need to feel happy again and do things that are fun
2438. Maggie Fulmer: <3
2439. Emily Robertson: *in person dangflabbit
2440. Sidney: Love you Josh.
2441. Joshua Milton: You need God in your life josh.
2442. GNC: I understand. Nothing is wrong with you. Just think and look forward to finding the person that will make you happy again. Now you know that you got something bad out of the way and you are closer to finding the one that you're truly meant to be with. I think making videos everyday is a great idea! Hopefully it will get your mind distracted from all the negative and bring you happiness. :) Keep your head up! Life is only going to get better, you're just getting started!
2443. Dee God ιѕ мy everyтнιng: You have always been here for me threw my depression. I will always return the favor & be here threw out your's. Never lose faith in God. And positivity. But I know it's hard to do sometimes. I think it will help you to release your feelings to you tube. I will be here every step of the way and be praying for you. You are too gorgeous to be depressed. You deserve better than what you got. Much love. 👏💪♥️Ѕтay ѕтrong never gιve υp.
2444. Brooks2beautyxo XoXo: first youll be ok i know its hard ♡♡♡♡ we are here for you
2445. Brian McConkey: Good luck man, I know what you are going through, its been 14 years since my ex left and took my kids, who have over the years decided to shun me, my old friends have gone away too. So I have been alone for many years. I cried myself to sleep for the first 3.5 years, now I only get a crying fit about once a year, so my advice is that you just have to be yourself, your new self, whatever that is.
2446. Ellie Clennon: i love you so much josh
2447. danielleee20: This absolutely broke my heart. Depression takes away so much. But there are bright days and it wont be like this forever and thats just something we need to keep telling ourselves. I cant begin to imagine how you must feel / have felt with everything that has gne on and to very easily and often see the other side where everything seems wonderful. Keep youre head up and remember to focus on the bright spots in your life!
2448. Brittany McGowan: We're super proud of you, and we're going to stick with you on this journey no matter what. I just got out of an emotionally abusive relationship, so I'm healing alongside you.
2449. hailey irwin: I love you so much Joshua! I can't wait to follow along on this journey with you! stay strong, and know I'll always love you! can't wait to see this channel grow and evolve!❤️
2450. Stephanie Z: In regards to the other side seems to be doing great, remember that not everything is as it seems...
2451. Kami Apatiki: I love you so much josh 💙💜 no matter how you are we are here for you we love you and we always will 💗💙
2452. Marita Thomas: I could not agree more with you on this!
2453. Linley Himes: Me and my therapist are so close, she is the person I text and call the most during the day. She and I cook dinner every Thursday night at her house and just hang out. I'm so glad to hear that therapy is helping.
2454. CyndyKated: being depressed is not a easy thing to explain...but know its not permanent...and you will feel better in time...i wish u the best!
2455. Georgia Kate: Josh it's going to be ok eventually it may not be in the next hour or tomorrow but eventually. If you need to take a break from YouTube feel free to do that and don't feel pressured by people and try to spend more time with your friends and family and definitely take advice from people if it helps especially your therapist and if u need to take some medicine for your depression do that but don't overload it because that's not okay and try to get help and it's ok to separate yourself sometimes if it's good for you and if you don't want to put yourself out there on the internet that's okay. And don't feel pressured to talk about your feelings to millions of people. But I want you to know that we are all rooting for you. And we know that eventually it will be ok and the "other side" isn't all giddy and happy. But try your hardest to not think about stuff like this. But I know it's hard. And do what makes YOU happy and don't worry about other people sometimes. Just take it easy Josh. Anyways we're all here for you❤️ Also Josh be nice to YOURSELF❤️☀️ it's ok to feel depressed and don't be afraid of it or to share it. It happens to just about everyone. Including me so it's ok. Also do what you need to do and try to feel happy☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️ We all love you Josh❤️ like this comment for josh and to help him be happy please👍🏼
2456. JJGamer 348: Hi Joshua I know what it feels to be hurt I lost my 63 year old Uncle Ricky and my 1 year old kitten Max can I please get o 25 subs for them
2457. Theodora Paz: you CAN do this Joshua, you are not alone <3
2458. SharonP64: Good for you Josh. I have battled depression and anxiety for 25 years. You reached out for help and that took courage. Sending you love and peace ❤️🌻
2459. nate d: jesus
2460. Stephen: He's gay??
2461. redhatgnome: It's ok to be ok. It's even ok to be clinically depression or bi polar.. it's scary but it's ok. We support you. Take a break if you want or need. Sending love.
2462. Helene S: +PsychoSoprano
2463. JC: this is the first time I saw your vid and I going through the same thing and its real. Its hard God Bless WE will get better.
2464. Anna French: Josh, I so admire you for this. It would be so easy to just fake being cheerful and put a polished, "perfect" version of yourself out there, but it takes so much more courage to be truthful and transparent to the public. This is admirable and mature and truly beautiful. Remember, be nice to yourself first. You deserve it. Not being okay is okay. We've got your back. Stay strong and keep being honest, it's refreshing for everybody watching. Love you 💪🏼❤
2465. kidof89: With you to the end josh!
2466. Destiny Smith: I love your personality and loving attitude so much. You are NOT alone, there is NOTHING wrong with you. You can pull through anything, because you are strong and awesome, and we all know this. We believe in you! ❤ glad you're reaching out for help
2467. E Belle: stay strong Josh. i love you so much. you inspire me everyday, but sometimes life is hard. i want you to feel better because i hate when your so upset. your message to young people all over the internet is outstanding. be yourself
2468. MsToccora: 💛
2469. Ellie McHale: You can admit to being clinically depressed. There is absolutely nothing wrong in doing so.
2470. Quin_s12: i've been on meds n in and out of therapy since i was a kid. n i still spend the afternoons crying in bed. nothing to b ashamed about n it's good to talk it out and one day the good will out weight the bad just take one day at a time. xo
2471. Goober tuber: Josh dont be afraid to talk to your closest friends, none of them will see it as a burden and will be happy to help however they can. Just talking and getting other peoples perspectives on things can really help you. I have been through the same thing and my mother passed away during it, it was hell but you can come through the other side and get on with your life. What I will tell you is you will never 100% be healed or "over it" but what you will learn to do with time is carry the emotional scars and get on with your life to the point it no longer affects you. Takes balls to post something like this on the internet so props to you my good man, hope everything works out for you buddy.
2472. Livvie Liv: Accept that you're feeling down because it's ok. It's ok to not be ok. I think a lot of people would benefit from seeing a therapist. I saw one and it helped 110% best decision I ever made. You'll get through this. It takes time. You will feel like yourself again one day.. virtual hugs to you.. ❤️
2473. Erica: It's strange, I'm almost going through the same thing.Not exactly though. Friends would tell me how much I've helped them just with my advice and kind words, but now that I'm in a funk I feel guilt-stricken that I can't be there to help them out 24/7. Wish there was something I could say to help, but sometimes time to yourself is a good thing. It can be healthy until it's not. Like when you stop taking care of yourself. And seeing a therapist is a good thing! It shows strength and courage to let your vulnerability stick out like a sore thumb. You'll get better, I promise!
2474. Molly Mae: I love you beyond words Joshua, you are incredible. I'm so proud of you
2475. Sydney Selin: <3 <3 <3
2476. Amber: im so proud of you Josh! I so relate to what your saying you've been experiencing and where you are at, mentally. I actually just sought out a therapist for myself, which was a huge step. but I came to the same place.....just couldn't keep living like this, just wanted to feel sincerely happy again. not have such highs and lows, mostly lows....the highs were very short lived. and I get it, it's so hard to like reach out and say I need to help. like I know for me it feels weird, feels weird to be the one sitting on a couch telling all my issues to someone. but I look at my life and what I have been through and I can see how I've come to a place where I need help. sometimes we are strong for so long and then it years later it hits ya. and it may not be that you've had a hard life, buy ya know divorce is never an easy thing to go through. so give that to yourself....allow yourself to say "you know what I went through this and it was really really hard for me". and like it doesnt matter if someone else had it harder than you did, we all are different and we all respond to life, what happens to us, differently and there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with that. I feel like I'm right along with you on this journey to self healing. the biggest thing that I've realized so far is how hard I am on myself....and I feel like you understand that!! so I'm working on learning to give my self the love and kindness I so freely give to others.....just like your motto says "be nice to people" I think we need to both try to apply that to ourselves! keep on on this good path your starting down......it won't be easy but I believe that it will definitely be worth it!! ♥
2477. Pammi ASMR: You're looking at the other side of that coin..it's just chaff, remember, separate the wheat from the chaff in the Bible? It's all flash it doesn't last. If you commit yourself back to God you'll find your way. I know you want to be accepting of all people and all behaviors but you can't, some things are chaff and have to be let go. Life's VERY hard no way around it.
2478. Monique Turner: This made me have the feels. Everything you said hit home so hard cause it's how I'm feeling. My ex is happy with a new girl and I'm still here trying to find some type of happiness. It makes you think what's wrong with me that I can't just move on. The realness in this video is so amazing. Way to go on trying to find happiness, after all that's all that really matters in life.
2479. Becky Louise: 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄
2480. Rachel Louise: What a beautifully honest video. Joshua I understand completely how you feel and I know the feeling of thinking the other side is ok. Everyone deals with things differently and it is difficult to really and truly grasp that especially when it hurts you. Just remember that not everyone shows or shares their scars and wars. Im so glad you're in therapy and getting some additional help and working on yourself. Thank you for this and I'm praying for you and many blessings to you xxx
2481. ap: Josh please you need to stop beating yourself up because of what a selfish person did to you!! When you realize that (and trust me you will) you will move on and find happiness again. It's nothing you did! One day your gonna look back and laugh and say thank god im not with that selfish attention seeking person anymore!!
2482. Leah Power: Omg josh I love u and I hate to see u like this and I feel so bad and I have hard times too but I really want u to be way better 😭💝💝😭💝😭💝😭💝
2483. Liz Stelmach: Thank you so much for posting such a raw and human video. So many people on the internet tend to stick with only the positives in life, but sometimes we need to see videos like these. I think this channel is a place people can come together and relate with one another in that life is not always as easy as it seems. Personally, I struggled with accepting who i am-- a very independent and introverted girl. One of my close friends has recently helped me come closer with Christ, and in result I am a genuinely happier person. I don't know what religion you are, whoever is reading this, but I want you to know that God is always by your side through highs and lows. I encourage you to come to Him when you are feeling down or alone in any situation. He is always with you with open hands :)
2484. VenayCute: Nothing is wrong with you Josh, you're only human and that's more than okay. Keep pushing through
2485. Ana Maria: Do you know why you keep hurting? Because you really loved her with all your heart, you're strength, you're life! With everything you had... maybe she didn't loved you as much as you loved her... and thats ok!! Its a process a growing process.. it takes time. Cry if you need too and let God take care of the rest! Remember with God all things are possible you just have to take one day at a time!
2486. Kelli F: I'm sorry but I wonder if that horrible woman knows what she has done to you. Trust me I know right now it doesn't seem like it but it does get better.
2487. Amanda Rose Littlejohn: Nothing's wrong with you hon. It sucks being depressed, but it's not the end of the world. As cliché as it sounds, you will be okay.
2488. Menio Q.: Jesus is the key to everlasting peace. PLEASE Josh, he's waiting for you. You know he's been trying to be with you. Love you Josh!!
2489. Hanni Smith: I have been watching you spiral, and my heart goes out to you. I can not imagine how your world is, but when I imagine it happening to me, I feel lost in a void. I admire you for just trying over and over to keep this channel going and your life going. I want to suggest something to you, and it may be dumb - heck, you might already do it. We don't know you, as much as we'd like to think we do, but I know how big your heart is. For someone like you, I would suggest you take one day and find somewhere to volunteer just a couple hours to either the homeless, or a children's home, or maybe just people that are having a hard time in life. I think making that type of direct difference to someone would give you an amazing boost. And DON'T vlog it or even mention it in the vlog unless you just want to - don't feel obligated to even put that part of you on the internet. Just do it for the people you are trying to help and yourself. Even if you don't go back - just try it. I'm sure you've done stuff like this in the past, but you might get something different from it this time...really. (And I am not saying that this "will make you realize your life isn't that bad", because I *hate* that philosophy. This is just pure love being shared from you towards others. Sometimes we can only grab on to who we are and find meaning and joy when someone else is relying on us.) Anyway, just a suggestion that I really feel would help a person with your heart. Take care of yourself - the therapist was a great step forward!
2490. Makaila Bergeson: Anyone dealing with depression or anxiety should read this book called "the feeling good handbook" by David Burns. It is gold!!! Depression and other mental health issues are real! And need to be addressed
2491. lisaguard80: I'm right there with you my friend, depression stinks. I have such a hard time leaving the house most days. It has taken a toll on my body, my relationships, my work etc. We can get through this, we've just got to be strong and move forward. Best of luck to you. You are a wonderful person, you make me smile and that's BIG!
2492. Dando USA: Hey man, good for you. If you can't do a video everyday, we'll survive. You'll work hard on righting your ship and you'll notice positive change--maybe not this week, next week, this month even, but soon you won't feel like you're so deep in a hole. I didn't listen to music, or sing around the house for almost a year while I was really suffering from major depressive disorder (and those were two things I've done all my life)--when I finally couldn't bear it any longer I got professional help and I talked, listened, and learned. I worked hard to get better (it is work, in the same way that physical therapy after and injury is work) and one day, after a few months, I noticed that I was singing again. That was such a nice reward. You will do the work and get your special reward that will show you that you're doing the right thing. You seem like a good guy JoshuaDTV.
2493. Alexandra Yearley: You need to take the time to take care of you. In the process, the internet is able to handle your ups, your downs and the in between because we care about YOU. Not the image of you that you think you need to live up to. We don't watch your vlogs because you are some image of complete happiness. We watch your vlogs because you are you. You are a human. You are entitled to feel how you feel. Nobody expects you to be perfectly fine - and if they do, they've never experienced divorce, loss, and the adjustment to a massive change in their life. We can handle the tide, you don't burden us. Those of us that watch, watch because we want to. Those that have a problem with it aren't being forced to watch. They can choose to click away. Don't hold yourself responsible for what people may or may not need/like/want from you. You cannot please everyone and right now, you need to be your number one focus. Mental health is no joke. Those that matter in life and on the internet will have your back. The rest are irrelevant. Keep on keeping on man. Good luck with therapy! I always loved it! <3
2494. Lilly Ahmed: To be honest these kind of videos make me feel like I'm not alone in this world and my feelings, as well as it making me happier that making these videos is helpful to you in whatever way possible. As your audience, all we want is for you to be happy no matter what and we will always be here for you to come back to and as long as you are alive and healthy both mentally and physically then you can do what's best for you and we can support it. I've been watching you for years and I've seen how much you have changed and grown as a person and can see how much you are hurting. I'm so proud and happy that you are beginning to seek help for yourself Josh you are an amazing role model despite what you think or what others say. Thank you so much for staying real in these kind of videos because this is what I miss about you and on your channel. I am a bit older so for me to see and connect with you on a mature level is so refreshing and just reminds us how human you are and how we all are. I'm glad you are not alone and are on your way to healing yourself. Good luck, Forever and always, we're here for you x
2495. Cami Phillips: Hey Josh, I don't know if you have ever committed your life to Jesus Christ or if you've ever even thought about it, but the JOY that Christ gives you when you commit your life to him will transform you! I know that depression is so real and that sometimes you feel like you can't do it anymore, but I know you can. This world is full of heartbreak, fear, and lies, and quite honestly nothing aside from Jesus Christ will be able to remove your depression. I really would love to talk to you in person, but sadly I live in Alabama and there's no way that I will ever make it out to California. But, Josh, you are strong, you are courageous, and you will conquer this depression and time in your life. I don't want to pressure you into committing your life to Christ (because it's a decision that you'll have to make on your own) but I do want to tell you that there is so much joy and truth in becoming a Christian. If you ever want to talk, you can DM me on twitter or insta @mycamdidlife. I want you to know that I will be praying for you as you move through this time, and again, I would love to talk to you more about this. (you may never see this comment, but if you do, please consider talking to me more. I know that this decision to follow Christ will change your life). I love you Josh, but more importantly, Jesus Christ loves you and he cares about everything that is going on in your life. Love, Cami
2496. Sammawich: This is a very important video. Keep working on you and being happy. Lots of us struggle with very similar issues and it helps hearing someone who isn't directly involved as a fresh prospective. Thank you for being honest and I for one will keep watching through this journey of yours.
2497. Carla Griffin: A therapist and medication is the way forward. Think of it this way, depression is a chemical imbalance, the feel good hormones aren't there any more, and the body just can't manage a jump from -100 back to a neutral without some help, it's like trying to fill a bucket with a hole in the bottom, medication mends the hole and helps your body build it self back up. Medication (done well with a good doctor) helps get things back to neutral, it helps your body out. Therapy helps solve the causes, not just the effects, so you don't get to a point where you're so low you need the medicine to get you out of the hole. Then after time you can come off the medication because the bodies got it's equilibrium back. Therapies tough, you'll come out feeling exhausted, but don't give up on it. It really is the best way
2498. Clary's Adventure: is this about the divorce????
2499. Elise Martine: Jesus Loves you and can help you. He has helped me with so much. ❤️
2500. Putthatinur Pipe: Nothing lasts forever dude. That's the one thing you always need to remember. Good things and bad things. Everything has an ending at some point. This is what I keep saying to myself at the moment. I'm in a relationship, but I'm still what you would call clinical depressed. Now, I'm sure you can imagine what a downer boyfriend I am and that adds the fear of losing her on top of that. But. My friend. Everything comes to an end. Just hold on tight.
2501. Emily jfan: We love you and will support you and will help you because we love you!!
2502. bearpapie69: remember that you are LOVE...
2503. Dolan Madness: It's ok, not to be ok, 😘😘😘😘😘😘😉
2504. Anna Floyd: I think what you're looking for is something bigger than all of us... I believe Jesus Christ loves us beyond all understanding, beyond depression, divorce, and so much more!! God loves you and so do soooo many other people! We're praying for you❤️
2505. Zoroastrianistic Zoro: Not watching this shit, did he say he is gay finally?
2506. Tiana: You're such a good guy Josh! Happy to hear you're going back to therapy, there's nothing embarrassing about that whatsoever, it takes a lot of courage! There is absolutely nothing wrong with you, we all just heal in different ways, and at different paces. You've got this!
2507. Really Though: Caitlyn M coming from someone you didn't accept god... accepting god is the answer. You don't have to go to church or read the Bible but you do have to accept the love and light and positivity of god. Pray. Positive prayer. Ex: pray for the strength to get through a difficult time- as apposed to saying "please don't let bad things happen to me". Pray with the positive. Don't pray with negative phrases or words. If that makes sense. "Lord please protect my family and myself with love light and happiness" "lord please give me strength to handle this situation" "lord please give me the strength to have positive thoughts and guide me down the correct path to love and happiness". It is the answer even if you deny it's the answer it won't change that it is the answer
2508. Chasity Hilley: Nothing is wrong with you. It is completely normal. Just take care of yourself and shadow❤️
2509. TheMelissacaul: Be mindful and feel what you're feeling. Therapy changed my life. When things are the worst it gave me perspective. When things don't pan out for us and we think we are good people and we don't deserve this stuff happening to us, it makes the bad stuff feel even worse. There aren't any easy fixes for what you're going thru. But you have so much support around you.
2510. Laura.Uzarski.Roeters: Love you Josh! You are super brave and strong to put your feelings out there, and I commend you so much for that! It is so hard to feel pain, but to allow yourself to feel it and show that to other people is so much harder, I think, but also very important. Being so vulnerable sucks sometimes, but also makes us stronger. I want to thank you for being so honest and putting your emotions out to everyone.  I know I tend to bottle all my shit up until it explodes, but I have recently learned that it is okay to be an emotional person, it is okay to cry in front of loved ones, it is okay to feel your inner demons at times.  Because I have learned to tell them to shut up, and to feel okay relying on other people to pull me back up. Much love, so happy that you are seeking help! <3
2511. Lisa Fay: Josh, it will get better. A few years ago I was at a similar place in my life, I was unhappy all of the time and did nothing but cry every single day. Going to therapy really helped me. Give yourself time. You don't have to feel happy over night. It will be ok, I promise.
2512. Kristen Reyes: Regina George then don't worry about her comment
2513. Arielle Bryanne: Hey, don't give up dude! I totally know how you feel and how hard it is to to get help but you took that first step (something I haven't even been able to do myself). Like I was a psychology major and I haven't been able to practice what I preach. But good for you, I hope therapy gets you back on your feet and feeling better. Word of advice... If this one therapist or therapy doesn't work, find another source, don't give up. You clearly are strong enough to get to this point so don't give up until you feel better and eventually get to a new normal. Also, empathy is sometimes a good thing, you know to feel for others, but don't let others depression consume you. Your mental health is the most important! Feel better, you can do it:)
2514. zahida akhtar: you have a beautiful soul... totally can understand you
2515. Emma Ramage: Please don't think that there is anything wrong with you. People all move along at there own pace. It's hard, I get it. You just need to remember that so many people love you, that we are always here to talk, and that you WILL get out of this slump. I love you josh.
2516. Jem Stephanie Dizon: Get her back please. Get her back
2517. SophiaMarie24: KylieNotJenner I am really sorry I don't know why I have the feeling that when ever religion is brought up it needs to stop because different people believe different things I personally believe and it is kinda hard for others to see it. I am so sorry.
2518. Lisa Love: Congrats on being depressed. The opposite of depression is amazing. You'll get there. Dark night of the soul brings the dawn of the spirit.
2519. GirlieGirl884: **Hugs** you'll bounce back, promise! you're still healing. it'll take time but you'll get there! :-)
2520. Laura Tuller: YOU. ARE. NOT. ALONE. You have said the EXACT thoughts that I'm currently going through, it's uncanny... even down to the dog. But my situation is with much experience of many years. We have the same sentiments, your feelings are VALID. Just know that it's normal, ok? Indeed, it is a long process. But everything you experience is a stepping stone in your path of LIFE and LEARNING. Use them for the better, to CHANGE the things you'd like to improve. No matter WHAT it is. There IS a deeper meaning and that meaning is the reason WHY you were placed here on this Earth. Allow yourself to LOVE and embrace new discoveries. Your STRENGTH is within and becoming stronger. If only your future self could tell you now... but then you wouldn't become the person YOU are meant to BE. God doesn't give you more than you can handle.
2521. Ryl Durant: try to not be so into yourself and go out and find some one to help. you are blessed and don't even know it. if you can GET UP OUT OF YOUR BED EVERY DAY your blessed. i see you and you look like a handsome, healthy specimen of a young man. think of all the good things you have that others don't and be GRATEFUL. go find HAPPY people to hang with, go find new exciting people, mingle with different races, ethnics, new surrounding etc, etc. there is so much out there for a young man to do. but if your doing the same thing every day your going to get the same results. GET OUT AND GET OVER YOURSELF no one is gonna bring change to you GO SEEK IT. and when your feeling down, HUM, SING, LISTEN TO MUSIC, SPEAK TO AN UP BEAT PERSON, if someone dose'nt bring joy into your life, remove them. stop crying, look around, see how your blessed. IF YOU CAN GET OUT OF BED EVERY DAY AND WALK AND TALK, YOUR BLESSED. NOW GO CHANGE YOUR LIFE.
2522. Patrick H: Hang in there Joshua - the mental storm will pass in time. I'm glad you're seeing a counsellor, and thank you very much for your honesty.
2523. lol girl: 1st comment and 18th like
2524. Alex Trautmann: Awe Josh I love you so much ❤️ It's ok to cry there is healing in tears, it's ok to be authentically you even if that you is in a season that isn't all rainbows and butterflies right now. Stay strong Josh! I respect you for being honest and I respect you for seeking help that takes a lot of courage! I will support you no matter what and I know a year from now you will look back on this video and say 'wow! Look how far I have come!' Sending lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
2525. mia point: Josh, i know it doesn't seem mle it, but i iA it'll get better and you'll be happy again.
2526. Lauren Ziegenhorn: Josh, you have never ceased to amaze me. You are an overall fantastic person. I hope you can feel better and be happy again. Love you! -A viewer for 2 years now.
2527. tcbk: Josh, focus on yourself. Go to the gym, keep going to the therapist, write in a journal every morning to release all your negative thoughts for the day. You're going to feel better gradually. You're human and what you're going through is totally normal. Keep doing things that make you happy and hanging out with friends that make you happy. You'll get through this and we're all here to support you!
2528. Veronica Goddard: We love and support you Josh❤️
2529. Music Resources, Gaming, Nicole Marie T: Jesus is real guys 😊
2530. Lesley Beaulieu: Good for you josh not a lot of people would admit to that!!!
2531. Savanna Maneritch: i think it's wrong of you to assume everything is "perfect and okay" with her. she's hurting too, she just CHOOSES to portray it differently. that doesn't make her "fake" or a "heartless bitch." that "other side of the coin" isn't all rainbows and sunshine. people change, things change and it was her decision. she felt it was the right thing to do and anyone hating on her for it is ridiculous. don't you want to see both of them happy? apparently being together didn't make her happy so she made the right call. we don't know the full story so stop saying "she chose her work." but i'm glad josh is getting help. i hope things look up for him soon.
2532. Jennifer Doucette: I think healing from heartbreak is the same as healing from any injury. You go to professionals, you do your rehab, you help yourself the best you can, but at the end of the day, the most healing factor is time. xx
2533. lizzie kuss: Your amazing josh ! No matter what !
2534. Elvis Jansons: Smith umm...wrong. I have never seen a person recover from a break-up this long. I really don't get it.
2535. Aly Marie: You are heartbroken. This may be one of the hardest things you will ever go through. You may find that you are going to do really well sometimes, but for a while you won't. It'll go back and forth. At some point you will have more good days than bad, and that will continue. It's very brave of you to be so vulnerable online, especially since it was such a public thing. You have people here, and in your life, that love you. We will love you if you are depressed for however long and you feel like a Debbie downer. We are here with you for as long as it takes, and we will continue to be here long after.
2536. ariella daiss: I'm so sorry I feel so bad I love you so much and I believe in you that you can get through it that you can be the person you were and succeed ! ❤️
2537. lollie Chevier: Glad you made this video. I could always see in your eyes that you were still hurting. Getting help will definitely help you and making this vlog will help other people too. Good luck to you. You are a great guy with a big heart and a lot to offer.
2538. ron b: If you hate him than why are you watching ?
2539. Emily Gabrielse: Praying for you Josh!! Praying for God to comfort you and bring you peace! He is your rock, Josh! Lean on Him. We are not meant to carry burdens as such. Be strong and come to Jesus! He is waiting ❤️
2540. Adam K: Instructions for A Bad Day by Shane Koyczan! It saved me.
2541. sebastard429: You're SO welcome!!
2542. Simply Rox: NOTHING is wrong with you!!! You deserve SO Much better!!! I hope you find happiness!! I know you can do it!! I lost my husband of 35 yrs (I got married at 16!) to brain cancer 3 months ago. I refuse to let it kill me too. You can pull yourself out of this and feel free to open up as much as you want. We love you!! PS.... The other side...SUCKS.
2543. Bluemarvel Ninja: Ahh josh!! I definitely understand how you feel!! But I want you to know you're an incredible human! You deserve happiness and love!!
2544. Kendahl Allen: Josh it's okay to feel like this. it's hard i know. i've been dealing with depression since i was 9 & now i'm 22. its very very hard but getting help works. it doesn't seem like it's going to get better but i promise it does. when i was 18 i went to the hospital because i almost killed myself & i got help. i'm not 3 years clean from self harming. please just continue to get help. we all love you❤️
2545. Stacia L: I've spent a long time thinking that there was something wrong with me, too and I finally figured it out. there's nothing wrong with me and there's definitely nothing wrong with you, Josh. I know it's easier said than done, but take your time to be sad and don't be embarrassed to be sad. I'm so sorry you're going though this, but I know that someday you'll be incredibly happy and I hope that day comes soon! love you 💗
2546. Leah Moran: TheDegu Guru and here's how the earth was ACTUALLY created, through matter, just like everything else https://www.google.com/amp/amp.space.com/19175-how-was-earth-formed.html
2547. Madison Vasquez: I am suicidal... I know exactly what Josh is going threw. It's really hard but I'm trying to get threw it and, we can all try together. These thoughts stink, when your voice tells you everyday that your worthless. But, we can get threw it and finally be happy again
2548. Rena Ash: Josh I'm 47, and been thru a divorce, and hun, there is NOTHING wrong with you. You loved someone with all your heart, and it was broken. You are a good tender hearted person who cares about things. It will take time, it will turn around, I promise. You are mourning, yes, no one died, but it's still a lose. Many prayers for you son.
2549. Sarah Julianne: It's okay Josh, stay strong don't give up on yourself ever! Everyone is here for you we love you Josh ❤️❤️❤️
2550. relaxn 4today: Couldn't have said it better myself!
2551. Anja E: not a to of people can be honest on youtube and say suff like this so please know how much I appriciate it because the sparkly perfect life people show doesn't help me get through anything
2552. Nicole Elizabeth: Can we please come love you while you're in philly?!
2553. Blair: I'm currently battling depression. Im now seeing a therapist and I'm on an antidepressant. I'm on week 1 of it.
2554. Kendra Wong: we love you. take the time that you need. if you need us we will be here for you.
2555. weoweearth: Josh, everything you are feeling is normal. It was a big part of your life and now its gone so it makes complete sense. It may seem like the other side is perfect but everyone deals with things differently and show things differently. There is nothing wrong with you everyone is different and maybe your heart was a little more invested. It is so easy for us to feel the need to apologize for less than desirable feelings but you are right we shouldnt be! Im glad you showed emotion not glad that ur sad but glad you are showing the real you. We think we should only show happiness, but thats silly we are human and happiness is only one emotion of many its okay to feel upset and take all the time you need. The important thing is ur taking steps to hopefully feel happiness more than sadness and not the other way around. There is a youtuber i started watching and someone asked him during younow "how do you deal with heartbreak" and he said "you are not broken you cannot break" those words are so simple yet so powerful. They spoke to me and maybe they can do something for you too. Much love and i hope you feel better soon! <3
2556. Madison Harris: i love you Josh. We will always listen. Praying for you.
2557. Tiana G: I've been on this channel, and supporting you since the beginning of the vlogs and you have changed, but not in a bad way. I understand what you're going through and have been through, we all do. There's no pressure here. We truly care for you and want the best for you. Glad you're helping yourself. We love you💖
2558. Colleen Babin/dance: love your honesty love your openness LOVE one takes oh and I LOVE YOU. You deserve only the best in life.
2559. benbdubs: Everyone deals with things differently.. hating on others involved in the situation isn't helping anything because the ultimate goal is for all to be happy :)
2560. Payton Walker: I love you so much Josh! No matter what I am here for you! I am so proud of what your trying! Now, I don't know if your ever gonna read this but you are amazing! I wanna be there for you I know you won't DM me back but imma DM u I wanna be there to support u. 💙💙 I am here for you!
2561. OtterAnnihilation: Everything you're saying is literally breaking my heart because I know exactly how it feels to be where you are 💔. It's a long road to getting back to being your full self, to feeling "normal" or hopefully better than normal. HOWEVER, I can already see so much progress in you. Being able to not apologize for not being ok is a huge step. All I can say is that I pray for you daily to find peace and happiness, and to know you are loved. You are loved by all who know you and even those you've never met, like me ❤️. I have so much love for you and your family and friends. It makes no difference that we've never met. I believe souls can touch and heal each other without ever meeting in person. I choose to believe that it is the definition of humanity to love and support everyone you don't know, no matter how hard it can be. You do that and promote that every time you say "Be nice to people." You will get through this, and you will come out the other side an even better version of yourself, no matter how long it takes. There is no time limit. 🙏🏻❤️✌🏻
2562. sportygal1991: It will get better.. promise
2563. Brianna B: Sending prayers your way. Everything will get better in time I promise you. Allow time to take its course. She is not happy she's drowning herself in work to distract her from reality and she's putting on a show for the world. You are real and this is why people love you so much. Stay strong and try not to let them distract you from becoming a better you.
2564. Catherine Abbott-Allen: You are not a "downer" if you are sad, and of coarse you are sad when things like what happened happen. It is heart wrenching and you HAVE TO talk about it! My mom's best friend died from a car crash and she was so sad that her mom had to give her medicine to help her sleep because she cried so hard that she could not sleep. She did things though, like talking about it, thinking about it, having those cries and getting out the sadness, and use it up. You can do things like sing and other things with music because music is a HUGE helper in times like this! You can spend time with your dog, spend time with other people like friends and family because if you take yourself away from them you are sad and lonely! It is what friends and family are for! We are here for you too! The people who've been helped out of hard times with your videos I'm sure understand what it's like to be sad and maybe it's their turn to help you! Also people want to have connections like that with you because we really do make connections with you! Do not let the sadness consume you!!!! My aunt divorced with her husband and got REALLY sad!!! So sad that she wouldn't get out of bed so she never walked or moved much at all and she ended up loosing her ability to walk and she got quite weighted. She became a hoarder too because the buying of new things made her happy and excited but her house was a mess!!!! She held grudges forever never let go of anything and of coarse her health was terrible and she ended up. She ended up passing😫. You will not end up like that!!! Yes go to therapy! Remember, It's ok!
2565. Jenn Hedrick: Going to therapy is so healthy and there is nothing to be ashamed of and something you should be proud of - it is a step to healing. You had a HUGE loss. Most people who go through a loss need to talk to someone, so I am so proud of you for going to see someone. I have felt lead to pray for you since last fall, so know you are prayed for. This was a great real video - you sharing your story is also helping others. NEVER apologize for being real. Keep taking steps forward.
2566. Samantha Johnson: Love you josh ❤️ you're a strong individual you'll get through this 💟
2567. AbeBlinkIn125: Josh you are amazing! We are here for you bud!
2568. Jannine Wenzlaff: I just wanted to say that I really admire you for putting a video like this out there, being as real as you were takes an amazing amount of courage so I think this is something that you can be extremely proud of yourself for. I'm not sure of the specifics of your situation, but something that helps me personally is to wake up every day thinking 'what can I do to make tomorrow better?' Doesn't have to be anything big, maybe go on a walk somewhere peaceful or start reading a good book. You seem to have started this just by seeking help and creating your goal of vloging every day so that's good of you. 😊 I also try to think of three good things that happened in the day before i go to bed at night, it kind of pulls me out a little and helps give me a little perspective. (Not trying to make this about me) But these are little things that have helped in my growth so I thought I'd share so that maybe (if you would like to try) you might be able to benefit from this as well 😊 I wish you so much luck, and I hope you find your happiness! Stick to your goals, remember it doesn't have to be anything big it just has to be consistent effort 😊 You'll get there, jut remember slowly but surely 😉
2569. Elizabeth Gallagher: LovesRain thank you. You've made me hopeful. My relationship ended horribly. I thought I was going to marry him, just as you did. I feel like no one understands how much it can hurt even a year and a half later. "Move on", they say. It's not east. He was my first love, I spent over six years of my life by his side. I went to therapy, focused on work, etc. I can function, but I am still depressed. But reading you makes me think some day, perhaps, I will start to feel better.
2570. Chloe LeBoeuf: Thank you Joshua
2571. Iseyopo: Hang in there, josh. Take your time, get better. You'll find happiness again!
2572. Lise Abela: I hope that you do see this message.. I don't think that you should feel the 'need' to explain yourself to anyone. I would suggest not following what once was your world because everyone, as you of all people may know, will choose what to show in their videos. If they show 10 minutes of joy, doesn't mean that everything is okay. I would suggest doing more things which revolve around YOU. Put yourself first. Take your time to enjoy life, it's beautiful! Exercising has really helped me as a stress reliever rather than it did do good healthwise (but good thing it's also beneficial healthwise too!). Vlogging may do you good if you feel up to it, but don't feel the need to do it for your 'audience'. Do it because you want to and because you genuinely enjoy it. Take good care of yourself. Ask for help if you feel that you need it, it's normal, we ALL do it. There's nothing to be ashamed of. Take good care of yourself 🙂 Much love from M A L T A 🇲🇹
2573. sinful: first
2574. cute potato: I am sorry I am not a hater like EVER! And I hate comments like the one I'm about to leave here but I am so pissed rn I can't hold it in! I HATE that bitch that did this to you! I despise her for being a selfish egocentric bitch that never looked back! I would totally understand it if you deleted this comment Josh I really would but this comment is MY therapy when it comes to seeing you so broken! Don't stop fighting and do what you have to do! Fk everybody else man! ❤
2575. J Manek: *hugs*
2576. Jessica Gardner: When you are clinically depressed it takes time. A lot of time. If there's a cause to it you have to in a sense wait it out while also working it out. It won't last forever even though it feels like it. The inner happiness will come back when it's ready and when you have some sort of closure and acceptance within. Therapy is a great outlet. Talking with friends also a great outlet. Simple acts of volunteering and giving back to others who may also suffer with whatever it is because there is a common ground there....what a great outlet that is. I live with Bipolar and the Depression aspect of it 80% of the time. I have gone in and out of psych wards because of the depression and I know how real it is and how hard it can be. At the same time do have that empathy for yourself, be kind to yourself like you are to others, and understanding, and do not beat yourself up about it or rush the recovery process. It will happen., I promise. I am so hoping the absolute best for you. Things happen for a reason and eventually in due time, you will realize why and it's okay. <3 from New York.
2577. Sophia Stewart: I love you honey, I know you'll pull through. You always do.
2578. Leah Bauman: ❤❤❤
2579. Rebecca Edmunds: This is inspiring. It takes a lot of courage to be so open about your pain. Dealing with depression is so hard, and I can totally relate to feeling down on yourself for not being happy. It's a process, and I am so glad to see you are getting the help you need to work through this hard time in your life. God never gives us more than we can handle. He will bless you in abundance for sharing your story because it's going to help so many other people who might be going through similar struggles. Just remember that you are deserving of love, happiness, and success. Stay strong. You are loved!
2580. Gregory Walker: You are not alone Joshua, I suffer from bi-polar depression, my first diagnosis was clinical depression, it took many years to get my diagnosis correct, all the things you are dealing with are common to people dealing with depression issues, my name is Gregory Walker, you have a friend in Chicago. If you need help with anything I am here for you.
2581. Rachel Marie Constence: saumya gulati at about 4:20 and 5:50 etc
2582. Trinity Hilton: Love you so much Joshua.
2583. Nadine Shari Olsen: There is not a damn thing wrong with you! I have been on meds for depression for over twenty years, it's still such a stigma to say I suffer from depression. That is sad. Just know you are going to be okay and there is nothing wrong with you!
2584. Jennica Graves: This really scares me because I don't want your life lost , yes I'm talking about taking his own life I'm scared but if you're reading this we love you and shadow does too nothing is wrong with you❤️❤️🚨❤️❤️✌🏼🇨🇦sent from canada
2585. Gaby O: We love you josh and you can do this! I also have depression and it sucks so much I completely understand what you're talking about.we can do this together!! ❤️❤️❤️
2586. violet: i'm sorry josh :( sending all the love 💖
2587. Ximena Hemmings: Josh, I don't usually comment on videos but I just wanted say that I love you and I'm praying for you❤️
2588. Danielle D: Love you Josh, u will never stop inspiring me. ♥
2589. Presley Howard: It's okay not to be okay, at least you know your not and are fizzing it. It's taken me a long time to realize i need help sometimes. Hope you feel better soon. It does pass by the way eventually
2590. rebecca kenny: Such a brave guy 🙌🏻
2591. Patches O'Hoolahan: I know what you're going through and it takes time Josh, you will slowly become your old self but it's a slow process and don't push yourself for it to happen over night. I was really stuck in how I felt, I didn't know how I was going to move forward with all my plans for the future gone, so these are some thing I did to help me through, after a year am I 100%? No, but I'm nearly there and I never thought I'd be this far along. I hope this can help you. 1: I was honest with myself. If I wanted to cry I did, if I wanted to be angry I was, if I needed company I'd grab a friend and ask them to come over, You have good friends that will do that for you too. Don't bottle it up, don't lie to yourself, rant. Be with people who will let you rant, who will just listen, even agree. Don't ask for advice or opinion and if they offer it tell them to stop. You're not asking for opinions on your relationship, you just want someone to listen. 2: I know you'll be dead inside, maybe numb, nothing you cared about before will seem like fun, but that one thing you love will never stop being important (For me it was painting, even though I'm a musician, I didn't want to play, or hear music which is not me at all.) Hold onto that one thing that's just for you and throw yourself at it. Paint, draw, run, sing, fix bikes, sew a blanket, whatever it is for you that still holds that one little spark of passion, throw yourself into it with all you have to give it right now. That's the first step that really started to save me. 3: Put whatever effort you can into your job, don't let it slide. Don't become complacent especially if you have a job you love. Be on time, do your work, try to engage with people. Come home and repeat. That job is still gonna be there for you when you come out the other side. 4: when you're strong enough, spoil yourself, new clothes (I needed them anyway I put on so much weight) new bath/shower things, face treatments and get a hair cut. 5: Make more time for friends and family. Let the joy they give you stay with you, see how life is not all bad for you. How can it be with these wonderful people around? Look how lucky you are that you have them and they aren't going anywhere. :) 6: Forgive yourself, whatever you feel you did or didn't do. Let all that go. There is a new chapter of life waiting for you and that's exciting. You've learned a lot and you're better equipped to deal with wherever life takes you. Good luck Josh, I know you'll be good in time, because I'm good and I've come through the other side. You will do this and then life will start for you again and you'll be crazy about it, even more than before all this started. I promise.
2592. Annette Hernandez Ricci: Your channel is naturally going to change as you change. Do what you feel is best for you, not for us or anyone else. We love you and want to see you get better. Whatever you need to do in order to heal, we will support you 100%. Oh and I personally love one takes! They feel soo real!! 😊💕
2593. Shaz Brown: rbubblesz Amen, amen, amen!Agreed, agreed, agreed! this needed 2 B said! well dun u!
2594. Riley Corinne: There is nothing wrong with you Josh. You have a beautiful heart and these emotions you're feeling are okay. I'm happy you're going to post a video everyday because I was going to say you should find something that makes you happy that makes each day a little brighter. It may be a long journey but there will be a moment when you feel that everything is lifted off your shoulders and you will feel inner peace. I hope you have a good night and an even better tomorrow❤️
2595. Stephanie M: It is completely normal! I have been through 2 bad breakups. My first I left my sons father for hitting me. I got sick of it. I was with him for 4 years. I put myself out there purposely because I am prone to depression. It really helped. Right after I left him I asked my friends to please do me a favor and force me to go out and talk. It worked. I didn't have time alone a lot to think about it all. My second breakup however was very different. He broke up with me on my birthday after 2 years. He told me in detail how he cheated on me. I was absolutely shattered for a long time. He moved on like nothing and I was left to feel dumped. I loved him very much. I went through the stage of checking his online accounts and checking what he was up to wondering if he even thought about me. Believe it or not that was 4 years ago and I am just now feeling completely over him. Each year I would imagine him messaging me and calling me telling me he was sorry and wanting forgiveness. It never happened. I think the one who does that breaking up has it better. They have had time to think about it and plan it. When they do finally break up with the other person it is a surprise. They are left there wondering what they did. They need closure. We all different ways of coping and different relationships affect us differently.
2596. Sarah Dawn: i love you josh! i feel like im going through the same thing! #imhereforyou!
2597. Amanda Nolan: We are here for you josh!!! I know it's really hard right now, but I just know that with time you will finally heal and become your happiest and most true self. If you need anything, don't feel like you can't reach out to us. We are here because we care about you and we want to make sure you are okay. Glad you're seeking help. Love you bro!
2598. Pillsinmyshoes: I suggest marijuana, edibles are a great tool to keep your mind off of things, which is clearly what you need, it's a lot better than alcohol which makes ppl even more depressed imo
2599. Wabby James: Josh..she's hurting too.
2600. Christo Smuts: You break my heart everytime i watch you make a video like this. Thinking of you and stay strong,okay. love Ya! X
2601. Linda Jones: It's ok to not be ok. At least you are getting help. Just take each day at a time. Find joy in the little things. There is no time limit of grief.
2602. Rachel Nichole: Btw I don't mind the sadness it's real. That's your life at moment and sometimes you can't fake being happy. I appreciate the vulnerability and the realness, it's refreshing on YouTube.
2603. Jess Lollar: I don't leave comments too often... really ever, and I doubt you'll actually this, but it will get better. I've been where you are, felt that void, struggled to recreate myself, fought through the depression, and I know it's hard to believe, but the wonderful thing about life is that it goes on. Life goes on. Time, family, friends, therapy, and Shadow will help you get past this terrible, but temporary, phase in your life. It seems like the other side of this coin is just running from the pain, but if you're able to face it and work through it you'll be all the better for it in the end. For what it's worth, I'll be thinking of you, hoping for the best... and being nice to people. 🙂
2604. abida sikander: We are all here for you Joshua😌❤️Stay strong x
2605. Melodie Ortiz: Stay strong. Going through depression isn't easy. I myself have been going through it. But trust me it will get better. Take it day by day.
2606. LuckyPineapple: Janessa Werlein I’m going to bet you’ve never been divorced soo...
2607. You Me Archive: What's with all this "turn to religion" in the comments? I have nothing against religion, but I really think people should believe in themselves and be confident before letting religion in their lives. We should only rely on ourselves to fix our problems.
2608. Some one: Josh is so real and inspiring because I go through depression two like sometime I don't even know why I'm sad and at least he's getting help he's awesome💙💙
2609. ginga ninja: Hate seeing you upset Josh. Always remember we all love you so much and are always here for you. I know it's tough but you will get through it. I done the exact same a couple of years ago shutting myself away from everyone I love. I have now started to become the person I was before it all happened and I am feeling great at the moment. Watching your videos helped me through the toughest time I have experienced in my 18 years of life. We love you so much Joshua never forget that💚
2610. Lauren 06: Tears don't mean your weak, tears mean your human
2611. LarsHeat: Josh, I just wish all the best for you whatever that may be. Take your time, take your steps, one day at a time, step by step. Don't rush things for anyone else but also don't hold yourself back. Do whatever it takes for you to become happy again however you need to do it. And don't be sorry for any of it. This is "me"-time for you!! Just know there are people all over the world that care for you and only have your best interests at heart. I believe in you, you can do it!
2612. Dawn-Rene Martin: Revealing your feeling is the beginning of healing. Thank you for your authenticity. Love you!
2613. Fairooz Abourya: Wait what happened to him
2614. Just Sheilz: One day at a time. Some of us have been there and it takes time. Do what you need to do to get better.
2615. Jhada peace: I relate to this so much ..
2616. Courtney White: its ok to feel pain too. Sit with it. feel it. get to the point where you can feel the pain but also feel thw deep love inside your heart. listen to adeles sweetest devotion and sing it to yourself. ♥
2617. emily: Josh I don't know if you'll read this but I just wanted to say, please don't feel guilt or shame over your emotions. Not only did you lose someone who was so important to you and was a huge part of your life, but you lost half of your family too, it's completely reasonable to feel grief over that. The internet sometimes seems like a shallow place, but there are a lot of people out there that understand and relate to what you're working through, and it's okay if you need to take some time out to heal.
2618. Ann: I would feel the same if it would have happened to me... I dont think I could get over it. But you dont have a choice
2619. Ava Murphy: Josh 💔💔😭 were always here for you. ❤💕
2620. Jennifer Maloney: Wish we can turn back time just a little bit and have less Facebook fakery and YouTube that perfect ten minute vlog, are people that perfect, the perfect moments some staged to look so amazing, real life isn't like that all the time, I hope you find some peace in your heart, and in time, you'll look back at this hard time and say that happened for a reason, and you know what I'm glad it did because I have found happiness again. Everything happens for a reason, I hope you find yours.
2621. i love haechan: I feel bad for this guy, I feel like it's been going up and down and I'm so confused. It's messy and all over the place it's just that I want him to start new and fresh after he talks about it and figured stuff out. I think he needs more time after all that! half of what happened was something very big in his life!!!
2622. Joe Facenda: Cute
2623. Fern Wheatley: Can everyone please just shut up about god
2624. Bb: thought he was gonna come out as gay
2625. misosoupsoul: I felt the same way you are describing for at least a year after my first relationship fell apart. Now looking back, that person is so far from who I am with now who brings me so much happiness. It gets better with time and life experiences josh ❤️
2626. Britt Eyerly: Wow Joshua. I'm so sorry for the hard time you're going through. I can't imagine what you're going through. God is the ultimate comforter. I pray that He'll bring you a peace that passes all understanding. You have so many people that love you so much and are praying for healing and comfort for you.
2627. Jennifer Williams: ; ❤❤
2628. ladylouisa: I pray you come out of this Josh, mental health is such a valid issue & you are only human. Come to Australia! Get away from all your familiarities I reckon. All the best x
2629. Erica O'Shea: Ohhh josh I wanna give u a big hug
2630. Hannah Thomson: Everything will be okay because it has to
2631. Destiny Harding: There's nothing wrong with you. You're incredible and fantastic. Show yourself some self-compassion, love comes from within yourself. I use the app "Calm" to meditate and it guides you through your negative thoughts. It's important to know that this is not you, this is just a broken form of you. Everyone hurts and gets hurt and beautiful people are made through their hurt. We all love you very much but more importantly you need to love yourself.
2632. Sarah: apolmh56 This is so true I am a very young viewer(11) And I know that there are no winners or losers(as you said) And that no one should pick sides!
2633. S a: God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble❤psalms 46:1
2634. Amy Hejl: Just continue working on yourself happiness will come your way!
2635. TAYLOR GESSLER: i love you
2636. Steven Herberts: Josh I'm 25 days away from having gastric sleeve surgery. This is a massive step to change myself for the better. Come with me on this journey we can be positive together and lift each other up through the tough times
2637. Megan Kyzer: I think therapy is an awesome idea. You're not crazy and there is nothing wrong with you. The other side of the coin very obviously has some deep rooted issues that aren't being dealt with. That is their issue. I'm glad you're looking out for yourself and getting some help. Nothing to be ashamed of. Remember to be patient with yourself and to give yourself some grace.
2638. LDShadowLady Fan 〈3: +Melanie Herrera i'm not trying to help or not help lmao
2639. Margo Speigelman: Josh, I'm so happy to hear you talk about this. I struggle with a lot of the same things, so I'll be working alongside you. Thank you so much and I love you!!
2640. Estrella Ln: Josh I just want to say that we are greatfull to see this side of you, we don't feel disconnected from you actually quite the opposite. Seeing you be yourself help me, because I'm really sensitive and I can understand my life when I watch you. I really love the autenticity of your channel, I hope you find your way and find happiness again.
2641. Raegan Jae: I completely understand what he's saying. Especially about dumping situations on friends and family. I'm the same way. But most of the time I try to fix situations on my own because I feel like friends and family don't want to deal with me being depressed all the time. I know that something very shitty happened to you and you didn't deserve it. But just know that you have a butt load of people supporting you no matter what. Keep going. Coming from someone who is depressed in my own way, I wish you the most happiness.
2642. Sylvia T.: My son went thru a similar experience about 1.5 years ago. He was depressed and saw a therapist that prescribed antidepressants. He became even more depressed on those meds even bordering on suicide. And all over a girl that wasn't worth shit. Well, that's my opinion anyway. No one is worth your life and if you make it thru this, I guarantee you, you will see that when you look back in a few years. I'll tell you another thing my son had to do to pull himself out of that depression. He got on medical marijuana and it has turned his life around. I, myself, am taking it for chronic illness and is doing wonders for me. Please look into it for yourself. It is gaining recognition as a healing medicine. You don't have to become a stoner, that is not what I am advocating. I'm saying you went thru a very traumatic experience and you are obviously reaching out for help. There is help. I think seeking counseling is a step in the right direction and getting the medicinal help you need will also aid in your recovery. Many of us understand your pain. Some even say divorce is worse than living thru a death. I have been thru both and, yes, it can be just as devastating. You are going to be just fine, Josh. You are handsome with a beaufitul voice and soul. Don't keep your ex in the place God should be in your life. You aren't the first to replace God with a person where He should be in your life, and you won't be the last. Lots of us have done it. It's up to us to recognize what we have done and rectify it. You will come out of this. Just like my son did. God bless you Josh.
2643. Jordan Grace: Josh I really appreciate your honesty and authenticity. You are strong, you will get through this, you will be joyful again. Lean on God, He will give you strength.
2644. Gregory Monsue: First time watching your video and I completely understand. Please take this from what you would call a racist, gay hater, womanizer or what not but thru out these years I started to realize everyone is different but the same. We are complex humans and well.. thank you, for helping us and yourself. Cheers.
2645. Beth Sands: One Day Amen!
2646. Abby S: Josh!!! Nothing is wrong with you!!! Don't say that!!! Please! It makes me so sad! You are going through a hard time, and maybe on her side, she may not be healing the same way, but everyone is different, and that doesn't mean you have something wrong with you! It will all be ok! Don't worry!💕
2647. Poppy O: rebeccajns This. It doesn't matter why she's doing what she's doing or why she left. That's for her to figure out. Sometimes we don't get any answers, and watching all those things the other side is doing will push you back to step one. Be Nice to YOURSELF 😉❤️
2648. Kim R: thanks Josh for being real.. too many others arent being real.. I appreciate it and will be here to support you :)
2649. WhiteRaven696: Poor thing. Wish I could give you a hug.
2650. adison trowbridge: stop trying to push ur religion on others he can believe what he wants and he doesn’t need people saying christ will help you because he just might not believe. z
2651. TRIXIE: why do you have pink shoe laces and on your shirt? and you sound like an emotional girl... your a male for god sakes?
2652. namjoonbaby: Cameron Stahlbrand Why are you assuming that she's fine? Everyone copes differently and her way is just by working and keeping herself busy doing things that make her happy but it doesn't mean that she's not hurting just as bad as he is.
2653. Lea Henckel: You're gonna be OK Josh. Stay strong. I believe in you!
2654. Brittanie Brown: there is nothing wrong with seeing a therapist! I've been dealing with depression my whole life and have seen many therapists! You have to do what's right for you and what makes you happy! do not be ashamed!
2655. Lord & Lady of Winterfell: I'm seriously so fucking tired of seing good people being drag down by this fucked up world. You will find the inner strenth to go throughout everything, is frustrating to find yourself stuck in a pit but you WILL find the way, it's different for every person, I wish someone had told me how to turn everything for better when I was carrying a lot of deppresive thoughts and felt drawned. You are such an honest person with everyone. Chase your purpose, don't stop fighting. I really wish you the very best. Keep talking with us, your family or your friends. Please don't stop sharing, we are here to help you, and one day we all will look back to see how good we were in facing bad days and how good we became in enjoying life again. That great unique smile will be back, don't stop fighting!
2656. Mirily: When you're being really serious and baring your soul to the camera and your dog is taking a shit over your shoulder!! 😂 seriously though, hang in there dude. You're doing ok 👍
2657. Athena Myzelle (Dana): I know what you're going through. We tend to look at the past and other people through rose colored glasses, but everyone is dealing with something. Some people choose to hid it, while others wear it on their sleeve. You have made the first (and hardest) step by admitting something is wrong and seeking help. We all care about you and are here for you like you've been for us in the past. I wish you the best <3
2658. Following The Son: Thanks for being so real . ❤❤❤
2659. Camina Of Shadowmoon: There's nothing wrong with "you". It may appear that the other side is happy and nothing is bothering them, but they hurt too. Trust me. They hurt too. Don't think that for a moment you meant nothing to them. You did and I really think you still do. Please believe that there will be a point when it won't hurt so much. I am glad to see you are getting some outside help. Grab on to it. Listen to your heart and reach for what's good for you. Take time for YOU. You are worth it.
2660. bwhuffman1: Prayers for you Josh, I have lived with serious depression and anxiety my entire life with very dark days where I tried ending it! Go to therapy, medication works, keep being you and we all love you!
2661. Carli Galvan: thank you for being real
2662. lolitaflat: I know you won't believe it until YOU are ready to believe it, but nothing is wrong with you. Putting on a happy face and smiling 24/7 doesn't equate to inner happiness, and you know it. I'm so happy you've reached out to a therapist and are starting sessions. Please stick with it, you DESERVE to be happy. You're doing so well, even though you might not feel it sometimes. You're clearly an amazing friend, a wonderful owner to Shadow, you've got your music thing going full force, and you're an inspiration for all these kids (and adults!) watching your videos. Time to make YOURSELF feel better, and not just us :) forever a fan and supporter.
2663. Yomna Ayman: you will , you are strong , you just have believe in yourself . think of yourself of what makes you happy even if it's for just moments hold to it in your heart embrace it well and try to stay there it's okay to fall sometimes to feel bad but make sure to stand again and you are the only one that can do this . Good luck 💪we support you on every step of the way .
2664. Beryl Heka: good to talk about it Josh - stay strong - HUGSSS!!! family will always be there for you to listen xxx
2665. Justine Taylor: Josh, its not a rant. I love you and I hope you get better. I see a psychiatrist for my depression and anxiety. Still trying to find something that works.
2666. Sydney: Honestly the amount of respect I just gained for you is unreal. I think it's easy for people to say they're okay and almost "trick" themselves into being okay, when it's not. And it's okay to not be okay, even though that's hard to accept sometimes. I'm so glad you were just so raw and honest because that's the best thing you can do. And it's okay to separate yourself from certain things too, but it's okay to be around people/stuff as well. I'm very happy that you were so honest, but no need to apologize for anything. And you're doing great on taking steps to healing, even if it's not a short easy path, everything's gonna be okay. I'm praying for ya, we love you josh❤️
2667. 30Chompi: I tell you what, man. You are a good person and there is definitely a woman out there just waiting to find you. You will move on and you will be happy. Until then, just try to be honest about how you feel and work through it. And cut yourself some slack! It's ok to have days where you don't feel like trying to be happy. As far as the "other half" goes...honestly, if she gave up and didn't want to work things out...she wasn't the one for you. That is a reality nobody wants to face after being together for so long. But, once you realize and accept this...it's going to feel like the epiphany of a lifetime.
2668. Harriet Rapley: I hope you know you are never alone and that life is here to be lived and loved, whether that is through the hard or good times. Take the time you need to heal yourself and make yourself happy for you. You will be happy again one day, we promise x
2669. N A: I feel you. I thought I was alone today feeling like this but it made me feel so much better knowing I'm not alone and I wanted to comment and let you know that you're not alone in the world you feel like you're in right now. You WILL escape it. Much love to you.
2670. Paloma Mayrany: Stay strong josh 💜💜💜💜You'll get trough this
2671. Rachel Merrill: You are loved
2672. Julia D.: Josh I'm proud of you for seeking help! Someone once told me: Everything in your body can get sick, whether it's a fever or a broken leg or a flu - but to get better you go to doctors for help. And even the brain - the most important thing in your whole body - can get "ill" as well. So why not seeking help for that like you would do with everything else? It's easier to heal a flu or even a broken leg 'cause you get medicine or surgery (which is not an easy thing at all), so SOMEONE makes it better for you. But dealing with depression is a whole other thing 'cause YOU have to make YOURSELF do better. Medicine helps as well but in the end YOU have to find ways to deal with all of this. Noone can make it better for you - but therapists help you to find those ways! Please don't ever be ashamed! I have a lot of respect for you for truly dealing with your feelings instead of pushing it away. This is what a real man should be able to. Not playing the cool though guy. It takes time, it will hurt, but you will be fine again 🍀🖒😊
2673. melcer1105: Good for you, Josh! I recently come to the realization that I'm depressed after denying it for so long. I know that I can't conquer it alone - no one can. I used to use cycling as my outlet, but surgeries have prevented that for a few years. Now that I'm almost 100% recovered, I'm going to try to get started again - my bike is my therapist. I hope that your journey brings you peace, happiness, and most importantly the feelings of self-worth and self-love. Your dingleberries are here for you <3
2674. nataliee mo: I don't really think anyone is hating on Joshua. At least not the top comments because mostly everyone is giving support. Stop creating problems that don't exist. The good outweighs the bad here.
2675. Sparkalita: I'm happy you are getting some help. I got myself to a very dark place 12 years ago and didn't get there because I was good at asking for help. Through recovery I've learned to ask for help, run things by other people first, and that you can't save your face and your ass at the same time. I wish you the best. And by the way, dang you're cute. (I'm old, not dead, lol).
2676. Lizzy - Bee: Thanks man, I'm going through a really tough time myself, and just hearing you admit this whole ordeal makes me feel less alone. I'm just 16, and it's hard for me to ask for help too. I feel like I should be selfless not selfish, but I know that we can get through this!!!
2677. Oranaiche1: Josh, don't apologize for making videos like this. They're authentic. These are honestly the videos of yours that I enjoy the most, because there's no pretense. I don't enjoy knowing that you're unhappy, but I think you're on the right path and will be better for it when you come out on the other side. You're great!
2678. marisabel matias: It's okay not to be okay and ask for help. Everyone finds there way it's nothing to be ashamed of. Maybe doing what you love will pull you out of your darkness.
2679. Julia Peterson: ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
2680. Keeta Partridge: I wish I could give you a hug. You WILL get through this and you WILL feel better. Embrace the bad days and appreciate the good ones. You are allowed to feel this way. Don't compare yourself to the other side of the coin, focus on you and look forward to the day when you are ready and find someone that will appreciate you for you.
2681. Anna N: Photo Life Magazine This is so good!! :)
2682. Lindsay Stoesz: I'm proud of you for going to a therapist, Josh! I also just started going to a counsellor in the last 6 weeks and got diagnosed with General anxiety and ADHD. Mental illness royally sucks ass, but with help, love and support, it's a little easier to get through. Prayers and positive thoughts on this journey. Your transparency is inspiring, by the way :) ❤️❤️❤️
2683. jenna paige: Therapy is amazing!!!!! It has helped me more than I could have ever imagined. Thank you josh for talking about this because mental health is so important!!!!!!!!!!!!
2684. DeathValleyDebbie: Please go see a psychiatrist and get a DNA test for meds. See a talk therapist; this is a normal and common thing to happen.
2685. Indigo Detry: H CRL that makes no sense because she was way more famous and had way more subscribers then he did throughout this whole relationship.
2686. Paige Gill: i love you josh💓
2687. Sarah Goodlaxson: Going through the same thing. It's like grief waves that come and go. For a while you're fine and the ocean is beautiful and sunny, then the waves come and capsize your little vessel again. Glad you shared, because none of us are alone on our journeys. Just keep paddling. I tell myself the same every single day. "I wanna be happy, I wanna be better, I wanna feel good."
2688. Jasmin Magallan: Always keep you're head up high every one knows you're going through something and it's okay and it's good to let everything out you'll get past it you need to let everything out that you have inside of you and let people know how you really feel and you're not alone look you have all of yours fans to talk to and it's good to have a therapist because you get everything out you have someone to talk to okay never feel alone never feel like you're not worth it always keep you're head up high smile
2689. Jan Vloggaa: You are very brave for doing what you just did. I hope you found a great therapist to go through all you need to go through right now. Even if it doesn't seem that way right now, these feelings won't last forever. You will get better one day. Just remember that even this is a unique journey for you, you're not alone in feeling like this. All the best for you and I wish you can make good decisions for the better tomorrow to come. Just keep breathing when you feel anxiety. :)
2690. Nancy Ramirez: We love you josh. Not just saying that We actually love you. Getting help is good. One step forward. We love you
2691. AnnaBelle Marie: Lance The Pants listen God can help you. I had panic attacks so often I wouldn't leave my house and then I learned about god and he has helped me I have less attacks and everything!!
2692. Alyssa Miller: Yea it's ok to be depressed but ur putting ur self down if ur putting ur self down ur never gonna get better and u have people around u to make u happy u cant just put itself down and expect to get better
2693. hannah s: i needed this so badly....i can relate to this so well. i'm going through a really bad breakup, and I feel you 100%. I'm so proud of you
2694. Zoe Huxtable: This is so raw and beautiful. Thank you beyond words for saying everything you did. I can relate so much to what you had said, and I am here for you for the whole journey. x
2695. Alison Varys: Excited to see your new content! Stay strong, Josh :)
2696. ForeverElliex: Coming from someone who has and has suffered a lot with depression, I know EXACTLY what you're feeling, Josh. How you feel like you have to act happy in front of other people, that you SHOULDN'T feel the way that you feel, that 'oh why can't I just be happy with what I've got' etc, etc. Going to therapy is an amazing first step to make, but please don't put too much pressure on yourself to just snap back into being happy. It WILL take time. It WILL take effort. There will still be days where you find it hard to even get out of bed. But you've started the journey to being better, and talking about your feelings always seems to make it better, so well done.
2697. MrMarkymark005: In the same manner that we'd all go to seek help & professional attention for a broken bone, a severe cut/laceration, an infection, a virus, etc It is crucial & necessary to seek out help for depression & other mental illness. We've come a very long way in our ability to understand what mental illness is, how it works, what it does & how to address it. It's great that you're seeking out help. It's the only way to reach the path to healing & getting better. Divorce is traumatic. It's like a death in many ways. It impacts every single aspect of ones life. It is a long process but it's better to be on the road to getting better than remaining stuck in the trauma & pain. We aren't going anywhere & I personally appreciate the openness, honesty & candor in place of pretending or hiding behind a mask. Hope to watch you in your healing & in your journey to getting healthy.
2698. Jenny Purcell: after me and my daughter had a very bad experience at the hands of an ex, I beat myself up for some years, but, now I realise it was not my fault, and have learned life comes in chapters, each one leads to another, don't worry about crying, it's like a valve on a pressure cooker, it releases all the built up 'stuff', just take it day by day and you soon get there, well done on this video. ☺
2699. JupitersRealm: You're very brave.
2700. Nell Urso: Cuckoo 8 lol you're a complete hypocrite. First you say I hate you, then you say no hate please haha what a joke
2701. lillo McC.: I'm so proud of you and how far you have come. I've been waiting for this video since it happened and I will support your journey and help keep you accountable. Sending positivity and prayers your way.
2702. Gymnast Megan: I really wish he can just go back with her why can't he😂😰
2703. Sister Adriana: don't worry. you will get through this. all of your supporters want to help you out. including myself. stay strong Joshua ❤
2704. Lena K.: you also have to accept youself. be what you are not what you think what you should be. that is self torture. you are good. already. how you are.
2705. Win baby: 😥🙏🙏❤️
2706. Disco Nouvo: whole food vegan diet really helps your brain. i don't know why but it just does. and you already love animals so you won't be hurting them every meal.
2707. ohthenargles: Everything you're saying about being disconnected, everything feeling different and all takes me back to how I was last year. I got help. I got diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I got therapy and now I'm okay. Some days are still bad, but there are some good days. Bad and good are different for everyone. Just know that things will get better. You will get out of this and you will learn from it.
2708. Last First: Never apologize for being sad. DUMP on your friends and family. They will lift you up. ❤️❤️❤️🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦
2709. Tori KellyFanGirl: You're in my prayers Josh❤❤
2710. Ker C: I really never comment on any videos, but I feel compelled to send this message. I am hoping you can pass it on to Josh if you feel it may be helpful: I'm not one to comment on videos but this one hit me hard because I can literally feel your pain, and I've been where you are. I don't like to say that because I hated hearing it when I was down in a dark and unrelenting place that I truly believed no one could understand or relate to. In retrospect, though, im so glad for the people who let me know I wasn't alone. I was left by the love of my life and for a long time I felt that it would truly ruin me. On top of that I was closeted at the time and so I felt I couldn't share my pain with many of the people who cared about me. It was the darkest moment of my life. Now, looking back, I liken it to being stuck in a deep, dark well. It is lonely and it is scary and you feel like there is no way you could ever be strong enough to get yourself out. Later I learned that there were people waiting for me at the top of the well who would help me with tools and ropes and ladders in a heart beat. But, until I shouted out for help, they didn't even know I was down in the well. People can't help you until they know where you're at. You need to ask for help sometimes, and you need to let people lift you up, pull you up, and carry you. That is not weakness. It is necessary for survival and growth. For me it was like a light switch. One day seemed infinitely dark and then I woke up in the morning to sunshine. There was no rhyme or reason to the timing. I think my soul just got tired of the sadness. I promise with everything that I know and believe, that one day you will say you are okay, and mean it. But until then, don't sit in the well all alone. Scream and shout and cry and grieve and then stand up and fight for your happiness. Some days it's ok if all you do is breathe. But never stop looking for the sunshine.
2711. yolanda Mac: I'm there with you.
2712. La belle Et la bete: WhateverIsTrueASMR thank God you wasn't in a relationship with the same sex as you it will destroy you more
2713. Scarlett CC: Morgan look I don't know how old you are but she feels as bad as he is she is just dealing with it differently both of then feel upset obviously because loosing someone you love is hard but if there was something wrong with one of them it will effect the other so it's better one way
2714. You Me Archive: What's with all this "turn to religion" in the comments? I have nothing against religion, but I really think people should believe in themselves and be confident before letting religion in their lives. We should only rely on ourselves to fix our problems.
2715. Aimee Caldwell: Its okay to not be okay Josh. ive always asked for help but nobody takes me seriously, or the person i tell for example my mum that i need help she starts talking about herself and never listens. its tearing me up from the inside out. so i just dont really talk about my issues anymore because people never take me seriously. i had suicidal thoughts and my mum literally told me to meditate, she didnt even consider getting me help with therapy. it sucks it really does. 😔
2716. Nikkita Smith: i agree with the majority of the people here. Its okay to not be okay. I'm glad to hear you are seeing a therapist.
2717. Becki Green: Camille W I hope to God he doesn't unblock you on twitter. You're an Idiot to even ask after seeing this video.
2718. Sarlat: What is "true love" though? People have interpreted that idea very differently for much of human history. So I don't know that it's a good thing to prescribe to someone when we don't know what it is, some people don't think it exists, and yet others feel that the way it tends to be understood is detrimental to healthy relationships (aka the whole emotional dependence/Disney crap). Why not just "love", self-love especially? A lot less complicated for someone trying to move on tbh. Also, re "us non-cynics": The greatest compliment to us realists is to be called cynics, so thank you lol. I'm not fond of idealism: "the practice of forming or pursuing ideals, especially unrealistically". No thanks!!!
2719. Pink Glitter: If you're broken, you do not have to stay broken❤️
2720. ella Xx: Keep going, your amazing, your only human and it's ok not to be ok, I love you, forever and always🎈xxx
2721. sksksks: LoeyLane Loey!!!!!!!
2722. Jodi's Expat Life: I hate seeing him like this... it breaks my heart 💔
2723. RabbitDrawz: Hasn't it been 2 years now? No hate, I've just never seen anyone carry this stress with them for so long. Just saying, its really bullshit that you say Colleens side of the coin is perfect. Think about it. All of your videos are happy go lucky as well! I garuntee you she is holding in these same feelings just as you are. You cant judge how she feels based on her videos. Its just not okay.
2724. The Amazing Julia: praying for you josh. God will bring that joy and happiness in your life back. Your not alone. I use to be in a abusive relationship and it took my joy and happiness away, and I'm getting happiness and joy again. I may sound older in this comment but I'm just 19. love ya (P.S I hope you see my comment)
2725. khushi khushy: I know words is not enough to give support to you. just be strong and believe in yourself. Do things you love and force yourself to do it when you don''t want to. try some art therapy , I am sure this will help you at least a bit. :) <3 lots of love Joshua
2726. Kaelyn Jones: Seek your happiness in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4 There is nothing wrong with you. What and how you feel is COMPLETELY NORMAL. Many people feel the same way you do in similar situations. Seek Jesus. He is the answer to finding Love and happiness. Much love to you, Josh.
2727. Leesh C: Praying for you.
2728. Lexie B: I really appreciated this video Josh. It's really difficult when the other side seems to not hurt a lot, it really just makes everything worse. I've been in a tough place like that. I'm proud of you. I love this type of video. Stay strong!💜
2729. durban_girl: You are brave for admitting what you're going through and for getting help. This vlog will help so many other people. Thank you Josh. Sending you love and positive thought. xoxo
2730. Lisa H: It's not all good on the other side as it appears. At some point she will/is dealing with it as well. Some people cover their feelings in different ways. Just know life is full of blessings and happiness. You will get there. Keep your chin up it's going to get better.
2731. Quixii Q: I feel for you, Josh. For this past year especially but also before that, I've been really struggling too - I think with anxiety and a bit of depression rolled in. I actually really want to see a therapist because I'm not happy with how I've been feeling, but I haven't found one yet. I'm really glad you're getting some external help. I hope we all feel better soon.
2732. AOOOOOT: I was thinking about your well being just yesterday and hoping you'll be able to happily and safely overcome this obstacle. I completely understand how you are feeling. I am similarity going through this sort of situation and although the circumstances are different, we share a similar position. You're a huge inspiration to me, now more than ever...... I used to make a weekly video and I abruptly stopped filming when things got tough for me at the end of last year but your willpower to thrive is inspiring me to document my recovery as well. Perhaps I will document my process daily to get me moving alone.... Thank you so much for the positivity that you continue to spread even when you don't feel it in yourself. Trust me, it makes a huge difference and I hope you are soon able to feel the change in yourself as well. I love you Josh and I look forward to seeing your future successes and happiness. 💕 Ashley
2733. Charlotte Mackley: Josh, it's okay to not be happy, your still the guy you used to be, your still amazing and a great YouTuber! Of course your different in a great way. You've delt with stuff that sucks so bad and we all support you! Remember to stay strong stay positive! Look yourself in the mirror every day and tell yourself your amazing! Because I promise it will make your day much better even if it's only 1% better! Love you xx
2734. Xx•Shayla•Xx: Joshie BTW I call him joshie josh u will be okay u will get better ilysm💛😘🤞
2735. Cat23: Its the little things that pull you out. That smiling kid on the street. That funny meme on the net. The blossoming flowers in the garden. That gif from a friend. Even if its just a very small moment a day, it helps. And someday more of these moments happen. Just try everyday. Thats enough! You are not alone in this. ♡
2736. Brylie Brownell: So sad to hear you're hurting ! you're such a good person I hope happiness comes to you soon
2737. Tania Munoz: Josh your going to make it thru we all have too stay strong love!😎❤
2738. Bethany Redd: 1) Yay, daily videos! 2) Nothing is wrong with you. 3) She's hurting too. She just choses to not talk about it.
2739. Victim of Circumstance: Bit of advice stop watching her videos and stuff if it makes you sad that you're not apart of it anymore. I know easier said then done, but still.
2740. Julie Aronson: Good for your for seeking out help. I know it must be hard to see everything going on, but you also don't know what's really going on behind the cameras, so try not to let it get to you. I know that's easier said than done. But, you will find happiness again and you will find the person you are truly meant to be with and all this will be worth it and it will all make sense! It was a complicated mess when I met my now husband and it was hard to understand why we had to go through what we did, but now having our daughter, I now see why. If the timing hadn't been what it was, she wouldn't be here and she is everything! So, please know that timing is everything and all this will have a purpose some day. <3
2741. Ljj277: I can relate to feeling sad. It has never gone to the point of depression but it still made me feel pretty bad. I've also struggled with anxiety and resentment. I'm glad to see videos like this. I hope you feel better soon.
2742. Vicki: One day at a time sweetie. This too shall pass. Heartbreak is a part of life when you choose to love and it happens to the best of us. It helps us learn what we really want and what we don't want. It helps us appreciate when we have it really good too! When you find the right person, it will show you why the last person wasn't ❤
2743. Niki Silva: 💓💓💓💓
2744. Kat simmy: Just because you want to be happy doesn't mean you have to force it. Sometimes that can be the worse thing for you. Please don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say . Sometimes telling everyone you're ok and acting like everything's ok can be the worse thing for you because people expect you to be a certain way, a happier side of you but it isn't the best because you want to fulfil their needs so you force it and it makes you forever sadder because you feel like you're lying to yourself. I think you're the better person for being honest. It took me a long time to tell people the truth about how i was feeling and it was so difficult for me to open up because they only ever saw the happy side of me. Im glad you're finding time to think about how you feel and that you're talking to someone about it. It really does help. Im not going to lie, it can take time to bounce back but it will happen. Tbh I'm still trying to bounce back. I'm glad you're not keeping your thoughts to yourself anymore. I believe in you. All the love K xx
2745. Christina Wong: ❤😘
2746. Caitlin Murphy: i love you. you can get through this. I've gotten through my depression, and you will too. Do not give up
2747. NotDeadJustYet: if hiding the pain is wrong, and dealing and feeling is wrong, then what's the right thing to do?
2748. Kenzy Hayes: My brother has been going through the same thing and it hurts me to see all you guys hurting. Hang in there and be with people who love you. It's not going to be easy but just be with the people who make you the happiest. I wish I could give you a big hug. I know it's so hard but just know so many people love you and are here for you. You are amazing and have so many great things ahead of you! I'm so proud of you and I will always be here to support you. I am praying for you, Joshua. Hang in there. You are not alone. <3
2749. Bee Rose: I feel like you're putting a lot of pressure on yourself to feel better quick, now, today. It seems like that intensifies the situation. And sets an expectation that will not be met everyday. Sounds rough. I'm sorry. It can't be easy. What about some volunteer work? You're a young, able bodied man that could do a lot of good for people who may need help.
2750. Brenda Thayer: I'm 45, have 2 daughters ages 17 & 19. I'm suffering from depression right now and my dr is having the hardest time finding the right medicine for me. Every day just seems like another day gone by and i and my family miss the old me. I still have hope tho.
2751. Emily Ann: It's okay to not be okay. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I'm glad you are getting help. I can't say "everything will be okay", but it will eventually get easier. Maybe not great, or good, but it'll be better, even if just marginally.
2752. Victoria Larsen or VictoriaSkatez18: Amber Rodriguez it sure did because she just had a baby and has a good life now so clap clap zero bye bitch gone
2753. Alicia Olsen: Idk you, never watched 1 single vlog of yours... but this one popped in my recommended for some reason and I guess maybe thats because I needed to see it. I dont know your story. I dont know what you are going through, but i got mad respect for a HUMAN BEING who feels, who shows that he feels and then is BRAVE enough to seek help! You just gained a subscriber, sir! I hope this is the start to a new happy! xo
2754. Nell Urso: Michelle Wolfer the other side is a great person, no one did anything wrong; people just grow apart and that's what happened to them. Both of them are great people and I wouldn't call anything they did a "mistake". They both loved each other a lot, but overtime, things change, and they both changed so it wasn't anyone's fault or anyone's mistake; also I don't really thing that was a humble opinion but you can believe what you want. From your comment, I'm assuming you're a fan of josh so I can see where you could be coming from, but before making any statements that could hurt people, they to understand the whole, entire situation to know what is really happening, and then make a true, unbiased decision. Josh is a great person though and I can see why a fan would be upset, but just keep in mind that people deal with things differently and only show so much of them online.
2755. WhateverIsTrueASMR: "I find inner happiness for a moment. And then I lose it." I hate to be that person, but it's true - because the only true happiness, the actual JOY - is in Jesus! We will still have hardship, but we will have him as our rock & our hope when this world is rocky & hopeless ❤️ ❤️
2756. Solo V: You don't have to live that life. You were created to live in freedom. The Reason why you can't do it on your own is because your suppose to give it to God. He is always on your side and he knows you the best
2757. Michelle Hyatt: you are so strong and you can never let anyone tell you you can't do anything
2758. Melissa morsley: I feel the exact same way but I'm only 14 and mine started from the age of 10 when I realised that my disease (diagnosed at 6) was forever and was affecting my whole family and lifestyle but I wanted to be the happy person that I always have been which just made things worse in the long run. I started cutting a few weeks ago and I'm really trying to stop and it's hard but I'm doing it with the help of my boyfriend but I HATE that my parents have found out because they're now sad that I'm not the same person as I was before. Just thought I would write out my story to try and help someone here or something idk xx
2759. Karen Duller: Josh, you're not alone. Please don't ever forget that. You are NOT alone and you are LOVED. You do what you need to do for you in order to feel better. Be gentle and kind to yourself, you need to be compassionate with yourself. You'll get through this. Stay strong! 💜💙💚💛
2760. Joe Pepe: Just caught your vlog. Don't apologize for expressing your feelings be who you are and love yourself.
2761. Patricia Hughes: it wil get better
2762. brandy troutt: im so proud you made this video and im glad your choosing to do this! YOU CAN DO THIS MAN❤❤❤ I BELIEVE IN YOU!❤
2763. Bryony: lovely video, well spoken and i really hope you get back your connection to the world <3 love you always x
2764. kiah Scollie: Jus true that
2765. Molly Musker: I'm sorry josh I hope you feel better soon
2766. Gianna Martone: I love you josh!❤️ stay strong
2767. Jennifer Bartley: For the record, it's okay to not be okay. Remind yourself of that every morning, every night, every hour if you need to.
2768. CarrieDreams: That's the thing about feelings, you have to feel them and you don't have to "bounce back" you have to go through it. I love you Joshua and I promise NOTHING is wrong with you, you're human ❤️
2769. em&em: no one is always ok no one but they all heal in some way
2770. Kristi W: I'm sorry Joshua. But I'm proud of you for getting help and talking about it, you should NEVER be embarrassed about your feeling. Keep on keepin on ❤️
2771. Tiffany Diaz: love you josh im glad you are taking steps to get better.
2772. Emma Elizabeth: I feel just like how you feel right now and I don't know how to stop feeling like this
2773. Larissa Dee: I love these videos. We need them. It shows what so many are going through but don't exist on the platform to say it to the world. It makes us feel less alone.
2774. Katelyn Lehnert: You're awesome, keep fighting! It's okay to be sad. We all love you so much
2775. Daniel Hall: wow a 10 min video thats monitized about depression, i myself have depression, really bad to the point i tooka massive overdoes and was o deaths door. But i would never dream about chasing out on it.
2776. Marc Lorenz: stay strong Joshua!! 😓
2777. Ciara Vizzard: gosh am I in the same place as you. bless you for your honesty. Choo gat dis!!!! love and blessings to you on this journey. 😊
2778. Jillian Coffelt: I want to help you, but this whole youtuber to viewer relationship sucks, if you read this, know we are here. I know you have people, but if you TRULY want to talk, message me josh. I know exactly what it's like right now. You'll get better
2779. Alexa Edits: I love you Josh. I'm glad your getting help because I really don't like seeing you sad. You can get through this, one step at a time 💙
2780. Alejandra Loera: I love you josh❤️❤️ hope you feel better, we are here for you
2781. iinfinitydolans: And this video has made me have so much respect for you! I've been watching your videos since the beginning and I don't plan on going anywhere 💜
2782. Emily: "Life is like the sea. There are waves of good and bad". You deserve so much happiness josh and you should get it a boat and sail through them. Take life slow. You will get through it as will anyone who feels this way. I wish you all the best Josh. Take a break from YouTube and work on your mind set honey. We will be here when you need us and come back. Good luck Josh x
2783. Dedrea Pearson: I know the feeling but I’m happy he left
2784. scandalousjen: I like real.
2785. Stephanie Carter: Three years ago, my health changed and I fell into a deep depression. I think I knew something was wrong, but I didn't want to do anything about it because I didn't want to face the issues causing it. I went into the hospital for an infection related to my psoriasis in December and because the hospital had an old medication list, they started giving me an antidepressant I had been refusing to take. The change was almost immediate. I stayed on it and I've been fighting my way back. We're here for you Josh. We'll all get back to where we're supposed to be. One day at a time. But that means that your old "play auntie" in Michigan is gonna chase you down on social media if you try to disconnect again. By the way, I didn't leave my house but 12 times in about 2 years, so I understand.
2786. Susan McDonald: I'm lifting you up Josh, in Jesus name! Hang in there bud, love you !
2787. Chelse Tillman: Man I wish more people were open about depression. I've been stuck in a rut for far too long.. some days are better than most, but sometimes I cant be around people or get out of bed. I've lost like 25 in the past 8 months. Not having health insurance makes it hard to get treatment... but doing things that used to "ignite" you helps. Working out, reading, journaling... anything. Hang in there ❤️
2788. Theresa Wagner: Hang in there. You are amazing!
2789. Shabeel Girl: i love you and im so sorry
2790. Elli Kirkpatrick: This video makes my heart both happy and sad. But in the end, I feel confident that you will be okay, and life will be okay. I'm honestly so impressed and inspired by your honesty, transparency, and bravery for the past months. Just know that we are all supporting you and loving you from across the world.
2791. Nicholas J. Foles: Her face had more lines than a geometry exam. You're not missing out on much, dude. There are way hotter girls out there...
2792. Laura Gabrielle: progress isn't a straight line - recovery sometimes means steps backwards. but over time you'll look back and surprise yourself at how far you've come.
2793. Jmelina Cruz: i love you josh!
2794. Jessica Marie: I know what you're feeling Josh, my boyfriend dumped me last Saturday. And I lost my best friend today (6-8-17). I've been stuck in a hole and it feels like a never ending pit. I'm somewhat depressed and this break up really effected me in a terrible way. Seeing someone in somewhat of the same situation I'm in helps because I know I'm not the only one going through it. I know you might not see it but this gives me a place to talk and try and put light on things. Be nice to people xoxo ~Jess
2795. Millie Jones: We're all proud of you Josh! ❤❤
2796. Balckon White: Is he gay?
2797. Yasmeen Galvez: Why is she ok and he's not
2798. Artartbaby: you're a breath of fresh air
2799. The Maria: Hang in there. Things will get better. I have been there too. Still Enjoy your videos so just keep Being you even if you aren't sure about things. We are all human.
2800. Riz D: I hope everything goes well for you Joshua. Your​ a genuine person..Stay strong mate. 😍
2801. Na-Da Elmdari: feeling the same :) but i guess we gotta be strong enough to feel okay again. Good luck Josh <3 keep fighting it
2802. dominick lucido: josshh i've been there hardcore . there's always the strongest love of your past life, and getting over each one is a new mountain
2803. WAX MELT LOVER: Just another heartbroken guy that tried to make a hoe into a house wife. Just stop they are not worth it. Get you a REAL WOMAN not a little girl.
2804. Jesus Tena: honestly... i saw this coming since a loong lonng loong time ago, Josh, i wish could talk to you man. i sent you a msg on fb.
2805. Ella C: Josh, I've watched you from the beginning. I am currently going through the same stuff. It's hard to see the light through the darkness and to try to do it alone. I'm hard on myself too and battle with getting back to "true" self. I too want to just be happy and to find my purpose again. In time we will both get an I to being happy. 😊 I love you Josh and I am everyone else love you and are here for you. In times like this we need at least one person to talk too.
2806. Grace Kesler: I'm so proud of you it's really hard to admit when you don't have control of your life and your emotions. Thank you so much for talking about this tough subject it means a lot to people who are also going through tough times and mental illnesses. I love you and I hope you find your happiness again❤️
2807. AnimusFlux: We live in a world that celebrates shallowness in so many forms. We also feel pressures to be things that we are not. When you have to do things, all the time, that are not in alignment with who you really are you slowly die inside. Finding out who you really are and what is most important to you is the key to happiness. Happiness is not a destination but road trip. You can't live in constant bliss but you can manage your life so that you feel more fulfilled and genuinely happy rather than filling the void with shallow pursuits that usually revolve around the ego. I say this as someone who deals with alienation and depression. I strongly suggest anyone who is suffering from depression read about shame. We often feel shame for not being enough or not trying hard enough. This is a fallacy that keeps us in a constant cycle of shallow thinking because we try to fill the void with things that appeal to our egos instead of our souls.
2808. mariam bakkour: I really feel your hurting but I want you to know beautiful people like yourself only deserve beautiful and yes being nice to people eventually gets you to meet someone that will forever change your life I think u need to move on but it will take some time and also someone new to make up for what is lost now.I wish the best and understand truly what that feels like depression anxiety concern blaming yourself when it's not even your fault
2809. Stella Coulson: ❤️❤️
2810. Maggie Mae: stoppppppppppp oh my god this is so sad dude just take a break and stop making videos for a while
2811. Brooke Nicodemus: Omg when his voice started to break when he almost cried it broke my heart 💔❤️ love you josh
2812. Meg: Siobhan Clark Keep holding on. 💛
2813. Ava Grace: LOEY!!!!!
2814. Arnie Harrison: Thank you for shring this, alot of what you said sounded so familiar and it hit close to home and im now considering doing something about it. I didnt think I actually have a problem, i just thought its life and everyone has to deal with bs... Thanks man, good luck!
2815. Lillyxify: Shadows can feel how are you feeling animals are amazing 😘 I feel bad for you, but you have to move on, you know, like okay it's sometimes very hard, but it's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry, and god damn you're such a beautiful man I mean in the outside AND the inside! Maybe come in Switzerland and I'll show you the beauty of my country and share with you my happiness! I've been through a lot, I am only 26 but you know I take all the positive things and thoughts and I moved on! You are strong and you are an amazing man 😘 btw I love your voice every time I hear you singing that makes me shiver! Never forget that: don't wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and makes it perfect 😉 Life is too short to be wasted by negativity, and you deserve the best !
2816. KG: Nothing is wrong with you❤️ Your just missing pieces that will be replaced over time.❤️ I love you so much Josh I will be here through out all of this❤️
2817. Kay Alcock: Now you listen here Mr JoshuaDTV..... You are going to heal.... You are going to laugh one day and realise that you are laughing more and more and that sick feeling has got less and less..... There will be days when it will still make you sad and that will last forever but those days will get less and the happy days will get more. It takes time to make a heart love and time to heal it when it breaks. Until then just keep getting up everyday and loving yourself and surround yourself with positive people.... You say BE NICE TO PEOPLE..... You need to be nice to yourself and just do your best. I truly believe you are a lovely special person... And you will find someone who deserves and appreciates that. Big squidgy hugs being sent your way xx 🤗
2818. Georgia Cyp: I am glad you decided to see a therapist and thank you for sharing and openly talking about it! It's ok to feel this way...you don't need to be happy for us...do what you need to do for yourself! Sending lots of love from Melbourne, Australia ❤ ❤ ❤
2819. Lauren Barnett: Josh please let Fouseytube stay with you. I feel like y'all would have a really benefitting conversation.
2820. Cara Max: Don't let yourself be sad go do stuff get friends to come round relax
2821. Celeste Stamper: I think it's great you are being real about your depression . There is NO shame in it!! I also deal with depression since losing my husband to cancer. I have good days and some really bad days. I've gone to counseling and it does help. I've leaned to take life one day at a time and focus on the good in that day. Even the really dark days have something good in them. Focus on that!! I am proud of what you are doing. I will be following your journey as I continue mine.
2822. Miguel Velazquez: wow!! congratulations... you are brave!! hope you can find what you really need... a big hug from puerto rico... blessings
2823. Sara D: there is nothing wrong with you.....your normal and have feelings like everyone else, you just have a camera with you....im sure that she is hurting also, shes just handling it diff.....we are all here for you through your ups and downs and we all love you <3 be strong stay positive love you <3 <3 <3 <3
2824. akaBrit: tammy ryan yeah ik I wasnt trying to judge I was just typing a statement.
2825. Rozlyn Redick: I went threw a very hard time a few years ago. I get where he is. But he needs to just go to his family and get surrounded with love. It WILL make him feel better.
2826. Jessica Sanicki: Josh, I can relate in so many ways. I have depression and everyday is a constant struggle. I have had a traumatic experience as well. I have lost my boyfriend of almost five years this past September. Needless to say, it has taken me a while to repair. Your videos make me not feel alone. Love you, Josh 💕
2827. Anna Castleberry: This was hard for you to say, but my gosh it made me cry. I was really hurt last year by someone I have known my entire life, and I have not seen my friends or most of my family since. It is hard for me to get through the week. I don't know how to break out of my depression. People have told me to fight and get mad to help me get better. The person who hurt me never talked to me or gave me any reason why. I feel very insignificant. so you talking about this and not understanding why you are so hurt, and not knowing why it seems fine on the other side really struck me. it does make me feel something is wrong with me. your honesty has helped. thank you so much for this vlog.
2828. Ron M: that s all? Hell alot of people are depressed..you deal with it dumbass and move on. smdh This is just to gain more views,likes,and subscribers....these dumbasses doing click bait videos and doing the who is me videos are what is ruining youtube
2829. Lauren Kate: Erin O I fully agree and yours is the first comment I've seen that makes sense - there is NO good in bashing "the other side" as most people are... because EVERYONE deals with things DIFFERENTLY. If you are outwardly not seeing an emotion it does not mean that the person is not feeling that emotion.
2830. 한아름: I want to go to you and hug you, kiss you, tell you that everything will be alright but I can't. Because I'm living way too far from you. That doesn't mean I can't tell you how much I support you. Joshua, you are an amazing person and I know that you will continue to be in the future. This is the perfect time to find yourself and heal. You have amazing friends and family and fans to help you with that and I assure you that everything will turn right in the end. Love you lots buddy!
2831. A Shady Cat: Tyus Sheppard To be honest I don't know what to say except that Jesus loves you anyway, and he wouldn't treat you different than anyone else if you were standing in front of him. Edit: Also, I'm sorry it brings you pain, I don't wish that on anyone and it makes me sad.
2832. beep boop: why so many christians in the comments bruh lmao
2833. Caileigh Hagen: I wonder what's wrong with me envy day it's normal and it's ok. You're going to be ok! You are loved and it's ok to feel however you feel. Sending love your way ❤️
2834. Laura Kist: i do really get how you feel. Have the same problem. You get a happy for maybe like a little while and then you'll be down for like 2 weeks. I've had this problem for like a year now and I'm still having this problem. I even went to a therapist but it isn't helping that well...
2835. Auri H.: RM Aquatics and you know this how?
2836. blonde pt: Keep it moving ❤️❣
2837. Audrey Graham: I feel like I have to hide to all the time!!!
2838. Creature Made Treasure: I went away off the channels for a bit and waited for this to be over and after nearly a year I came back and you uploaded this. Made me realise we are all human and all go thru this and this makes me so sad to see. I hope you both find your lives back. Therapy is a good start. You will get thru this. It is a test of our emotions, and yes dont say sorry!!! This is YOUR channel. Thank you for this upload you are an amazing strong human being!
2839. Addison Lassiter: so much respect for you! keep your head held high bud, you'll soon get through it i promise.
2840. Robyn: Listen to some Tool man. It will help.
2841. Serg119: Yes thank you for saying that. I am a dedicated fan of her's and I have watched her videos for a long time. She is OBVIOUSLY not fine. She is hurting just as much. People can't just make up assumptions about things they have no idea about and will never have any idea about. Divorce is a double edged-sword. It hurts for both people. They were together for nearly a decade and I'm seeing people in the comments saying, " She's fine" or "She never cared" OF COURSE SHE CARED OMG THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE SAYING. THEY WERE MARRIED FOR GOD'S SAKE. Ugh I could go on all day. Anyways, thank you for your comment.
2842. Leah Schultz: There's nothing wrong with you, Josh. You had your heart broken. That is not easy to deal with. It is not something you just get over. It takes time, it takes help, it takes tears... Healing is a slow process. Acknowledging that you are consistently not okay and starting therapy is a huge step, and we're all very proud of you. Remember that other people choose what to put out into the world, and some people prefer not to be as open about their emotions. That doesn't mean they're not hurting, just that they choose not to show it. It's very brave to show your emotions on such a public platform. I hope that you can find genuine happiness, in whatever form it comes. Don't be afraid of medications if your doctor recommends them to you. They've helped me immensely. You can always go on a low dose and go off it when you think you're ready. But if you don't want to use them at all, that's fine too. I believe you've said you're a Christian, so I highly recommend praying to God and letting yourself cry to Him, telling him everything without holding back. I often cry while praying, and I always feel better afterwords, like a weight has been lifted from my chest. Good luck with your journey. We are all rooting for you, and we're sending love and prayers your way.
2843. Rebeka Abraham: Josh can you please look into Christianity. Like really look into it if you have any friends that are Christian ask them questions because God really does help because He knows you. He doesn't promise to make everything perfect but He promises to be with you in your times of need. That's all I wanted to say. I'll pray for you xx
2844. Jeannie Bennett: Good for you Josh! :)
2845. Anna McPherson: I'm so sorry, Josh. I just want to encourage you and let you know that even though this will be a long process it shows just how deeply you love and how deeply you care. And THAT is a beautiful thing.That's the way it should be. Experiencing the grief of divorce is not an easy thing and it shouldn't be a quick process to sort through. Nothing is wrong with you. The sacredness of giving yourself to someone and becoming 'one' through marriage is a physical and spiritual event and separating yourself from such strong ties (especially being fully and utterly committed, as you were) doesn't come easy. You're moving forward even though it doesn't feel quick or easy... you are. Even one tiny baby-step forward is one step closer to being out of the mess of pain, loss, and depression. Rooting for you. Glad you're connecting with a therapist - we all need someone to help us sort through the hard things in life with. Thanks for sharing your inner-most thoughts. We are in this with you... you're not alone. Blessings to you.
2846. AnLa Trapp: I love that you're so raw and honest with your dingleberries! ❤️
2847. Jonathan Josey: The Key to permanent, everlasting happiness is through Jesus Christ, hit me up if you want to talk about him, foreal!
2848. Jennifer Hobson: Don't apologize. You are doing what you can for this time in your life. I am glad you are getting help. ((Hugs))
2849. Hannah Rice: Here's the deal. There is no shame in getting professional help. Maybe you are "clinically depressed," maybe not. Either way is okay. As someone who has needed therapists and anxiety meds at times, plus extra support after a divorce, I've been there, man. The more we're open about our struggles/mental health, the more that stigma will go away. I'm glad you're doing what you need to for yourself. Love to you.
2850. spmunro: "What's wrong with me?" As someone who's, ahem, 'older' than most of your viewers I can honestly say you're NOT depressing (us) by being honest with your feelings. As someone who has been rough around the edges the last few years too, therapy with the right therapist is an AWESOME way to move forward. High five (and a hug) to you and this journey you're on.
2851. Carli Pantelas: Josh I love you. I need this rn, I used to be so happy and then it was all just taken away from me quickly. You're an amazing human being thankyou for this ❤️
2852. Andrea Orozco: stay strong dude, you got this. Keep fighting and don't lose hope. Also just wanted to let you know that it is 100% completely normal to feel this way, nothing is wrong with you, it's just a little bump in the road. My prayers are with you❤
2853. Arianna Garcia: Everything you said, is basically what I feel rn. Im going through my own journey & I feel you. I understand.
2854. mykaela foss: what blew up in his face or like what happened
2855. mxhdfnell: No worries Josh. Do what u have to do, cause everything helps.
2856. Brye World: Praying for you💞💞
2857. Juliet Dabenett: crying. Love you Josh <3
2858. Gregory Dalton: ❤️
2859. Naomi Lowery: sounds like your 1st therapy session did good. don't give up - keep moving forward.
2860. Natalie Martin: I'm praying for that darkness to exit your heart immediately right now Josh. ❤️ My husband and I love you ❤️
2861. Hot Chicken: Hey Josh, you need to be true to yourself. I'm glad you are seeking out help, it's such a great outlet! You are right, it is a long process, but so worth the work. By being real, you are helping people so much more than you know! Take care, and just allow yourself the time to heal, and grow! I'm excited to see where life takes you next, and if that includes a new love, she will be an extremely lucky girl!
2862. Nikki Schnute: Thought this was your coming out video
2863. AWAKEN UNSHAKEN: I am a 45 yr old woman, who was happily married for 20 years. In December 2016, my whole life blew up....crumbled around me. My soon to be ex husband now lives out of state. I have good days and days that feel like death would be better. That is just to tell you how much I identify with where you are. I am looking for whatever is going to pull me out of this black hole too. Given, that I gave my entire professional life to building his dream, I also have to find a way to support myself and my 2 kids that are still at home...like, yesterday. I am definitely dealing with something, I am trying my hardest as well, and in my higher moments, I will be sending you as many high vibes as I can. The ONLY thing I am certain of is that NOTHING STAYS THE SAME, AND THAT THIS TOO, SHALL PASS. Funny...I was thinking of using "Jaded" as a screen name for a new channel....lol....I never thought I would be that person either, yet, here I am. Much love to you. ~♡~
2864. debscute: You have been trying. So much you have been. We love you so much ❤
2865. Areanna Solorio: God please give home strength. And happiness. Real happiness. Amen.
2866. TAMMY R: I have suffered over two years with depression.I see a THERAPYST and I've isolated myself and that one big word you used CONSUMED ME!!😩I think this is a brave. Empowering video your opening up to millions of viewers,,I. Have pushed away my family,my friends,and your so right. Make excuse when I'm invited places I say I'm sorry. I. Have plans,then. I sit home, alone,,,,My. Mom fell. Two years ago I had no choice but to put her in a nursing home,this was the beginning of my depression. This place was terrible. I didn't have help,she only had Medicaid and trust me,if I could of taken care of my mom. I would of been there,,I visited my mom regularly and my daughter and grandson ,always there and then last April my mom died,,,of edema. 😩I have sheltered myself,never suicidal,but literally numb..I am glad you opened up. Josh 😊😊god bless you,you realized you need help that's the first step of many new steps,,as I watched your video I saw myself, life is too short😊I must try harder,,
2867. Google User: With therapy, put your mind to learning something. Try to learn about cultures, languages, sciences, and most importantly try to look through religions. Try to study different religion. Do comparitive religious studies, it will change your LIFE. Try to study Islam, its all over the news anyway. Lol jokes apart, it is the religion of truth and its high time you learn about it. Youtube stories of Yusha Evans, Yvonne ridley. They will blow your mind and bring you so much healing.
2868. talia Freund: you r not alone ur fans r with u
2869. aracelylimon09: It's really good you're seeing someone about your depression. What happened was like a death. You really loved/love her. Its going to take time. Surround yourself with new people and places. ❤ I wish you all the best!
2870. Annamarie Marcello: "Give your burdens to the Lord and he will take care of you." Psalm 55:22-23. Thinking of you Josh, stay strong. ♥️
2871. Ria Pi: What you describe sounds a lot like the type of depressive state that I went through a couple of years ago. The single best thing that helped me was accepting help in the form of medication. Anti-depressants changed my life.
2872. DDZines: Everyone needs to feel whatever the feeling is for their own amount of time. If you are sad, give yourself permission to feel that for as long as you need to. There is no set time for our feelings. Look to meditation, yoga, whole foods, Reiki, and just telling yourself that everything is okay. Everything happens in the right time, whether it feels that way or not. Feel it. Be present. Let go of what no longer serves you. Feel what you're experiencing so you can release it back to the universe. You are always so full of love and light. You will get back to that place in your own time. We aren't supposed to be up, happy and perfect all the time. Give yourself permission. Wishing you the best in your journey. 💖
2873. ivym151: ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
2874. Suzanna Harrison: josh, it is prefectly okay to feel down. what you went through would break anyone. of course we would love to see you coming back with videos everyday especially if it would make you happy. your life changed in a flash and its going to take time to heal from it. true fans of your will understand. we will be here for you. <3
2875. Jeremy Robbins: Josh your a good person and I really am your friend
2876. Patrícia Arabella Kovács: Josh, i know you can get through this. You have so much power and strength within you. You can do this. We are here for you, we support you and we love you. 💖💖
2877. Emanuel Oviedo: Dude, if you need to cry, cry. If you need to be sad in your videos just do it. If you pretend to be happy everyone will stop watching your videos. And, honestly, if you really were happy now, you'd be an idiot. (if you know what i mean) Hi from Argentina.
2878. willissar: Very impressed by your strength and honesty. Keep it up! Sending you love and prayers; this is just one of life's battles and you'll come out better on the other side.
2879. Bianey Sanchez: Go to school Get a part time job Volunteer Try to distract yourself and maybe it will lead you to the right path or maybe even to the right arms. Don't apologize! One take videos sound great, that's all you gotta do honestly and we'll still be satisfied! ❤️
2880. Emmy Cramer: There's nothing wrong with you. You're amazing and awesome and super funny, and it's okay to not be okay. Even if it's for a long time. At some point, it will look up for you
2881. Emily Livingston: im new and i just subscribed because i saw his video in my suggested, who is everyone talking about when you say "she". im confused can someone please explain😂 and always keep your head up josh❤❤
2882. Sarah Kendall: I still see you Josh. Love you xx
2883. Nicole Steinmetz: Let God hold you in this hard time. He truly has a plan for you, despite the hurt. Actually, He will use your hurt and create something beautiful in your life if you let Him help you. Im so sorry for the hurt you've been through...the pain is real but so is God and He can restore joy and peace and love in your life. Praying for you :)
2884. Lauren: There is nothing wrong with seeking support and help and feeling the feelings you're feeling. There's nothing wrong with you. You're human. You're hurt. So glad you're getting help. I think EVERYONE should go to therapy, actually, depression or not. It's good to get things out. So happy you're on a new path!
2885. MALO DIY: I don't know why the hell am I watching all the negative videos on utube first I watched calebs death (Annie's bro ) then I watched a short film on bullying and then I am now watching joshua so sad I feel so negative now
2886. Maggie Ryan: we are here for you josh! (Cliche?) ❤️
2887. Emy Rose: i love you so much especially for your genuine honesty, I have been depressed for so many years now and I never had the courage to tell anyone, I still don't and it's getting worse. anyway I love you be strong I know you're gonna get through this and be a better person because of it. and I am sooooo happpy that I get to see you everyday 😘
2888. Chyne Berry: we are all here for you Josh. you had your heart broken and your world shattered. it will take time to heal. it could take a few months, or it could take as long as your relationship was, or even longer. just do things for you that make you happy. and eventually you will notice things falling into place. I know with you both being on the Internet it will be hard.....but if you need to, completely block the other person in every way possible on social media to not have that reminder for awhile. you do not need to feel bad, nor apologize for feeling this way. you're healing from something that flipped your life upside down. we're all here for you. and we love you too dude.
2889. Gabi Var: basic stuff me too. i was kinda shocked
2890. Trace King: Thank you so much for being real, raw, and honest with us. Keep your head up...and YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!!!!
2891. Jack Of all trades: Wow. 100% liberal. If you were my son you would rub some dirt on it and get back out there. This is a perfect example of the type of "men" our daughters have as potential mates! His ex is more of a man than he, bless his heart.
2892. Maya Madolyn: I'm so proud that you went to a therapist and recognized you need help. There's nothing wrong with needing help. You're being a great role model. You will get through this <3
2893. Kaitlyn Sharrun: Awww I wish I could just go up to Josh and give him a huge hug. I love you Josh and good job on putting this out there! You got this!
2894. Nicholas Yaekle: I honestly couldn't be happier to hear you say "See you tomorrow."  I'm confident that putting yourself to work more will help you keep things off your mind and in the end, daily videos will be what has helped you pull through.
2895. Vlogs with Maddy: 😞This is so sad
2896. misscoreyeliza: Sending unconditional love your way <3
2897. Rob B: Don't be so attached to happiness. Happiness comes and goes, and not being happy doesn't mean sad. Even if you're feeling bad there's nothing wrong with you. Be where you are fully. Be yourself. Learn a new skill. Do something creative. Write poetry. Keep moving. Keep talking. You're fine, friend.
2898. Faith: Very proud of you. Truly. You've taken the largest step going to therapy and helping yourself. The scariest step was telling the internet about it. It will all get easier in time. You know you have the largest team behind you! ❤️ ✌️
2899. Glowbugs: There is NOTHING wrong with you! You are such a great guy with loads of talent, a great personality and good looks!! Divorce is like a death of a close loved-one - takes time to get over and work through it. Unfortunately bad things can happen to good people (like you) - but it can make them stronger in the end. It's such a good thing you have your little shadow - when you are depresssed or down, it's good to have something else to think of and care about other than yourself and your own troubles. Some people even do a little volunteer work or some such thing to help with feelings of dwelling on themselves. Don't give up & do take care of - you. I think someday you will get thru this, come out fine, and it will lead you to your real life's purpose and plan!
2900. Michael Amorose: .....Josh, God bless you..I m so sorry I have very bad depression as well... and my mom does too... I'm not currently living with my mom cause she has bipolar disorder.. and now sense she went to jail she has probation and now I can't see... God bless u...I'm going through a bad time as well. may God be with u
2901. Cassie Brand: Sending love, man! have you thought about registering Shadow as an emotional support animal?!? it has helped me beyond reason!
2902. Christina Thach: Everything happens for a reason. 😊
2903. Celine McArdle: It's okay to be sad. Honestly. I think it's because you cared a lot more. You loved a lot more. You tried so much harder. Your sadness is valid. The other side seems so perfect. It's probably not. And if it is then it's because she didn't hold marriage in as a high a standard. You shouldn't feel bad for caring more
2904. Catelynn Brown-Morgan: Proud of you💕💕💕💕
2905. Theresa Stone: proud of you. therapy is good. self inventory is good. come to Hawaii. we'll go jump off rocks. rooting for and praying for you. a lot of us have been exactly where you currently are. it takes time, and everyone has their own clock. don't rush it. you are just in time. love, peace...and aloha.
2906. Trina Neri: i don't think shes okay either. i think she just keeps busy and keeps pushing herself.
2907. Kaylan Martin: I know it feels like she isn't upset and that you are the only one who is upset but I promise that she probably feels the same and she's better at hiding and you aren't WHICH IS TOTALLY OKAY! people react to things differently I love you Josh! stay strong! God will always be there run to him!
2908. Irene Cheon: Thank you so much for posting this video. Only time can heal and I hope you can feel better as time goes by. We are all here to support you :)
2909. Nadia Falvo: i love youuu xx everythings going to be okay
2910. YukariS: NOTHING is wrong wtih you! you are fighting! you are a fighter! Thank you for sharing your journey!
2911. NoahsMamah: Josh I just wanted to reach out, I am a 27 year old mother to a 4 year old son, I am in the beginning stages of a divorce from my husband, we have been together 13 years, and married 8 brought a beautiful child into the world together. To say I'm heartbroken does not cut it, I am much like you in the sense that I have placed so much importance on love and romance and finding and building a family, that I have completely forgotten (actually don't know if I knew in the first place) how to be alone. I ask myself what is the point of anything if no one loves me or if I'm not in a relationship. The separation of my family has thrown me into the darkest time of my life. I hope for both of our healing and growing through our separate situations. I simply wanted to reach out and say I relate, I'm feeling what you're feeling and your videos are helping me to feel less alone. Thank you and good luck to you 💚
2912. Katy Kalyptra: I mean, you married that psycho... I can understand why you're messed up.
2913. Katie T: Josh, u inspired me when I first saw your videos And I look forward to seeing u and your vids We are all here for u whenever u need it we luv you and will never forget it. Show your feelings and we will help u through it !! WE LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS Will❤❤ -Katie
2914. Emily Laporte: K
2915. linnjeanette: You're brave. This is only temporary :) Going to therapy is something everyone could use to some degree - understanding yourself and your feelings better helps you grow as a person. It helped me a lot when I felt like I had lost myself. And when I didn't understand how everyones life was moving forward when I felt like I was stuck. You know you can do this. The grass might look greener on the other side, but for all you know it could be fake grass. Focus on yourself 💖 I'm looking forward to the day when you're truly happy. When there are more good days than bad ones. You deserve nothing less :)
2916. Ashire Marie: I genuinely hope you get out of this. It's hard but do whatever you can to be happy. No matter how far you'll have to go, never stop looking for happiness, whether that means looking for love again, try to reconnect with her somehow or just find the good in things, you will get out of this. I love you and i wish you the best ♥️🌹
2917. Simone Purdon: She isn't a terrible person however I don't think she was right to divorce you 😿 You're sad cause you loved her and that's a strength not a weakness and you're even stronger for looking at the lessons learned and bouncing back. It's inspiring for everybody 😊
2918. Emma Bunny: Happiness starts and ends with Jesus Christ. Draw nearer to Him and your life will change completely <3
2919. Stereotypic Teen: There's nothing wrong with you. Obviously you are sad and shook up because of what happened. Just remember not to put too much pressure on yourself. You're not a downer. You can show that you're down it doesn't matter. Scientific research shows that crying makes you feel better.
2920. marti fishkin: im so proud of you. it's gonna take time and it's not gonna be easy but in the end it's gonna be ok. i love you.
2921. Libbie Easton: It's okay to not be okay. Not being okay is being human. ❤️
2922. Jane Timm Baxter: Homosexuality is mentioned one time in the bible. Jesus never even spoke of it; He did, however, speak often about judging others. Just something to keep in mind - if you want to go by the bible, that is.
2923. Rachel Lovette: My heart is still so broken for you. You didn't just lose a spouse, you lost a family. Hurting is okay, one day it'll be better. It will take a long time. Please be okay with being sad. You'll find someone who will appreciate you for you.
2924. Ellen Francis: Thank you Josh for being so honest and keeping it real :) I will be here supporting you every step of the way!
2925. Shelby Teitelbaum: This was amazing. I'm crying right now but I know what you're saying. You are so strong and so many people love you and will love you through all of this. One day at a time ❤️
2926. myfairytalelife3: Josh, I know you probably won't see this, but in the hopes that you probably will I'm still writing this. Even though we're not going through the same circumstances, we are still feeling the same. I feel just as you feel right now, and the way you expressed yourself in this video is exactly how I feel my life is at the moment. But I know that this is only temporary, and that things will always get better, because it's happened before to many people and they've come out of many dark places. Just keep going and stay strong. And to whoever else reads this, always remember that you are stronger that you think you are, and you will always make it.
2927. bailey butler: I give you so much respect for making this. I've supported you for a while and I will continue to. You're an amazing person. Stop beating yourself down. I know what it feels like. Just know it'll get better. I know easier said than done, but I mean it.
2928. India Weston: sometimes it help to let it off your chess, from time to time. we 💜 you.
2929. joel3977: it took me 5-6 years to heal .....take things slow. do charity work. help ppl. sometimes by helping ppl, you help yourself. have someone to talk to. healing takes time. remember that....
2930. Emily Spofford: You are an amazing person. When I met you I said thanks for being amazing and I meant it. You are amazing and you will get through this. ❤️❤️❤️
2931. Harjet Singh: i love you
2932. Neta McKinney: Brave step! Not an easy one but necessary.
2933. miss.nanners: You are simply amazing, you do what works best for you. It's okay not to feel good, what you're doing to resolve and grow from it is the best thing you can do! Therapy is a helpful tool. Thank you for your heart and feelings, you're going to be okay. 💕😏
2934. Diego Navajo: You're great . Stay strong
2935. Rebecca Wilson: This is why you are one of the most important members of the Youtube community... You are honest, vulnerable, and boldly showing your reality. Seeing you being honest over this past year, while I missed daily videos and seeing you incredibly happy, has further cemented why you have been my favorite Youtuber for so long... You always come back to real emotions, real feelings, and real life. You have provided us all with so many years of content (that has helped us through both light and dark times)- and any way we can be of help to you, that's amazing. I wish you the best, my friend.
2936. moon light: I hope you read this. I totally know the feeling of feeling like you are hurting more from a breakup than the other person. You do question what is wrong with you and why are you hurting so much when the other person seems totally fine. It is a horrible pain and it took me years to overcome it, but it totally gets better with lots of time and patience. You have to think of it this way, you are grieving the loss of someone. Grief is intense. It's like that person has died because they are just gone, out of your life, except you can still hear about them and they seem okay in comparison. They might be stuggling, but in a different way from you. You will find that love and happiness again. I am now with someone who is a far better fit for me and I am far happier. I'll never forget my forner love. They will always hold a piece of my heart, but I am much happier now and have learned so much and have grown so much. I feel your pain and know you WILL heal. With time and effort, you WILL heal. Your feelings are so very human. But remember, you cannot do it alone always! A serious, impactful breakup will change you forever. You will become a differenr person. It'll be a dark and jaded person for awhile, but a new version of you will emerge and he will be different too, but he will healed.
2937. Delirious’ Teddy Bear: One day at a time Josh. That's all that it takes. I have major depressive disorder with social anxiety with an extrovert inner self. You took the first step and that's all that matters. There is nothing wrong with you. Things will get better. Keep drumming on, kid. ✌🏼❤️
2938. Starrrs21: Nothing is wrong with you Josh. I wish you would stop beating yourself up about the way you feel. Your feelings are a natural part of you... there's nothing right or wrong about them. Therapy is a step forward :) take care!
2939. Cherry.Ding.Dong: The breakup of a long term relationship is like a bereavement, especially when you were not the one who chose it. I'm glad that you are getting help, whether professional or from your friends. Both are important. You don't need to apologise for needing that. Changing is ok too. You will be a different person at the end of it. That's what humans do. We have to evolve to survive, and that applies to our heart as well as our biology. Perhaps some of those people who want you to just "get over it" will not be there when you come out the other side. But those who matter will be. Your family, your true friends. I hate this idea of "choose happy" - because it's not that simple. Sometimes being happy takes hard work, on ourselves, on our relationships. Mental health is as important as physical health, and you should not feel the need to apologise for taking care of either. For my part, I would rather see one honest vlog than 100 fake happy shallow videos. Take the time you need, and don't be afraid to be yourself. You seem like a really nice, genuine person.
2940. Unpolished: Im still tryna be best friends with you, but you just dont wanna DM me on IG or Twitter, or life... when u wana be best friends... DM ME :|
2941. Abstract Haven: Glad you are getting help. ❤
2942. Amber Romano: as my girl selena gomez wisely said " if you are broken you dont have to stay broken" i truly believe this because i went through this exact same thing you are going through and i just want you to know that we have your back josh and we love you
2943. Emily Jade: Is this about his divorce again?
2944. Kim Love: So dang proud of you! It takes so much strength to get help.
2945. Kareena Holloway: Brittany Garza You said that perfectly. I'm so glad to see Josh being real. It's a breath of fresh air!!
2946. Maria Ruiz: love u Josh stay Strong 😍
2947. Izzy R: i love when YouTuber open up and share what they feel. personally its relatable for me, and it helps in a way .. so thank you . 💙❤💙
2948. Skyler Durden: Josh what equipment do you use?
2949. georgia peach: Stay strong, we got you Josh! We love you ❤️
2950. Ciara Collins: we all love you there always something to bring you up like your sister dont beat yourself up know many people love you it funny how i tell you this but i feel the same way
2951. musicly lover love you: I hope you find happiness Josh you are one of the You Tubers that make me fell happy to me
2952. Abigail Ayala Romero: I think you guys were meant to be but she is the one that gave up on the relationship because she starting being famous. So it's her fault, and you shouldn't feel bad or guilty. Time is going to fly and maybe who knows, she might come back
2953. Christi Peabody: I really think I'm a kindred spirit. If you wanna take a shot in the dark (or maybe "in the light" may be more appropriate here 😜) - feel free to DM me on Twitter. @rabbioli
2954. Eden Kahiga: its ok to take the L but you gotta bounce back and i can't wait to see u bounce back "last night i took the L but tonight i'll bounce back
2955. Autumn: Jut know that divorce usually takes about 5 years to completely get over but it makes you a different person. Keep your head up and just remember the pain is only temporary and all the hurt will get better. I've been divorced for 3 years now and things for me are finally looking up. It's just a work in progress. It's also a lot of talking and getting out your true feelings about things. Sometimes even writing it all down and burning it will help change your mind set. You gotta find a release. So that you can express and let it go.
2956. Hayden rwby: It'll get better Josh. Nobody here should be blaming you. I support you. And I hope everyone else does too.
2957. Kylamay: Thanks for sharing and letting us be part of this journey. It's okay to show sadness. I think it helps and seeking help is a great step in the right direction. <3 u
2958. Emily Amendola: its sad that I relate so much to what he's feeling. I started going to therapy this year bc I fell deep into depression. like how you said, you try to bounce back and only get an inch off the ground is exactly how I feel. its a feeling of suffocation. I get it I get it. its something you can't avoid. and you can't even point it out, like whats wrong.. you can't even point it. I can't figure it out. it hurts to be hurting. and I understand that completely. I've been going to talk for around 2 months now.. and I'm always up and down. and its hard. we'll be fighting together.
2959. Quinn Huyg: Fastest I have ever clicked EVER
2960. Chloe McElroy: You deserve to be happy josh, you deserve more. Stay strong josh xxxxx I love you. wish I could give u a big hug I wish I could make it all better, if I could I would ❤️
2961. LA Fresh Life: It's the dark times that will make your next wave of good times feel all that much better. So cliche, but what doesn't kill you DOES make you stronger. Thank you for sharing your story!
2962. Beauty by Monica: There is NOTHING wrong with you! Hang in there and know people care about you and your well being. You just gotta take it one day at a time; one moment at a time. You've been through a lot and I thank you for being genuine and not faking who you are! You're are stronger than you realize! God bless!
2963. Juuzou: I know how you feel. It's a hard place. We are all for you. I like seeing the honest you. 💜
2964. Abby Dudley: Proud of you, love you, I support you
2965. Emily Lawyer: You are so strong to come here and tell your feelings to basically yhe world. what you are going through is hard enough but to get in front of a camera to let everyone know that if you just keep moving and keep your head up and do the right things....life will be ok and go on. You are amazing. did I say that yet? Please know that I have been where you are and feel weak sometimes and seeing you and how strong you are helps me. I feel like I'm probably one of your oldest (32) fans lol. but I can't stop watching your vids. love you!
2966. Mariah: I absolutely love how unapologetically human you are. Please continue your healing process step by step. Every positive change is a step forward.
2967. Isabelle: I can't wait to watch whatever you post Joshua!!! :) You've been through a lot, but you're showing people that you can come out stronger than you ever thought was possible! I'll always be a faithful viewer! :D
2968. Rusty Brown: We are here for you no matter what, to talk or just listen.you tell us what you need and we will do our best for you.
2969. Alice Catry: i promise you will be ok take a rest live for you
2970. MsTuga12: Thank you sooo much for this genuine realness. You are super amazing about your whole situation. Even though you feel so weak, honestly you are being super strong the way that you are handling yourself and your channel. You're realness is amazing. Do not stop. Please don't stop!
2971. Kat12345: I love you Josh, and I appreciate you being honest/real with us, and I hope you find happiness within yourself very soon ❤️
2972. Khyra's Edits: She hasn't let go easily she is holding it in
2973. Priyanka Kar: I feel just the same josh, I kinda went through the same thing like the way you did, infact at the same time...I'm still coping up with life despite the depression I'm suffering with. I know you can conquer this :) its gonna end someday and it will end and you get all your happiness back. Love you Josh <3
2974. Teddy Bear: its okay Josh just look after yourself and its ok to not be ok
2975. Kristen Labus: I needed to hear this vlog. I'm going through a painful breakup up. I feel very lost and empty. I'm thinking of counseling too. It is comforting knowing your not alone in the things you feel. It's what makes us human and connects us to each other.
2976. Kate Ponsiek: I think the first thing to understand is that people grieve differently. She happens to submerge herself into her work to try and bury the sadness and you wear your heart on your sleeve; the grief- it consumes you. But because of the way you move through the hurt you will fully heal...she may never. Secondly, there is such a bad stigma when it comes to therapy. When people are sick they go to the doctor.. that's all it is. You are actively trying to work through this and that is half the battle, Josh. You are stronger than you know.
2977. Carys Sapp: Prey with god.
2978. Gabe Beach: What about marijuana... that helps me. btw I feel you man <3
2979. Jenna Germana: cheers to you for taking the steps to get healthy. mental health is so important and I am so glad you are recognizing that! Your friends and family will support you no matter what.
2980. victoria pinkston: Katie Marie in 30 years this will still matter. it was his first love. it's his ex wife. 50 years from now this will matter. that's rude of you to say it won't matter.
2981. Aleena Islam: Dude I promise u this is just a mere bump!!! Ull get over it and this will lead to bigger things for u
2982. Luna O: Josh, It will come with time. That is all I can tell you. What you are dealing with now, this is the tough part. Its not easy, I know. And its not going to be easy. But you've gotten through the worst of it. Getting a therapist was the first step towards getting better and thats what you need to realize. Once you know that, even if you still feel the way you do, you will start to feel a little bit better. Just never get back on hope. You are trying to find yourself and that is never easy. Keep holding on, I know you can do it.
2983. Brenda Phomsaath: Stay positive ❤️
2984. ybperky1: I think your videos have been great lately! You're doing a great job!
2985. Elise Woods: This is EXACTLY how I feel right now. This really speaks to me. It's so hard to wonder what's wrong with you when you're constantly absorbed in sadness. It's embarrassing to be depressed..Hoping to find my happiness again...hoping you find yours too...
2986. Kristine Marie: I relate 100% with you right now. I've been in this rut for 5 years now and I really hope we can go on this journey together. I love your one takes. Hope you start feeling better soon.
2987. Cara Walker: Harry Krinkle Welcome back Harry! Glad to be freaked out every time I see you everywhere 👀
2988. Gina Schwieger: 1 in 3 people go through a bout of depression in their life. You are not abnormal and you are taking the rights steps! I went through something similar, thinking that I could get myself out of a dark place but really therapy and counseling are great things! I also take Zoloft and notice such a change. If the questions of medication comes up, don't feel like you're too strong or anything to try it. There's a reason that these medication were made, and so many things that they can help with.
2989. Jonathan Monaghan: Aw Josh I wanna give you a hug. 😢
2990. Sabrina Burgio: Josh, the "other side" is nothing more than a fake workaholic. you're real and genuine and it's wonderful. stay positive and remember that she's the one missing out.
2991. Wendy Mercer: Oh my goodness...I just want to find you and give you a HUGE HUG!!!! I hate that you of all people are having to go through this bc YOU ARE THE NICEST MOST GENUINE GUY I EVER EVER MET!!!! And I REALLY shouldn't have watched this while at work 😭😭😭 We love you and only want you to find happiness and be better 😍😍😍❌⭕️
2992. kc9music: It's okay, I know how you feel. I feel you are brave to talk to us in this way. I am glad that you are using us to keep you accountable! You can do it!
2993. Garrett Collier: I'm trying to make a joke out of this. "...I haven't bounced back." *last night took an L, but tonight I bounce back.*
2994. Rosanne Rowse: I just saw this video. My name is Rosanne Ruth Rowse. I just turned 22 yesterday, because it was my Birthday. I've recently been out of the hospital, because I had Pancreatitis. The cause for it for me was what my Doc said to be high triglycerides. Ever since 2012 I have suffered from depression (I still suffer from it. Along with Anxiety rate suicidal thoughts & anger management problems) I got bullied in Highschool for my weight by 2 girls and 1 guy because I was 230 some pounds. The bullying made my depression worse. And now I always have to suffer wondering when I'm around where people are talking (including family members) I just always constantly wonder if their always talking about me. They never are, but it's just a constant paranoia for me, that'll haunt me the rest of my life. I even ALWAYS wonder, when I'm around strangers if they talk about me. Especially young teen girls and guys, thinking to themselves "OMG look at her she's so fat" etc etc. I've dealt w/ ALL these problems for 20 years. And it's still a Ghad damn struggle evceryday. Harder NOW since my family is going to be moving into town, me with them OFC, but knowing I can't fucking do Jack shit to help because I need my body to recuperate. It gets me depressed & I cry about it....
2995. maria rivera: You are not alone. I've been there therapy helps. I've learned that it's important to remember what you have. You have family, friends, shadow and fans who love you and care for you. You have a roof over your head, health... Try to smile, I know it's hard but I promise it will get easier 😊
2996. TheMorningglorytaffy: Hey Josh you don't know most of us but we know you and we love you. I am so glad you are seeking help. You've been through a lot. It's OK to feel what you are feeling. It takes time to climb out of the betrayal you've been through and your timeline won't be the same as someone elses. Be good to yourself and know you have over 1,000,000 people here that are rooting for you (and a few haters too) You are in my prayers.
2997. pumper nickel: craisins 86 you only saw 10 15 minutes of their lifes you dont know what she did or didnt do dont be so quick to judge
2998. LadyRose396: All your dingleberries are giving you a huge internet hug. You'll get through this I know it seems far away but you will. We love you you got this.
2999. Mark R.: Classic Saturn Return, Josh. You will survive it. Keep moving forward, one day at a time❤️
3000. Catherine Abbott-Allen: Remember Josh it always gets better if you let it.
3001. LightningInvoker: I very much appreciate you taking back that apology for being real. I feel a lot, too many, youtubers who put themselves out there on a daily basis apologize way too much for their content if they show something real & authentic. I'm really happy for you that you decided to seek help! Another youtuber I really like, Anna Akana makes videos all the time about her personal struggles and how she copes. Good luck Josh!! You'll find yourself again!
3002. Lizett Lechuga: 💕
3003. Arnie O: I love you so much josh I feel like your my friend even though I don't know you personally but I just want you to know I'm praying for you and I just love ya 💙 JoshuaDTV
3004. Val Montreal Quebec: dear dear Joshua I am using the app voice to text I apologize for the lack of punctuation divorce sucks it's like a death the grieving process is very difficult unpredictable and as long as it needs to be take the time to do what you need to do and remember that this too shall pass just keep putting one foot in front of the next and stay out of your head it is a dangerous place to go in there alone today in your now and Only Love is Real everything else is an illusion
3005. Rainbow highlighter: thanks, Josh. 😊💙
3006. Emily Hayes: You're not ok. But you know what, that's ok. It'll take time but you can do it.
3007. Maya Patel: josh we all are with u through your toughest times ❤
3008. Lorie Lee: Josh, I'm praying for you. I'm sure you have said that you were brought up in a home of faith. Please cry out to the Lord - he will meet you exactly where you are.
3009. Brad Onorato: Proud that you are facing your demons head on. We all support you Josh and are here for you. BRAD ONORATO
3010. Silverwings 7272: Congratulations on seeking professional help! This is a medical condition that needs medical treatment. Fuck the stigma!
3011. elin grundström: 💜💜💜
3012. Fiona Kelsey: I wonder if she has watched some of his videos and has rethought her choice
3013. Peggy T: It is okay to hurt you have been threw a lot Josh and you seem like such a nice person and i'm so sorry that your hurting and i'm sure it seems like that pain will never end but i really believe you will over come this. I wish you all the happiness in this world and I hope you see this and i hope it helps. Love From Alabama
3014. adrianna monique: I fucking love this. Proud of you.❤️
3015. Cleo Rocos: love u
3016. Melody's Mix: Josh I feel you. I've tried to bounce back Everytime I go through things like this.
3017. lifewithrachel: josh i completely 100% relate to what you're talking about. & i do exactly what you do. i isolate myself when things get hard because i dont want to bother people with my problems. i was with someone for 6 years and for some reason i cannot move on, i cannot get past it. im still hurting even though its been almost a year & constantly wonder why is it so hard for me, why can't i be happy. so i understand exactly what youre feeling. dont be sorry for what you feel, you have a right to feel it even if it sucks. it takes some people longer than others to find themselves again & i am also one of those people. i love you josh & no matter what content you create, i will be here supporting you. keep your head up, it might not seem like it now but things will get better. sending you lots of hugs & positive thoughts! love you josh💕
3018. Kaley Price: HerBeauty`sInsideOut yes!!!
3019. Champ's Empire: "The best kind of help is your own help" I always say. I taught myself to take basically nothing seriously, and it helps me ALOT. Wether I'm not friends with someone anymore, or screw something important up, I get mad, that's uncontrollable, but then I start laughing, and laughing, and laughing, and then I don't care anymore. I wish I knew how I taught myself this wonderful little trick, it gains you a whole lotta angry idiots, AND in some cases respect. It does make you EXTREMELY blunt though, so if someone wants your opinion on something you might get an angry reaction. People should really start trying to mentally turn themselves into iron walls it actually does help keep positive ! Oh yea, now I remember, I know this sounds unhelpful but it's the secret to this trick, just tell yourself " Have the most fun, get into the most trouble, look into the future when you're in a crappy situation cause it'll end one way or another, cause you only live once, and it would be a bummer to waste it on depression ! " and BAM !!! I was completely changed from that day forward !
3020. Leen Sayed: Joshua!! *HUGS* ❤️🤗
3021. xadam2dudex: I don't know what happened that he is talking about can somebody catch me up ? ok, so some girl broke up with him ? oh my bad I thought he was getting over a guy
3022. Rachel Ellen: I love you
3023. Shruti Valsan: I really really wanna give you a hug. Time heals everything Joshie 💕 Stay strong hun, I know you have it in you.
3024. Nicole Joana: I'm proud of you! It takes a lot of courage to admit everything you did and you did the right think..find help! We don't have have to do all by ourselves😊take one step at a time, be patient and kind to yourself..I know how it feels, but it's going to be ok! Portugal Loves you! Kiss kiss
3025. Joseph Henry Stride: you are heared! it's all going to be alright.
3026. Teah Jones: Your feeling esactly how I'm feeling in my life!
3027. Molly Fuller: I feel exactly the same as you, and I feel like I'm depressed, but I'm scared to get help... my mum doesn't really believe in mental health, she thinks you just have to "cheer up" and get over it. My depression has ruined me, I've lost all my friends cause I push them away, and I've been alone for 2 years. I really need to get help.
3028. Ryann Schulz: NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOU JOSH. YOUR SO AMAZING AND WE ARE ALL PROUD!!!!! ❤❤❤
3029. Arlene Mejia: Idk if you believe in God or if you have a relationship with him but believe it or not sometimes all you need to do is to pray. Simple as that, a prayer is a conversation with God and even though you feel he's not there, he's hearing ever single word 💗 He understands your pain. I have faith and trust that he is going to help you ❤ "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Mathew 11:28 ❤
3030. Mina Hernandez: Documenting your thoughts helps get what your feeling out and I hope and wish nothing but the best for you Josh much ❤️from Texas
3031. Kylie NotJenner: B- Great ok woah calm down I have respect for all religions. Believe all the kinds of invisible stuff that you wanna believe in. It's not affecting​ me tyvm
3032. Katie Stanley: Wow this comment section is so positive and so amazing! We are her for you Josh. Always will be! BE NICE TO PEOPLE! LIVE BY IT!
3033. Xander 806: ❤️
3034. Amanda Barraza: keep your head up your a great guy things will get better. theres nothing wrong with getting help
3035. mosichat: Damn! You are depressed! But u know that. Get started on meds cuz i think u need it along w/ the therapy. Together they do help. I had situational depression & let me tell you... the SSRI's really did help!!!!! Escitalopram for guys is a good choice. Fast acting w/ minimal sexual side effects. You don't have to be on meds forever... but get better. Keep going to therapy. We support you.
3036. Jaimie Swartz: You are such a great guy! I love how transparent you've become. You never know who you're helping by posting your videos. Love watching you! ❤️
3037. Naqiyah Qadir: you WILL get through this❤️
3038. kgwyneth: This was fantastic
3039. mohammed 20: Am not a psychiatrist or anything. But if ur dealing with depression. Ask for cipralex. It has a lot of side affects but it's so good. After 2 or 3 weeks u will feel great.
3040. Zinah A: it takes time to get over something this big - you're so strong and deserve so much happiness, and it will happen sooner than you think, but you need to let it into your life. love from london xx
3041. Ava: Don't worry and don't stress yourself out and rush things or have to explain yourself all the time ok? Love you :-) we are here for you for real don't forget!!! *BUG HUGS*
3042. Amy: You are so loved Josh. ❤️
3043. MiBay: I think that you are incredibly brave to share your feelings most try to hide when they are not okay. That's the first step to getting better is admit to others that you are not okay. You'll be in my prayers
3044. Chanda Lee: We're here for you. It's ok to be sad. You deserve to be happy. We love you ❤️
3045. Devonna Renee: You are loved ❤️
3046. tan81112: Oh Josh,nothing wrong with you mate,you have a heart and soul and you are going through so much,just remember take what you see being posted online at face value.
3047. Laura Vivien: Stay strong!! It will get better :)
3048. Nejra B: Josh is honestly the realest person on YouTube. I love him so much. There are so many things that have gone through his life in the past couple years and there is a legit reason for his depression and sad times. We get it and respect it Josh. Thank you
3049. punkybruiser1383: Don't cry baby. I know it seems like you'll never get through it.... but you WILL! Peace comes in time.
3050. KingGordon: I just went through something simular last year. Didn't go anywhere, stayed drunk for MONTHS and I hated that they weren't hurting like I was. What was wrong with me? Anyway, with time, it slowly gotten better. You'll pull through, once you let go of her and start dating again you'll be fine. Good luck man.
3051. Megan B: Josh I love you so much! Please remember that the "other side" chooses what to show on the internet, very much like yourself. You choose to share the harsh reality of your emotions, which I commend you for. People work through things differently. Thank you for being honest with us viewers. I'm so glad you are getting the help you need/deserve 💙 I also want to add that people in the comments should be more considerate of both sides in this situation. They both have control over what they choose to let us see. We have no idea what's happening when the camera is turned off. Please keep that in mind
3052. LeahLuvv Anderson: JoshuaDTV I'm praying for you dear. I'm praying God would heal your heart and that you would find good godly people to help you . We need each other when we get weak. No one is ever strong all the time.
3053. thatsNathan: First off, I wanna say well done for speaking out about this. So incredibly brave and a step in the right direction for noticing a flaw. You should be proud for that. I have been through the same place where you are right now - for different reasons to you, but the principle is the same. You do need to pick yourself up and hold yourself accountable because no matter how many loved ones you have around you, the only person you truly will listen to - is yourself. However you can use the people around you to inspire and help get you back on your feet. It's not easy, nothing worth while ever is... but is it achievable? 100%! And I know you can do it. And how do I know? Because you're an amazing guy, with a big heart and an incredibly infectious personality. Sure, it might seem dark now / but you can make it bright again. And you will. I promise. If you ever need to talk to someone away from everyone in this industry and your circle of friends - you can always hit me up on any social platforms. We won't let you slip, I won't let you slip and you will come of if these stronger than ever. You can do this. I promise ❤️
3054. Annie Strella: Love you Josh! keep your head up, keep doing you, and dream big ❤️😊
3055. Mini Moose: you look like my uncle
3056. Shauna McKey: Honestly josh you have come so proud and I am so proud of you ❤️
3057. Abigail Tamblyn: Don't force yourself to bounce back, force yourself to be honest and feel everything you need to. You don't need to get better, you have to feel what your body is telling you to feel. It's not easy, it's hard, it hurts but the struggle and that low is what is going to make your highs better. Don't hide, let your struggles be free, and be as honest as you can be (internally as well as with your therapist). Take my advice and experience or don't (I won't be offended) Do you, and best wishes <3
3058. Gabriella Campana: Don't worry you are not alone. You are taking care if this in the best way possible!
3059. aLiSoN: Love you josh❤️
3060. Cover Boy: Does anybody thinks he already made enough videos about it? It's like he lives in the past, or are using this situation for views. Just saying out loud the truth. Don't hate on me. He needs to go back to live his life. Maybe take a time from posting videos on YouTube and breathe, close to his family and people that love him, or just go in a trip to find himself.
3061. Terry White: Thank you for sharing. I don't know about the rest of your viewers but with this vlog I felt more connected to you than I have in a long time. Everyone deals with Trauma in a different way. Some people show it some don't but you should never be embarrassed about showing your feelings. Its actually the one thing that makes us want to connect with you. You can't make everyone Happy. I think its a great plan to vlog whatever you want every day. And I think its a good thing that you're seeing a therapist. One day at a time.....
3062. McKenzie Stewart: U can do it.
3063. EL-Hassan Mohamed: you just need for a weekend and relax pray to God Dont do anythings take your time in relaxation
3064. Jo Oelkers: I'm going through depression and anxiety but with me I'm hurting cause I don't have a relationship with my mom I have bent over backwards for her but she doesn't acknowledge my presence and I'm sorry you're dealing with this we can go through this together
3065. Lisa Souch: Keep your chin up. Life throws you a lot of hard times sometimes. You will make it through this one. One day at a time. ❤
3066. Ťruě Queeň: Mia I totally agree! But now he has such a gorgeous fiancé and he's happy...he has a beautiful classy woman and not a clown that breaks his heart over and over again!
3067. Audrey Styles: Proud of you for going back to therapy! Good luck and best wishes, Josh!
3068. niclas olsson: i sinserely hope you find inner peace or anything that brings you long term happiness <3 =)
3069. Dorothy Carson: Don't blame you dear , feelings are tuff to deal with especially when the other person thriving so .... I pray for you ...
3070. Danielle Humphrey: love you josh there's so many cases where people have ended their life due to depression and their family says I would have given anything if they would have just talked to me you're reaching out and making that different you're changing your course of events that could be devastating to gravitating it's awesome love you bunches
3071. Patrizia Holman: Josh, you will be okay! You are a great guy and you deserve a woman who appreciates you. Everything is going to be amazing!
3072. Nic Stewart: H CRL and he's basically said she cheated on him too
3073. Fabulous Faith: You can't help yourself not be depressed and therapis can't help you you need Jesus
3074. Sylvia Alice: Hey Josh, I hope you read this. I just want to say that it take a lot of strength and guts to open yourself up like you have, to be this emotionally vulnerable. I know on the other spectrum it seems great, but anyone can put up a facade that their happy but really they're not but this time is a time to really focus on yourself and your well-being, it's hard, I know, and you can't blame yourself for what you're feeling especially because it's something that affected you more. But this is for you to become the best version of yourself, the person that brought love and fun in his videos, that we all enjoyed. Stay strong, will continue praying for you. ♥
3075. Jill Connolly: OOO NO! Detour people who offer alarm systems door 2 door or phone, say you have one. Hopefully you checked company credentials.
3076. Jennie Pribila: it OK Josh we will be there for you
3077. Αναστασία Νικηταρά: I love the fact that you show the real Josh. I love the fact that you have the courage to open up. I love the fact that you are human and you show your humanity rather than acting like a celebrity youtuber! We'll be witnesses to the beautiful journey from Josh to Josh.
3078. Lynette Demar: I'm constantly impressed by you and the courage that you consistently show. By listening to you has definitely helped me to know that I'm not the only one in this life who has sufferred the same way you are feeling now. As far as the other side showing such happiness, well there's a saying, "All that glitters is not always gold". The fact that you're documenting this will allow you to see the progress of you feeling better and better. There will be a point in your life when your married with a wonderful person that you'll wonder how you were ever attracted to your ex.
3079. Caren Collins: Josh its totally normal to react this way. You went through a major life event and your mind and body are reacting to that. I'm the same...I retreat within myself and try and do everything myself and sometimes you need other people. When my dad died, it took YEARS to go back to normal.
3080. Rye Bread: We love you josh! You are not alone. 💙💙
3081. Tyrion Targaryen: Jaceruth if it's an opinion you can't "know" he is real you "believe" or "think" he is real it's like me saying "I KNOW HES NOT REAL" you would say I don't because it's true I don't know if gods real or not no one does all we can do is believe in evidence or believe in faith
3082. Wyatt Hurts: What's wrong with you is that you love with your entire heart...which in turn, is exactly what's right with you. You're hard on yourself Josh, you just need time. Healing is a process, not a light switch. You don't get frustrated at a skinned knee because it hurts & is painful. You tend to it, bandage it & allow it to heal in its own time. I wish you patience Joshua. Everyday doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be. Be nice to yourself sir, you're a good man.
3083. The Truth Is Out There: I'll forever love you Josh 💜 you'll always have my support
3084. Kels: I'm confused and maybe need to catch up but didn't you leave her??
3085. Mckenley Pearson: its ok to hurt sometimes not everthing is sunshine and rainbows and people understand that you may be hurting. causes everyone has ups and downs its life. im praying for you Josh and hope you find light in life and find happiness, stay strong and keep your head up.
3086. Laura Stark: I just want to meet you
3087. Nonhlanhla M: This makes my heart ache, I hope you heal soon :) I'm positive you can!!
3088. Jaja Che: You shouldn't see yourself or this channel as the 'sad/bad i don't know' side. You're just being real, I mean, who wouldn't be so heartbroken after what happened? You are human, to me it seems super unnatural being all happy and showing all perfect things after what happend. I really feel for you and I wish you so much happiness, and I know seeing you fight for you happiness that you are going to be stronger after this. Don't punish yourself for feeling! People appreciate honesty, I hope all your fans and people around you will give you so much love that it will help heal your heart. I know for sure that God has a plan for you, you are gonna come out of this. Be honest and be you, don't hide it to show the world something that's not real, because it's totally normal! Be strong and hang in there dude!! <3 You deserve it!
3089. Kayla Rawle: carol paula no she's not! Their marriage didn't work out. You shouldn't just blame it on her
3090. MissJane777: 💙
3091. BEA: Literally same
3092. saumya gulati: Brooke Nicodemus when did this happened?
3093. Dancingsushi911: Kaitlin73Art bitch are you me
3094. julien solomita: i love you dude
3095. Jacky Isler: You're making the right decision to speak up and talk to a therapist. Depression is such a powerful thing and speaking out of the best thing you can do for yourself. Don't ever stay silence, because that's when it will take over. Stay strong Josh. Things will get better.
3096. Jessica's World: Joshua please read this! I have been watching you for a long time and never commented till now. I know how you feel! Exactly how you feel! Iv been exactly where you are! And I used to make videos along time ago and recently when I went through something I became very depressed and pulled out my camera and said I know im not happy right now but some day I'm going to be okay and I want to see this happen in my videos... what Iv been going though is different then your story now but you're story now I have been there but worse! And I want you to know I watch your videos everyday because they make me so happy. Iv been there and seeing you go through this Iv been wanting to reach out for a long time. And I want you to know that if you need anybody to be sad to.. to not have to keep feeling like you need to be happy, I'm here! You can be sad to me.. you can talk.. you can cry.. whatever you need to do. Don't hesitate to get ahold of me. I know you don't know me but I know you! I know what's in you and I know what's your going through. Have a great day josh!
3097. Leesa M: Thank you Josh for doing this video and letting us know what is going on. You are doing the right thing going and seeing someone, it saved my life many years ago! Take care! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
3098. Kali Tipton: praying for you ❤ I hope everything gets better soon.
3099. Karina Nilsson: ❤️
3100. BabuLife: Josh I support you!
3101. Alexaa Adriana: You are not alone. At times I get sad too. At times I ask myself what's wrong with me too because everyone around me seems to be getting by pretty easily and I simply can't. I really hope you find the love in yourself that you tried searching for in someone else. Someone definitely not worthy of you feeling this way. Always try to stay strong but stop doing it for us and start doing it for yourself. It is okay to cry and it is okay to feel this way. It's been a hard year for you and I both, but I believe you can get through this if you just focus on loving yourself. Thank you for being so real, you are appreciated
3102. Emily Johnson: I'm proud of you Josh! your personal journey is worth it, and using us for accountability is good. your true fans will support you! Be nice to people, including yourself. Much love! 💚
3103. Arelis Hernandez: Hi Josh, if you want to find yourself again you should read A COURSE IN MIRACLES Foundation for INNER PEACE, is a blue book, this book will change your life.
3104. Christine Lynn: I hope you are proud of yourself for starting to see a therapist. It's a big step in your journey, and it takes a lot of bravery to take that step. Trust the process and be honest with yourself and the therapist. It will only help you heal.
3105. Aholelottanothin: Mental health is just as important as physical
3106. Michael D: Yawn
3107. Becki Green: Kaylan Martin She's not hiding anything. She is a manipulative person who got what she wanted.
3108. Nicolas Labbe A.: woww... I ve never thought about it before....and it makes a lot of sense!! she always shows the bright side of her life, and never talks about her problems...and when she does is when it is all solved...
3109. Tilyn Bell: it's okay to not be okay... therapy is nothing to be ashamed of, whatever you need to do for you and your health! wishing you lots of well wishes and praying for you as you move forward from here xo
3110. courtney lei: I hate u , and boring my opinion no hate pls ta
3111. Not Now Brain: So proud of you. You have taken a really important step in becoming an even better version of yourself. Just remember it is okay to have bad days
3112. TheBlue1moon: wtf man... move on and live her alone.
3113. Kate E: Everything is going to work itself out. So many people love you and look up to you. You've help a lot of people through tough times. Stay strong, my friend. 😊♥️
3114. What's up It's me: It's only been one year. Plus he did move on and is married.
3115. niggasjit: Im a silent viewer of much of your stuff Josh, but I can tell youre a kind goodhearted guy, thats without a doubt. Hope things get better for you bro
3116. Alice.downey: xx
3117. emma H: Thank you for being so real ❤️ a lot of you tubers would just ignore their feelings and pretend, but we really just appreciate you being you 💕 we love you josh
3118. OMG Yanil: I have never related so much to a video. I love this side of you bc it is real. You don't have to fake happiness if you are not feeling it. It is ok. Be you. This is how you feel and you need to acknowledge it. I going thru depression as well and I see that i am doing the same thing and pushing people away bc i don't want to be a downer but that is what friends are for. People can't assume to only be there for the good times and not the bad times. Same goes for your viewers. They need to go with the flow. U are being real and honest and I appreciate it. Thank you!
3119. Steven Weatherman: There is no set timeline for grief. Each person experiences grief differently. This will take a while, and. that's. o. kay. Love to you with no strings attached and no expectations.
3120. Jenna Isgar: Did you know stars are only born in tornados outer space meaning to me that to be great the has to be bad times that break you apart because everyone has a breaking point you have friends family that you can try and talk to or talk to Simons who is so close to you about it because that's what made me happy xx what's wrong with you ? You are successful and you make people so proud and you put them before you before thinking about yourself you've done such a great job and you are so inspirational to many many people you can be sad sometimes but don't forget to smile xxxx
3121. Suds: There's nothing wrong with you. It's completely fine to feel this way, and I think you're doing the right thing for yourself. Like if you agree.
3122. Hannah Wadleigh: I'm sorry Josh. You've got us here for all the love you can get. 💜🤝💜
3123. happygoldfishblender: I haven't been through a divorce but I can completely relate to your feelings of depression. Things that used to always make you happy don't give you the same spark, your favorite foods don't taste the same, and most days its hard to even find motivation to leave your bed. And it's not that you don't like the same things anymore it's just you struggle to enjoy things like you used to and it gets incredibly frustrating and makes you feel worse than you do. What helped me get through such an awful time is by stopping to appreciate the smallest of things and just breathe. When walking to your car look around and you'll find things like a tiny flower growing in an unlikely spot or an ant working hard to bring a single crumb back to its colony. It helped me keep in mind that even the smallest of things have a purpose. God doesn't create things without a purpose. Even if you don't believe in a god, in science everything has a purpose as well. I'm not really good with words so I hope that actually made sense and helped anyone who reads it.
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3125. litzy: stay strong bro!!! sending much love and positive vibes love you❤
3126. Mina Land: It will all be ok
3127. Aya Lala: We're here for you Josh!!❤
3128. Elizabeth Hernandez: When I was going through depression I found myself wanting only one thing. I always wanted people to tell me that everything was going to be ok. So I'm here to tell you that everything is going to be ok in the end because God, and the good people you surround yourself with, will pull you out of whatever you're going through ❤️️
3129. Jacqart: Proud of you Josh. Keep going and I've really liked seeing how Real you've been coming out of this and heartbreak which is the hardest thing in the world. It's ok to change things and be different than you were because your life and mind is different now. As someone your age, I've really liked seeing your REAL videos, roundtable discussions, Alaska vlog and seeing you put out music vids. Wow, Daily vlogs is a great challenge and you're going to see how far you've come - I know how hard it is to be positive when you are depressed and being positive has worked in the past and you can't seem to get there in the present. And that's ok! I think you know time heals and that's why you're still trucking and being so honest. Good for you and rooting for ya!
3130. Meaghan-Leah Ferris: Man have I been there. Great job sharing this. Would've helped me. Stay strong, be patient with yourself, don't judge yourself. Nothing is wrong with you. Your just going through something and all your reactions are normal. ♥
3131. Diana: I have so much respect for how vulnerable you’re being on camera. I look forward to watching you find happiness again. I know you will.
3132. Bailey: good for you for getting help! :)
3133. Holly King: we all love and support you Josh! you are human...you have feelings...you have been through a lot and you don't have to go it alone...therapy will help but so will your family. ..your friends and your dingle berries! Keep Smiling! 😆
3134. Jennifer Oberdorf: I'm going through this too right now! I'm going through a divorce that I do not want....he left 4 months ago after 13 years and I feel as though I'm getting worse instead of getting better! And the other side in my life seems all happy too! Which cuts even deeper! I too have been considering going to therap to get control of my thoughts! I hope that things turn around for you! Sometimes it helps to talk with people going through the same thing! Much love!
3135. Jordana Peontech: You're an inspiration Josh. Keep going.
3136. Natalie Katelyn: It is absolutely okay to be depressed, getting help is not something to be embarrassed about it. You have us to pull you out of this, I think that if you get caught up in feeling sad or sorry for yourself it will just get worse. Trust me I know, but if you stick to a routine keep getting your mind off it, you'll be fine. Do not give up, you deserve happiness, you will eventually get it. Keep trying! We all believe in you! YOU GOT THIS! Have fun at the wedding and have a good day! Fake being happy until you make it.
3137. Tonia Duplichain: One day & one step at a time, my prayers are with you!
3138. janelle s: This kind of sounds like a guy in a high school break up... still talking about it, assuming the girl is perfectly fine and happy despite his suffering. Sometimes it's better to forget everything and move on
3139. Rachel0207: your a human being, if your fans don't like you being sad, happy, etc etc then they aren't your true fans, do what you got to do to please you and i'm sure your True fans will be ok with it, if you had to hide what your feeling then of course you keep holding it in you are hurting yourself and god knows what will happen if you keep it in, just take care of yourself and if vlogging everyday to talk about your pain or whatever then do it, it's not like you will do it for years i had alot happen to me years ago to where i didn't want to live, i got hurt physical hurt by someone i loved and cared for and when he did what he did to me, i blamed myself, i blamed me for what he did to where i tried to kill myself.
3140. Kael Hood: i know how it feels.. depression is not something where you can get out in a day.. and im having it too now.. just stay strong josh
3141. Aneles S: you're such a good, kind soul. everything will be okay. we're all still here for you and love and support you more than ever in this hard time. it's okay to not be okay, you'll get through this.
3142. Meg 1399: When you said whats wrong with me, i cried! Theres nothing wrong with you! Im so glad that you felt able to do this and stay strong! x
3143. Erin Kathleen: Number one this is so brave of you. I know how demanding this job is and sharing things such as struggling with depression is never easy. Proud of you for seeking therapy and proud of you for opening up and not trying to deal with it all alone. I don't know you personally josh but after watching you for 5 years I do know you have a strong team in your corner. Take it one step, one day, one new journey at a time. You will always have the people that love you to catch you when you fall. Take care of yourself first now, someone as kind as you deserves it.
3144. Verified FanGirl: Andrea McKee And i had the honor to meet you last april with my sister
3145. brooke frazier: God Bless you Josh! I isolate myself when I'm depressed as well! thank you So much for being vulnerable and open! It means a Lot! you WILL get through This! You are Stronger than this and this challenge is Only making you STRONGER! Much Love
3146. Joana Moreno: Hey Josh. Some years ago, my uncles got divorced. They had been trying to have a baby for a really long time, and when my aunt finally got pregnant, she had a miscarriage a few months later. She was completely devastated and her only source of solace was family, not her husband, but my grandparents and my mother. That kind of torn their marriage apart. Some years later, on Christmas day, my uncle (who was at a different city at the time - they didn't live in the same city as the rest of my family, but after the miscarriage my aunt started spending a lot of time away from my uncle) decided to call my aunt and tell her he had been seeing another woman, and that he thought it was time to end their marriage. Once again, my aunt's heart got shattered. Yes, the divorce was also her fault, she distanced herself from her husband in a time where they should have been more supportive of each other than ever, but it truly broke something inside of her. For about 2 years, she simply couldn't go out of the house by herself. She started walking around with crutched because she was always afraid she was going to fall. She was in a severely deep state of depression, and for moments I thought she would never be able to walk out of it. After a while, however, she decided to look for help, and she found this really great psychologist. In about 3 months, she had gone back to her happy self, and she started to see things from another perspective. So Josh, believe me when I tell you that reaching out for help is the bravest thing one can do in times of sorrow and pain. It's easy to bury yourself in a black hole of self-blaming and sadness; what truly shows a person's will power is trying to get better even when it seems nearly impossible. I know you can get through this. Stronger. Wiser. Better. I love and belive in you.
3147. Zero Stars: I want to see more of shadow he is so cute
3148. Ashanti Gibbs: love you ❤
3149. Deborah Dobbs: Good for you. You can do it!
3150. Rose52890: Therapy is great
3151. britanyJ: Love you Joshua. I understand and know depression personally and deeply. I understand that it is different for everyone but I am so glad that you have decided to talk to a professional. I think it will do you a world of good, and it will do good for the world to show the steps you are taking to help yourself. SO SO proud of you!! You are amazing and never forget it!! You are the light in the darkness to so many people, never forget that <3
3152. Amanda L: Stay strong I'm praying for you!!!!
3153. Alisha Danielle: You're such a strong beautiful human with a huge heart...
3154. angel0164: You got this josh!!! Keep it up it will get better❤❤❤❤❤❤
3155. Lindsay Erin: With LOVE you will get through anything
3156. SH ANNON: I totally agree, Sarah. I'm also not suggesting Josh go out and marry someone right away, obviously. But there's comfort in knowing that true love and security are still out there. I know that Josh believes this too, just watch his newest video around 11:45. His parents *have* that love. You can call it "Disney Corporation shit," but us non-cynics know better. 😉
3157. Red Lincoln: btw I cried and now I'm at home drinking Pepsi
3158. EmileighJoe: She didn't love you 100% but that's ok, times will be hard.. but when you least expect you'll find someone who loves you 100%.. just like you loved her. Just focus on healing yourself, no pressure to post every day.. just be yourself and enjoy the moment
3159. J. JUNIOR: You do see super depressed DONT GIVE UP JOSH
3160. here2watch08: I commend you for being so open and honest on here. I'm so glad you went to therapy. In my opinion everyone should have a therapist! If you're open to it, you are honest, and listen, it works wonders. As they say, "It works if you work it". None of us hold all the answers and we all live in this tiny world of our own perception. An unbiased 3rd party professional will do anyone good! I hope it helps. I have been seeing a therapist since I was 11 and am 26 now. It has saved me so many times. 💗
3161. Kacie Caruthers: This just breaks my heart. I feel like you're such a good man and I'm sorry that this is happening to you!! I hope that joy comes your way. And I hope that in next situation you find someone or something that really appreciates you and will always be by your side!!!! Feel better!!! Hugs!
3162. Ms. Shā Shā: To be completely and utterly cliché - Do you boo!! But really. You need to take care of you, and anyone who can't understand that has some issues of their own they need to work on. Be sad, be angry, be frustrated - this is your life and you need to get through what you need to. F'k everything else honestly. Just take care of you and do what *you* need to for *you*... and Shadow - who just wants you to be happy and okay (they can absolutely tell when we're upset/hurting). Sending the best of thoughts and wishes! Take care of you!
3163. Nipperkinz: ❤️
3164. Keisha Tulai: I love you and you're amazing.
3165. I think I lost my halo: think of yourself as the sky. all the clouds past after a while. this will pass. stay strong. you'll get through this ❤
3166. O ain O: Cut of from this virtual life. You need to make a change & live a real life. Go away and embrace a new project which doesnt involve you having to document each & every step of your life. You need to let go of what youre addicted to... this includes the internet, constant social interactions and having a camera pointing towards your and everyone elses faces. Your strength & foundations will only be strong if you stop becoming dependant on a repetitive lifestyle. Let go of what you fear and cannot apart from.
3167. SH ANNON: You mentioned wondering what was wrong with you when the other side seems so happy... Absolutely nothing is wrong with you. In fact, so much is _right_ ! You love with your whole heart and your whole self. When you find the right person for you, she will love you (unbreakably) with her whole heart as well. She will feel how you feel, and she will never be able to let you go without feeling completely shattered. That's the best kind of love, and it's somewhere out there waiting for you. 😊💛
3168. An Aspie's POV: Happiness is finding a pencil. Sleeping in moon light. Telling the time. Happiness is learning to whistle. Tying your shoe For the very first time. Happiness is playing the drum In your own school band. And happiness is walking hand in hand. Happiness is two kinds of ice cream. Knowing a secret. Climbing a tree. Happiness is five different crayons. Catching a firefly. Setting him free. And happiness is being alone every now and then. And happiness is coming home again. Happiness is morning and evening, Daytime and nighttime too. For happiness is anyone and anything at all That's loved by you. Happiness is having a sister. Sharing a sandwich. Getting along. Happiness is singing together When day is through, And happiness is those who sing with you. Happiness is morning and evening, Daytime and nighttime too. For happiness is anyone and anything at all That's loved by you.
3169. Morgan: There's nothing wrong with you. You're a real person, the 'other side' is the one that's messed up acting like nothing ever happened. They are so fake and just trying to make money by making vids that little kids like to get YouTube clicks. You're a real human being and you'll always have my respect.
3170. Ibiralian: Hey Nell. We can't realize the whole situation. I watched her video, and maybe I would have believed her "I want to be respectful" and "I care" speech if she hadn't put on that "I'M THE HAPPIEST!!!1111!" act she has put on from about a week after the announcement. I don't know how old are you, or what have you been through in life... but if you have been in a long term relationship, you know that hurts like hell. You just DON'T do that for a while, unless you don't give to cents. It's cruel. I don't care if she doesn't speak about the divorce. That's her deal. What I say is visible in how and what she speaks, how she acts, the way she constantly contradicts herself, everything. Is not hard to miss if you know what you are looking for. I get that you have to be nice, but you have to be nice to yourself first, and get away from toxic people. You have to do that time and time again as you get older. What I wanted with this post was for Josh to read it - if possible - and for him to know that he can't deal with other peoples personalities. The best thing that could have happened to him was an easy way out.
3171. Christopher Brown: dude just give YouTube a break and start fresh. Go to a good college and separate from the thing that continues to bring you sad thoughts or hard memories. I'm SO GLAD you have a therapist and someone else to talk to!
3172. Katie Sorrell: Love you Josh❤️ get better soon
3173. Hanna Gilliam: i just got out of the hospital due to depression. i tried to kill myself a few years ago. im not supposed to be here. i took 4 200 mg muscle relaxers when i was 13 and im 15 now. its not easy. its hard to think positively when you get sad. i completely understand. but i got out of the hospital 2-3 weeks ago and im so much better. find coping skills. do stuff that you enjoy. it takes your mind off of it. but whatever you do DONT push it to the back of your mind and say you'll deal with it later. that's the worse decision i made through my sickness. but you CAN do it. ik its hard to do. trust me. you're stronger than you think you are. believe me. I LOVE YOU AND IM HERE IF YOU NEED SUPPORT
3174. Charlotte Phillips: It's a rubbish time you are absolutely entitled to feel bad. Do more if you can join a fitness class, take any job opportunities throw yourself into things once you get out there you'll meet new people and feel so much better. You will get there, wishing you all the luck in the world x
3175. Emma Nelson: Josh, it is ALWAYS okay to feel emotional. We love you no matter what because we love you for you. Whoever that is. Just remember that people CARE. I know from personal experience that somebody always wants you to be happy, no matter how you feel. There is nothing wrong with you, because you are perfect the way you are. Emotional or unemotional. Keep fighting, Josh.
3176. Savannah Sophia: its okay to feel depressed and, its ok to need to ask for help we've all been there
3177. Ai-liM123: We are here for you and we love you! Love you! I'm sorry this is happening to you.
3178. Hey ItsLinda: Josh getting help is a good thing. I am so proud of you that you took that step! It will get better, but it takes time. I got help cause I felt like I'd lost myself. I didn't feel happy like I used to feel. And thinking about that happiness made me feel sad. The feeling of why can't I be happy is the worst feeling. But it does start with you. I had some good talks with that woman and now that I'm done with that, I feel so good. You learn something new about you everyday. I am happy. And you will be happy again. You did this, you took this step. You didn't go back into the circle like you used to and I am so proud of you. Things will be better and I am happy you're putting it out there. You're not one of those youtubers that pretends to be fine while your not. So thank you. If I can help you, or if you want to talk about whatever, you can always dm me (smilingbcari). Thank you Josh, you are great. Don't forget that!
3179. Grace McGaughey: It's okay that you're not okay. I know that if this happened to me I would be feeling the exact same way. By talking to us about your true feelings and getting help on how to cope with this, you're doing yourself a huge favor. You have two choices-you can hide and deny what you're feeling or you can just hit this head on and you're doing a fantastic job so far. Keep at it and just know that your friends and family will always want to be there for you. No matter what. Just think about what you'd do for a friend who was going through this, you'd be there for them in a heartbeat and you wouldn't think any less of them. That's how your friends and family feel. You can do this and you have every right to feel the way you do.
3180. Nathalie’s World: Went through the same thing at 21. All you need is to keep busy and time to heal. You will be fine, trust me! Took me about 2 years to get over the whole thing!!
3181. Julia Johnson: I love you so much Josh. And don't ever apologize for anything, I love your videos no matter what and love how real and honest you are being with yourself and us. I personally have never been through something like this but am going through a bit of a rough patch right now and you help me feel like it's okay that I'm not okay. And that time heals. And you should never be ashamed for being depressed, getting professional help is by far the best thing you can do. Love ya lots, and I look forward to your vlogs, I missed em ;)
3182. Lauren H: ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤All the freaking love, Joshua.
3183. Michael Talbert: What you have done here, right now is a big step. Every moment of the day is filled with ups and downs. Everyone of your fans love you and want the best for you. You are great and you should know it. We all support you and will be here always.
3184. Jahnavi G: Hy ! we're all together !We're all with you !!Everything will be okay!
3185. Arianna Ervin: CALife because they are human
3186. Monica Mae: We're here for you💚
3187. Heather Ellis: I am so happy & proud of you!!!! I'm going through a similar situation with similar feelings, & I am also trying to find myself again.. so I will be right there on this journey with you. Stay strong!!
3188. jake real: here's one for whatever you might need it for. No problem or issue is too small or too "silly" for one to need a hug or feel down. What is trivial to one person could seem like the end of the world to another so.... HUGS! :)
3189. Megan Burleson: This was good. You deserve happiness. Keep going to therapy. Don't worry about what we think. Heal.
3190. Sp00kyb01: Unsubbed
3191. jelly bean06: it's ok Josh!!! we love you!!! you can get through this! you're strong! you make others happy, make YOURSELF happy now! we love u!
3192. Elisa Pérez: It's ok josh, I felt like that for so long after a relationship where you even distance yourself from your friends cause you feel like you're annoying them being sad all the time. And just not feeling yourself or happy. It's what happens when you're a sensitive person who loves truly, it's a process. Once you learn to feel okay on your own and go and do things it gets better, your mood lifts, people notice it and you attract new people. I always like to have something to focus on, something that motivates me, for example this new job I found. And I'm genuinely excited now to go out and do things. I still haven't got into a new relationship yet but these things come when the timings right. To feel better allow yourself to feel whatever it is your feeling and when you look back on it a while from now you'll have grown as a person and learnt a lot about yourself ..you live once and never let your own happiness depend on a person or something that wasn't right for you (even though you imagined it to be) look after yourself x
3193. Kayla Barker: not a die hard dingleberry, but as a clinically depressed person, i'm supporting you 100%. please remember, you were a whole person before and you still are after this entire thing. you don't need to pretend to be happy in any of your videos, because this is a journey and we love you and want to give you whatever we can to support you though this.
3194. taratattooed: Stay strong Josh! Love heals and you're Loved 😘 Dude, we've all been there and you will weather this storm ☀️love u
3195. Toricorn: when you know you made a mistake replying to this cuz now your notifications are blowing up with " Hugs!❤️"
3196. nicola thorpe: Not wanting to take away from the sadness or seriousness of this video but did anyone else notice shadow taking a poop in the background?
3197. staygulf83: What is all this "other side of the coin " crap. Part of your problem is that you can't bear to utter Colleen's name. Accept the situation, go find someone else and move on. Your life will pass you by very quickly if you don't.
3198. Crystal Ang: I'm not good at talking shit to care... But just hoping to give you a big fat hug through the screen. Just hoping that it would make you feel better.
3199. Holly Arvelo: Making this video was very brave of you... keep your head up. You are so right, we only get one life. Nobody ever said it was going to be easy. Im cheering for you!
3200. agfangirly36: If you're reading this Josh, I was really touched by this video. I've been having a hard time dealing with my depression this summer and have felt some things and hearing you speak out about it really helps. Every situation is unique, but we share the same feelings and being able to know what someone else is feeling really helps with connecting. We will get through this together one day at a time. We all love you ❤️ and know you're such a strong, inspiring person.
3201. Shawn Snow: this has nothing to do with "her" people -_- and his issue is he has to learn to do him 100% cause he is on his own now and that's rough for some people so if everyone could stop pointing blame and actually make sense that would be great
3202. Heaverz Quirk: Josh, I'm bipolar. I've seen the signs in you. You have a loving family and a huge support group . don't give up. We love you joshy poo!
3203. rr95 g: Tell Jenna I love her. Thanks, dude. You're both amazing.
3204. Anja E: thank you.
3205. Ditte Hannibalsen: ❤❤❤❤
3206. Kendra Nelson: Finally feeling connected to you, J. 💕 much love, we are so so here for you
3207. Erica Warriner: and I'm not asking you to feel bad for me. because like I said I feel happy bringing others joy. even if it's for a quick second. I will forever cherish that quick second to make it last even longer.
3208. Emily Perez: keep your head up.. and take baby steps, but you'll be able to look back and say wow I made it ..
3209. DerekDeso: Stay strong brother 💪🏼
3210. ThatInternetTeen: The ad that played before this had "show your true colours" playing. Why is this so fitting?
3211. Jill Connolly: I AM TELLING YOU.. these extremes bring you to your knees. We need them. Its an integral perfect normal way of bustin' out. Seriously bro its INTEGRAL & normal. Hurt hurts. I promise you. No one is able to fulfil awesome, beautiful memory expectations. Please (from a kookie like me j/k) tap into the basics you were taught. Then rely on the Josh meant to be. You know there is no disappoint from our Father. Worldly things pass away. Feel better brotha.
3212. KarmaRose101: Josh baby we love you!! Know you're not alone. After a hurricane comes a rainbow baby. Keep your head up.
3213. i'm dead: it makes me sad to watch your videos. every single video he seems so upset and lost and i wish shit could just be better for him
3214. Laura Quesada: Clorox Bleach dude stop he is sad
3215. Liz Souza: As someone who struggles with the exact same thing, you have no idea how much it kills me to see you hurt like this. Before the divorce I saw you as this fun guy who is unbreakable, unstoppable. At first it was weird and different for me to see you like this but it's also made you more relatable for me. Like here's this guy that I've watched for the past 4 years, someone I've seen almost as an idol, and I'm realizing that you're just like me. I'm just like you. I love you josh and you're not alone. I'm not alone. No one is alone. I love these so called 'depressing' vlogs they mean the world to me. It's okay if you feel the need to post them. Everyone needs to vent every now and then. Do what you feel is necessary. Thank you for everything. We love you.
3216. Angela Gorgievska: Stay strong Josh you can go trough this.Yes it is paintful but it will go away,everything goes away but u will stay,u are the centar and the most important person in your world so start healing yourself.Maybie it sounds weird but wake up the love for yourself.Learning to love and respect yourself and your existance on top of everything is the hardest thing but it is possible with the power of will.Love wins everything so wake up that love because she exists and its not destroyable. Stay strong...
3217. AA- Gamer: Dude, there is NOTHING wrong with you. That's the reason why I stopped watching that entire family. You were a part of their family, and it's like you never existed to them and to me that is far more strange. It is infinitely more weird looking at their videos. I just can't stand it. I can only imagine what you're going through seeing it yourself. Just seems really fake, and sorry for the insult but disgusting, unrealistic and unrelatable. Do your thing Joshua. What's happening is completely normal and understandable. Lots of people go through it. You can do it I know you can and you will. Much love bro.
3218. Jacqueline Love: Did anyone else notice Shadow shitting in the corner at 2:40?
3219. Natasha Perry: I love you josh I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way but you know what? You're allowed to feel what you're feeling and it's totally okay you have gone through something you never thought you would go through in your life. The fact that you're admitting you're not okay is very strong and brave of you cause many people can't admit that. I love you and your channel and I will continue to be here for you and will always be a fan of yours. Stay strong.
3220. Taylor_daily: 😘
3221. Jane Michelle: Hi J. I don't know if u read comments. Please don't feel guilty. Love your authenticity. Thank you so much for this-I relate so much right now. Unsolicited advice (or maybe self-talk:) Try not to be hard on yourself if u don't feel like making a video. It's not a failure. That's a tough one to follow. Or if u need YouTube maybe hold yourself to not skipping more than 2-3 days. Take care of you first. Some days we can do more than others, but your happiness & health has to be primary. Whatever "happiness on the other side" we see via social media is always selective & never a full or complete or even necessarily real picture of what's going on. I've known a few clinically depressed people struggling through the thick of total chaos & anxiety who make their Facebook page look like a travel magazine & Hallmark card combined. Pretty pictures & a smile don't tell us what's going on inside. Thanks again. I needed this right now. I'm on this healing with you sort of. I'm gonna lose that 5-10lbs myself:), start working out more, walks, eating well, just taking care of me. Start small. Cuz I am not myself unless those basic healthy habits are in my life & I feel physically strong again. Physical health for me personally is a good start & gauge for mental/emotional health or headspace. And then...go from there. Helping others in some way, giving back, fills my heart & soul with joy. Sending positive thoughts, brightness, & goodness your way. You are beautiful inside out. Everyone listen up, I know it's hard to remember. Never forget your worth-You are enough. You are complete. And everyone is deserving of love & happiness (doesn't mean we feel happy 24/7 cuz that's insane), of creating love & happiness around us & others. Here's to seeking moments of discovery, joy, inspiration, fun, support, self-love, forgiveness, patience with ourselves & others, learning, taking a breath, and every opportunity to laugh. xo
3222. Betsy Hernandez: WE LOVE YOU JOSH
3223. Tammy Dickerson: God Bless you Josh. I have been in your corner rooting for you from the first video I saw of yours. I will always be here to support you. See you tomorrow. :)
3224. serine panossian: I lowkey just wanna give him a big hug right now 😢 when he was like about to cry it like made me so sad 😭 ❤️❤️
3225. Nikki Gasparovic: Josh, I just want you to know, that "it" kills me too. I've also questioned how life could seem so perfect and happy on the "other" side. I just feel for you, because you're such a kind, compassionate person, and it makes me sad that you're hurting like you are. After "it" went down, I sort of stopped watching them, for that reason. Obviously I'll never know the full story and all the details, but I'm bothered that it all magically just went away. You've been incredibly strong through this. It's okay to cry, never feel like it's not. Use your time for how you see it fit. Don't ever feel obligated to record for us. You do what you need to do. I just want you to know that I'm on your side for support, and I love you. ❤️
3226. Dýrfinna Mjöll: Kkk
3227. Ariel Carson: That is really brave of you to take the steps to healing, finding a therapist is going to help. It will get better ❤
3228. Veldas L: Take all the time you need to heal! Don't be too hard on urself.
3229. Emily Taylor: I feel for you buddy. I know that it hurts so so much. But you're gonna get better. You just took a wrong turn somewhere along the way, and God can and will turn your life completely in the right direction if you let Him. You won't be defeated by this. We all love you so much and I'm hopeful that you'll be back on your feet soon. Praying for you :)
3230. Crypt Keeper: good for you for stepping out there and getting help!
3231. Yankee Poodle: The only way he can be solid or happy again is to change. In life, you can't expect to stay haopy without changing its called adaption. You can't grow without it and without that you can't be happy. Life is always changing. I have clinical depression. Josh you have such a beautiful view of life. You are young, handsome and intelligent. Find your passion. Love yourself. I've had 2 major breakups the first one took me over 7 years to get over. I finally was married thought I was finally happy. Nope The second time I got help this time. I got divorced, lost my dad and moved to FL from MY all within 6 months. Plus I hadn't worked in 5 years. Lost almost all of our possessions. I was so full of pain and frustration. Anyway, I'm doing much better now. I went back to school and am working part time. My daughter just graduated high school. With the help of my mother we are still here.We still have of work to do but we are getting there to find happiness. What I found out is you don't find happiness in someone or something else, it's in yourself. You can't make someone else happy if you can't make yourself.
3232. AnnSofey Berthelsen: Give yourself time to breathe... In the end this channel is your job and it's okay to take time off to focus on YOU! Get better and come back 100% ! <3 People will understand because it can happen to everyone.. Trust me!
3233. Aubrey Madelyn: 💜💜💜
3234. Alix Lung: Please try going to church and talking to Him and praying. I don't know if you are religious but I believe He will help guide you and give you strength.
3235. Tariq Thomas: "I wanted to be honest with you," Josh, you are literally the most honest youtuber the majority of us has ever had the pleasure of watching. And I don't think there's enough to be said about how strong, brave, and amazing of a person you are. We appreciate you tremendously. Well, at least I know do. Prayers go out to you, man.
3236. Marie Boland: Thank you for posting this, Josh. I too have been embarrassed about feeling lost post divorce. I moved out of state. And an inner voice keeps going like, "Why do you need to be embarassed?" And it has taken me this long too to find a therapist (just this past week) and am glad a leader like you is sifting through things and coming back to their platform at this time, i will be coming alongside you as you make this journey. Thanks for posting this step.
3237. Violent Rainbow: I'll never understand why they broke up, they seemed so damn happy and perfect for each other I just don't get it I feel like I need closure.
3238. Lisa AndFamily: Praying for strength and healing Joshua! hugs
3239. Merwin Leonor: Babe, heartbreaks isnt depression. you got your heart broken and you are just dealing with it slowly. you can do a 1000 things to distract yourself but it will get to you sometimes but be honest to yourself. take your time. be with your friends and family and dont force yourself to just get on with love. ive been there and I did it all and when I thought life wasnt good enough life turned. there is nothing wrong woth you. you just got heart broken. you will get better, in time. love you ❤
3240. Not TANner: He needs to eat a troll (not being mean or anything but the movie Trolls just, if you get it you get it)
3241. Dorothy Carson: 👍🏾👍🏽👍🏻👍🏼👍🏿👍✌🏻️✌🏼️✌🏾️✌️✌🏿️✌🏽️👏🏻🌟💫👀👁👏🏽👏🏽👏🙏🏻
3242. Kat Garcia: This video still breaks my heart 💔
3243. Rae of Sunshine: Therapy has saved me in so many ways, and I am continuing seeking that counsel - something I'm so blessed to have, and so happy to see you taking those steps as well, Josh. Know you are SO loved, and you are never alone in this journey. My prayers and love go out to you. as well as anyone else reading this that is also struggling. You got this <3
3244. Ayesha Rehman: Good for you for being honest with yourself. I know people who have been depressed and honestly, being with others is the most important thing. You just gotta let people help you and learn to let them in again.
3245. Bambam Bullies: Josh needs some rough sex with a well hung guy
3246. Sarah White: 💜
3247. Ruth Ames: I'm sorry Josh! I feel so bad for you. I can't even fathom how you feel and I'm so sorry. You are so genuine and I hope you find true happiness again! Do what you love and we will all help you through it.
3248. AMQUIN 123: Josh Ilu I hope you feel better:)😭❤️
3249. Potato Alien Ri: josh were all ways here for u..u can always talk to ur fans we will listen to u josh were always here for u hope u know that josh ok
3250. Ritu Singh: You're so brave for speaking out. We're very proud of you for that. It is never easy to say something like this on internet. I know this is very hard, I am dealing with the same stuff. But I am sure time will heal everything. We will get through this. You give me strength. GOD BLESS. ❤️
3251. Fluffy Awseomeness: Hey there is nothing wrong about you okay don't feel bad about your self you are not perfect nobody is okay just don't feel bad about yourself please
3252. Adaline Brown: Guyy ,no mnnbnnb hbuyvcvu
3253. Mickey Atkins: It's okay to be depressed. You'll get to a good place with time and patience, but until then it's okay to be sad.
3254. Mbeepy: Honestly, I'm surprised you only just got a professional to talk to now! It should be really helpful.
3255. soapqueen2008: As someone who has been in therapy myself and still am I can tell you this it's the best decision of my life
3256. Marina Walsh: Sending love and prayers❤ u do what u need 2 do love 2 get urself well x
3257. Morgan S: I love you so much❤️❤️❤️
3258. rabbithole: Thought he was finally gonna come out as gay. Guess we'll have to wait
3259. P J: We are here for you. Thank you for your vulnerability. We love you Joshua ❤️
3260. Caleb B.: I would honestly say don't put the pressure of having the internet keep you accountable. Make sure you're taking care if yourself first, and then vlog when you feel better. That seems a little selfish to say but I was thinking it.
3261. scouthafen: I understand 100%. I had my dreams crushed almost a year ago, and despite my honest attempts to, as you said, "bounce back," and keep trying, I haven't been able to let go of the overwhelming bitterness and sadness. It's escalated to the point where I'm majorly depressed. I don't mean that as merely an expression. I googled the symptoms of clinical depression, and I'm experiencing all of them. I'm trying to get up the courage to get help. So far I haven't been able to. I admire you for finding the courage. I'm going to try and use this as inspiration to do the same.
3262. Karina Castro: its sad but I started laughing when shadow was pooping in the background
3263. Tarzan Nebby: Alaina Carlson exactly, it's just 10 minutes of their day, snipits
3264. Kristina Lynn: <3 <3 We are here for you josh 1,501 people at this point have liked this that means over a thousand people !CARE! <3 <3
3265. JoshSkellington: Little Duckling 🏆
3266. Brianna Neumeyer: I have so much appreciation for you Josh!!
3267. xotteya: I just started Therapy too! I've gone three times, and it is honestly the nicest thing. I'm very happy for you. And proud of you for this video. End the stigma!!! Sending you lots of love, honey. Xo
3268. Stephanie Biss: Just because the other side of the coin looks all happy and shiny (in front of a camera,) doesn't make it true.  She has submerged her life into work.  We all deal with heartbreak differently and have various coping methods.  I wish you much peace and happiness!!
3269. Liz woop: So proud of you Josh. Really wishing all the best for you always! You're one of the most genuine people on youtube and we appreciate that. Don't ever forget it!
3270. C D: Absolutely nothing is wrong with you. People feel things differently, some more intensely then others and that's okay. You have a big heart and it's hurting right now and you're going through the healing process. Some days will be better than others. Currently going through the same thing right now. Eventually you will find that inner peace you're looking for. And just because everything looks peachy on that other side of the coin doesn't mean that's actually how it really is. On the internet people only show you the side of themselves they want to show.
3271. Laurie Potter: Everything will be okay. You will be okay in time. ❤️ Keep The Faith.
3272. Jade Olivia: There's nothing wrong with you, Josh. It wouldn't be normal to "get over it" in less than a year. You're dealing with your emotions, while the other side is probably shutting them out, or at the very least not showing them online. No shade to anyone, but I think the way you've been so vulnerable and honest with us is very admirable, and I've gained a lot of respect for you. Life isn't rainbows and happiness all the time, and that's okay. You're still hurting because you're human, and because it mattered. People who hate on you or complain about you being down have probably never experienced this sort of pain before. The truth is, no matter how cliché it sounds, time really does heal everything. It might take years, but one day you'll look back and know this was all meant to happen, and be better for it.
3273. Olivia Tunnell: 2 Cor 12:9 is so powerful for me. and has carried me through many difficult times!
3274. aliii _xo: I'm exactly where you are. But I'll see you tomorrow.
3275. Fiona B.: You are very brave to talk about it Josh! I am glad you did. Believe me, there is nothing wrong with you. =) I believe you can be happy again! =D God is always there for you! God bless and we love you!
3276. Laura Van Vaketis: I've been in your shoes and I feel for you so much right now. Especially after seeing this raw emotion. Nothing is wrong with you. Nothing. But having an outlet will be your form of expression! One day you'll wake up and be like wait, I feel normal today...cool. this journey is gonna be a whirlwind of emotions which Youve already experienced, especially when your life is essentially ripped apart and your left alone to rebuild a life on your own but you've been part of a team for so long that starting over alone is scary and..depressing. But don't be Afraid to learn new things about yourself. I think making daily videos is an awesome idea. Wishing you all the best. Stay strong
3277. Cheryl Thompson: It's honestly about time. I haven't been able to watch either one of you because you've both been masking everything. I know those kids miss you & I know her family loved you. Appearances are deceiving. Being genuine is worth its weight in gold.
3278. Meg A: this is such a genuine vlog. you don't see that a lot on this site and i really appreciate it! i have never watched your videos but after this i will. i'm so happy for you that you have decided to seek help and i wish you all the best!
3279. Kathy Slivan: Hang in there Josh!! I have been threw a lot like you. Some days are so hard just to get out of bed. But you push yourself to get up. You are doing the right thing to continue to vlog. We all love you and love to watch your channel or we wouldn't be here. Take one minute at a time. You are always here for us now it's our time to be here for you. Keep on doing what you are doing and you will feel better. I am glad you are going to vlog everyday. I miss seeing you everyday. Praying for you that you find inter peace and happiness soon. It will come back because you have the will power to talk about it and not hide it. Sending prayers and happiness to you. We love you!!🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️👍👍👍
3280. joe monroe: It's okay to be okay, keep your hand in the sand, love you for love. Keep your head in the shoulders Travis! <3
3281. Robin G: Hi...I just stumbled on this video yesterday...then watched a few more of your vlogs...then came back today to comment! I want to say KUDOS to you man! How strong you are to allow yourself to see your human imperfections and make some tough decisions and make changes! I can imagine how hard this time can be, but from what I have been seeing in your other vlogs....you have strong values and will persevere! Carry one sir! From a new fan!
3282. Topping Family: this is the first vlog I've watched of yours (it was on my recommended list). Ive just come through on the other side of depression - and you seem amazing - your heart and genuine spirit are showing through - and I look forward to watching you continue to heal and strengthen. In the mean time - go easy on yourself - you deserve it.
3283. milaisonline: <3
3284. Sarah: Love seeing the real you, Josh. I completely understand and I think if anyone was in your situation they would feel the same. You have every right to feel that way and you also have the right to be happy and you deserve it!
3285. Jennifer Shakur: Josh jus do u!! Make yourself happy! You deserve to be happy. You’re amazing, and you will find happiness and love. Never be embarrassed about your feelings! Love u! 💋
3286. AddiB videos: Josh I love you so much! I'm so proud of you, and with everything you do. I've actually gone through similar things, and I am so glad you're telling us this. You will get through this and we are here for you through anything. You've always been one of my favorite youtubers. You're great!
3287. Samantha Paugels: Oh, Josh. Hopefully you being raw and real will help. We're still here for ya, to support and love you and your ventures.
3288. Pink Glitter: Josh, I wasn't going to comment because I don't think you'll see it but I'm going to just in case you do. Try meditating, you'll feel better. I swear it works.
3289. Rachelchannel: I love this video. Thank you josh. We are here to watch and go through this with you. Forever and always❤️
3290. Taylor Brooke Layne: You're allowed to cry , you're human.
3291. Elizabeth Palala: 2:40 I think your dog is pooping in the background 🐕💩
3292. Aimee Marie: I admire you so much for being so open and honest about this. I hate that some people put on this fake face about how their life is so fantastic and happy when really they are dying in side. so it's nice to see that you are coming out and saying how you feel... saying you need help and saying that you're getting it. I applaud you!
3293. Raquil Morgan: For some reason it's so sexy when grown men let out their feelings and cries.
3294. elena green: 💛💛💛 we love you
3295. Harry Krinkle: The difference between you and the other side is you actually have the courage to admit you're struggling. I've always known you were more open in general, but the degree to which she's gone to just act like nothing is happening, even going so far as deleting the announcement video...it's just sad. Whatever the case, it has been right at three years since I discovered you and her and your entire world, and it's about damn time I rejoin you. I'll get back to her, in time...but not yet. I'm not okay, either, if not to the extent you aren't. I've pretty much walked away from the community since September. It was just...too painful, for a while there. It felt like watching my parents get divorced all over again. It's still painful, but it's never going to get better unless I take a dive and join in in this journey you're about to embark on. I'm going to start watching daily again. There might even be new fans who don't even know me yet, I've been gone for so long. For those of you who know me, I'm back. For those of you who do NOT know me, allow me to introduce myself. My "name" is Harry Krinkle, and you're going to See Me Everywhere.
3296. !!!!!????: i haven't watched the vid yet but i'll just say this now, we're here for u bro
3297. Ashley Grover: we will always be there and support your decisions. you will continue to be in our prayers and thoughts. I hope things get better for you soon. with all the sincerity in the world. Ashley and jasmine
3298. Gracie Wagoner: The Lord can turn anything around. Although sometimes you feel as though you have no one, Jesus Christ is always there. Pray to him and maybe even go to church. I'll keep you in my prayers Josh.
3299. thegirlgamer: okay, so josh, i was in a situation like you were in, i lost my dog that i dearly loved, i had her since i was 12 and died when i was 21, i am now 25, she died when she was 12, i got her when she was 3, i remember everyday i was in my bed skipping class crying, and crying and getting headaches and taking pills ALL DAY LONG but you know what i said to my self I NEED TO GET OVER IT so what i did was i talked to a family member and i found a hobby that i enjoyed, and my hobby now is becoming a pet pet rescuer, and i really enjoy it because not only i can save dogs from there death but also care for them till they find a new home, i now have a dog that is 4 and i LOVE HER, so if i can get over something like that you can to, try it josh try it.
3300. Just Another Random Person On The Internet: so his getting a divorce
3301. Amanda Dayley: I'm so proud of you for being vulnerable, that is so so hard to do. Something that I recently discovered are the connexions classroom podcasts (spelled just like that;)) it's helped me a lot. It's exactly what it sounds like: becoming more connected to yourself and others through personal accountability, responsibility and humility. It's amazing and there are also classes you can take. Jodi the teacher is the best ever. Check it out if you're interested. I live by this stuff even though I'm still a beginner haha. There is a website if you just google search connextions classroom and the podcasts are just on the podcast app. Ok end rant. This isn't me plugging anything that's mine, it's just helped me and my family ten fold so I want everyone to know about it. Xo
3302. Dctnatural52: Awww josh I promise you she is hurting just as much, she just doesn't post about it a lot because it's very hard to talk about. I'm sure it'll get better it just takes time ❤️❤️❤️
3303. Sammie Young: stay strong!!❤️ love you josh
3304. Pat Jones: Jesus Christ - come out of the fucking closet!
3305. missrandomray: We will always be here for you. If you need time, take it. If you need space, take it. No matter what.... we are always here! love ya!
3306. Rose Cutler: I m sorry I know what your going through dogs make me smile may help you
3307. Melina: Thought this was a coming out video lol idk why!
3308. Sarah Dempz: Therapy is really amazing. I went through a break up last year that broke my heart. It was so sudden and so sad. I was so sad! I got a therapist and I left every week feeling so motivated and learning who I was again on my own and enjoyed time on my own. I worked so hard in the gym and my confidence shot up. I found a whole new group of friends and found someone who loves me so much and I love them so much! Keep on keeping on and you will learn how to cope <3 You're doing great! <3
3309. dickbender: i deadass thought he was about to come out the closet
3310. Sonja Green: Josh, I want you happy. We all deserve to be happy. But find your happiness in what makes you happy. If you are finding yourself clicking on certain peoples videos or snaps, stop clicking on them. Live your life. Don't look at anyone else's life. The grass isn't always greener on the other side. Stay strong, pray, and be happy. I'm praying for you.
3311. Kim L: listen ... depression is real... and it's okay to get professional help... I did and I am so much better for it! Therapy is the best thing to clear your mind, soul and your whole being. It actually took time almost a year because I had 30 years of junk to get rid of and you may just have situational depression. And everything you are saying is real and true and know there have been many of people who have been there and I have been there. Do things that make you happy! Do not push others away especially your friends and family! Volunteering ... give your time to others in need and then you can see what you are feeling is not so bad as we make it all up to be in our minds. Your healing will come. Work but in baby steps and keep a journal of your feelings rate them and you will see the patterns and use the tools your therapist gives you. It works but it does take work! Shadow is the best thing.... therapy pets work too! :) Anyhow just had to post this because I feel for you and know where you are coming from. I went through a seperation now divorce, I lost a good friend, my friend boss and then my dad and it all seems like dark times come all at once and we snap. You are human and you need to allow your self to grieve losses any type of losses. It's ok to have family and friends to be by your side and do the therapy! Stick with it. Blessings to you and I will continue to pray for positive results for you! <3
3312. The Mecham Family: I hit a place like that earlier this year. I finally went for professional help because i couldn't do it on my own. So true. You aren't meant to do it on your own.
3313. musashihumar: I'm so proud of you for finally going to therapy. It's a big step to take and a necessary one at that if you're dealing with stuff you just can't handle any more. I've been going myself since last December because I have been dealing with some nasty depression for a LONG time. I still have a ways to go, but I'm doing so much better than I was half a year ago. You'll get there too over time. Just keep at it and don't give up. You've got this, man. We've all got your back and are here to support you through thick and thin no matter what.
3314. Tímea Fehér: I understand you completely. Depression is kinda my nature since my teenage years :( but your dingleberries support you!!
3315. Jordan Nurney: Josh, it's ok not to be ok. Don't try to fix yourself by yourself. Give yourself time. Time is a crazy thing and when you rush it is harder. I wish I could give you a hug right now. But please just take time for yourself. Day by day. Regardless I will always be here for you. I'm proud of you that you're going to get professional help, there is nothing wrong with going to a therapist at all. I love you always Josh.
3316. Quin Taylor: I can relate
3317. Büsra Kocaman: What happened?
3318. shn: Josh, you are so brave for uploading this video and being so vulnerable openly, especially when so many people who are and were in your personal life are on YouTube. I think it's completely normal for you to feel so much pain, and the fact that you've chosen to share it with us rather than just show the happy moments says a lot about your intentions with this channel and your relationship with your fans, as well as your strength and courage. We're all rooting for you - spend a lot of time with yourself as well as good friends and take whatever time you need to heal and do what you love!
3319. Vallin Vallentine: Oh god, what bothers you more, acting like a bashful idiot or doing on camera so you can be seen doing while you "sully" your image with a cheeky camera flirt session? I don't know how the hell I got to this channel or video but I knew 2 things immediately, 1. there is no person in this world more in love with the sound of their own voice than you and 2. Everything about this reeks of bullshit.
3320. courtney Smith: Stay strong, Josh! I have depression and anxiety. It is awful! We all love you and you can do this! 😘
3321. GNC: Make a video with Shane Dawson!!
3322. Vicki McCarthy: Elizabeth Palala best part of The video
3323. Hanna Aronsson: Let it take time, you need it! Accept that some day you will not get out of bed, and not put out a video, don't pressure yourself so hard, it will get you back later!
3324. Cecilia Penso: I'm going thru something similar to what you are going thru. I thought he was the love of my life and now I'm trying to cope with the fact he is not. I feel so horribly alone, I wish so many times I could write to him but then I remember we broke up. It's so hard to me, this time. I'm only 23 but I feel like my whole life has completely shattered, 'cause I invested so much in that relationship. Hit me up, Josh, if you can. I wanna be sure you're "ok". Hugs xx
3325. Sarah Kinlaw: We all love you and want you to be happy josh ♥️
3326. Hema: its okay!!❤ allow yourself to feel down sometimes, its taken me almost 3 years to forgive, let go and rebuild, everyone needs their own time, don't hide. but while your working through those emotions and pain remember to smile and keep your friends and family more closer to you than us❤💕💕 start from the bottom and slowly build and you'll see your life will be better and brighter than it ever was!! these things happen so we become who we REALLY are and remove everything that was not true and crazy unhealthy, so look at this being a huge blessing with God by your side:')❤❤ who will always be there and put you in amazing graces!! you are so brave and strong Josh wow!! you inspire me to keep strong as well:))
3327. Lisa Beauski: Joshua I am so happy you are getting professional help. We love you, don't compare yourself to (the other side of the coin) we know that most of that is a show, and she isn't happy on the inside) appreciated your honesty here. Time will heal you plus help, the love of my life died in his sleep and I am broken however (on the mend) with God in my corner all things are possible.
3328. Ruthee Dewald: So glad you are seeing someone, that is the hardest step. Keep your chin up and carry on. Love you too. Will be awesome to see you daily once again.🎉🐊🌈⛸
3329. Topazz T: Josh, thanks for sharing & being so open. I know it's been extremely tough for you this past year & I'm so so sorry you are hurting. We all are there with you because we cared about your union a lot too 😪 You will truly get through this, I will pray for your healing and that God gives you strength & he will hold you up. You have so many amazing things ahead of you, focus on your future. 💞💞💞You will get through this with flying colors. Love & light 💞💞💞
3330. Zeinab Ibrahim: First 30 minzzz❤️😍😍😍
3331. Dee Baugh: So proud of you for getting professional help, it will help. No one is less of a person if they ask for help. NOT SORRY - just be you.
3332. Christina Vasquez: You got this Josh! Be strong and know that you have so many people who love you. I will pray for you brother. Sending you a huge hug!
3333. Greta Merth: We are all here for you josh we all have been through hard times just know that it's ok you have people who love you
3334. J.R. Wolf: Love and support you josh ❤️
3335. Elbert Trejo: Cheer up josh! Your not alone. I personally surfer of depression since I was 19 I'm 23 and it is tuff. I know how you fell. Stay strong!! We're here for you always!!
3336. Grace G.: I'm glad you're getting the help you need and the help that you deserve :) Take care of yourself, Josh.
3337. ClaireBearz World: Josh... I'm so proud of you.. it is very hard to express at times our deepest hurts and feelings. your very brave. I know how you feel and understand where your coming from because I was there. but can I just say.. It's painful, it's hard work but you do come out of it a much stronger and more compassion, empathetic, understanding person. When days come when it's hard to see the rainbow through the storm clouds remember that your family, friend, YouTube friends love, support and encourage you. it at times is easier to lock yourself away from the world and hide but you need to find the strength to do the opposite of what your feeling. I promise you will feel a lot better for it. I know how you feel.. after time your heart does heal and so does your head. I'm incredibly proud of you Josh. I'm praying for you. and I know that people throw our these three words a lot.. but I mean it... I love you.. It's ok to feel the way you feel. keep being real and keep sharing. your going so good.. and remember...one step at a time will get you to that place you wanna be at the end of this... "happy."
3338. Kimberley Baggett: Don't know if you'll see this, but Josh some of the best people are a little rough around the edges. Life can kick you in the face over and over and over again. You have a right to feel this way. I don't know if I feel a kinship to you because you are from the south also, but I think you're a really good person. At some point in life maybe these lessons you've learned will help you to be a stronger person. You can stand on top of all this negativity & feel proud of conquering it. I can say a million inspiring things, but at the end of the day I know life is still kinda shitty right now. If there's ever another significant other in your future, they will be very lucky to have you. You might be jaded. You have a heart that knows real hurt. People that know that kind of hurt, love a lot harder & more loyal than others. I hope you have the happiest of days. Seriously. All the love from Bama 💕
3339. Ruth Farrell: It's cliche but Jesus loves you Josh :) he can be everything you need in this period of your life.
3340. Claire Vial: Been there and its the worst but will for sure get better with time. There is nothing wrong with you! I can tell from the amount of hope and self awareness that you have that you will definitely make it through :)
3341. TatjanadeGraaf: STOP doubting your self about if something is wrong with you  because its NOT   you get through this  just different it takes longer for you so what   the other side as you call it  just dived in to the work  and maybe it breaks behind closed doors   maybe not  just don't look back move forwards you can do it
3342. Dudley French bulldog: Click bait lies
3343. Cindy Hall: What a great man. She fell for someone else and it's not fair. Look how your happy again!
3344. monkeymungle: You can marry the most amazing person ever and they will never be able to fill the holes in your heart that only God was ever to fill. A person can be a complement to your life but they're not meant to be your life's mission or your goal. Happiness is temporary but true joy comes from God.
3345. Erica Clements: Love you, Josh. So much. We're here for you. 💕
3346. Chloe Munn: Maybe you should try reading the Bible about what Jesus can do for you and watch how he changes your life!
3347. Joyce Abramson: One. Day. At. A. Time. <3
3348. Dreamcakey: I love you so much Josh. We are here for you, I'm here for you. The things are you are saying I can relate to. So. Much. I hide it, I don't talk about it, and I just let it consume me and I wonder why I cant be happy like every one else. It's reassuring knowing that someone feels the same as me. Again, I love you. Thank you for bring so honest. Please show us how you feel and dont be afraid to because we are here for you.
3349. Mel Sanchez: you have my support! keep being brave!
3350. Tina M Fam: One day at a time, one hour at a time. you pick up one piece at a time and you will slowly build what you are wanting to build. hang in there. <3 I never want to be the downer either so I don't reach out. also the coolest book is "a mind of your own" by Kelly Brogan how to help depression I know yours is possibly more situational. but what you eat will certainly help and it will teach you how not to make it WORSE. <3 sending loves.
3351. Crystal Call: Josh I know exactly how you feel. I hope that you can find your happiness your are a great person and you can do this! You are amazing
3352. shelby: Okay why the fuck is everyone hating on JOSHUA? Because he is talking about his life and he is talking about his hurting?? I have loved and followed joshua as well as everyone who has ever been in his life for YEARS and after everything that happened i felt in the middle. Like a kid who's parents got divorced. i didn't hate anyone and i didn't take a side right away but after a while i "took josh's side." It wasn't on purpose and it wasn't a conscious thing, it was completely natural. I followed joshua and i knew we was broken hearted and it broke my fucking heart. i have always felt contented to joshua more so than a lot of youtubers and i could feel his pain. As far as she goes i felt for her as well but after a while her videos felt fake, like they were for show. I didn't hate her, i was just confused. I felt like she wasn't the same girl i was once obsessed with. She's just this robot who looks like her and only sometimes acts like her. Joshua on the other hand has ALWAYS been real in my opinion. That's what i like about youtube, it's supposed to be real. it's not supposed to be this fabricated perfect life people put on for show. Joshua is hurting. Never ONCE have i seen or heard any of them talk shit or shade the other so why people take sides and hate on one is beyond me. Although i follow him and lot more than i follow her now a days, never ONCE have i said anything bad about her or sent her hate or shade. it breaks my heart to see this fandom who once loved everyone , act so divided.... anyways forever and always joshua , i love you ❤️❤️
3353. Jarlenne Morales: I'm at this place now and it really sucks. I'm glad its getting better for you tho 💙
3354. TinisTipsar: Never forget, broken glass can also reflect light. And I can still see you shine through the massive hurt that you are in. And also, I am rooting for you. Always rooting! Be strong, and if you are not, it is ok. Everything you are is ok.
3355. Karthika Nair: Dear Josh, what other people think is not for you to control. No matter what you do or say, there will always be someone who has something nasty to say. you need to ignore that, God knows we all do. there's something I did when I was in your situation, I came this close to killing myself. but I didn't and I'm so happy. but, we're not all the same.. you for you it might take longer than the others. make videos that make you happy, say what you wanna say. talk to your family, chill with your friends.. Nothing to be embarrassed about. the more you're alone, the more you'll think about it. you have shadow and you have family and friends.. you always have us. We love you so much! We'll keep you safe in our prayers. The world needs a lot more of people like you, so don't stop spreading love. .
3356. A Fuller: I love you Josh❤️
3357. RO 66: Ellis Cairny I don’t, she left him for the second time. I don’t want him to get hurt for the third time.
3358. Caranisa Ramgulam: Nothing is wrong with you honey 💕 You are worthy and valuable to everyone. 🌼
3359. Victoria Hernandez: Coming from someone who has struggled with depression, I understand how the cycles are. I love seeing a YouTuber who keeps things 100% real. Life isn't perfect, and it doesn't need to be portrayed that way. Getting help was one of the best decisions I ever made! Praying therapy works out for you!
3360. marCpreciado: (HUG)
3361. The Glamour Index: J K Omg, yes... my heart breaks for him.
3362. Theresa Troudt: Say her name Josh. Release all you can and cry and get it all off your chest. I'm so proud of you and you have an entire army behind you to help you through this. You will come out the other side stronger and a better person. I still hate that she hurt you. It breaks my heart. Much love!!! XOXOXOXO
3363. Taye Nic: scars of any kind demonstrate the strength and resilience demonstrated for survival. There is so much strength in this comment there's nothing that harvests shame.
3364. sena kilincoglu: Josh there is nothing wrong with you. You will feel better don't worry. It will get better.
3365. S a: nothing is wrong with you. those people who hurt you have something wrong with them
3366. LunasDaughter: I hope Josh reads this. You worded it perfectly.
3367. Leah Moran: TheDegu Guru I said life not the earth.
3368. Mialy Gray: I am so sorry!!😢
3369. Alyza Dlg: Always Keep Fighting Josh, you have so many people that love you❤️
3370. Lauren Youngstedt: its hard to believe he's depressed because he is pretty known of not being very real in my book. No offense to anyone who can relate
3371. arthropodarts ltd: U need something that u find happiness in. Like sports or running, dance anything honestly it'll make life so much better.❤️
3372. Happy Day: i can tell he's bi
3373. Jenny Way: 💖💖💖💖💖💖
3374. Rachel Elizabeth: It's very normal to not be ok. You'll have good days and you'll (mostly) have bad days. It honestly just takes a lot of time. I went through a heartbreak a couple years ago and I'm honestly still not completely over it; and we weren't even together very long so I can't imagine what you're dealing with. Therapy is amazing and super helpful though. I don't know how I would've gotten through my hard time without it. I'm so happy for you that you decided to go. I hope everything gets better for you soon. Keep your chin up and keep smiling! <3
3375. cuddle bunnyx: I LOVE YOU YOU ALWAYS HAVE BEEN THE BEST YOUTUBER E V E R I HOPE YOU SEE THIS KEEP DOING YOU AND DONT FORGET TO SMILE (:
3376. Beatrice Kpaku: Hi Josh, thank you for once again being open and honest with us during this moment in your life: l know where are you coming from and I can say mostly that I am proud of you for putting yourself out here and seeking help which is vital. Second of all you are a human being, you have feelings and emotions so it's perfectly fine not to be okay. Trust me is a matter of time and things will get brighter for you. Keep trying don't give up you have all my support and send you a virtual hug all the way from the U.K
3377. Elle Scord: OI'm sorry josh <3
3378. Birdie Berger: So good you are going to therapy, empty cup can't pour with nothing in it. You will feel better soon. Just focus on rebuilding. Mediate too, climb mountains, hike achieve little things and build up.
3379. Juni Das: shows you genuinely loved her, but for her it was just here youtube that is important
3380. Mia: It's not you Josh, it's the other side of the coin. God is in you and with you thats why it hurts. The other coin is soul less and selfish now. She's a lover of money and greed. theres better for you Josh .Trust this. You are a good person, nothing is wrong with you brother.
3381. Leslie Gillman: I know exactly what you are going through I am clinically depressed,bipolar and I have PTSD. If you ever need to talk I am available 24/7.
3382. Susanna Langdon: I'm so proud of you Joshua! Never hide your feelings and thoughts. I have learned that the hard way. Thank you for being open, that is one of the many reasons why you are amazing! Be you!
3383. Summer Leavitt: me and my sister have depression and we take pills and the pills really make a difference and if you take some you will find happiness in your life i have gone through so many things and i'm only 10 and i take the pills and they have made me happy and you make me smile and if i met you that would be my dream come true
3384. Lauren Johnson: Madison Vasquez just hold on. You can get through this! Just know that people love you and are willing to help you! If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here for you!❤️
3385. Artartbaby: <3 <3 <3
3386. Shiyndeay: I just took a massive 6 month break from YouTube watching and creating, I got a therapist I started working out every day and stopped eating sugar I'm just getting to the point that i can honor my creative passions again. Thanks for being real.
3387. tyree bruce: I'm 53 so I'm coming from maybe a different place than many here but I have been dealing with depression most of my adult life. Some us life events, some is stupid decisions on my part but underneath it all I'm just wired that way! Basically like you I'm depressed and no matter how many people want me to be ok it doesn't work that way! At my worst I watch the world going on all around me, people laughing and enjoying life but I can't feel it! It's a horrible loneliness! It's treatable and you're doing the right thing getting help and being open! Untreated it gets worse! I know I got so bad I couldn't make phone calls, and I needed to because I need a job and if I isolate how can I fix things? Vicious cycle! I JUST came to the realization a week ago that I had to take the time and dig deep and address every single thing head on! I'm worth it! I'm 53, I've raised 5 kids, it's time to enjoy them as adults and enjoy the time I have left! I'm worth it! So are YOU! I don't even know how I ended up here, I know who you are and of course I know about your marriage and divorce but not much else somehow this popped into my suggested videos so I'm going to take it as a sign! Anyway I'm wishing you the VERY best, one perfectly imperfect depressed person to another! Let's BEAT this monster and enjoy our lives and help others make it to the other side! Let's make sense and good out of the very thing that's destroying us!!!
3388. skanecmt: Being depressed while you are grieving is going to be a bit of a hard climb, since one exacerbates the other. Accepting help is the grown-up responsible thing to do and, if you aren't used it, it will probably take some time to acclimate yourself to it. At least that's how it was for me. Accepting and utilizing help from others is a skill that requires practice. For me, it felt uncomfortable at first but once I started to get the hang of it, thing started to get easier. My philosophy is this: A burden shared always has the potential to become a party!
3389. Ellie Kalisher: I seriously recommend exercising daily if you don't already. Not just because of the weight gain, but because it's one of the best things to do when you feel down, and it gives you a natural high and helps you feel good about yourself and keep your brain and body occupied. Keep fighting josh, we all love you so much. ❤️
3390. Laura B.: there's nothing wrong with you Josh. People deal with things differently. Some heal faster and are stronger​. Some need more help. there's nothing wrong with feeling hurt. Yes it sucks but essentially what you feel can't be wrong because it's what you feel and it's true to you. I know it's qliché but don't forget people love you and you shouldn't​ feel embarrassed to admit your feelings because it's what you feel. You have people in your life that care about you and that's something you should never forget:) I don't​ know if you'll ever read this but keep fighting !
3391. Bella Belaski: I swear that every time I watch a video of his now he always says the same exact thing. Honestly I feel bad, really I do, but what's the point of repeating yourself? If you're not okay then making videos is gonna hurt you more. Just take your break a little while longer, your true fans will wait for you.
3392. Melanie Hii: first
3393. Bannerman Bear 🐻: Get òut and date again man.
3394. Alanna Preylo: Christifer DS I unsubscribed as well for the same reason. And yea, this makes him more real again. And it makes me happier to see him be real. Even if he is hurting. At least I know he is being real again.
3395. Lpslover039 Gaming: Be strong josh !! Your a great person , if you need people to talk to anybody all us dingleberries are here !!! We all love you so much ❤️
3396. Kathleen B: Maybe you should get another dog dogs do make everything amazing and shadow could use a friend and looks like you could too. Anyways main point I have anxiety and depression and I think of it as each day is work I have to make myself get out of the house sometimes some days it's easy some days it is hard but that's okay I sometimes do therapy if I need to. I just want to let you know each day is a new day and it is possible to be happy again don't ever give up! So many people love you I see it all over your channel always remember that.
3397. broadwaysimmy: Proud of you.
3398. Lauren Kaminski: I have made a video about having anxiety & depression. You will be okay,you have us that are here for you,even if it is just through the internet. We love you! I will be praying for you.
3399. Maria Tucker: It takes time. 💞
3400. Nike Rex: You are awesome Josh. All the best with the therapy, it is a fantastic investment in yourself XO.
3401. Nora: 😢❤️
3402. Crazy_ Person: RhiaLC18 Good luck xx
3403. Tracie Sue: I hope you can find your happy again. You Sir carry your heart on your sleves nothing wrong with that I hope the help your getting will help you. We all are not perfect and we all have something we are dealing with I want to see you ok and happy sending happy vibes your way don't be sorry be yourself and take as much time as you need for yourself to heal.
3404. Mary Whitney: We are always here to support you, Josh. Much love always.
3405. Kalyn Strange: You are so brave, Josh! You are helping so many people feel like they are not alone by posting this! Things WILL get better for you, because you decided to help yourself! ❤️
3406. krista anderson: Going through an extremely hard breakup right now.... this was really hard to listen to because it's so true... you have to learn to accept something that you don't want to and you don't have the control of it... because you can't just fall out of love with someone... you can't choose to just be "ok". It's out of your control so you just feel so lost... and there isn't any compass in the world that can help..
3407. Harmonizerforlife101 Harmonizer: When you hit rock bottom the only direction you can go is UP..... your not alone ♥️
3408. kookie love: Josh, we understand. We get it if you need a break. We love you and will always support you. I know we'll never truly understand but well try love ya! -Gabby
3409. Grace Marie: You will be okay, it takes time but you will heal. I believe in you i love you you are amazing person i know you can get through this, take some time to yourself take care of yourself
3410. Amanda Saul: You deserve to be happy, love you Joshua :)
3411. gaby mendez: Beautiful!!!! 😍😍😍
3412. Jami Joy: I think he is religious or at least grew up that way but I don't even know what happened and most youtubers don't display their beliefs openly because sadly there's usually backlash from fans or viewers
3413. The Young Ones: Hi! I'm not sure if you'll read this but damn man well spoken!! Internet hugs 🤗 all to you. You do you, be honest like this one take and everyone of your subscribers with be there for you. Keep going to therapy it totally helps. Best video in a long time dude xoxo thanks
3414. Ella: Different is ok. Don't apologize. We love you!
3415. Paige M: Don't feel bad or embarrassed at all! Mental health is just as important as physical. I think it's amazing that you reached out to a therapist. We'll all be here for you to give you extra encouragement and support through this. What you went through and are experiencing is extremely tough and traumatic. Your life was flipped upside down. Never feel bad for feeling things! We're all human. Hang in there! It will get better! ❤️
3416. caseybc04: Im sorry Josh! I am sorry to see you so hurt! but this is normal when your life is being shared with someone.. You do you man! and do what you need to, to make yourself happy!!!
3417. Leeloo D: Josh, I love seeing this honest and real side of you. There is nothing wrong with you - it's okay to grieve and you deserve love through both the joyful and devastating times in your life. This is a painful part of your journey, but you can lean into it, and with time it will pass. Recommended reading: Radical Acceptance, Embracing Your Life With the Heart of a Buddha by Tara Brach. This book changed my life when I was in what felt like an unending waking nightmare after an abusive relationship. I'm in a better place now, and you will be too! Lots of love.
3418. Hannah Slankard: Can I just...Can I just hug you. I'm so sorry you had to go through this, Josh. You of all people did not deserve to have this stuff happen to you. We love you. I love you. Everyone's here for you dude.
3419. lisetje94: I just want to say thank you for making this video. I know a bit about how you feel, since I have been depressive from when I was 15 until I was about 20. I have had therapy on and off for 5 years and it was so difficult for me to talk about with other people. But just believe that it will be okay eventually. As one of my friends told me on my final day of therapy, you have to go to a lot of hard moments to finally reach the top of the hill and be happy. I love you Joshua and I wish you all the best and it's all gonna be okay
3420. Jason Ungvarsky: How do you know she's not hurting? You are strong josh! Thank you for opening up to us
3421. residentgood: What you need is some asmr videos sir hope you get better soon
3422. Violet Valentine: when a heart breaks, no it don't break even
3423. Laurenvassy: I know this feeling all too well you bounce back and fourth and don't want to be the downer but it's so tough! Don't knock how far you've came alone or whilst getting help like it's a massive journey....ups and downs are all part of the process and it will take over your life sometimes but you will get it back. You'll get to where you want to be 😙 everyone's got your back x
3424. Merwin Leonor: You are diffrent and you are good enough. i will always follow you on youtube❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
3425. Shenae Jauregui: princess Rose aww thank you💕
3426. Carolina Aguayo: It's okay to not be okay. Take some time to figure yourself out. I hope therapy helps you 💖
3427. Crunch Time: i hate to bring up this subject and i hope u dont read this josh, but i think that the worst part is that colleens doing fine, i just wish josh was the same
3428. Jordan Cheyenne: You are such a genuine human.. I can relate to so much of what your feeling after going through a horrendous heartbreak myself last year. You are so strong to share your honest emotions online with so many people, keeping you in my thoughts<3
3429. Ember Brown: Awesome. Praying for you. Love.
3430. Ashleigh Ward: Love you ❤️
3431. Melissa Huck: 😘
3432. xtina 217: Josh, you truly are a strong human being. You've been through a lot recently, and you've been so strong through it. But you don't have to be strong. It's okay to break down. It's okay to ask for help. You have amazing friends and family who are there for you, and are willing to help. We all love you Josh, and will always support you and want the best for you. I'm glad you're doing what's right for you, and are trying to change your life for the better. You are going to get through this ❤️
3433. Sharon Aviram: Brittany Paris it is not rude this is what he sees and this is what we all see cuz this is what she wants us to see so he judges by this. Maybe she is sad but she did this step and she obvs feels better now and free and happy and he feels broken
3434. Crystelle Pappa: I REALLY HOPE YOU SEE THIS COMMENT! Josh, there is nothing wrong with you. It's totally ok not to feel ok! Accept your negative feelings and keep going to the therapist! they will help you find the Josh you've been missing. We all have been in hard situations..feeling sad is normal. express your emotions and dont try to hide them because it's unhealthy. I believe in you! You are going to be fine and stronger than ever before!
3435. Maigyn Luthe: I have so much respect for you for making this video. I feel the same way some of the time and it's really nice to know that someone that has a happy online persona can feel this way too. Honestly, for me, it makes you more interesting. Being barefoot and alone with my dog in nature gets me out of my funk every time. Sometimes I have to force myself to go down to the river everyday until I feel better.
3436. Victoria West: You got it josh. There's a lot of hope out there. You just have to find it and grasp it. Live live, enjoy family, enjoy what you have. Enjoy the life that god has given to you. You are here for a reason. Personally I know my reason is to help people and make them happy. Maybe that's yours. Think about others and how you want to make them happy. Use that to make you happy. Have hope, because it will get better. Sincerely, Victoria from Rochester NY. PS I saw you in Syracuse :)
3437. Mrs. Kitty: I'm tried of this gross culture we are living in where it's totally ok to throw people away the moment you feel a little uncomfortable. She should be ashamed; for acting like a know it all. Then marrying a man and instantly regretting it. Marriage is a sacred thing, if you don't truly love someone don't marry them and ruin their lives. This is America, 2017, no one is pressed to get married anymore, no excuses. I hope you start to feel empowered again, because you don't deserve to feel this way....
3438. Quincy: I was your 1,440,001 sub
3439. JCR: if she is watching this i hope she make up with josh please!
3440. Heidi Amaral Canela: I thought they were going to be back together
3441. Av H: You are really strong to really see where you are in life. Being a role model is challenging for many,and taking this step and reaching out for help from a therapist is just one step on a very long road ahead of you. Remember it takes and stay strong when you can. Just be yourself and if people decide they don't like it that is their problem not yours. If you brighten one persons day, even if it is your own, that is all you need. I think you are a really amazing person!
3442. Myka Rice: You have so much support and SO MANY people who love you, Josh. You are great and you deserve to be happy. One day at a time. ❤
3443. مودل وردا Model Warda: I love you and I stand beside you!
3444. heera mirza: trust me you will be okay...believe that...its not easy but somewhere deep deep down just believe that you will n that will pull u through n b4 u know it u will be on the other side n until then please dont apologise 4 how u feel...we arent robots n we all feel what we feel...u need to go through every stage n please allow urself to..but the whole time knowing that u will be okay through it all...:)
3445. Hannah May: ❤️❤️❤️ sending love josh, you WILL get through this. Remember you're allowed to feel this way. These feelings ARE ok. Be in the moment always, if the moment is low you can allow yourself to be low, it will allow your happiness to grow I swear. (Sounds hippy as fuck but I don't know how else to write it). These feelings are allowed though josh alright? Never feel guilty for pain! ❤️❤️❤️
3446. katrificsmiles: Josh, it's okay to not feel okay. You are human and what you went through was tragic. Not everyone can just blow it off and place on a act. You have feelings and emotions. This is a good thing. Take care of you. We all will be here for your support.
3447. Madi and Ali R: It's ok not to be ok and it's ok to ask for help. I'm glad that you are trying to get back to where you were. This is nothing to ever be embarrassed about. You are an amazing man and you deserve everything and more
3448. Vera: Im sorry you are hurting right now. Stay strong because those waves of sadness will lessen and lessen until they become manageable. I personally always believed that we grow the most as a person during a painful event in our life.
3449. I’m IIrrelevant: JoshSkellington I was the 1.4thK like
3450. megan constantino: Josh your not alone and there is nothing wrong with you. And sadness never lasts forever. I completely understand how you feel about not wanting to bug your friends about this kinda becuase in the same way. But bottling up every negotiable emotion won't do anything but hurt you in the long run. After sometime you will explode. You'll have a breakdown and trust it's not fun. So in the future when you feel down try something that I do. Type down why your sad or mad or whatever into notes on your phone or something like that. Kinda rant to the phone then delete it. I know it's kind of silly but trust me you will feel better. It helps me becusse I don't feel comfortable talking about my problems and such with other people. So I use my phone to my advantage. Something that also helps me is finding things that are positive and surrounding myself in that. Don't drown yourself in he positivity because you still need time for yourself to handle you problems. Some ideas are find a YouTuber who is always happy. (Joey gracceffa if one of my favorites) and binge watch them. When my head is full of negative thoughts I take a walk out side. No earbuds or music with it just a walk it clears the head. I hope some of these things help and have an amazing day!❤️
3451. RAISING TWINS !: josh, u were in love, u lost probably the best thing thats ever happened to you, their is absolutely nothing wrong with you its totally normal to feel that way, especially when you lost something that you had no choice on letting go even tho you didn't want to :( you will find your happiness again i truly believe that, good luck with everything 😘
3452. Amber Marie: Josh I feel the same way as in you don't want to bother anybody you just want to stay away from people for awhile. I cry a lot but it is going to hurt for awhile. Nothing makes sense and you never knew that it was going to turn out to be this way and you just want the pain to go away. People always say go on and be happy but some people handle it in different ways.
3453. S Burton: Thank you for sharing. I can totally relate to how you're feeling. yeah, try to get into a routine (whatever that looks like for you). I found staying busy helps me to stop over thinking everything. Also try doing a little bit of yoga everyday, that seemed to help calm me down. Good luck with your journey, we're all routing for you ☺
3454. simplymollie: working towards the same goals myself, josh. I have asked myself a lot of the same questions. you have every right to feel the way you feel. love you! ❤️
3455. Joana Moreno: *crutches
3456. Monica: im just like you. i feel for you.... may you rise and find your happiness again
3457. Crazy_ Person: I just wanted to say, people please don't 'take sides'. It's not our responsibility to attack the other party because we think they're in the wrong. Right now we need to support both parties and make sure that everyone is okay/getting help. xx ❤️
3458. Viktorija Marozaite: Chloe k amen!
3459. Allie Miller: Let us carry each other's burdens.
3460. Colleen Unger: It's sad how Josh always says "Be Nice To People" but all his supporters are all mean and rude and basically cyber bully her. If you don't like her you should just ignore her. THERES NO NEED TO HATE!!!! BE NICE TO PEOPLE!
3461. Veronika Hanvey: we all got your back. and we all love you. and you make us happy.
3462. courtney van ginkel: Josh its ok to not be ok, but please don't give up. you are an amazing guy that deserves so much happiness and i know you'll be there again but time will help that. we all love you!!!
3463. Josh: Get a grip.
3464. Emily Natali: sorry
3465. Casey Kehoe: Hey Josh one more thing.. I would suggest a workout program to help with when you feel like you don't know what to do or when you are feeling low.. crossfit has been my haven and honestly another therapy for me.. just a suggestion! Good luck!
3466. getoutofmyheaddanac: You know the phrase, "You do you"? Well, first you have to discover who "you" are. We are here for you on this journey, and we are behind you 100%. Find yourself to love yourself.
3467. Sarah Jo: I just want to say, I'm genuinely proud of you for going to therapy, for getting help, for making this video, for making a plan to work on your problems. It's extremely encouraging and honestly relieving to see you doing a bit better, at least enough to truly see how bad you have gotten. That's for real the first step. I've been through some shit depression and really dark times and the second it starts getting better is when you take that second to be like "wow, I'm a lot worse than i thought I was." So I'm really happy you finally dug down enough. I'm genuinely happy you're getting help. And don't worry about us. Those who love us always return so like if you end up taking a break or anything, it's okay, we get it. You're going through some rough shit and I wish you the best, for real. You're a good person, you're smart, talented, beautiful, a good doggy daddy. You'll be okay. I promise
3468. Kathleen Cadorette: nothing is wrong....i don't know if you'll ever read this comment but I hope you do. Every deals with loss differently. What happened is a sort of loss, with that comes the cycle of grief and it takes time, no one deals with it the same. But find ways like you say to make yourself happy!
3469. William Evans: this is Brittany I'm on my dad's account I think you're very worth it very blessed and you can set your mind to anything you really want in life and can achieve it. much love 🌺
3470. Zoe Jones: we are all here for you. whether we meet you or not. we are here and not going anywhere. bless your soul joshua. bless :) ❤️
3471. Tina Davies: love ur honesty. it takes time man. it's ok WE ARE HERE FOR YOU!! woo hoo excited for daily vlogs #DINGLESINCEDAY1
3472. Ava Dah Random: This made me cry
3473. Nathan T&M: I respect you so much ❤️ I hope you start to feel better soon 💖
3474. jeanette montgomery: everybody deals with loss differently. i hope you feel better soon xx big hugs xxx
3475. Will Katartzis: You cant talk about your feelings, because people just think you want attention. God forbid I say how you really feel, it would always just explode right in my face.
3476. Lady Liza: Bouncing off Lily's comment, as someone who's bounced up and down, emotionally, more times than a yo yo, let me tell you: it's ok to not be ok. I've tried to bounce back from stuff, and I've found if I force it, I fall harder. Let yourself be where you are, and when you're ready, you're ready. We love you, we support you, and we've got you're back.
3477. S Jones: After 10 years of marriage divorce was abruptly filed. We have a child together so it still isn't over. I let him keep the house and almost everything in it so home now is definitely different than home used to be. At times I felt I was at my happiest but then the next day I'm deep in a funk. Somehow one day(many many months later) something changed. I was at my breaking point and I was about to seek out an anti depressant because I feel sometimes it's so necessary. I don't know what it was,I wish I could figure it out but I hope you find your level ground and much happiness.
3478. Kim: This is very brave to admit! I love you! Keep going and remember that with hard work it only can get better! Stay strong, Joshua!
3479. Nikita Pratt: honestly, Josh, we love you no matter what. I hope you get better and I'm sorry for everything that's happened and how your feeling. I really hope things get better. We still love you, homie. ❤✌
3480. coleyy29: We are SO much alike!! I'm in your same boat! I feel ima dirt hole never able to come out it looking up at the sun light. I know I'm just a subscriber but if you or anyone needs to talk I'm always a great listener. I always ask myself what is wrong with, what am I doing wrong?!
3481. Kiaree Waller: Harry Krinkle I didn't say it was healthy for her to be doing this. And she isn't always on the screen. We don't know what's going on when she isn't filming and she is by herself with her cat. She could be a wreck and we don't even know it. And sometimes doing the things you love can make you feel better, even if it's temporary. She is a workaholic and that isn't good but we don't know if she's trying to fix that. She got season 2 of her show and it's something she loves doing, but that's almost over. The next thing is just her YouTube career which isn't that hard to deal with
3482. payton: aw i wanna hug you so bad!!! im so sorry and just know that i love you.
3483. Roses world: Josh?
3484. Kimmiee Peloquinn: Love you ♥️ you'll conquer this! Your strong 😘
3485. Lindsey Ann: Josh, you are an amazing man. What you are going through is awful and I hope you can find what is best for you and heal. I personally believe that you are so amazing and have so much faith in you. I wish there was more I could do but I'm just a follower. I guess I'm trying to say is if you ever need an ear to listen, I, as well as a majority of your followers are here, you can always shoot me a message. I hope you find your silver lining and your something special. I love the fact that you are so real with your followers and becoming more real with your life. And now that I've written a mini novel I'll stop now.. I hope things get better. Love always!
3486. The Despicable Couple: 💛
3487. Sam&James Shields: The first step is admitting you have a problem. The cycle of grief is hard (divorce is life death.) much ❤️ love!
3488. Lesett Luna: Things always happen for a reason. There is no real answer. You can do this! The mind is so powerful and God will help you thru it. He never lets you down. Be you and keep going, just keep moving forward
3489. Janae Clarice: All I can offer is turn to God. He's probably not who you think He is. He will surprise you. Trust me, I would know.
3490. Melanie Bee: Josh man I'm super proud of you for admitting this. I just went through something similar and it's not easy. We are all here for you man and it's nothing to be embarrassed about! we got this!
3491. CesshireCat: I know Josh is a good person. he didn't deserve this pain. :(
3492. Cassandra Siegfried: give yourself time. don't force anything. do what you need for you! let others help you because they'll need you sometime too. listen to this old lady...don't worry, it will all get better. Maybe not as quickly as you would like, but it will. there's nothing "wrong" with you. you WILL be ok.
3493. Sophia Goorally: You don't have to fake being happy take some time off I will always love and support you!!😘
3494. Danie Kathie: I also suffer from depression, and there is something to understand, which is really important, happiness is not a continuous state in any human being, try to erase that concept from our mind, because we are anxious not to feel happy every day, Look for ways (there are many) to feel calm with our actions. To do things well, to find that connection / passion for what moves us. You are strong to be sincere, your honesty is appreciated, I hope you find the strength to be calm, I wish you the best. Sorry my english i'm spanish
3495. April Rivas: Josh, there aren't a lot of people that I don't know personally, yet I care for as a person. You are one of those very few people. I've gone through situational depression many times in my life. I'm so glad you found someone to talk to. You are the kind of person that loves with their whole being. There is nothing wrong with that! It makes you vulnerable, but I know that you will find someone who loves the same way. Please don't put too much pressure on yourself and don't listen to the negative comments from people who don't have a clue what you are going through. Your true fans will always be here to encourage you. We love you for who you are. You can do this, buddy. 💙
3496. Marie Hugaas: I don't like to talk to people(family and friends) about my feelings. It's okay to feel down. I don't think this is what you want to hear, but from what you're telling I know what you feel. And I feel the same. It's not easy to open up to others. Sometimes we need personal space to heal, and not everyone understands that it takes time, and a lot of energy. I hope you get better by talking to your therapist and making your amazing YouTube videos.
3497. Erin Benn: I believe in staying as busy as possible when you hurt. It's hard to do because you just want to stay in bed and feel bad. But being busy forces you to stop thinking about your life. It forces you to remember how to be yourself again. I highly recommend it. Whether it's volunteering or getting a job, something fast paced and time consuming, and you'll start to feel normal again after awhile. At least I did. <3
3498. Dayna Musgrove: I am currently going though a really though time mentally too, and it sucks. I am excited to go through this journey with you. I am ready for you get get better....it won't happen overnight, but it WILL happen. Stick with it, put yourself out there, the only and BEST way to heal is to talk it out! Hiding is not the answer, and it is sad that we make ourselves feel like we need to hid wjo we are because we arent 100% for the tome being. We are temporarily lost, not broken. I am so proud that you are going about it this way. See you tomorrow. ♡♡♡
3499. Vanessa F.: things that have helped me through rough times: 1: Religion 2: start a journal 3:let yourself cry 4: listen to the lyrics to sad music 5:then listen to beyonce 6: surrond yourself with people u love 7: find a new hobby 8: realize that the person that broke your heart was an important part of your life, but she isnt your heart or lungs (this takes time) 9: use the memories to help you grow not to make u sad 10: Its ok to rant. It ok to grieve and its ok to be bitter. Its ok to be sad, and its definitely okay to make videos about it. It personally helps me relate more to u, and it helps me realize that emotion like sadness and happiness are normal. You got divorced something real happened to you, and its not only normal but its ok to be sad and angry. Just dont let those emotions consume your whole life (:
3500. George Harris: I feel this so much and I totally understand! Hugs!
3501. Just Cam Is Fine: You are doing the right thing for yourself and I am proud of you for doing so. You never have to feel guilty for going through all this, it is completely understandable and honestly for a lot of us it is completely relatable. <3 I am glad you are doing what you can to heal <3
3502. Rebekah Walters: Been looking for a comment about that!! FOUND IT!
3503. Gabriella Pobjoy: Good food, good people, good exercise, and good vibes <3 Hang out with people like Julien and Jenna who are just hilarious, loving, fun people who will 100% be there for you no matter what. I'm still struggling with depression, and in the past I have self-harmed, and I'm proud to say it's been 3 years since I have. Milestones like that help, so look forward to the next goal and next step, because you will make it there.
3504. ♡ LENI: "I don't want to say I'm clinically depressed..." - We all face hardships in life and it isn't a weakness to admit when life is hard, when there are too many hardships and we have to ask for help to get through it. It is a sign of knowing yourself well enough to know when to ask help. Thank you for sharing this, every story helps break the stigma around mental disorders and I want you to know, we're all in this together and none of us are alone. I thought I was so much stronger than I am and despite this, I got help. My therapist told me one day: "You have to be so much more forgiving with yourself. Having depression isn't easy, it hinders some people so badly they cannot work or do much else than lie in bed all day. You have it pretty bad, you're trying to finish a university degree while doing this and I can respect that you don't want to take a break, but you have to remember that doing this is like running a marathon with a really bad cold. You cannot overwork yourself or you won't ever reach your goal. Be patient with yourself, it might take you a little longer. You're doing just fine."
3505. brittany mabry: are you ok josh
3506. awhitt 74: 💗💗💗💗💗💗
3507. Rebe Ruth: It takes time, talk, share and give it time....blessings always
3508. Jennifer Bure: As someone who suffers from anxiety and depression it's nice to see when a YouTuber will be honest about it. So many people hide what they're going thru and pretend it's all ok. Maybe one day it will be ok, but understanding that you're not ok right now is the best thing you can do. Therapists are amazing when you find the right one. And friends and family are so very helpful. As a fan of yours I can see how hard you try to work thru the pain and I give you major props for not giving up. The dingleberries love you no matter what! Just keep your heart in what you're doing and I hope it gets better ❤️
3509. Stprincess: We got you.
3510. Emily: Josh, earlier this afternoon, my father was admitted to a mental facility to help with his depression and ptsd. This would be the 4th time in 3 years, that he has been admitted. Your vlogs help me through it, every time. ❤️❤️ thank you, for being so amazing and such a good role model to me. I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS!😘💕
3511. JoJo C: I watched this, (not all of it lol) and I am sad for you Josh! I want you guys to get together, but I know it'll be awkward. I'm sure I know who you're talking about too. I hope you will feel better Josh. I don't watch many of your vids, but I saw this one :) If you're reading Josh, don't worry about it, and don't be depressed. This is all I can say to you Josh. Stay strong! :)
3512. Small Poppy: you are cool dude never change
3513. pinayrose83: That's brave of you to show your true feelings and be truthful to yourself. Thanks for sharing your healing journey with us✨🙏
3514. Rena Ash: +Lynette Demar Well I've been there, I know he's hurting, and he thinks it's never going to get better, but he's doing the right thing by getting help, and he's grieving, and he needs to go thru it, to come out stronger on the other side, and he will, it will just take time. Bless him.
3515. Ciara Castiglione: We love you so much Joshua
3516. treebles: damn joshua, thanks for your honesty! ...sorry when you are being so deep, for me to say something so superficial, but Y O U L O O K D A M N F I N E ! 🔥💙 (honestly, it was difficult to fully focus on what you were saying cause you look soooo attractive.) but also, this vid felt so real + connecting. its really no big surprise, especially to those of us that are older / more experienced, that you are having a hard time... you had your whole world shattered! plus with your jobs, being able to see "the other side" seeming like things are so easily recovered + having success, i cant imagine that. i know youre not the kind of guy for this suggestion, but you have so much to offer, i wish you could let someone else in to "distract" you. cause really, its her loss too. not to make myself sound like too much more of a jackass, but i feel like after the adrenaline from her newish success fades, she is going to be sitting there crying wondering how she could have let such a well balanced compatible hot guy go! its truly a rare thing to find such a decent guy like you!!
3517. Jenn: Head up Josh
3518. golden flamer: don't be sad your going to make me cry😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
3519. Bridget Parker: Having something soul crushing happen DOES change you. It's rocky for a while whilst you wade through the emotional crap from it, but you do get through it. I'm not the same bubbly woman I was before my situation, but I'm a heck of a lot stronger and more appreciative of life, family and friends. I hope you can see and feel the love from the comments. Xo
3520. Angelique van der Mee: There are a lot of people who feel the same, including me, and i can tell anyone that it is completely normal that when you suffer from this you do something and you quit, and you pick it up again, and quit. So I guess what I want to say is that you have to give yourself room for that and dont be so hard on yourself. Healing takes a long time, but it is worth going forwards - even if it is the hardest thing you have to face. In the end you will reflect on it and it won't be such a big bad thing anymore.
3521. Brittany Jackson: Thank you for sharing it means a lot
3522. Bethany Redd: What is the right thing to do then in this situation????
3523. Lyn Kim Aberin: Josh, we don't care if your videos are all over the place. We don't care if you document your everyday life like this. If this how you can be whole again, in the mess, we'll pick up the pieces with you ❤
3524. Candice Smith: You are such an amazing person.  It's okay to not be okay!  Don't beat yourself up about it.. You are taking the right steps to heal from everything that's happened and to move on.. Hugsss  Looking forward to your vlogs .
3525. Tyus Sheppard: A Shady Cat Well in the bible it says I am going to hell for being gay so it just brings me pain.
3526. Jennica Jenn: Josh so glad you went and started talking to a therapist. You got this buddy, life's tough...one day at a time. Been through so much in my life, that I just really have had to seriously start taking one day at a time to really help me get through.
3527. Angelica V: there is nothing wrong with you joshua. everyone deals with sadness. but everyone deals with sadness differently. you know it better than everyone else-we don't see what goes on behind the screen. so do not put yourself down. you're a fabulous person and you only deserve happiness. :)
3528. Meghan Quinlan: Thank you for sharing this part of yourself Josh. I think you're about to take an amazing journey. It won't be easy, but you're going to come through a stronger person. 🌺
3529. laughing time: if you want for her to be happier than yourself and you esteem her greater than yourself, you'll be happy. Until then, misery
3530. Victoria salazar: love u josh
3531. Dalton Hammer: wow she has got you fucked up man
3532. Ashley Harkins: I have just rediscovered myself for the first time after a breakup that ended a 5 year relationship and a lifelong friendship and it is liberating. I can see what you're feeling and it never hits anyone right away but TRUST ME, it gets worse before it gets better. You need to fall in love with solitude before you can learn to love someone else again so please keep that in mind because I heard you say you were going to try to put yourself out there. Doing that in the state that you're in could be toxic to you and if you're not ready it could be discouraging. I had to crash and burn and find contentment in isolation in order to appreciate myself and grow individually. And the worst most misleading thing about nostalgia is that it makes the past seem better than it actually was but you can't fixate on something you can no longer control and you have to face reality and admire the past for what .
3533. Marcus Ruckus: Dont forget to love yourself
3534. Haelee Bryce: I'm pretty sure she goes to therapy too (when she's not working) But I could be wrong about that.
3535. Elizabeth Wertens: Never lose hope, life will give you all of these negative things, but you can get help you can speak out and over come it, I have been through something very similar, keep your head up and know your not made to impress your viewers or others your made to do the things you love , the things that make you. Stay Strong and Rock on!. :)
3536. Chelsea Pauley: I just want to make you feel better :(
3537. Kelly Zapata: You are amazing!!! Just take baby steps... some days will be easier, some will be bad... but you will get through it!
3538. JoanaRose: Please don't ever feel bad for the therapy you receive or the medication you might take because all that's important right now if your mental health and you deserve to find happiness again because you are such an amazing person who really has a beautiful heart and I will be here with you until you find happiness again. We love you josh 💕
3539. Curious Oxymoron: 🌈🌈🎠🎠🎠
3540. TinkerbellKat: The first step to getting better is admitting you're not ok. Now the healing can begin! I'm glad you're doing what you need to and thank you for letting us know even though you didn't have to. We love you!
3541. Kate Gleeson: thank you for being genuine. I feel your pain. I have been there when it seems the other side don't feel crap. but, they do. they are trying to keep it private I guess. but I do understand. you're not alone and time will help. I promise. xxx
3542. emma lilianna: i have my first therapy session within the next month. i'm glad to see that someone like you can open up and actually talk about stuff like this . i don't want to make you feel like bad i feel bad but i just want you to be happy
3543. Rosa Ferrer Garcia: This nearly made me cry . Love Joshua
3544. I: Don't even bother commenting... this is clearly a 12 year old.
3545. Aiyana Coorey: Josh you are so brave for posting this video.
3546. Lotte -: 💪🏽💪🏽.
3547. Rosy Tur: Hope Anderson q
3548. Hannah McClain: It sucks like no tomorrow when everything seems totally fine and dandy in the person who just broke your hearts world. It makes you wonder, why is it so easy for them? I feel like the reason it's so easy for the other side is becuase they were never really in that relationship for the right reason, or they were playing a charade that wasn't really real. I'm so sorry Josh, I know that I don't know you in real life, but I feel like youtube has a way of connection the youtuber to the audience in a way that we feel you hurt, we feel your happiness, and we feel your sorrow! Don't ever be sorry <3 Be true to yourself and keep pushing forward... Send much love your way and all the internet hugs that are possible!
3549. Joselle: Josh just remember that we are here for you till the end you can always be honest with us. we love you and take care of yourself 😚❤
3550. Di Life and Style: This is the Josh I want to see/watch. Stay true. Give yourself permission to be whatever. You got this.
3551. Brittany Anne: We have so much love for you Josh
3552. Emily Molino: Love you Josh 🎈❤
3553. Chloe Adams: You will get there, just take care of yourself. True happiness is worth the effort. Blessings!
3554. 3foreverGiGi3: You got this Josh ❤️
3555. Molly Pruemer: God is so good and will work through this difficult time to reveal something so special and so good! Be patient in this time of waiting!
3556. Matilda Sullivan: I truly do love you, and I hope life starts getting easier to live soon. I do want to watch and be there, no matter how difficult it gets or how different you become. You can do it.
3557. Jenna Z: ❤
3558. Vilde Ørbekk Mathisen: We love you. Take care of yourself ❤
3559. tirzaht: Good for you taking care of yourself! Seek the help you need and find some peace in your life. You deserve that!
3560. Hezron Penitila Taulapapa: I feel sorry for you bro... everything happen for reason. Take that as a lesson and don't lie to yourself.. 😃😃
3561. Shiyndeay: yeah actually Cinnamon pills whenever you eat sugar and also not eating things with more than 4 grams of sugar per serving ( sometimes I'll cheat and go to 6-8 but only rarely)
3562. Mary Napper: I will say two things, my brother: 1) it's okay to not be okay. Sometimes you need friends to distract you and sometimes you need to cry alone. It's okay! 2) Please take this random stranger's advice and find Jesus. Go to a bible believing church, and if they are true Christians, they will take the time to invest in you and your hurts and help you through it. When I was young, my oldest brother died suddenly and my family would not have made it through that without relying fully on the Lord, and our brothers and sisters in Christ. I hope this helps a little. I love you like a brother, Josh. ❤
3563. ViOLETTA: Sending virtual hug.... * * * * * * * Hug sent!!
3564. Liam Duffy: I hate to see people cry especially Josh😢
3565. greta gabriel: I get how you feel. It sucks. It doesn't go away. Unless you push. Which is hard. I can't push hard enough and it stays and all I can do is forget but then it comes back and rarely goes away. Thank you Josh I no longer feel alone. ❤️
3566. Riley Gregory: It's okay !! You are going through a divorce right now ... it's gonna take awhile until you feel like yourself again ... Love you Josh❤️❤️❤️
3567. Lui F: I would like so much to hug him and tell him that everything's gonna be okay, that he doesn't have to be forced to do anything that he doesn't want to do. And if he wants to lay and cry a river it's okay, he needs it, he needs to take everything out so he can start to breath pure aire. I have depression too, this is the first time that I say it, and it's okay, I'm going to start therapist soon, so I get you. That moment when you realize that you need help, is a big step so this is okay. You are going to be okay, you're strong, the worst has already happened, now you need to start to figure out what you want and need in your life and start a new path.
3568. jessi flower: Josh it does seem like you are trying to be happy and change but it's tough so be REAL express your feelings , get mad , be happy I enjoy watching your vlogs and you being honest is the best because not everyone is happy and perfect everyone is going through something. Thanks for making this video!
3569. Marcie Vazquez: Don't ever feel sorry for being you and feeling the way you do, you are human and its OK. I pray that the Lord will give you the strength you need to overcome this and come out happier and beyond blessed! Even if you need to take time for yourself don't be afraid to! We will still be here!!! You are an amazing person and the Lord will work wonders in your life as long as you allow him to. And remember the devil knows your weakness so don't let me get the upper hand!!! We love you!! God bless!!!
3570. Sarah Molitor: I have been struggling with anxiety for years, and I know it's not the same as depression, but it still sucks. It feels like your stuck and there isn't anything you can do, but YouTube has been a good distraction for me, I watch it whenever I get anxious. Josh, I love you, stay strong, if you need a break, take a break. Feel better!
3571. Thomas Coward: I noticed haha
3572. Shawna Michelle: Keep talking. Keep seeking help. All of this truly is temporary and it will come to an end. We all love and care about you.
3573. yocheved haimowitz: you shudnt have to do it on ure own...life will get better...stay strong ps. you have gorgus eyes
3574. Ashley Marx: Don't hold it in and try to forget about it, studies have shown that crying and talking about ur feelings and just letting people know wat ur going through and just let the stress out decreases depression. My grandpa died from cancer, my best friend committed suicide last month, my other friend broke her arm when it was my idea to jump off the ledge, my parents divorced when I was 2, and to top it all off I suffered from severe depression, but that didn't stop me. I didn't need a doctor or medication i needed to distract myself from it, which btw was hard. I decided to do soccer, that didn't work, I did dance for three years, didn't work. I made the biggest mistake in my life. I couldn't do it alone. I decided to tell my family what was happening to me, we all cried for a while, then my real mom and dad met up for the first time in 14 years. They talked about it, then they turned to me and said, we know life is tough for u, so I'm going to talk to a doctor. Then after 1 year of therapy, I was living a life that was just full of happiness and love! And that's my story -Ashley
3575. liv liv: Brigette&Arianna Sweetheart GirlsYT o follow you on twitter
3576. Karen Barajas: I love you josh 💖
3577. Andrea Caterina: josh!! its okay that ur sad, i feel for u, we all feel for u, you'll be happy again one day! what u went through and are going through is obviously not easy. Get the help that u need, its guna take a hell lot of time! Still Love you!!!!
3578. Cassy DeBacco: The negative people are the uneducated! remember! 💗
3579. Mikayla Brown: I feel so sad for josh
3580. kati joji: We love you Josh 😞❤️
3581. Kate Fact Reacts!: .
3582. Stacie Disotell: Thank you for this video as there are so many of us who suffer with depression and I think seeing your video and hearing you give a voice to it and what it does to the life of those who experience it will help many! I think these next videos where you discuss how you are doing and your struggles as well as when you come out on the other side of it will do more for people than you can imagine! I will be staying tuned and pray you find peace and healing!
3583. JC Maldonado: We been knew boo, it's about time you came out the cloxjbhsnznaja....
3584. Mike Barrows: feeling good isnt always a concious decision. sometimes it happens over time when other things in your life change. you are a good dude and your life is just as good as the other side. keep your head up and take it one day at a time
3585. Shaz Brown: Go buddy!ur doing really well. this is super helpful !👌👌
3586. Val Vel: Everyone handles things differently, and that's okay. You'll get through this, your healing point is not the same as anyone else's. Much love ❤️ Also to a group of comments: supporting one person does not mean you have to tear the other one down. #Benicetopeople
3587. Justin Marron: Try to remember that you tubers only show you 5-10 minutes of their entire day. You can't assume that they're living this happy perfect life based on a 10 minute video. We thought him and her were in this perfect relationship that we based on their 10 minute videos and it just wasn't true. Obviously the other side is hurting but she just chooses not to show that side to her viewers. It's a very personal moment and if she doesn't feel like showing people that then she doesn't have to. Try to understand what they are going through and don't assume.
3588. Stephanie Clinton: I hope you feel better soon Josh and find the happiness you're looking for. No one expects you to be happy all the time. What you went through was very difficult and if trying out new things on your channel for a bit and then not liking them and trying something new is helping you find your way then go for it. We all just want you to be happy. I am glad you are talking to someone about what's going on in your head but it really does help a lot. It helped me so much and it's something I'll never regret doing. You're never in this alone even when you feel so lonely. We are all here for you ❤️❤️ it will take time so take all the time you need.
3589. BeautyBar208: before what blew up in his life?
3590. Poppy O: Cas For him, it doesn't matter. I hope she is getting help, but he needs to spend his energy on ONLY himself.
3591. Joey Floey: don't worry josh. we love you so much. stay awesome. you are amazing. ❤️
3592. Sara Padilla: Just thought of something else! One of the best tools I have gotten out of therapy was to validate how I feel/felt. Don't let how you feel today or tomorrow take away from, or make you feel bad about how you felt at a certain time or in a certain situations. It's easy for us to say "I shouldn't feel this way, in so blessed!" Or things like that. But the pure fact is you DO feel that way, and need to let yourself feel that way. Stamp it with approval, and try to go on to the next feeling or situation. It can be a long and tedious battle, but worth it. Don't know if you'll read these. But if you do, I hope I've helped you in some way! Love ya, my friend! You got this!
3593. Chloe Standley: Hey Josh. I think that finding your therapist was a wise thing. Finding mine and sticking with it really really helped me. I hope for happiness in your future!
3594. KarinaValeriaa Luna: love you joshua , stay strong
3595. tamara nwaser: She broke him.. ( We still love you ❤️)
3596. Undertaker: I'm a 35 year old man and I just want to give you a big hug! (i'm not gay) Spend more time with Erin, how could anyone be sad around such a little bundle of joy?!
3597. Jillian Weitz: Josh it'll be okay sometimes you have to go through a rough patch in order to become a stronger person sending you lots of love ❤
3598. Stephanie Tucker: love you! ❤❤❤ prayers for your heart and soul. I've been there and still seem to go back time go time. I love your videos and your personality is the best!
3599. marcus: try the supplement CALM NOW on Amazon it helped me with depression so much
3600. Stefanie Marie: i think he means in the sense that during saturn return there are a lot of life changing lessons, you never really leave the same way you entered. a recent example of a classic saturn return is the Kim Kardashian robbery situation. Best of luck to you!
3601. Lauren Frails: Proud of you for taking this step. It's hard, but you can get through it. I'll be praying for you.
3602. Cheryl Ellingson: It's okay not to be okay. This is life! Love you and your transparency. Keep your head up buddy!
3603. Neida L.: Anything that helps you get out from this dark place, do it. And don't feel bad about being sad because it's ok to feel sad. It's something that we all have felt before, it's in our human nature. Don't feel like you're obligated to be happy all the time because other people are happy cause in reality that's not how it is. All I'm trying to say is that don't be afraid to express your feelings, if you share what you feel it helps other people understand what you're​ going through so they can assist with the healing process. Like they say, after a storm there is always sunshine, find that sunshine
3604. goldgreen andpurple: Go well, get well - you do you
3605. Ashley Yoder: ❤
3606. izeizei: Pathetic!
3607. Jacob Sed: Damn I was hoping this was a coming out video
3608. Michaela Cottle: 💚💚💚💚 Im goin through the same thing. Its hard but there is always a rainbow after the storm. 💚💚💚💚💚
3609. Saphron: I suffer PTSD from witnessing a suicide. My boyfriend has ignored me for a month and barely talks to me (we live an hour apart and both don't drive yet) and I don't know how to help him, and I understand how you feel. This video brought me to tears (which is rare) and I hope things get better from now on xx
3610. Lyza Chou: Joshua you are amazing! We are here for you! I love u so much and I hope you will get better just hang on! xxx
3611. Jaims418: This is the first video I have watched and I will continue watching bc you are so relatable to me. I can say I'm on this journey of living my best life while being someone who constantly struggles with depression. I'm glad to have someone to walk with via YouTube with as well. Stay strong and know ur important and people like me are inspired by u!
3612. Kelly Gibson: We love you josh
3613. Emi Shire: Josh i have deprssion and i know how hard it is to wake up in the morning and you cry for no reason and you try to make it right but it never works i am 14 and i am on the bottom line at the moment and i am trying so hard and i know u need to stand up to depression but it is very hard and this is the first video i seen by you and see how to therapist goes and if it doesnt go well or u just dont like the therapist you can always change it. i tried to kill myself but it was FAIL I dont want you to get to this kill myself point so keep your head up and dont think about the past because its in the past for a reason i hope your read this.
3614. Tina NYC/NJ: Josh there is nothing you did wrong 🌸 You are a amazing handsome and I'm sure you're very lovable ❤️ I know it might not seem bright right now but it will only get better you have to work with it. We all have our up and down days. You've been through a lot the past year and from what I see on YouTube you're holding up amazing. I don't think the other side is doing well and happy people have a way with hiding their feelings. Trust me i'm old enough to be your older sister lol You have so much going on and so much in life. You just have to find us something someone anything that makes you happy. -Tina
3615. Sakshi Raut: Love from India ❤️
3616. Corina Estrada: Thank you for this Josh. You have no idea how powerful this is. We are broken with you and will be tuning in everyday to help us all heal. You have shown us how it can get better, and i believe in the truth of that. You are loved and it is so okay. We will all find our way back.
3617. Kate Parsons: Truth!💗
3618. Alecia: I'm so glad to hear you've taken the first step, you don't need me to tell you that can often be the hardest part. Take your time and don't rush yourself into getting healthy. Try not to be too hard on yourself. I look forward to daily videos from you (though if you miss some, everyone will understand), seeing the real honest you and the change that's happening.
3619. Liv Learns Life: I really hope the therapy works well for you. ❤️ Make sure you take a day off if you need to, though. Don't put any extra pressure on yourself to be perfect every day.
3620. Sierra Richardson: just know that you are going to get through this you are stronger than anything.
3621. mikayla marcha: why did they even get a divorce?
3622. Crystal Malik: ruby atarah ayyyy AK represent
3623. GirlyGirl24: I am a suicidal and I am depressed I know what you are going through. My friends don't understand so I don't have friends anymore because they were teasing me so much it made me cry because they said everything that they hate about me and then they called me a crybaby for crying about it. If you have friends like that then don't be their friends because they may be causing your depression or your suicide thoughts. So just know, some people will always be there for you in your hard times.
3624. ccroque1: Love love love this! So many of us want to just give you a giant hug and let you know that we understand! 💕💞💖
3625. Jan Andrey Mac: Its ok Josh
3626. Rebeca J.: I wish you the best Josh. One day you'll look back at this moment and be grateful for what you went through, because it took you where you needed to be.
3627. Lily Shady: you're one of the strongest people on the internet and we all know and see that you're talking about trying to put yourself out there but you did by this video and yes so many people relate to you including me i hope we all find happiness in life
3628. Jackie Hall: Hang in there Josh. It is alright to admit you are hurting. I am so happy you are getting the help you need. It will get better. Just give yourself time.
3629. Sioned James: I don't have deppression but I know how it affects people because my parents are deppressed. I don't know what to say to you or how to help you. When my mum was at the worst part of her deppression she told me that I helped her by talking to her and making her laugh.Surround yourself with the people that care about you and will support you.Don't appoligize for your own mental health.Love ya Joshua💜💗
3630. Lydia DeFazio: Go back to God, Josh. He's listening and he wants to help. He has been with you since day one and he will never leave tou
3631. Prateek Sachdeva: No one will understand what you are going through! Cause no one is going through that! What i personally think that you need to take a break from Youtube .! like not a small one..! but just stay away till you stop sayin "Whats wrong with you" .. Nothing is Wrong with you ! People love you, #dinggleberries for life ..! Go on a vacation... a place which has no connection and less luxury ! really opens up your mind and gives you time to heal .! Mental Healing is more important than Physical ! You Need A Break From Youtube !!
3632. winterprism: <3 Been there. It sucks! Best of luck to you!
3633. RAISING TWINS !: oh and PS the worst thing you can is base your feelings on what looks like her happiness everyone copes differently u talk about it she keeps things more private <3 it will get better oxox
3634. Lipton: You wanna get over your sadness, come live with me for a week...I've got Ehlers Dalos Syndrome. I'll take the sadness of your break up if you'll take my body
3635. Kelly Morrell: Josh, thank you for being real. And reminding me that no one needs to apologize for being real. Best wishes to you and yours💝
3636. QURSITA: Man Josh you're tugging on my heart strings. One day you'll find someone who will love u unconditionally. You're a man who wears his emotions on his sleeve and I have so much respect for you. keep that chin up buddy. <3 You deserve happiness and I'm glad you're gonna try to achieve it!
3637. Soraia: Stay strong Josh 💖 We will always support you Depression its hard, but you will win 💗 Kisses from Portugal 😘
3638. LucyAnn13: Love you Josh ❤️❤️
3639. Sophie: 💞!!! I've been going through a similar thing, counselling has helped a LOT because it helps you to get to the bottom of things and find ways to tackle it, I also take medication which helps to keep my mind clear. I hope you find a way to get better xxxx
3640. Faith Dreisbach: Thank you for this, Joshua❤
3641. Maggie Mahon: We are all here for you Josh.♥
3642. CharliKJ: I lost so many friends when I was depressed, I did what appears to be irreversible damage to my relationship with my dad, it's shit, really really shit. But do what makes you happy Josh. If you want to record 500 songs and post 7 a day for the next decade, do it. If you wanna do challenges do them, this is a time to listen to your heart and do things you want to do. Being alone is tough, surround yourself with people who love you, love comes from more places than just a partner and good people will be there for you. It's horrible and crap but best of luck working out of it because you will work out of it.
3643. Rae J: good bless you
3644. Mzblueberrycupcake65: Josh I'm so proud of you for being able to pick yourself up and for having the determination to find your way back to being the authentic Josh that you want to be. Can't wait to see more of you and to follow along with your journey to recovery! Love you!
3645. Carolina Garcia: I'm so proud of you!!! I have a similar situation but you're keeping me up with hope to try cause I know I'm not alone and that we all can overcome moments like this. Smile :)
3646. Sama r: It WILL get better I can promise you, I was clinically depressed for 2 years as a teenager in very difficult life circumstances, but once life changed, I have never gone back to that place. Also, therapy is magical. I've been in therapy for the past year and it helps so much x good luck
3647. Danica: Don't be hard on yourself. its a very wrong thing to act like you are ok, when you actually aren't. Just give to people what you truly are... Because the right people will NEVER judge you and will always be with you, no matter if you are 'downer' or whatever, depression hits lots of people, and mostly people suffer more than it hits them becase they feel guilty. its completely okay, BE YOURSELF !!!!
3648. Denise: I just want to say that I know the feeling of depression! Its so stupid to say to you, because people told me and I did not believe them.. but it will get better after a while and you will have more happy days eventualy. And believe me...you will fall down a couple times and you will feel sad. But it will get better I promise! And you know what the good thing is? You know the feeling, you will come out stronger and you will be able to talk to depressed people in the future and tell them that it will be better step by step.
3649. Christina Jimenez: You are so incredibly brave Josh. Showing strength through your struggle..... it's empowering not only for us, but yourself. It may not seem like it now (trust me, I know because I've been there) but you will get to the "other side"... the other side of this hurt and pain. Right now it might seem ridiculously hard to even envision what that might look like- but you will- 100% certain you will- because I did- so I wholeheartedly believe you will too. The fact that you're making conscious efforts and changes.... even if the hurt was dealt to you, YOU are taking control back by dealing with this head on. You are literally working to get your happiness back. You deserve it and I know you will.... because even if I only "know you" through this YouTube channel, I know you're amazing and have a heart of gold. THATS how beautiful your light and personality shines. Your love for life and the desire to LIVE it shines through the INTERNET. Crazy... but true. 🙂 "I see your true colors....." 😉 Praying for you! Love from South Texas ❤️
3650. LindsayCordova: I went through a very dark time in 2015. I felt so silly for getting myself into the situation that resulted in such a deep sadness in my life but I let love blind me. Then when I lost that love it felt like my entire world was shattered. It took me a while to get back to happy place. I'm finally there and thankful for everyone who was there for me during my dark days. Although no one truly understands how depressed I was. I finally pulled myself out of it. You can do it too Josh. It just takes time.
3651. LiterallyMorgan: I love you, Josh. You deserve happiness. 🖤
3652. Laura Stark: Nothing wrong with you! Your amazing ❤🙏🏻
3653. emma bush: ur a strong guy
3654. Jessica Rich: Shannon Shaw shut up
3655. Makenna Dean: love you buddy!
3656. Rena Ash: +Melissa Seng Yes ma'am, he will be surprised, one day he will realize it's ok, and it will be, just takes time. I'm excited to see where this takes him, he's a strong young man, with a big future.
3657. Ikoikjji: The way he is wearing his hat makes him look bald especially in the thumbnail
3658. Patsy Mckinley: it takes a strong person to get help💝 I will definitely stay tuned every day and hope you get to bouncing back
3659. Stephanie Villegas: Josh I'm praying for you! You are definitely not alone! And I know that feeling. Seek God that's the best advise I can give you! You are deeply loved by him! My life has changed so much since.. I know that feeling of emptiness but trust me when I say only God can fill that emptiness. So much love for you!
3660. whatdoyousayCharityJ: This reminded me how hard it was going thru the biggest break up of my life. I didn't see it coming and I didn't understand. I was having physical (allergic seeming) reactions and seeing multiple doctors... finally one doctor told me I had severe anxiety from what she felt was a loss. I laughed and found a new doctor but I got the same response. After seeing a therapist the anxiety reduced and I stopped having the mysterious "allergic reactions." It also hurt to see him relatively happy when I was suffering and it took me forever to realize I couldn't make him love me. It literally took me 2 solid years to get over him & I still feel a little down when a mutual friend says he's happy and dating. The struggle is real friend.
3661. Sisandra: This wont last forever ❤️
3662. Anna Campbell: Its okay not to be okay
3663. Destiny Brown: I don't usually comment. I just wanted to let you know I was here and supporting you. Along with everyone else here. You're not alone Josh. Things will get better. We'll always be here by you're side.
3664. Victoria Cruz: I really just want to see you get better and no matter how long it takes I believe that you can 😊
3665. raquel sarig: ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
3666. Anna mills: Josh I’m so proud of you! Even though I’m only 14 i have a violent dad at home, a dying uncle, and life situations that drag me down. I have severe depression. I was diagnosed by my doctor. Actually Monday i had the guts to go to the doctor and ask for help. I’m going to a therapist. Getting support because you can’t hide you’re emotions like others. I can’t hide mine. I tried so many times to be happy and forget. The flashbacks were killing me. We are all different people. And i know exactly what you feel like. I know what the pain you’re feeling is like. I love Josh 💙✌🏻 I hope you find me in the comments
3667. Holly McFadden: Good for you Josh. I'm glad you're acknowledging what's going on and seeking help! Therapy can be one be one of the best things you've ever done! I also went to therapy for awhile and it's unbelievable how much I learned. One thing that's helped me the most is guided meditation. Maybe you could try it there are TONS of YouTube videos you can listen to. Hope things get better for you. I love watching your videos!
3668. Gratia O'Rafferty: I love you. You will make it through this, I promise, I believe in you.
3669. Imar: love and hugs from Panama Josh
3670. Romana Ngara: I love you so much you are like my brother love you it's ok😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️😍💕
3671. idk •: 💙
3672. RandomFangirl: Josh. I know its hard but It will get better. You will be able to feel happy again.
3673. Kayla Werkman: To everyone who needs help, therapy works wonders. Please talk to someone. And josh. This is so understandably hard. Love you lots. I hope someday you are truly happy ❤️
3674. Micaela's Gymnastics World: its okay you are awesome you will bounce Back we are all here cor you you are not alone we are allways here for you keep posting don't stop because we all love you heres some jokes to cheer you up: why did the toilet paper roll down the hill? answer: to get to the bottom its okay josh dont feel bad feel happy you are a strong man and everyone here loves you and supports you keep going you can do it
3675. Sameena Arr: I watched this and wanted to say a thousand things but atm this seems fitting... As said by Jessie j "it's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart, tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising, just be true to who you are" 💙💙
3676. Sylvia Taylor: Of course we want to continue to watch you! We are on this journey with you and we have faith in the person you were, are and will become. I've been a silent viewer for the last few years but I thought I would speak up. Continue to work on yourself because that is what will cause you to be a better person . We will be here for you no matter what!
3677. Kim & Co.: Being honest with yourself and admitting that you need help is the first and hardest step. I've been suffering from post partum depression and finally reaching and getting help through medication and talking my emotions out has made a huge difference. You can do this. It's so hard but, know that you're not alone.
3678. Megan Munch: like a lot of other people are saying. it's ok to be not ok. your showing the real you and your real feelings and honestly in my opinion that's what I like watching on YouTube. real reactions and real feelings. you'll be happy one day! when one door closes another one opens. everything happens for a reason. believe that there is hope that you'll find true happiness which will last you a lifetime
3679. Samantha I am: Josh, you do what you need to do. Your true fans are here to help and support you in any way we can. We are reaching out our hands to you, take them and feel our love and support. There is nothing wrong with going to therapy, more ppl need to see that. I wish more ppl in this world would go to a session or two. I know it helped me when I needed it. Please remember you are loved and just take one day at a time, one hour at a time if need be. Forever and Always.
3680. aly check: here for u bro x
3681. Elizabeth Palala: dogs are the key to happiness
3682. kawaii_unicorns: I've been there its hard i know i am thinking about you so i will always be hear for you josh xox p.s love your vids
3683. Kristen Wagner: Wagner ×
3684. MsWingzy: Thanks for being so honest about your feelings. Makes me feel less alone with the stuff I'm dealing with. 💜
3685. Sarah K: Please be kind to yourself and stop pressuring yourself to act in a way that you aren't feeling. You're only human. :) It's so hard to deal with sadness, loneliness and anxiety and it takes time to heal. Continue to be yourself and over time things will get better, everything will be ok. It's easy to think that the other side is having a great time, but you just have to focus on you and getting better. Stop comparing yourself to others and work on being comfortable in yourself! You send a great message "Be nice to people" but you also have to remember to be nice to yourself. Working on yourself means you are more able to be there for others, it's a balance. Don't force it. Take the time to heal and come back stronger! Keep going!
3686. Eva_G: Josh, please don't apologise. Divorce is a *huge* thing. Also, never be ashamed of being depressed. We are here for you. Just because some people are seemingly ok the next day doesn't mean that's the norm. It's not. In fact, it's just downright cold. I wish I could give you a hug. I feel like a certain person's actions/lack of acknowledgement are extremely passive aggressive, and I don't want her to hurt you any more, because it makes it harder for you to let go and move on. Stay strong. Take a break if you need one Josh.
3687. Kadie Gray: ❤️
3688. Samantha Grey: Arriving at this video a few months later, but I'm glad you have invited us as viewers into your life. Especially at this time and didn't put on a face like everything was okay. Opening up and being honest about what's going on is a good step to take towards healing after this hurt. I started watching your videos and Colleen's when yall were already in a relationship, but I went back to the beginning so I could get as big of a picture as I could. I stopped watching after the divorce because I honestly just didn't understand. Yalls relationship was goals AF! After the break up I wondered if anything was ever real (and I guess that's really why I stopped watching), but now I'm really interested in your perspective and what happened. As a viewer, I want to understand what happened, even if its really none of my business! Anyways, I hope that through vlogging and opening up, you continue to get better and better. Super glad to hear that you had a session of therapy. Thats a great step too :)
3689. dOlli3cOutur3: The commercial before the video was ironically a divorce lawyer...
3690. Jerry Casas: Joshua you will be OK! Sometimes we have to fall down pretty damn hard to realize we need help. I was where you are in my late 20s early 30s. I had everything I had ever wanted, achieved all the goals I reached for, I traveled the world, I was (and still a in a wonderful relationship with my husband) but the inevitable wall was waiting for me and I hit it! I hit it hard!! Don't apologize and don't be embarrassed for what you are going through! And please don't feel badly about asking for help! Depression is something millions of people suffer. YOU ARE NOT ALONE--had to put the proverbial line in....;-) The point is you are not. You are young, SO talented, you have a life in front of you which will bring you happiness that you never thought exists. Start living for yourself, be who you are. There is nothing wrong with counseling. I thank God for it. I did something very stupid in my young life, which I am so glad didn't work and I woke up only to find that family and friends were looking for me, that I was loved. How horrible I felt to be have been so selfish. Joshua, you are loved by so many! Family, friends and complete strangers here on this crazy thing called the web. I sought out counseling and today life is better. I still suffer from depression, but it's manageable. All of us who suffer from depression manage it daily our own way. Joshua, find your way, find your happiness again. It will get better for you. I 100% guarantee. About me: (not bragging, just want to put things into perspective) I was a happy child. Born in 1960--yeah I'm old but couldn't tell by the way I act!! I was an outgoing kid a happy kid always wanted to make people laugh, everybody liked me (i think anyway, lol) loved by so many friends. Favorite son, grandson, great grandson, etc...from a large Puerto Rican family. High School, was everything and more than I dreamed of. I was involved in all that I could. College, same. Every goal I set I achieved. Even after college, like a lot of us in my career (international Flight Attendant) never used my degree, but always dreamed of becoming a Flight Attendant. I would much rather jet off to this country or that country. All was wonderful.....I thought!! Well, I believe I was 29, it all came crashing down on me for no reason or none that I thought of. I became moody, angry never once thinking it could be depression. I lashed out at people, I didn't socialize like I used to. It was UGLY!! By this time I was with my partner 7 years. I don't know how he has stayed by my side all these years. I was unbearable. I hated the way I felt and finally built up the courage to see a Doc (like it is today many people refuse to discuss being depressed for the obvious reason you well know). Sure enough I was diagnosed with depression! HA, all these years I was under the impression that depressed people just cried and laid around all day "boohooing" as I told my Dr.. Not so. Depression rears its ugly head in many ways and my symptoms were just a few of the different manifestations of depression. Today I am a happy, healthy 56 y/o gay male, married to my husband for 1 1/2 years together 36. We are just about to pay off the mortgage on our home this coming November. An old home we purchased together in an old area of Dallas, Texas and have worked on it for the 18 years we have lived here. And believe it or not we are going to be adopting a little boy, coincidently named Joshua (named after our 16 y/o nephew who was killed by a drunk driver the very afternoon my husband and I got married). As for the depression? It's still around, it will always be around! I am managing it the way my body deals with it best, medication and counseling. I am old enough to tell you that you will be OK. I have seen your videos before and after. I have heard your voice, you have so much going for yourself. Get the help that you owe to yourself and don't be embarrassed to share your story. Talk about your experience with depression, but above all else find your HAPPY and live your life. You will get through this and you WILL be fine. I know, I lived that hell. Joshua, I'm sorry this was so long I don't even know if you will read this, but in the event that you do I wish you all the happiness life has in store for you. Look to your little Shadow, our furry buddies can be so much help to us----matter of fact my two little Shih Tzu are right on top of me snoring..............LOUD!! LOL. In all sincerity I wish you well, Jerry M. Casas
3691. Michelle Iturbide: I'm feeling the same Josh! Very down, and sad but God can help us. You deserve so much happiness. & something i'm going to tell you is that a chapter ends but a better one begins. I'm sure you're destined for more and when you're ready, you'll find the right now that will love until death pulls you apart. Much love Josh <3
3692. JelloowB: I can't imagine how you feel, because I haven't been through the stuff you've been through. but I know how it feels like when you're depressed. I have been diagnosed and stuff, I did a therapy called EMDR. that is a therapy you could follow when you have traumas. I don't know if your divorce was traumatic, but I can see that you're very hurting from what happened. BTW, if you don't know what pulls you out of the sadness, music is your best friend. try to play an instrument and try to get better. maybe it'll help!
3693. Pillsinmyshoes: Whatever you decide, keep going and keep trying, trying new things is good for people even if it's something you aren't fully comfortable doing, who knows you may enjoy something you haven't tried
3694. Wicked Goodies: Hang in there, Josh!
3695. Stacey Gullion: Josh I literally never comment but I just wanted to say good for you. Good for you for being able to be honest with yourself about what a hard time you're having - just admitting it to yourself is fucking brutal. I'm so glad you're getting help. Hang in there - we've got you.
3696. Hannah Beckerson: Josh, I know how you feel, u see that person happy and wonder if they truly loved u and felt the same way, you wonder because u think and feel like ur hurting more than the other person. You wonder if u were good enough for them. In fact u r, take this darkness and turn it into light. Challenge yourself, change yourself by bettering yourself, no one is perfect we are all diamonds in the rough. We r humans. Josh know that u have so many supporters and friends. Lean on those who surround you. Lean on God, God is the one who will always be by your side through anything and everything. You are good enough, you are worthy, you are able to achieve anything. Find guidance. And know that though it may seem like u didn't matter to that one person, you did, you still do. Everyone treats situations differently, it's hard seeing. Yet not impossible bc you have been blessed with friends, family and God❤️
3697. Alice Catry: keep going honney it will be ok
3698. Brittany Daley: I am in the same exact place as you! Very unexpected divorce and about the same time frame wise as your split. It's very very slowly getting easier 🙂 I've been in therapy for 8 months now and just finally began low dose meds. Mental illness needs to be openly talked about, glad you're doing it on such a public platform 😊
3699. Katelyn Hays: Congrats on making this step to be a better happier you! It’s not easy to do but I believe your beautiful soul will shine once again very soon! ❤
3700. Melissa Seng: BRAVO!!
3701. ragnheidur eva: I admire your honesty and you might not even realize that you're taking a big step to your recovery just by admitting that you need help and getting it. Just focus on what makes YOU happy and everything else will fall into place. It's definetly going to take some time to get completely better but just know that you'll get there eventually. Take one day at a time and don't put too much pressure on yourself because that could bring you down. You have so many people rooting for you even though it might feel as if you're alone in this sometimes! I wish you all the best and please be proud of yourself!
3702. Dalia Jaramillo: I love thus channel no matter what nithing can change this
3703. Olivia Benn: I just wanted to say that I actually love you so much. I know that all of your fans say that, (why wouldn't they ur awesome) but I love you Joshua more than love. I have been subscribed to this YouTube channel since the beginning of JoshuaDTV and let me just say that you are the most real, caring, beautiful, meaningful, and nice YouTuber I watch. And you are just more than 100% right about what you said in this video, to all the people that see this comment, its more than okay to talk about your emotions weather they are happy, sad, or any. Everyone deals with the same emotions and just know that no body's life is even close to perfect and the best we can do is focus on the good things. Sometimes you can't think of the good things and that is a part of every living things life. Never be embarrassed about what you are feeling because other people have felt what you feel. If you are not okay, reach out to someone. If you don't it will never get better. Now normally I would say I'm sorry for talking about this sad stuff but guess what, I'm not sorry and neither should anyone else be. This is a real thing and I feel that people don't talk about it enough. Thank you, be nice to people, and au revoir💓
3704. Abigail Tamblyn: We love you <3
3705. Ashley Rayva: As someone who's studying to become a counselor, I love hearing that you're seeking help and not isolating yourself, even though that's what's "comfortable" or usual for you. It's so refreshing to see your honesty, not something that happens a lot on here. You know your fans and family are always here for you.
3706. avery tiwari: BeautyBar208 the divorce I think
3707. Jyoti Patel: Stay Strong Josh, we love you 💓☺👌
3708. BigCookie_mia: We are here for you josh <3
3709. Emilie Wurst: You are such an incredible human. I am so happy that you are able to come to terms with the fact that you realize you need professional support. Dealing with depression is rough, therapy is tough, but it is so amazing. If you need space, more space, it is okay. You need to make sure you are focusing on yourself. I don't know if you will see this comment or not, but either way, you are so amazing. You are so strong, you are pure, and wonderful. I love you, and we all love and support you. I am not going to turn it into a "I know what you are going through" kind of thing. But there is nothing wrong with you, I know what this feels like, to an extent. You deserve to be happy and feel that way, you've gone through a lot through this past year. Don't feel guilty or embarrassed. Find your peace, find your happy. Love you so so much Josh. Get the help you need (:
3710. Eli: I don't think it's easy for her, even if it was her choice. I think she's choosing what she's putting out there and not showing the sad. Good on you for sharing your story to help yourself and others! <3
3711. kate giorgio: You Me Archive I respect your opinion, but i believe that that is the most difficult way to go about this. Josh shouldnt only have to rely on himself to "fix his problem". this is just my point of view but ive always felt its easier to get through hard times when you can lean on someone else who is willing to help you through it. he shouldnt just be left alone to fend for himself in his darkness. as for the religion comment, everyone is just giving their piece of advice in what has helped them through rough times. theyre only trying to help, no harm in that.
3712. taylor swift: josh we are all here for you. i love you.
3713. SureHowDoYouKnow: Thank you for being real. You are a really special person and we are all lucky you choose to share with us so openly. Best to you during this difficult journey. Praying that your heart and spirit begin healing and that you will begin to have all the love and wonderful things you deserve in life..
3714. Kim Larocque: Every time a youtuber is raw, real and authentic, I want to watch them more. You opening up is going to allow others to connect and inadvertently, you may help someone else in the long run. I am so sorry you are feeling bad right now, I know the pain of depression and how isolated one can feel. I am so happy you are seeing a therapist, the long process as you describe, will help you heal the wounds and move forward with life. I am looking forward to watching you grow. You are an amazing young man with a beautiful life ahead of you. love kim
3715. Leah And 26 Letters: Sending thoughts, prayers, and plenty of hugs your way Josh. 🤗🤗🤗
3716. Melanie H: I promise you Josh, you will get through this and meet someone who is right for you. You are growing from this, it doesn't feel like it but I promise you. I have been through a lot in my life, but after nearly being at death's door - mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, spiritually - 3 years ago, now I have never been happier or healthier. I never thought it would happen and it did but it takes a lot of self work. Invest in YOU, and remember you're preparing yourself for your own future, and also for the future person you're with. Being solid internally comes with time. After this period of struggle, you will be so much stronger xxx
3717. Grace C: Jesus loves you <3
3718. Holly Ogg: It took so much courage to make this video and I am so proud of you for getting one help and also for just being real and honest. Honesty like this is relatable and helps so many people feel like they just aren't so alone. I went through a tough relationship and breakup similar to this and perhaps the best advice I received was this: "You do not "heal" or "get over" things. It was a part of your life and just as you cannot or do not get over the happy moments, you do not get over the sad ones. Instead of a journey of healing, it is more a journey of absorption. You absorb the pain, the hurt, the bitterness, the jaded feelings, the heartbreak, the sadness, the questions... all of it... and you use those things to reinvent yourself. So let the dark moments be present. There's no time table for grief, we are all different. Days will slip into weeks and as you consistently strive to become an even better version of yourself, one day you will wake up and you will feel happiness. You will smile a real, unforced smile. You will be able to think of the situation with gratitude and not with tears. You will have stopped the comparing and the what ifs. You will be free. Until that day, don't apologize for the tears or the amount of times you've told the same story or questioned the sad thing. Don't apologize for being upset or depressed. Focus on you and do things that genuinely fulfill you." I hope it helps you as much as it did me. It relieved the pressure to "be ok" and allowed me the grace period I needed... which for me was a couple of years. We're in your corner and are pulling for you ❤️
3719. Jenny Lopez: W-Who else started to sob a little when his voice broke *gives tissue* Joshua what you need is a big hug, and honestly you do you.
3720. Sarah Edwards: Omg Josh, I love you ! I wish i could take away the pain....I've been in this place and it hurts more then anything! I do things for awhile and then stop...that's how i feel about my weight! I joined jazzercise to lose weight and i lost 10 pounds...but i gained it all back! but i'm trying to work on myself .....But seriously i'm here for you! xox love you
3721. Kay Boogie: "You know what? I'm not sorry." Yes. So much yes ❤️
3722. Holly White: People arent that ashamed to go to the gym to look after their body... so why should it be any difference to look after your mind? Glad your finding help and i hope things look up soon xx
3723. SaMmYsAyS :P: things will be ok. I will always watch your videos just because your a nice person. :)
3724. Lisa Bannon: Congratulations on getting some help!!! That's so awesome!
3725. Sharolyn T: You're trying to find your place again and who you are with all the changes that have happened. I love the candor of these kind of videos. Get centered, find your place in life again...and we will be honored to support you on your journey.
3726. joy bowers: You know it's ok to get help for your depression and to take medicine for it. I myself work in a psych ward and am with many more truly sick people. I am not a nurse but work with a great team of nurses. Now to the point I constantly felt like I couldn't get my thoughts together, tired, and just not right. I just couldn't figure out what was wrong with me until I spoke to my doctor about what was wrong with me and he diagnosed me with clinical depression. Thankfully not suicidal, but I got on some antidepressants and has helped a lot. There is nothing wrong or shameful about being depressed or needing help. The point is you acknowledged your problem and are seeking help. Good luck to you! ❤️👏🏻❣️
3727. had enough: His head is such a weird shape
3728. Claire gross: That is an ignorant comment about depression and what causes it for josh.
3729. mariemakeup101: If it's too hard for you to post videos, you can still document it to be accountable to yourself. You can still make videos, you don't have to upload them. Or a blog if you would rather. Please also remember that everything is far from perfect on the other side! Everyone chooses what to show on the camera. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers, and I am really glad to see that you are having a positive outlook on therapy!❤️❤️
3730. Leesa M: Always Smile
3731. twelge15: No matter what, you have to let that old world go and create your own, new, unrelated world. New life and connections. To do that, first, you can't look at her, or her family's videos. You just can't do it. It's got to be the hardest thing to let go of that whole family, and life. Unimaginably hard, because they're an extraordinary group. But the best way to do it is find someone new who's talented, beautiful, smart, and successful. If anybody can it's you, Josh. And, in L.A., there's no shortage of women like that. Don't ever think your last marriage was the best life you could ever have. Alot of broken hearted people move on to bigger/better relationships, because in L.A. it's always possible. There are so many women out there with a whole different world to offer. But first, you have to let the Ballingers go.
3732. eggplant iguana: when its hard for you to admit but u still gotta make that ad money #makingmoneyoffmysadness2k17
3733. makeupaddict: thank you for being real. you're awesome. hang in there. time heals all wounds. depression is a hard thing, i've dealt with it for awhile. you'll have happy days and happy moments, live for those. it'll get better! 💓
3734. Deeshan Camiah: I can relate so much to you....I cried watching this , cause I know what youre going through. be you nd be happy man
3735. Esme Mi-vida: I recently broke up with i thought was my high school sweetheart for life and he asked my whole FAMILY for my hand in marriage i was soo excited when he did but then he told me he rather hangout with his friends and do his own thing instead of being with our daughter and I. .... its hard but only time heals the broken heart ... not completely tho unfortunately 😔
3736. Laura Baker: Social media doesn't reflect real life & you know that better than anyone being a YouTuber. So looking at the other side of the coin you should know that everything looking perfect in the public eye doesn't reflect the private pain. You'll get through this & everything will be okay in the end x
3737. Claireeey: Sending you love. You are not alone. <3
3738. Madi D: This video made me cry😭😭😭 I love you so much & I miss youu❤
3739. Emylie Clements: if you're still feeling pain, you're not at the end! we love you!
3740. briana hobbs: I just went through a divorce. My therapist told me a divorce is harder to get over than if your spouse died. That it can take 5 years to be fully "over it". Don't be hard on yourself. It's a grieving process. Your mourning a loss. Also just because things appear good on her side doesn't mean she doesn't hurt. Divorce sucks!
3741. TheCamidamy: We'll be here cheering you on every step of the way Josh!
3742. Alysa Robers: So proud that you can not only admitted to yourself that you need help, but also making that step to make it publicly known. Even though it might not feel like it, it's a huge step towards healing. I pray for you often! Even though it doesn't feel like it now, but you will find your forever and always!! You will come out of this pain and hurt bigger and better than you were before!
3743. Victoria Pereira-Dos Santos: When I get 100 subscribe I will do a give away so don't forget to subscribe
3744. horsegirl07: Meggie B yes!! Well said!
3745. Jordan Ruhnke: You're not alone. I have been battling depression and anxiety for three years. I used to self-harm until my parents found out. They took me to a few therapists before I found my current one. I'm not going to say that it's going to get better right away, but it will. Talk about EVERYTHING that bothers you in your session, no matter how little of an issue it may be. And I understand that you think Colleen's life may be so perfect and that she is happy, but she isn't as open about how she's feeling. You're a lot more open with your emotions, and she isn't. She has gone to therapy, which that has helped her. I am praying that therapy will help you beat whatever you're going through. We all love you, Josh.
3746. EVernonArtAndPhotography: Thank you for your courage. Counseling helps me, along with some personal coping mechanisms, but I have a long way to go. I know I'm going to be different, but I hope I can take something from each experience and become a better me...eventually...but it's going to take a while. I just want you to know you are not alone.
3747. fairytailhere: Just like kintsugi, one day your broken lines will be gold. You loved with all your heart. and that is amazing and special. It is nothing wrong (actualy it is amazing how anger did not consume you) unhatefull you are. and many of us see that. but you need safe space to let all of "negative" emotions out. it is not bad if you feel sad or broken. i hope that you finde thet space. i wish all of your wounds will be transforming into gold soon, and you will shine. Greeting from europe!
3748. JennInLondon: I can certainly understand how painful it can be to watch someone who is no longer in your life seem publicly happy and carrying on without a hitch, but try and remember that we are all human and we all process in different ways. Some of us have a better ability to put parts of our lives into boxes while we focus on other parts (this is not a "good" or "bad" thing; it's just how different people operate). It doesn't mean there's not care there and it doesn't mean there's not pain. Also as I'm sure you can attest to in your own way, a public personality is in no way indicative of what goes on behind the scenes or internally. All my love.
3749. can’t relate: Shawn Snow why do you say "her" why can't you man up and say "HER" name..
3750. Chewy V: I thought this was his coming out of the closet video
3751. Courtney Ray: The other side of the coin deals with their hurt through drowning themselves in work. It will catch up with them... and i hope it doesn't destroy them
3752. Rachele Mellai: Josh, I don' know you and that's why I watch your videos. To know a person. Don't apologise about the content of your channel, it's YOUR channel and I think most of the people want to see you, a person that tries to deal with life like everybody else. I doubt your subscribers watch you just for entertainment, if so, I am not one of them. I actually appreciate you more because you are being real. Good luck with everything. Rachele
3753. C B: Continuing to pray for you, Josh. I hope that you can somehow find healing through this crazy path of life. We're here for you. We love you. Take a break if you need to...we'll be here when you get back. 💙
3754. Rizaldi Rachman: Honestly, ever since Josh made that announcement back then, i stop seeing and watching "the other side of the coin" too and not coming back ever since. I just can't stand seeing what used to be a world with you but now without you. I am just saying this right now for you, I subscribe to your ex-partner just because of you. I choose to follow you first back in 2010-ish and it's still you i choose to support over the other party. Be strong Josh, We are with you. *Bro Hug
3755. bexthorneycroft: We're here for you Josh xx
3756. sarah shuster: So amazingly proud of you for making this video.. it takes a lot to share with the world something so personal. I've been on similar journey with depression/anxiety. You're an incredible person and I hope through therapy and reconnecting with yourself you find happiness again.. but a small bit of advice, allow friends and family to help. The support helps greatly. Take care and don't apologize for who you are ever! ❤️
3757. TheCrazyMango82: AmbientSpaceNoise how is it clickbait
3758. gbrig001: I am currently going though a dark time and I'm struggling to find the light at the end of the tunnel. I just started seeing a therapist and I'm hoping that I find some direction. You're not alone! I hope and pray you find the happiness you deserve xo ❤️
3759. Sydney Bishop: Brittany Paris well financially she is doing incredibly good, where as she made and ended his career
3760. William James: Ammmm like I have a felling that this is about 2016's Co**e* it just hurts to say her name in this coment
3761. Ashiikinzz: Regina George I pray in the name of Jesus, He shows you this week just how real He is! Amen!
3762. Bryanne Garner: We are ALWAYS here to support you Josh. We're here to help you get through this. It's the least we can do. ❤️
3763. Izzy Younes: My thoughts are with you. You're strong. The hardest part is already over, you just need time.
3764. MillyGrace2323: This makes me sad😞Stay strong ❤️
3765. TAMMY R: So very true,,😊well said...so many people have depression and feel this way,josh. Is on his road to finding help..prayers all will be ok
3766. mica: why the hell am i still subscribed
3767. KelseaMajestic: go for walks.. it helps a lot. keep smiling even if it's forced. it'll help. try it.
3768. Bianca Swaine: proud of you Josh! You can do this! sending a big hug from Australia. I think you are amazing and I know you can get through this! Life is challanging sometimes but there are so many beautiful things to look forward to. You are awesome!! :)
3769. Reflexology52 Welsh: You ***C A N*** do this, you feel so raw now, but it won't always be dark! What do you do as a hobby, if you don't have a legitimate hobby, you need one, it forces a different part of your brain to light up, and it gives your emotions a break, there is science behind it. So get a hobby, and work on it a bit every single day!
3770. Abby G: This video made me so incredibly happy:) I love you so much Joshua and so much has changed since i met you in Chicago last year.. Im so happy that you're trying to make an effort. I think that I can speak for a lot of us that love and care about you that we definitely don't feel as connected with you anymore. Im excited to reconnect with you.. and that means the good and the bad. I would much rather have a video like this from you than something filled with fake happiness. I love you.. stay strong<3
3771. Abby Chambers: Its okay to not be okay 💕
3772. Sam Felipe: Depression is something that has affected me for the past 5 years, but each day I'm getting better and I know you will too! I'm an 18 yr old viewer that admires and loves you and we as fans will be watching your videos and supporting you all the way. You don't have to apologize for being off or for not being your "normal" self. You're human and we don't expect to see you all happy and bubbly 24/7. I wish you the best of luck in this new journey with a therapist... We're proud of you 😊😌❤
3773. Let the Son Shine Bryce Bates: Hey man, be real like that. Keep real like that. You won't get everybody's approval but it will heal you. I won't lie it will hurt in the process. Just like a broken arm. Your heart and spirit aches when broken initially but it gets almost unbearable through the healing of it. When will it end? Right? But there is an end to everything, and change is possible for everything. I feel like I could have said the exact words you said in this video. I go to therapy. it's called EMDR and it takes you to the core of your problems so you can face it, not cover it up with antidepressants. another idea i had just yesterday was, I made a video, for me and to me. i was in a good frame of mind and I could remember the bad frame of mind. I can't do that in reverse. I didn't post it, but kept it for the me, who doesn't care and wants to give up. Hang in there, you are definitely on the right track!
3774. Aricelis Cay: I may not know you personally and you may not ever read this, but from what I know of you and even just the vibes I get off of you in your videos, I've grown to have so much care and respect for you Josh. I so badly want you to find that true happiness again and I keep watching your videos because I want to see that happen for you. As it is, I'm struggling with my own mental health and have been devoted to getting better but it has not been a smooth road at all. So even though it breaks my heart that your struggling right now, its comforting to know were not the only ones going through rough patches. I just want you to know I'm rooting for you to get better and continuously improve yourself. The fact that you even have the initiative to WANT to get better means that you're already on your way, even if it seems like such a small step, but a lot of people dont even have the motivation or dedication it takes to actually get better. You're stepping up and doing what you have to because you're fighting for yourself and thats incredibly important. It means even as down as you may feel, you still value yourself and see yourself as worthy of happiness, which is crucial for someone who wants to get better because you have a purpose. You have a strong foundation built so now you just go up from there. Even so, from what I've seen I'm proud of the progress you've made so far and the fact that you keep busy and stay close to your loved ones, I can't wait to see what else is in store for your future. You got somebody on your side all the way across the country in New York who wants to see you feel great again, Im excited for your future and I hope you are too 😊
3775. Shelby Greenwood: Praying for you ! So glad you are getting help!
3776. Pencil Comet: I've been in a similar situation and it is so hard. I'm really glad you've decided to see a professional, it really does help if you can find someone good to talk to. Things really do get better, lean on your loved ones. As much as you want to withdraw, this is exactly when you should reach out. I'm rooting for you buddy. <3 We're all here thinking and praying good things for you. I'm sending you a big giant mental hug.
3777. Ralph Kroon: There is nothing wrong with you. Its really hard to see the good things again. I have been at your spot. Loosing people in my life, big changes you dont have any power over. Its really though but what i learned is that you can't do it alone. A good step you have made is to talk to a professional, that will help ( well it helpt me). It will suck at first but it will get better even if there is no light at the end of the tunnel. But it will get better. First some reaaaally small steps and things, and if they come, they will only get bigger and you will be fine even if it takes a while. Took me over 5 years to be fine with stuff and with myself. Just dont give up on yourself and you can do it trust me ;). If you ever need someone to listen to you, just let me know. xxx you'll get there buddy i believe in you :) !!!
3778. Jana Thompson: Not sure how I came upon this video, but I have to say I have clinical depression, anxiety, and OCD for which I see a psychiatrist and take medication. It took a very long time to get the help I needed because of stigmas. Some days are better than others and sometimes I can go through very dark periods that I feel like I will never come out of. I was almost hospitalized for SI not that long ago, but it was my new medication putting those thoughts into my head, and my dr took me off of it. Dealing with your emotional and mental demons can be a very lonely place, but if you fight long enough and hard enough, you do come out of that tunnel. It's not easy and things may never be "easy" or perfect again, but they can be better. This is something that requires you to dig deep and every day that you wake up is another day you are victorious regardless of how you feel. You made it. I made it. We made it. All of us suffering are resilient and extremely tough, even if we don't realize it or feel like we are. We fight battles some people may never understand. Battles against ourselves and our own minds. We slay demons because we are warriors. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. If anyone is reading this and feels completely lost and alone and like they can't do it, know that you can. Know that your feelings are never wrong and it's ok to feel how you feel. You will always encounter people who don't understand because they haven't been through it, but you will also find those that completely do. Surround yourself with those that are empathetic. They will be your back up when you feel like you are faltering. One day you will wake up and it won't be as bad as yesterday. And then the next day may be a little bit better. It's one day at a time, even one hour at a time for some of us. All you have to do is get through RIGHT NOW and the rest will come.
3779. os200383: Well your honest and white crystal clear video made me feel empathetic about your healing process. It will certainly be better for you now that you have recognized that you need external help. Therapy should not be a cause of shame, EVERYONE could benefit from it, even those who don't feel the need to go. I send you a big big hug and good vibes, I wish you a prompt recovery so you can live that life you so much deserve.
3780. Ashley _patd: its so natural to have your feelings. your so real, and we appreciate everything you do. and remember just because someone looks like they are doing okay, doesnt mean they are. keep finding things that you enjoy. 😀
3781. Ari: listen josh, i've been in this exact situation. and i felt just like the way you feel now. somedays i was thinking that i will never going to get out of it or i will never find inner peace again. but somehow i did! after two years of suffering i just got back to the real me and i got back to the inner peace. you should be patient. its hard it really is! but you gotta fight for what you love which was you! and you will get back to that and everything is going to be ok in the end.. if its not okay? its not the end. Love you btw!
3782. Adair Seifert: I will be praying for you! You are not alone.
3783. ss: Also thank you for being a brave man and showing your true self and feelings. I've always known you are one of the good ones. Praying for you. ❤️❤️❤️
3784. Krittie Mack: He reminds me so much of, Chael Sonnen!!! Anyone else think that??🤔
3785. Tanell D: Oh joshy!! We are all here for you and will always be!! I don't know much about making videos but I would be willing to help you anytime.. (you may need to come to San Diego tho) lol! But even just a friend to take to some time talking to someone who you don't know (like a therapist) is easier then people you know!! So if you don't wanna spend all that money I'm 100% here to talk and no judgement with or about anything you say🤗 try to stay positive and keep your head up I love your videos and you make me laugh all the time!! :) I got your back mutha trucker!
3786. Carl Owens: fucking slit your wrist and die
3787. Katie Stanley: Hey Josh! Not a normal comment but how have you been?? I really used to watch you the last couple years and unfortunately i haven't been on youtube lately. But i have been thinking about you and I really hope the best for you! This is a tough spot in your life but i promise that life will get better, YOU will get better. If you ever want to chat my twitter is @STANudigit! I hope the absolute best for you!
3788. Owlie hod: 5 pds that is nothing
3789. L. A: It's OK not to be OK
3790. senorgato70: You're still in your "grieving" period. Until you can find a way to get past the grieving (i.e., accept the breakup and accept your current life now), you will continue to feel this way. Grieving of any type is difficult. Sometimes you have to force yourself to find closure to move on. Best of luck.
3791. Maria Casella: I never knew what depression and anxiety and panics attacks were until my dad passed on 9/11/15 it has broke me left me alone, empty ,I can't take any meds at all and I'm in pain from a surgery gone wrong..so,the situations may be different I understand how you feel and yes,it does effects us..I've closed myself off from everyone idk why I'm even opening up now but I feel bad and sad for you and others that suffer from it ...I wanna go to things I think and then I can't go ..I'm exhausted from no sleep and crying daily ..I went to a therapist and she didn't help me at all so I stoped going ..I'm glad yours is helping you ...my family /my kids don't care about how I am they can't deal with it and have their own life..I do have a husband but we are living under the same roof but I am distant..feels like no one gets it ...I am praying for you and proud of you for getting help ...your so young and have so much love to give ....I know one day your heart will be filled with love and joy for you and for everyone else..when I saw with with your pup well,I've wanted one since my daddy passed and I still don't have one and I feel like it really could help me so much ...hoping my husband will let me
3792. Jennifer Hammersmith: There are apps that are a question of the day. If you do a one take ask the questions of the day. Some days they are deep and will make you learn things about yourself and other days are easier.
3793. Emilia Petty: With u all the way❤
3794. Sophia. Rides: Ilysm stay strong we love you😍
3795. Erica Warriner: Josh I have depression it is very bad. I'm loaded on medication and I have no feeling of emotion. I know you feel that your are trapped in the dark with walls closing in...but you can't let it win. I know I'm making it sound much easier then it is. it's very hard. I'm still trying. I'm not going to be that cheesy person who says you make my day even if that is true. but making people happy is the reason I live. that's my inner happiness. if your fans love is what keeps you going then don't build that Wall up in your head. break that wall of depression down. it takes so much. but with what you have had happened to you in the past, it's possible. don't give up. I almost gave up 5 times. it may not feel like it but you are loved... deeply. depression can stop your emotion but it can never stop the happiness you bring to others. take care Josh...we love you so much.
3796. Luciana Almeida: Josh, things WILL CHANGE. FOR THE BETTER, you'll see. You deserve happiness and you will get there. I am so, so glad I got to know your channel and a little bit of you also, even though I'm aware there's much I don't know, naturally. What I can tell you is that everything I know about you I love and admire. I feel lucky to see a genuinely good person such as yourself on the Internet. I say that because I'm not a big fan of social media. I only have this YouTube account... (I know, I'm a dinossaur...) Anyway, I digress.. I just want to say I am proud of everything you do and everything you are, as I've always been, and I'm sure everyone here feels the same. I hope I was able to express myself in proper English but if I didn't, I apologize! Love, all the way from Rio
3797. Kylie Gates: Im so proud of you Josh❤️ seeking a therapist is a wonderful way to step in the right direction and towards happiness. We've all been in a bad place before..different things work for different people and I really hope the therapy and posting helps you. We all will always be here for you☺️
3798. Madison Melancon: This is what I have been waiting for. You telling us how u really feel because I KNOW things aren't okay. And that's okay! It'll probably make you feel better too talking to us. Good days and bad days. I'll take them all! U are normal! And I garuntee that "other side" is not all rainbows and butterflies.....
3799. Courtney Turner: Have you tried more exercise? Apparently it really helps relieve stress and anxiety etc. Even strength training :)
3800. Sallie Henshaw: Your honest heart is the best thing that you can put out there. I'm proud of you for seeking help, and sharing yourself here. Putting yourself out there and documenting it will help you to see a different side of this, and will probably help a lot of people. You're amazing! Keep it up!
3801. Nadine: Because of this video, I've subscribed.
3802. Samantha Lynn: Sending love and prayers.❤️ we love you.
3803. Gwendolyn Webb: You will get through this!
3804. Sara V: We love you.
3805. Lpslover039 Gaming: When he almost cried I died inside ....
3806. chirples: I see your pain. I feel for you and I am praying for you!
3807. Jordan Killenberg: I do believe in God and am Christian, I just recognized that her comment was kind of assuming that everyone else also did or was religious and can turn to religion for happiness which was what she was saying, and I don't agree with that because not everyone is religious obviously. my main point in the statement was that she shouldn't judge their relationship since she doesn't know them and should let them cope in their own ways
3808. Ryan Ripley: no, jesus is not the answer at all, this is so insensitive
3809. Unknown Unknown: I'm new to this channel so can someone please explain to me what happened and what he meant in this video? Thanks.
3810. Gwendoline Valles: Joshua, you are worth it.
3811. mary12497: I just went through a breakup. We were together for 6 years...we're both really young. I understand completely how he feels because I feel the same way. Like he says, it kills me because it seems like he is doing so well. I know it seems irrational, maybe it is. When you go through something like this, it feels like it's consuming your life. I wish Joshua good luck. You deserve to be happy and you will get there one day even if it feels like you never will.
3812. Katie Dennis: I'm so sorry your having to go through this! But like you said: one life live it. Wishing you the best xx
3813. Leo J: The past.. a nice place to visit... wouldn't want to live there.
3814. Dawnie Dee: Don't be sorry for being human, hun. That was a BIG change to happen suddenly, and we were all here with you. It's going to take time and refocusing. Refocus on you and what you want to do to get happy again. That part of your life, is done. This is your time to figure out your next chapter. May be for now, it'll be focusing on you, your friendships, and understand that it is okay to say.. I am NOT Okay. I need help. Depression doesn't have an on and off switch. We tend to hide it with fake smiles, but now it's your time to move on one moment at a time. ❤
3815. Penelope de Brett: mon amie décédé
3816. Net Flix: Can we just take a moment and appreciate the way your hat is 😂
3817. Shelah Phillipsen: Joshua, my heart goes out to you. Sadness and depression can be an all encompassing thing and takes a lot away from you. I am so glad you are seeking help, it will be hard I promise but it will help even when it seems like it is not. Much love <3
3818. i love haechan: I feel bad for this guy, I feel like it's been going up and down and I'm so confused. It's messy and all over the place it's just that I want him to start new and fresh after he talks about it and figured stuff out. I think he needs more time after all that! half of what happened was something very big in his life!!!
3819. krhagg: Josh, I have been a lover of you and your channel for years. I don't usually comment much and you probably won't see this because you have so many already! but on the off chance you do - You're killing me smalls. I just want to give you one of those perfectly warm, comforting hugs and just give an ear. I have been fighting a similar battle since I was 13 - gosh, 15 years now - and I can tell you that, for me, it never really got 'easier' per se, but I did really to know me. I can tell when I'm heading toward and bad day or night, or week, or month(s). It ebbs and flows, depending on the time of year and what my current stressors/how much sadness I am dealing with. I know my weaknesses now, for the most part. Medication has helped, but it's not a miracle like so many around me seem to think it should be.. I had to relearn how to think, I had to learn to literally change my thought patterns..because they were always so negative. That was one of the hardest things for me, but now it is almost second nature to ignore those thoughts and NOT think about them when they start sneaking through again. I know that, feeling wanted and needed is essential for me, I get satisfaction and happiness out of it. I know that if I start feeling taken advantage of, or unwanted, that stirs things up. I know that I need my family, they are everything to me, and while sometimes I don't want to talk or be around people too much, they're support is essential and I can just be around them and feel better. I know sometimes I just need to be alone to recharge, but when I start feeling alone/lonely, that's when I don't need to be. I know sometimes I'm going to feel pretty frustrated with myself, and that while I do need to hold myself accountable, I need to be realistic about it and also cut myself a little slack. I know sometimes I just need to cry and pity and wallow for a minute, but that I have to keep moving forward and keep that 'silver lining' in view - don't overlook it for the storm clouds brewing in front of it. I know that, yes I might have had this or that plan for today, this goal for myself, but if I don't get to it, the MOST important thing is to NOT start beating myself up over it! And that I still have a plan/goal for the next moment/day/time. We are our own worst critics and enemy. Sometimes I have horrible, awful night terrors, too, when I'm having a really rough time...I have a sleeping buddy for that. Shadow is might end up being an emotional service animal of sorts for you, and that is completely normal and natural! Unlike mine, which is a stuffed elephant named Jethro ;) Basically. all these years of your vids HAVE been a source of support for me, too, and I wish I could return that favor. We DO want to listen, when you feel like talking. Don't let your brain tell you otherwise! Much, much love and support, and hopes for happiness and strength for you. In it with you for the long haul! <3 Krystina
3820. MindofIris: Thank you for speaking up and showing your viewers that it's okay to not be okay and taking steps to try to be okay again.
3821. carriebradshawuk: Destiny Harding - this is a sweet message :) I'm going to try that app too :)
3822. Lynzie Horejs: Mahle Dunham |-/
3823. Yamileth Hernandez: May God help you get out of your storm, ill be praying for you Josh, God bless!!😢💗
3824. Rachelhm101: You'll get through this! Throughout this situation you have been so transparent and that's very good! You are so brave for putting your feelings out there! And its okay to be sad or depressed... its normal... everyone has felt that way someday in their life. Keep sharing your feelings and you'll feel so good bit by bit! And baby steps! Remember... Do not worry about tomorrow because tomorrow will worry about itself. Take one day at a time! :) God Bless!
3825. Crystal Storie: My heart goes out to you. Divorce is like a death and sometimes therapy is what helps. I see you as brave, admitting you know there's an issue is the 1st step to inner peace. Short spurts of gratification are not the answer. Best wishes and God bless you...xoxo
3826. Sammy Menzo: I really loved this and you. Please keep this up we are here for you.
3827. Tre Cunningham: josh if your gay please just say it everyone is wondering
3828. JJ BlueDreamer: Adison Trowbridge he's giving a suggestion. how is anything he is saying pushing his religion? he isn't mentioning anything about religion. you need to re-read
3829. Tessa brooks: I love you so much!! stay strong😘😘😘😘
3830. Breanna Sinclair: Thank you so much for making this video Josh. You're such an inspiration for people struggling with this, including me. You're probably the strongest YouTuber I know. I love you bro.
3831. Lindsay Schoen: God i just want to hug you
3832. Taylor Ellis: Wow this is very brave of him to do this he could pretend like everything is fine if he wanted . But I'm glad he's doing what he needs to do to get better
3833. Lindsey Bergman: Josh I love that you are so honest. When I met you last April I told you I have depression as well. Just know I know what you are going through and I'm here for you and just to remember to Always Keep Fighting! Love you Josh!
3834. Flake: josh you are such a good person. your words hit really deep for me, i am very bad at articulating my emotions but hearing you made so much sense. I hope it gets better soon.
3835. Elizabeth Schlosser: I enjoy your vlogs
3836. Shiyndeay: Laughing is 100% acceptable if you knew how long I'd been doing this you'd laugh even harder.
3837. !!!!!????: luv ya brah
3838. Josephine Price: You're gonna go far, Josh. Make yourself happy before you make others happy. I'm glad you're trying to stay strong and that's a step forward!
3839. Vysnavi Thanendran: Exactly don't worry about us we care about you and about how you feel more than the videos that you post which are awesome but don't feel obligated to post. I love you.
3840. Kelli P: I have been going through a really tough time too recently. One of the things that made the biggest impact for the better is a podcast called Terrible, Thanks for Asking. It's amazing and provides such perspective. Sadness tends to be all consuming and this really got me out of my head. It also got rid of all the "shoulds" that I was feeling. When you're sad, "shoulding" yourself just perpetuates the feeling.
3841. Janeece Goldade: Josh I love you so much! I wish we knew each other so I could give you a shoulder to cry on!
3842. justjennabyrd: things are gonna get hard all the time. but through whatever times tough or not tough, we are all here for you josh. stay strong my dude🙌🏻🙌🏻
3843. Edith van der Voort: I love you Josh! You can do it! I have been depressed and i pulled myself out of that black hole. I did it and so can you. Just keep holding on. Lots of love and strenght from the Netherlands.
3844. John Amason: It is ok to feel sadness and darkness within your spirit. It is ok to feel happiness and joy within your spirit. When times are hard and you feel lost and hopeless just remember we are all humans and come from the same source. Whether you believe in a creator or evolution, we come from the same point. Acknowledging your emotions and sitting with them is a great act of understanding and kindness to oneself. We all suffer, and when you suffer I suffer. This goes vice versa.
3845. bella.hughes: Thank you for sharing I love you and I'm here for you!❤️
3846. des: Who u talking to? I know it ain't me.
3847. kaci _donnelly: Josh it's a good thing that your feeling things it's shows that your human of course it's gonna be tuff the other side of the coin was a big part of everything and now it's gone it's horrible I hope you feel better soon ily xxx
3848. NEW Productions: I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know from personal experience that therapy will work. My advice is keeping going to therapy until you feel that you found that light again.
3849. MissJane777: *We Love you very very much and we absolutely understand! Don't rush. Like you said, 1 day at a time darlin. Much love, Josh!*
3850. Hannah .Graham: this is why i love him <3
3851. Kelli In Texas: Josh I felt the same as you when I went through my divorce. One day you will wake up and won't even think about it or cry when you talk about it. One day you are going to wake up so in love everything wrong with the first marriage will be so clear. You will wake up married, in love and so happy and be so greatful this one ended. I promise.
3852. Sophie Romano: am i the only one who talked back to him and is like "it's okay" "everything is gonna be fine"?❤️😂
3853. Victoria Ferguson: Proud of you for taking the steps toward therapy!! So many people dont do it because they dont want to "feel crazy" when its the absolute best starting step you can take. Ive struggled with generalized anxiety and clinical depression since age 14. It's always an uphill battle and honestly the past 2 days for me I havent even gotten out of bed. But I know good days are still there. There's nothing wrong with you because of what happened. You're a good man. I havent ever subbed to you, but I am now. And if you take a break or move on with something new, whatever you want or need to do to get that passion back, we support you. And to everyone else saying they know depression and anxiety, we're strong even if we don't feel like it. You take it moment by moment and fight it back. Find the good, dont make excuses. Dont tell yourself what youre feeling is wrong--it hurts, but youre not wrong and youre not alone.
3854. Arlene Alexa Mateo: TO this day I still try to understand how two people who love each other so much can still leave each other
3855. ibukun Adeniran: Everything will be ok josh ❤❤❤
3856. Diana Albano: There is nothing wrong with you. You are only human love❤️
3857. Leslie Allen: There is no shame in seeing someone to get out of the depression. Your strong and we will always be here for you!
3858. Desteddyeggroll: JOSHUA DAVID EVANS IS THE STRONGEST AND HAPPIEST MAN IN THE WORLD!!! I BELIEVE THAT!!!!!!
3859. pearlbrush97: TURN.TO.JESUS.
3860. andrew hunt: I got divorced in 2012 from a woman who left me on April 10th 2011 with a five page letter of why she wanted to leave me.You see it was a typical Sunday morning we went to church as we always did but I had to go to work before service was over so I kissed her on her cheek and said I love you see tonight when I get home.I came home to an empty house and the letter on the stove.She left her phone on the stove so I couldn't call and talk to her so the next time we spoke was 3 months later and she was pregnant with another mans child then I knew it really was over 10yrs 3months 2 days of my life just got deleted like an old file.The first time we went to court the judge said that since she was pregnant she had to have the child first in order to make sure it wasn't my kid and I had to provide a sample of blood to prove to the court it wasn't mine.So with all this said I have had to struggle dealing with trusting anyone and everyone.I had no clue she wanted to leave.With all this said life goes on with or without you so keep your head up and know your not alone in feeling this type of pain.Never be ashamed of who you are and it's perfectly fine to be broken because many things that are still have worth to them.
3861. modernxlove: It's ok to not be ok, Josh. Just know you have thousands of people who care about you and support you. We are always rooting for you! <3 sending positive thoughts your way
3862. Chris: hang in there ❤❤
3863. madeleine romo: 💜💜💜💜💜💜
3864. Mikayla Jenene: Aw Josh... I love you so much--WE love you so much. You have helped m so, so much. There are times when I feel so sad and separated and alone and unwanted but YOU brought me back up. You have always been there for me and I will ALWAYS be there for you. I love you. <3
3865. Karin Evans: aww. Jjosh. Im so glad your are getting help with your depression. You are Not that person. You were you before, and you will again be you. thanks for sharing. you'rre right. we all knew something was going on with you.. also be kind to yourself., you are gonna be ok.
3866. princess Rose: Shenae Atwood u need to shut up like nobody cares if it bothers u
3867. Jaylee Sergent: My advice is Let Go and Let GOD! I promise you my friend it Works..God can put that Happiness back, but ya got too do your part..Just trust in him! Praying for you....☺
3868. Alice Fan: For he (Jesus) satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things. Psalms 107:9
3869. Aria Marcarelli: Josh, what's going on the "other side" is a girl trying to fill her emptiness and brokenness by numbing the pain with working 24/7. It is so painfully obvious. Like you said for yourself those things will never truly satisfy you. So is she truly happy? Is she fully content? No. Is she temporarily happy? Yes. So then what will fully satisfy us? What will truly fulfill us? God alone.
3870. TheHouseofR Travel Vlogs: Way to honor yourself where you are on your journey. Hang in there dude. It's a journey! - Melissa
3871. Bebong Bro: Just remember people only watch videos if they want to
3872. Abby Vogels: Love you josh
3873. Dominique Annison: Josh you've always made me laugh and ive always enjoyed watching you. I havent been able to watch youtube as much anymore since i started my fulltime job as a nurse. But i always try to check in when i can. Time is the biggest healer and i hope you know you have everybodys support xxxx
3874. Orsi Dirda: Big hugz! You can do it, but only you can do it. But getting better is easier with therapy, so you are already making progress! Best of luck!
3875. Kevin CHIU: I wish you the best, Joshua! All of us know that it is not easy to get over the sadness, but we are here supporting all the time :)
3876. Drocells Doll: I think it's actually helpful for humans to share what they're feeling. We're so disconnected now. It's good for me to hear someone going through a similar time. it makes me feel less alone. Also, I had a min-pin with the same fur patterns who was named Shadow. He passed in August, but it was cool to sorta "see him" again.
3877. The Tea Room: Josh I know you probably hear this all the time, but if you need someone, ask. Don't feel ashamed for being a human. Love everything you are, no matter what.
3878. daisy44: Praying for you❤️💜❤️ I totally understand thinking the other side is completely fine, it hurts terribly. You're not alone and there are so many people who care about you! Keep your head up.
3879. [Angel Moon]: I experienced this and it hurts tremendously. Allow yourself to cry and feel but you are doing the right thing by seeking help from a professional. We don't know the full story nor do we need to. She may be putting on a front or maybe it's her way of coping. People do things to just to not feel including traveling, drinking or other whatever. It doesn't make you or her wrong. Never apologize for feeling things . You will come out of this dark season and things will be ok. Take all of this one day at a time but most importantly be kind to YOURSELF. Sending hugs from Florida ♡
3880. maria13corvette: Josh I stumbled into this video and so glad I did. There are many people that feel what you feel, even though you might not think its normal we as humans deal with a great deal of emotions. You ard not alone, you are such a handsome young man, the whole world is waiting for you. One thing you have to do is talk to yourself out of it. The mind is so powerful and you will overcome this, believe me. Yourr followers will help you there are no imposibilities be strong ant get youself up when you fall. Many blessings to you Im lighting a candle for you to receive light.
3881. Aleksandra Dzombic: ❤ stay strong
3882. Khushi Rajpuria: I'm legit in tears right now. Josh, it's okay to be depressed. Times are rough, really rough. You don't need to feel guilty about being what you are right now. You're fucking brave to share with everyone how you truly feel. We're all here with you, always. Take your time. Please take care of yourself, we love you so much ❤️
3883. Brandon J: I'm so sorry Josh. I'm going through it right now as a newly single dad....and in the Army. I truly know what's it's like. It's tough. Just hang in there man.
3884. E GRY: she married him for views
3885. Marissa C: Truthfully, you were in love with someone for years. No wonder you're hurting. I would be hurting too. Idk why she's not, but we can't think about that. Get better soon, we love you!
3886. Samantha Geier: I've been dealing with severe depression for about 4 years now, and I promise it gets better. It's ok to take time for yourself and to ask for help. We can get through this together 💕 Wishing you all the happiness in the world ❤️
3887. Kishvar Afrin: Nothing's wrong with you, it's just your mind taking control of everything, move on and distract yourself. I know your mind will always go to that one thing that bothers you but you got to fight it because you're a fighter!!! I believe you will move on and be happy all of us believe in that too and now u should believe that u can too. Do make what's u happy, hang out with people do lots of videos songs and everything, go for a holiday.
3888. TheCrazyMango82: We love you josh, everybody heals at a different pace
3889. Amarah Park: It's okay not to be okay. Work on yourself in baby steps and be proud when you have the energy to smile even. You've been through a lot and there's nothing wrong with taking time to heal. Love you Joshua I wish you the best
3890. Kate C: josh,I have watched your vedios for ages and I know that you can make it through, I'm going through hard times so I'm there with you....... I know we will be OK, so hang in there😊
3891. Lillian Baptist: You're right, it's all one day at a time. Call up people who make you happy, go see them, take Shadow to a dog park, spend time going to a restaurant, playing video games, making videos, whatever makes they anxiety and sadness go away. Doing those things will help you build your own life, surrounding yourself with people who make you happy will strengthen your support network and your self esteem. Going to therapy will definitely help. Your life was so clearly going in one direction for years, things went down, it got flipped on you. Every feeling you have is valid, but don't forget that those who are no longer in your life are still feeling the loss, they just might not feel as open. You'll get there, you'll have less days where you feel so sad, but don't put expectations on yourself, just know that you can and you will get through this.
3892. Bengals: Your in my prayers Josh.
3893. Joy Walsh: Oh sweetie, grieving is a process and you can grieve in the way that works for you hun. when you are the person who is left behind after a relationship ends its like a mini death. counselling really does help and eventually you will find the strength and happiness you really do deserve. you also need to stop with the feeling guilty, allow that you are down and accept that you are a bit broken now and you are healing but it takes time. Can I also suggest during this time you avoid anything to do with "the other side" if its too painful to see that life (which isnt perfect) then don't go there. take it from an old 40yr old (well in august im 40) who has been through something similar, live your feelings and allow the time to grieve. hugs hun x
3894. Abby Smith: Christy Snell you are absolutely right I 100% agree without god in your life your god to have so many troubles god is the only thing that can truly satisfy you💜
3895. JustcallmeAli Rad: Hi I don't really know anything about your story or who you really are BUT have a "suggestion" If your videos makes you good amount of money go a head keep going eventhough I don't watch all the time but go ahead keep it going make that money.
3896. Tabatha Hall: I'm so proud of you!! I loved this video because it's REAL & not forced. Sharing the truth is healing. If all you can do is is pick up the camera and say "Today I'm really sad and this song is how I feel." You're sharing and letting it out. You don't have to shield everyone from your pain nor do you have to apologize for it. Lots of love! ❤️
3897. woofgoesthecat 0.o: not gonna lie, i stopped watching him for a while...i didn't mean to, but it happened. sorry josh, ily❤
3898. Lora With An O: I'm 37 years old so I'm not a wise old lady or anything but I'll just say that admitting there's something not right is the best first step towards fixing it. my boyfriend died, leaving me with an 18 month old son and a slipped disc. that was nearly 5 years ago but I'm only just starting to sort it out inside my head. proud of you for this video Josh. wishing you luck, love and the start of being right again. x❤x
3899. Keara Jones: Your so brave to come out and admit that. I've been exactly where your at and your right it's one day at a time. I still catch myself feeling those feelings even now. It takes strong individuals to go through something like this. But it's getting out and going at it head on and learn to manage this life as the new normal and learn how to deal with it. I have been following your journey for years and even more now you are the most down to earth and are only telling your truth. You will get back to where your happy but it's gonna take the hard stuff to make the happiness even that much better when you get there. You keep working at it. I'm so proud of you. Keep it up!!! Prayers sent your way buddy!!!
3900. Minju: I would recommend checking out the therapist Peet Gerlach here on YouTube. He is absolutely amazing at helping you recover from trauma and depression and more.
3901. Daisy Singh: Dear Josh, I have gone through depression when my parents got divorced and tho it still affected me differently I can still completely understand how you feel! I decided to find my happiness in the small things in life but sometimes it's the big things that overpower it and it's SO HARD! But therapy helped me and I hope it helps you too! I truly love you with all my heart and seeing my idol who was the cause of the small happiness in my life go through this breaks my heart! I hope your heart feels better soon... AND DONT FEEL GUILTY!!!! We're all here for you! ❤️
3902. bekahcone: Your feelings are valid and it takes so much strength and courage to talk about this and reach out for help. We are the meanest to ourselves and it's difficult to feel so down. To you and everyone in the comments, keep fighting!
3903. EmmaleighJoy :): I don't think anything's wrong with you. I think it's weird that "the other side" doesn't show the sad parts and acts like everything is perfect a lot of the time. You deserve happiness and I hope you find it. I love you! 💜
3904. Emma Wiltshire: Josh it's ok to feel down. No one is happy all the moments of the day and it takes a special person to admit that they're not always happy. I can't do it. I have to be the one that's joking and happy all the time but in reality I'm not. I have anxiety and chronic stress to the point that I'm losing my hair. I just want you to know that it's not always like this. It gets better. And even if it gets worse again, there's always a light at the end. You'll get there, and us dingleberries will help you. You have family and friends. Talk to people. We love you Josh. Forever and always ❤
3905. Sarai Guerrero: Break ups are really hard. It's okay to feel sad sometimes it's hard to let go of the person that you constantly woke up next to or spent your time with and made memories with but at some point you have to get up josh and not let it drag you down. You're a wonderful person and any of us would say that about you. What helped me through the toughest of times is 100% god. I searched and searched til I finally found God. And it was the best feeling I've ever felt. And through my sadness and heartbreak god gave me comfort peace and joy. That's personally what made me happy again! I pray you find your happiness again soon josh because you sure do deserve it. :) god bless you ❤️❤️
3906. Tara Joy: 1st
3907. Ramona: You are not the only one hurting! We all deal with things differently. I'm glad you go to a therapist now! ^^
3908. Maggie May: ❤️❤️❤️
3909. Donna O'Kane: You will be okay. It will get better. I pray that is the truth...for both of us.
3910. Callum Warren: I kind of realised that you might be suffering depression after seeing your song you did with madilyn and kurt where you sang about breakfast in bed etc and i noticed how in this song the emotion came from you and i could not only hear it in your voice but could see it in your face. Dont be ashamed of the struggle your facing as i tell others your not the first and you wont be the last thankfully i dont have depression even with what ive been through 13 operations and a fight against benefit people to get what i am entitled to etc, my brother and father both suffer severe depression and have both had sucicidal tendencies however my dad seeks strength in my mum and my brother has a therapist provided to him by our university. talking is important from what ive learned we cant hide from our past and the mistakes we have made, we have to embrace them and become that better person, it doesnt have to be overnight it can be as long as it takes. also if your given medication for your situation it may cause you to gain some wait as a result of the tablets. stay strong Josh even when it seems impossible and if you any dark thoughts or feel unsafe seek support in the people you trust whether that be your sister or your therapist, never let the darkness consume you. best wishes and keep making the great vids and songs :)
3911. Lauren Elliott: My level of respect for you has gone way way up Joshua. From someone who has dealt with depression for basically my whole life (still not sure of the root cause/reason), I can only imagine how hard this was for you. It is so hard to fight back tears, and to stay strong when you don't want to be so strong anymore. My heart goes out to you during your time of healing, I really appreciate you for making this video. Love you.
3912. coffeeandmakeupplease: Josh I really really respect you for posting this. I'm in the same boat with depression and I so hurt for what your going through right now. It does get better, you will have low times but you are amazing. You are doing something amazing bringing this to light on your channel. You are going to help so many people.
3913. Mckenzie Goeke: I went through the exact situation a bit after you did and you're videos after this horrible heartbreak really did help even if it was for 5 minutes. It's not the easiest or even sort of easy to pick up the old things you use to do when they're not only taking energy but also something you did before this. Take your time. Time doesn't heal wounds, you do. If you need to take years that's completely okay and acceptable. I can't tell you how much your videos helped me, seeing you at your live show and meeting you in Dallas helped me. You helped push me to follow my dreams and go for what I wanted even though I was terrified and now I have and I own my own business because of it. You may not see it when we tell you that you've left a mark on our lives but believe me it's true and it's there. So thank you Josh for being you and being authentic and showing your emotions. I'd much rather see you be able to let it out and talk to us and be sad for awhile in order to grow rather than put out a fake smile or videos you don't truly enjoy you're just doing it to keep subscribers or take your mind of off things for an hour. It's okay to feel and you're doing the best you can and I think it's incredible. You're truly an inspiration and stronger than you think and something good will come of all this hurt. Love you Josh!❤️
3914. emma arnold: I dunno about everyone else but God has never really helped me in tough situations. I'm not a religious person but I totally respect other people's beliefs. But for me, the only thing that really helped me heal was talking about everything with someone who was willing to listen. All your thoughts build up, especially if you're trying to act like you're not hurting. Maybe God is that person for you, but I need someone that provides verbal feedback. I need the reassurance. Time and honesty was what worked for me. I focused on myself and my own feelings. You can be selfish, Josh. There's nothing wrong with putting yourself first. Depression sucks - trying to set goals can feel like moving mountains and sometimes you're just gonna be too tired. Don't ever feel like you need to explain anything like this to your viewers, it's your life. Vlogging might not be the best idea right now, it takes a lot of motivation and you're not gonna have that every day. There aren't any expectations you need to live up to right now, just relax. You're putting too much pressure on yourself and you're gonna lose that spark of creativity you keep getting but then it fizzles out. Make a video when you're feeling happy. Don't make one when you're sad because pretending to be happy will make you more sad. It takes time, Josh. And you don't need to explain how you're feeling because we can all see it in your eyes - you're not okay. And that's okay.
3915. LeahLuvv Anderson: Emma Rose Williamson Amen! Josh Jesus is the road to true happiness and joy. It's so sad to see this kind of thing. ❤️
3916. Cherry Berry48: i have told you that i am here for you time and time again, i said you were like a bro to me, and i am here for you, you want to talk or whatever
3917. Katt sweet: I am the only one that when guys/men/boys cry, its heart breaking and I find it good for them to because there human with emotions just like us girls/women and they should cry without the fear of feeling less manly or a pussie excuse me but that what I hear guys say when they see men cry. I feel like when men cry heck I'll provide them tissues for it. I grew up in a house where my father never cried and made fun of men who cried or show emotions and that made me angry cause men have feelings just like everyone else and we laugh when happy, we get angry, we fear, but we all cry too, but most men don't show it or talk about it and I feel like its okay for men to cry and to openly cry I want to give them all hugs for it. its all about being human at the end of the day, we all feel the same emotions at one point and we should show it no matter what gender or age.
3918. Walter: I feel the same way you do, most of the time. It's horrible huh.
3919. Alexercise: Much love to you. Been in your shoes...you will be okay.
3920. Iridian Cruz: 😭can we just take a moment to applaud Josh👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
3921. Dazzling Jewels: Honestly, I want you to be happy, and so do whatever you need to do to be the best, happiest version of you. Your true audience will stay beside you, man. People will hate, but we will march beside you.
3922. Val Garrow: Sounds more like "I'm sorry I got caught "
3923. Samantha Pickering: Anybody who cares for you, won't feel like you're being a downer as you said. They can tell you're not okay. It's okay to not be okay. Getting help is an excellent step! Proud of you. Take care of yourself. ❤️
3924. Malcombs Way: have you noticed that your dog is pooping in the back ground by the tree! LOL other than that I support you
3925. Shannon Vranch-wellman: we love you Josh 💕
3926. Abraham Gonzalez: Will be praying for you
3927. Kaleigh Wood: I just want to put out there I have clinical depression.... along with other things.... but it's difficult... you've got to stay strong. Keep going to your therapist. I have always hidden away. You've got to go out. Put yourself with people it helps keep the horrible and sad thoughts out of your head. Try to have fun... it'll be hard. But you can do it. Depression is a very real and scary thing. Know you're loved
3928. dreamflight6000: We love you. We can pull you out of this!! I'm a 30 something mom of three boys and you are my favorite YouTuber. You will get through this and be happy again. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Amy Dreamflight6000
3929. Lucy Dailey: Maybe pray
3930. Francine Mendoza: I love you so so much. You may not feel this way, but you are so so strong Josh. We are all here for you as best as we can be and God will be there the rest of the way through. God bless you and we love you.
3931. peter anderson: Josh, you need to do what makes you happy, if that is blogging, great, but if it isn't don't keep blogging just because it is what once brought you happiness. This experience has changed you and if it has changed what you love to do, you need to get out there and find what you really love
3932. Summer Valentine: We love you joshua, i love you Joshua. Always willl be by your side, your one really handsome guy, dont worry i personally see everything going back to normal <3
3933. kg kb: Just say you're gay and be proud
3934. Anna N: kainat dilawar "Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad—for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world." 1 Peter 4:12‭-‬13 NLT As Christians, we choose to separate ourselves from the world's ways and follow God's will so of course we are going to suffer in this world, but God is still with us. Jesus suffered and wept. But it's okay because it is only temporary suffering that is well worth it!!
3935. Olivia Cross: Thank you for sharing ❤️
3936. Courtney Furman: <3 <3 <3 - - The Sedona Method
3937. Lesly Arevalo: I feel like God is calling you to draw near to Him. Seek Him and you'll find Him. You'll find what you're looking for, you'll find what can satisfy your & your soul. You'll find peace, comfort and rest ONLY in God. Seek Him with all your heart, He doesn't reject a humble heart. You know Him, but get to know Him Josh, make that connection with His presence and have a true relationship with Him. I hope you feel better soon! He is our Healer 😊 🙏
3938. Kendall Lams: this killed me.. I related to this video so much on such a personal level and holy shit..
3939. Demi White: does any one know what he is talking about here is talking about the marriage if you still have her phone number call her and fix things you and her were like best friends and I really miss that thx Josh now I am crying but take what you have and go further I absolutely love her and you so get out of that depression and be happy I love you
3940. Jaylyn Clayton: we love you u can get though this. I promise
3941. Ashley Hiemstra: “I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Matthew‬ ‭28:20‬ <--- Jesus was my answer to depression and is still the answer for everything. I fought it so hard alone, nothing helped me. I felt so defeated by life and was ready to die but He came and showed me acceptance and showed me life in the most beautiful light. His light, the one I'd been missing in all my darkness. Do I have moments where that sadness tries to come back? Yes I'm human. But it doesn't last because I know my eternal HOPE and JOY comes from Him. And He's with us until the end. He's there to save and to love us beyond what we will ever experience. There IS another side waiting be to discovered, Josh. Praying the very BEST for you! May I suggest Judah Smith podcasts? That guy you will love, trust me :)
3942. Morgan Hubert: I love you, Josh! You are inspiring even when you don't feel like it. You are loved, and we will always be here for you!
3943. Elizabeth Crowder Pelton: All I can say is a quote that has always meant a lot to me. "It hurts because it mattered." Thank you for being vulnerable and honest. Trust me- it helps and reassures the rest of us that it's ok to not be ok.
3944. Rachel Rose: Josh, you probably won't see this but we are all okay with whatever you post. You can post sad things or happy things, no matter what I assume we all support you in what you do. As a human, I don't want a fellow human being sad. Especially such an incredible person like yourself. You deserve so much happiness. Hope things start looking up!
3945. Megan Jones: You need Jesus
3946. Shannon Glennon: Going to see a therapist was one of the best choices I've ever made. I hope you find your inner peace and happiness again 💕 You are doing an amazing thing by speaking up about mental health!
3947. secret weapon: aww I am so sorry sweetheart and I am here for you if need someone to talk to . I know what its like and I have been there. its very hard but must be strong and we can get through this together. there is nothing wrong but it happens to the best of us we go through rough stuff and we must get through it and smile and laugh and try and be happy things will get better. I promise you that and it may be hard now but it will help
3948. anditspaganpoetry: So much love for you Josh. It's really good that you're able to admit to yourself that you can't do it alone, and you're getting help. It's so damn understandable. <3
3949. zozo962: fighting .. you will find the light at the end of the tunnel 💕
3950. Sam A: Josh, we are all here for you. I think that all that has happened, it is showing you how to be happy by yourself, and really find who you are. Keep on truckin💜😉
3951. Manishaneela: I understand what you're going through! Pls talk to others, reach out for help. Hope u get well soon 😊😊😊
3952. Amaris Yeager: I love you Josh!!!! I have never gone through what you have but I know it's hard. I'm not very good with words so this might not make any sense. Lots of people say that you should only be happy, but lots of people say be who you are. Act like you feel. Be real. And I am one of those people. I think you should just be who you are. I love you Josh and do whatever it takes to heal from this. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
3953. Manuela Sharissa: go back with her. make things up with her. u were very happy with her and her family. u were very happy everyone could see that YOLO bruh. NO HATE
3954. Karen Safadi: If your down you shouldn't stay down. If you're not feeling happy you shouldn't be sorry to share this with the internet and I think sharing what your going through with the internet will make you feel better from all the nice respond you will get. Just believe that you deserve to live the life your dreaming for and being happy all the way as you said we only have one life to live so we should live it the way we want and the way that will make us happy. I know that what you've been through was hard but you should believe that getting yourself back together and being the old you will be easier and that the hard part of your life have passed and it's over. For me I see that being strong is to not be afraid to say what your feeling to others. I wish that what I said will help you ❤
3955. Illana lopez: I respect every opinion, but I don´t think that the other part is hurting too, even if she doesn´t want to show it on the internet. Divorces are hard and you never know what happened between them as a subscriber, but the point is that she is getting so much hate because she is dealing with everything in a very drastic way. I don´t think it is correct to go around saying she is a heartless bitch, still I think it is how she is choosing to look like. Since you are a public persona, things like this will affect you at least at your public image somehow.
3956. mimiwise2002: I think it's best if your get really real and raw on your channel...I feel truly it's the ONLY way then you will come out ....we do know you are up and down and hiding...just get raw it's ok you will get to the other side you just finally need to get real and BE OPEN WITH YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS ❤️❤️ We are here to pull you thru the other side no matter how long it takes...do and express what you need to say every day❤️. We got you❤️❤️❤️
3957. sabeenaforAG: Praying for you! <3
3958. Jackson Ward: Don't stick with anything that's not making you happy don't try to fix anything just do the things that you want
3959. Kimberly DeLong: I love you.
3960. Miimi: Joshua, its okay to feel and take to take one step at a time! I pray that things get better for you~ p.s. Dont forget to <3 yourself too!!!!! -take care
3961. Kittyluver209: Sending tons of love your way. We can all take this journey together and grow and find peace and happiness ❤️
3962. ηλιανα π: alyssa too bad religion doesn't heal mental illness
3963. Saima Nayen: You are very strong. Being able to talk about how u feel and coming in terms with your emotions is very important. nothing is wrong with you. there's nothing wrong with feeling how u feel. it's not easy to put yourself out there and be open about the fact that you are sad. Don't feel bad about being depressed. you will be okay ❤️❤️❤️❤️
3964. macs momma: Joshua I came across your channel quite on accident. I want you to know, that for about 6 months or so, my 5 year old daughter has been falling asleep to your duet"lullaby" true colors. The one you did with your sister. It's her favorite rendition of that song (and mine...waaay better than the Timberlake version and palpably heartfelt) and she asks for it by name. I'm telling you this because I want you to remember that even the little things you do are important. Your honesty and authenticity is refreshing. You're a special soul. Be kind to yourself. We'll be listening and cheering you on, friend. 💕
3965. Ledia Fahim: it is ok
3966. Rose Isabella: Shadow trying to play and cheer you up was perfect. There's nothing wrong with you, you're just human, and seeing that is amazing. Your true fans are here to pick you up, and return the favor you've given to so many people. Karma is also a good thing, and you deserve to have us give you back some of what you've put out for many years. You take care of you, and people who are real and worth having around will be there with you, and when you're better. Health is more important than entertainment, and it's wonderful you're sharing your journey with us. Much love and many prayers.
3967. thestephaniedraws: It's okay to not be okay for a while and I'm glad you're getting help. See you tomorrow!☺
3968. ελλεν V.: I'm so sorry to say but we cant help you because we dont know the circumstances. We dont know what happened. So all we can do is just saying nice and mootivating things to you. Feel hugged
3969. Chelsy Messer: we love you and are here for you!
3970. KikiDiaco: Time to focus on yourself ❤️ you deserve the very best. Hoping things get better for you. xo
3971. Chloe Gibson: This is the realest shit.
3972. Aholelottanothin: I've dated a guy who was going through a divorce shits not easy marriage is so binding and relationships are all so different you're strong don't get me wrong I love the cheesy popular page YouTube content but it's nice to see creators get real with videos like this
3973. Pill Dust: I was already getting teary and when your voice cracked my heart broke and I just started breaking down please feel better
3974. Comics Fan: If you're hurting, be sad man... cry, do whatever you need to. It helps, you have to do something.
3975. Hannah Prater: I normally don't watch Joshua . But I'm here for you Josh. I'm not here because you are going through this . I'm here because I care about you , believe in your self!! We love you !
3976. jazzee75: You're definitely doing the right thing by getting help. You have to work on your on yourself and your happiness. Everyone deserves to be happy! We want to see that beautiful smile a lot more again.
3977. Lin Radke: I like that you are real and you show how you're feeling. I lived most of my life ignoring my mental health issues until it spiraled out of control and it got really bad. My mom almost called the cops on me and that was the day that I realized I couldn't do it anymore. I've been getting help for around 4 years now and I stopped being self destructive. I will never be 100% because of what I have and what I have been through, but I realized that if you want to get better, your family and friends will help you through anything. If you stay where you are, and don't try to get better, that's when people let go. If you're sad, don't hide it. It's not healthy. I hope you know none of us judge you or think badly of you. Love you Josh, you're a great person and you will be happy one day. 😘❤️❤️
3978. rbubblesz: I mentioned that only the best role models show pain and are vulnerable, not the best role models are on Youtube. Josh wants to be vulnerable but is afraid that if his channel leads to a dark place, nobody will look up to him or his channel will dissipate, which is completely untrue because vulnerability draws people in as opposed to scaring people away. The best role models show their pain and show that pain is okay, which is what he is doing. If he wants to be a role model to others, yet hides his pain, it will seem fake, and viewers would rather see the real person no matter what they are like than see someone pretend they are fine when they are not. That doesn't help anyone involved. That being said, I didn't say he was my number one role model or the only person I look up to. I do look up to him as an online figure and believe his voice is impacting the lives of others (And I am encouraging him to keep doing that even when it gets difficult). Because of his strength and his path, if he fights to get better, others who look up to him are likely to seek help as well. I also am an adult and have been through counseling, as have the people I mentioned, and have present mentors. I think you twisted my words a little bit there.
3979. Jessica Ann O.: FINALLY!!! GREAT VIDEO JOSH. (Hugs) Glad to hear your words today. ❤ MUCH SUPPORT & LOVE. 1 Day @ a Time Club Here. Life changes us. I can't remember the last time I was TRULY happy. It has taken about 10 years of my life to be diagnosed correctly with ATYPICAL Depression (never knew that was a thing) but now I do. I've been in so much therapy most of my adult life. Group seemed most helpful. When I was real bad I went to an IOP program like 3 days a week, 4 hrs a day for few months. It was great to listen, talk & relate to others. It helped overhaul my mind/thought processes & quicker than 1v1
3980. Phoebe Jones: Anyone would be lucky to have you you are such a good soul I hope you find happiness
3981. gisselle pineda: I love you so much :-(
3982. WhateverIsTrueASMR: La belle Et la bete Not sure what that has to do with it but sure
3983. helenakeating: I'm sure you won't see this, but I pray that you can find the joy in life again. I know that God may not be something you believe in, but I know going through life without having that belief makes the challenges in life even harder. Regardless, I will keep praying for you and wishing you the best in life!!
3984. Yuri Plisetsky: We still love you. You are so kind and gennerous and tough.
3985. MaddisonRose: We love you Joshua
3986. FoxxyHawk: Nothing is wrong with you. Glad you are getting help. This was a great video. Thank you.
3987. Martyna: I support you so much. Someone has already mentioned it, but I'm going to say it again - go to church, turn to God. He is the healer. And He will give you the person you're longing in the right time. You just have to find your peace with yourself first. I am keeping you in my prayers and thoughts. Lots of love from Poland! <3
3988. ValUsc: i love this raw josh. But josh just cry!! let it out! show your emotions. youre not the only one feeling down. youre speaking for many of us on here. "TEARS DONT MEAN YOU'RE LOSING, everybody's bruising, just be true to who your are." -jessie j. proud of you for seeking help. keep your head up. ❤
3989. Erica Lee: we don't want to watch you be fake happy. we want to see your REAL life. if that means every single day you feel like shit and every video is depressing and down, then hey that's what we're going to watch. don't say sorry for being real. I personally would rather watch your videos and know that the content is coming from your heart and it's you being real than knowing you're just acting and putting on a smile for the camera. I'm here praying for you and I believe you'll get through it, you have amazing family and friends. also, I just want to say one more thing, don't look back on your marriage and think of all the good times, don't lie to yourself that it was this great thing and that you lost it. you need to look at the positives of what is happening is bettering the rest of your life. and nothing is wrong with you!!! you have a huge caring heart and that's why you're taking this harder. wow sorry if none of this made sense I just had to say it. love you Josh.
3990. Luvi Rosales: We're here for you and believe in you Josh. You can definitely DO IT. No matter what you decide to do either leave YouTube or stay or post here and there we will always support you. It's a very difficult situation and it's okay to cry and change, that's life- it molds you! We truly care for you. We love you Josh!
3991. Mary Francis: You need Jesus. He loves you so much and knows you better than you know yourself.
3992. Lori Tucker: Life is hard! Cling to your support system. My heart hurts for yours 💔
3993. Eleanor Creitz: SO proud of you for posting this. Young people need this so much, and I'm thankful that you know how important that is too. So proud of you for looking after your heart and your mind. As someone with terrible anxiety and depression, doing whatever you can to get the help you need is super important. ❤
3994. Kristen Osborne: You can do this. It will take time but you will come out on the other side stronger and happier than you've been. Take care of yourself first. 💗
3995. shelby: i'm here for you always, i love you so much more than anyone could ever understand 💙
3996. Taylor Lynell: You know Josh, You have every right to feel the way that you do. Even if the other side seems so perfect, it doesn't matter. This journey is now about you. You are not wrong, you just need to let yourself feel these emotions and go through this your way <3
3997. Jenny Gonzalez: I love you so much josh! ❤❤ You'll get through this and you will be in your happy place.
3998. NoemiLife: nothing is wrong with you, you loved with your heart in sleeve, I love how you are able to come out and be honest about your feelings. I think everyone has a different way of dealing with certain situations. thank you for being so open it helps some of us out who are in the same situations...keep yout head up Josh!! 💖💖💖
3999. Danielle Gargano: Josh ❤ you're gonna make it through this. I'm so sorry you're going through such a painful, low energy low motivation & low joy season of your life right now. Im so thankful you're choosing to seek help and just pushing through, even something small as going outdoors. I recently went through certain low stages of depression and didn't care enough to find it in me to even walk outside. That alone shows me the strength is in you, you just need to awaken it. And that's where I believe God steps in. "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13. Write it on your bathroom mirror, write it on a post-it note & stick on your car's dash board, put a note by the coffee machine... anything that makes it a constant reminder. Because He provides what we need. Sometimes thats a therapist, sometimes that's medication, sometimes that's loving family and friends, sometimes that's all of the above, etc. Jesus is the ultimate Healer and he dwells in your darkness so he can find you and loving, gently draw you out of it. I'm praying for you and love you. Thank you for being human. ❤
4000. HannaDANT !: We r here for u Josh.... we will be here every step of the way.... we love u!
4001. Jaylin: I love you Josh!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
4002. Lia Margolis: And you know what? You don't have to be happy all the time. Showing this side of yourself shows us hope, as you are going through your own journey. You deserve to have just as intense and/or negative emotions as anyone else. It just counts that you acknowledge it and work through it. Positivity is good, but we will stick through you through anything negative, and it may teach us something
4003. Joana Moreno: why am I only now noticing all the typos smh *believe
4004. sheenabeena: You are so brave for seeking help! We love you Josh! Huggggsssss!
4005. Rebecca I: It is normal to go to the gym to become physically fit. Therapy is a place where people get mentally healthy. It's an essential part of bettering one's full self.
4006. Christa Mariie: I couldn't tell you how much I know exactly what your going through. Just got out of a long six year relationship and since, I have not been myself ... I've distanced myself from friends & family , I put on fake smiles, while I cry every night . I feel for you & everything your going through please understand . Thank you for this video ❤️
4007. Femke Elisabeth: I really wish I could fly to you trough my screen so I can give you the biggest hug ever given. Eventhough it wouldn't solve much I just really wish I could help you. You gotta know that you're one of the purest and most amazing human beings out there. Remember that it's okay to feel crappy sometimes. It's human! I'm sure you will overcome and beat this hard part in your life. We love you!
4008. chocolateooohyea: that's awesome you decided to do it daily again. You are trying so hard to get back to feeling "normal" but what is needed it just to take it day by day. slowly but surely you will be another type or person and hopefully happy because you deserve it. much love josh!
4009. VeganTegan: We love you Josh! The best version of yourself is the true one.
4010. Alex Perez: Your crew is behind you brother! 👍👍👍
4011. Jessie Appel: I didn't want to Like this because I dont like that your hurting but good for you to reach out and get help. We love you Josh and just want to see you happy!
4012. Sara Padilla: I totally get not wanting to burden your friends and family with things. I've dealt with depression my whole life. I've gotten to the point where I can feel myself slipping into what I call a "funk". Most times, I can work my way through it. Others, I need to seek out help. You remind me so much of myself when it comes to saying sorry all the time and the auto response of "I'm doing well" when you aren't. You need to take care of you. You're going through one of the worst and hardest things in life. Everyone deals differently, so please don't ever feel bad for how it's taking its toll on you. You're an amazing person, and I KNOW you'll come out on top. How strong of you to seek out help. Takes a lot of people a very long time to admit they need it. I'm so very proud of you! You're in my prayers. Virtual hugs to you, Joshua! I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to!
4013. Abby Stephens: I'm glad shadow makes you feel better puppies are the key to happiness ❤️
4014. Angi Bryan: It's okay Josh.. take your time. Don't force it, forcing it leads to faking it and then you find yourself back at square one. Routine helps a lot, and documenting the process is a good idea. I tend to write a lot when I'm down... it helps to get those feelings out. You have to process the feelings some way, otherwise we just keep holding on to them and they keep coming to the surface. One day at a time, pretty soon you'll feel better and you'll know it's real because you didn't force it.
4015. Erin O: insulting the other part of the "coin" isn't going to help. I think people have different ways to hide pain and different ways of dealing with things i don't know either of you personally so none of us know the full story i can't tell you she's not hurting but i also can't tell you she is hurting in sorry that this unfortunate end has consumed your life i've been trying to get myself out of a slump for over a year over some stupid boy everytime i feel i'm finally over it it always seems to come back idk the answers but i wish you all of the happiness in the world you are a truly inspiring amazing and kind human being and you deserve nothing less than to be happy
4016. Saneeya Khan: yes things seems normal on the other side n that might kill you!!. because it kills us too. but babe lemme tel you something.! what has happened is probably the worst of our dreams, but bouncing higher is necessary for our own sanity. what I do when I depressed is just like you put myself away in a dark corner hoping things will get better, BUT what things will get better if we hide from our own self? when I understood this now I'm working everyday on it. I go out everyday be it alone or with friends, i started working out again which btw gt almost like 60% of my happiness back (because working out and trying to be healthy takes out a lot of ur tym leaving less tym fr you to think Abt anything else wch puts you down) and if you feel like crap your allowed to feel that.! cry, shout as much as you want but when you done pull yourself up together and have a word with yourself that " yes things aren't as great as it was n right now Im hurt but I wanna pass this feeling and feel a 101/100 !" talking yourself out is more important than any professional help!! it's good you now have that! but it's important that in ur heart and mind you want to be Ok and not just ok GREAT! Enough of my nonsense. I hope to see UPANGLES VLOGS soon 😘 love you. Also! you wanna vlog everyday and be accountable right here a thought! use it if you like everyday at the end of the vlog Name 5 things (5 incidents) that made you smile/laugh that day and cash urself bonus points on that! example: shadow came running up to me and hugged me ? that made you smile??? 100 points to Joshua!!
4017. TheMymo84: I've been feeling the same... i know what it feels like 😞
4018. AprilTheQueen: josh i will pray for you !💗. I don't wan't you to do anything stupid:( GET HELP.! 😣 We will be there for you ILY!❤
4019. UNICORNZ 101: Jesus is here for you!!!!!
4020. Lisa Pintok: nothing is wrong with you. you have found help and that's the first step. as someone who has been there, you are doing the best thing for you right now. don't give up. you got this.
4021. Alex Polson: I'm proud of you for seeking therapy. Last night I was explaining to someone that our mental health is just as (or more) important that our physical health. Sometimes you need to be selfish & focus on just you! I know things suck & things are nothing like you planned but I hope you will find a "new normal." I hope everyday you will take time to do at least one thing that is just for you. I personally, allow myself time to be upset & get my emotions out and then I get up & find something productive to do. (All of this is just my personal experience & how I deal with depression.) & I'm also proud of you for being so open on the internet. I know that is hard because most people only post the good parts of their life & it makes you feel like their life is so easy & fun. I actually enjoyed seeing how open you are being about this part of your life. I imagine that a lot more people can relate than you would think. It's still very hard right now but the future holds much better days ahead. Just hang in there & do whatever you need to do to feel better. 💪🏻
4022. Savannah Andresen: I love you!! It's okay not to be okay. But it's not okay to suffer alone. We're here for you Josh. Always have been, always will be..
4023. Brian Albrecht: Ava Mayeaux yuofobe
4024. Sarlat: That's not what the OP's comment describes, however, as the two ideas are fundamentally opposed. They are describing emotional dependence and loss of individuality, and I am prescribing self-love and independence. What I describe should be part of a healthy relationship, the former by definition is not. To call it the "best kind of love" on top of that is frankly eerie as well. It's a lie sold by corporations, among them Disney, as "romance" because it makes them mad bank. Sadly, lots of people have fallen for it, especially girls sold this crap since childhood.
4025. Queen Z: There's nothing wrong with hurting, it's the first step of healing. I'm happy that you got some help because that is another step towards progress. <3
4026. Sandie Mom: Wish I could give you a (((huge hug))) life does suck at times but you'll get back to you. With this platform just look at all the friends you have, your blessed. It's great your getting help, as you say you only have 1 life. Sometimes we're dealt a bad deck or bad card. I was dealt a bad deck, I have a child who had brain cancer, 2 disabled children. I have 8 children in all and 2 dead beat father's. My sweet little boy has so many health issues and just wishes for his daddy to want him and it breaks my heart. What I'm getting at is in life it doesn't always go our way but it will for you, again.
4027. Tina NYC/NJ: You are the new you Josh We all need to Vent let it all out. Forever and always we love you Josh
4028. I’m a Hufflepuff: I like you shoes Josh
4029. Charles Neri: Come out of the f*ckin' closet, your depression will be cured!
4030. Kelly Uhler: Truly happy people don't feel the need to consistently remind the world of how happy happy HAPPY they are. Remember that on the internet, everything is not always as it seems. Thank you for your honesty. I'd rather watch someone be open about their struggles than watch someone who tries to shove their false happiness down everyone's throats.
4031. Bizzy Bertagnole: So proud of Josh and who is has become. I struggled with the same feelings and was depressed. It was hard to figure out how I was feeling. But it's also hard to be motivated and try to be on a "normal" schedule when your mind isn't there. I love you and I'm so glad you're getting to a place where you can thrive and be happy, not just momentarily.
4032. Kelly Mrsmommy: Got your back, Joshua! You've got this! One day at a time:) ❤️❤️❤️
4033. P: if being on youtube helps with your healing, if seeking professional help is your way of wanting to get better or feel better about yourself, if havig your fans helos with you moving on - go for it. make choices that you think will improve your life. it gets better. i hope it will.
4034. Disney Lover: Hey Josh. I'm 31 and have been dealing with depression since I was 16 and lost my mom. It's hard but you've taken the first step in seeking help. It'll get better, I promise. Just take the negative out of your life weather it be people or things and focus on you and your health and happiness. It's ok to be sad and have down days. It's how you handle those days that makes the difference. Know that there are others out there you can turn to to talk to and soundboard off of. Keep your head up.
4035. Life with Zoë: I am so, so proud of you, Josh ❤ We all love and support you so much. Thank you for being so kind, honest, and caring. You're a truly great person and deserve the best this world can give you. I'm so glad you are taking the right steps to get there.
4036. Samantha L: I've been dealing with depression my whole life. I found cognitive therapy to be the most helpful. It's helped me deal with losing a 6 year relationship and it's helped me with developing my interpersonal skills. I'm really happy for you that you reached out and asked for help. I bet you feel more hopeful about the future!
4037. Laura Stark: Im Sorry Josh... Im with you❤ i love You
4038. Violet24xo: Do what makes you happy in whatever moment you're in! If that means vlogging or not vlogging! The most important thing is your happiness, not anyone else's!
4039. Alli Gordon: I went through a bad breakup and I felt like I shouldn't be so sad. It wasn't too long of a relationship, and I'm young. But I was so devastated. Just feel your feelings until they're gone. It'll get better.
4040. Anna Burnrett: You are amazing person you help me throughout much. I am glad you are back
4041. megan keane: we love you josh! and we are all here for you! most of my family have depression and i myself don't have it but I get what you mean just cause I have been around alot of people with depression and i just want you to know that talking about it is the best thing you can do! and i will tell you what is the best thing to do is just get one of your family members and talk about and the best thing to do is cry Joshua just CRY it's the best thing for it and don't forget you don't wanna put loads of pressure on yourself just take it one step at a time and don't rush anything! and I just want you to know that you are beautiful and you are your own person be yourself cause everyone else is taken! you really shouldn't think so much about what everyone else thinks I really do just want you to know we do ALL LOVE YOU and just take it slow and keep going to your counceller! and your honest vlogs are gonna help lots of people cause maybe if you just show what it's all about and how to deal with it you will do the world a favour! anyway all we want you to know is that we all love you so so much and if you need a break take it if you don't want a break dont take one but just take it one step at a time one and one breath at a time just trust me Any way sorry for the rant we ALL LOVE YOU!xx💙💚💛💜
4042. Michelle Viso: Ay papi come to Nj and I'll take that depression away 🤗 haha I'm happy u doing better hunn love u!
4043. heartsongsKat: Honey, I know. I have very similar struggles every single day. If some random Canadian chick your age can give you an ear, let me know. Death of my mother coupled with a decade of relationship abuse kind of messed me up. Diagnosed PTSD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Depression. But I function alright. I have a team of professionals who help me. I pay out the ass for my psychologist and she is so worth it. It can definitely consume you, I know it can. Please put yourself first ALWAYS. You are the most important person in your life, Josh. Your friends are there to help you, too. They love you. But like I said, I'm an ear (or eyes) if you have the inclination to talk to a stranger. Be good to yourself.
4044. Brandon Payne: I tend to hide out and seclude myself. I feel like when I get to the point where I am manic and my disorder is taking over, I just let my mind go and run with it. I am in the same place where I now have ruined a lot of relationships and even my own finances, career, etc. I went to see a therapist this past week and will have two appointments this next week. It's a difficult place to be in, but I think seeking help is the first big step in getting on the path in life that works best for me. I feel for you bro, but am proud that you're able to see that there is something in yourself that you can work on and better yourself. I think too many people hide their true self and don't seek answers... well you're proving to the real world that people struggle and life is hard. Thank you for being real!!! I subscribed to your channel... 🤙🏼
4045. Elaura Woolley: 💜💜💜💜
4046. Ms. Moe: Maybe because mental illness is super common?????
4047. Anna: we love you josh and we are going to support you through everything❤️
4048. ivy: predictions before watching the video: ''I'm a porn addict.'' after watching the video: nvm.
4049. Laura Butler: Josh I'm always a silent viewer but I just felt an urge to comment. You are so amazing as a person and I really hope you know that. You deserve to be so happy and deserve the best of everything you put everyone before you and unfortunately in life the best people are always those who suffer the most. I just hope you know we are all here for you, all your viewers will be here to the end. Take care and hope therapy is going good for you. much love- laura ❤️
4050. B Mary: Josh, it breaks my heart to see you like this.. I will be praying for you. Just know that you are human and it's okay to feel that way. I hope that you can find what makes you truly happy. Do you what you have to do to get there. Surround yourself with peiple that encourage and help you get there. We will be with you every step of the way. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers. 🌎💕 Always.
4051. Rachel Thomas: We love you Josh. ❤
4052. Loz Mae: Thanks for sharing, Josh. It takes great courage to be so honest and vulnerable especially with so many people. We are here for you and will support you <3
4053. Christie Odle: God bless you honey. I love you all the way from Kentucky ♥️♥️
4054. amymusic: Josh, there are very few men like you in this world who are vulnerable and who are brave enough to be real and share their feelings. It makes you super unique and amazing. Keep moving forward. You are going to get through this! Do nice stuff for YOU. Practice self care. Be well. You are awesome!
4055. Rachel Nichole: Love you Josh! You have so much support behind you. Just take one day at a time, that's all you can do ❤️
4056. Jane Smith: Your shit
4057. Lene Kristin: Thank you for making such a raw, authentic video Joshua! That takes loads of courage. I am so so happy that you have come to the decision to seek some professional help. Many people fear this step, but I must say for me that is courage, shows a huge amount of strength and it is really the only way to get to the bottom of things so you can start climbing up the hill. I am so extremely proud of you. And I know that this will make your life a whole lot better <3 loads of love from someone who support you 110%.
4058. Marianna Muro: What do you meannnnn?! She's bi?! Or lesbian?
4059. sunshinedylan: Because it's not a rare thing to have. Almost everyone will experience at least one of those things.
4060. Arti Agarwal: You are already doing so much better by taking this step and uploading this video where you were completely YOU and being unapologetic about it! Stay strong and patient! It'll take a while but you'll definitely get there at your own pace! EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!❤️
4061. Batool Asif: Josh, I love you so much ❤❤
4062. Genesis26344: we all love you Josh!! we're all here for you!❤
4063. Julie Davis: You being sad is normal...getting divorced is like someone died, there's lots of grief and a feeling of rejection. Grief is like needing to vomit, it comes in waves. Over Days, Weeks, Months, Years...You are loved, and you will find love again. It will get better later but expecting yourself to bounce back quick is unrealistic. It's really ok. There are lots of people going through the same stuff, so it's really ok to just be yourself. You are brave to put this on the internet. Your pain is not our entertainment. Your pain is what lots of us are going through, which we don't have a million subscribers watching...So hang in there. Heal slowly. Here is a quote that is helping me, that I just ran across “God breaks the heart again and again and again until it stays open.” Hazrat Inayat Khan.....
4064. Jocelyn Juarez: Josh, some soul searching may be helpful right now. And trying anything that's anything will help you get over this weird funk. It'll be really hard but know that you have my support. Your decision to document can perhaps help you be in touch with yourself again, which is amazing. And to add on, every drastic change is hard and we're human, and we can't be okay at every throw life does to us. I like how genuine you are as a person. And the best thing for you is to be yourself. It's okay to be cold, it's okay to be truthful. You're human, and your feelings are valid. ❤️
4065. Emily Kate: I'm not sure what music you're into but you should definitely sit down and listen to Marianas Trench - the "Ever After" album from start to finish and then the "Astoria" album. Music is healing to me I hope it helps
4066. Christine Hopper: Normally I am a silent viewer, I never comment. But seeing this video makes me feel like I should say something. Be raw, be authentic. Do whatever you have to do to help yourself day to day, and don't ever apologize for it. P.S. I live in Philadelphia. If I happen to bump into, and if you're ok with it, I'm giving you the biggest bear hug ever, because you're not alone❤️
4067. Hannah: Everyone who supports you is always here josh chin up keep strong 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽❤️❤️❤️❤️
4068. ECG: I think everyone should participate in therapy at some point in their life. Be proud! You'll find happiness, your taking the right steps. You're on your way, whatever it takes!
4069. Laura Butler: Eman El-sayed thankyou so much and you too ❤️
4070. Laurie Beth H: Harry Krinkle we know you Harry!
4071. Taylor Delma: So your seeing a therapist, that was hard for you to say okay almost every youtuber not all but some are seeing therapists so what dude it's part of life
4072. Sticky Lore: <3
4073. Emily Whelan: it's ok not to be ok , and it's ALWAYS ok to ask for help💘💘
4074. Lisa&Wilkie: Thank you for your courage to open up like this, it takes guts! Just take one day at a time, as it comes. You are going to pull through. You never were alone and never will be either.
4075. Paola Gonzalez: We love you, Josh <3 I just want to give you a huge hug, everything will be okay in time. I'm praying for you <3
4076. thatcrazymetalchick: This broke my heart. I truly hope you can find happiness. You used to get me through tough days. I have my own issues, but watching your videos took me out of my own head. Don't ever apologize for being human because your feelings are valid. you are a great person with good morals and you deserve just as much happiness as the other person. Its good to close a chapter in your life because a better one opens and you will know when that happens because its the best feeling ever. I hope you can somehow be happy again. You really deserve it Josh❤
4077. yara Al Hashmy: join fouseytube on his journey it will make you happier
4078. Gloria Lynn: I don't know how you feel about this, but I know a group that would help you tremendously! I also deal with depression. I'm now a leader in the depression small group at Celebrate Recovery. Look it up and find one in your area. It not only changed my life, it saved my life! Every part of the program works together. It's the only thing I've found that causes real life change. And its totally anonymous! Its a safe place to let it all out and you find a forever family. There's so much healing to be had there! Hope you find healing!
4079. technocatification: why is he Gabe from The Office
4080. Sup3rgamer10: You need to talk to Superwoman. She is really inspiring
4081. VV Gaby: RynnMar he is Christian but he isn't super good about reading the Bible. And I just feel like he is losing feelings for me cuz I suck. Thank you for your advice I am just gonna cry in bed tonight
4082. Selma Schoutens: Good luck with everything Josh, you'll get better! I hope you find happiness again. Love from the Netherlands ❤️
4083. NoLaughingMatter: Yea, I should have been more clear. Instead of "picking a side", what I should've said was making baseless claims and throwing slanders to either parties based on what they see on camera - which is what I have a problem with. I'm okay with people unfollowing either party because they don't like their content any more (which is kinda like "picking a side") - just don't don't be mean.
4084. Mandybee Vlogs: I love you Josh! Thanks for your honesty and vulnerability!!!! Love this video. YOU GO DUDE FOR SHOWING YOUR TRUE COLORS!!!!! You are NOT ALONE! Neither are we on the internet who feel what you're feeling. You don't have to be sunshine and rainbows EVER. I love how real you are. xoxoxo
4085. Kleineganz: I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. I can relate to a degree. I lost my husband last year. He suffered from severe depression and anxiety and I've had situational depression dealing with his loss. Therapy can absolutely help and I'm glad you've started going. I hope your therapist can help you work out everything and help you mourn the loss of your relationship properly. It's obvious you were so much more in love with her than she was with you, and that's heartbreaking. It happens and it makes it difficult to move on at times. Just hang in there and focus on yourself and what you need right now.
4086. s731s: Jonathan Josey Yasssss!!!!!!! "where two or more are gather there He stands amongst us"!! we're all united through HIM, And it's so nice to know that we are all here praying for Josh, blessing him and encouraging him. if we pray together for a true encounter from the Holy Spirit - that will deliver him from his brokeness. I am speaking by faith that we WILL!! ALL OF US, SEE THE TESTIMONY of answered prayered. nobody deserves this sadness, I've been there too. his pain breaks my heart even though I've never met him 🙏
4087. adam mac: Hey Josh.. I don't think I'm your typical viewer (35yo guy) but just have to say, you're THE realest, most authentic people on YouTube! (Out of my 30ish subbed channels and others I've just come across.) I'm glad you want to record this journey of finding happiness. Just know, I support you, dude! Keep being you and the rest will follow. One day, hour, minute, second at a time.
4088. abner: doesn’t**
4089. Camryn Smith: Take a break
4090. hailey angelina: I love you josh
4091. peggy leftwich: i love you josh!! We are all here for you.. everything's gonna be okay. We can help you find that light at the end of the tunnel. Just cut all negativity out of your life. Do things that make you happy and don't be afraid to ask for help. And again i love you so much. I hope therapy goes well. It helped me so much..
4092. Sunshine Gal: things will get better. dont feel pressured to apologize or pretend to be okay. we want what's best for you. 🙂 I'll be praying for you. Trust in God. He never gives us things we can't handle. much love xoxo ❤ *hug*
4093. Amya Costanza: I actually nearly cried watching this
4094. laureneadams: We love you Josh 💙💙💙
4095. Yahira Irizarry: I admire you Josh for having the courage to talk about things like that. It must not be easy trying to post "happy" videos where everything seems so perfect, when in reality you feel lost and hopeless. I'm glad you're receving the help you need now, before things end up getting worse. Depression is a serious thing. I know how it feels because I've been through it. It is not easy, but I know you will get through this stage in life. Just keep your head up and try to be involved in many things. I truly wish you the best Josh. I will keep you in my prayers. :)
4096. Olivia Z: Sapphire Sundaes she puts her work in front of everything she put it in front of her relationship and maybe right now she doesn't feel empty but when everything calms down and goes away she'll most definitely feel empty and she'll realize what's she's done
4097. Kiley Scheetz: 💜💜💜
4098. Milka s: ❤
4099. Taylor Houst: Love you forever ❤️
4100. All Dogs Are Smart: Love to you Josh and we support you.
4101. Jessica Hauck: I love this! The honesty is so refreshing. I know pain and I know hard times very well, it is so easy to hide it from people and to pretend it doesn't exist. So many people suffer and don't say a word. There seems to be this stigma in society where if you admit to feeling sad or that you're dealing with depression, people seem to look at you different and judge you. It makes you feel so alone and feel like you cant talk to anyone about it because you feel like a burden. Depression is real, its painful and ugly and so raw that it needs to be talked about. I really love when people show their vulnerability, it reminds me that we are human and its okay not to be okay. No matter how much you feel like you're alone, there are so many people out there suffering just like us. Josh no matter how you are feeling, document it. No matter how sad you are or how emotional or how happy you are, vlog every moment. So when you feel yourself getting better, because you will, you will be able to look back at this and see not only how far you have come but how many people you have helped through their own pain by showing yours. This is your channel, it is okay if some parts are sad because it is your life and if you're not true to you and whats happening in your life then none of it is real. Thank you for your honesty. Its beautiful. I wish more people were honest and open about their struggles.
4102. Simona El Haddad: +Joy Loewen haha infact if we we will be in a better place😂😂 God bless you!!
4103. Erin Flynn: Baby steps, that's what I keep telling myself 💜💜
4104. nate d: W33K3ND W4RR10R sad thing is that in true Christianity in order to follow Christmas you can love worldly things and I can't help but get so passionate about things I love but I always feel liked he's guilting me. it's hard for me to not like things I like more than God and I can't like things without being so obsessed
4105. Samantha Da Silva: I'm an on and off follower, won't lie. This is the first video of yours I've seen in awhile. I'm very proud of you (yes as a stranger) for starting therapy. I am 31, I just started back up after 7 years. And it's the best decision I've made in awhile. Sometimes we need help. We need perspective. We need someone who is completely unbiased and a dead end to hear us and help us. Therapists act as a mirror for ourselves, to help us get clarity. Thank you for talking about this, your followers all seem pretty young and they need to see someone they look up to promoting self care and the importance of mental and emotional health. Take care of yourself first. Do the work in therapy. Show up, be honest, and it'll work wonders! You'll get there! 💙
4106. Emily D: thank you so much for commenting this. So glad that people connect going to church with feeling happiness!
4107. Felicia Bernier: I just wanted to say thank you. I was clinically diagnosed almost 13 years ago, and some days I don't even want to get out of bed, so I can't imagine how hard it must be to put yourself out there for the world to see when you're feeling that way. So thank you for sharing this with us. Sometimes just hearing that someone else struggles with the same things I do makes all the difference. I hope things get better for you, and know that you have all of us in your corner, cheering you on and supporting you!
4108. Lia Margolis: You will be solid in your heart. You're a good person- that's solid
4109. Ida Solstad: "If you don't wanna watch, I totally get it" I'll watch, everyday❤️You're extreamly brave, and so strong! I've been watching your videos for so many years, and I can see how you've changed. But there isn't anything I'd like to do more than continue watching, so I can see how you'll eventually change for the better again❤
4110. Graywolfgirl01 Msp: 0:59
4111. Mickey: He still loves her...
4112. Bri: If we go to a doctor for our body it should be normal to go to a doctor for your brain/emotions!!!! You are brave and inspiring <3
4113. syerra p: EARLY GANG
4114. Claire Elizabeth Blake: @ One_Who_Matters, if you need anyone.
4115. Saima Firoj: It takes bravery to admit that you have a problem and seek help. You've definitely made some mistakes along the way, but I believe that you can get back up and correct the mistakes you've made. Sending positivity your way, Joshua
4116. Tina M: This video is so courageous. As someone who has struggled with depression and the same loss of self, it's comforting in a way to see someone else hurting in all the same ways. There's nothing wrong with us. We're just living.
4117. Alyssa Zaring: you're so strong for admitting this and I'm really proud of you and we all love you and support you!!!!!!!!
4118. Karly: It's okay not to be okay! And it's okay to admit it and seek help for what you're going through! I feel for you and what you have been through already. Love you always ❤️❤️
4119. • lol it’s Emma •: Tyler leans and speaks of what his faith means to him and how it helped him with his suicidal part of himself. The beginning of purpose is created by making something only you can understand. Just know that wherever you are, there are people out there that chose to live another day. Pain serves as light that helps the trees grow.
4120. Kate O'Potato: Feeling guilt and shame activate the reward center in your brain which is why it can be so easy to fall into rumination and putting yourself down. You are brave. You will get better. You are taking responsibility for yourself by going to therapy and that's awesome. ❤️
4121. Freak of Nature04: Ok I have watched every single vid since what happened to you Josh but you said "it's messed with a lot of things even my weight is put on 5 to 10 lbs" uhhhh that's not something to be ashamed of
4122. ThruTheLookingGlass: Try prayer. Works wonders.
4123. Liz King: Josh, I started watching you via Jenna Marbles Dink Fam and have been watching you for a while. I just wanted you to know that after watching this vlog of yours, I am now planning on watching you every day!! ❤️ Thank you so much for your open honesty with us! I cried when years came to your eyes!! 😭 I'm suffering from depression and have gone through terrible losses in my life...its a constant battle, my friend. But therapy, meditation, and taking care of myself is helping...and so are watching YOUR VLOGS! Thank you again, my friend. We are with you every step!! ❤️
4124. Tracy Eilers: Saying a prayer for you. You seem like a genuinely good person and God has better things in store for you.
4125. Carli Pope: Love you Josh. Your YouTube family is here for you.
4126. Mary Baker: You are stronger than what you give yourself credit for. do what you need to do to better yourself.
4127. TravelJunkieTV: I wish you the best on this journey. I want to see you come back from this and become a better you for you. You deserve to be happy too, especially for someone that brings so much happiness to this world. Take it a day at a time. Much love and Aloha from Maui! -Scott
4128. Lulu Wonderland: Things will heal in time ❤️ My Mum has always said to be open with yourself and share how you're feeling! We love you Joshua! x
4129. Kylie Marie: we LOVE you.
4130. Katerina Kotrupas: i love you, be strong
4131. Sammy Ann: Love you!!!!!
4132. Amanda Richards: Praying for you. So sorry, Josh.
4133. Erin Roberts: Josh your amazing!! So proud of you
4134. RahB: Thank you for being so honest with us all. I know how hard that can be. You're doing so well Josh. I hope you know how much you are loved. <3
4135. cana ditty: W33K3ND W4RR10R amen
4136. Emma Rose Williamson: +LeahLuvv Anderson Amen to that! He is SO good!
4137. Mini Moose: does that make up happy
4138. Amy Blakewood: It's ok to cry Josh.Tears are cleansing.Thank you for being brave enough and honest enough with us to share something so intimate.I was diagnosed with clinical depression with suicidal tendencies and its rough but I have managed with being able to have a supportive husband who also started out as my AA partner and counselor.My point is family and friends who are supportive can be a great help along with the therapy you are seeking.Keep it up Josh and you can get better.We all love you and support you every step of the way.
4139. Petra Šenkárová: Josh..I don't really like to comment anything on videos but I do when I see something like this. Maybe you won't ever see this comment but I want to write it anyway in case you went through the comment section and took time to read it. I'm so incredible proud of you. I'm happy that you're opening to us. I'm happy that you feel you can trust us because you can. Lately, you have been a huge inspiration for me. And in a world full of youtubers, models, instagram famous people who post pics of their skinny bodies, perfect lives is YOU. Real, honest and authentic person who is the REAL inspiration for people. Not someone who present their life being happy, perfect when it's not. You are so strong. I pray for you everyday to find a peace, someone who will make you happy, loved again. You deserve everything good in the world. I can't even imagine how hard it all has to be for you but I'd like to tell you that there is always a way which will get you through bad times. Few months ago. My best friend told me that she has depression. I didn't really know how to react. I know that it is an important issue and that many people are struggling with it. She doesn't think it is that bad and doesn't want to talk about it but I'm very worried about her. She changed and I can see that she's not happy anymore. Seeing you dealing with almost the same thing made me realized that maybe I can show her some of your videos so she can see that there is a way to deal with things, be happy again. I think that with opening up about these private things you changed life to many people you don't even know about it. Take care, I admire you and wish you the best. Greetings from Slovakia! 💙
4140. Aimee Music: Love you Josh 💜
4141. Lauren Meyer: I love you Josh! Please stay strong. I will pray for you. It's so hard. I struggle with an anxiety disorder which makes my life hard. I ask myself "what's wrong with me?" I feel some days I need to stay in or not go out with my friends or family. It's hurt my relationship in the past. Youtube and other social media takes me away and gives me courage to get out there.
4142. Jennica Graves: And I promise nothing is wrong with no one
4143. yuka a: so much love for you
4144. Adela The werido: Caitlyn M lmfao
4145. Ellie Gott: So happy you have found therapy. NOBODY can live life alone. Thank you for being honest.
4146. Jessica Forest: *on
4147. Lexi Lane: This makes me so sad. Please stay strong, I love you. And I want you to get better. Please don't give up, you got this josh I believe in you.
4148. bttrflykiss7701: ❤️ that's so brave of you! Good job!
4149. BunchOfRandomness: 2:40 The dog taking a shit in the back haha Oh my God...Hilarious.
4150. Grace Johnson: I'm always gunna stick by your side, buddy❤️. Never gunna leave. I can promise you that. Through all the ups and downs, I'm gunna be here. And you aren't alone❤️. Find your inner peace. I'll be here for the great things that are gunna happen in your life💕. Love you forever and always💞💞❣️❣️❤️
4151. pale paulina: I can relate to you
4152. Nicole P: As a mental health therapist...thank you for posting and helping to normalize mental health struggles 💚
4153. Esma Kangül: ever second video is something that sounds depressing. poor Josh.
4154. Julia Pritt: I'm really proud of you for sharing this with us, it takes a lot of bravery
4155. Mimi D: I feel the same way 100% ...when you let it out, it is a big weight lifted off of your shoulders. it is one of the hardest things in life but you can get through it. it's just a process Hun. we will get there!! 🌞 💙✝💙 Blessings
4156. taylor swift: it's okay to not be okay. your feelings are important and you should listen to them along with your heart. you have the right to be hurt, and you deserve to be happy.
4157. FreakOfNature: I'm so proud of you because you're speaking and being honest and healing starts with sharing and opening up and saying the things that are in your brain gives you power over them. Cry as much as you want, talk as much as you can, let us be there for you but don't rush anything. we're patient and you have all the time you need to find your happy again. I was at my worst when you were at your happiest and I felt just like this and sometimes I still do but I can't wait to see you find yourself again. Don't rush your emotions too, sadness isn't weak and you don't have to push it away immediately. I know you're still in there underneath everything and I love you always
4158. chukabucka: real helpful vid - tnx for sharing.
4159. Lexie Byron: It was two years ago and you need to move on because she with someone and is engaged and happy but also is having a baby
4160. L. Lee: It's ok not to be okay. Stay strong Josh !! ❤❤
4161. Halle Berry: I love you so much stay strong and hang in there. I know life's hard. I care about you so much. Please try to stay strong and its okay to break every once in a while. Its okay to have a hard time just know we love you and are here for you. I'm glad that you're getting the help you need. Please cry if you need to please its not okay to hold your emotions in.
4162. Camila Perdomo: Oooh Josh, it's not that easy to change what you really feel in your heart, you're the way you are, nobody is perfect, because if someone was perfect, i'll be boring don't you think so? Just be the way you really are because haters are going to hate but dingleberries are going to stay. I will always support you because if I was in your situation i would like to feel supported❤️ (sorry for the mistakes when I write, I'm from spain😅) BE NICE TO PEOPLE
4163. CAR LY: Carolyn Saner ❤️
4164. Maggie: I love you josh, I hope you start feeling more confident about yourself. I truly believe you can do it. I think about the day my sister and I met you in Portland everyday. I miss you and you're the nicest person I've literally ever met.
4165. Asaëlle Lévi Alvarès: U may not be Christian or have anything to do with religion which was invented by Humans but I just wanted to give u those verses that melt my heart and give me compfort as I could do the same with u : Philippians 4:7:"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Psalm 29:11:"The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace." I know what u're searching as I was depressed 1 year ago but I know now by experience that HE is the answer !!! 😄😄❤👍😊
4166. Aryanna Little: Jesus is the only way. He will heal you and bring you so much happiness
4167. Kay Zee: I could see you starting or contributing to an outreach program or volunteering for those in need. Regardless, God's got you 👊🏻! There's a reason for every season... you will come out of this stronger and will help others in the journey.
4168. Jenny Tran: I'm struggling through the same right now and just went through a similar situation in a breakup.. and it's honestly left me in a very dark place, feeling like I'm not worth anything and I never was. But I'm learning to heal everyday by believe that there are better plans in store for me and my life. I'm finding things that I truly love and aiming towards that. Most importantly, I'm cleaning out my life and getting rid of all the things that I don't need. And it's been making a difference. Don't force anything, life is constantly changing, and things and people come and go, but instead of letting that upset you, just take a deep breath and realize everything happens for a reason and most likely, for better things to come. I know it feels like nothing's getting better, but you just have to hope for the best. You're an incredibly strong person, and I know you're capable of healing and doing even more great things in this world than you already have. We believe in Josh, just stay as strong as you can and keep moving forward!❤
4169. Christine Abreo: i love you josh. I love you so much. I understand you so much.
4170. Helen: Your a lovely person josh , therapy might help , I have a depressed friend and it is hard but she is managing to become more happier , she spends time with her friends and when she has a problem she goes to her friends to talk about it and then she feels a bit better xx I hope ur ok josh, u know alot of people dont want anything to happen to u
4171. Jomy Jolly: It'll all be okay... Remember to give time, the time.. It might seem difficult now.. but you'll come out to be a much better and strong version of yourself.. and remember everything happens for a reason :)hope u feel better.. luv u
4172. Mina Vo: Everything happens for a reason, and in the end everything will be ok and if it's not ok it's not the end
4173. Jianro Fadul: Goodluck with your journey. 😊 my sisters have therapy for their problems and they helped them give life another chance. Thank you for always being there... And this now our time to help you. We love you Josh!!!~ ❤️❤️❤️
4174. Yes: Ana Done Thank you for saying that. You're right. It's not God's fault there is hate in the word, like what the heck. He gave us LIFE, it's not up to him how we live it.
4175. Nehir Kaya: We love and support you no matter what. And being honest with us is the best thing because youtube is a big part of your life and don't live it like a lie. We love you❤️We're here for you.
4176. theculbertsons1: Just turn to God. Maybe go to church. He loves you and wants His will in your life.
4177. Rachel Johnson: Josh, I don't know what this will mean to you or if you will even see it, but I can tell you with 100% certainty that God loves you and cares for you and He will bring you peace if you let Him. It will take time, but He has gotten me through everything I've dealt with in my life. I would for sure not be the same person I am today if I hadn't had my relationship with Him, and I may not even be alive. I know that Christians often get a bad rap in media but I want you to know that the people raging against the LGBTQ+ community, or immigrants, or people of other faith, etc. in the name of Christianity represent a VERY VERY VERY small group of RADICALS that use faith as an excuse to put themselves on a high horse and hurt others. Also, don't be scared off by the fact that you don't understand or may not agree with everything in Christianity. I still don't. But that doesn't make my faith or my relationship with God any less valuable or valid or real to me. God bless Josh. Praying for you. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. - 1 Peter 5:7
4178. juvi nich: Thank u boo I am in the same fase and it horrible when I do feel like it today I am depressed 😕
4179. Sara Rakovic: Josh, after the rain comes the rainbow... Please don't be so harsh to yourself The best is yet to come
4180. Morgan Brower: I know it's hard now, but it will get better. Therapy is a great thing. I also just want to let you know that you are never alone, no matter how alone you may feel. Things always get better. Jesus loves you so much and He will always be there for you. I hope you feel better soon.
4181. jocelyn: I hope you get better soon, Josh. I can't even imagine going through what you are to the extent that it is. I'm feeling all that you're feeling, and I hope there's good coming for both of us.
4182. Mollie VanLannen: Nothing is wrong with you it is ok to be sad my advice is to let god take over and let him take you down a road even it is hard it will get better and try to get to a church and make friends or go to the gym play music loud and never let the "other side" take control you can make your own decisions
4183. ann solis: so proud of you Josh!! you can do it. stay around ppl and be nice to you too!! love ya!!
4184. filledwithlumos: I had a really depressing time as well. I didn't know what to do with my life and myself anymore. But struggle, pain and sadness teach us so much. During the time I found Jesus. And with him everything makes sense. He has given me strenght, courage and peace. He said that everyones life will not be easy. But God is love and love is God. And love is the most powerfull thing. And it will always be. God wants to help everyone. Nothing is impossible with him. He loves you. I will pray that he is going to lead you through your life. God bless you.
4185. Kristin Foy: honestly thank you for this video. I've been doing this for about 6 months and I don't talk about it for the same reason you didn't. You talking about opening up to someone really is making me want to push to feel the same. Thank you, so much.
4186. Lida Najafzadeh: I wish that i had somebody that loved me so much that i was sure that he would never leave me alone . Like u loved her.
4187. Lilali MH: I'm sorry you still feel sad. Read the bible, it always helps me. It is incredible how much you can hurt someone when you give up on your marriage. Don't give up Josh!!! jw.org
4188. Mark Chitwood: Hey josh I know what you are going through. I'm a person who fights with depression every single day and I feel shame of it and I don't talk to people about it. I can honestly say I don't know when was the last time I was happy.I could tell in your videos that you were depressed and today's video just made me connect with you more and I'm happy you are doing something about it. I wish you all the best and happiness in the world
4189. Jessica LaRue: Love you dear!! I know it can't be easy but you are so strong and so smart to get help. I am incredibly proud of you. If you ever want to explore NH let me know! 😘
4190. Lindsay Carter: It sucks to have to say it's "brave" to talk about your emotions and mental health "out loud", but that's the kind of world we live in right now. And that was brave. And GOOD on you!
4191. Alida Bergakker: such a great guy.... hope you get over her soon because you deserve so much more !
4192. Alicia G: <3
4193. Maddy Piper: I fell in love. Then he left me and I got treated like crap. I'm 14 but it still hurts. A lot. Affects me everyday but we are all trying to feel okay. < 3
4194. Jennifer Hammersmith: Did you know Shadow went potty at 2:46.😜💩
4195. Mandy Coral: Stay strong, Josh. You will get through this. I wish I could give you a big hug.
4196. Hannah Carter: I've found peace in Jesus, I hope you will too.
4197. sharkluvah694: You are in my prayers and I wish nothing but the best for you. Keep being you. You are not alone, God bless sweetie.
4198. R R: Josh,everything will be okay
4199. Beth3any Thompson: Jesus is your Joy!! He is the best therapist and counselor!! NO JOKE!! Try it out, he won't fail you. Jesus loves you.
4200. SuperJackie35: I want to tell the Joshua in this video to hold on just a little bit. Happiness is right around the corner I swear! My daughter is going through what you were experiencing in thismoment in your life and I just want her to know that happiness is just around the corner for her to!
4201. tara mccormick: I love how real you are being ! I wish you all the happiness in the world . You got this! ❤️
4202. Margi Gannon: i've never seen his videos, he's really hot
4203. Emily Robertson: Hearing you say this is breaking my heart and I am just so sorry. I have so so much to say and tell you and talk about, and all I want to do is say it is person. I can see so clearly that you're not alright and that you want to be. I have thought so so much about you, you have no idea how much I want to just hug you and never let go and just for you to have that peace even if it's for two seconds. I saw your draw my life video, and watching what happened to you after just a small breakup with her, it scares me so badly knowing the pain you're in. I WANT TO HELP YOU OH MUH GOODNESS. Pour yourself into this therapy and find some healing from it, those of us that are still here, are here for life. I LOVE YOU BUDDY 🎈
4204. 76Masooma: just 2 things id like to stress. one, just bc the other side may seem happy, dont believe it, some people are just better at hiding their pain. and i know misery loves company, but the sooner you get out of that mindset, the better it will be for you. 2nd, the WORST thing you can do is check in, follow, try and see what they are up to. Trust me, when you stop, which i know is hard and will take some self control, but when you stop and make that your norm, you will feel so much better. Time will heal. Sometimes it just takes longer than we might have thought.
4205. Meggy G808: glad you're talking with someone to get help. remember healing takes time, and we don't all heal at the same rate. i think the first step to healing is to want to be happy and better again... so i think you're on your way :)
4206. RayforRachel: Some people choose to ignore their problems instead of facing them... and you are facing them, and I am proud of you for doing that. And it is so important to show your audience these things so that people who are going through similar things know they are not alone. I have had multiple panic attacks on my streams, and yes it's embarrassing and something I don't want people to see.. but the amount of people who have said thank you for not hiding that cause now I know I am not alone has been incredible. Be real, be you, and be genuine always.
4207. Joshuette's Life: Josh just talk to someone your not alone with everything
4208. Sarah Gies: It's clear to see the warm, good person that you are and I feel quite sure that your friends would not consider it 'dumping' for you to be talking to them about how you're feeling. Therapy is an excellent idea, I've just been referred to counselling for years of issues myself so I'm trying to be open to the idea after a long time of trying to cope on my own... But whilst it's great to open up to a professional, it's a great addition but not a substitute for leaning on those who love you. They will want to help and be there for you, as you would have been for them in the past. Also, as far as things looking perfect on the flip side, please remember that people generally only show the positives (not everyone is brave enough to be as open and honest as you are) - odds are, things aren't nearly so wonderful as they look. I'll be here for you tomorrow, take care Josh!
4209. goodgirlxo: We all love you i bet!! xox
4210. Kate Bo: You are so loved by so many people you don't know!!!! Remember that always! Some people hold in their emotions better than others. Even though some aren't showing their sadness they ARE still hurting. You wear you heart on your sleeve and I do as well. It can be hard but anything you set your mind to, you can do! You got this josh!! Much love ❤️ ❤️
4211. teeheeunlimitd: WE LOVE YOU! Trust me when I say it will get better. It will! In the meantime, spend as much time around loved ones as possible. We are here for you too. Don't feel guilty about not making videos or whatever. We will always be here for you. ❤️❤️❤️
4212. izy ho: Josh - I dont usually comment, and I'm not even sure if you will read this, but man, I am CONFIDENT that you'll get through this difficult time and come out stronger and happier than you have ever been before. I find that it is the hardest times where a person grows the most.Of course it doesnt feel like it now, cause you are currently going through it, but when you have come out of it, it will be the greatest feeling :) It sucks, it hurts, but you will be okay. I'm happy you're talking to someone professional about it because they will give you a different perspective than your friends/ family, who I am sure means well. The thing is, people fail us. Not only people we don't know, but our friends and family, who we love so much (and that is why it hurts so much) Everything in our world is temporary, look around you - nothing lasts forever (friendships/ feelings/ life (we all die don't we?). What does last though, is God. He is the constant that will never change. He will never fail us, and even though you might just brush this off or think of this is a load of crap, God loves you so much and wants to have a relationship with you. God mends the broken, the emptiness and fills you will hope, joy and his promises. I promise you that there is nothing more fulfilling than accepting Jesus Christ in your life and finding out for yourself who He is. So if you have time, and you wanted to, just pray and ask him to reveal himself to you. even if you don't believe in him now, God says in Matthew7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Sending love to you :) You're doing just fine :)
4213. Miss Reyes: Hey don't give up because of one bad chapter in your life! Your story doesn't end here! Keep going. You are a wonderful man #staystrong 💞
4214. Kelley Frye: You know your dog is pooping in the background...
4215. Jacquie T: Love you Josh, everything will be okay
4216. Madison Day: it hurts me to see you hurt joshua.. i'm praying abundantly for you. All things are possible with God!!
4217. Sleekcartim .sleekcartim: I dont know you at all, just found myself here.... but you are me....you can get better you can, hopefully you have the motivation, make sure you do! Isolation is our "safe place" work hard to avoid it. you are NOT alone, theres countless depressed ppl out there! We wallow in our sadness, find others like us to feel better about it, try to understand why we are this way, try to solve the puzzle but the reality is we need to push each other to get therapy, investigate & share info about meds, even herbal stuff! even if you only suspect something is wrong (sometime we are in denial...).
4218. Ashlen Lee: don't be sad it's ok😀😁
4219. AmbientSpaceNoise: Ugh...just piss off with cringe inducing clickbait content. With all due respect, you fucking suck, sir.
4220. Holly Nicole!: It's ok to not be ok. And we love your videos but your health and wellbeing is more important. Take time for yourself and your true fans will understand!
4221. Whitney Bousman: love you. love you. love you.
4222. Starr Lee: love you! hang in there! !!!
4223. shopgirlfaith: may God Bless you hun , 58 year old grandma of 5 girls
4224. LollyKatsss: WE ALL LOVE YOU! Remember this, God is by your side, and he loves everyone, even if you don't happen to believe He's real or not. He stands by your side, through the tough times, the easy times, and throughout your entire life. Remember we are all here and love you no matter what! <3
4225. Carmella D: You're a beautiful person/ soul , Josh. Good luck to you. I wish you all the best. It takes a real human to admit they need help. I've been there I know. You'll get where I am now. Time heals everything 🙏🏼🤗
4226. MajesticMarisa: You can get through this you are strong enough you're brave enough you will get through this sending my love 💜
4227. ilovesmoky01: i'm praying for you 💗 you can get through this, but remember it's okay to not be okay
4228. RhiaLC18: Crazy_ Person thank you 😊 x
4229. Rosanne Rowse: It's a free country & if you can't understand it... THEN READ HARDER or go get reading lessons. IT'S CALLED ENGLISH DUDE, not "Gibberish" & HONESTLY if you had ANY DECENCY as to what I was saying then you'd understand. I am a Christian, BUT GOD DOESN'T TREAT HIS CHILDREN LIKE ROYALTY (how some people would think) OUR Lord is a HARD CORE GOD who challenges us in our own life. Again like ONE PERSON SAID (God does not force man to choose the paths of Evil) MAN FORCES MAN to do that, along with the help of God's ARCH RIVAL, SATAN. (& again it's a free country I POSTED HERE ORIGINALLY to tell this youtuber he's NOT ALONE) & AGAIN... I have a #Challenge for you, because it's HARD AS FUCK to type FAST ON A KINDLE HD FIRE 8 TABLET!!!!!! so how about you try it for one FUCKING DAY &see how many typos you miss????? (A touchscreen keyboard is a SHIT GO IN TOUCHIER then a Laptop or desktop keyboard. Goodbye!! & good day!!! 👍👍😎 SIR!!
4230. SARA BOUNAJI: i thought he was going to say im gay
4231. Ashley D.: Totally relating 💔. I wasn't married, but it was a break up and I'm still trying to physically pick myself up... Medication is my absolute LAST resort. YouTube is the best therapy so far..
4232. Co Lo: Video every day or not, I'm in your corner! I don't know you personally, but you're a good human. We need more of people like you. Just know people are in your corner and are rooting for you!!!!!
4233. Oliver Stein: you will be happier that you aren't right for each other. just remember you can be the best lover in the world but they aren't obligated to love you and that is okay
4234. Megan Moore: ❤️❤️
4235. Bella LeForce: I feel for you so much, Josh. I hope you start to feel that happiness you are looking for in your life again. You have helped me through some hard times. I remember waiting everyday for your vlogs because they made me feel so happy. You have helped through a lot. I have been watching you for a long time and you are such an inspiring person. I don't have any advice to give but, here is this great website and it has given me a purpose in life. JW.ORG
4236. OSpagatO: Sending you love, hope and sunshine.
4237. Enzo Lorenzo: A governor here in my country went to Oxford college when she was 62 so anything is possible. She passed away though and she was great.
4238. Soleille Bolduc: Im sorry joshy :(
4239. Juli: You can be proud of yourself. Getting yourself help and talking about you feelings on the internet is huge, you are so brave. Don't forget that it is okay not to be okay. I'm sure you'll come out of that hole, just take your time. ♥
4240. ArtJourneyUK: You gotta get out of your head Josh. Ruminating is not good for your mental health. You need to focus on the good in your life, even if it feels like there isn't much good at the moment. Document the small things you are grateful for. Get a morning routine, exercise, practice gratitude, aim for 10% happier (that's a great book to read too). Life is short, focus on the good, don't dwell on the bad xx
4241. Isabella Calicura: omg jaush u r soooo amazing everything will work out god has a path for u and it will all work out
4242. P Howard: Everything is still so fresh. There was a major, major change in so many parts of your life and that's such a hard thing to handle. Nothing is wrong with you. You're a great man and you're going through some tough 💩. It's ok to still feel crappy. It's ok to flip flop back and forth. Admitting that you needed help was a big step and actually getting that help is another one. Kudos to you for that! We love you during both your good and bad days!!! 💜
4243. Gina: he has a huge sadness in his eyes..
4244. Tammy Dee: Hugs Josh! I do know how you feel. You have to put on a smile even when you still feel broken inside. It'll get better, I promise!
4245. Sara T: I'm so sorry Joshua be strong you can do this
4246. Jackson Ward: You can find happiness in the lord
4247. Stephanie Grace: I love you and I'm here for you❤️
4248. Dustin Roggenbuck: Good to hear your voice and see you're doing better...with friends like Maddy, Julien, along with the whole youtube community and all the dingleberries out here, know it may be hard but we all are pulling for you but you got this..looking forward to seeing you blow deuces 'morrow
4249. Jess Cox: Finding help is one of the biggest steps one can take. You're absolutely correct, one day at a time. It's going to be groundbreaking, overwhelming, highs and lows, and you are going to learn so much about yourself. There's never an instant fix, but you will get through this. I may be only here as a subscriber, but I'm here for you! You can do this! *cheering*
4250. Panida Chunramuntry: I've gotten divorced at the age of 23. After that, I felt so low. I couldn't face my friends and family with it. It was embarrassing and it was a horrible feeling...I ate so much to where I gained up to 40lbs more than I usually weighed. I became an alcoholic. I was being so stupid for all the wrong reasons. It took me 2+ years to move on and find happiness again. With all the love and support from everyone I know. Now, I have 3 beautiful children & a wonderful partner to be my husband in December. It's hard to move on from a big hit, but you will get through it. You will find someone who will love you and find you so wonderful. You will get back into the groove. I hope you find it soon!!!!! Keep your head up high Josh! xxxxx
4251. Matt Wood: Who was he in a relationship with?
4252. Kim Real: Josh you making this video will help millions. My divorce was final 8 months ago and I'm still getting help for my depression. Seeing this video made me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you for continuing your journey with us and for keeping it real.
4253. Avery Larson: Stay strong Josh!! 💗
4254. kim humeida: you don't have to apologize. everyone handles loss differently. Happy you'll be posting again. you'll get there, take your time.
4255. Cara Picone: I was about to yell "WHY ARE YOU SO ASHAMED OF BEING DEPRESSED?!?!" But then I listened, and I can completely empathize. If I ever talk about what's wrong in my head, I never want to do it for very long, because I don't want to be the person who brings everyone down. I have made the decision at times to just stay away from people when I am feeling my worst. Depression and anxiety are not attractive, and yeah....maybe some people will say "If you don't get a grip I can't have you around." But you don't need them, and I don't think anyone in your life who is essential is like that. You have NO OBLIGATION to put your personal journey on the internet, but you have an obligation to yourself to do what you need to do. If this brings you joy, hell yeah, do it! I'm sure many people, including myself, would benefit from seeing a real-world story of how someone handles these very real struggles. But it is not an obligation. If you need to do your healing behind the scenes while posting a video once a week, or less, do that! I don't know you and I don't know if my thoughts are very organized, but that's what I got.
4256. PTX JUNKIE: Thank you for being 100% honest with all of us Josh. I appreciate you to the fullest and I am glad you are getting help. You are so brave.
4257. Jordan Whitson: I understand some of what you have and are going through. I went through severe depression from the age of 10 to 17 and I am now almost completely cured. I was severely depressed, had social anxiety, bulimia, and anorexia. My life almost ended because of how bad my mental state was. The ONLY reason I am still here and for once happy in my life is because of God. God cured me and He is still working on me! I give all the glory to Him and I am still amazed every single day with what He does in my life. I feel that I was healed by Him because I took a giant leap of faith. I was on over ten medications just trying to find which one would help my depression and social anxiety. None of them would help me and the only other option was to go to a mental facility. I did not want to go there at all, so, I lied and told my doctor that the medicine was working. After about three months on this medicine, I(I was early, early in my faith) heard God speak to me and tell me to throw it out. I do not encourage anyone to just quit a potentially lethal medicine out and quit cold turkey, but only listen to what GOD tells you to do. I listened to Him and threw the medicine out knowing that I could be sent to the hospital or even die. God worked amazingly in my life and I am cured of depression(except for the mild situational depression that everyone has), anorexia, and bulimia. He is still working with me and my social anxiety, but we will get there!I encourage anyone that is depressed or does not know God to come to Him! God bless you all and have an amazing day!<3
4258. Basic Stuff: I thought this was going to be a coming out video
4259. Kristen Teglovic: Realness is what YouTube is missing! I get so sick of the fake crap most creators put out. Thanks for keeping it real, praying for you!
4260. Alice May: Joshua, I have been where you are. Not as bad as you, for sure, but I have also asked myself "what is wrong with me?". I think that's a question we all ask ourselves when the love, kindness and loyalty we give is not reciprocated by our recipients. Someone is out there just looking for you, I promise, and when they find you they will ask themselves: "where have you been my entire life?" I read this once "The best feeling in the world is being with someone who wants you as much as you want them". You will find true happiness and love when you find the person who wants you just as badly as you want them. You are truly an incredible person, honest, and your family is wonderful. I feel like I know you because I have been a fan for so long. Some people just don't have as big of a heart as you do, and unfortunately, her heart was not as big as yours because who could possibly function normally after such a heartbreaking time. And after 7 days at that. Please do yourself a HUGE favor and remember you are enough, you are wonderful and have so much love to give. There is NOTHING wrong with you, because I promise, when you find that person... your life partner, she will give to you, she will make sacrifices for you, she will always think of you, her eyes and focus will be on you just as much as she's focusing on herself. Not glancing over at you once in a while as she's doing her own thing. You're such a great man, don't let a broken heart stop you from finding your queen. Sending so much love your way.
4261. Devyn Marie: I love you josh! You got this. Stay strong
4262. Aubrey O'Quinn: Praying for you Josh!!!
4263. Yarlín Herrera: Serena Heckford Wao, your story is amazing, i loved it and im glad that everything turned out very well..I hope your family keeps growing, best wishes for you❤
4264. Sara Smith: Love you Josh ❤
4265. mymx5az: I was diagnosed as having severe depression 4 years ago. I've been seeing a psychologist every week for all of those 4 years. I also see a psychiatrist every 3 month. You don't need to apologize. My family and my friends know that I have depression and they don't treat me any differently. You can't internalize your depression because it will only become worse, I'm sure you know this is true. You took a very large step in this video by sharing a not so pleasant part of you with us. Finding the cause of your depression will be another large step. Please continue sharing your thoughts with us. I personally know how you're feeling because I've been where you are. I hope you're feeling better soon.
4266. Elsa Loves: 💜
4267. JeanGoode: *sending you good healing vibes*
4268. Keeton Alden: You have the most BEAUTIFUL eyes!!! I know what you're going through Josh. I went through the worst break up of my life a month ago and I am still broken from it. My heart hurts physically. It is extremely difficult from me to think clearly. Waking up is the hardest part of the day because I am forced to face my reality, which is a reality that I didn't choose for myself. I've learned that it is totally okay to be vulnerable and to lean on those that care about you most. They will hold you up like they've help me up when I couldn't do it for myself. Praying has helped me, if nothing else but to go through all of my thoughts/feelings and to assess them. I am rooting for you and so are all of your 1.4 million other subscribers. As well as the people that are really close to you. You're going to make it, I promise.
4269. rf: its really hard im 17 and I have been through so much and I feel like when im 3 steps forward i get sent back 10 and it's nice to here your point of view so thanks for sharing😂
4270. Madeline Erickson: X X please do not put other people down just to make someone else feel better. None of us completely know either of their lifes. Please just be kind.
4271. the anna show 101: kate giorgio me too
4272. Katrina Bardwell: I love you and your videos josh
4273. Zara Guley: I love that this channel is a true depiction of your journey. The good and the bad. I used to look forward to your videos every day (and still love them) and I look forward to seeing you thrive through this adversity. I watched a video the other day about what would happen if people treated physical illness/injuries the way some people treat mental illness. If I'm going to be honest I think the stigma around mental health shows that humans haven't really come as far as we think. Life can get shit everyone knows that... there is a big difference between a hard time and depression. The world needs to talk about it. Your voice reaches so many people so I think stuff it! Make videos on your good days and make them on your bad and let's hope that your voice can start to change the way people view mental illness! Big love to you for breaking the stigma and here's to your (mental) health! Xoxo
4274. What should I put here: Wild & Free They can't even process the thought that people have different emotions
4275. Sarah Trop: i love you, im proud of you. :)
4276. Kelsie Is my name: Stay strong, everyone has their ups and downs. Let your feelings out if people judge you for it, it will make you realise who care about you enough. The people who love and care about you will understand no matter what. You dont need to hide in the dark alone because WE WILL UNDERSTAND. Sadness is inside of all of us we have something in our minds that reflects our sadness. You shouldnt be afraid to show it. We dont mind a sad video once in a while it shows your human side, the sensitive side. You're not just a youtube 'celebrity' you are a person you have feelings. Remember everyone changes. You are amazing never forget that.
4277. Bonnie Gates: Appreciate the honesty of this video = thinking about you and hoping for better days - I know they'll get there. Be who you are and what you are ... take care of you.
4278. Jesenia Rangel: My life has been hard for the past year I've been going crazy because for the first time my parents divorced my father had left but after he left he went to prison now every time I try to speak of him I can't because it just brings memories the good the fun memories I had with him I miss him so so much it's been 2 years since I've seen him having him there for 15 years then suddenly he's gone that hits you hard
4279. Emily Ward: Please never ask yourself what's wrong with you just because you're the only one in this situation not afraid to be real and raw. You don't live in a fantasy world. And sometimes, being the one who actually faces problems is the most painful in the moment. But there is an infinite amount of happiness out there for you somewhere...this is just a stepping stone ❤
4280. Anna Rose: Josh you are a CATCH. You need to be around people who truly love and appreciate you. Your type is rare these days and you deserve to be appreciated and respected. My heart hurts for you. You deserve the absolute best!!!
4281. Jane Doe: Lance The Pants huh?
4282. Crystal Boven: Joshua , it's good that your opening up about your feelings I was always told to not keep my feelings bottled up so I'm giving you that advice ! I too suffered from depression many years ago & it was a hard battle but by the Grace of God he took that away from me & now I'm better & loving life & loving myself took awhile but it was well worth it just know that a lot of us care deeply about you & are here for you to lean on I've battled so much in my life that I'm a strong 💪🏼 survivor so just know I'm in your corner I know what your going through cause I have been there myself I will continue to pray for you let God take the reigns hang onto him & he will get you through anything in life he is always there he will never leave you , many blessings to you Joshua my heart ❤️ walks with you through this difficult time
4283. Ava Warkentin!: Waterworks right here 😭😭😭😭
4284. Jessica Wilkerson: Josh you are amazing!! Healing takes time and it's hard! Know that we are praying for you and sending you love and support!
4285. TheInkified: Remember, we all try to show only the best parts of our lives and ourselves. The other side may be crying themselves to sleep at night as well. I'm sure you're missed as much as you're missing. I know I'm not the only one that appreciates your honesty. It might take a while, but it will get better. And the people that matter will make this journey with you.
4286. Girasol: Josh, I hope you read this comment... I just want to say that there is NOTHING wrong with you. It is OK to be sad, it is OK to be depressed, you are human, and us humans experience emotions, each in a unique way. Please don't think that everything is good and great on "that other world"... sometimes people are doing good, and other times people are just good at faking. I'm not saying she's fake, I just think that everyone has a way of coping, and that is her's. I really hope that you improve with the therapist, it was the correct decision. You have my unwavering support and the support of thousands more that love you just as much as I do. 💖 Stay strong, nothing lasts forever, not even pain.
4287. Cynthia Espinosa: I think being honest with yourself and with your feelings is such an amazing first step. I have been there before. I was with the love of my life and then he ended up breaking my heart, long story short. But I was realizing that everything had been so toxic with him and I turned to God, I'm not saying everyone has to turn to religion nor am I saying that anyone has to believe in what I believe. But being honest with myself and what I was feeling, God, and my family really helped me through such tough times. I really believe you'll get through this, you have an amazing support system! :)
4288. Cheryl Smith: Josh, I wish I could be there to give you a hug. What you are going through is so real and I will keep you in my prayers. I don't know if your therapist has suggested this or not but finding a support group of people who have gone through the same thing you went through can be healing. When I found out I couldn't have children I found a group of women going through the same thing and I have found some good friendships in that group. We help each other when any of us find ourselves having a bad day and we help each other through Mother's Day since we all struggle with that day. I know being childless is different than going through a divorce but there is grief in both circumstances and the pain is real. You are loved by your fans, Josh. Take care and know that we are here to listen and don't feel bad if you vlog when you are having a rough time. It just shows you are real and honest about your feelings. Hang in there. (hug)
4289. Shaz Brown: Also. M8y! 💖Pop ur head out of the Internet "window" and get some real world "air"/perspective on urself if u can,m8y? M8. u r soooo hard on urself😢! Understandably so. u probably have pple critiquing the smallest nuances in ur stories/vlogs/songs? Id h8 that! God! That voice of critique must ring loud in ur ears wen ur feeling low about urself anyway? How hard to have some1 always there ready to critique u even wen it's good?ffs! I just want 2 B the voice of real world reason and say:M8! give urself a bludy break! ur doing really well!ur a gr8 vlogger!ur a talented dude! ur a gifted communicator. please allow urself to articulate urself however need to right now? 💖Be reassured that u r very articulate! and for ffs, if u repeat urself a lil bit? That's ok! ur processing and venting! who thinks in straight, logical lines that are film worthy anyway? it's cool that u let ur feelings lead sometimes! and we all know feelings sometimes come out "hicculdy picculdy"! but as that goes...u r making loads of sense! if u can buddy? I'd luv 2 c u take some pressure off urself.👍👍👍 we think ur gr8.👍👍👍 it's amazing that ur on the road to healing!💃 this vlog was brave! 👌👌I'm sorry for u it seems like everyone else is OK.😢 just be aware that pple deal differently, but allow urself to feel like things r unfair if they feel like that. then u can work thru it. 👍ur gr8 buddy. I'm sure u hear this all day long?....but I'm struggling ing my own depression Monstors too! its cool to hear I'm not alone.👍 keep on reaching out. totally healthy process. 👍👍👍 Be nice to urself,u!!!💕
4290. Kim Calland: So proud of you for verbalizing all of this. That is the hardest part! Getting this part over is sometimes the hardest. Much love. <3
4291. soapqueen2008: Surround yourself with lots of love and support
4292. Karen Alfaro: We love you Josh stay strong 😊 I have depression and I completely understand what you're going through so please stay strong because there's so many people that care about you ❤️❤️
4293. Allison Dow: we will always be here to support you. keep your head up josh. it's okay not to be okay.
4294. Ivanna Perez: i love you josh!!! you are strong and all of us dingleberries are here for you ❤️
4295. Unicornlover45: Your making me cry Josh!!!
4296. Pineapple Skies: OMG I HAVE DOG NAMED SHADOW AND HE LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE YOUR DOG JUST A BIT SMALLER
4297. Carrie Sky: Yes Josh. Finally. Be you. 💙
4298. Rachel Fonseca: so much love for you joshua. you're helping yourself, putting yourself first, and listening to yourself. that is SO important! you are such a strong example for so many people, especially me. thank you for your honesty. thank you for helping yourself. thank you for taking care of your health. we love you so much.
4299. will evans: Not an avid watcher of yours but this was a difficult video - keep strong!♥️
4300. Audree Elizabeth: Love you! Sending good vibes your way babe xx
4301. Andisiwe Barnabas: Shannon Shaw sometimes it's hard to go to church.😢
4302. Jamie Williford: I'm gunna keep you all in my prayers.
4303. bridgeettee: HILARIOUS!
4304. Mae Diva: If you really love her, then why not try to talk to her? Doesn't mean you are alreadu divorced, doesn't mean you can't be back together anymore? It seems you weren't happy for the past days, months. And it doesn't mean she is happy in the internet, doesn't mean that really is what she feels. It's better to be open to the person you REALLY need. Of course we're one of them :)) but I hope not only us...
4305. mslisalorge: Love you, Josh! I appreciate your honesty so, so much. Looking forward to more videos!
4306. silverbracelet6: Hi, I'm trying to work on myself more and the one thing I am having the hardest time with is cutting back on sugar/caffeine and getting more physical activity, do you have any suggestions on what worked for you?
4307. Sim S: It still amazes me that they split...they seemed so in love. Not gonna lie I 100% feel more sorry for Josh. He was was around her family and focuses on her majority of the time they were together. He's so strong.
4308. Bonnie Lo: I know its hard and it is totally ok to be sad and down. As long as you want to share, i am here to listen. We love you. We always do. And here is an advice for you, make more music!! You have no idea how much i like your voice<3
4309. MalikaMains: go through your emotions, you need to go through to heal.
4310. Sarah King: I really hope you can try not to feel pressured to be happy or "not be a downer"...I know a lot of your fans are teens who may not have the emotional maturity yet to be comfortable when someone is sad/depressed/etc., but I hope you can brush off any comments about you being a "downer" and focus on the comments about how awesome it is to watch you be real and vulnerable. To be honest, I usually skip your challenge videos but I love watching the videos where you're being your authentic self. It's so refreshing and what the world needs more of is people who are honest with themselves and others! So thanks for the realness. ❤️ Good luck in your journey bro.
4311. Michelle Wolfer: Oh hunny, I'd give anything to have a man like you stand by my side. That other "side" of the coin made the biggest mistake in my humble opinion. One day a woman will come along worthy of your love, that treats you with the same amount of, if not more love and dedication, and the TIME you deserve. I could only pray and hope that woman would be me one day lol. My heart breaks for you, knowing how you feel. One last thing, you ARE worthy and good enough to have someone respect and love you, without putting you last. xoxo
4312. Claire D: That makes sense! :) Thanks for the explanation!
4313. pritika sweetie: I just wish there's something I can do to help you out . I can see how much your hurting and it's just so sad . I really hope you can be happy again soon.
4314. Gi Gi: You are where you are. Stick to reality. Personally all I'll ever want from you is your honesty. I care deeply for you as if you were my own blood. I'm going to pray for you. If you can let go of your bitterness against whatever you were taught about Christ as a child, look to Him. Find someone to talk to you about God who reads their bible, is wholeheartedly faithful to what is in it, and is constant in prayer. Don't be afraid or angry of what you don't understand. I was thinking exactly what you were regarding the "other side." As for your family/friends, they'd love to share your pain. I think it can sometimes be even more painful for them when you don't share. You posting this video has been healing to me because of your honesty. I can now pray for you in a deeper way because I know how to pray for you. I love you loads! 💖 I hope your therapy is an incredibly healing process. Don't rush anything.
4315. ahoymydarling: This is gonna be a great start to a new life. You're doing all the right things to move forward. Just keep going and don't stop. Nobody is supposed to be happy all the time. Just keep moving forward.
4316. Whitney TheExPat: My heart just breaks watching this, especially when you admit that watching the other side that seems so perfect and happy makes you feel sad and left out, but then you feel bad that you feel that way. And to see you still hurting and the tears in your eyes... I just hope you'll be happy soon. <3
4317. Joy Loewen: Kesha Nation wow how'd you know that's exactly what will happen to our bodies? too bad it'll be left behind while my soul will be rejoicing with my saviour<3
4318. JessieYasmín -: agreed!!!!!!
4319. Shannon Penix: Josh U are in a mourning process. we all mourn differently, meaning some people take longer to overcome things. Just remember everything in our lives happens for a reason. Just have faith in Gods plan. U will get thru this.
4320. fafa Eipuriru: Awww... darling :( firstly very sorry to hear that you have been not ok and dealing with a lot of depression. Don't be too hard on yourself dear. Take things in small steps. I've been EXACTLY where you are today two years ago. And yes YouTube help me get out of it. But time to time things upset me still. I know is really easy to tell some one to move on forget the past and be happy again. But as you grow older and so many people who cares and things surrounding you, you feeling the pressure. Darling I hope you feel better, we are all here for you even tho we are just strangers on from behind the internet. BIG HUGS & KISSES
4321. KTdesign: I am so proud of you for speaking out about this Josh. I just completed my first year of college, I went into a hole of anxiety and depression. I didn't make any friends at all. I still havent and when I say I have no one, I mean I have no social life, I have 0 friends at college now, I don't even have acquaintances. I tried getting a therapist for over a year, nothing worked they told me to take anti depressants and basically told me to shut up and get on drugs. I completely died in that moment, my mom didn't give up and months later I got a therapist I see every two weeks, shes helping me out of my anxiety and my depression is lessening. She's also a friend I can communicate with it just feels nice to talk to someone irl again.
4322. Abdelkader Medjadji: Haylie 59 lol it's her fault she's a hoe
4323. Sarah Elizabeth: I love you so much. I don't understand everything you're going through since I'm so young but I do understand depression. I've absolutely been there. To the point where I didn't want to be here, and I tried not to be here. But I'm so so much better now and I'm so thankful for everything I went through, cause it taught me soooo much. The same will be for you, YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS. You're so strong, even if you don't feel it. Everything happens for a reason and this is all happening for a reason. You will come out to be the person you were born to be. It's tough as heck going through this, but you just have to go a day at a time. Again, I love you so much, and I'll keep you in my thoughts.
4324. Jasmine T: I want to hug you so bad, Joshua. I know what you're going through and my heart goes out to you, I wish could sit down with you and let you know you're not alone. Especially the whole "other side of the coin" thing. It just plain SUCKS, and I would never wish it on anyone after going through it. I'm so so glad you're in therapy now, taking care of your heart and mental health is so vital to living the full life we all look for. Please know that this journey will be difficult, like you said, but also likely a longer one than you want it to be. Those of us rooting for you are all at the end of the tunnel, cheering you on. And please know there will still be setbacks and "relapses" and it will be frustrating as fuck, but I believe you can do it. Always keep fighting- for health, for happiness, for life, for laughter, for love, for what you believe in, for YOU. There's nothing wrong with you or your feelings in any of this. You suffered a devastating and monumental loss, you're more than entitled to your grief - that is healthy more than anything to be so open and acknowledging of your feelings. It takes courage and heart to be so honest and to feel so deeply. A therapist can just help you to navigate it all when the waters get too rough and you can't see land or sky. Sending you so much love, always.
4325. peanuts: I always liked you but sometimes felt like you tried too hard. And it was probably because you thought you had to be so upbeat and happy. I feel for you, and I understand everything that you're saying. I hope to see you feeling better soon!
4326. katie gurba: I want to give him a big hard hug right now I love him so much ❤❤❤❤
4327. Samantha Schucker: This is one of the most honest things I've heard in a while. And I appreciate that. It's good to be honest but it's also okay to keep things to yourself until you're ready to share. You've always been there for us and we will do the same❤❤❤❤❤ Love you Josh
4328. Nicole: All I can say is that I feel you so deeply. I've been clinically depressed for 7 years now. I literally have like lost all my friends but a few and I don't even hangout with them, I just text them a little bit. I take handful of pills (anti depressants and anxiety meds) and nothing works for me. I've tried EVERY pharmaceutical drug. I even went as far as to take a $5,000 genetic test to test for which medicines work best for my metabolism. I've been in long stays in hospitals on 3 separate occasions. It's so crazy. I can't seem to get better. I'm almost 26 and I can't remember the happy, wild, carefree girl that I was in high school and as a child. I literally can't remember my real personality. I feel like I'm wasting my life...I'm wasting away. So all of this was just to say, I fucking feel you. We all struggle. But just know that I feel you.
4329. MrMarkymark005: Hmm? Why would anybody be thinking or hoping that this would be a "Josh coming out video?" Come out of what? The closet? He's repeatedly made it clear that he's not gay. He's clearly still in love with his ex WIFE. It's strange how we see a handsome & talented guy & so want him to be on our "team," so to speak. 😂😂😂 Sorry to dash anyone's daydreams but I think Josh is mature enough to be fully secure & aware of who & what he is, especially as he's made it quite clear on multiple occasions. 😐 Glad you're getting help Josh & glad you're being honest & authentic with us, it's refreshing.
4330. Charlotte George: 💛
4331. Tara Fox: This really got me emotional. Josh nothing is wrong with you. I can really understand this to the core. I lost a love myself and ever since he ended it, my life hasn't been the same and I was so depressed. I've finally got over him this year after years of feeling this way. Meeting you in New York last year was one of the best things of last year for me. You are STILL shinning Josh. You STILL have that amazing light. It is still a dream of mine to one day sing a song with you. I'm glad you're being open with us and getting help. You can do this Josh. You are so strong and very inspiring :) Don't give up Josh and try to keep that handsome head of yours up! 💕💖
4332. Valerie Corpus: You got this!
4333. Amazing Anesu: Your Amazing!
4334. kate giorgio: when his voice broke, i broke ):
4335. JoshThe FordFan: Even though I'm only 14 I used to be in that position but once I found your channel and Roman Atwood's that has inspired me. :) I used to be kinda suicidal but I thought of my family and it made me happy. :) Life is great though. :)
4336. Erin Elyse: Love you so much!
4337. iinfinitydolans: Josh you're amazing. My thoughts and best wishes are with you 💗 I really feel like you are one of the most genuine youtubers out there and I just wanted you to know that I appreciate that so much! Love you!
4338. rebeccajns: One step at a time... Josh, if I could give a tiny piece of advice. Well, idk if it's advice, lol. But I've been in your shoes. One of the *BIGGEST* things I *had* to do was stop looking into the other persons life. Meaning their socials, fb, pics, etc... Yea it SUCKS but it also hurts seeing sum1 u loved so much post their day to day life. Especially if they act like nothing ever happened. Which personally in my opinion speaks volumes!! Yuck! Fake! No tea no shade. It's just a constant reminder that your no longer with this person. Drudges up way to many damn memories. And IT WILL keep your emotions in a whirlwind. Which u obviously DON'T need! And your right, looking into that other persons window that gives off that glimpse of "nothings wrong, happy go lucky" that shit stings! Makes u questions EVERYTHING!!... I'm 36yrs old, divorced & never dreamed it would happen to me... But, I want u to kno, I'm proud of u for taking that baby step! U GOT THIS 💪😘 AND. U WILL. FIND HAPPINESS AGAIN, AND WOW. WHAT A LUCKY LADY SHE WILL BE!!!!!
4339. Stephanie TM: It's a consistent internal battle that Deserves Healing on its own pace. It's okay, to feel how you feel -- it's actually okay to question the "what's wrong with me" decently sometimes; but rather, What Is Right with You? Continue to surround yourself with support. Continue to be the Real you; don't apologize for feeling how you feel or even about hiding sometimes (we all express different & that's fine). Much love & support on your page momentarily, lol, it does get better when one Wants to feel Better (you are going to kick literal depression's ass). Stay hydrated by the way, lol, and let the rest do its works.
4340. Tia Lipovsek: " find it for the moment and then is gone" how I'm feeling..for the past 8 months... hope you pull through soon , if u don't talk about it you don't deal with it.. stay strong Josh. Everything will be okay!
4341. Madison G: Praying for you and sending so much love your way ❤️
4342. Gregory Monsue: I feel like I should add on, sorry. I grew up with a very conservative family from when I would cry or my eyes got watery from a beating my dad would give me a warning letting me know I shouldn't cry because that's not what men do and when I just couldn't take the pressure anymore I cried and he would just beat me some more and leave me alone. Maybe that's why he is such a dick that ruins his own life and other lives, huh? Real men cry. Real men feel.
4343. Dom Anderson: Rob B ❤
4344. Clara Di Ciero: Be strong josh❤️ we're with you
4345. Rebecca Hayes: josh your doing good job keep ur head up
4346. sebastard429: Based on your last comment, it sounds like you didn't
4347. Sahara: Josh we are always here for you!!!
4348. Charlotte Labot: You are doing so well! It is so great that you are understanding how you are feeling and how you want to change it. GO JOSH!! WE LOVE YOU STAY STRONG 💕💕💕
4349. Meg17: What happened?
4350. Sara V.: Hey Josh we all love you! you have helped so many of us(including me) feel better and okay, so obviously we want to do the same fot you! and its okay to not feel okay, nobody feels perfectly fine all the time, just take it one day at a time and always look at the bright side!!!🌞🌞🌞 LOVE YOU JOSH!!💙💙💙
4351. Sarah Reeser: your channel is you. if at the moment it is dark and depressing when you finally come out of this depression, which you will, you'll look back on this. you'll see your own evolution. and if in the future you go through something else that puts you into a moment of depression, you can have proof that things will change and things will get better. we are all here for you. we want what is best for you. we understand. and we love you.
4352. Tess Singer: Please feel better Josh
4353. Cassandra Burch: I'd rather watch your sad, depressing real truthful videos which are articulate, have meaning and depth than watch someone who is shallow and false and full of this fake happiness. By documenting your journey you are helping others. Stay strong, happy or sad, we are here!
4354. Reed Finkleton: 440hz is not an ideal frequency. I looked all into it. We're so highly invested in it. Its the standard. No doubt the genius known as Mozart wasn't playing in 440 I would think he would be a little disturbed by it if he heard his music being played in that. 440 is not even a 100 years old and music is 1000s. I think other tunings like 432 is ideal and more wholesome. We're not designed for this dumb down culture. People being worshiped like gods. You will always fall because we are gods. In unity, love and peace.
4355. kcallamajaji: Oh Josh, I'm so glad you are getting help. You sound like you need it. From a lot of the things I hear you saying, it's the depression talking. Please please please keep with it. Depression lies to you. It gets in your head and tells you things that are not true. You are loved. You can keep fighting. And you can work to get better.
4356. Ava X: Everyone is here for you x
4357. the Jordan show: I'm here for you through everything depression sucks your an amazing person we're all here for you
4358. Daisy Singh: Some of the people have such nice things to say! It fills my ❤️ and I see both sides of the coin and I can understand how it might feel but yeah I don't wanna ramble cuz a lot of other people have already said it...
4359. amaaanster: Your feelings are 100% valid. You are very brave for sharing this in a world where people try to hide the tough stuff from others.
4360. Sara: It's ok and normal to be sad, Joshua. You'll get better, and we'll all be here to watch it with you 💛
4361. The Tide Family: Praying for you, Josh. I hope this dark cloud passes soon ❤️
4362. miss 305dale: i cant believe how he must be feeling. i cant even what that other side of the coin myself without feeling like it's unfair how everything seems to be perfect like what they had never happened. ive stopped watching it a long time ago , it just seems super fake and selfish. so imagine being directly into it. nothing is wrong with you. you are a human with emotions who has been heartbroken in such a harsh way. it is absolutely normal to feel that way, this is exactly how someone in your situation would feel. id be the same, we'd all be the same in your situation. it will take time but your heart will heal but give it time. you need to stop thinking something is wrong with you though. you have a right to be sad, you have a right to take it hard, you have a right to be angry, because it is incredibly hard. you'll get through it. NOTHING is wrong with you .
4363. Andrea Vera: Honestly I don't think it's a stretch to say "the other side" is drowning herself in work. I mean she accidentally ripped her eyebrows off with her own hand in a vlog!! She's not okay. Absolutely we don't know her, but it's painfully obvious she overworks herself in order to not have to time to deal with what's really going on (whatever that may be). She tours constantly at the same time that she's writing her show and at the same time she's making a video every day for her channel. That's an unhealthy workaholic. Power to her, she's absolutely building her career. But at what expense? Perhaps she was dealing with things before her relationship with Josh. Or maybe the habits developed during it. Either way, I hope Josh can see that it's probably all exaggerated in pics and videos. I don't really watch her anymore. I couldn't deal with "LOL I'm so stressed I ripped my eyebrows out but what else can I put on my plate because I'm just going to ignore this clear sign of instability and laugh it off". Hope she gives herself time to build a relationship in the future, everybody deserves it.
4364. Lydia cerny: we're here for you. your a great guy.nice,sweet, funny and u deserve to be happy❤️
4365. Annie Lover: i LOVE you
4366. flyhigh22: i know what dealing with depression dealing with negative thoughts dealing with saying what is wrong with me and others seem good or fine i just want it to all go away and be happy for once feeling like this is a pattern sometimes you feel good and happy then something so minor happens and it can change everything than your stuck and it sad seeing others going through what im dealing with
4367. Amanda Cotrich: this brakes my heart...I hate to see him suffering. it will get better. there's no where else to look but up.
4368. JayBird: Thankyou for sharing the fact that youre not ok. it's normal and it needs to be normalised. You are taking brave steps and we love you.
4369. Nadine Marcus: Let's be real! She got excited with the filming of her show and the future possibilities and wanted to be single. I'm not subbed to neither of them but I have seen videos here and there and it's very funny how her feelings changed during and after filming her show. She pulled a selfish move but also it would have been bad if she stayed with him but made him miserable because she was miserable. It was a lose - lose situation. Keep your head up bud. You will get through this. Heartbreak is temporary.
4370. Faizal Hergy Veiga: Everybody have its ups and downs. No problem in being sad for a certain time ;) I would love to have more people like you in my family :( I believe you are going to be good soon ;)
4371. Kathy Gause: I know you like music. You should listen to Mandisa's new album. Knowing when to get help shows great strength of character. Give yourself time and permission to grieve. Keep the right kind of friends in your life. Exercise also helps. P.S. The other side is an illusion of false idols which I feel will eventually crash.
4372. I: I think it's time to take a step back from YouTube. It's becoming a toxic place.
4373. kristen broderick: Praying for you.
4374. !!!!!????: Elizabeth Palala LOL
4375. lani mag: I'm in tears watching this, because I honestly see myself when I watch him. Everything he says is just a reflection of me and it sad that so many people have to feel this pain. I'm glad he is talking to a therapist, I am too which is good, I still suffer but I've seen a major improvement in my wellbeing so far compared to what it was. I hope the same goes for Josh and anyone reading this.
4376. Manju Kannan: Codependency issues maybe ? Codependent relationship ...
4377. Katelyn Thames: I really am sorry for you and what has happened to you. I know I'm just another face in the crowd, but I want you to know I understand the depressing thoughts and the down times. Life is hard. Good for you for getting help - hopefully it will help you through this.
4378. Judy K.: Josh, do you need a hug? I need a hug, too. I can only give virtual hugs so here you go: *hugs* 💕 Everyone! Come on, bring it in! 💙
4379. Jane Michelle: Also, this will be HARD but ultimately make room for healing: I'd suggest not watching or looking at or checking ANYTHING about the ex online for a long time. Until it doesn't ache. It's never a full/accurate picture & seeing them sucks us straight into that feeling of "back then" or "what if" or "why"-nothing constructive or helpful to you. I know it's hard. Lord I know. Not checking creates distance & space from the trauma of a breakup & time for you to heal. Social media has made the breakup process harder or longer cuz we don't get that time away to literally forget the immediate pain, do other things, think about other things, & get over it enough to feel ok when we finally do run into that ex. Like a wound, looking is like reopening a wound. I'm not saying don't think about it ever. But lots if social media checking is living in it if that makes sense. Just my experience though. <3
4380. Caroline S: It's totally okay to not always have your smiley front on everyday. You always seem to be so ... happy ... on the outside but it's easy to tell that you are hurting a lot. You've gone through some pretty stressful times, so you don't need to compare yourself to others who you feel are going through "more" stresses in life. Your problems mean just as much to you in your life. Sometimes you need to speak to someone who will see your situation from outside the box, and they'll make you see that too. Hopefully therapy will point you in the right direction and you'll look back at this situation like it was a distant memory. Stay strong dingleberry! 😆
4381. Aleena Elizabeth: Nothings wrong with you Josh...what’s right with you is that you are being you and you do that and someday you will find you on the in and out❤️we all love you and support all of your choices❤️❤️❤️
4382. Sorceressofstars: Ditto! I'm guilty of never commenting but I have been threw it the only way I get threw stuff is because of my dog! People have ruff patches but change is temporary and empowering if you let it.
4383. Kayla Couvillion: 4:21 almost got me 😭
4384. XxMira_mira: hi
4385. na.london.: Stay strong josh, we love you 💖
4386. Jane Tatum: It's probably partly b/c she mourned pretty much, and when she was already doing that, then she requested a divorce. And then your mourning just started. And a divorce or break-up can feel like a death of a loved one. It's a loss. It's okay to feel sad! Much Love❤
4387. Sophia Perez: This video is so refreshing. Thank you for your honesty. Therapy is amazing. I've been in dialectical behavioral therapy for over a year now and am close to graduating. If you have a chance to do DBT, I highly recommend it because it has changed my life. You are never alone. We love you.
4388. Elise Van Hoecke: I'm so so so so so glad you finally decided to look for help :) You can get through this, it will take more time, but you will! We are still here for you and we're waiting as long as it takes for you to make great content again, just like the Josh we subscribed to way back !
4389. aj2674: Do some mushrooms dude. Brain reset.
4390. Amanda Charles: <3
4391. Segman1234: Josh you break my heart, but you're going to pull through. You will find the woman of your dreams where you both will become one and have an awesome family. Therapy is good. Enjoy it and life. We love you!
4392. Chloe Crotts: I always wish there was something I can do to help you, Josh. I know we live on opposite sides of the country and there's really no way we can talk, but I just want you to know that I won't stop watching because life happens and I want you to know that I'm praying for you. I appreciate your honesty, too. I hope you have a really good day. :)
4393. Meggy G808: There's nothing wrong with you josh... i think many of your viewers have never been in a relationship like yours, so naturally they won't see why its okay to feel the way you're feeling. i know i would probably be hurting still if i were in your situation. some of us take longer to heal than others. we're all different.
4394. Erica Unger: I will pray for you Josh! God can help you in times like this. He is always there for you and I just hope you know that!
4395. Regina George: Ashiikinzz Jesus doesn't exist
4396. angela stalvey: The first step of fixing something is acknowledging the problem, finding a solution is facing it head on. I use to shut people out when I face obstacles in life, but figured out it is easier to get through with people I love around me. Not everyone can use the same solution.
4397. Chad VanHook: Josh, whatever it means to you, coming from a stranger on the Internet, I'm here for you. I understand where you are, and I'm hoping for amazing things to come your way.
4398. Davina Danian: hang in there. from someone older, this will not last forever!!!!! <3
4399. Lily Shorrock: I'm so proud to love someone who is so willing to get better and strive for more in life. Thank you for being absolutely authentic and not using your camera as a front but rather using it as a tool. The internet is so powerful and it's people like you who help others see it can get better, somehow, sometime. Thank you so much for being strong and being real at the same time. It's a balance so many people never seem to grasp in their life time. So I applaud and say thank you.
4400. FIFI'S LIFESTYLE: josh we will support you no matter what we love you and there is nothing wrong with you or anyone
4401. Lily E: I love that you are open and willing to talk about depression and being in a dark place. I went through depression, and there wasn't even a big devestating thing that happened, it was just out of nowhere. Depression hits hard, and you dont want to be depressed, but you still have to deal with it. It isn't something to be ashamed about, although it totally makes you feel like a bad friend, because you're not acting like yourself. It will get better, just know that. You just have to wait it out sometimes. ❤ Just focus on being happy, do what makes you happy, don't try to push it down, trust me.
4402. Fashion Diva Living in a Walmart World: Hey, can someone summarize for me? I don't want to watch 10 minutes of this stupid ###. Thanks!
4403. Eva_G: Personally, I appreciate real content much more than endless videos about boobs, cupcakes, tampons, shameless attempts to get views like "naked Twister with my sister" I mean....how shallow and fake can you get? Love you Josh.
4404. Karissa: Josh we are here for you no matter what. If we weren't we wouldn't be here
4405. JKL: JOSH - Everyone goes thru ruts... Everyone has bad days... Everyone experiences heartaches... What you have is a whole crap-ton of people who care about YOU. I've been thru some big stuff.. After a successful career traveling the world, I became disabled. I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, degenerative disc disease, and several other medical stuff. I got divorced, I had to leave my job because of my health..I became poor... I'm in constant pain... It can all so easily go down the shitter so quickly. The ONLY advice that has worked for me, to keep me out of the poor me corner are these 2 things. 1. Someone always has it worse. On my bad days when it hurts to breathe I visit the web page of a little boy who's skin is literally falling off - his bandages have to be changed throughout the day. THAT is bad! 2. Helping someone else gets you out of your own head AND helps someone in need. I'm still in pain, I'm still dirt poor, I'm still disabled but I can make it. I have children that count on me and family/friends that understand. And I have you. You are fantastic. Other things to help you could be... Do a segment on fitness every week - go with Rebecca... Do a cooking thing - your giant biscuit vid was funny. You WILL make it thru and you will be fulfilled again. It will just take time. Oh.. And you could marry me. Yes.. Lose yourself in work and marry me... Hugs from Minnesota
4406. Leah Moran: TheDegu Guru If your religion is as true as you say then how come we learn science and fact in schools and not anything about Christianity?
4407. Aphmau 2: *hugs* josh it's ok we are still here for you. We love you and always will.💓💓
4408. Ashley Veloz: Hey Josh, I would recommend this book called "Unmasking Male Depression" written by Archibald D. Hart. This is a fantastic book and has helped my loved one understand first what is going on in his mind and heart. After reading this he told me he felt that through understanding, it gets a little easier to cope/work through this thoughts and feelings.
4409. Emily Williams: Hey Josh! Thank you for making this video! For being so real and raw! All I see is potential for an extreme comeback!! Fr just trust God and give Jesus your heart and watch all the joy and peace flow in! The only difference is it'll be permanent!! That doesn't mean no bad days, it just mean you have all access to everlasting peace and joy to get through it! Love you dude! Keep striving! BNTP
4410. Alex Houser: You are so strong to put this out there, there are so many people struggling that are just afraid to talk about it, including myself!! Please try to be as positive as you can, you have a beautiful life ahead of you <3
4411. Brittany Embry: no offense but that walk was like awkward but not awkward it's like you put this title and things so we were walking to that bench with a weight on our shoulders and when you sat down the weight was like ahhhhh gone
4412. Veronica Landaverde: Nothing is wrong with you. Please know that that feeling the way you do isn't wrong, it's real and it's honest. You are feeling sadness because you are experiencing grief and loss. Time and therapy and unconditional love from others will help you explore all of the ins and outs of your experiences that brought you to this point. Change and relief won't happen over night, you will feel more pain, you will shed more tears, but coming out on the other side with more perspective and more tools to manage these feelings will be worth it. I have been in therapy for over a year now and I am just now getting to thick of the therapeutic work and understanding what brought me to therapy in the first place. I work in mental health and over the past 7 years of being in the field I'm finally seeing the power of planting seeds and watching them grow, not just for my clients, but for myself as well. I wish you the best of luck on this personal journey of yours. Stick with it. Thank you for being another person on this platform who for allowing others to see you this way.
4413. G. H: We are here for you Josh!!!!!!
4414. L. A: Nothing is wrong with you
4415. Catherine O' Donnell: Oh josh big hug xx
4416. Grace Tietze: Josh, I have been a rather silent viewer the past few months but I want you to know that I find you to be a remarkable man or character. My heart breaks for you. I know what it feels like to watch someone you once called your world completely abandon you and from the outside, their new world looks pretty good. I was in an abusive relationship for almost two years. The most painful part wasn't the abuse inside the relationship but the pain and the shame I dealt with after as I realized the effect he had on my life. But I promise you one thing. You can try and fix the pain on your own, you can fill the void that has been left with things this world offers and you will never come back truly satisfied. It was in the moments of my greatest pain that I found my greatest joy. I don't know about what you believe but I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe that He died for the sins of the world that we may no longer be bound to our sin but that if we accept Him as Lord and Savior, we will have eternal life. In those moments where I felt utterly broken, I sought Him through the Bible, His word. 1 Peter 5:7 says that we can cast our cares upon Him because He cares for us❤️ Psalm 34:18 says He draws near to the broken-hearted. He loves you dearly Josh. I may not know the very same pain you are facing, but I know the God who loves you. I am praying for you. It isn't easy, God never promised it to be easy, but He did say that to His children (those who have accepted Christ as Savior) He will never leave nor forsake them, Joshua 1:9
4417. Katherine rich: I'm sorry your going through what your going through.. I'm praying for you everyday. I love you so much ❤❤
4418. Carl Owens: hang hang yourself
4419. Emma McAlpine: We're here for you Josh❤️
4420. Moshe Telles: its perfectly alright to be depressed. you will bounce back, you just need time. people don't heal right away. sometimes it may take a few years. Just continue working on yourself and if you need someone to talk to, you got friends and family who love you. just focus on the positives of life. Take it a day at a time. Take care and if you ever want to talk im here for you. Seriously, you can rant and talk my ear off.
4421. Melissa Dube: Depression is real. I've had it since I was little and it's not fun. Don't give up Josh. You're a wonderful human being and you deserve so much happiness and love. 💜
4422. David Eliazar: Milking the cow I see, I wonder if her last vlog video had anything to do with this ?? 🤔🤔
4423. Richard Bulmerrr: hott juicy cute men like u gets over 5 a dayy in bed u look age 23 u have angel loveing bule eyes ever been to maine hun
4424. ZombieSlayer ProGamer: Josh this is a old vid but i have depression and u make me happy ur the funniest guys in the world....and i was gonna kill my self but i found u.....u made me happy......thank u.....really thank u......
4425. Allthingsbeauty: going to church has always helped me in dark times I don't know if your religious but its definitely a thought to consider
4426. Tatty00 bear: josh u always hide it very well u r always realy exited and happy and by the way I love u
4427. TheDottyLife: 💗💗💗💗💗
4428. Joe pwrsurge: Welcome to the club Bro-bro! (Edit: adding -> ) I'm really glad that you're seeing a professional about this shit. It's sooo overwhelming.
4429. Audrey W.: I've never really had a way with words so I love you and I'm sorry
4430. Bryan vlogs: I know almost exactly how you feel I'm going through the same thing myself
4431. Valeria Ramirez: God is waiting on you Josh, don't harden your heart
4432. Nana K: I love you all the time too, Josh. You are a strong man because you know and admit your feelings when weak people don't try to see themselves inside deeply. I am..well, WE are always with you and won't let your hands go. I love you, thank you for being so amazing. Love from Japan
4433. Teresa Francesca: I really appreciate your frankness here. I hope you really have taken to heart that so many of us have had similar emotional struggles, and that that fact might (weirdly) offer some comfort. Because it does make me feel less alone to hear someone, to hear you, talk very frankly about the crappy emotional loops we get into (like apologizing for not being happy, like comparing our reality to the image of a world we would have wanted to be a part of). This stuff is flucking hard, man. We're rooting for you, though. Take care of yourself.
4434. Huckle Penny: ❤️ Josh
4435. Red Lincoln: Zeinab Ibrahim true omg your so helpful 😢😃💜
4436. Kelsey Cayer: Thinking of you! It'll get better. Promise. God has a plan for you.
4437. TheFairyann1: Please go buy some lithium oritate it'll take you out of this! Take B6, and 5-HTP ... I've been there and this is all the natural cure for that. Please try it.
4438. McKenzie Sigurdson: You are such an amazing guy - sending you a hug
4439. emweeriot: Ps, depression doesn't discriminate against age, sex, race, wealth, success. You can't blame yourself or feel guilty for having sad thoughts when there are other people who are seemingly having a worse time than you. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT! 💘💘
4440. JEM: best buds
4441. Beezie's Everything: Ur videos make me so happy! i love all of your videos weather or not they are serious. Love your videos with Rebecca Zamolo and Jojo Siwa, you should do more with them!
4442. Sav: Keep your head up josh <3 We love you so much!
4443. Merwin Leonor: please ignore my miss spellings, to early here in Sweden to be awake😜
4444. Michelle Wolfer: You guys took this way too far, I wasn't hating. I have the right to state my opinion and I even said in the post "in my humble opinion" quit hating and start loving.
4445. Indigo Detry: Alexandra Pagan to both of them
4446. Ivory Hull: Nothing's wrong with you it's normal and sometimes people aren't happy when the camera is off. She is in pain to. She just doesn't express it.
4447. Colleen Babin/dance: Yay for daily josh videos. This makes me excited.
4448. Avery Moreland: It's alright to be upset. I find that if none of us had hard times in life, we'd never learn anything. We're all here for you, Josh
4449. Jingjie Zhou: If you don't feel well, please find a psychological counselor and share your deepest feelings with him/her. I promise it will help. Talking to views is helpful but it still won't solve any problems. You need professional help from professional people. Bad things will pass only if you decide to truly take actions to cure the depression. Everyone has been in bad mood, keeping it on is not a positive choice for you. We support you and please be better.
4450. Наталка xx: Just take some dick. You'll understand and you wont feel lost anymore.
4451. LotteMollie: Don't worry about it. People go through bumps in their life and just imagine your existence as a road, and you have just hit a speedbump. You will come out stronger and better once you get through it. "What doesn't kill you makes your stronger"
4452. Laney Pfister: Kiki Johnson they probably did it as a friendly gesture and she most likely believes that it will actually help someone like it helped her. You don't have to get offended by it
4453. californiajcp: I'm so glad to see that you're taking to steps to get better and to fix the problem without handling it a dangerous way. I'm praying for you and I hope that you find happiness day by day.
4454. 1in1000000: It's courageous to make daily videos when you're depressed. And I agree that it's a good idea. But if you need to take a break, that's OK, too.
4455. NiceGirlTalkin82: i know how you feel. I've been in your situation before, and it suck big time. But i got help for it, and now I'm a lot more happy with my life You can get through this. We are all here for you and have your back.
4456. Ebony Jhanur: I wish all the best for you
4457. Abbie Thompson: You are the most living kindest bloak going there is nothing wrong with you ! Xx she was stupid for letting you go ! Even though I love you both equily ❤️👼🏼
4458. Dite A.: josh i know exactly how that feels especially when you talked about the other side of the coin and how perfect the world looks and you just cant fit in it anymore because of depression... i dont know if this helps you but therapy and family really helped me to get back up to my feet. it doesnt matter where you start but just know that you need to start somewhere - anywhere. good luck <3
4459. alyssajohnson: I love YOU so much.
4460. !!!!!????: you are so strong and i commend you so much for this video.
4461. Carley's Place: hang in there josh. you got this...
4462. Sarah Elliott: Do not let others bring you down. At some point, you need to eliminate all the negativity. If you read a message or comment that doesn’t bring positivity, don’t give it a second thought. Don’t go any further than the first line or sentence. You are strong, you are great, you will surpass these times. Please take time for you, and be the best you can be. 🙏🏼
4463. A B: They love each other, why can't they be together?
4464. Michele O: It took a lot of courage to put this out there. I commend you. Removing the stigma around depression is so important and when people like you share with honesty and vulnerability, it helps others know that they are not alone, and it is nothing to be ashamed of. You take good care, Josh. A piece of your heart will always be broken, but with time it won't hurt as much and you will find happiness again. Wishing you strength, peace, and comfort on your journey.
4465. kezzieuk251: Never say sorry or feel guilty for not being ok. There is nothing wrong with you, you had your heart broken and that is tough. You are an amazing person and you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. You deserve to be happy and you will be again. I'm routing for you Josh and take care of you xxx
4466. Catherine Chen: Everyone has been through something like this in their lives whether it's relationships, friendships, etc. Depression is not something that will heal in a week, a month. Pain is pain. I'm not in your shoes, so I wouldn't understand the kind of pain that you're having but the power of social media does not determine whether or not she is complete or broken on the inside. Does your faith in this situation determine reality? It happened, it's not a dream. It's painful and it's a distraction to your everyday life. However, fear is a disability that will paralyze you more than anything. I'm not someone who knows everything, but I know what pain is because I had that feeling that kills me not only mentally, emotionally, or spiritually before. It's something so much more than that. My way of avoiding problems is to listen to speeches. I don't know if this will help you in any way, but I have been watching Nick Vujicic's speech videos for two months now and I never thought it would help me to believe in hope. At first, I thought it was just going to be a waste of time and no matter what other people say, I just thought nothing will ever help me anymore. But I took time off all social medias except to listen to Nick's speech on YouTube for months and it changed a part of me that I will forever be grateful for. If you ever happen to read my comment Josh, I wish you nothing but a fresh new start and move on from all the nightmares that has been happening since that day. It hurts now, and it may continue to hurt but you still have to get through everyday and that all depends on what kind of mindset or how your attitude reacts to something. Your mindset is what's destroying you. This is all just my opinion but no matter what, I believe you will get through this. It's time to forgive yourself, and others. Love yourself like we love you. Best of luck.♥️♥️
4467. Anna N: Tyus Sheppard I agree with A Shady Cat that Jesus loves you no matter what choices you make. He ate dinners with tax collectors which were people hated in his time! But also... where exactly in the Bible does it say that you will go to hell for being gay, I'm curious?
4468. JoshuaDTV: Hersfeld Sammy I was seeing a therapist before everything happened. When it blew up in my face and I was left with no choice... well I was angry and shocked....and sadly decided to not go back for a long long time. I was so tired of feeling like I always had to fix myself for anything to work in my life. It just became too much. Glad I'm going back now.
4469. Ariana Klein: Its ok to be sad, everybody gets sad or depressed at a point its ok but if you believe you can do it then DO IT
4470. Elyse: I love you sooooo much
4471. Kelly Long: God bless you, Joshua. I've dealt with depression and anxiety for many years. It's something I've had to live with and you're right, it consumes you. I'll be praying for you, brother, and I ask the same.
4472. allison ranceypants: you deserve the world Josh❤️
4473. tamarasagt: gosh, there are so many things i want to tell you that i've learned from my therapy. but i'm just so happy you sought help and are obviously ready to kick ass.
4474. faegrrrl: 1st. Pray. 2nd. Understand that this is a grieving process. 3. Never give up. Never give in. Love you Josh. God will provide. Keep your eyes on Him. ♥♥
4475. Makena: I've dealt with depression before and I know how hard it is. Take care of yourself first & hope you're doing well 🌻
4476. jake real: Hi Josh I just stumbled upon your video and am sorry that your down and all. Not 100 % sure of the reasons as I don't follow your channel, but as I tell everyone including myself. It DOES get better! If its a break up, pick up the pieces and learn from it and move on. Your a handsome guy and are still very young so in time you will meet your soul mate. Life throws a lot of curve balls at us, but it makes us stronger. I too am suffering from depression (not clinical, or treated but I know myself). My "story" is that my mom whom I love dearly and was like a best friend to me is suffering from Dementia ! It started about 2-3 years after my dad passed away in 2006. It's been slowly getting worse. She DOES recognize me and my name and smiles when she sees me, but she often babbles on about things that don't make sense, and she is a shell of whom she once was. A vibrant, beautiful, intelligent woman who you could talk to about ANYTHING and she always seem to know about or have an answer to any problem. I'm 51, Moms 78 and while she;s in pretty good physical health the bulb is dimming each day! : ( So I just stay strong, try to look at all I have to be thankful for and happy for and find a purpose each day to go on! Hope you come to grips with your struggles and find happiness again! God Bless!
4477. Jax Gatewood: I would like to see you do more original music. I would watch that. You are so talented. Croon, Swoon, or acoustic. And I KNOW you can dance! I struggle with anxiety and sometimes panic attacks. You tube can be a great relief for me.
4478. JuneBugSmuggler: You are saying all the exact things I've been dealing with. I'm in the same boat as you. I just saw a new psychiatrist today. It's such a tough process. Wow. As I listen to you I relate sooooo much. Thank you for sharing . I suggest watching Peter Monns channel " my so called healthy life" he's really helped me.
4479. De Facto.: As someone who was terribly depressed. (Suicidal thoughts, isolated myself, and someone who cut). One thing u need to stop doing is checking in in her. I get that you feel like you need to but don't. One thing we the depressed do is come up with scenarios in our heads. I like both of you and at one point I thought I didn't like you. But, as someone who went through a deep deep depression I don't like seeing others in the same state I was and still am some days. Depression creeps in some days but I am stronger. Checking in on her you create ideas in your head. The truth is you will never know what she feels in her head. One thing that will help you get through depression is not worrying about other people. I learned that and have grown from where I was before.
4480. Katie Fountain: 🤔 You've got to do what you need to do! Therapy helps so many of us. I'm so proud of you for admitting to us that you needed an outlet. Hiding behind a smile gets old, trust me.. I know. The first step to a genuine smile again is letting it out to someone who knows how to challenge us. Good luck on your journey to finding yourself again!!
4481. Josie Aguilar: Josh, I absolutely adore you! You are so strong despite feeling otherwise. It's easy to shove your feelings aside and pretend to be happy. Keep your chin up and continue moving forward. Stop looking at the other side of the coin. What matters is YOU... how you're doing... how you're feeling and nothing else. Sending you lots of love, positivity, and prayers. <3
4482. Tarzan Nebby: 123channels22 yh
4483. leonie v: I feel/felt like this and I've learned from my therapist: - your tears are welcome and sometimes it's important to cry - and it gets better and sometimes it's okay not to be okay, but never gibe up on you!♡
4484. Skyler Durden: Nothing is wrong with you Josh, but I am going through something really similar.. I understand what you're going through in a portion (not completely)
4485. Kat Du Bois: we'll always be here for you josh❤️
4486. Larissa Barber: hug hug.
4487. DNJA: Hang in there Josh! Thank you for putting this video out to your followers and keeping everyone who cares about your well-being in the loop. You are definitely going through a really dark time and you have the right heart and the right mindset to make it through. We had the privilege to see you in January 2016, and your energy was AMAZING. You have a beautiful soul and your determination is very inspirational. Please ignore all the hate, and remember that there are THOUSANDS of people rooting for you! Take care and we hope to see you again one day!
4488. Koral Broomfield: Also want to touch one something he said about bouncing back and that it only seems to be small strides. But that's how it's gunna happen. You'd like to think that you push past it all and come out on the other side shiny and new. Unfortunately it's a very long process and you don't even realize how far you've gone until you're there. You'll realize that you haven't cried in however long and it will feel so bitter sweet. Please stay strong, you're soul is beautiful.
4489. Bridget Lana: Hey Josh!! Obviously I don't know *exactly* how you feel. But I've had similar feelings. Music is my outlet and I just wrote a song to help me feel better about the stresses of life. Maybe it could help you feel better when you are in a dark moment :) I just posted it on my channel last week.
4490. Nettles' Cats: 2:36 watch the dog in the background and listen to Joshua's words. It fits!
4491. Jackson Ward: It's gonna be okay you are not alone
4492. Allison Jenkins: Thank you for being real!!! You helped pull me out of the worst time in my life. I cried all the time. I never thought I was going to laugh and be myself again. Then I watched your vlogs and think the world of you!! So now, I am here for you! I support you 100%,! You will get through this storm in your life! I'm praying for you!! Love you like a brother!!
4493. taylor swift: i wish you the best with finding your happiness, and i love you so much, along with all of your subscribers, friends, and family. ❤
4494. sundragon1976: I'm glad you're doing counseling, on top of that it just takes TIME. That's such a generic answer, but it's true. :( no one can say the right thing to make it all go away even though they mean well and care. The only thing that helps is just taking care of you and taking things day by day. One day you will suddenly realize you don't feel quite as sad as the day before and each day will get better even though you will have down days still too. ❤️my thoughts are w you.
4495. iMaryum: Josh, you deserve all the happiness in the world! I can only suggest that you should go travelling to a different country or something. Sometimes discovering new cultures and meeting new people and listening to their stories will help you heal sooner. Hugs xx ❤❤❤❤
4496. Sage Crofts: About 6 months ago I lost a man who was basically my father, he was the one person in this world that understood me, and I have not been bouncing very high either, I just want you to know that we are with you. You have helped to bring me out of thoughts I should not be having and Your videos and your charisma and your vibes have saved me. They really have. It is okay not to be okay, and we will always have a connection with you. No matter what happens we will stick with you in good times and bad. Real is good and we love you. ❤️
4497. FuckMyLife XX: It's okay josh!! I've been through depression before!! And I'm only 13!! I hope you get better<3 you have lots of family and friends!! And ur fans that love u so much!! Even if u gained weight that doesn't mean anything!! You are a person, u should be able to express your feeling! And a therapist is a good thing to do! I've done it before and I'm still with my therapist sessions!! We love you josh!
4498. Claire Carter: So proud of you and your strength. Praying for you always.
4499. Carly Brook: ❤️
4500. Luuv Ciara: Wait so what are you depressed about ??
4501. mia mcintosh: Maliyaaa . Amen🙏🏽
4502. Spurs Spurs: I don't mean this to be judgemental, I hope i don't sound disrespectful but why didn't you get professional help earlier?
4503. waduppp critic: Well said josh ❤️
4504. Dani Attias: get distractions for yourself and try your best to be nice to people on twitter
4505. Haya kay: I think we all can relate and you sharing this makes it easier for you and us. Stay strong..
4506. Ruby Leslie: Kind of sounds how I felt after my last break up. Turned out things on other side where not perfect either. But it sure felt that way for a while!
4507. Kathy Matranza: I just came across your channel. You did the right thing regarding seeing a therapist. Depression is sooo difficult. As long as you seek help from your family, friends and professionals you will be alright. It may not some like it right now, but you will be alright.
4508. Olga Pea: Glitter Bug beautiful testimony. Amen! :)
4509. Kat Konz: I told me self I wouldn't cry when I saw the thumbnail, ya I failed that. I REALLY FEEL FOR YOU JOSH, YOU HAVE ALL OF MY LOVE AND PRAYERS.
4510. Cenzi Crain: Hey Josh. I love that you are going to open up. You can do it and you are strong.
4511. Sarina Morin: Time heals everything. I know how cliche it sounds, but it's so true. Take one day at a time, and I hope you understand that people can put on a face of happiness for social media. If I could give you advice, it would be to block her on everything. Not out of hatred, but because you need to love yourself enough to let go. Stop looking at her videos, at her social media, it's not helping you one bit! It's an addiction you will eventually realize hurts more then it helps. You are one of the most genuine youtubers I follow, and I admire how openly you speak about your struggles. Just know our situations are very similar at the moment. You are not alone, you are not the only one struggling, and you have so so much support. I support you! xoxoxoxo
4512. Elle Scord: rain drop drop top! can this comment get to the top top?
4513. • lol it’s Emma •: beep boop . Sounds like you need some of tyler joseph's advice. He's helped me. Love you joshua bro.
4514. It's me, Maddie G: \(^^)/ Hugs❤️ I really think it's so good that you're so open about this.
4515. Leeny01: Would love to meet you while you're in Philadelphia. Nothing dramatic. Just to give you a hug and tell you're going to be okay - because you are going to be okay, I promise!
4516. lauren dioszegi: joshua david, it's okay. we are all here for you and all love you very very much. it's okay to not be okay. it's okay to cry. it's okay to be sad. we will get through this together josh. i love you so so much❤️❤️
4517. Cadie Ammerman: Josh your awesome! Praying for you! ❤️
4518. ThePandalanda: New sub here. I'm sorry for all you are going through but I'm also glad you have decided to get up, get help and get better. It's a hard road ahead but don't give up. You will come out of this.
4519. II Jessie Bow II: Listen as someone who suffers from depression I think it's so amazingly good that you came out talking about how you feel and what's going on and if I was there right now with you I would give you the biggest hug. Also if you tell someone about this and they say everything gets better just know that there not wrong because is some situations it actually dose but it takes a lot of time to. (^_^) - Jessica
4520. Rachel Watson: Aw. I hope therapy works out for you. You will get through this. You're at the bottom of the mountain but you're starting to climb, and that's the most important thing. :)
4521. Embootsi: Tara Ha same 😁
4522. Heaven Leigh: ❤️❤️❤️
4523. Emma: pls we luv u
4524. Lydia King: Josh I really just want you to be happy - You really deserve it!!! Xx Take all the time you need! Xxx
4525. Anna Pena: Proud of you ❤️
4526. Allyson James: . It's always harder on the one who was left especially when that person loves deeply. I too felt like a failure because I couldn't shake off the despair or be "happy" the way my ex "seemed" to be. It killed me to see him move on so easily and there were times I didn't think I'd make it through the pain. But remember things aren't always what they seem. My husband also blindsided me with a divorce that I didn't want and it nearly destroyed me. I would have done anything to save my marriage because I loved him and I believed he loved me but in reality I had no clue who I'd been married to. I grieved the loss of my marriage and that took a long, long time but now 5 years later I'm finally starting to heal. Your going to make it Josh and until you do you have so many people that love and are pulling for you.
4527. JEM: stay strong Josh!! you've got this bless
4528. Jill Harris: Stay strong we love you and never forget u r not alone
4529. Maddie Romanoff: I am supporting Joshua but I feel that he is always making videos like this
4530. kleinerpanda_: Everyone shows their feelings different, don't compare yourself with others
4531. AmbientSpaceNoise: He knows vague bullshit titles will get him views, PewDiePie does the same crap and that's the only reason he has subs, in my opinion, PDP isn't funny. Anyway, this guy has TONS of clickbait titles to the right you see one that just says 'Heartbroken'...UGH, just fuck off with that garbage. He's a vague clickbait morally corrupt asshole. He's not the only one, look to the right and you'll see one from ColleenVlogs that says 'why I don't talk about it', in fact almost EVERY single YouTuber takes from PDP with the vague 'oooh, I wonder what he/she is talking about!' titles. God, those people are weaponized retardation. But hey...that's just my opinion :-)
4532. shorfan: Can really relate with what he said
4533. Le. Vit.: josh, maybe some of us, or most of us, don't understand really how you feel and how intensly hard your life right now is. And when we say it will be okay, then you 100% feel like it won't. But we promise it will josh. life has hard sides, but also amazing sides. but it won't show you any amazing sides, when you just focus on the hard stuff and how you said " just sit in the dark corner". So i want to say with that: Don't focus just on the sad stuff, also be happy. You have some amazing friends and family, which will always be on your side. I tried really hard, so i really hope these few words will describe what i want to say.❤❤
4534. Sanika: Okay, I completely understand what you feel right now, because I am going through the same thing...but, you know what josh, you are my inspiration.. each and every day, I think about how strong you are, and how you are still positive and still spread love around, I am so happy that you make me want to be a better and positive person. In a way you are helping me josh! Aaannnd, I love you! Forever and always.
4535. Olivia Cicarelli: love you josh sorry your in a bad place but I'm happy you found a way for you to express your emotions and heel.💖💖
4536. Monica Williams: You are incredible and deserve SO much happiness. You always put a smile on my face when I'm feeling down & I hope that all of us can do that for you. It's definitely normal for you to feel down after what you went through. We are all here for you. I hope you start feeling better and feel genuine happiness again soon! Love you, Josh!
4537. Nikkiluvsya: I love you Josh!!!!!!!!!! You are so much stronger than you may realize!!! Thank you for being honest and reaching out... To "us" and to a therapist. Not an easy thing!!! Especially since youve always tryed to be upbeat in past vlogs etc. But dont apologize because i promise you, this means soooo much more to everyone who cares tremendously about you! Your so amazing in so many ways. Youve got a HUGE heart Joshua!!! Real friends will be there for you through all of this to see you through to the other side and will understand when your not hanging out with them as much.. Its not them its that you feel you cant be around happiness when you feel low. And they just need to stick in there, because when it feels like your world has crashed down on you.. Sometimes even taking a shower or leaving the house seems like an impossible task!!! Hang in there Josh!! Time does heal wounds. Trust me!!! Not saying that the pain will 100% go away, but the pain wont hurt so bad the more time that goes by... And the only thing guarenteed in life is change! Which can be a really good thing sometimes. And down the line, you will look back at this and not feel the way u do right now. No matter what is going on with the "other" side. There is NO WAY she cant be sad too... She obviously was focused on the wrong things instead of trying to make it work, and its going to catch up with her at some point. It always does. Cant run from it. So keep seeing your therapist and im so happy your going to put a video out everyday! No matter what it is... We all just love to see and hear from you buddy. Your such an awesome guy and we all love you so much!!!!! Thank you for reaching out. We will ALWAYS be here for you no matter what!!!!!! Dont ever worry about that. I love you man. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo 😘❤
4538. potato: an actual person, you anime freak!
4539. Dante Dantec: I just want to give you a hug. Hang in there.
4540. Abby Fitchet: I cant believe I'm saying this. I had a major injury and caused many surgerys. almost 2 years ago this problem was so bad and no doctor would believe me when I said something was wrong. I was also dealing with alot of family problems and money issues. I got so depressed I completely stopped eating and was put in the hospital. within less than 2 months I went from 92 pounds to 70 pounds. luckily things are getting better. I'm seeing a therapist for anxiety that I recently developed. I had surgery and they found the problem in my knee that was causing so much pain (I also got to say " I TOLD YOU SO" to my doctors) still dealing with family and money issues but now I'm not as depressed. I never thought things would get better but now I'm becoming happy again. I hope my story helped at least 1 person. I would also recommend to watch the movie "the secret" it's on YouTube for free or its on Netflix. It's very inspiring and always makes me feel better. for everyone who is struggling, u can get through this and I promise it will soon get better ❤❤❤❤
4541. Mark R.: Hanna R yes, you are.
4542. Lydia Louise: You can pray all you want but that's not gonna change anything.
4543. HaleighBoBaleigh: I'm so sorry Josh. I know when you feel better you're going to be so happy and thriving in your life and career. It will come. Don't worry 😊
4544. M I K E: You should take a break from YouTube
4545. MIchael David: Joshua, you are changing it just by simply acknowledging yourself and then your empowering yourself by sharing this information. Blessings to you young one, I am sending you a blessing. M.
4546. Anna Catherine: 💖💖💖💖
4547. Abigail Gardner: I seriously just want to give you the biggest hug. 😢 I am very proud of you for knowing that you are not ok and reaching out for help in many ways. you are one of my favorite youtubers because of how real and honest you are. whether you are up or down myself and many others will be here for you. Remember josh its great to be nice to people...but remember most importantly to be nice to yourself. sending hugs ❤
4548. Miosotis Betancourt: Proud of you! Take those small steps towards healing! Admitting you need help is not a sign of weakness but strength! We love u!
4549. Mumu Oblivion: rbubblesz wow 😳 👏🏼😢
4550. Shalini Shah: Sending you positive energy. Do you believe in Yoga or mediation ?
4551. PinkiPockets: You're always reminding people to be kind to people.. But you need to be kind to yourself <3. Please don't feel you have to connect with the world, I mean if you want to then go for it. But honestly, don't feel you have to post regularly, or keep in touch with everyone.. I don't mean don't talk about your problems, and let your thoughts wonder. But if you don't feel like talking to others, then that's okay too.. Okay, like, hear me out here, I know this is a little weird, but maybe have talk to Shadow? Animals do not judge, and god when I have a bad day and and i'm crying or something, I just hug my Alice ( dog). She always somehow makes me laugh..Maybe even take hum/her out for a walk, listen to some music.. And sleep. Don't force yourself to be happy.. Don't force yourself do anything you don't want to do.. The only thing i'll say is, don't give up. You're gonna be okay. Life will get better.. Stay strong we love YOU
4552. Marjolein vA: You can do this ❤
4553. Tenely Helmuth: First
4554. Sofia San Roman: we love u, stay strong💛
4555. Mr. OshagHennesy: You know what? Its not okay to be okay... My little sister claimed she was okay. She even put it diwn on her instagram. "I'm okay now." A week later, she committed suicide. When people say "It's okay to be okay." It's bullshit. Really. It is. If we can all find our inner happiness, hold on to it. If you feel it slipping, grasp it and intertwine it within your soul. You found your happiness... Dont let it go. My sister SUFFERED mentally and physically. We told her over and over that we love her unconditionally. She was gay. And that never changed her. She had two eating disorders and I stepped to her side. I focused on her... And I believed she was happy. I believed her and now look where she is... In a metal ern...
4556. elisag27: I think it's because you didn't choose for this to happen. That's amazing that you are talking to someone. Just get it all out there and really really grieve that loss. And some day you will see that even though this isn't that path you chose, your life will be soooooooooo much better and fulfilling. Love and peace.
4557. Ameiroht Zakaria: please seek for the truth, that's the real happiness. if you don't believe the existing of the creator then ask the universe.
4558. Ashley H: Stay strong! 💪🏼🙂 don't let this affect your whole life keep doing you.
4559. comefondue: Be nice to yourself Josh. Let people help. You are loved.
4560. Kelly S: Its not embarrassing. Talking about it to a specialist is the first step, it really works. I made that step aswell one year ago and stopped working because i just couldn't hold up anymore for the outside. You will get through this with talking and thinking and finding the happiness again. I see alot of me in you and I just know that like me you will get through this. Your little doggy will try to make you smile and cry but thats oke. Depression is NOT a taboo. And btw: dont feel sorry, just like you i said that alot and just like you i realised it and said No I dont feel sorry. Im proud of you and I hope these words encourage you a bit.
4561. Megan coulter: Josh, I don't know if you'll ever even see this, but a few years ago I was in a somewhat similar place in my life. The guy I was engaged to broke up with me and I found out he had been cheating for a long time. I tried to push through it on my own, I didn't want to be "that person". Almost a year after I finally broke down. I had gained weight, pushed away everyone who loved me, and ended up dropping out of college because my mental health had gotten so bad. I too reached out to a therapist and therapy honestly saved my life. It didn't happen overnight by any means, it took time and work but it was so worth it. I truly hope therapy can help you also. I'll keep you in my thoughts. ❤️
4562. Mike Hall: Hey Josh, I've been where you are. There are days I still feel like that but they will lessen eventually. One thing I tried in order to keep myself fluid and from hermiting, I took 6 months and when an opportunity arose, I challenged myself to say YES to all of them. I met some incredible people, experienced new and different things, and eventually I started finding myself. The idea is to disconnect from the current life and try new things, expecting the unexpected. Hang in there, you will get through this, and let your therapist help. But always, always be honest with yourself and those around you. Sending the good vibes your way.
4563. snowsax: A strong man is one who is unafraid of showing emotions. 💗
4564. Fabiola Ortega: Josh just remember that we will all supply you no matter what
4565. Ashlea Mason: Good for you, Josh for being honest with yourself and trying to find some sort of regimen to keep yourself accountable. That is so mature and responsible of you. I admire you even more for making this video. We are here for you! Looking forward to seeing you progress through this journey. :)
4566. Ariana jr: Josh, I just want you to know that we all love you. You may not know all of us but we all know you and love you more than you could imagine. We are all giving you a hug from afar and just remember that there is so much love for you around the world......... you may call us your fans, but we are your FAMILY... please never forget that❤️
4567. Eo: It breaks my heart to see you like this. Josh, you still say I'm going to work harder. Should you? Maybe just let yourself do nothing if you want to, relax, don't push yourself. But you decide what's best for you, I can only guess.... ❤️❤️❤️❤️
4568. Micaiah Butler: Pray. Ask God for help. He loves everybody and wants to have a relationship with you. He can get you out of depression when nothing else will. Unlike some people in your life, He will always be there for you.
4569. Allie Lipshutz: ❤❤❤
4570. Sabrina: omg u have me crying too
4571. Kristyn Harvey: Take your rime and try to find what makes you happy again. And let me tell you, the other side of the coin is not happy. Dulling the pain by filling the day with nothing but work and never having a moment to oneself is not happy. Any time the flip side of the coin is by itself, it gets very, very sad. The coin has stated this before. Take your time, bud. We'll all be here, rooting for you.
4572. Autumn Page: its alright josh
4573. Ally Kat: Love you Josh! I'm hoping for everything to get better❤️
4574. Artartbaby: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
4575. Harry Krinkle: +carol paula She is not a heartless person, and that kind of talk needs to stop.
4576. Brandon's Origami tutorials: Hey hang in there I know it's hard but I know you can over come this we're all here to support you
4577. Crazy K Butler: I'm sending you a virtual hug, bud. I understand what you're going through. I may not know, but I understand. And don't be ashamed. We as humans are here to help each other and carry one another's burdens. So please, talk about what's on your mind to someone. It does wonders to open and be honest with people and yourself.
4578. Amy Pooley: I love you're work josh I appreciate every video you do <3 I would like to meet youcome to Australia because Australia loves you <3
4579. Linnea Peasley: Joshua, you are not alone. Many people have had those same feelings. You being able to share your emotions gives others with depressive feelings the courage to do the same. Keep going!
4580. Emma Cypes: Well the idea of God made me even more miserable so. Religion doesn't help everyone so you can't tell someone to believe in something that they don't actually believe in
4581. Jolene Rouse: we love you, Josh. it'll get better. when you're down, you can only go up. God doesn't give us anything we can't handle, it might seem hard but He has your back and is fighting for you. keep your chin up, keep fighting. try to find the silver lining and try to see why you're going through what you're going through. maybe you are here to vlog and help all of us realize we aren't alone in our sadness or depression. you're going to be okay! ♡
4582. Maria Imran: ZoopRanger your choice is to not believe in religion while the others with to believe in religion so please respect the other people's belief even if you yourself don't believe it please
4583. old account: breaks my heart to hear u like this....
4584. Rufaidah Thabet: I was waiting for this. no experience similar to this that ure going through is easy alone and you won't be able to go out of it alone. maybe temporarily but not for good. take care josh❤ hope these sessions help❤❤❤
4585. Emma92uk: love you Joshua! "if you're going through a tough time, keep going." - Winston Churchill.
4586. Scarlett Smith: "Im trying not to cry right now" Its ok, let it out Josh. ;_; YALL KNOW YOU WERE HUGGING YOUR SCREENS PEOPLE! "What's wrong with me" ABSOLUTELY NOTHING JOSH THERE IS NOTHING WRONG YOU AND WE'RE GONNA MAKE YOU HAPPY WHO'S WITH ME?!?!?!??!?
4587. Suranda Anyinefa: Joy Foster AMEN🙏
4588. emily moran: i love you josh. i'm so sorry that you have to go through this. stay strong! 💓
4589. Terry Coleman: Josh you did the first step which was see a therapist it will help you do much they can give you the tools you need tfs peace and love 🎶💜
4590. katrina glenn: I'm 23 and my parents divorce when I was ten I seen death when I was ten. And I saw it again when I was 16 my best friend died of cancer and I had walked down a dark path. I moved on from it after awhile. Then A few years I start to spiral down my dark side again and I had to stop and think. To myself what I was doin. Thanks to you I pulled myself right back to happiness again. Your videos made me laugh and I need that. So thank you. Not only that but don't think no one cares about you bc us people that follow you on your media still support you. And that's a lot of love ❤️. So live laugh and love plus be nice to people!
4591. Millie Ramos: I love seeing the real emotions and it's not easy and seeing the recovery journals thru these next videos will be helpful for urself and others to see were u started like kinda rock bottom, to going up the ladder and a better healthy you😊 Awesome job in finding that help n admitting even wen it's hard that ur not okay n seeing u r trying to help urself! We are all with Josh! You can do it!
4592. Twinkle Laura: Josh you're truly an amazing person and you have touched so many lives!!! I am so proud you have found a therapist to talk to. It's okay to hide and protect yourself, but I am glad your reaching for help. You may not see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's still there; you just have to get a little closer step by step. You are amazing beautiful and such a kind person! I will keep you in my prayers, happiness will come slowly don't give up.
4593. Vanessa Rodrigues: I can totally relate what you are going through. I'm proud of you :)
4594. Kimberly S.: I don't think what's wrong with you. I think you're strong and you are gonna make it through! Time heals everything!! you are going to be happy again!! Keep your head up.
4595. Helen Aliabadi: K I'm sorry and all, but were those first seventeen seconds really needed?
4596. WindRaven Speaks: Here is some unwanted advice from an old lady. Divorce is almost equal to death, you have to allow yourself time to mourn. My husband deserted me and our child and went with another woman and forgot our child for years, and had another child with this new woman. It took me a long time to get over that hurt and lots of therapy and finding myself again and my passions. I can now look at him and have no feelings towards him and talk to his girlfriend and co parent on the once a year time he decides to talk to our daughter. You are a gorgeous man with so much to offer a partner, but do allow yourself time to heal. It will get better. And dogs are awesome, I have chihuahua that gives me so much love and happiness.
4597. Ani Pie: Aaaawwww! It's gonna be ok. There will be a better time, believe me! Sending positive thoughts and love from Germany! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
4598. Kayla Donovan: I hate that you are so down still but it's normal you had your whole world turned upside down. You just have to find yourself again and rediscover you without the other world. Create a new world to journey through find new happiness and keep going. You can make it you have love and support all around you. I'm glad you found help. We all love you no matter what.
4599. Mommy Vet: I will keep you in my prayers, I pray Jesus meets you in your moments of need. I can see and hear your pain. Love you {hugs}
4600. Mia Shey: I love how real this is ❤
4601. Kayla Langis: I'm gonna give you a list of things you can do to get out of your head. You can try different ones and see what makes you feel better maybe :)💗 1. Workout (it makes you feel good) 2. Eat good (good food for your brain) 3. Tell yourself one thing to look forward to in the day, if you can't think of one, you can say your glad that you are given another day to try and heal. 4. Ask yourself several times a day, what have I been thinking about today? Are these thoughts benifiting me? If not, you have to train your brain to think positive. Tell yourself that's not true and find a positive in that negative. Every negative has a positive I can guarantee! Hope this helped. Get well soon💗
4602. Y L: It takes time.
4603. Bethany Bowman: I'm so proud of you. This is an incredibly difficult time in your life, but you're taking steps to process and heal. I myself have started going to counseling and have too been tormented with "What's wrong with me?!" There is beauty in vulnerability, rawness, and being able to say "me too!" so thank you for being open so that others can be comforted in their own struggles. You're loved. and I hope you find peace. Keep pressing forward--we're rooting for you!
4604. toxic beliefs: 77nd like
4605. danielaimb: we love you
4606. Bella Hooper: Love and support you Josh❤️
4607. Shari Fenn: I admire your courage and to be honest, listening to your message brought me hope. Thank you Josh. You are not alone. I will pray for you.
4608. justanotherthing: while you were still with her, she ruled you. you loved her, and she loved the idea of loving. i think youve still got your head around it. moving on from that will be very troubling, and its going to seem impossible, but i promise its not!! keep your head up :)
4609. chick4lifetilldead: i love you josh . stay strong 💕
4610. mary jane: Therapy is so so important. Its not a shameful thing. It can be just as important as getting a broken leg healed. Mental health is just as important as physical health 💓 We're all rooting for you josh 💓
4611. Peiling Liang: Stay strong❤️
4612. kel R: Know that I love you so much and that I'm here for you always. You're one of my favorite people in the entire world and I look up to you so much. You make me so proud. you're amazing and you're gonna get through this I know it. I don't want you to ever feel like you can't be real with us, we love you and we care about you. you're incredibly strong and resilient , and just wonderful. Again I love you with all my heart. Sending all the hugs , love, and positive vibes your way ❤❤❤❤❤❤
4613. cheeriospls: This too shall pass. You're a warrior, Josh.
4614. kayleighjo8: Everyone is allowed to cry and have their personal moment. We all love you and appreciate you. You're not just a guy on YouTube to us, we think of you as our friend; and as such you need to know we're all here for you. So much love Joshua ❤️
4615. Kristen Reyes: Personal*
4616. marias big apple: You've made me face the reality of where I'm at right now. Thank you. Take care and I hope you enjoy New York. Hang in there ❤️ And thanks for sharing.
4617. Libby Reno: It's okay! You safe an amazing person! You are worth it! We are here for you! Praying! Love you!❤️
4618. shauna Mc Gowan: ❤️❤️
4619. It's Rebecca: I send you a virtual hug. Time heals wounds.
4620. Stephanie K.: what struck me is when you said you keep seeing how happy the other side is and it makes you feel bad. i really understand that feeling. not very many people post the real, tough, imperfect stuff on socials so A) kudos to you for posting realness and B) maybe step back from following the people who make you feel less than. step back, don't watch their vlogs or follow their instas. instead - focus on your happiness, contentment and health, and only follow the people who make you better. keep up the realness. rooting for you :)
4621. Lauren Roberts: Hunny you can get through this ❤️❤️ We can't wait to watch you heal this wound
4622. Rick Cottrell: i have been though just what you are dealing with, in my late 30s. (49 now). It takes a long time to heal the crater of a wound inyour heart. And you won't be the same - you will be better. Seeing the therapist is what helped me most. Let yourself hurt when you need to. Bouncing back will get easier too. Your fans love you, buddy. Bask in it! Rick
4623. Kathryn Thomson: stay strong!!
4624. knattallieey: I'm here for you, Josh. And I'm praying for you. I don't know if that helps for you to know that or not, but I thought I should tell you.
4625. Abby Mae💛: i love you so much joshua. you've always made me smile and i thank you for that. you can pull through this and you will pull through this. you're strong and i believe in you. there is nothing wrong with you please don't ever think there is. you're an incredible human being with so much to offer to this world. you can pull through.
4626. Lisa Kolk: This chanel is a reflection of you, and can't be happy all the time. It needs to have ups and downs to be you and be real and honest
4627. Myriam H: some love for you❤️❤️❤️
4628. Ann Arrianh: love u alot anyways, hugs 💕
4629. Annie yee: you're not depressed. you think you are because you've been sad. but it's not permanent
4630. Michaela Peters: You can't solve your problems in the matter of days, it takes time to heal and it sucks. We love you Josh, and we want the best for you. You're a beautiful human and big smacker on the word human. You are human, you have emotions and that's okay. Like I've seen in most of the comments, it's okay to not be okay. Again we love you and we wish you the best. Take your time and do it for yourself, not for anyone else.
4631. Renee Ready: Fur babies are the best. They are so good at making the owners happy. I know on my bad day or said days my fur baby makes things better. And it is ok to go through a hard time. Everyone goes through it. I was there almost 2 years ago. It was hard for me to find my happiness in life again. You will find yours.
4632. D Chang: doesn't matter if you just bounce an inch. As long as you bounce. been where you are and still struggle with it. Keep fighting.
4633. Dayana Borja: Anna mills wow, I hope things go well for you soon. Breaks my heart to read comments like these. 😩💔
4634. landth78: Maybe your trademark phrase "Be nice to people" will be what pulls you out of this. Film yourself doing great things for other, far beyond yourself, and you'll gain perspective again.
4635. Darcy Bhaiwala: Thanks for sharing with us Josh. I don't even know what you must feel like, I just know it probably sucks. I hope you pull through and find your happiness, it could be a long ways away but maybe its just around the corner. See you tomorrow!
4636. ZeldaandFairies: I'm so proud of you. This video is amazing and will help so many people. You're on the right path tho you're in so much pain. It'll be okay. Always here for you.
4637. Molly G: I'm very happy that you are finding the help you need! I'm currently on my journey towards becoming a marriage and family therapist and am glad that therapy is helping you!
4638. acnyc 11: Great Job taking care of yourself. Being honest and courages with yourself is empowering. You're on your way. Stay the course
4639. Kate: bless you josh, we all love you and are here for you no matter what! ❤️❤️
4640. Heidi Colon: I follow both sides of this coin... they look like polar opposites but no two sides of a coin are the same. The other side of the coin is behind you so look forward towards your future! Keep your head up, time heals and you will be okay! Sending you SO MUCH LOVE! You're not alone, I promise you that!
4641. LovesRain: Just a few things I learned after a devastating end to a relationship, maybe it will help you or anyone reading: 1. The quote "All flowers grow through dirt." 2. Accepting yourself and your feelings instead of saying "I shouldn't X." I feel like there were times that I would compare myself to how my ex's life looked and said "I shouldn't feel this way. I should ostracize myself from my friends and family. I shouldn't, etc." Giving yourself some credit will allow you to accept what has happened to you, because face it, it's a hard thing you went through! Saying "You know, I feel depressed because this horrible thing happened to me. And that's okay because one day I'll look back from the other side and be in a better place than I am now." Acceptance and patience towards yourself is the hardest thing, ever. More on that...After a year and a half of still feeling pretty bad for myself, I started to get back to focus on my grad school program, my work, etc, but I was still pretty depressed. Functioning depression, I would say. On a service trip (if i couldn't help myself might as well try and help others while trying to make new friends- since I had lost many with the breakup) some of the undergrad girls were talking about breakups. And I felt pretty annoyed to be honest because I felt like they didn't understand what I had went through and were trying to pretend that they did. After all, they were young, I was older, and I thought I was going to marry this person. However, one girl while brushing our teeth asked me casually "So you're not over him yet, huh?" And I said, "Nope." And she said "Well, that's really fine. You probably never will be." And I was so surprised and pissed off to hear that. I had tried so hard the last year and a half to get over my breakup. So I asked her to clarify and she said "Well. He was your first *real* love, and you're never really supposed to forget that, right?" Some 19 year old's off-hand comment completely freed me of my residual misery. She was completely right. I think as a society we think we are supposed to be 100% fine when something horrible has happened to us after a long time... "time heals all wounds" and all that. But that's BS! Accepting that sometimes I'll feel bad when I remember the end of that relationship, remember how badly I was treated and not judge myself for it allowed me to move on better than if I had just tried to get over it by ignoring my feelings. It even allowed me to look at some of the good times in the relationship without depressed, biased judgement. Now, I am in an incredibly healthy, happy relationship. I'm on the final stretch of grad school, and I have never been happier. I will be honest, it took a long time, but that made things even sweeter in the end. I hope the same for you, Josh. Allow yourself the time and feel better!
4642. Ella Volz: took me 4 years to seek for help against depression. hardest but best decision of my life. go on Josh, you're on the right path. love you
4643. lorinnnleighhh: keep going. the joy is inside you. take care.
4644. Adam Jurado: I appreciate it when YouTubers are genuine like this and not fake
4645. Mary Anderson: Good for you
4646. Amandalorian: Jazz Glamorous I agree. I don't think she's as happy as she shows us. Personally I think she's too busy to think.
4647. Kaylie Nicole: my birthday wish was for you to be happy again.
4648. Drummond: Love your Playlist Live shirt!!!!
4649. Destany Jade: You're so strong for being open with the internet. We love you so much Josh 💞
4650. Ashley Norwood: love love and love. Nothing more inspiring than someone being REAL and HONEST. I am in the same exact boat and it warms my heart to see you admit it to yourself and to others because thats the first step in recovery. You are bound for success, love, and happiness. You must experience the lows to attain the highs. Never loose faith in yourself and the idea that everything happens for a reason. I send all my love and best wishes as we travel this road together. Different stories, same struggle, in it together.
4651. charlotte ch: church...helped me so much .
4652. Mandy M: I am so happy for you josh just that fact that you are trying to figure how to help yourself is insanely inspiring. I want you to know that i have been in a dark place and your videos even ones like this that you may think is not "entertaining" or is "depressing" it really gives me a little bit of hope and light even for those few fleeting minutes that your video lasts for. it really helps and I just hope that this new idea does help you because I don't want anyone to go through anything like this and you don't need to be sorry you sometimes just need to be concerned for yourself don't care what people say. You can only be the best person you let yourself be and I know you will get there. p.s. sorry for such a long message I just wanted to make sure you know how great you are
4653. Icepalm Hearthgold: Not really. This problem he's facing is more on mentally not spiritually. He need to find happiness within this world, going to Christ and pray won't solve his earthly problems.
4654. BriceidaHdz: Its ok if you don't bounce back right away. This takes time. I believe we all heal differently. Just don't focus too much on the other side. Think of you and ur future. All seems dark but there is light at the end of the tunnel.
4655. Morgan Wood: I love you Josh. Stay strong. Your dingleberries got you.
4656. Bairavee: Josh, you're a genuine guy with an immensely good heart. I'm happy for you that you're working at getting better, and I pray that good things come your way soon. You will live through this and emerge stronger than ever before. Keep going xx
4657. Jenni Lee: I don't know both of you personally but just know that things aren't always what they seem. Some people over compensate, drowning themselves in their work and putting on an extra happy exterior so no one can see how sad they are. I'm glad you're so open about this and you're getting the help you need. I feel like there's such a stigma behind getting therapy or taking anti depressants. You do what you need to do to heal yourself. Take care of yourself💕
4658. Leann Dieffenbach: You need to take care of yourself first. Thanks for letting everyone know getting help is a good thing. You are a beautiful soul and its light needs to be renewed which you are doing and I'm proud of you. It's going to be a journey but you can do it. Keep up the good fight. To quote Jared Padalecki "You are worth fight for. " @AlwaysKeepFighting I love you Joshua. Keep that beautiful light shining
4659. MzFelicia B: I can relate so much. I went through a hard breakup and I was depressed for almost 2 years after. I didn't want the relationship to end, I wanted to work on it instead of give up. It's not an easy process, but you're on the right track. It's not going to happen today, not tomorrow, but each day is a step closer to healing. I still have my moments over two years later. It I can honestly say I'm in a good spot and happy with my life. You'll get there 😊 Never apologize for how you're feeling. You're human and we love and support you no matter how happy or sad.
4660. Apple the gamer: First
4661. Lumpy Space Princess: I love how shadow is pooping in the background lol On a serious note everything you are feeling is so normal! And it's going to take time! A therapist is a really good step in the right direction. I'm going through a lot of hard stuff currently and it helps. It's kind of like soul searching you have to find what makes you happy all over again. Spoil yourself, spend time with friends and family. It does get better!
4662. Amy Marshall: I wish I could give you a hug! I don't think I've ever related to a YouTuber so much. A couple things you said about talking to people and not keeps thing to yourself really spoke to me. I know my stuff is nothing compared to yours, but I always try to figure everything out on my own. It takes too long and it's much harder, but for some reason that's all I want to do. I'm inspired by the fact that you got a therapist and that you are reaching out and getting help rather than sitting in the dark. And I hope you can reach a point where you can truthfully say that you are ok very soon. Thanks for this video :)
4663. Victoria: Glad you're able to openly talk about this josh, a lot of people feel similar feels and this is good to put out in the universe. Sending love and hugs.
4664. Brittany E: Josh I think you need a trip to the mountains! 💙 Much love from the smokies!
4665. BrittanyMae_xoxo: I wish there was reactions on YouTube like Facebook has because I don't like liking this video because it makes me so sad. But I totally understand Josh❤ I obviously didn't go through divorce but I went through a very very emotional break up.. with the man I though was my one and only. I am exactly the same way.. I stayed in my dark room and didn't come out. I lost friends because I pushed them away. But I found that one person who I could trust. I told her my whole heart and I've grown so much. Josh you aren't alone, show the world who you are no matter what is going on. You'll find your happiness Josh, I fully believe that❤ Love you so much Josh, keep doing what makes you as happy as you can be!!
4666. Samuel Addison: I'm not trying to preach to u but have u met Jesus, he will fill you up with joy and so much more. With Christ you don't have to worry. Christ will take up pain away.
4667. CravinMorehead420: You have to learn to let go. It took me YEARS of depression and self hate, only to realize I was wasting my time on something that I wanted, instead of focusing on what I needed, to find myself again. We ALL get lost, it's part of this beautiful experience called life. Much love..
4668. brittany fallica: Josh... I cannot tell you enough how beautifully courageous you are. You have inspired me and made me laugh for years, but in the past few months you'd been so courageously raw!!! I'm going through a breakup right now... 7 years together and it's the hardest thing I've ever gone through... the other side is going strong and happy... and I feel just as you said, "what's wrong with me, why can't I find my happiness?" I'm not doing well... trying say by day to find my happiness and my connection to the beauty in the world. Thank you for sharing. It's nice to know we aren't alone in dark times.
4669. Malorie Eimermann: Josh I'm glad you're able to have as much strength as you do battling with your depression. Coming from someone who has also struggled with depression, I think documenting your life everyday is a great idea to give yourself a solid routine, but by all means DONT feel pressured to post every day if you don't have the energy. Combine your daily vlog clips into a bigger vlog if you need to. Take time to take care of yourself! Much love ❤️
4670. Dalia Baldoni: You are very brave.
4671. Rebecca O'Sullivan: Professional help will help you so much. It takes a while, but it has done wonders for me. Don't expect to feel better right away, but I bet you will realize in a few months how much better you feel.
4672. Leander: Boy, I have been in therapy for seven years! It will do you good, I promise! It takes time, Josh! It will be good. <3
4673. leyley1970: It starts with you Joshua if you decide to accept God into your life..He is the answer to guide you out of the darkness.  I too, went through a divorce and then depression which lead to more self destruction, alcoholism and drugs..  Finding and accepting my Faith in Him has helped me through the worst time of my life. BTW, I am not affiliated with a religion ..
4674. Samme L: You're doing fine. It's going to take a while before you find yourself again and we as your dingleberries will still follow you through your ups and downs. Don't be sorry :) do you. We'll be here! Take your time! Get better Ps shadow can sense when you cry or sad. :)
4675. kgrace c: Good for you. I admire your courage and sharing that your seeking help
4676. KayBee Gee: I attend therapy whenever I feel I need it. Just be sure you are always investing your time into a professional who is a good fit. I wish you the best of successes with it. Hopefully you're receiving mental and emotional tools that will help you so that you won't need medication unless you seek the medication on your own. Medication could save your life. Therapist help could save your life. I know you'll bounce back eventually. One day, it won't hurt the same. One day, someone will fill that hole in your heart. I believe this sincerely. I'm still dealing the ripple effect of my divorce. There's a hole in my heart and it hasn't been filled yet. But I believe it will. I also know the pain and discomfort of your family wanting to talk with you and include you in their gatherings. I know what it's like to feel completely out of place and alone in family get-togethers. Things WILL change but we have to take the first step. And you HAVE taken the first step. You're on the right track, Joshua! And it isn't just Depression. It's PTSD. Divorce is next to death in deep sorrow when grieving. Allow yourself to recognize how upsetting and how sorrowful your divorce is. It isn't to be taken lightly. I didn't have love in my marriage like you did. And I didn't have friends to uplift me. I wish I had made a youtube channel so I could have gone through it with people instead of so much alone. I never watched any of your videos until today. The only other time I've seen you was in the wedding video. I don't remember much from that except that someone said something about farting in the wedding vows. It made me smile. I've gone through a lot of frustration and jadedness in the last few years, and I'm finally moving forward.
4677. Antonia DD: we will always support you!! stay strong
4678. Tori Jill: From a person who has gone through depression (not for the same reason) I can say, it's literally the hardest thing to go through. You were my inspiration and happiness for a couple years.... until you apparently got offended by something I responded to you with on twitter and you blocked me for it and it literally broke me so much. You don't deserve sadness, nobody deserves sadness. "Every storm cloud comes to an end", you're in your storm cloud right now but it WILL come to an end. It's okay to cry, it's okay to let out the sadness, you can't hold it in. I'm still sad that you blocked me on twitter and it would be much appreciated if you'd unblock me (@MissRBalling) so I can catch up on your life. I'm not asking for a follow. I hope you start finding something to cheer you up! Keep your head up ✌🏻
4679. LeahLuvv Anderson: JoshuaDTV you don't need to do it alone...you're not alone. God is close to those who are low in spirit. He's there for you, why don't you give Him a try. He knows your pain already. He sees it. Let Him take your burdens of pain and you will be healed. Things won't feel so heavy anymore. Cast your burdens on Him because He cares for you Josh. That's a promise from God Himself. ❤️
4680. TwinMom: I'm glad you're seeking help. praying for u Josh! Cut yourself some slack! a divorce isn't an overnight thing to get over. it will get better in time! hang in there and stay strong!
4681. Jessica Nicely: I understand what you're going through God will help you through it just ask Him Ik He has helped me learn to not rely on others or things to find joy or happiness I pray that everything works out for you I love you and God loves you 🙏❤️ (John 3:16 except replace world with you) He is with you I promise nothing is wrong with you you are perfect 😊
4682. Madaline Wienser: Sending love your way ❤️❤️
4683. Libby Falcon: This makes me so so sad. Sometimes you think that you're so compatible with someone but they just don't feel the same. There's nothing that can be said to make you feel better, all you need is time. Prayers! <3
4684. anne yaque chavez: wow i remeber the both of you guys vid con 2015. and the weird hunt with the receipt treasure hunt at vid con that year. now 2017 i see in your vids the change over the two years. whats wrong well its having an expectation and it never comming to fruition. in short you cant control people places or things. maybe someday if im working vidcon again, ill say hi . remember you can only control you. hi fives to therapy bcz it brings out the answers in us
4685. HollyHannah Savoie: Joshua, my prayers truly go out to you. I've been a fan for so many years, and I know you're still you, even though you feel like you're gone. I know what it's like to feel completely lost, but life's greatest curse is also a great blessing. It's that nothing on this earth stays the same forever. Every season in life eventually passes. In a year, you could be looking back at this from somewhere you never imagined you'd end up. The fact that we don't know what the future holds is what makes life so beautiful, so if you hold onto anything, hold onto hope that you have yet to live your best days. <3
4686. Jaceruth: As I stated to someone else it is an opinion that he is not real. I actually 100 percent know he is real. I will keep praying however. Faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains.
4687. Luna and Estrella: Josh don't worry things will get better! You are a great man and you can overcome this. You can't keep living like that. She has moved on and you have to do the same. We all know you loved her and it's not your fault. She wanted this and you just wanted to make her happy. It hurts I know but you need to open up and therapy is good just let it all out. Love you Josh! ❤️❤️ #bestrong#youregreat
4688. JJGamer 348: BFvs GF hi
4689. Joanna Solano: This channel is about you and right now your going through a rough time and it's okay to show that your sad. It's okay to grieve and by trying to hide your grief and putting up a front for filming has to be incredibly exhausting. Grieve! Don't apologize! It's okay to be sad! It's okay to make sad videos!
4690. Lourdes Peregrina: its okay
4691. Michelle Hagler: You got it!
4692. Julia Lebron: I feel like he's just making all of these sad videos for the views. I feel bad for saying this tho
4693. betta: I love you and I'm so fucking proud of you, okay?! You'll be okay. It's hard and I, as a depressed person, understand how hard it is. But asking for help is already a huge step for you. Thank you for taking us on this healing journey with you. You're amazing. You will be better, you will be happy. 💖
4694. Kieana Jones: Genuinely thought he was gonna come out
4695. Haleigh White: You are such an inspiration to so many people. Do whatever you need to do to become happy again. I truly hope the best comes to you. Thank you for being honest and opening up. Always be yourself.
4696. Jennifer Shakur: Don’t let anyone take your happiness! Don’t give them that satisfaction. You deserve the world, and I know you will find what you want 💋
4697. KorinaKina: I love you Josh 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
4698. Bean's House Elf: Unfortunately the "other side" features an endless stream of videos from several very active YouTubers. You know as well as anyone else that editing and choices can make someone appear a certain way on video. It may APPEAR to be happy and perfect, but as you know, appearances can be deceptive! It has to be very queer for you -- it IS, too, for viewers. We were accustomed to watching the daily lives of people all connected to each other. You were so enmeshed in the lives (reality and online) of a massive group of people it has to affect you. It is HUMAN and shows no sign of anything but what any empathetic person would experience in your shoes! It is SO good you're going to therapy and are ready to do the work. I am seriously rooting for you!
4699. Sam Ab: I honestly never commented on any video although i watch many youtubers because i know it's such a rare chance for them to see the comment but i felt the need to comment here and i wish you see it.. I feel you man /: so glad you did this video it was very clear it shows through your eyes no matter what kind of video you are making , you seem sad, and i am totally with you by how it sucks to see the other side perfectly happy and all going great but it's really better not to look at that side until you heal because it can eat you alive and depress you so much.. I've been there.. True you are different but we would love to see you heal and go throughh this with you i love your honesty and i love who you are, you are a good guy and good things happen to good people ❤️ and we will all be here with you josh❤️❤️❤️
4700. Rayla Daniels: Joe Dispenza on YouTube is very helpful
4701. hey its hannah xtras: joshs intro= hey tiny peices of poop that stay even after u wipe
4702. Harry Krinkle: +Kiaree Waller Basic Psychology 101 can tell you that what she's doing is not healthy. Just ignoring everything and acting like it never happened -- even deleting the announcement video -- and throwing herself into work without thought is a classic distraction technique. She was always an extreme workaholic. The first video I ever really watched of her was right at three years ago, where she's in a cow onesie, talking about how, when she's not working on something, she peels the skin off her fingers out of discomfort. I knew immediately that that was not good, and I hoped she would work on it...and it only got worse. And is getting worse all the time. I think she needs to take a step away from the Internet and reassess some things, but I highly doubt she will. I worry it will destroy her, too.
4703. Tree Fry: yo...what happened?
4704. Madelynn Sponzilli: I love you josh! I know exactly what you are going through. Thank you for sharing this with us. 100% on your side! BTWs you're looking good.❤️❤️❤️😘
4705. Morgan Clarke: PTSD?
4706. Kiaree Waller: +Courtney Ray we don't know how they are off screen. Maybe they want to be happy and share positivity
4707. Jacquie Vargas: i really appreciate you talking about this bc i've been going through some similar stuff and i love you i hope you're genuinely 100% happy so soon 💗
4708. Paula Walker: I'm old enough to be your mom, I have a son about your age but I just wanted tell you to hang in there, with work it will get better. I went through a terrible depression so bad I didn't know if I would make it through. It took a lot of work and a year of counseling but I got through it and you can too. Not to say I don't still have some set backs but it's manageable. God, lots of prayer and family got me through and I know you have all of those things. YOU CAN DO IT, I'm praying for you!
4709. Wayne Gu: Josh, I've been watching your videos since high school, and I'm a college student now. It's ok to be sad, it's ok to be depressed, it's ok to be back to the starting point where you promised you would stand up again. I've been into this circle before as well, and I feel how you feel. We all know it takes time to heal the would, it takes time to forget the bad moments, it may take over years, but it's fine. Just to be true, be humble, be thankful, and in one day, when you get up, you will realize that there are more things that you can chase or follow, or in one day, you can even laugh at your past which you don't want to mention for now with other people in the future. Josh, you can make it!
4710. Melany C: Josh you're in my prayers.. look to God for your strength! You can do whatever makes you happy and we, your family, and your true friends will be there for you! We want to see you happy!! ❤️
4711. Emily Olson: God can turn around any situation. Really meditate on that!! I'm so glad you talked about it. You're so strong for being vulnerable.
4712. Laura Swan: it's okay not to be okay sometimes, but i keep getting joshleen videos in my feed and when i see them i just cry. i love both of you and i understand that you guys didn't work out.
4713. Jonathan Josey: If I understand what it is that you're saying, It is not a belief system, it is a relationship.
4714. Andi Brody: take a day, take it all in and heal. we all love you and all i want for you is to be happy because your so amazing and you deserve to know that. love you
4715. Shadowy Silhouette: I know exactly how you feel Josh I have personally struggled with depression and anxiety. You just feel really bad and then when ppl say get over it it doesn't help. Healing takes time you don't just heal right away. You just feel so alone and feel like you're drowning. I'm the same way I don't want to talk about all my problems in front of my friends and family because I don't want them to feel my sadness. I just want you to know that you're not alone even though it may feel like it.
4716. Kassie Flesher: I don't know the person you were in your prior videos that you speak of but I like the person I see here. So proud of you for speaking your mind and being so open. Best wishes on your journey and I hope you find true peace inside. Remember this, what troubles you will not conquer you. 🙏🏼💜
4717. Devina.: you are perfectly normal & human. embrace all of this because it's all part of your healing journey... every emotion and feeling is valid. let it take as long as it needs for you. Not that much time has passed.... give yourself a break. you are allowed to be going through this and grief is naturally. always give yourself permission to process things how u need to.💙💙💙
4718. clorox bleach: 💖 you josh always here 💖
4719. JW424: Move on from her. I can barely watch her anymore.
4720. Connie Johnson: It is funny, but I have found in life that people who seem super happy, confident etc., more often than not are not really as happy or confident as they seem! Some people wear their hearts on their sleeve and maybe that is who you are? That's refreshing and honest. In a few years, whatever you are going through will be behind you and one day you will know the reason it happened (the lesson you've learned on your journey)! Some of the worst things in my life brought me the best things of my life. When I was much younger I was always deep in my head (my thoughts) and I started to be more aware of it and practiced not letting the thoughts manifest into my day, so decided to think of it like little bast*#ds who sit on your shoulders trying to mess up your day. Conquer them by kicking them off! Just some words from each an elder, lol!
4721. xoNicoletteann: I love you Josh, so many of us go through this. I like hearing from you even if this is what you share, it's real, we all go through it. Whatever helps you on your journey do it.
4722. Grace Noechel: The other side is just pushing everything down because "they" can't deal with the true feelings. It's best to be open and honest and not push it all down
4723. Sakshi Khanolkar: uh*
4724. Bethany Wonderland: hang in there Josh, I love you💚💚💚
4725. Emma Brickson: I love you Josh. Stay strong❤️
4726. Kimberly Broom: love you Joshua
4727. Eileen B: Josh You actually sound very healthy. You suffered a great loss but you already called this your. "Journey of Inner healing" which should tell you that the optimism is there. My hope for you is to strive for contentment and not necessarily happiness. Happiness does fleet up and down whereas contentment is a state of being. I believe it is possible that happiness can even mask discontentment. You will find your Peace!
4728. Milan Chuganey: watching this video really made me want to break down and just... i just relate so much to this.
4729. Jordan Vunic: Your a amazing person and you deserve better
4730. Izumi Ohlen: There is nothing wrong with you, it is okay to be sad, it is okay not being okay. And it is really brave talking about it. You can be sad, you can feel bad but you are not allowed to give up. Everything will be okay. Take care.
4731. Nicole Elizabeth: Josh we are here for you. We love you so much. Take the time you need to get yourself to where you want to be. We are always gonna be here to support you and love you. Take care of yourself first. I understand how hard these things can be.
4732. Marissa Smith: When you are in love with someone so much, it is the hardest to bounce back from. I definitely have been there. I won't lie, it's hard but do know there is a light at the end, I promise. Good for you for getting a therapist! I wish I would have.
4733. Daisy Miller: baby, its okay to feel broken and sad and cry all the time. its okay. its not okay to bubble it up. im so proud of you for helping yourself and not giving in. im going to pull the G card. But God has a plan for you and you will survive. you will get through this. scream, cry, do whatever to get through this, sweetie xxx
4734. Ali M: Josh you have all these fans that support you. You make peolpe happy and people are inspired by you Josh.
4735. Karina P: Sending you love and prayers that you can find the strength to pull you out of this 💗
4736. DucheSS777: It's so hard to accept that you put everything into something and it didn't work out for whatever reason- it's painful beyond belief. I know how this feels. I'm going through it. I just take one day at a time and focus on the good things, health, family, fur babies etc. One day at a time!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
4737. Hania calleS: I want to watch. And I think I'm going to record my process as well. I've had that on my mind for a couple months. I needed to watch this video, honestly. I stopped going to therapy once I started a new job a little over a month ago. But I need to go back. I can feel myself getting sucked back into a black hole. Looking forward to your vids!
4738. bruceade: Don't cry😭😭
4739. Cayley Shoemaker: Keep on going man!!
4740. sima95: I saw that moment when his voice cracked down a bit and then he started crying..its heart breaking to see you like this... I wish you all the happiness in life and mayyour heart heal as fast as possible ...
4741. Molly: Jenny Bronson Yep, I completely agree.
4742. Shraddha Patil: it's ok to feel that way..it's normal..phase of life.. but what important is to open up..o have a friend who was suffering from depression but she choose not to be vocal about it...that made it worse... and I really wanna help her and I'm still trying today... I'm proud of you...that you took a professional help... and I am sure you'll get out of it...you have to..We love you for who you are, who you've been.. all these years whatever you've been through..you've done in bravely!! nothing is wrong with you.. you are the most amazing person and I go back to your old videos that make me laugh every time!! CANT WAIT TO BE PART OF YOUR UPCOMING VLOGS!! Lots and lots of love from INDIA <3 REMEMBER YOU'RE SOMEONE'S STRENGTH AND REASON TO LIVE TO AND THAT YOU MATTER ;) keep inspiring Joshua :))
4743. Callie Warford: I love the one take videos and I will be praying for you Josh. :) keep your head up
4744. rebeccajns: Amber Webster I hope ur doing well. Best wishes☺
4745. Sherry Taylor: I freaking love you Josh! Keep your head up! You have so many people who love and respect you. Feel free to come back to New Zealand, I'll be your tour guide! 👌🏼 you are a blessing to this community who consistently bring happiness to us. Thanks for being you & raw with the world. Hugs & love to you Josh! ❤️
4746. fantxm: This may sound wired, but talk to iiSuperwomanii she has delt with depression and she could really help you
4747. Callie B: Depression is something that consumes you and it takes you on a journey that you can't predict. I am currently going through my own journey and I want you to know that whatever path your journey takes, that it is YOUR path. Depression is an illness that you learn to understand and cope with. It beats you down and the only way to feel better is to take time to get help and learn what helps you conquer it. Josh you are strong and that "other side" struggles with it, but unlike you the "other side" hides away from it. You are strong for facing the harsh reality of life and it will make you a better man. Good luck on your journey and don't be ashamed if you falter sometimes we all do.
4748. Di Evans: Dude, you need to find a new lady and move on or you're going to end up a bitter lonely man.
4749. rach31mari3x0: It kills me watching this! You're such a loving and caring man and you deserve nothing but happiness and love! I'll be praying for you!
4750. John Skipper Jr.: Hey Joshua. I too suffer from depression. You have my full support. I really hope that you find the inner peace and happiness. You can message me anytime if you need someone to talk to.
4751. S a: God is the only one to truly help and heal you. all you have to do is ask and he will extend his arm and save you from sinking into this dark, sinful world. God bless💜I'll keep you in my prayers.
4752. Alyssa M: You're such a strong man and I know you can push through this. I struggle with depression and it's really hard. Just keep believing that things will get better and eventually they will. Healing takes a lot of time. Don't give up.
4753. Eo: +You Me Archive with all respect! But just to explain, that's the point of believing in God (for me...) That i don't just have to rely on myself because I know that God will always help me (: Love from the Netherlands!
4754. coopeje1: Sorry but at 2:40 his dog is peeing in the background
4755. Melanie Martinez: Faith DelliGatti totally agree!!
4756. Rizaldi Rachman: Tara Ha Me too.. Not like i wish the other party is sad too or wish bad thing to them but, seeing them just makes me upset. How could they choose not to show any emotions for this matter. It's like the things between them never happened. How did they do that, kind of things. I feel you.
4757. Isabelle Grace: You really don't need to worry about us, if you need time we'll support you, if you want to come back, we'll support you, just don't feel obligated to put videos out if it's too much.
4758. Bcaseyarts: I hate seeing you sad!
4759. yasmeen guadalupe: i'll always be here to support you josh! dark times always come to pass ❤
4760. Heather Erickson: love you Josh!
4761. jeremyviromek: no-one mentions the dog shitting in the background
4762. When Moe: Josh, 1. Get yourself one of those furry things to put on top of your camera (the wind is wrecking the vlog) 2. There is so much love out there for you, you just need to open yourself up to it. I'm glad you posted this and I think everyone appreciates the reals AND it helps the rest of feel more normal and not so alone. Thanks.
4763. Emma Boone: The road to happiness is not a straight path full of smooth trails... remember that Josh! It is okay to fall back, as long as you know that you are still working to head in the right direction. Life and heartbreak are so very challenging and there is no step by step process for how to cope and understand why these things happen. Just know that there will come a day when you look back on this video and shake your head to say "he had no idea how good things would soon become for him". Hold onto that. Much love Josh. One day at a time.
4764. Cat Moon: Olga Pea You realize people can believe in Jesus and still go to therapy. God wants people to help others and take care of themselves and therapy is a great way of doing just that. And if Josh wants to get help that way... it's fine. Suggesting that following/loving Christ will somehow replace a need for therapy is a really unhealthy message for Josh and others seeing this comment. Most therapists are happy to discuss/include religion in sessions. People with cancer who pray to/believe in God still should go to doctors so why can't people with depression who believe in God go to therapy? ❤️ Let people seek the help they need. ❤️
4765. U2changeTHEworld: Its this social media stuff brother.....SOCIAL MEDIA CAN HURT U IF YOU AREN'T LIVING WITHOUT IT FROM TIME TO TIME.
4766. Faith J: I know it's hard, and you don't feel like things will get better sometimes, but it does. I promise. I was with someone for over a year, and when we split I felt the same. We can get through this together. Find an outlet and be passionate about it, work on you, and don't ever apologize for how you feel. We love you Josh
4767. Katie Delight: We all love you Josh!
4768. • Лошо късо: Is this normal y'all? I've seriously never ever have known a guy/dude/man (whatever you want to call it) who has been this hurt since a break up. Goddamn! I feel sorry for him! He should get away from Internet and live the real life just so he can connect again with himself and emotions!
4769. Jody Smith: you are in my prayers for eternity.
4770. kayleelives: hey josh, these honest personal videos are my favorite thing to see from you. I find watching the real you, even struggling, is so much more relatable and enjoyable to watch. You're not a happy robot all the time, and neither are we. :) hope to see more one takes from you. also, congrats on making the choice to go to therapy. <3
4771. CDM: anyone else thought this wld be a coming out video?
4772. supersenft1: Feel better Josh :(
4773. Tamsin: I've never watched your channel before. But this resonates. I had severe clinical depression following a lot of horrible things including relationship breakdown. It took time but I am now back on my feet. Take some time to rest, set weekly goals that matter to you and take time to do things that make you feel nurtured. Also please don't worry about the weight that will resolve but right now you have bigger fish to fry. glad you're having therapy! Best wishes.
4774. Rob B: There are no reasons, there is no god
4775. mommy loves makeup: 💜💜💜💜💜 I want you back lol
4776. Brittany Martin: I love you and hope you feel better soon!! XOXO 😘
4777. TheFashiongirl05: Josh, I love you so much. You are so wonderful, awesome, humble, raw and real, honest, loving, and you are stronger than you think you are. I wish this hadn't happened to you. I wish i could give you a hug. The fact that she chose to divorce you just means that her love for you wasn't meant to be yours anyway. Keep on keeping on and don't look back.
4778. Bavisha Thavarajah: This video broke my heart. I am no one to advise u, but nothing goes as planned and we all have been at a dark state in one point. I am very sure ur dingleberries will always support u and be there for u❤️ Hope u can start fresh and leave ur past✨ Similar to taking ur anger out u say to a bag then throw out u can cry out to the bag and dispose tht bag as far away as possible. Good luck with therapy and I wish u all the best💜😘💎
4779. Pedro Becerra: freelee is shook
4780. Thelittleone21: It's ok Josh.. no one could have gone through what you have and be "ok". I'm so sorry your struggling, but be encouraged and keep seeking help.
4781. babygurl101ization: I love you JOSH. You're entitled to be sad and depressed and feel real raw emotion. You shouldn't have to act happy all the time. You are going through something extremely hard and people should understand.
4782. no: aw josh
4783. Legit.Ness: I love you
4784. Emmily Jo: I'm so sorry your hurting. I hope one day you find some inner peace because you are a great man and deserve happiness and someone who truly loves you!
4785. It'sOlivia: I have hodgkins lymphoma its a cancer and I have deression and anxiety
4786. Allison Terrey: Definitely! And even if church isn't your thing Josh, just connecting with God on your own time is so important and uplifting
4787. Payton Dundas: Meggie B 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼
4788. BasicallyBel: We love you Josh ❤
4789. Eliana 22: the other side of the coin isn't always happy too, you know? and that is totally okay for both of you, because it is very hard and it is normal to have those feelings. but you have the ability to heal yourself. I'm totally down for the therapists, I think everyone need to see one, but don't forget that in the end of the day you are your own therapist. I love you and please stay strong.
4790. Kirsty Petrusic: You are not bothering anyone by talking to them. I have had depression for 7 years so I know that being taken over by it is horrible. Download the app called smiling mind. It's s extremely helpful. Just remember your not alone. Nothing is wrong with you Josh. God doesnt give us anything that we cant make it through. Love and blessings being sent to you.
4791. LibbyTott: Awwwww buddy I'm feeling you, I went through the exact same thing at the same time as you. Just take every day as it comes. Keep smiling 😘🙃
4792. Patricia Lee: Think of some hobbies that you could practice to destress and relax your mind. For example, coloring on coloring books or going on walks help me a lot when I have a lot on my plate. You could also do some traveling by yourself to Europe, China, etc. or spend some more time being outdoor by camping/backpacking; take a long hike to see scenic views.
4793. Madeline Dillon: I love you!!!, I suffer from clinical depression and anxiety. I know how life sucking it is. But trust me, you will get through this!!
4794. alrudd1: I am kinda relieved to see this. Not because I want to see you hurt, but because it will aid in your healing. Be proud that you recognize you need additional support. You went and are still going thru an extremely traumatic experience. It hurts even more when you have a huge heart. What a perfect time to lean on music. I'm obsessed with Dear Evan Hansen right now and I think "Waving thru a Window" would be a fabulous song for you. Your dingleberries will wave back.
4795. Indigo Detry: MeL Td she probably didnt, hes just hurt and says stuff
4796. sarah18960: Philadelphia is my city! Have a great time 🙂
4797. Tenaya Griffin: It's an old cliche saying but it is wise: It gets better with time. It really, really does. ☺ Also, u don't owe us any videos or apologies or explanations. Do what u gotta do.
4798. MaiyaJoyful: Thanks for being honest. I appreciate it. 💕
4799. tk421trooper1: i know i have said this before. We are with you. we care. stay strong take each day one at a time. You Grow
4800. Hannah Rannah: And by the way, you've basically said everything I thought today. It feels so good to hear someone else say it--not that I want you to hurt like this, but because I know I'm not the only one.
4801. Christopher Ejsmont: life is life man! it's not always fun, all normal people now that. We all were used to seeing you happy and energetic, now you are more sad and depressed but that is completely normal, you can fight it and win!
4802. Jennifer Nichole: Try to stay strong bud❤
4803. holly meek: xxxxxxxx
4804. Toni. x: Sending all the love❤️ I've been through a depressing stage too but I got through it because I focused on GCSE's and exams and my future. It must be soooo hard to get through this but I promise it will get better:)x
4805. Jacqueline Anderson: 💕
4806. Anie Jo Peterson: josh, we love you. you have us. i love you with all of my heart. everything will be okay someday. i hate to see you like this. keep your head high. nothing is wrong with you.. you just need time. time heals. show us the real you, be real with us, cry on camera, express your thoughts, do what you want. love you!
4807. The Cote Family Vlogs: Gotta find a routine...that's the best thing you can do for your broken heart. Fall in love with yourself and surround yourself with people who spread positivity. Try not to dwell on things you can't change. soul search find out why your relationship didn't work...from your side of it..not blaming the other. These are all things I've done when relationships have ended and trust me it helps! There's a bigger reason and purpose things didn't work out in your marriage and truthfully maybe it's because the love of your life is still out there. Keep your head up and wake up each day and tell yourself 3 things you love about you! You'll get through it, your string!
4808. Leah R: I hope that you feel how much support you have even though it's hard. 💕
4809. leigh: Why do we fight... Just let it go
4810. Heather Rodgers: I thought he was gonna say I'm quitting YouTube and I literally died. But josh it's ok to be hurt and nothing is wrong with you. I love you josh and whatever it takes to make you happy we will be their for you I love you and your videos but it's ok if your hurt I'm we are here for you love you josh and I hope you keep pressing on.
4811. erica tucker: There is no time limit on sadness. Also everyone shows sadness and depression in different ways. I hide sadness and depression with laughter and being goofy. The other party may do the same or she really could be happy and if so that's ok because you will find yourself again. We have all been through something similar and it is hard but it will be fine.
4812. LozAura: I don't generally leave comments on.videos often.... but thank you for reconnecting yourself with us Josh. im here for you and with you on this friend :)
4813. Iulia Iurean: ok, so im just gonna say it: i admit i havent been watching your videos for a while because you uploaded random subjected videos. im not saying that they might have been bad, but its not my type of content. i watched every one of your vlogs for years, though. you know why? because you are a beautiful person and i love your honesty. you're one of the very few youtubers that actually document their lives on youtube, with all the bad and good, because thats just how life is: low and high. and i, among many others, appreciate the hell out of that. i hope you'll upload more daily vlogs, because just seeing your face when you're with your friends or Shadow makes my day a little better. stay strong, pretty soul. you deserve the world! from Romania with love
4814. Mackenzie Alonso: Praying for you and your future life to come! I hope you find what your looking for in these next months and years! Love and support you everyday! Can't wait for more of you to come!! Love from Florida! ❤❤❤
4815. Kristen Reyes: Happiness is a fleeting feeling. True joy comes from Jesus Christ who will never leave or forsake you. I would love to have a conversation about Him with you. When you've tried everything and it fails try Jesus
4816. LeahLuvv Anderson: Emma Rose Williamson We should all pray for him. He needs to be healed and only Jesus can mend broken hearts. ❤️
4817. That's What "i" Said: Yup; one day at a time... Sucks, but there's no other way. :( KEEP THE FAITH, it WILL get better! I am 53 and I've learned this lesson, please hang in there, you will be fine, and then even better than that. Best to you!!!
4818. Jennica Graves: Josh we love you do whatever makes you the old loving josh we love you either way ❤️❤️❤️
4819. Amy Rohr: I hope you surround yourself with positivity! positive friends, positive thoughts and positive family!! That helps me! Don't dwell on the past, that can't change. Focus on your future and make it a badass future 👍😆
4820. Bobby Frank: Josh- You're really brave putting this out there. We all love and support you. Stay strong during this time. There's a light to every tunnel. Love ya! ❤️
4821. Bunny God: Thought this was a coming out video.
4822. harper Park: if you want you could try to do a marathon, it would give you something to focus on, help you keep up with a good diet , challenge yourself to something different, you could even do it for charity and vlog while you run the marathon.🏃🏃🍉🍏🍍
4823. Andrew D: Bro, if you ever need someone to talk to just message me! Don't worry you are an awesome person and I am here for you!
4824. Bekah Hooper: your so cool for even getting on youtube and just being real! This is life and its not fair and its freaking hard! All we can do is take the best care of ourselves as we can! Your very strong and it will get better! Keep on pushing thru!
4825. Cheri Padulese: Sent you a tweet Sir! We have a tattoo Fundraiser coming up this Sunday while you're in Philly! Come on over!#NewTattooNewYou
4826. Amelia Nagle: Dear Josh, It's okay, and everything will be in the end. It may seem hard to admit and you may feel ashamed but it's okay. A lot of people have therapists that they talk to and it helps them out even if it's just for that hour session. I used to have severe depression and it was a nightmare I was living everyday. It can be so hard to fully understand what/why/how you're feeling. I am a person who is alive because of an amazing therapist and an amazing mom and dad support system. I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time, but you're not alone. A lot of your fans can relate to what you're going through, maybe not the relationship/divorce part but because of the mental pain. There is such a stigma around mental illness and there doesn't be. I know you said you're not clinically depressed, but being sad and down all the time isn't normal. But it will take time for you to feel happy and wake up with a positive attitude. But I know and I bet a lot of fans know that you are someone who can overcome this. With time, treatment, your parents, sister, it will get better it will just take some time. I think having this channel is going to bring people closer together because people who you have made their day brighter and people you have made an impact on are going to relate even more. And we are fortunate to live in a time where help is more available. Yes the stigma is so strong but at least we don't have to go through dangerous procedures to feel what is considered normal. With all the support and love I will always be a fan! Sincerely, One of the many dingleberries
4827. Ashley Vlach: Hang in there! I am going through a tough time too, you are not alone. You are off to a great start with being so open and honest with yourself. Always speak your truth and do what is best for you. There is light at the end of the tunnel!!! Much love <3
4828. Marivic Belaro: im new here i love your video as i watch it.... i find it so entertaining... i hope you find again happiness you are looking for... my brother died dec of 2016...died in multiple gunshot... until now am not used to feel that hes gone.. am using every possible way to forget for a what happened... so i used to watch most of the famous youtuber. before i go to sleep. i hope we can find happiness again..
4829. Cuzwhynot: JOSH I HERE BRO IM HERE BRO
4830. BeautyAddiction87: All I can say is I'm in the same boat and it sucks so bad. I am also trying to get better. Let's do it together ❤️
4831. Maggie Thornblad: This feels and sounds like when I try to talk myself up and explain my situation to myself! It hurts to see someones heart break and especially when you know the feeling of the pain behind it. Please take care of yourself first and let it take time <3
4832. NikkiLove: Have you tried antidepressants? the only thing that helped me was methadone as crazy as it sounds. It worked ,although it isnt prescribed for depression. I know how you feel though. You love her, but she isnt the one. You are an amazing guy and you will make someone very happy. Put yourself back out there. You may not be ready for a relationship but just casual dating. You never know what could happen. much love. Hugs.
4833. Anna: namelessgirl6 123 whoa
4834. bobby hilljr5: Niklas Jaeggi liberal......
4835. Abbey Shoo: We love you Josh, we are all here for you.<3
4836. Bethaneigh: you can't fix this yourself. even the best therapist can only fix things for a little bit. literally the only thing you need is a relationship with Jesus, and I know you've heard that so many times, so all I can do is continue to pray for you.
4837. Georgii Arakelov: I think he is gay...
4838. caitlianna: Yarlín Herrera yes praying for you Josh!
4839. Fernanda Ruiz: It's okay not to be okay you've been thru a lot and you've been strong for us but I think it's good your going to a therapist and talk with friends and family so they understand more cause they want to help too. It's okay to cry josh and you can take your time there's no rush and you know you have our support. I love you so much. 💕
4840. LandInbetween: #mentalhealthawareness
4841. Tango A: I'm so sorry Josh... just take it one day at a time. Try and keep yourself busy maybe. Your a nice person you'll find that special person. You'll be ok. Btw don't say sorry just be real. 😃😃😃😃😃
4842. Anna Lia: don't feel like you have to share everything. it's your choice you do whatever you feel it's right for you.
4843. shaunaleighhill: i am so happy you got a therapist. Lol I love mine!!!
4844. Kyla Sanchez: Josh 💜
4845. Christi Peabody: Josh the entire time I watched your video I felt a tugging in my spirit to remind you something you already know- that Jesus loves you so freaking much. He isn't impatient with you. He isn't disappointed. He isn't looking down at you. He loves you in a way we can never imagine. I KNOW you know Him. I am 31 and can identify with so much of your life. As I felt this constant tugging while watching this video, my jaw dropped as I scrolled through the comments and saw a theme of people telling you God loves you and he will - HE WILL - mend your brokenness. I mean really? YOUTUBE? A place of horrendous comments and haters most of the time, but yet under this video you find little lights popping out of the darkness to try and speak to your heart. We care for you so deeply- someone we've never met. There's a reason for that. It's scary for us to come out of the woods and mention Jesus and God in this day in age and on a platform like this. But here we are... because we felt the tugging :) You got this and He's got you. He never left.
4846. Katie Marie: A strong heart is a heart that was hurt.
4847. Marjolein Vlogs: Whatever you choose is okay, and even if you are clinically depressed it's okay. Something that helps me is choose an object like a ring or your lockscreen picture that you can look at every once in a while to remind yourself "I'm trying my best and that's enough"
4848. breee uglyass: I separate myself too.
4849. Cas: yea I remember she mentioned therapy. Idk how often she goes tho
4850. Alex Chappell: your feelings are so obvious you lost an entire family who seem to have moved on like you were never there. I've been there and you have to take it 1 day at a time there will be good days and bad days but please take something positive from those dark days. Whether it be something small like Shadow making you laugh and eventually you will make it. Never ever be sorry for how you feel
4851. wilsomck000: did anyone else notice the dog pooping in the back at 2:40...but any way Josh once u hit rock bottom there is only one way to go... up!
4852. leah hoff: It's okay to feel that way! We all have those moments! You need to do what is best for you, we (your fans) are here for you! 💙 depression is a hard thing to get through, I suffer from it myself, your videos and many others help me through some tough days! Don't ever think you're not enough for anyone, or yourself!! You're a great person, you deserve happiness and feeling better again!! Keep making your videos, they will help!! 💙💙
4853. Paige Elizabeth: You got this, Josh. You got this.
4854. MsRose: Im so proud of you for reaching out and getting help because you deserve to be happy and you will be <3 Hang in there and stay positive :)
4855. Madeline Elise: First of all, I'm so so sorry you're hurting but you should know it is completely okay to not be okay. You had an expectation for what your life was going to be and now you have to go back to the drawing board. Please have hope! You deserve to have the life you've always dreamed of and it will happen for you. It might not happen in the way you expected but it will be what you needed. I'm so proud of you for reaching out and asking for help. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and allow yourself time to grieve. Instead of turning inward, reach out. Call a friend. Walk Shadow. Sing! You got this.
4856. feli on clouds: you're a sweet person, i hope you find your happiness again :)
4857. sandy sanchez: I truly hope you heal through time and that things go in place for you💕 stay strong we are all cheering for you !!!!
4858. Gia nettie: You are so brave, thank you for sharing this side of your life Josh. I have been SO worried about you. Thank you for seeking help! That is the greatest thing you could have done for yourself! No more saying sorry! You have gone through so much! We are here for you, forever and always. Stay strong!
4859. Guilty As Cyn: Josh, I worked in Mental Health 25 years & always knew what to tell people... then, 4 years ago pain issues & then Lung disease did me in, I couldn't work anymore and was put on permanent Disability. I went from helping people daily to not being able to help myself & could barely afford to live. Watching your videos for the last 4 years kept me from feeling less alone cuz I'm not around people on a daily basis. I'm sorry you're in it now- it's GREAT you're in therapy now!!! It's a great idea you're making a video daily now!! I decided I was gonna start a channel for the same reason over a year ago & I bought filming equipment, tripods, etc but sadly have been too depressed to make anything funny enough for people to watch... I'll get there; until then I'll keep watching you... Love you Josh, I'll keep praying for you. If you ever wanna get away & hang out with a lesbian come to Dayton, OH!!! Smooch, Cyn
4860. Brinly Ang: hope youre alright. ive been where you are more times than i would like to admit. things will get better. keep your head up on days you can. other days, its ok to not be okay. ill keep you in my thoughts.
4861. KimH007: I wish I had the perfect words to make you feel better. I don't think anyone does. Just stay strong and you will come out of this stronger then ever!! Someday you will look back at this video and you will be able to tell yourself "I did it!! I'm here and I'm happy!!"...These feelings may seem big and overwhelming right now but someday I promise you it will be so small. Do what you need to do. Do what makes YOU happy. We will love you and support you no matter what content you put out. So it may take sometime to find what makes you happy and to get it all in order but we are here for you. We have your back. Most importantly, WE LOVE YOU! don't ever forget how much you are loved, Joshua!! ❤️❤️❤️
4862. Pretty Panda🐼: 16th
4863. Christina T: I absolutely love every time you are completely honest about your feelings, no matter what they are. You are your authentic self, Josh, and that's so much better than being fake. I wish you didn't have to hurt the way you are right now but I believe you are going to get through this and become an even stronger person as a result. I want you to know that Jesus loves you Josh!
4864. Barry Evans: Joshua, I am very sad for you. I am also an EVANS, I don't know if we are related in someway or not. I would like to help you, can I help? Wish I could be with you. I am in Michigan. You do what you need to do what might help you change. Kentucky is where my dad was born. My mother was born in Arkansas. Both have passed 2001 and 2010. I'll be here just for you. I lost my wife in 2011 and I know how lonely it can be If its alright with you, I would like to communicate with facebook where it's more private, what do you say! ?
4865. Julep Jules: please don't feel forced to post something everyday, think about yourself first💕
4866. Mallory Carver: Josh I've watched you for almost 3 years now and you deserve so much happiness no matter if its through youtube or through your family and friends all of us are here for you! dinlgerberrys for life we all love you!
4867. Sage Powell: We love you buddy.
4868. Belle Higginbotham: Happiness is found in Jesus
4869. Kim P: Josh it all starts with you. Get back on doing the things that make you feel good about yourself. Learn to love yourself and once you find that respect in you I promise things will get better. Don't be so hard on yourself. Don't blame yourself! Things happen for a reason and it's for you to prove how truly strong you are.
4870. Aimee Newport: we're all here for Josh, you've helped us get through rough times and now we will all help you get through it too! we love you! <3
4871. apostolicinthishour: You have a beautiful spirit. I've never watched your videos before but I hope to see some new ones soon..
4872. Mehul Jain: Hay Simp that is the most illogical argument i ever heard about someone being sad. Its like saying you don't deserve to be happy because someone else has it better. You don't know what thing can affect what person in what way. Everyone is different and instead of spreading negative just avoid watching the video if it bothers you so much.
4873. Joan Milano: The hurt and pain is something that you can't go around it...you have to go through it. Every day gets a little better. Breathe. Going on a trip is good. Surround yourself with friends. Then every day, do something. One thing. Go shopping, buy yourself something new...Go out to eat to a new restaurant...go to a movie - a FUNNY one (you'll be away from your thoughts for awhile.) Watch funny movies on Netflix with popcorn. Call an old friend you haven't talked to in awhile. Get out and do stuff with friends. It won't get rid of the hurt, but your mind will be off of it for awhile, and doing something every day will help that inner hurt in the gut slowly disappear. And if you feel like laying in bed all day, do it. Trust me. Breathe, eat well, sleep. Time. You WILL get through it. Know that the rest of your life - the good part - is ahead of you. You'll be there as soon as you get through this, so keep working at it.
4874. Melina Horns: Josh, everyone is dealing differently with problems. Some burry themselves in work, some distract themselves in every way and some reflect themselves and actually work on it. It's not a weakness to actually say that you're not ok and that you need help. That's very strong!! And although some people might seem happy all the time, you never know what's going on deep down inside them.
4875. M P: Josh, I'm not alright either. And it's okay to be honest. HONESTY with those you love and trust is vulnerability..and thatc is truly courageous. Your community hears you. We are here for you in your honesty, even if you are not 100% on your game. Because TRUE family is there regardless. I hope you believe you are heard, just as much as I hope someone hears me. Or something. In this moment, it feels like nothing but endless, hopeless tears of such heartbreak. Like my very heart is ripped out..but we MUST be strong. We are here, Josh. We are here.
4876. Dylan Knipe: He's talking about the divorce, right?
4877. Sheila Malakouti: +CarolineSwift No I don't know the details but it was made pretty clear between both sides.
4878. Morgen Nimmo: I love you Josh! It's okay to not be okay all the time, and I know that this is a hard time for you. Things take time, and everyone has their crap to deal with! You're a role model for me, and I'm sure lots of other, to just keep going, even though things are at rock bottom! Keep your head up! Praying for you dude ❤️ I love that you're real with us, it shows that you are a real person like the rest of us. Not like some other people on the internet! Stay strong ❤️
4879. Bri Wineteer: 💜
4880. Sheebee R: Josh all I care about is you being ok.
4881. marie quiroz: just started watching im wont go into my story but your NOT ALONE it gets better with time talking helps ALOT stay strong and your right no need to be sorry no matter how little or big you think your feelings are they are Valid stay stong much love
4882. liv -.-: I'm 16 and struggle with clinical depression, ptsd, anxiety, panic attacks, self harm, and bulimia. I'm still in high school so it sucks when people don't understand why you are hurting and mock you because of it. people will kick you when you're down but that just shows how weak they are. i am not looking for sympathy or anything. i am not ashamed or embarrassed by the fact that I take medication and go to therapy for help. I am not okay and that's okay because I have a support system that even when I can't see it, I deep down still know they are waiting on the other side of my dark place. call me what you want, judge me, I couldn't care less. my point is that life has its highs and lows and the longer you try to go at it alone, the worse off you are. you only have one life so why not make it an enjoyable one?
4883. poppys daddi: Your videos are garbage mama
4884. Carl Owens: KILLL YOUSELF!!!
4885. Monica M. S.: Joshua please go to jw.org You are so humble and kind, you deserve answers to what you are going through and you can find it in God's word. You just have to dig for it as if it were hidden treasure. It doesn't cost you a single penny. Just some time and patience on your part to read and meditate. Please don't ignore this. Hang in there Joshua... this too will pass.
4886. clover 22: Josh we are all here for you we love you stay strong❤️💓
4887. richard mortimer: Joshua there's a great book by Dan Harris " 10% Happier " that you should check out. It sounds like you just need a little hope & inspiration.
4888. Macy W.: We love you, Josh.. ♡
4889. Cassy DeBacco: nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed of or sorry for❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
4890. lbdori: after all you have been through, it's about friggin time.. I have been wait for this video .. now your healing will begin.. you have ripped off the bandage and you will bleed but that has to be done.. just remember, " everyone dies, but not everyone lives" ..you've got this,and you have us,, it will be ok !!!
4891. Valerie S: Depression is incredibly common, so even when you feel lonely, remember you're not alone. Getting help is the strongest thing you can do for yourself.
4892. Daz Brown: There is nothing wrong with you. 1,440,450 Dingle Berries, and many more to come, you did that my friend, you Joshua D. Evans, you have became our friend, mentor, our light in the dark, on a bad day, that's what and who you are to us, not Josh the YouTuber but Josh our friend, and as our friend, we will do and be everything that you have been, and done for us, someone to just be there for every silly, sad, happy moments, although it isn't face to face just know that you have 1,440,450 friends behind that camera, I know you won't probably see this, in the sea of comments, but it's worth it either way, and remember there is nothing wrong with you. #BeNiceToPeople
4893. superflyriri: Josh, I understand. I haven't had a situation as deep as yours, but I've been feeling like you have. If there's anything we can do for you, tell us. I know we can't really help you, but we're here for you. We may not be able to catch your fall, but maybe we can patch up the cuts. We're here for you. Don't feel embarrassed. We love you. And there is nothing wrong with you. As long as you keep being nice to people. We love you! <3
4894. mariadla7: Josh, You're not a downer at all.  Your are a brave soul.  You're honest and human.  Lots of us are going through a depression.  You are not alone.  I'm a teacher and 53 years old. Life is filled with ups and downs and lots of us want to appear like we're alright even though we feel like crap.  I really related to you when you said "Why do the others appear like they're doing fine. what's wrong with me?" That's a very common feeling that never really goes away completely. Know that You are making an impact on others.  You inspired me to write my own sign off slogan before my students leave my classroom.  It goes: Be kind, work hard and be you. Know that you are loved.  Healing takes time and as for the others, they are probably just not expressing how they really feel. Be in your journey, feel it, live it.  I'm proud of you for your honesty.  Your family and friends will understand.  They are a great resource for you and so is your sweet little dog. Angeles Lara
4895. Ally Criddle: love you ❤️
4896. Andi Loveall: It's easy to become jaded and bitter in this world. I understand how you feel. I like videos like this. I struggled with similar things (although I don't have a huge audience to please like you) because it felt like every time I admitted I was struggling, I would lose followers and subscribers. But I really enjoy this type of honest video, myself. I hope you feel better.
4897. Perla Herrera: it's okay not to be okay we're only human feelings make us, us you have people there for you when you're ready
4898. Missy Russ: I thinking we all face different problems and face depression and sometimes even need help understanding what is going on in our lives. What I am trying to say is it will be ok. These too shall pass my friend. And you need to let family and friends around it really does help.
4899. Faith J: <3
4900. Shannon Ritts: Love you josh!
4901. LoeyLane: ❤️
4902. sarah v: True.
4903. Jessica Svensson: I hope therapy works for you! Dogs are also like therapy so it's good that you have one of those. :') He seems wonderful! Good luck ♡
4904. Ruth Bevis: Lilly Grace Deap Deap
4905. kateypie35: There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Frankly, I'm surprised you waited this long to seek therapy. The train of your life went completely off track in a derailment you did not want. It can take a few years to feel "normal" after a life altering event. People that question why you aren't "over it" just don't get it. Heartbreak can be very very traumatizing. You are doing well, just keep breathing, day by day. It's going to get better, it IS.
4906. Georgia Perry: The other side is hurting the same, you can see it in their eyes, they struggle, so they drown themselves in non stop work. You, Josh, are hurting but you are embracing it, you are surrounding yourself with people you love now, they are going to help you stay afloat. The difference between you and the otherside is that you are striving to get your mind at ease, you are strong Joshua
4907. JoshSkellington: Oh he's gained 5-10lbs since September? I gained 5lbs LAST WEEK. edit: holy fucking fuck 1k likes?? thank you!! btw, no disrespect to josh or anyone else. love u!!
4908. Allison Collins: I want you to know that we love you. I love you. I want you to know that I'm here for you. Even though you might not read this. I'm glad that I'm at least here holding out a hand. For anyone in need. ❤️💜💙
4909. Colleen Sriprachandr: real, no one is 100% happy 100% of the time. I think it's important to show people that struggles are a part of life and some times it seems like everyday is a fight but everyday you don't give up is a win. I feel for you, life doesn't seem fair sometimes and we can get stuck playing things over and over in our heads but you have to remember that you are an amazing manifestation of life! Your right we only have this one life, so what amazing life will this amazing person create today? Your life force is so much stronger then any situation. Breath deep, If your up for it try saying the words Nam - Myoho - Rengay - Kyo, it's a Buddhist chant that helps to clearly see your life with fresh, hope filled eyes. If you want more info on Buddhist theory here's the website www.sgi-usa.org. I know it feels awful to not have your life going the way it was expected but you can absolutely turn that painful poison in your life into medicine. win today, win tomorrow. From today on.
4910. Alex Manning R.N. BSN: hey josh!! I love you and truly look up to you <3 I apologize for how long this is but i hope you read it! I'm a nurse from Philly (SO EXCITING, YOU'RE COMING HERE :P ) and suffer from some intense depression and anxiety (who doesn't these days honestly), so I definitely understand where you're coming from. I hope this doesn't sound too preachy because I'm 100000% sure you've thought of all this and tried it but I just want to say it anyway to try and help ha. I think it's incredible that you're going to a therapist, even if you don't click with that one keep going and try someone else! getting a therapist you like is a tough but necessary part of the process!! Also, don't be upset or feel like a failure if they bring up medication as one possible part of treatment. often times depression is a chemical imbalance that will not get better unless you take medication to balance those chemicals back!! (#endthestigma against depression meds ammiright?? [also if you do start meds don't be upset if it doesn't feel like they work right away because they take a month or a month and a half before you start to notice a difference]). Additionally, just play around with different non-pharmacological treatments such as aromatherapy, meditation, progressive relaxation, visualization, etc and just see what works for you! I'm sure your therapist will go through all that and help you find what works for you. It's okay to fail. It's okay to feel broken. Recovery is a long process. But please remember that you are loved and YOU ARE ENOUGH. Take the small victories. Hold on to the smallest bit of hope and never let go. *end of long ridiculous rant :P* <3
4911. Yarina Monahan: Let me just tell you... unfortunately we grow in pain ( that seems to be the only way ) is part of life is how we learned ! It will pass i promise you ; we all go thru it. In life when we hurt more than others is cause you truly loved and don't you ever be ashamed of that . Keep it up you will be over and u will be grateful of your life experiences .
4912. Christina Stroup: Sending you giant hugs, love and positivity! Thank u for sharing this part of u with us. As a person who lives with depression and works to stay positive. It's nice to know I'm not alone. Keeping u in my thoughts and prayers. Much love!
4913. Theda Schroeder: 1 Day at a Time... it's going to be okay, even if it seems impossible right now. You got this, and You got us. Admitting you're not fine to yourself is the first step in the right direction. ♥
4914. Shaz Brown: Massive thumbs up for u👍👍👍 This must have bn hard to do?
4915. bailey figaro: I really think she is still hurting. Just because she doesn't put it on the internet doesn't mean it doesn't happens. I also think that they did love each and they still do. Maybe it was more of a friendship love and that's why it didn't work out. Maybe they just weren't very compatible. I think it's really sad that you have to blame something like that on another person
4916. Divya Kamaraju: You're an amazing person Joshua! You should be proud of who you are. :) Its okay to be upset. But we are all with you and hope that you'll be the cheerful happy self that you are :)
4917. autumn lyn: Hi Josh! Youtube has been a huge part of my life for years, even though I watch videos almost everyday I never comment. But I just felt in my heart that I needed to tell you that you have been so strong through this. I know it dosent feel like it now and no, your not the strongest you've been or can be, but you are an insparation to so many because you ARE proof to others going through rough times that it is OKAY to feel broken. That it is OKAY to be human. It is OKAY to grieve and handle situations different than everybody else. I just wanted to say thank you for being a caring, compassionate, kind, humble human being.
4918. Nobleimpulse: Thanks for making this video. This is the first video I've connected to in years. I feel like I could've made this exact video myself. In fact I have. Many times. Then I take it down. The whole cycle. I so Get it! This wasn't a downer at all this was inspiring!!! Ps- seeking professional help changed my life. I believe everyone has issues, the smart ones get help to deal with it!
4919. kelsey britton: Healing takes a lot of courage, and its always inspiring to see people honor their need for healing above all else. So important
4920. Audrey Graham: it is hard but your strong!! Depression is something not to be asked of, I've been struggling with it for years. :) Love your vlogs and know I know how hard it is and I'm consumed by it right now with ya:(
4921. Temparnillo69: Good luck Josh
4922. swaits622: Why do I feel like this is like watching a car crash in slow motion? Pity views are so sad.
4923. old account: everything will be okay josh....i promise...❤
4924. Ash Kieswetter: It breaks my heart knowing you're not okay, but it makes me so incredibly happy that you're seeking help and starting to make the steps forward. I know you have a younger based audience so not many of them know what you're going through personally. But some of us do, and remember that. Be the best you that you can be right now, and it's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry. But it's also okay to smile and laugh. Please take care Josh.❤️
4925. Renata: stay strong Josh, we love you ❤💙💚💛💜
4926. Skia Kardia: We're all here for you Josh.
4927. Bradcat18: Stay strong bud, we'll all be here waiting for you :)
4928. crystar515: It takes real bravery to admit you need help and actually seek it out. Sending you love and praying God blesses you with strength and peace🙏🏻💜
4929. Ellie Strums: It's okay to feel. When you feel things you can sort your shit out. Feel everything you need to and hopefully in time it'll get better.
4930. itzaaliyah: can someone tell me who is her\
4931. Lauren Hall: Elizabeth Palala yep
4932. Miranda Johnson: Josh, you are so much more relatable now than I think you have been before. I'm so glad you're opening up. You're seriously amazing and thank you for speaking up for people with mental health and for being a good example. You're such a fighter.
4933. Positivity First: josh, I'm going through kinda the same situation. but trust me , WE will get better. positive vibes all the way. ❤
4934. Katie Aldridge: Good for you for getting help. Only you know what's right for you. Remember that what you see on a screen isn't the whole story. Looks like you are on the path to finding your own happiness. Good for you! ♥️
4935. Jesslikesfrogs: Feelings are always important to let out, everyone hurts. Even if you need some time away we'll always be here to love and support you no matter what.
4936. Cat Vincer: You are human babe, stop apologizing for being you. The more life experience, the more jaded we become sometimes but you have a great heart. Things on the other side may be surface stuff try not to focus on it. I'm proud of you and your choice to talk w someone. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Cat
4937. Chenise R: i mean this from the bottom of my heart josh ! if you need anything, absolutely anything I'm a message/text/call away . 💝
4938. Sannah de Brouwer: 'A happy person sees the past for what it was able to teach him about how to live more in the 'now' and the future as more present moments to be experienced when they eventually arrive.' This is from the book Stop Thinking, Start Living by Richard Carlson which I'm reading at the moment and I think you would like it too! I'm not depressed or anything, just want to be happier and not sink into my negative thoughts sometimes. You're such a strong person Josh! 😊
4939. Adela The werido: Isaac Bowen no she didn’t is there proof she cheated you thot ass hoe so get your facts straight
4940. katie schnitzel: josh, i will always always always be there for you!!! i'm only a teenager, but my parents got divorced last august and it's been rough. i've been to lots of therapy and it's very very helpful!! i'm so happy you're finally doing it!! i hope you'll start feeling better soon and i love you so very much💜 don't feel guilty for being sad!!!!! it's a perfectly normal response !
4941. Kaitlyn Inzeo: You've got this, Josh.
4942. Lolipop Freak: Hang in there josh :)
4943. Noof Almulla: Josh as a 12 year old girl living what you lived and through the years trying to get all the sadness away from me and always not feeling confident to tell to my mom or my older sisters, I think that I found what I should've did from before. Literally after watching this video I cried a lot and I am writing this and crying. Thank you Josh for helping me, thank you for helping me change my life and be more happier, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU DID TO ME❤️❤️.
4944. yours anonymously: Joshua stay strong ❤ you deserve the best and you'll get over this phase ❤ loads of love to you
4945. lexj99: I personally thought you came back to early Joshua. You went through something that majorly shook you to your core, accept all of the feelings and come back when you really feel like it's right. I know Youtube is essentially a job but it's one that revolves around you being you. so what happens when you're not ..well.. you? You'll come out of this stronger. God bless.
4946. londoniguess: I love you josh. thanks for everything 💓
4947. Kayla Spearman: You are so brave for doing this and we are all so proud of you for taking control and becoming the better you! 💜💜
4948. Jesenia Rangel: Don't worry you're not alone my dad had to divorce my mom but after he left he went to prison and so my step dad is what drives me insane everyday I try not to kill myself from my depression
4949. Ivy Bautista: You're brave for being real & honest. I have always admired that about you. Healing takes time. Therapy is a great tool, I know you are going to learn so much about yourself through that journey. Take your time :) we all love you here & will stay through the rocky parts :) You're always in my prayers, & I hope you find some peace in God as well ❤️ you're doing great, keep it up :) Were cheering for you 💕
4950. Dawn Moore: I know this isn't easy, but, I believe that you will emerge from this stronger and whole. Thinking of you and praying for peace as you heal.
4951. Wonderish: There's nothing wrong with you. Every person experiences loss and healing in a different way. You're on your journey. Keep fighting. Remember it ebbs and flows. I am so proud of you and grateful to you for expressing all of this on the internet. These feelings are felt my so many people all the time and to have someone like you talk about your feelings and normalize them is a really amazing gift. Take care of yourself.
4952. jacqualine MC: FUCK whoever hurt you this bad. All best wishes your way <3 <3 <3
4953. Ketly Duever: Thank you for your raw honesty. Hang in there your story will help others. I've been in a similar dark place and therapy helped a lot but what helps me more now is sharing my struggles and triumphs with others. And don't forget who your biggest supporter is.. the only one who will never let us down.
4954. gaby sconzo: It's going to be ok we are here for you if you need anything we are here . Btw you have very nice eyes I've never noticed them before
4955. drew erickson: you remind me of John 14:27!! there's peace that only God can bring, maybe check it out! maybe try Los Angeles international church of christ :)
4956. Creative Cookie: I've noticed that you haven't been 100% lately.. I just wish I could give you a big hug and help you. You don't deserve to feel like this, but we can fight this emotional battle together. We love you Josh and thanks for expressing your feelings and being honest ❤️
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